Welcome to today's inspiration. Today, you've already witnessed a few, you know us by now. I'm prophetess Tammy Williams and this is my husband, Apostle Chris. And we want to share with you in this episode of our story.
Is that okay, Apostle? Yes. We have been married. It'll be 27 years this March.
Is it 27 years? 27 years. And I'm going to blow y'all's mind. This is my third husband and I'm his first wife.
And there's those of you right now that are saying, what? Your ministers, your pastors, your prophets, apostles. And you've been married? Yes.
That's my third husband. I want to share a little bit about my story, my testimony to encourage one of you out there. I was not raised in church. I was not raised in scripture.
So there's somebody there sitting right now on your living room couch, maybe standing in your kitchen or in a recliner. And now I've got your attention because I didn't know who God was. And I was raised in a very strict moral family. Yes, they prayed.
They knew that there was a God, but I never heard it. And I got married the first time, got a divorce. I went to college and I really messed up my life when I got to college because I had no identity. I didn't know who I was.
I was somebody else's daughter. I was somebody else's wife. I was somebody else's. I never knew I was a child of God.
I never knew I had purpose. I didn't know I had a plan. I mean, I had parents that said, you know, you're going to do great things, you know, speak positive and all of that. But when I went to college, because I lacked identity and I was always a big girl, I was a woman.
And that robbed me also because of my lack of self-worths, that when I looked in a mirror, I couldn't see what you all see today and anointed appointed woman of God. So I got involved in fornication. Yes, let's go there. I was very promiscuous.
I was very, and I don't want to sugarcoat this because if anybody knows me, they've heard the real and the raw and we're real and raw here at Eagle Wing Space Ministry, aren't we? I slept with every man that would have me and it turned into addiction and pornography. And I also, yes, and I'm going to go there. I had an abortion when I was 18 years old because I didn't know who I was.
I didn't know who I was. I didn't know who, what that meant and I had nobody to go to for help. At least I didn't think I had anyone to go to for help. And unfortunately, and I can say this now, the body of Christ dropped the ball and offered me no help to tell me truth of what that meant.
So then add to my resume murderer. And I was broken, depression, suicidal, oppression. Every spirit that could leap onto me, I opened that door up to the enemy to chew me up and spit me out. And I was a little bit too master's.
Well, I was serving the enemy by this point. He had accomplished what he wanted. Here I had addiction. Here I had done the most horrible thing that our nation is facing right now to overturn.
And let me tell you, now that I know who I am in Christ Jesus, I am believing that Roe versus Wade is overturned. And yes, I said it. I'm a very big advocate for that. But I know that there's someone on here right now that's like, is there a silver lining to this story?
Yes. You see, I got married again and I had a son, my oldest. And I was like exasperated that I got pregnant because my first husband left me because we were told we couldn't have children. And I thought that was a punishment.
So those that tried to talk to me about God, I'm like, oh, God will never forgive me for what I have done. And that's why I can't have children. So I looked at that as a judgment and a punishment, having no idea the goodness and the love of the father. My second husband and I got married in a bar by the justice of the peace.
I woke up next to him that morning. I didn't hardly know the man. He was 23 years older than me. And I got pregnant the night of that marriage.
We didn't stay together. We only lived together about two months long enough for me to find out I was pregnant. He had already raised his kids. He didn't want anymore.
So he backed out and I had my son on my own fast forward to I had my son and three months later, the man sitting next to me. A man that was raised in church, born and raised, knew the scripture was in a backslidden state and I'll let him share that in a minute. But a man that saw something in me that I couldn't see yet because I was broken. A man that was good looking, he came on the job site and I remember my boss.
I was an interior designer for a furniture company at the time and it just got back off of the sleeve and he was installing a phone system and my boss said that is a man of God. He was in a backslidden state but my boss saw that and he said he'd be a good father to our son who is now our son at that time my son and he paid for our first date. Fast forward. There's a whole lot of details in between but for the lack of sick time.
Fast forward to we get married. We met in November and was married that following March. It was a very short courtship but unfortunately I still lacked identity. I still lacked who I was.
I began after dating and getting married that promiscuity. I was not delivered a pornography. I was not delivered a fornication. I brought this backpack of stuff into this brand new marriage of a man who had never been married and no kids.
To seeing him pray as I would go out. I never lied to him. I would meet somebody online through pornography sites. I would meet him online, go meet them.
I would do the ugly thing and I would come home and say are you ready to leave me? And he would just go pray. And he would pray every time. Till one day a pastor asked him why are you staying with her?
He never understood why you married her and he adopted our oldest son. He said because the day I married her the Lord showed me who she would become in him. I'm praying for that. As you can see a praying man came into an alignment with what God said about me.
I did not know. I had no earthly idea but I heard him praying. He began to put post-it notes on the mirror of who I was and God. Let me tell you.
It made me so mad I pulled those post-it notes down and he put them right back up till I started believing him. Four years. Four years. My husband, my beloved, prayed for me.
The one day I was standing in the shower and I said okay God if you're a real God you show me. You show me right here because this man has been praying for me for four years. He watched me go out. He watched me come home.
He watched me come home. I was not a good mother to our little ones. I had no identity. And God came in that shower and embraced me and watched me.
Saints of God I had an encounter with God. I remember at one moment I looked at my husband and stepped in the shower with me and it was just me. But it wasn't just me. When Bible says he is not leaving me or he'll never leave you nor forsake you.
He was waiting on me to call upon him. He was waiting on me to call upon him and I said Lord God when I knew what was happening I said Jesus please come into my art and fix this wretch. Saints of God I was the epitome of a Jezebel and I don't say that in a bragging way. I was a woman who was lost but man I could manipulate anybody.
I could get anybody to do anything I wanted them to do. I don't say that in a bragging way. I say that in a repentant way because when I came before the Lord that day in that shower and he saved me and he washed me and he cleansed me. I literally felt him take that cloth and washed me.
Why does snow and purify me? When we say created me a clean art oh let me tell you he came in on the inside and he washed the outside until a week later I was baptized in that same place and the Holy Ghost with the evidence of speaking in tongues and yes I am a Holy Ghost spirit filled woman of God tongue talking woman of God because when I met the Holy Spirit that Holy Spirit started teaching me. I remember going to my husband and saying honey I heard this scripture is it in a word? You see I didn't know what the Bible said about me but I knew what God was saying about me then and I'm going to let my beloved and my husband tell you from that part of the story and what he experienced through our part.
First off I grew up in the church. My parents took me to church but you know that was my first problem. She was like the Gentiles where she didn't know anything about the church back in the Old Testament the New Testament God only spoke only was resided with Israel anybody that was outside of Israel didn't have access to God. So it was almost like I was on the end and she was on the out.
I grew up in church but I was like a lot of the Israelites if you want to go into the New Testament and refer to the Jewish people there was a lot of religious Jewish people that rejected God and I'm not trying to speak down on Israel or the Jewish nation or anything like that but scripture tells the scripture shows us that there was a lot in scripture that rejected God. I ain't saying that I rejected God but I had a religious spirit upon me and didn't even know it. I went to church every Sunday morning Sunday night and Wednesday night I done all the church activities I went down to pray I went to the altar and there were times that I yes felt the Holy Spirit and I cried and boo-hooed but noble and really and not throwing rocks at my mom and dad they don't have to say anything. They were like any other parents they took me to church but I never really comprehend the kind of relationship and what that means and it was years later in fact I grew up I left the church like a lot of young people do church was he given me what I was hungry for but the enemy knew and he enticed and the world was beautiful and glamorous out there so when I got a vage I went the way of the world and I'm again to live in a backslidden state and then I made a prophetess Tammy of course she wasn't prophetess Tammy at the time and I meet her and we ended up getting married now she shared with you her testimony of what she done well let me just be honest with you I was no saint for several years in that I you know I done what I done I lived a life of a center at the same time before and during our marriage I was no saint did I go out and cheat on my wife yes I did I cheated and I done what I wanted to do did I drink yes did I drink and drive yes but God had his hand upon me because he knew what I was called to do not what I was doing at the time but I did receive something enough of God a foundation of God earned my early years that there came a point in our life till I realized that the Holy Spirit come in and says son come on have I have you not learned something then your parents take you to church and you learn and so there come a point in my life through our sinful living and our struggles and trials I realized wait a minute this is not what I should be doing or what we should be doing and I made a conscious decision I have to go back to my first love yes and see I may not have remembered that scripture per se but I knew what God had placed in me I knew that I used to go to church and now I'm not going to church anymore and this is not right what we're doing is not right it goes against every teaching that I that I lived and so I made a decision I'm going to start going back to church and reconcile myself back to God I've got to do something and then when I did and begin to God begin to pour into me I began to learn relationship and understand that as best I could I began to share with her and pull on her and my prayers led her to her encounter with the encounter in the shower now granted once she had her encounter she learned real quick what relationship was I still was trying to learn and I fell into a what would you call that honey selfish I came into a place of not really doubt it is it's that place I become jealous I seen what she had with the Holy Spirit her relationship and I'm like how come I lived went to church all my life done this yes I backslip but now I'm back and I don't have that relationship and jealousy set in and there was for a long time in our marriage that I struggled with jealousy I was jealous of her walk with God excuse me I was jealous with her ability to to pray the way she prayed to prophesy the way she prophesied and see we went to the same church she had the same teaching that I did for once we had went starting going back to church and and and she got into church and in relationship she had become a born again Christian but she learned real quick about relationship and I still struggled that I still was at that place that I have mentioned in another episode about my identity I didn't I still did not know my identity I struggled with my identity and and and that was something that she didn't struggle with she at that moment she knew I am a daughter of Jesus Christ I'm a daughter of God and she knew that she was sold out so I went through a time in my life that I struggled with my identity and watching her I become jealous and it was years later till I finally come into my realization about who I am in Christ and my identity and really to be honest with you it's been how long we've been up here now 11 years about 11 years now up in Tennessee and the enemy still consistently comes at me about my identity about my apostolic my apostleship he I had a man of God prophet Upton which maybe y'all will get to meet him somewhere in the future on one of these shows but God prophesied do that man a word and he called out the apostolic now that would be like the first man of God that spoke into my life placed a mantle on me and said that there's a call on my life and another man of God called out the apostolic and now this man calls out the apostolic and it hasn't to be honest it's been what in the past year maybe six months to a year that I've finally seen to myself okay okay God is calling to me to be an apostle and even man tries to diminish that even man says you're not an apostle until you do this this and this and and and calls the criteria and I had to go to scripture and I begin to read scripture and understand scripture and so I know that I am called to walk into apostolic gifts and so I know that and since I have been grabbed a hold of that and and embrace that things have changed the enemy still comes at me the enemy still tries to attack my identity but I no longer worry about that because hey first off I'm a child of God second off I'm safe sanctified and filled with the Holy Ghost and third off is I am called to be not just an apostle but a son I am a son and that makes it even bigger see it's one thing to be one person but it's another thing to be a son and when you're a son that means you have a father and when you have a father that means you belong to him and so I am a son of God so I thank God and I know my testimony there's so much more I could say some of the dirty stuff that you know to be honest with you that that is something that we could talk about at another time but I've been there I've been you know in the valley and I've been on the mountaintop and right now I'm on the mountaintop my wife has got something to say I just feel it dropped in my spirit right now that there's a married couple right now on the brink yes of divorcing the one thing that we promised us to each other the one thing that my husband said to me before we said our wedding vows was this in my household divorce will never be a word then when we became sold out to Christ and we became saved and yes we were at different levels we grew at different levels I believe to this day we're still growing at different levels but the one thing that we teach married couples and we do this all the time is a couple that prays together stays together they mean when we give them homework to do things or whatever and they come and say oh this happened and this happened and I'm so mad I'll say the first question are you praying together she does yes I do because I'm very that's where I found my relationship Saints of God it's not about religion it's not about clicking at time clock oh I was at church and that's what he had a problem with you see he prayed for me for four years but then the rules reversed and I had to pray calling him in to his identity calling him in to the kingdom of God into relationship because he knew religion he knew the programs he knew all of that but he didn't know what it was to have a relationship that was a personal relationship you know the orphan spirit and we're gonna be teaching on spirits here soon the different spirits but the orphan spirit is running rampant and that orphan spirit is because you don't know who you are in Christ Jesus and he actually had an orphan spirit that derived from family that had been divorced his parents had been divorced we'll see I do divorces and that leaves you in a place of who do I belong to that's a big question who do you belong to but when you come to Jesus Christ and to knowing him your mess doesn't matter he will break off that spirit and deliver you out of being an orphan into sonship and that's where I found that he had to pursue and he had to get past that spirit of jealousy through my prayers had to be broken off so that he could pursue Jesus Christ so he could be delivered of an orphan spirit because that spirit of divorce had haunted him to a time that I've heard him talk about and I know that he'll talk about this at some point of the fact I remember him telling me a story that he would stand in high school and he would look down looking for his mother and his mother never came that's an orphan spirit that was a demonic spirit of keeping him from knowing who he was and I can't wait to teach you on those different things but because we began a relationship when we got saved praying together calling out each other's identities to this day to this day almost 27 years of praying together and saying Lord what do you want for us this day how do you want us to walk out this day what is attacking us what is going what is trying to stop us hey we've been attacked just when that when all of this came about to produce these episodes for you for you this is it for us this is for you to set you free but from a real and raw and transparent transparent way so we believe today we pray for those out there that are married those that what I went through before I found my beloved there's hope your beloved is there God doesn't want you to be alone but he wants to clean you up first I wish he had cleaned me up first that we wouldn't have had them gone through what we went through but then we wouldn't be a testimony for you but please know that we don't have everything you know completely in order we still go through struggles we still go through issues we still have arguments and and sometimes I even got a scar right here of an argument that we had that I ended up hurting myself and at some point when you are arguing one of you has to stand up and say holy goes to start calling the Holy Ghost in listen our time is running out so before we leave I want to bless y'all the Lord bless you and keep you may the Lord make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you may the Lord lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace peace peace Lord God I Lord God I pray Lord God that the words and we've been spoken Lord God will go out into the airways and the byways and highways and Lord God that you will speak to someone out there I pray Lord Jesus that that that your spirit will envelop them take them in Lord God care for them embrace them Lord God I pray and Jesus name I pray amen God bless you will say yeah until next time I appreciate y'all watching our show this evening if there's anything anything whatsoever that you have heard that has spoken to your heart and and you feel the need to either rededicate your life or turn your life over to Jesus I encourage you to reach out to us we would be more than happy to speak with you either on the phone or via email or however you can reach out to us and it's easy we can say a prayer for you it's it's Jesus says to Nicodemus that you must be born again to enter into the Kingdom of Heaven so I encourage you to turn your life over if you need to rededicate that that is also to turn your life back to repentance is simply turning from where the direction that you were going to a new direction you're no longer a the old person that you are you but you become a new person through the gift of salvation so I encourage you to reach out to us at Eaglewingsfaith.org you can click on the tab contact us and you can put it through the website or you can email us straight ewfmchurch at gmail.com and we look forward to hearing from you God bless you and we will see you later.