Undoing of Self-path of becoming undone

My olfactory hallucination inflamed due to accidental empathic connection; but realize it was for my awareness. My identity destabilizing as I recognized a core of limiting belief within me. My "back dates" where I meet with others to sit back to back, exploring connections, I am going to sit with myself now. I am with stronger awareness my need to sit outside of myself to have others help heal me and to distract me from upcoming heavy shifting. Ego is afraid. What happens to sexual space where I love to play and use for my mind breaks to try to connect with my body if I take a break. Ego is afraid. Am I broken. Am I lacking. Am I enough. I include a prayer that came to me during a meditation.. and then a nod to my silly sexual self...because of my laugh and if this is the end of a chapter, I want to end on a high!  :) Thanks for being here.