Unpacking "The Box" (part 1)

I've been working for the last few years at pulling out "The Box" of experiences I wasn't ready to process; for various different reasons.I don't know if it was a healthy thing to do, or constructive, or responsible, or whatever in how I chose to compartmentalize and bury it deep. I do know that it had its benefits and also drawbacks, not only for myself but for the example it may have set for others.I'm not looking for constructive feedback or acknowledgment/permission on the manner I've chosen to handle things. I am just sharing in the event that it helps others understand the thought processes and circumstance for how and why I chose. I'm inviting others in. In to my healing process and emotional space. ...I broke this into two parts and make no apologies for omitting some sort of splicing in intros, exits, or transition. I did it because I don't want 70min podcasts. I chose the parting point where I think a shifting from explaining the circumstances to a growth moment for me is occurring.