Who is me?

When you take time off to be with yourself, but what self? I had to take time off my work, but I consider it as I took time out of my life. I had this grand plan of what I would do upon rest. I did none of it until I geared to go back to work, like writing chapters in my book or even recording podcasts or making any money!! I discovered that there is no "me time" because I am unfamiliar with myself. I and myself have not sat at the same table in probably months. I do not even know what I enjoy vs what I do not want anymore. I can't plan my time when I do not know who I am. It is like preparing for a guest you can't tell; it gives you shared anxiety.