You are radiant light they say.. but not if you’re splattered with trauma

I get it .. I’m radiant light .. you’re radiant light .. we’re all it .. but how can I know it if I’m cowering under the threat of extinction.. like in “every moment” if every moment is a threat?? Trim the carbuncles .. dive into the sewer.. & pull out the roots .. yep .. all in a lifetime & clear up your divine real estate ..