Hunting down your BLACKBOX

If you do plant medecines to heal trauma you get so much information about “the world” - the constant transformation of life - the dissolution of blockages - the truth of your fears - the limitations of apes - the world expands everywhere in your healing - as you heal the injury

Trauma fragments you - you’re shattered - in pieces - you need to be whole - in wholeness your power returns - you’re here again - that’s your healing

To heal you must be made whole - you you need to be accompanied into the dark by a force a light greater than the dark - the shattered pieces of you lit in the shadow - your fear dissolved - & your soul that goes returned

In trauma you have been evicted from home- from love - from divinity - the long arduous journey is to go home - whatever your vehicle slow or fast - it’s to get you home - to live to connection to divinity - it’s a journey from the dark to the light

Your trauma is not you - it’s a disfigurement - a shape that can be readjusted - cleansed but first you must meet with it before you get to your truth

You don’t get the Tesla after your healing - no - the gift is you - you value you - love you - connect to you - the lottery is the cleansing of all the trauma ‘ the reconnection to your soul - your authenticity - your wholeness .

In trauma there’s one “stuck” version of you - but there are many versions of you unfolding as you face each fear - each time you come head to head with a fear a wall is removed & a bigger version of you emerges - the plant world helps you remove the obstacles ..

Expect the unexpected if you’re healing from trauma - if you want it fixed completely it will be but not without paying the price of becoming someone new / are you willing to live without trauma?

You can’t see the trauma but you will - you’re immersed in the trauma & you can’t see it - but you will see all of it - like a zillion bacteria - you will see it all & then leave

No matter your trauma, you can heal & no it won’t be anything like you imagined - & you will ask for help - surrender, ask & let the universe take you on your healing journey - it might happen in other dimensions but you are not lost - just raw away from your true home

You think it’s an unseen trauma … but actually it’s always something sooo much bigger - it’s the battle between the light & the dark - love or no love - to release your child from its captivity you must return to the moment you were stolen & reclaim your power

You will heal - you just need to want it enough - to go into the dark - to rescue your child - to let the medecine heal you - on its schedule in its way - you won’t understand & it doesn’t matter - you don’t have to - you just need to surrender

You need to locate your child - yes - that’s the journey - they blacked out - shit down - disappeared - the journey is to go through the clutches of the trauma & find your child - therein the win

There are walls to get through to get to the prison of your trauma - the closer you get the more will rise - be scared keep going - you’ve trained for this with the medecine - you’re ready to be free

It’s ALL cooked together - you - the trauma - the predator - it’s all alive in a frothing sewer that’s ignited by fear - for it to be removed the medecine pulls you out - & cleanses the fueled sewer - no question it’s a sewer

If you decide to heal you will need to “leave” - collapse the blockage - “die” metaphorically - it’s a process - a long unknown mystery but it’s possible - you will return as “you” aligned with you - & then your journey begins

To heal trauma you must become the lotus flower - you need to dive into the dark to emerge resplendent - don’t turn away from the dark .. don’t numb - you’re nature - you can endure everything

We live in contradiction - we can do it easily but trauma is a monumental deceit & contradiction - to leave us an odyssey - a true journey of love

Trauma = blockage - freezing - a boulder in a teacup - it smothers everything - it’s dense energy - we are just energy either in the flow or not - you’ve been ambushed at the gates of life - but energy can be dissolved

You think a chip is the future ? That’s child’s play - the trauma revolution is the plant medecine revolution - it’s the most powerful technology available to heal trauma - if you’re stuck - you don’t have to be - the collective wants to make a buck - but trauma healing isn’t owned by apes - it’s directly connected to the true healers that get you to the trauma - but you have to enter that shadow

Healing with plant medecines is nature - you don’t have the answers or the schedule - but it’s happening - you will reach milestones until you finally meet the little sweetheart that got traumatized & reconnect ..

You’re the perfection of nature disfigured by trauma & then you’re perfect again - you just have to face the shadow .. you will re recreated returned to your perfection

It’s not the trauma that’s the damage - it’s the separation - the refusal of your life force - it’s an invasion - & accommodation of the dark - to heal you must see the process of the takeover & refuse it .

Of course you want to be on that yacht .. but you’re not .. you don’t believe you should .. perhaps you don’t deserve it .. your trauma is your spokesman .. your darkness festering .. you finally want out .. you finally acknowledge your in the sewer - that you been lost & then the healing begins

In trauma - you don’t exist - you have chosen the trauma over you - in this defrosting of the trauma you have chosen YOU - it’s painful, challenging - like an old creaking ship breaking apart - you will not play “a role” you’ll finally “show up”

Darkness can’t exist in the light - when the trauma happens it’s left in the dark - the light of the medecine & the love dismantles the “everything” of you & the voyage home becomes the expedition

There’s so much you can’t see .. trauma luces in that no see place

You’re here .. stuck unstuck .. traumatized or not - it’s your path .. if you need to heal.. you will find your way out .. but never forget your nature you come from it - your trauma is an experience you heal it with “experience” trust the intelligence that lives within you .. & heal

You need to decipher & dismantle to release trauma - you’ve arrived .. helpless vulnerable - you’re counting on love .. you can’t count on those who you arrive to ..

Power goes hand in hands with fear - all fear no power - you’re a boat without an engine in a raging sea .. at the mercy of everything - to reclaim your trauma is to reclaim your power - fear eviscerates it..the aya returns it

Fear - it paralyzes - it’s a power to be reckoned with - a stealth bomber - a prisoner - how does your child overcome it? How do you understand it & leave - all possible in the aya world

You can’t avoid anything because all of you must be healed … how long how deep .. you won’t know if you’ve been blinded - the medecine if ata will extricate cleanse & put you in the car wash of her love

Trauma steals your spirit - your nature - you can’t deny it - but you have - in the healing with nature you are healing your spirit - the spirit of the plant heals your hijacked spirit - frozen by the dark

If there’s trauma - you’re a vault - in that vault lies the truth - the memory - everything oh but EVERYTHING is a defense system built to REFUSE that place that is too terrifying to open up - there’s only one journey into the depths - the dragon must surface

& then you face the first overwhelming wound - it will be the hardest moment of your life - & it will be in an altered state but it will be more difficult than this reality - you’re a rat in a lab being taken apart & you will know it ..keep sitting .. keep seeing & face the dragon - in its lair all wounds are healed

Nature is everywhere - we can’t see it’s magic it’s healing power it’s everything - unless we journey into it - it’s there where the ultimate healing can happen

Yes.. there’s only one place to look to heal inside - inside the vault of you - your a light body .. the aya aligns you & throws out the distorted energy .. it might be a few years but just be grateful she moved in

Your trauma if tricked is subtle sophisticated & sick., something is holding on because the subtlety of the trick is believed by the child - you are the heroine of your trauma & the victim - now you must leave

Meditation is awareness - the platform of awareness - rooting - with that tool you can sit through anything - see anything - you are the seeing - Niobe but the seeing - with that tool you can be completely dismantled & the poison or the dark exposed & expelled

You disappeared with the trauma.. that’s where your nuclear power is hiding.. you just got to go in..scared?? Absolutely .. going in Totally

The aya repairs you from top to toe … it replaces the broken parts - all navigational tools like a compass fixed - if you’re willing to sit in her emergency room she will put you back together like jump tu dumpty

Expose & expel is the raison d’etre of trauma - to dissolve it - you must see it - how are you going to see it if you’ve severed? By bringing in an ally … Aya is a great one

Your trauma has a root -an understanding -a character ..you need to u detest and all of it so you can separate the socks from the tshirt in the spin dry cycle - only then can true release happen

Don’t underestimate what you’re going into. It gets harder the closer u get to the origin of your wound - more entities will frighten you but you must persevere - it will frustrate you, frighten you challenge you .. but the diamond is not easily won - & that diamond is your soul - your exiled soul

Trauma is energetic imprinting that sinks deep into your system & holds you hostage - it’s energy - it’s dark - the medecine cleanses - locates the imprinting exposes and exodus’s its relentlessly - then reconnects you with the seed that got wiped out so it can blossom

If you ask for help it will show up & it will heal you .. but there’s no going back to who you were.. & you will have to face being the you you never knew wrapped in armor & that’s a whole other journey

Yes.. if there’s severe trauma you have to risk all of you to get ALL of you back - you will have to break with convention & challenge the collective - it’s just the nature of true conviction & will to heal - your oath is your reward !!

It’s your little munchkin you’re rescuing - your little trembling scared innocent little toddler .. child - it’s him/ her you need to connect with .. to do that you must overhaul the invaders

How do you know your healing? - the truth is bigger than the fear & yes you are feeling your truth - feeling the most difficult feelings that were always there but smothered & yes your healing

Evil is ether - trauma in childhood - a shutdown - an overwhelm - evil seeps into you - into your energetic bring & owns your - the aya is an ally in its removal & eviction