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Complex PTSD Recovery [Reports]: We Are Traumatized Motherfuckers
by CPTSD, Intergenerational PTSD, Relational Trauma | TMFR LLC
Part of the Traumatized Motherfuckers' Research Project: What you need to know about CPTSD, in bitesized summaries of our in-depth research efforts. Peer-reviewed research and irreverent dark humor meet trauma recovery, without the "bright sides." Let's talk about the complicated experience of rectifying a life built on trauma, relearning how to have relationships, and re-imagining your future... in micro chunks. (When you're ready, jump into the deep end, detailed below.)You aren't alone, damaged, doomed, or dead yet. But with all the grit and gumption necessary to keep growing, you might be a real MF.For the full project (400+ "research meets real life" episodes, hour+ deep dives & multipart series, videos, transcripts, workbooks, private community, and beyond go to: Patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers Not ready yet? Subscribe to get all recent releases right on Spot
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Announcing! The Re-Release of Traumatized Motherfuckers
RELEASED from behind the paywall! A huge announcement for Motherfuckers. Follow, rate, review, share:Apple Podcasts!Spotify!Deezer!Research & creator support:Patreon Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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6.4 DnD: Dystopian Dating vs. Women
It's an overiew of men, women, trans and non-binary dating challenges we researched this month - and then let's talk about 5 unique anecdotal obstacles for the ladies in this bonus episode release from behind the paywall.To the research! patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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6.3 Dating in Dystopia: Jaws Themed Dating | PUWBs & Sharks in Fish's Clothing
Psychoeducation is the brightest point to come from Dystopia. Right guys? Right? ...Or has it been creating stronger predators and overconfident amateur fishermen? Today we talk about the Wellness shared reality and how it's impacting online dating, including the creation of annoying PUWBs floating all around.Duh-Dun Duh-DunVide-Yo!Free Courses! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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6.2 Dating in Dystopia 01: Emotional Masturbation & Addictions to Fake Relationships
This month in the Patreon feed we're talking romantic relationships and all the ways they go immediately wrong. In this recording we rap about emotionally masturbating as it crosses over with weird attachments & forming fake relationships as a coping mechanism - dooming any real relationship that might emerge to fail. And let's talk about the societal danger of protectively doping instead of actually dating.Watch here with subtitlesAre you in this pic? Come join the conversation at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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6.1 Time Turrors and Disturtions (A Month of Fear-Work)
A month full of dealing with fear and determining who to be. In this release from the patreon stream, we talk about the terrors of time when you have a traumatized brain. Inconsistency, lapses, wormholes and sandtraps... we live in temporal funhouses. Let's talk about how an unstandard relationship with time affects our relationships and what to do about it.Video! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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5.12.2 Top 5 Life Lessons of 2025
Not to call it 'experiential wisdom,' but... if 5 things were gained in 2025?HAPPY NEW YEAR FUCKERCome have a personal hang at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers - free face streaming video reflecting on 2025 out now! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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5.12.1 Top 5 Lit Lessons of 2025
Says it all. These are the most impact-making findings in the research conducted 2025.HAPPY NEW YEAR FUCKERCome have a personal hang at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers - free face streaming video reflecting on 2025 out now! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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5.11 Cognitive Basis of Depression
'Stop seeing everything so negatively." they say. But the cognitive behaviors underlying depression don't allow it. Let's talk about mental reactions and sticky patterns that outweigh false brightsides.VideoWorkbook!CoursesummaryThis conversation delves into the cognitive basis of depression, focusing on how neural networks, memory games, language, cognitive inhibition inhibition, outdated working memory, and rumination contribute to depressive states. It explores the mechanisms behind cognitive depression, compassionate views for the state of human suffering, and offers strategies for managing depression through attention training and environmental changes.takeawaysNeural networks, schemas, and representations automatically shape our understanding of experiences.Even singular stimulation events can activate depressive schemas, limiting potential perceptions.Memory biases in depression lead to a resonating focus on negative experiences.Over generalized and explicit memories are unique experiences associated with depression.Cognitive inhibition is ironically inhibited during depression.Working memory cannot update with relevant material under depressive spells.Emotional regulation is hindered by cognitive control loss in depression.Rumination causes or exacerbates depression, anxiety, and PTSD due to a negative focus on the self.Automatic reckoning with the human condition may be the cause of many varieties of cognitive disorders.Training attention can redirect focus away from negativity.Ambiguous or negative social environments spark rumination which leads to depression.Changing environments and behaviors can help disrupt negative neural networks.Understanding the cognitive processes behind depression can bolster compassion and help deactivate negative schemas.keywordscognitive depression, memory bias, cognitive inhibition, working memory, overgeneralized memory, semantic memory, rumination, emotional regulation, reappraisal, self-doubt, neural networks Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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5.10 Back to High School: Secret Sources of Peer Pressure in the 2020s
"Peer Pressure is a high school problem." Or is it? Let's talk about adult brains drunk on social influence through the illusions and purposeful manipulations of the internet.Video! summaryThe conversation explores the pervasive effects of internet influence and peer pressure on society, highlighting how these factors have radicalized identities and impacted human psychology. Algorithms are particularly implicated as the highly corruptive "third party affiliations" that we don't directly choose, which then keep us locked within social groups and cliques. The human need to conform for safety yet also establish a unique identity within the constraints of that similarity is driving personalities to aggressive extremes.takeawaysThe same factors that promote peer pressure in adolescence are being experienced by adults on the internet.PP has become an age indiscriminate phenomenon that has radicalized identities and contributed to ruining the world by hijacking human psychology.The internet has returned us all to a high school social experience of self-definition and seeking identity options.Popular figures are especially influential due to illusion of proximity and desire for similar social reward.Conformity is required to remain within social groups, often necessitating "third party affiliations" to stay aligned.One-on-one relationships value authenticity; clique relationships value similarity of behavior.Algorithms force us into designated groups, which then corrupt the mind to conform without conscious decision.Mechanized manipulation has taken over the human species, from the top-down.The social brain is programmed to conform yet also establish a unique identity - driving group ideals to new extremes as a personal brand.keywordssocial influence, peer pressure, identity, psychology, societal change, social aggression, algorithms, manipulation, mind control, identity corruption, group think Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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5.9 Costs of Impression Management
If Facades of Conformity feel a bit much, how about Impression Management strategies? Let's talk about common strategies, the risks vs. rewards, and negative return on energetic investments. VIDEO FORMCourse form!summaryThis conversation delves into the themes of conformity and impression management, exploring how individuals often sacrifice their true selves to fit societal expectations. It discusses the psychological implications of these behaviors, including increased loneliness and decreased life satisfaction, and highlights various strategies people use to manage their self-image. The conversation emphasizes the risks associated with these strategies and the long-term consequences of suppressing one's true identity.takeawaysImpression management is a common behavior in social interactions.It can lead to higher loneliness and lower life satisfaction.People often feel pressured to conform to societal norms.Impression management can be a double-edged sword, creating more problems than it solves.Different strategies of impression management include ingratiating, self-promoting, and suppression.Supplication can lower self-esteem and self-image.Suppression can lead to emotional exhaustion and impaired relationships.Authenticity is crucial for genuine connections.The effort to manage impressions can be exhausting and counterproductive.Creating environments of authenticity can improve overall well-being.keywordsimpression management, conformity, emotional welfare, social support, loneliness, self-image, authenticity, psychological health, social dynamics, coping strategiesAs always, visit patreon.com, search traumatized motherfuckers for the whole story <3 Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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5.8 Facades of Conformity (FOCs)
It's a summary episode! What have we been talking about lately? Facades of Conformity as they overlap with CPTSD, RSD, and life-destruction.Free Video!summary Let's talk about environmental mental illness, Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (RSD), and the Facades of Conformity (FOCs) that individuals often adopt in various "supervisory" relationships. The discussion delves into the emotional toll of FOCs, emphasizing the detrimental effects of emotional exhaustion.takeawaysFacades of Conformity are often used in abusive relationships to prevent loss.Hiding one's true self diminish the resource of emotional health.Self-enhancement motives (incl RSD and survival) drive the need for conformity.Emotional exhaustion can deteriorate life quality.Authenticity is crucial for mental well-being.Impression management can be life-costing.Political and social pressures exacerbate conformity issues.Working on rejection dysphoria is essential for healing FOC patterns.keywords mental health, Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria, facades of conformity, emotional exhaustion, CPTSD, authenticity, relationships, environmental mental illness, self-esteem, trauma Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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5.7 Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria (RSD) x CPTSD Life Experiences
The RSD - "typical CPTSD experience" overlap is deep and wide. Let's talk about shutting down life, expression, and healing from heightened rejection sensitivity.Video! (freeee)summaryWe explore the intricate relationship between Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (RSD) and Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD), delving into various manifestations of RSD, including agoraphobia, challenges in self-disclosure, lack of novelty in life experiences, communication struggles, and workplace dysfunction.takeawaysRSD is closely linked to CPTSD symptoms.Agoraphobia can stem from heightened sensitivity to rejection.Disclosure of personal experiences is crucial for healing.Lack of novelty in life can be a result of RSD.Over-explaining is a common response to fear of rejection.Under-expressing oneself can hinder personal growth.Workplace environments can exacerbate feelings of rejection.Recognizing rejection as a mismatch can aid in moving on.Therapy should be a safe space for discussing RSD.Sensitivity can be a strength, but dysphoria leads to misinterpretation.keywords RSD, CPTSD, Rejection Sensitivity, Agoraphobia, Mental Health, Trauma, Healing, Communication, Workplace Dysfunction, Self-Expression Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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5.6 Pub Ep! Environ-Mental Illness: Fear vs. Anxiety, Stress, Phobia, Paranoia
Video!let's talk about environ mental illness, discussing how external stimuli and personal experiences contribute to psycho-emotional disruptions. Today, featuring a discussion emphasizing the importance of understanding anxiety, differentiating between various emotional states such as fear, stress, anxiety, phobia, and paranoia, and not being a dick to yourself on the other end.Free releases & re-releasesFree shorties - youtube!Free shorties - patreon!Free laughs & shorts Insta!Reduced membership!Help the world Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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5.5 Behaviors for Preventing PTSD
We can't prevent trauma, but we can help ourselves prevent long-term disordering in the aftermath. Here's the ultra brief rundown of behaviors to prevent PTSD.Video Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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5.4 Practical Ways to Regulate Your Nervous System
FREE VIDEO!Coming off a natural disaster trauma, let's talk about 47 *practical* ways to rebalance your nervous system.... that aren't all "yoga and breathing deeply." Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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5.3 Boundaries to allow compassionate, love, and self-existence
VIDEO (FREEEEEE)Compassion requires protection in the form of relationship-allowing boundaries. read: not relationship-ending rules. What are boundaries, how do we set them, and how do we make sure they're enacted? Talking inner and outer boundaries to separate their shit from yours, so love can exist. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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CHILL SOUNDS for/from an unchill week
So my CNS has been plugged to a 50amp this week, hburs?Gratefully heard some sounds under the near-full moon that swept a bitta anxiety awayHave an immersive walk and some guided visual breaths with Marcus and meIt's a predawn stroll through waterfalls and frogs, break glass in case of nerves on fireGoin nature zen, Fuckers😮💨🌱💦🌊🐸🌕✨Video Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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5.2 Trauma Perspectives & Egos
A VIDEOMemories detached from the whole -> views too big or too small which lock the brain into patterned behaviors and outcomes. Talking perspective resizing and generational ego acquisitions in our Feb drop.And for all the unfolding expansions? Come check patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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5.1 STRESS | Societal Trauma x CPTSD Management Begins
Free VideoIt's time! To support ourselves by applying everything we've learned in 5 years of research together. Today: stress utilization.On the market for more applied trauma care? patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers for the community stream Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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4.12 Your Haunted Self: DISASSOCIATION
A FULL LENGTH SHARE! Let's talk about the directions of disassociation and what to do about the pattern of continually ditching this bitch.VIDEO HEREHAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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4.11 Exploring Yer Haunted self pt 1: STRESS, BIG EMOS, MISALIGNMENTS, EMBARRASHAMING MEMORIES
What waits inside your self? STRESS, BIG EMOTIONS, MISALIGNMENTS, AND HUMILIATING MEMORIES, anyone? Let's summarize these stops on our spooktacular self-adventure. VIDEYUM!For the full ride, including DISASSOCIATION, the WHAT'S NEXTS, and FEAR check patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckersHappy holiday season❄️☃️❤️🔥leave a holiday tip Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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BONUS Entering Yer HAUNTED self 👻 Choose your own spookventure begins!
We're doing something extra 💀 It's a halloween, election, and holiday season special! 💀 Today we begin exploring our abandoned selves and exorcising awaiting demons.What's in store when we reconnect with our lives? Stress, the big negative feels, constant disassociation attempts, horrifying memories of self, tense misalignments between beliefs and reality, the "what's nexts?", and FEAR... of self / being seen / existence in general.Join up at patreon, if you dare. Tune in for each forthcoming ghastly finding or just tap the ones that apply to your haunted self. Each topic will be the start of a new Patreon Collection so we can keep doing work on these common post traumatic entities.video! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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4.10 Reconnecting with your haunted self
Being with you... isn't an innate skill after trauma. And yet, we must, or we'll never recover. Take this long treat of an episode to start practicing your self-work. video version! (free!) Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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4.9 Obstacles to Actual self-Love After Trauma
The filthiest words: love yourself. 🤮 Why does trauma create barriers between us and... not hating us? Talkin' lost relationships, criteria for love, loss of self, and the endless self scrutiny created by post-traumatic judgments. It's a BIG EPISODE with some BIG ANNOUNCEMENTS - grab your pepto and let's talk about "self-love-y."WATCH IT HERE Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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4.8 Self Compassion; the Daily Battle for Recovery
Education and Responsibility are important for t-recovery... But progress peters when self-punishment predominates. Without self-compassion, regression becomes reality. Let's talk about the requirement for self-compassion and 5 ways to do it.video! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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4.7 Major Image-Distorting self-Defenses [Splitting and Projective Identification]
When life serves conflictual and confusing information, our brains simplify it to survive... and fuck us over in the long-run. Let's talk about the "ALL GOOD" and "ALL BAD" self-defense mechanisms of Splitting and Projective Identification, what function they serve as children & adults, and how they create shitass trauma-bound lives down the line.Catch the FREE VIDEO PRESENTATION here. Just select "join for free" and it will be available - no strings attached. <3Or here if you use Spotify! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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4.6. Acting out, Help-rejecting complaining, and Passive Aggression; The (most) Immature Defenses
Ready to learn about the maladaptive tendencies of your most difficult relational partners? When we don't believe we're "entitled" to a need or emotion, we vent it into (unwise) action. Let's discuss the immature cognitive patterns we/others may still be utilizing to keep our brains "safe." We'll cover the lowest level self-defense mechanisms: Acting Out, Help-Rejecting Complaining, and Passive Aggression. PS - Here's the free video version! https://www.patreon.com/posts/106981368/ subscribe for free to gain access to extras like this!Want to learn a lot more about these SDMs? Sub the full patreon page, where we're talking about each one in depth! Next up: Image-splitting and Object Projection. Toot Toot, all aboard Fuckers. Cheers! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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4.5 Narcs, Defense Mechanisms, & (non)Recovery: Intellectualizing, Rationalizing, and Reactionary Decision Making
We've learned that narcs don't generally recover because of their "creative narration" abilities. Now, let's talk about some of the ways they spin those stories. Today, we start our examination of self-defense mechanisms by looking at the purposes of Intellectualization and Rationalization. Then, we ask the question: SO HOW SMART ARE THEY? And discuss the distinct Thought Processing limitations of both Grandiose and Vulnerable Narcissists.Want the full story? Find the longform episodes on these topics at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers or check the new subscription stream on Spotify for all recent releases in video form, right on your favorite streaming app!Good to speak to you like a human again... And Cheers, Fuckers! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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4.4. Pathological Structuring of Narcissists (Or, No Integrity without Integration)
They'll shake your hand while pissing on your leg, plead and then pulverize promises, and generally give the sense that they're one hundred people who share a face. But why?Let's talk about narcissist personality structuring that ranges from neurotic to psychopathic, but never hits the mark of "maturity." Meanwhile, creating the condition I've titled simply: There is no Integrity without Integration. Into this talk? Come hang out, there's been plenty more at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers or the new Spotify exclusive subscription option found here. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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4.3. Healing with "Adaptive Narcissism" and Uniqueness | Leveraging Stigma for Permissive self-Healing
"Just feel good about your authentic self and don't let anyone wreck your recognition of specialness." Right. Let's talk about what may be holding us back from achieving this safe, centered, self-supportive, resilience-boosting psychological station, and the easiest way to achieve the "healthy self" that's never been otherwise defined. Adaptive Narcissism. Plus, we'll be discussing how AN relates to VN and GN; reiterating the truth that going small with your self is not the answer to trauma recovery. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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4.2. Filial Obligation Narratives, Ambivalence, Perception, and Guilt
Why is the decision to sacrifice or save our brains so difficult to make? Let's talk about subconscious narratives we probably all carry, the ambivalence-guilt connection, and the power of perception on caregiving burden. Find the transcript at t-mfrs.com Looking for the 9 full episodes on this topic? Hit up the Filial Obligation Collection on patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers. Need some FilOb support? There's a group coming for that dontchaknow. Stay tuned. Cheers FCKRS.
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4.1. Making of a Vulnerable Narcissist
A big 'nouncement; so long TMFRS! Then let's talk about what constitutes a VulNarc versus "a person with CPTSD." Where does the chronic manipulation come from? How are recovery resources used for trauma-unhealing? What's up with the hostility and antagonism? . Lots to cover in this mashup of "time, space, and energy" meets "VulNarcs" and "trauma-selves." . For even more detail, check the newly updated Narc Collection at Patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers . And thank you again for the past 4 years of gettin nerdy together. See you in the next evolution. 🙏❤️🍻
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3.12b. Sex on Parts and Survival Programs
This year we spoke about Intimacy. Now it's time to confront *Intimacy.* Let's look at the discrepant programs that live inside of us, gathered across a lifetime of adaptation to extreme events and unhealthy narratives. We're talking Sexual Healing vs. Internal Family Systems and deprived needs. Need this conversation more than you knew? Check out patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers for the application-heavy episodes, and see what you find out about yourself. While you're there, add a little mutuality to this exchange, by helping to support this DIY healing project.
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3.12a. Transference, Projection, Monkey-barring, Displacement
We're tying up loose ends in our discussion of relationships! Today, discussing the cognitive copy-pastes we accidentally carry out between past and present relationships - and they ways they set us back in our recovery goals while creating abusive dynamics. Need more thoughts about transference in all its forms? I've got another hour of material and an animated vid on this one. Check patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers for more help, or go to t-mfrs.com to get your pubpod transcripts and learn more about the project. Cheers y'all!
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Self-abandonment vs your best Spanksgiving
Let's cut the brainy shit, the real answer to surviving the holidays is not abandoning yourself. Need more holiday support? Don't we all. For all the other holiday freebies, just hit up patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers. Search "holiday" to find releases from the past for no cost, or subscribe to access the pre-wrangled Holiday Survival Collection for your listening ease. Stay safe, support yourself, and see you soon Fucker! MFJess and Marcus Barkus
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3.11. Ten Destructive Responses that Set Off Trauma Defenses
Back to NonViolent Communication! Here are 10 things the experts say destroy our attempts at vulnerable disclosures and requests. Just in time for the holidays, let's talk about why these conversational reactions burn our t-brains and why people are programmed to use them, anyways. For the full transcript and all the doods, check t-mfrs.com and get ready to peruse for hours. To jump into the full-length conversations and deep dives, head over to patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers. And help support this project's continuation while you're there!
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3.10. Chronic deprivation, self-sabotage, psychosomatic illness, and abuse dynamics
We learn to neglect ourselves at an early age and then everything goes to hell forever after. Stuck in unfixable suffering, toiling away with ineffectual attempts to comfort ourselves, and possibly... destroying our own lives, in an attempt to end the self-deprivation through backdoor methods. Let's talk about needs and what happens when we learn there are "required" versus "unallowed" ways we're permitted to care about ourselves. If this show made your eyes get real big, you may want to check out this full episode series. Hit patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers and jump into the "NonViolent Communication Collection" for all the episodes, videos, workbooks, and reflection exercises on self-neglect. And we'll be returning to talking deprivation in a few weeks :) Cheers, Fuckers! Jess
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3.9b Ending Deprivation and Rehabbing yer Brain with NonViolent Communication
"Depression is the reward we get for being good children." NVC helps yer relationships, sure. But it'll also rewire your t-brain trashhabits, emotional misunderstandings, and shit perspectives if you use it solo. Let's talk about the roots of the worst of us; our unmet needs and beliefs that deprivation = goodness. Which create vicious cycles of projection, unfulfillment, and relational abuse. Like reading along and looking at scribbles? Find your transcript here, Fucker. Ready to dive headfirst into this conversation, or any of our other topical focuses? Hit up "Collections" of episodes, workbooks, videos, polls, bonuses, and more at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers. ... and help this one-person operation keep rolling, while you learn. <3 Thanks for your support, Muffs. Cheers! Jess and Barkus
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3.9a NonViolent (Effective) Communication
Ever feel "unheard"? Well, here's the key to getting your point across and sparking collaboration rather than opposition. Today, we're talking about NonViolent Communication (NVC) - the 4 step framework for communicating effectively about emotions and unmet needs without stimulating defensive reactions or leaning on your own deeply ingrained control tactics... And so much more. Wanna transcript and some doods to listen along with? Find it here! Looking to do more than scratch the surface on NonViolent Communication? Check out the new NVC "Collection" as it populates on Patreon! We're wrapping about all the NLP details and recovery implications with whiteboard vids and workbooks, to boot, at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers. ps - your patronage makes this entire project possible. Thank you, Fuckers. Cheers MFJess
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3.8b. Shitpologies (AKA non-apology apologies)
So, how do we apologize "the right way"... Rather than creating MORE damage through half-assed "I'm sorrys"? Today, let's talk about the 5 points for offering a real apology for sake of true relational healing... And four examples of how NOT to apologize, unless you actually want to make the emotional abandonment experience worse for your partner. Looking for 10 more examples of terrible non-apologies? Hit up the recent episode "Non-Apology Apologies" over at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers. And fuckle up for NonViolent Communication month, coming at ya in September. For the transcript version of this (and every) episode, go to t-mfrs.com. And do some extra CPTSD learnin while you're there. Cheers, Fuckers! MFJess
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3.8a. The Key to Healing Relational Ruptures (and two people)
How DO we heal what's been broken? I've got a short phrase for you - it's what we've all needed to hear all along. And let's talk about the timeless wounds patched up by real apologies, as we prepare to talk about shitty apologies next time. Hail yerSelf and Cheers Fuckers. Git the transcript version of this post at t-mfrs.com and check out some doods while you're there. Catch up on the recent downpour of episodes over at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers and help this one-human DIY project keep spreading the good news about healing.
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Extra "survival Fs" to give in relationship; Fronting and Feigning
We all know about the 4 survival Fs at this point. But how about the additional F reactions- Fronting and Feigning? Let's talk about learned reactions that keep us feeling safe in relationship... while rotting out the connection, engaging manipulation tactics, and using fear as a self-defense. Looking for more "real relationship talk"? Well that's the order of the month, over in the private podcast stream. We're dropping four full episodes of "less fluffy" relational conversations, talking about how relationally traumatized partnerships actually tend to shake out... and how to "read them" before you're in too deep. See you there! And cheers, Fuckers! MFJess
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3.7. Determining "Are they a good relational partner?" before committing
We've talked a lot about committing fully to relationships and overcoming our conflicts together, through examining the subconscious wounds that actually underly our relational upsets. But here's my question: Is that realistic? Today, we talk about getting clearer on the contents of our potential and current relationship partners' preprogramming, through checking our own somatic experiences, our shared trauma histories, and their adaptions to the social systems that raised them. For alllll the relationship x CPTSD details that will reframe how you view other people and yourself... hit patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers and join the private conversation around relearning "healthy relating." Prepare to reflect. 🍻
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3.6b Overcoming spiraling conflicts in trauma-impacted relationships
Ever feel like "the issue" isn't really "the issue" in relational conflict? That's because the real issue is buried under layers of protective instincts that keep us unable to fully connect or communicate... but very capable of fighting, endlessly. Let's talk about "conscious relationships" and their trauma recovery utility, as we discuss methods for resolving unescapable conflict detailed by IFS couples therapy practitioners. Hankering for the full details on this relationship recovery talk? Hit up the private community and long-ass episode stream at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers, and git all the extra bonus resources this month at any subscription level! Then stay tuned for next month, as we get into the "relational real talk" that brings this conversation down to t-earth. See you there! MFJess
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3.6 Lost love and authentic connection; the fragmented brain explanation
Why do we start close relationships and love connections feeling one way... only to watch them disintegrate, become survival-based, and turn into "resentment"? Let's walk through the easiest explanation ever told; pulling in our Internal Family Systems education to discuss the greatest relational obstacle of them all. Looking for a lot more relational talk? Good news! It's been the theme of 2023 over on the private stream. Check this month's special triple research episode release and get all the extra resources, no matter how you subscribe. See you there, and cheers, Fuckers! MFJess
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3.5 Shadow parts vs. successful relationships | Internal VIT for healthy connections
We MFs struggle to begin or maintain healthy relationship dynamics, with a lot of externalized finger pointing about why. "Abusers just flock to me." But the truth is, the abuse recreation is mutual and it all starts in the place we attempt to willfully ignore - inside ourselves, within our preferred and hated personality aspects. Let's talk about acquisition of conscious and unconscious identities that fuck up our relational attempts equally. The ways Protective, Exiled, and Distractive brain programs inject chaos and abuse into our connections. And why we first need to get vulnerable, intimate, and trusting with our own brains... if we don't want to repetitively create hellish, self-fulfilling abuse prophecies with others. It's the start of a big discussion going down in the private podcast stream and support community. Support your future relationships and this DIY educational effort at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers or t-mfrs.com. And cheers to all yer parts. MFJess
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Special release | "Ah Hell Naw" Learned obstacles to forming close relationships
Why don't we sign up for close connections anymore? Especially after learning about our CPTSD patterns? It's an episode pulled from the private Fort! Let's talk about relationship hangups from an experiential standpoint, integrating what we've heard from the research with real life brain operations to demystify disorganized feelings about closely connecting with others. Check out t-mfrs.com for more info and blogged transcripts of each public episode. To help yourself help yourself, while also helping this project to support MFs round the world, hit patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers for the full years-long conversation and private Discord support community filled with unfluffy folks like you. And cheers y'all MFJess
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3.4 Vulnerability, Intimacy, and Trust Issues in Relationship
"So how do you feel about relationships? Complicated? You want them? You despise them? You fear them? You long for them? You try them? You exit them rapidly? Or you try to? You get stuck in them? And haunted by cycles of unfulfillment?" Today, let's talk about the obstacles we face when considering relationships or landing ourselves in them. The ways we attempt to protect ourselves from them. Why shallow, distanced relationships plague PTSD sufferers. And how vulnerability, intimacy, and trust are necessary foundations for our long-term healing. For the full conversation on VIT in relationship shitnanigans, hit patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers and stay tuned as we dive deeply into relationships on trauma.
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3.3. Subconscious Self-loathing
So you're doing your damndest to be "your best self." Maybe you're confident and comfortable in your identity these days. But, at the same time, you still find that self-condemnation is a big part of your day to day. Why? Let's talk about self-judgment taking place on subconscious levels. How your identities mask the ongoing self-loathing that created them. And how to heal that shit, once and for all. Up for making big changes? Get started with us at patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers
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Hardening versus Healing
Today, sharing a mini essay I wrote for another platform, where controversial perspectives are the topic of conversation. In so much of this "trauma recovery game" we're inspired to hunker down against past patterns. But is that really healing? Want more Traumatized Motherfuckers? Join the Patreon to get hundreds of past episodes, weekly releases, and a part in supporting this DIY show. Or find more info on the project at t-mfrs.com.
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ABOUT THIS SHOW
Part of the Traumatized Motherfuckers' Research Project: What you need to know about CPTSD, in bitesized summaries of our in-depth research efforts. Peer-reviewed research and irreverent dark humor meet trauma recovery, without the "bright sides." Let's talk about the complicated experience of rectifying a life built on trauma, relearning how to have relationships, and re-imagining your future... in micro chunks. (When you're ready, jump into the deep end, detailed below.)You aren't alone, damaged, doomed, or dead yet. But with all the grit and gumption necessary to keep growing, you might be a real MF.For the full project (400+ "research meets real life" episodes, hour+ deep dives & multipart series, videos, transcripts, workbooks, private community, and beyond go to: Patreon.com/traumatizedmotherfuckers Not ready yet? Subscribe to get all recent releases right on Spot
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