CUNTFESSIONALS

Welcome to March! In today's mini episode, I vent about how being healed and grounded can narrow down your dating prospects to near zero! Exciting? Maybe? I explain how I can quickly see through most people, and trusting myself means no one is passing the initial dating tests. I speak on casual dating and my current perspective on dating. Enjoy!

Hello! Welcome to the first episode of 2026! In this episode, I talk about how I rewired my brain to see acts of bravery as my new normal. A lot of my life has been composed of constantly taking leaps of faith, and this, although challenging, has been extremely useful in shaping my life into a fulfilling one. I'm a firm believer that life does not have to be hard or painful. The mark of true resilience is in shifting negatives into positives. We've been conditioned to believe that struggle is necessary, but all that is truly needed for human beings to be happy is to refine our belief system and the way we function automatically. Bravery is not necessary when we act from a place of joy because at that point, there is nothing to be brave about! 

For the last episode of the year, I sit down with my first-ever guest, Z33R0! Z33R0 has been my friend since 2021 when I first moved to LA and we have been through so many crazy fun times! In this episode, we dive into his projects, dating and partying in the US vs Europe, kink shaming, and keeping strict standards in love. Plus, the questions you’ve been waiting for: Is painting the trade acceptable? Who truly deserves a deuched hole?

I believe at my very core that triggers are actually invitations to heal. In this episode, I talk about how On the Spot was born from my own VERY messy moments. Inspired by therapy and EMDR I created a method that helped emotionally regulate me on the spot as I felt overwhelming surges of emotion. My Trigger Work Journal includes this 8-step guide I created to help turn emotional spirals into clarity, compassion, and calm. I hope this finds you at the right time, and I'm wishing you the best on your healing journey.    00:00 - Intro 5:03 - Inspiration behind OTS 18:34 - Conclusion

In this episode of Cuntfessionals, I open up about my journey with bipolar disorder — from the day I was diagnosed, to the criteria I “met,” to the years of trial and error with treatments, mindsets, and healing. I share the things that absolutely did not work for me, the breakthroughs that did, and why I now believe I am truly cured. I also dive into my skepticism around the diagnosis itself, the power of belief, and how shifting my perspective completely changed the way I experienced myself and my mental health. ⚠️ Disclaimer: I am not a medical professional. This episode is based on my personal experiences and opinions. Nothing shared should be taken as medical advice — please consult a licensed professional for guidance on mental health care. IG: https://www.instagram.com/amyzavalza?igsh=NTc4MTIwNjQ2YQ%3D%3D&utm_source=qr TT: https://www.tiktok.com/@zalza666?_t=ZT-8zMLEsrTXbL&_r=1 00:00 - Intro  5:10 - what didn’t work 11:12 - what worked  25:37 - looking within  33:54 - self-trust is key  36:22 - the power of beliefs  40:49 - conclusion

In this episode, I break down what it takes to achieve self-love through practical and easily applicable steps. I walk you through the exact things that helped me start showing up for myself in a real, deep way: building awareness, connecting with the tough emotions and beliefs, tuning into the body, gently shifting into new, empowering beliefs, and more. I also share pieces of my journey and how this process has truly changed my life. I know healing isn't a pretty process, and we can use all the help we can get in the journey. I really wish I would've had something like this in my teens and 20's. I hope it adds value to your life, enjoy <3.    00:00 - Intro 2:44 - Background 5:36 - Awareness 8:29 - Negative Beliefs 11:23 - Sit with it 19:06 - Positive Belief + Identity Shift  24:11 - It gets easier  32:21 - Detach from the Outcome 36:35 - Healing Process Explanation 44:42 - Conclusion

In this mini I talk about the overlooked struggles of being a conventionally attractive woman—not to compare pain, but to highlight a specific kind. From being seen as a commodity to facing constant judgment and objectification—these issues aren't about beauty itself, but they're all actually rooted in misogyny. I reflect on public figures like Britney Spears and Amanda Bynes, and how the pressure to perform beauty has driven some to reject it altogether. I also stress the importance of protecting yourself and dive into my own experiences as well. Enjoy!   00:00 - Intro 2:30 - Beauty is Currency 9:09 - Careful What You Wish For 15:37 - Jealousy  17:39 - Weird Behavior 21:09 - No Comparisons 23:25 - Conclusion

This episode was supposed to be a mini, but it definitely wasn't! This month, I unpack the truth behind lust, and how it’s typically deeper than just being horny. I explore how lust is often a symptom of unhealed trauma, repressed emotions, and a desperate hunger for connection and validation. From the different ways men and women experience and express it, to the way it masks as empowerment or desire but often stems from wounds. I also talk about how lust almost always inevitably results in using people and ascribing to misogyny. What are your thoughts?   00:00 - Intro 7:55 - Cheap Validation 23:58 - Objectification 36:15 - It's not about you 41:14 - Conclusion

In this episode, I open up about the lessons that shaped me throughout my 20s. From navigating heartbreak and identity shifts to learning to live in the moment, forgive deeply, and master positive manifestation. I go deep into some of my darkest and also most beautiful moments that have shaped me into the person I am today. Navigating your 20s isn't always easy. Here are my most valuable takeaways. 00:00 - Intro 3:49 - Mental Health is Worth Working For 12:12 - Don't Judge 15:11 - Break Harmful Generational Patterns  19:48 - Beliefs Shape Your Life 27:21 - Life Is Worth Living  35:25 - Ego Deaths Are Vital  41:11 - Master Manifesting 48:57 - Live Life to the Fullest

In this episode, I break down why the most rational thing you can do in life is heal and learn to truly love yourself. I share personal experiences and the steps I took to become secure and confident—including unlearning negative self-beliefs, facing hard truths, processing pain, and shifting perspectives. It’s not easy, but it’s necessary. This is all about doing the work, breaking free from the BS holding you back, and finally stepping into your power. 00:00 - Intro 4:10 - Resilience  6:05 - Environment Matters 8:10 - Unlearn Negative Beliefs 10:51 - Shadow Work 13:26 - Facing the Truth 19:33 - Facing Shame 21:23 - Forgive Yourself 30:55 - Perspective and Processing 41:48 - Not Staying Stuck 46:04 _ Challenging Yourself  48:25 - Privilege  49:34 - Healthy Positivity  53:41 - Rewards  56:59 - Conclusion

In this episode, we dive deep into the relationship with self—how self-love and self-hatred shape how we see the world and others, especially children. I share my personal experience and some things I've learned from therapy. I'll discuss why children’s raw authenticity is beautiful and deeply uncomfortable for many adults. We’ll also talk about how children are the most oppressed and marginalized group in the world, why reconnecting with your inner child is crucial for dismantling self-hatred, and how advocating for children starts with healing yourself. Finally, we unpack the discomfort of love—why it’s necessary, why it’s hard, and why it’s the foundation of human thriving. 00:00 - Intro 5:24 - Self Hatred 22:03 - The Authenticity of Children 34:29 - Reconnection 40:56 - It's all about Love 59:41 - Conclusion

In this episode, I’m getting real about aging as a woman. Patriarchal society has told women that aging is a curse and something to dread, and that beauty has an expiration date. But that is simply not the truth. In this mini, I share my thoughts on why holding positive perspectives on aging isn’t just healthier, it’s actually more realistic. I reflect on my 20s, how aging has been a blessing, and why beauty doesn’t have to fade as quickly as society makes us think. Time is precious, and there's nothing to fear, but only things to look forward to.    00:00 - Intro 3:55 - Societal Expectations 10:47 - Perspective 14:36 - The Value of Youth 19:55 - Conclusion

Have you ever had a hoe phase? In this episode, we explore the concept of "hoe phases" and whether they are truly necessary for sexual fulfillment. I dive into the impact of social conditioning on different genders and sexual orientations, the value of celibacy, and how to question your true, authentic desires. I hope you enjoy, and Merry Chrysler! 00:00 - Intro 4:06 - Hoe Phases 11:09 - Social Conditioning 16:38 - Questioning Yourself  23:50 - Gender and Sexuality 33:57 - Celibacy 39:16 - Valuing Yourself 47:43 - Conclusion 

In this episode, we discuss how to take charge of your life and not let past cycles control you. I share key practices that have helped me, like identifying toxic patterns, embracing accountability and self-awareness, and committing to healthier perspectives. I also talk about the power of community and how loving fully—yourself and others—is the foundation of living authentically. This episode is very personal for me, hope you enjoy :)   00:00 - Intro 6:59 - Identifying Patterns 10:54 - Having a Choice 13:18 - Accountability & Self-Awareness 21:47 - Healthy Mindset 26:11 - Be Emotional 29:20 - Self-care & Community 32:31 - All About Love

In this mini-episode, I dive into the link between the desire for fame and childhood neglect or trauma. I share my personal experiences with seeking fame, the need for love and validation, and why fame often falls short of bringing happiness. I also discuss the importance of healing, moving beyond black-and-white thinking, and the importance of adopting a more flexible mindset. Enjoy!:)   00:00 - Intro 1:44 - Childhood 3:15 - Fame vs Success 5:07 - Questioning Fame 8:49 - Ego 11:50 - Desiring fame isn't normal 13:31 - New Priorities 

In this episode, I explain why beauty, often seen as the key to self-esteem, can be an unreliable foundation for true confidence. We’ll discuss how beauty is subjective and doesn't have as much value as we give it, societal pressures, and how we can start building confidence beyond appearance. I also share my take on the Victoria’s Secret Fashion Show this year! Enjoy!

Overextending yourself for others can be a tricky thing. Is it always altruism born from empathy? Or is it something else rooted in the complete opposite? In this episode, we question whether certain acts of service are true empathy or people-pleasing. We discuss the difference between the two, trauma cycles, friendships, and more. Enjoy :)    00:00 - Intro 2:46 - Where it begins 7:34 - Childhood 15:48 - Empathy vs People Pleasing 23:48 - People Pleasers make bad friends 29:32 - Conclusion  

Greetings gurlz! This episode is all about how confusing it is to be a girl. I start this week's EP by sharing a few personal stories of some of my failed friendships. I talk my mistakes, the lessons I learned, and how I recovered from these friend heartbreaks. I end the episode by discussing how I navigate friendships now, and that a healthy mind and self-love are the roots of all great relationships.   00:00 - Intro 4:41 - Homoerotic Friendships 14:41 - My 3 Breakups 33:23 - My Approach to Friendships 40:39 - Good Company 43:20 - Conclusion 

Hi beautiful people! Today's episode is about what it takes to start new chapters in your life. I explain the difference between "starting over" intentionally and unintentionally. I also discuss the steps I took to make changes in my life, the fear of criticism, attachment to outcome, and integrity of art. 

This episode is not just about venereal disease. In this mini, I discuss the pros and cons of current hookup culture. I also talk about how casual hookups usually don't benefit women, the ways that hookup culture looks different in gay communities, and why I believe social conditioning plays a more significant role in this than nature.    Sidenote - I mention a research paper in this EP. I wasn't sure how accurate it was while I was filming, but I found the source and here it is: Emergence of a Peaceful Culture in Wild Baboons https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC387823/

I moved to Los Angeles in 2021 in pursuit of my dreams. That came with many blessings, but also baggage. In this episode, I share some personal stories about some of the strange and not-so-pleasant interactions I had in the entertainment industry. I also speak on the importance of protecting yourself, how I managed these situations, and how integrity and protecting your creativity are more important than fame. 

In this mini-episode, I discuss the transformative journey of reclaiming control over your life. I explore the crucial steps of healing your wounded parts, breaking free from a victim mentality, and embracing a mindset of healthy optimism. My own path to reclaiming power and ownership of my choices has been challenging, but it has led me to a place of unparalleled stability and grounding. I'll share personal stories, and discuss how true well-being is rooted in self-awareness and the recognition that you have full agency over your life. Along the way, I'll also offer some emotional tools that have helped me navigate difficult moments.    Thank you so much for listening, your support means everything <3 

Today's episode explores the value of doing social activities alone. I talk about the importance of attending music events, lunch, or traveling solo, and how this has been pivotal to my growth. Besame Mucho and Outside Lands are festivals I've gone to by myself, and they've also been some of the most fun. I discuss how spending time alone fosters independence, bravery, and potentially new friendships. Enjoy!

In this episode, we explore the topic of "pretty privilege" and ask if there are any downsides. The short answer is yes, but conversations around privilege commonly cause division and omit nuances necessary to understand the topics fully. I'll discuss how conversations around "pretty privilege" are often superficial and ignore broader societal implications. We'll also talk about how misogyny affects these dynamics, how pretty privilege works differently for men and women, and the impact of race on this topic.

Over a decade ago I was part of a religious cult. From the ages of 17 to 19 I was brainwashed and completely lost in life. In this episode, I talk about my catholic upbringing and how that influenced my behaviors, I speak on how I fell into a Christian cult, the consequences I suffered after leaving, my opinions on religion, and the lessons I learned.    It's been over ten years since this happened and I'm still healing from it. My hopes for this episode are that it shines a light on the potential dangers of fundamentalist religion and that it can help the people who relate. 

What do I mean sucking your own dick?! This means you must acknowledge that you are THAT BITCH, and walk in confidence! This Mini episode is about the importance of giving yourself credit. I discuss topics like knowing how to receive compliments, confidence vs. arrogance, and humility. Enjoy, bitch!

In this episode, we explore what it means to be a "pick-me" and how to dismantle the conditioning many women have experienced that fosters these traits. We'll dive into the different types of "pick-me" behaviors and how they impact other women. I'll also speak on how this relates to sex work and discuss the essential inner work needed to build self-esteem. I talk about self-worth, the difference between confidence and insecurities, the commitment to healing and growth, and of course, like always, I share personal stories and how this topic has played a role in my life.     

In this episode, we're talking all about dating intentionally. I'll discuss how large cities like LA are not the problem. I'll share my dating journey, including the highs and lows, and reveal how I managed to turn dating into a fun and exciting experience. I'll also discuss why having a positive attitude matters, the importance of raising your standards, turning heartbreak into turn-offs, and the value of emotional regulation while dating. Enjoy! 

Welcome to the pilot episode of Cuntfessionals! I'm so excited to have you join me on this journey. In this episode, I dive deep into my personal experiences of pursuing my dreams in Los Angeles and the hurdles I faced while leaving behind toxic environments. We'll explore strategies for overcoming self-doubt, maintaining a child-like spirit, and the essential steps to living an authentic life. Additionally, I'll touch on ego and identity, offering insights and reflections from my own life. Enjoy!