Diary Of A Codependent Love Addict
by Michael Jones
Join my on my journey to recovery. I've spent a majority of my life catering to others (Primarily women), scared to speak up for myself, and being in one failed relationship after another. I'll talk about how I've learned to set boundaries, forgive myself and others, solve problems, and allow others that solve their own problems. This is a story of redemption.Email: [email protected]: https://www.facebook.com/codependentloveaddict/
Episodes
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Friends, how many of us have them?
The theme of this episode came from an 80's hip hop/rap group, Houdini, and I thought it would bring back some nostalgia. The title is appropriate for today's podcast. Many of the people mentioned in the podcast dhe person that I am today. They kept me out of trouble and took pity on a young boy...
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Why am I in trouble?
When I was a child andheard my name called in a specific way, I had the feeling that I was in trouble. I felt this way for the longest time, even when I didn't have a reason to be. Now as an adult, I'm tapping into why I get those scared and insecure feelings whenever my name is called.
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Lovely senorita
today's episode is about how I Fall In Love quickly only to regret later on. I one time while I was in high school met up with a new girl, and asked her out to lunch numerous times. she broke down and said yes. let's just say our time having lunch together wasn't all it was cracked up to be.
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Past problems
This episode talks about how I became a codependent love addict. Helen was an alcoholic who was angry at herself for getting pregnant by a man who had no desire to take care of a child. As I got older, I became a punching bag for Helen's regrets. The more I sought her approval, the angrier she...
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Shout out!!
Today's episode is about gratitude, and how things can just happen out of nowhere. today's shout out goes to a loyal fan named Michelle. Michelle emailed me recently to let me know how much she enjoys listening to my podcast. Michelle took things one step further by joining me in a 12-step…
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Reparenting myself
Today's episode focuses on how I am learning to re-parent it myself. It's been a long journey, but with persistence, I've been able to make a lot of improvements.
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Visions and goals for 2024
Welcome to another year! What are your goals and visions for the new year?
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My first crush!
The time is the early 70's. I'll lose my best friend to the military, but find another friend through a neighbor.
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Beginning of the end.
Every end has a beginning. I'll talk about how the death of my mother (Helen) started the road to recovery.
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What my recovery looks like.
My recovery changes week to week. But the one thing that is a constant is that I'm aware of my recovery. My recovery is on 24 hours a day. In this current episode, I talked about my recovery, and how it's affecting me currently.
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Dating as a love addict
Overtime I've had some messed up relationships. A majority of what I've learned I've learned through mass media, and friends. I'm finally in a relationship that has some substance, and I'm going to be discussing that in this episode.
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Things happen when you have Covid
The month of June was busy, and I apologize for not having an episode. Last week I contracted Covid, and it almost sent me on a tailspin. Luckily my mind recovered, and has me on the path to good health.
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A month of reflection.
A lot can happen in 30 days. During the time between my last podcast and today, My girlfriend had to put her dog down, and the companion dog lost it's eyesight and may need to be put down as well. in between this, my best friend's dad passed away. At some point, I needed to take time to reflect…
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Dealing with mental health issues.
I'm so sorry that I left a lot of you hanging. I've had a lot going on the past few weeks. I helped out my daughter with some mental health issues, and it made me realize that I hadn't touched on things that have affected me recently. In a previous podcast I talked about how sometimes people who...
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We all have a story.
Before going to 12 step programs I thought that my story was unique and I was the only person who had things that happened to them. Once I started going to 12 step programs, I realized that other people have the same story as I did.
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Role models
I grew up without any guys guiding me. I often wondered how different my life could have been, had I found men who could have mentored me. It's only been a few years that I've found men (Both real and fictional) that I could draw from.
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Rising like a phoenix from the financial ashes.
I can remember saying to myself as a child why are we poor the fact was I was not poor at all as children we say things like this because we feel like we have control over the situation I had no access to money but my mother did this poor mentality as a child led me to continue the same patterns…
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Valentine's day for dummies
Valentine's day has been a sore spot for me in the past. Spending lots of money and time, only to feel disappointed in the end. With a new relationship, came a new way of doing things. Like Valentine's day. Listen to how I circumvented the process in 2022.
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Sober living! The place to be!
Before I entered 12 step programs, I 1st had to find a place to live. I ended up staying in a sober living house with other addicts. They addicts that lived there were primarily drug and alcohol related addicts. I learned how to co-exist with men who's addictions were similar to qualifiers I…
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Michael's laundry list part 2
This is a conclusion of the 1st seven laundry list Items from 2021. You'll hear the definitions, along with how the list played out in my life.
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I'm back!!!
Just a little something to let you know what I've been up to since my last podcast. I needed to take mental health break from the various projects I had going on. I've reduced a good number of projects, and now ready to focus my attention on things I enjoy doing. I look forward to taking you on...
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Michael's laundry list
I'm going to go over adult children of alcoholics 14 traits known as the laundry list. In this episode I'm going to do the first seven, and in the next episode I'll do the remaining seven traits.
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Oneitis
Oneitis: (Slang)(Noun) attraction towards a single potential partner to the exclusion of other possible partners. As a love addict, I've had my fair share of oneitis. A simple smile would turn into fantasizing about them and then obsession. I would become laser focused on one person, and not...
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Signs of enabling.
In my addiction I've enabled various qualifiers. Here are some signs of enabling and how I managed to enable others. These signs of enabling are reproduced from www.nedratawwab.com
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Reset button
What would you do if you could reset on an event or events in your life? It could be for a day, week, month, year or entire life. I'm interested in getting to know how you are resetting your life. I can be reached at [email protected]. You can also find Diary of a codependent love...
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God grant me the serenity.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. 12 step programs start with this or some variation of the serenity prayer before during or after a meeting the dictionary defines serenity as a state of...
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Characteristics of codependency - part 2
In my previous podcast I went over the first six of 13 characteristics of codependency. Today I'll be covering the remaining seven.
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Characteristics of codependency - Part 1 of 2.
I came across this information while browsing an adult children of alcoholics group that I belong to on Facebook. Along with the characteristics, I've added how some of these characteristics have influenced my life. I've found this information useful and thought I'd share them with you.
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Tag you're it!
What would you do if you found out that your addictions are not only subject to you, but have been in your family for many generations? It's usually through casual conversation with your family members that you find out that others have the same symptoms that you've had for years. I wouldn't be...
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Graduation day!
Throughout my entire life I had to be in control of everything. If I wasn't in control of everything, I felt out of place and not needed. Only recently have I been able to reduce the amount of control that I have. My daughter recently graduated from high school, and I eliminated the need to be in...
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And now a word from your Higher Power.
Have you ever had a God shot? Do you know what a God shot is? I cannot tell you how many times my Higher Power has talked to me about something that was in my mind and on my heart. Today's journal entry discuses my experience with God shots.
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Facebook taught me a valuable lesson.
Social media has made it easy to delve into the world of fantasy. Initially when I started on Facebook, it was just to reconnect with old family and friends. But as time went on, I ended up checking out old classmates, and hoping they were single. I realize that social media has its ups and…
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Michael's top recovery movies and tv shows.
For some strange reason, I can sniff out movies and tv shows that deal with some type of addiction. I don't know if that's a good or bad thing. I couldn't list all of my favorites, as this podcast would go into hours. I tend to go into character analysis, and direction. This wouldn't be good.…
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Papa's got a brand new excuse.
I've always been a fan of The Fresh Prince of Bel-air. I've probably seen each episode at least a half dozen times (Thanks to reruns.) My favorite episode yet painful one is "Papa's got a brand new excuse." That episode brings up lots of emotional baggage. I've since dealt with the abandonment...
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Still haven't found what I'm looking for.
Throughout my life, I was on a quest to find my spiritual path. I've been a Catholic, Baptist, New age, and Unitarian. When I got into the 12 step process, I realized that I found what I had been looking for all along. I found spirituality and not religion. With religion there are rules and...
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Wait! Am I dating my mother?
I really couldn't tell you how many failed relationships I've had over a span of 40 years. I can tell you that they all had the same characteristics: needy, low self-esteem, insecure, and also codependent. Two codependent souls does not make for a stable relationship. A few years ago I decided to...
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Diary Of A Codependent Love Addict (Trailer)
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Beginnings
Hello I'm Michael, a codependent love addict. I didn't know what that meant until I went to my 1st SLAA (Sex & love addicts) meeting. Having already done 12 step work up n Al-Anon, I was familiar with the process. The 12 step process has allowed me to heal the adolescent & young adult that was...
About this show
Join my on my journey to recovery. I've spent a majority of my life catering to others (Primarily women), scared to speak up for myself, and being in one failed relationship after another. I'll talk about how I've learned to set boundaries, forgive myself and others, solve problems, and allow others that solve their own problems. This is a story of redemption.Email: [email protected]: https://www.facebook.com/codependentloveaddict/
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