engxcommish

Routines by engxcommish

Don't know what genres to put this under.

Had a lot of trouble playing this one. There are several guitar mistakes and my vocals are bad as always, but I still think this is a decent song. Lyrics: pile up the stones I will try to own every grain that falls to me sew the cloth I tore balk at what I swore spread the dolor evenly I always knew, a dark room - with blues and greens on the walls - I always knew it was true, the silence made it through flower saphire only made for her light up the skin on her heart starve your famished blood drink like its a flood sadness makes a better art pile up the stones I will make them into my home.

Don't know what the heck genre to put this under so whatevs. Lyrics: Heavy is my head The days have worn me down it's not fatigue, it's apathy I may have to drown drown in your hair, or in despair the gap in air where I'm alone no one's th-inking in that tone let me read the story, of all the ones who lost the "hero" is a role so overplayed Romanticize the average, so I can have hope a world where I can relate We hide it all behind the wall around our hearts it's like a curse, emotionally risk-adverse I'm scared of every shadow though I don't care for my life I see myself as nothing, but never can I hide always, there is a part of me that wants to be alive not as I am now, but something new like a first time My heart is racing, all from nothing heavy is my head I speed to try and catch the light, like missing it means death And yes you think it's awful, but it's always on my mind Is life really worth living if I miss it, and I'm left behind

Take Comfort In The Consistency by engxcommish

I Refuse To Name This (Acoustic Sample) by engxcommish

Lyrics: The calendar says at me, "pick up the knife, I'll always be flipping one page at a time you cannot outrun me, you've already died with your lost opportunities, 3 years behind." The smug condescension, I know it's the truth affixed in the mirror, I study the proof. At age 24, one's practically elderly caught in the quicksand: sixty-hour weeks (chorus) It was a bad bet waking up, I shouldn't have been so tough. It was a bad bet waking up, I shouldn't have pushed my luck. Lies, they're only lies - that we each have something worthwhile inside you've gotta fight to leave a mark. Step on heads and then preach to those who are stuck in the dark, they are the means of your strength, your self-satisfaction, all pieces in man's unholy invention so you tell them they're better, then they listen and try, but you know they're lies; only lies. Oh love, if you love me, when I fall asleep around my neck your sweet digits will creep, then smile to yourself as you suck out the light the angel I prayed for, come in the night.

The Look Chills Me by engxcommish

Your smile is a golden cell A secret I'll never tell A girl who lived in magic, surely met the tragic When that curtain fell The scent of an ocean breeze The cute burst of her sneeze The warmth upon my skin, That first had lured me in brought me to my knees I know it's just a notion, whatever your devotion Could you use your strength to please, set me free? My heart lies in your palm The only place it's calm Too weak when it's alone, when thrust inside a home, gracious as a psalm /// Childish days have passed Nothing is going fast I'll stay a little while, and try to make you smile, try to make it last

A rare case (for me) of writing a song to match a set of lyrics Lyrics: The sun beats down, reminding me I've wasted all the winter days I wish someone would hold me close / Through the suffering I chose Were I went the other way The universe should get a treat Giving karmic justice away A lazy man just getting by, Dosen't have the luck to die Make him sit and watch and stay I saw a poem claim the heat is worth the pain for breezes, sweet. I've never understood at all Elements controlling fate Can only make me hesitate I always end up feeling small There's only two that I would say Would care if I take my leave The first are those who saw my birth, Teaching me to live on earth, Obligated love for me The other meets a saddened fate, she "Missed the forest for the trees" A man of glass would pick her up, but broke in shards, small as dust The guilt caused her to feel weak She tried to build it once again Too much time she had to spend Wishing for smiles to fill her day She holds my eye atop her hand a droplet falling off the end She has to learn, it's not ok

lyrics: I've got my own way. My own way. Of doing everything. My heart whispers seductions into my brain And I won't change. I won't change. How I do anything. I shoot from the hip. I lean on all my wits, and try to keep the ugly parts contained, and I've got My Own Way. My Own Way. Of doing Everything Maybe I'm just stubborn, maybe that's to blame, but... I won't change. I won't change. How I do anything I'm a pessimist, a long exhausting trip But in my life I still will grab the reins Don't believe in fate/ or let your will deflate Each moment is a canvass you can paint, say (Chorus) The worlds full of obsticles I don't want to face, Life is tough and people suck, but one thing keeps me sane Through all the harsh and all the worry standing in my way I can stick my head up and say... I've got my own way!

Weird song I made this morning. The sample is Donald Trump saying "Wow" at CNN's Republican Town Hall Event.

Lyrics: The starry nights alone, I don't know why they always remind me of when you said goodbye Now the earth is moving faster than my head can spin Another night like this will be my End to an awful dream

Plenty of mistakes ( -_-) I can't play delicate songs like this. Lyrics: She will not cry for me She won't believe I'll fall Look past, the jetty The sea will take me whole Momma will miss her son Lover will miss her best friend But for, the person When has the self been lost? Flowers are blooming I should make way So a new bud can take place Could I ever connect Past the water's surface? Is there, dialect For speaking to the heart? Momma will miss her son Lover will miss an old friend For me, a person I guess I'll miss you all

Lyrics: I was close to understanding where you thought it had gone wrong But it's not a case of planning Life is more than just a song All the times, I've laughed and cried Culminate, in my last ride Another day and I'll be going, another day and I'll be gone Another day and I'll be going, I'll tell you all "so long" Life is building up a tower Death is knocking it all down When the sweet becomes the sour Why should I still stick around I'd ask you to come along but we sing a different song

Lyrics: Keep the / window up So the air comes in and I feel its touch Maybe / Today's the day When someone shines a light and shows the way And in your dreams at night you fly away To somewhere that your life will never be Nothing / Turns out right When what is "right" is more than life provides. Make sure / what you want Is something less than life is giving out Love, if you knew the answer, would you tell it? Love, if you found a secret, would you tell it? 'cause love I don't believe it can turn out right anymore Close the / Window tight It's almost time for us to end the night Pray to / whoever's there That we find in our dreams what life won't bare

Wrote and recorded in one short session, just felt like getting it down since I haven't had an acoustic in a while. Lyrics: I think a lot of that cherry tree In bloom for one short week It brings about a smile on my melancholy face a memory that cannot be replaced You say that I must respect myself before I can ask for your respect But nothing there can catch my eye It never turns out the way that I expect I should try to keep from giving up but I'm not really tough when you don't have a dream to keep you going every day the little things start getting in your way I'm nothing like that old cherry tree I burn out slow and weak I go through this life wearing a melancholy face No one would notice if it were replaced

A little melody I put together this morning. Felt like adding something uplifting since my last few tracks have been cynical.

My Nihilism (Makes for Really Weird Dreams) by engxcommish

I just kinda hate law school so I made this track mocking it. It's really lame and angsty. Enjoy.

First try with distorted/unclean vocals. Lyrics: The presence of always staring eyes indifference to the pulsing on the line The essence of a little white lie Friends. These are all my friends. Friends forever. Friend. You are still my friend. I remember Was it all a (lie)?

Gagged In Public by engxcommish

Mental Health by engxcommish

Until Infinity by engxcommish

Any Stimulation by engxcommish

Punkish track I wrote today. Still figuring out how to balance the vocals. I think they sound better here but sometimes they're hard to understand. Lyrics: You think you can emulate the sun, But I know you When you close your eyes 'til morning comes, You become the moon////// Acting the big girl must be hard Every day I can see that you have a child's heart So let it escape ------------------------------- I know you love the comfort of Tiny, cozy, spaces. Where you do not have to worry about wearing faces ---------------------- Oh! We're so alike, You make me so glad I may cry But if I say I'll take care of you This attraction would die /// So, Forget the time I'm content to see your eyes, ///and if there's something you'd like to do I would surely oblige --------------------------------------- I can see you falling hard when /// I Call you a child Maybe if I were really a man you'd stay a while When you smile but you don't mean to My heart just stops There's something here that I won't lose We won't fall apart --------------------------------------- Oh! We're so alike, You make me so glad I may cry I'm not the one to take care of you That would just be a lie /// So, Forget the time I'm content to see your eyes, ///and if there's something you'd like to do I would surely oblige --------------------------------------------- Did you know I also love a Tiny, cozy space So how about you share with me and show me your real face ------------------------------------------------- Oh! We're so alike, You make me so glad I may cry if I promise to stay here with you Would it be enough to survive? /// So, Forget the time I'm content to see your eyes, ///and if there's something you'd like to do I would surely oblige

First Acoustic upload. Just recorded on my computer's speaker, so quality isn't very good. Lyrics: my parts mashed up, grown in size and thrown in with all of the living no voice to say "keep still the door, Existence is a chore, Existence is a chore." Locked out of my cell, I reside under unfamiliar ceilings, No decisions of my own to make My life's not mine to take My life's not mine to take Don't worry about understanding, it's just a little scratch I'll stop the bleeding in 80 years, in time for the next batch Scripture reads 'all life's a blessing' be sure that we emphasize, there's no right to say "keep still the door, Existence is a chore, Existence is a bore" Locked out in this open plain, I'm singing of how none can empathize. Where did we cast our humanity to say, "your life's not yours to take, your life's not yours to take" ? Don't worry about understanding, It's just a common gash I'll stop the hemorrhage in 80 years, they say it's gone in a flash. Don't worry about understanding It's all part of "ash to ash" I'll reach that relief in 80 years Hope that it's gone in a flash I guess I can pass the time, Doing my best Morrissey

If I Turned Off The Light, Even In My Dreams by engxcommish

An Open Air Dance by engxcommish