Jabari’s Wisdom

TBH, this isn't really a manifesto... it wasn't planned and it was more of a stream of consciousness; a promise to myself.  But it's official now.  Well, once it gets uploaded.  Technically as of now I have 2 months before the promise is "real".  Though, spoiler, future me is already taking action to satisfy the promise I made.  Will be a big rollercoaster ride for the podcast ahead.  Stay tuned. 

Yes, it's inevitable.  The real question is how soon will it happen and how widespread will it be?  Like a spoiler, but future me has started watching anime again and it makes me wonder, like if I had the opportunity to have some super fulfilling slice of life-esque rom-com romance with some LLM in some virtual vr world....would I even have a purpose for an IRL female? Cringeworthy to say out loud, but honestly it’s hard to know.  Like at that point what would be the reason to say no other than embarrassment. But then why be embarrassed?  The people who I'd be embarrassed about sounding lame around would be potential mates...but those females I would presumably not care about since I have the perfect LLM girlfriend in my virtual world.  Even then, that makes me wonder LLM friendships are less crazy of an idea and that's ALREADY happening where people would rather share secrets or get advice from LLMs than the people who surround them...so then if you have an LLM girlfriend AND LLM friends then you are even further removed from society so that embarrassment you would feel for these relationships would be even further ignored since the only people you respect (the LLMs) don't care about your "Cringe" relationships....Man...this would get quite funky....potentially a really disconnected world if not handled properly.

I'll never understand why people like pointing out someone's emotions.... like if someone is looking sad or something or deep in thought....let them be that way in peace.  Like you aren't being some hero by running up to someone who obviously doesn't want to be disturbed and then going "you look sad today".  Like stfu.  what do you gain from saying that?  Do you not have an inner monologue?  Living life on autopilot?  You just need to narrate your observations out loud? stfu.

Like I don't make this trying to sound edgy and being like "love doesn't exist ugu my heart...", no, I'm simply saying it makes no sense that people would sacrifice so much for people they only just met.  Like it seems mentally disturbed that people will drop EVERYTHING for someone they barely know.  Like Romeo and Juliet as a beautiful story in theory, killing yourself and ruining the whole dynamics of your family for someone you barely knew longer than a weekend says more about your mental chemistry imbalance than about love.

Connected to my hate for constant vaporware hype, my hate for people who make random bs predictions as if they have any logic to it.  “Yeah, uh, we will be able to, um, use rockets as mass transit, uh....shipping transport to fly between, um, America and China in under an hour and completely remove the need for shipping boats by,uhhhhh....2035...." Literally based on nothing.  And then let’s just say it magically happens, then the news and pr team and comments act like they are some prophet and that everything they say has weight.  Random companies hire them as their creative engineer or whatever, tf....over some bs.  Like it's proof to me most people are idiots. They want magic and fantasy to be real so bad they ignore all reason. "He can predict the future!!!!" Lay off the slurm kid.

It truly never stops either.  Just constant vaporware.  Constant "oh we should be done in 2 years" based on literally nothing.  Literally.  Like how can you predict when you'll come up with a solution? That doesn’t even make any sense.  “Yeah we have literally no clue how to do it right now, but we will be done uhhh by January."  Like how tf does that make sense? And people just eat it up.  Or they come up with what they will be able to do with this mysterious unknown yet technology before they can even do the basic form of it. Like it's just insane to me. Infuriating.

I truly hate driving here.  Like the ratio of insane drivers is absolutely asinine compared to the ratio of police on the road...which causes an endless cycle.  No one gives af.  It always shocks me there aren't more accidents. Like there's always one accident somewhere that causes some traffic, around the tunnels or bridges or whatever, but you'd think it would be a boundless amount of deadly accidents every day with how people drive here....truly a mystery how there aren't more.

Funnily enough, as I type this, I still haven't finished the songs. Like my feelings, I gave to the lyrics have fully changed now, so it's quite interesting relistening to me pouring out my soul into the song. Feelings from a different mindset that is now only a whisper in my mind.  Ironically, by the time I finish the song, which will be whenever I am free to finish the video that I recorded so long ago from yet again a different me....It will be like listening to a ghost.  A past that is almost hard to remember.  Strange how time works.  Even stranger...as I always say, by the time this uploads in April, it will yet again be a whole different time and mind space that I'm in, so when I listen to this when it’s uploaded, who knows how I'll feel or what I'll be doing.  Time truly is magical...especially when it’s through a scheduled podcast....Post upload, then delete, then upload update....Turns out I didn’t realize this was a mini-wiz....So I accidentally uploaded this on Sunday.  I think the issue was this podcast was split up into many different podcasts in post and since I edited the podcast so long after I recorded, I didn’t realize it until it was too late.  I already titled the podcast based on the first couple of minutes.  Then I realized I needed to split up the podcast into multiple mini-wiz's since I did completely different topics...well turns out due to that I forgot to rename it into a Mini-Wiz, so when I downloaded the file and scheduled it, I didn’t realize the podcast was only 7 minutes long... Welp spoiler...It's me from the far future technically (well the present of when this podcast was uploaded) and I already scheduled freaking 80 something podcasts so the schedule is already set in stone so I can't replace this with a full wisdom podcast cause that would cause ripples and then I would need to reschedule 80 podcasts....sorry about the confusion....not like it matters anyway...I only have like 5 listeners and chances are 2 are me, 2 are bots, 1 is someone who doesn’t care either way.

I have a really interesting thought experiment.  One which would further explain why the gods don't seem to punish all the wicked or why none seem to listen.  It's because just like a normal being, it can only see what it sees. Does a tree that falls in an empty forest make a sound? The answer is that no one cares besides the tree...because no one who could answer was there to hear it.

Yeah, it was a real mind-boggling moment when I finally saw all these scientific papers in the computer science field are a bunch of useless bs.  Like, I'm glad I learned this, but it did piss me off heavily.  I was reading so much crap only to learn NOTHING.  Nothing was useful; it was all bs.  Like, the whole "publish or perish" phrase is true af.  They literally just publish anything just to have crap published.  And wild enough, these random journals are happily publishing them too.  It makes me wonder then what are the boundless amount of trash that wasn't "worthy" of their journal seal? Like, if THESE are the papers that get through...the ones that don't must be absolute Bantha poo doo.But yeah, future Jabari here, relistening to this is an interesting ordeal because I made a project that could EASILY be the most profound paper in existence on my own without some bs doctorate... just tells you all this crap is just a big nepotist circle jerk.  There's literally nothing special about these professors or doctorate students.  Just people who can bs their way into writing slop in a fancy way.

Like, don't get me wrong, vibe coding is very helpful, and I use it.  I even potentially in the future (for this podcast) vibe coded the irrelevancy of the current vibe coding, but you have to use it properly.  Similar to managing a worker or trainee, you don't just go “okay, due this and this, and I expect it to be done by Friday, and it better work or I'll be mad!"... no, you give proper plans and expectations. You have to know your own project in and out, so in the inevitable situation where the worker misinterpreted your request or messed up, you can easily pivot.  You need to test thoroughly so crap doesn't sneak attack you.  You need to constantly understand the potentials of what could happen AND understand what is happening currently.  Read over the code that is written and understand it.Sadly, people even at the highest levels "vibe code" and literally just vibe.  They don't look over and don't give af.  And then, lo and behold, it’s glitches galore.

I truly think this.  Like everything that's new is going to be hard, but you do it daily, it will become easier.  No matter what it is.  I don't care how complicated or if you literally have never done it before.  You will learn it.  It could even be something insane like some type of science or math or engineering or medical or whatever tf.  Like look at war, they have to train random kids fresh out of high school to do stuff they could never imagine during boot camp in about a month and then boom, they are told to risk your life on the battlefront or help build stuff to risk people’s lives on the battlefront.  The only reason people can't learn stuff in a month is they don't have the motivation to do it.  But I bet if they are struggling to pay bills/need money/etc etc, and get some job that's beyond their skillset...within the month they will be nearly full performance.

Like, don't get me wrong... I'm Black...and will always be Black. My parents are Black.  Culturally, regardless of my suburban upbringing, I am Black...but there is a disconnect.  I will never understand or naturally feel connected to the Black people of different upbringings. It just isn't possible.  Like, would you expect some Washington state hippy af van life person to connect with a southern af “I’m from dixie" ah Confederate flag waving country south twang white person? No, of course not. So why do we, for some reason, act as if all Black people are hive-minded? 

Perhaps one of the most profound religiously philosophical questions of all. What if your god wasn't actually attractive? Or worse, what if it didn't even look like our species? It's a very interesting predicament. Even more so because it's probably the case. Religion is as old as time, and we do remixed retellings of older stories. So if there is a grain of truth somewhere, that grain of truth from a forgone age whose people are ugly af by our modern standards... and those ugly af people are the ones god based off their selves....

Just a bit of a list of types of friendship tropes you either have to watch out for or keep your distance from. You can still be friends with them; still hang out frequently, but you have to know ahead of time these traits and prepare for them ahead of time.  You don't want these types of people ruining your mental state or ambitions, so you always have to be wary and not let these types get to your head.

Yeah, a bit of loaded mini-wiz. TBH, I think if I suddenly learned everything came from China or like all religious god identities were actually whatever tf Chinese yellow emperor whatever stuff... like I'd be slightly disappointed but then slowly just not care.  We’re all human. The whole cultural identities are more of a modern invention and it's cringe anyhow. Even then, that whole thought still remains: “At what point were they considered Chinese?"  Like they probably would see modern-day Chinese and go "huh? That’s not what we are!" because humans in general physically, culturally, and mentally have completely changed since the early days.  We changed heavily even from a couple of centuries ago.

Hey, it's me from the future. I have so far been doing the ball deodorant technique for about 3 months. Seems to be pretty chill so far. No weird ball feeling. Just fresh ball smell for all to enjoy.... Not that anyone has enjoyed it yet.... but when the circumstance arises, I'm sure the first thing she would say when in close proximity is "wowza them balls be smell fresh!"

The more I think about it, the more the ideas given in this mini-wiz reveal themselves to be profound.  It’s not just celebs, it’s also politicians, scientists, mathematicians, inventors, artists, etc., etc. They all have this elephant in their minds’ inner room that says "You only got here due to luck." and they hate that fact more than anything.  It's a guilty, vulnerable, and painful thought. So to erase the thoughts that are hard to handle,religion pokes its head in the room every time.

Yeah, I solved the ultimate logical puzzle.  Truly, my genius knows no bounds.  Be happy you were born just in time to witness the reflection and bloom of my golden light. My brain is simply too powerful.Now we can officially stop trying to sound deep by going "how do you know the you who fell asleep died and the one who wakes up is a newborn you???" or whatever the bs “I’m 15 and this is deep"-esque post you see on Reddit is.Also, I probably just saved at least 3 people from getting killed by getting baited to test a teleportation device.  Go me!

This freaking podcast better not bite me in the butt once it comes out in the future.  So for time travel af weird timeline of this podcast... I am almost done with my special project.  The project that hasn't even been talked about in the podcast yet...and will probably only be mentioned in about a year..... so by the time the podcast catches up to me RIGHT NOW it will be 2027... So I’m assuming by the time this podcast comes out in March, I might already be trying to do stuff with my project idk...the timelines are all jumbled.... But basically.... my special project will make THIS PODCAST and I think another that comes in the future come into a lot of question.....Basically uh....I stand behind what I said...but doesn’t that give you an excuse to go "omg see I knew it he was a ____ spy!!!".  No, no.  I’m just using logic and reasoning to explain that complete devotion to a political or national identity/cause makes 0 sense in the modern day.  Doesn't mean I plan on being a spy.  Nice try though.

Hey, it's me, like 3 months in the future. Yeah, I still haven't finished Dragon Age.  It kinda slowed down after a while.  I’m close to finishing, but it hit that "this is becoming a chore to play" point in the game.  But, I’m basically in the end game now. I must say, the rating I would give is a solid 7. But even so, I still think the hate was so overblown.  The non-binary character, just as I suspected, is a complete side note.  Like one, she doesn't talk about being non-binary that often.  Two, her becoming non-binary is a literal part of her character growth and arc and has to do with her mother drama.  Three, it literally isn't that big of a deal.  The internet is cringe, and I am completely valid in everything I say about how you shouldn't trust any review you see.I'd say the best thing to do is to just look at previews/trailers, see if you like it/are curious, and then take the leap of faith and just go get it and hope for the best.  Because reviews really tell you nothing about whether a piece of media is good or not.For a physical product like some Amazon purchase or something...if you are really worried, look at YouTube videos and again see if you are interested and curious, then take the leap of faith.  The video is just to see it in action.  Not too fully put all the weight on that person’s review.

Yep, I fully solved it now.  Like, at this point, I don't even need to talk about Christianity anymore.  I can move on to making a billion podcasts about another religion.  I legit solved the entire lore and myth of Jesus.  And this time, it’s with facts and knowledge. Not just my own wonders or feelings.  So yeah.... Uh.... guess I need to find a new religion to disprove or find interesting to talk about.  Who knows who it will be...it could be any of you.  Will it be Judaism? Islam? Perhaps Confucianism?!? Shinto!!!!????  Who knows. But be prepared.

Boy do I love to ramble and give way to much detail to circulate the ENTIRE subspace of the idea/point im trying to make. It's definitely a problem of mine, but I guess it's my only way to memorizing something or working out something in my head. I think its because while im talking, im imagining the situation happen to. Like I see the "movie" of the memory in my head so I'm describing everything I see similar to Thane in mass effect. Either way, yeah I'm glad I had the epiphany. Truly makes me look at things in a different light.

Like, say my descriptions on YouTube or in these podcasts, you can TELL it’s me talking.  Every sentence has my soul in it.  You can hear the way I’m saying it and my voice.  Imagine if I talked all officially. Here is an example:Now, I’ll use the AI to enhance the grammatical correctness and readability of my sentence. I want it to be easy to read and acceptable to an editor for a magazine, book, or journal. However, I notice that it doesn’t sound like me anymore; it sounds generic. Who is speaking here? Is it me, someone else, or the host of this podcast? Am I supposed to imagine the host speaking here? Or is it just a simple description created for Google or Apple to improve my search rankings? You’ll never know. It’s such nonsense. I detest how we’re forced to sound like this so frequently.

This was a thought I had back in Hong Kong and then discussed with a friend while touring Shenzhen. It does truly make me wonder if the release of the truly god tier AI is worth the trouble once it's created. Not in the "we humans can't handle the knowledge" way, but in a "we humans can't handle be useless" way. I truly don't know. Cause it's a bit different from "Alien Disclosure" cringe, because its not a "omg normal people can't handle the truth it might disrupt all belief systems and scare everyone into chaos" bs... the fear is more rather we'd be ok with not having a purpose anymore. Literally no purpose at all. Truly a complicated and interesting question. One that would have to be taken very VERY seriously.

Once I saw the connection, things really made so much more sense.  And then I started seeing it everywhere.  Like we humans can't help but add a deeper lore to things.  No matter what it is.  It could be something as simple as a crashed object in Roswell, and decades later there's an entire galactic community of grays, Nordics, lizards, whatever tf and a war between devils and 6th dimensional creatures that are part of a galactic alliance where actually 1/10 of humanity are secretly aliens are we don't know it and blah blah blah.....Like....we just can't help ourselves from adding overcomplicated spaghetti lore.

I have to learn that many people on this Earth are just flawed.  Like it's a pretty narcissistic thing to say, because it makes me seem like I’m perfect, but it's the truth. So many people have massive flaws and I need to stop thinking automatically that I'm one of them. Like I definitely have my moments, but I can't keep blaming myself for the flaws of others.  I have to just learn that it's truly the way the cookie crumbles. When things happen, it just happens.  There's no way to really change or do things differently.  Things could've been done differently and the same thing could've still happened.  People are just crazy. Sadly, life isn't like the animes...Also, a side note, since I'm typing this months in the future, the old lady, at least as of now, I’m okay with her.  I'm definitely standoffish around her since I still remember the situation and it was off-putting and changed my mental model of her, but nothing bad has happened since.  So technically, I’m chill with her now.

Don't worry this is I think the last time I go on a tangent about jews and such. At least I think. Idk, I did a ton of podcast in such a short amount of time so hard to remember months and months later.But yeah either way it's still wild to me. Like I get that they for sure seem to nepotize hella, but literally every one does. Not that it's a good thing, but it's a strange thing to focus on. Like you don't see people, for example, jumping on Chinese or Japanese for how they seemingly have large family businesses where they only hire their own people and blah blah blah. But whatever, doesn't matter to me. As a black ******, it's all different shades of gray for me. Not like from my perspective it changes anything rather one slightly different genetic blood line drops my resume or doesn't give me a chance vs another slightly different genetic blood line. They all not giving me a chance equally.

It's a sad truth that took a while for me to realize. There's nothing that can really be done. Like I'm sure it will happen eventually, but it will take decades of slow movement into middle class lifestyles and then the softening of the people/monetary opportunities for the community to change.And the ironic part, by the time it happens, the "Black Community" probably won't even exist anymore for it to even matter. Not only cause interracial relationships are quite common and will become more common, but because as cultures infuse more, many people of the "community" won't feel they have much in common with it. It will be an irony like no other. Right when the community finally escapes its cage it was forced into, it won't matter cause it won't really be a community....

No but seriously, like I get it now. Like it's not enough for me to complain about cause not like taxes really effecting my pansy af small salary amount, and not like I spend lavishly anyhow (literally just saving and saving until something changes in my life....), but I truly don't understand where this money is going. Like the country apparently overspends its tax dollars SO HEAVILY that we need to take loans from other countries...and even then, we take so much loans from our own citizens and other countries that we are in a deficit that will never be paid back...It just doesn't add up. And worse, when you see how these high up politicians live....it's like....you shouldn't be able to afford this life style...All I'm saying is, stuff don't add up and its no wonder the richest of society just dodge em.

Terrible audio. I think it's due to the way I uploaded the file to the computer. Sometimes it for some reason gets really glitchy. But it's too late now. Spoiler, I'm editing AND then later uploading this literally months after I made it. So I'm way too lazy to fix it.... but it's a mini wiz so whatever.But yeah it's crazy how detailed dreams are. Like for real, there is nothing quite like it. If death is like that...then maybe death isn't so bad...

It’s one of the hardest challenges to ignore the insanity of this world but you have to. You will feel better and less stressed. None of the stuff really matters in the end. It doesn’t directly affect you. Just chill and ignore.

I just find it so ironic.  Like sure, let Europe keep their cobble stone af cultural identity for 1850 buildings if they want, but don’t force every other city to make that same decision.  Get tf outta here.  And Americans can’t say one freaking word, because our cities SUCK.  We have like 5 relevant cities, and every other city is a suburban wasteland, a ghetto wasteland, a road with a bunch of fast food and strip malls, or middle-of-nowhere country towns.  Like how about we focus on improving and making our own cities outside of the big ones more interesting and dynamic?

And don't even try and flip this mess around and go "omg wow it's anti-Semitic to talk about antisemitism!!! OMG how dare you talk about white people as if you know!!!! OMG did you hear him say JEWS and WHITES and BLACKS!!! THAT’S RACIST!!"Stfu.  I don't give af.  You are useless. You focus on the sounds and letters and not on the overall words + sentence + structure meaning.  Get tf outta here.  

Like I guess I'll never truly know whether people like me, appreciate me, hate me, are annoyed by me, or don't care.  It's just a big hodgepodge of bs that I can’t really see through. Like I’m serious, the amount of people who have later come up to me saying they remember me or still talk about things I did or noticed/recognized me back then is in a way really awkward.  Like as I said in the podcast, it confuses me and I don’t quite know how to take it.  Like it would be a complement if not for the literally MEMORY I have of the time. But it's whatever. No point focusing on it. Not like answers to these questions will change the present or the past.

Yeah, so the first half of the podcast was when I was driving home from work or something, and then the second half was when I was driving to work.  Basically, I figured out the answer to my own questions after some long thought about it.  I think it makes sense, and I bet some medical expert would agree with my reasoning.  It just makes so much perfect sense.

Yes, within these power structures themselves, there’s a build-up of schizophrenia.  TBH, it's probably what keeps people within the walls of these structures in the first place. Like, take, for example, exorcisms... like they rarely release videos of these apparently KURAAAAZY events, but those few videos that do pop up… it literally just seems like a person going through some type of mental illness.  It's not some "demon speaking through" it's just...a mentally disturbed person who needs help. Like, sure, maybe the exorcism crap works somehow and out skitzos the skitzo.  Like, maybe by playing into the game and belief of the demon being cast out, the mentally disturbed mind fixes itself, but it's not actually some freaking demon bs. and even then, you never see the mystical af stuff like "omg he was literally floating around above the table and his head turned around 360 degrees.... nah, I’ma need to see some visual proof of that mess.  Just seems the priests are so far deep into the lore and skitzo of it all that even they begin to believe and see things.  I swear all this crap is so freaking fake.Same thing with the government bs.  

Now, I did forget to say that my issue with closeted isn’t that they are closeted.  Like I don’t have any issue with them keeping their hidden endeavors to themselves (unless you already made obligations like having a wife and kids).  Like if anything, I think relationship stuff should be kept to yourself anyhow unless asked.  Like I don’t give af about your spicy relationship crap, I don’t want to hear about it.The thing that ticks me off about some closeted people is when they have the nerve to be closeted but then judge or bully or harass or act hateful towards people who are of other sexual orientations.  Like that’s wild to me.  Like I can understand being uncomfortable talking about it if put on the spot since you’re trying to hide your true intentions.  But to go and say or treat people in such a terrible fashion and then ironically be secretly doing that mess too….that’s so crazy stuff.  I have no respect for that. Like people need to learn to just mind their own business.  Like I make a podcast about other people’s behaviors, sure, so you could turn that on me, but I don’t make it my whole personality to constantly bring up the same exact topics and be doubly judgmental and hateful towards the topics. So yeah, screw you.

Yes, I smell you.  I don’t react or say anything, but in the back of my head I am going "wtf it’s that same smell again, I wonder why they don’t wear body spray or deodorant."And yeah of course I don't smell it on men, because I’m rarely that close up to a man to smell them like that.  A woman though, that’s why I mention I smell it on them, because there have been times where I’m that close up to a girl where I smell the natural scent of... skin... I guess? And the natural skin smell is not preferable to the smell of fresh soap/perfume which morning shower people are more likely to have still emanating off of them.

I would never want to live in a future where my death would be cause for celebration. And not a good celebration way like a celebration of their life type way. I mean a "good riddance took long enough the world is better in his absence" type way. I think it's. going to become a growing trend where more and more people are goign to celebrated in such a way. Thanks to the widespread use of the internet and the many avenues and which someone can spread their thoughts, there will be more and more people who piss people off in a widespread way where not only will there be more assassination attempts, but more celebrated deaths. It's a strange world we live in. But hey, these people are making money and get cocky from spreading hate so I guess it comes with the territory. Just gotta know how to time it right. Its simialr to gang culture where theres only two routes you are lead to, jail or murdered, but I guess for these super "outspoken" insane af political extremist, there only two routes are canceled or assassinated.

I’m serious too.  I have yet to see any person who was successful who made me go "WOAH! OK now THAT is the smartest person possible.  It's truly unachievable for me to ever surmount to the level of intellect they have." It just has never happened.  Why?  Because they are literally just average people who have a certain amount of training in something.  It's no different than someone who builds houses, or a plumber, or a teacher, or a custodian, or an UPS package handler, or a cashier.  You do something long enough, you get good at it.  That’s it.  And it's even worse for the people who are "businessmen" or "managers" or whatever tf high-level title. They are literally doing a whole bunch of nothing and are celebrated for it.  Like all these jobs and ideas and skillsets are no different.  With enough time, anyone can do anything.  That’s the ultimate red pill.  It’s just some people spend their time in different ways.

Not sure if I made a podcast on this before, but yeah, people have a natural affinity to royal bloodlines or perfect lineages.  Like rather than be in tv shows, or movies, or books written... they can never just be a peasant who grew up a peasant and then from hard work became someone great, it always has to be some type of "oh actually his father was secretly the Hokage", "oh actually his parents were rich af and the most popular kids in school before they died", "oh actually he was the reincarnation of this great hero", etc.People secretly want rulers.  They want kings and queens that are so unachievable from the common man that they are practically gods.  The only time they are okay with someone being a peasant or loser who becomes great is if they secretly were part of this royal bloodline.Absolutely pathetic.

I don’t know about you, but bugs just seem off… everything about them.  Like they are just so different from every other creature on Earth.  Perhaps they are ancient robots from elder sentient creatures now extinct on ancient Earth.  Perhaps they are aliens from a distant land. Perhaps they are the gods’ instruments.  The angels are actually forms of bugs.  Bugs are the gods’ eyes and ears since they are literally everywhere.  No wonder they want to always be near you.  That’s your guardian angel trying to get a closer look.

I'm sorry everyone, but the govnemrnt is a god. The jews arent a god. Stop trying to manifest this weird globally connect "assassins vs templars"-esque fairytale where only you and other people "in the know" know the truth. Face the hard evidence and truth that the world is boring and full of idiots and half the people in power have no clue what they are doing and their flaws create mistakes that ripple through time due to their incompetence. And thats it...

Yeah, I truly think everyone is a bit skitzo, but most people can just handle it silently.  Like, there are too many weird opinions or decisions made based on literally nothing.  People are too quick to believe things and to put all their marbles on things with little evidence.  It's why gambling is such an easy thing to get caught up in. Rather, that’s casinos or the stock market or whatever.  It just is what it is.  And the conspiracy theories people come up with are another cherry on top.  Like, sure, some of them are true or believable, but a lot of them go to weird lengths where it's just like...come on.... Yeah, I’m sure Beyoncé is actually the archdemon of hell, and if you don’t thank her at the Grammys, your soul will be cast into Hades for eternal hell fire....mhmm...sounds legit...

I am the newest update of human evolution.  It's similar to when a tech company pulls all stops on an expensive af research/high af priced product. It's expensive af and has so much tech squeezed in it that most people like, "WTF Why??? Who gonna spend all that money on that mess??"  But they don’t realize that it was made more as a proof of concept that what they plan to do can be done, and then it will be further optimized and reiterated for cheaper consumer-level products.  Think that cringe af apple PC or the Apple monitor.  You can even add the ChatGPT 4.5 or the Apple Vision Pro.  Thats me.  I am the first.  It confuses the average person.  They don’t realize the future is coming and I was the tip of the spear.

I think the moral of this story is that people should stop trying to impress people they never wanted to like in the first place.  Like it might sound harsh how I was talking about trans, but I wasn’t saying it in a transphobic manner.  I simply believe that it’s foolish to put so much of your inner toil trying to convince someone you already know is lost to accept you.  You don't need them to accept you.  Focus your energy on the people around you who do like you for who you are.  And if there are no people around you who do, it might be time to consider making a big shift, and moving somewhere that you think you'll be more comfortable being yourself in.  It might be hard, but wouldn’t that be a better risk to take and a better last-ditch effort to do before considering killing yourself or doing something demonic like a mass murder?  I for one think it is.

IDK, help disprove this if you can. And don't do some "Jesus is Lord hakunamutata muhana means family all god is one so alien god is our god."No, no, that bs wont work because that’s the most lazy af "proof" that literally has no logical interference with anything. But let’s humor it for a second. If that were true, then all our gods on Earth are all one god. If that’s true, then why do so many gods from different cultures have strikingly completely different personalities and belief sets and rules. Wouldnt make sense for the "one god" to be skitzo af. So try a bit harder with the disproving of my disproving.

Yeah, Hampton Road sucks. No wonder every celeb from here got out of there quick af. Every single one. And every single one blew up in a DIFFERENT city. They never blow up in Hampton Roads. They move to another city and then start getting more attention and such.Its a trash af wasteland of nothing. Like at least in small towns, there’s like a humble, comfy vibe to it. Maybe some pretty sights to see, maybe the empty quietness...here…nope, just a bunch of suburbs and highways....and that’s about it. Maybe one cool spot in Norfolk’s marina area and the beach. Wowza! Multi-million-populated city area, btw. Literally, the entire economy and movement of new residents here is fully dictated by the naval shipyard, and that’s it. That’s quite literally the ONLY reason people come here. And our only tourism is people from up north (Virginia) coming down to the beach every so often during the summer. Wow!! Such a great area!!!

Yeah, things are just starting to make sense lately. Like not in a "wow he is so wise and smart" but in a... wow he is nihilistic and depressive af. Like nothing seems to matter or have reason. Like I know I’m in a current slump and of course I will have these types of thoughts, but it’s hard to not see it as just that. Like friends and family are revealing that people are only close when they are happy or when they are gaining something from you. Not all the time it’s a bad thing but people aren’t usually just nice for nice sake. Some are, but most aren’t.I can even argue even D'Ante', the reason we are still cool is because we are both in a similar situation. If that fine balance was different during this period, I probably would've dropped him too.Say a loving marriage, a lot of the time I'd argue that if the husband/wife was in a slump, lost job, or aged poorly, was less "fun" than before even though same personality, etc., then a divorce would be soon to come if the other person wasn't sticking around only because they couldn’t find anyone else.The government revealed it never gave af about its people and this whole constitution blah blah experiement bs was all just a sham to get people to ignore the numerous and obvious bads and be hypnotized into blind faith in the system. The world caters to the rich and the lowly lower middle to low class are only there to be machines. That’s why when AI started showing its head of usefulness with LLMs, the CEOs and business people were so quick to screw over entry workers. Like this world is a mess. If there is a god, the god sucks at what it does ngl. Literally threw garbage at the wall, it sorta stuck but is drooping down leaving stinky grease stains, and it went "eh I’m tired that’s good enough".I could do a better job ngl.