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It has been 4 months. 4 months of non-stop rollercoaster. Behold, my chaotic, scatter-brained recap of my time away from the poddie.

I'm learning to appreciate normalcy but life keeps throwing curve balls at me as if I've trained with the Dodgers before. Welp, off we went.

I have spent so much energy this week I feel like those dehydrated bodies from "3 body problem" on Netflix. No that was not a plug, I wish I was sponsored or compensated by how many times I've mentioned that show but yes- chaos, confessions, and all-star sports day ensues.

Let me just summarize trip by saying, anything that could have gone wrong, went so damn wrong. The rest is history- documented in this nearly 2-hour podcast. Start that crockpot ladies and gents, we bout to braise in my bruises.

Oh, you are in for a treat. I'll be spring-cleaning my thoughts from when we left off last year: a last-minute trip to Hong Kong, starting a new job, finally having my first mental breakdown this year (since the past 2 years), receiving an audiobook audition, and my latest obsession on Netflix - the 3 body problem. The end of 2024 was literally a crazy mess.

I finally succumbed to the idea that I wanted to "x-ray" my overthinking brain so I could better understand myself and stop spiraling in my head. So, there was this comprehensive test and- the good news is, I learned a whole lot more than I had anticipated; the bad? welp, I'm not sure if it helped my brain or added another layer right on top. Fair warning, you're about to dive DEEP into my brain as we delve into my traits for the next hour and a half of questions and analysis. *jokes on me I got sick on Sunday so this podcast is going out before the actual recap one I was suppose to record today*

I apologize in advance for the amount of sneezes you'll hear in this podcast. She's just a sick girly trying to follow through with her plans. Here is the podcast finally bridging the last time we spoke, until the reason why I'm sick and sounding like Donald Duck for 40ish minutes straight. From discovering my GOAT anime to the last week working at my current job- you are in for a ride.

Only 70 days left before the year wraps up, and life is still living it up. I've had the most unexpected week: from munching on tortillas straight from the bag to APCC's second work review, and even planning for the next short-form series. It's been quite the experience. Join me as I unravel the chaos in my mind and share the visualization of my thought process before my memory fades away.

It's the most wonderful time of the year (no it's not December)!! Autumn is finally here, so it's about time for my crispy over-dyed hair to "leave" as well. I finally decided to adult and booked my annual haircut appointment before taking on another set of weekend shenanigans that involved my absolute favorite sport and my favorite gato. Sit back and enjoy as I recount my week through a dozen verbal "typos."

There is a famous saying that goes something like this: 'If you are the biggest fish in the pond, then you're in the wrong pond.' I definitely felt like I was in the wrong pond, and I certainly wasn't the biggest fish. Intimidation aside, I believe I stumbled upon one of the best communities through APCC. Join me as I recount my experience in a Twitch class and share a few of my weekend shenanigans for dessert.

You know that feeling when the universe hands you the answer you're searching for? It's a different kind of fulfillment, and I achieved it thanks to the big "A" - YouTube Algorithm. Call it timing, call it machine learning, but even AI knows I'm desperately searching for an answer regarding my self-sabotaging behavior. Allow me to give you a crash course on what the heck is the upper limit theory along with a refreshing summary of what I did for my 3.5 days Chuseok vacation.

A chaotic week in review – that's the most fitting description for this podcast and the past seven days. I've ridden the emotional roller coaster, from the fear of unemployment to the unexpected challenge of repairing my first cassette player. And, let's not forget the latest addition to the chaos – a staggering estimated $2,000 health insurance bill that arrived today. I think it's safe to say I wish today's title was nothing more than clickbait.

Thanks to Jungkook, I now have a new anthem to vibe to when reminiscing about the absolute mental breakdown I had – 7 days this week. I'll save the rest for the pod, so get ready for a ✨ rant ✨ while I try my best to add punctuations in between so I don't sound like an underground rapper

Jokes on you if you thought I wouldn't bounce back this week- technically you were close, but here we are. I just finished the first week of my last term at my current company, but what's next? Honestly, I am not so sure- hopefully, you can give me your two cents by the end of this podcast. Oh yes, I roasted myself towards the end by exposing a bad habit of mine. All aboard the Struggle Express, September edition.

Sorry for going "gone girl" on you for a hot minute, but I'm ready to spill all the deets about my absence. Hint, I may or may not be breaking down the latest project I just completed on Instagram, TikTok, and Youtube. It's good to be back, let's catch up! *stay until the end to answer the question below

It's been a long time, but we are back (back) with a fully functioning mic again. From my first glamping experience in May to fully breaking down and losing my voice in June, life has been serving me a three course meal full of unexpected struggles. We bout to get real intimate with my creative thoughts & insecurities too. Allow me to accompany you on your drive back home or a casual walk in the heat and RANT about everything.

Health is wealth. If you didn't believe in this saying, I'm here with an hour-long podcast to prove why it is so. While I paid a hefty price to learn a lesson, there were some highlights to my weeks of suffering- the holy trinity's (Phoebe Bridgers, The Internet, and Chet Baker) voice from my record player, dank beef noodle soup, and running into Sik-K outside of a random cafe in Itaewon. Have a seat, or carry on with whatever errand you need to run today and allow me to ramble beside you, on how I barely managed to survive the past 3 weeks.

Another month, another set of goals to crush and old ones to address. Luckily, I was able to check off some and gather a few more along the way. This is my desperate attempt to fill you in before my bedtime strikes. So here goes, everything on my calendar since the last pod. Oh! I'm also a year older, hoping I've become a tad bit wiser too.

The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago, the second best is now. While I'm not in the market for a new tree, I am itching to right the wrong financial decisions I've made since 2023 began. Allow me to walk you through my "shameful" purchase history & desires as an effort to reshape my spending habit, plus a few small wins since the last pod.

The way I'm finally on track with my uploads? My youtube channel could never. All roasts aside, I am seeking clarification on some things I've struggled with lately. From small habits to the bigger picture, I felt like a deer in a headlight stumbling on Interstate-35 filled with semis honking at me. So, forgive me if I ramble on incoherently while I try to dump everything onto an hour's worth of your time.

Feb was Fab, for various reasons- none of which I anticipated bc you know life be unfolding in unforeseeable ways. From prepping for training week at exotic cafes, rekindling my joy of reading, and finally checking snowboarding off my bucket list, to getting my first big girl glasses- this month has been a wild ride laced with endorphins. Hydrate yourselves, walk your dogs, allow me to catch you up to speed, and share the deets of what I have been going through in the past few weeks since we last spoke. 

Attending a concert is an unforgettable experience that creates a sense of community and connection among attendees. The energy, emotion, and memories will last a lifetime, no matter the genre or artist. Well less than 24 hours ago, I was at the final stop of DPR’s world tour and I got the chance to experience one of the greatest concert i have ever been to. Take a mindless break with me as I ramble on about my concert experience, my recent obsession from Korea’s Burger King and Netflix’s Warrior Nun, and a small hefty detour to talk about life and my aspirations. This is my best attempt to wrap up all the big things I’ve encountered one month-ish into the new year.

after three weeks of slaving away at work, I'm still not quite down with my winter camp schedule but I decided to just sit down and revisit everything I've done during my first trip back home since I moved to South Korea. It's really long, but I promise it will be worth your time when you hear uni give us her two cents at the end. 

Week 2 of being near each other means our frequencies have inevitably synced again. I forgot how the topic was brought up, but we've finally decided to revisit our MBTI and discover what is our love languages. Spoiler's alert, there're a lot of mispronunciations & even more headassery ahead. Oh, you might want to lower your volume just a tad bit so our hyena moments do not bust your eardrums* 

If you have been keeping up with my podcast- I am currently back in the US, spending a month away before I have to fly back to Korea on Christmas Eve. I decided to spend 3 days with my close friend this weekend to bother her with my love because we've been apart for 2 whole years. Here's a casual Q&A between us while she walked her dog and eventually, we accidentally took you to a taqueria with us to fill our stomachs with authentic Mexican food. Don't mind the ambient noise, here's another smol adventure thru the mic on my iPhone. 

I am back in the land of the free and everything has been a whirlwind, including my sleep schedule. So to take a load off of the food I've been eating and the thoughts I've been accumulating, I decided to go on a walk with my sibling. Come along with us as we roam around our neighborhood on a whim. Fair warning, the audio is recorded via my iPhone so you might hear us and the world around us. Hoping for a part 2, but before that- here's part 1 from my first week (5 days) back in Texas. 

Just when I thought everything was peachy, something just had to go south. Last weekend, I went to see Mamamoo's last concert here in Seoul and spent some quality time with friends I haven't seen since 2017 when I ventured out for my first overseas concert. As I am swimming through post-concert depression, another conversation with mom knocked me back to base 1. Coupled with the anxiety from heading home in 3 days, she really lit a fuse that triggered something I needed to talk about, but have been avoiding for a long time. So, here we are. 

I was wrong in the last podcast as I somehow have more good news to share. So much so, she's somehow longer than SNL's insensitive skit on Ned Fulmer's shameless behavior. Anyhow, my apologies for rambling on and on in this podcast. I would blame the green grapes ade but honestly, my mind is already a mess without the sugar so bear with me as I spill every little detail about my productive vacation. 

Yes. Your eyes are not deceiving you. But before I address the elephant in the room, let me tell you about my incredible weekends and how one of my dreams finally came true. Stick around as I catch you up on my first tournament experience as well as my plan to return to the states this year. 

Wow.  I didn't think I would miss reading stories, but here I am an hour later. So here's an unexpected entry from "disco-dingus," a story that revolves around a 6-year-old boy, his broken family, and an unlikely friend. I had so much fun reading it- but if I didn't do it justice, I highly encourage you to have a read yourself~!   https://www.reddit.com/r/nosleep/comments/w6uygy/when_i_was_a_little_boy_i_befriended_a_frog_who/

6 months is a long time. Long enough for me to lose the momentum to keep up. Here is my attempt to catch you up to speed with my life. From binge-worthy Netflix series to $378 fraud, all the way to my cat's special day, I've got some ceremonial-grade tea and she's ready to pour.

Life is a blur and my days are blending together like a protein shake - sometimes maybe good, sometimes maybe sht. Well, have a sip of my February McFlurry. From dabbling in cryptocurrency to getting the new MacBook Pro...A lot has happened and I am trying my best to keep up.

Happy Lunar New Year! Since we part ways in the last episode, we welcome another holiday with a lot to catch up on. From New Year's resolution to a "near-death" experience, January was a wild one worth sharing. Sit back and enjoy while I unpack my chaos. 

Merry Crisis, we did it again. In honor of another fresh start around the sun, allow me to manifest the changes I wish to see in my life plus, the moments that made my Christmas oh-so-special this year. 

Let us pretend that I was stuck in another dimension and thus could not update for a month. Although that was not true, I am neither Peter Parker nor Keanu Reeves; I "was" stuck making some big changes in my life. From starting a new job to dyeing my hair milk tea grey, here is the "thic" update you deserved. 

Am I one day late? Absolutely. Considering it's acceptable to blast Christmas music in November, being a day late for Halloween isn't so bad. Here is a log of what I did for Halloween and some late night thoughts on my insecurity of being non-confrontational. 

Oh how I missed home...Living abroad sounds fun but it also gets tough when you're away from home too long. This weekend, we sent off a good friend/coworker we met here in Seoul and it's making me miss home. Well, "some" aspects of home...which led to a conversation with my mother about my future. Spoiler alert it didn't end completely well....more like semi-well.   

We often find ourselves distracted by this busy world. Though it is true that sometimes we lack the motivation to do things, have you ever thought of the root of the problem? Yes, social media is addictive. But it could also be beneficial in moderation. So what causes us to stay off-tasked? Let's tickle our brains and have a look. 

Though it's only September and Thanksgiving in the states is quite some time away, I've got the chance to "celebrate" Korea's version of Thanksgiving - Chuseok. Luckily I was spared with 7 days to "celebrate" this holiday. So, allow me to explain how I managed to spend my first Chuseok in South Korea (with occasion commentary from Oonee). 

Though the general consensus is that, when we adopt a pet, we are saving a life. Truth is, we are the ones being saved. As I ride out the low points of my stay here in South Korea, a cat came into our lives and turned it upside down (for good). Here is the story of how I met my second cat, 3 years after Milktea's passing. So um....Milktea can you please visit my dream now?  

Life happens in good or bad ways. Seasons change, and at times it brings seasonal depression. Perhaps there isn't a solid reason that contributes to your fluctuating mental health, and I am as clueless as you are trying to make sense of this cycle that comes and goes. But I've recently gone through a period of confusion and burnout with my project and my mental health. I wanted to share my experience with you and to explain my absence. I also hope that whoever finds this podcast will find a little peace in mind that what we are going through is conquerable and that you are not alone on this journey of seeking balance and clarity.

In today's day and age, we are suffocated by various standards intentionally and unintentionally imposed by social media. As a human, it is natural to follow the "herd" and subconsciously accept what is projected to us. But one size really doesn't fit all. We are all different in our own ways, and it is unhealthy trying to evaluate ourselves according to those un-universal standards. I realize I was falling into a blackhole that was sucking the life out of my relationship with Taro. Now that I'm done analyzing my "black box" records, I'm here to share my 2 cents on how toxic "relationship goals" can be.  

Trying out new things is great, but it is always easier when you have good company. What if that isn't the case? What if you are in a foreign country and you can barely speak the language? This week, I will discuss my experience dining and filming at a restaurant in Korea by myself (for the first time). I also went on a tangent discussing the value and imbalance between money and dreams. #personaljournal 

Triggered by a YouTube video regarding a horrible nuclear meltdown, I have been thinking about the possibility of facing a natural disaster on my own. Though I hope that never happen, I was curious to see how I would evaluate my life if everything ends on this day. I know life is far from perfect for most of us, here are my two cents about my life, and where I currently stand.    

It never gets easier and every time hurts like the first. Dealing with death isn't a skill but rather a compromise we make with time. There are different ways to cope with loss, some heavier than others. Today, I will be unpacking some baggage I kept in the basement. Here is how I learned to cope with the loss of a beloved pet.

Don't look back, just don't. Today we'll be venturing into the past when "Slenderman" had caught the public's attention and lingered far longer than we'd like.

Nothing is ever sunshine and rainbows 24/7, the same goes with my journey in South Korea thusfar. Today I will be sharing some insecurities I've developed during my stay here. You may judge me for it, but I'm just trying to act as pest control to remove the thought that has been bugging me.

This one, this one is a real work of horror. I wasn't expecting to read on for hours but here I am. The story of the NoEnd House challenges our mental state through a series of psychologically tormenting experiences showcased by a seemingly endless house. Tuck yourselves in, because you won't be able to do so afterward.

It's all fun and games until we are stripped of the overlooked luxury of not being able to sleep. Here is a fictional (hopefully fictional) story written by OrangeSoda of what happened to 5 captives when they were forced to stay awake for 15 days. Now we really have to think twice before pulling any back-to-back all-nighters.

I started recording at 1pm and finished art 4pm...I had to take breaks in between, because this creepypasta story was no snack, but a whole freaky feast. Today, I am reading one of the infamous "creepypasta" stories on reddit written by Camden Lamont. Lock your doors, spread your sheets, close your eyes, and listen to me.