All Episodes
Midnight Wisdom — 503 episodes
400: Loving Sadness
400: Before the festival - Final 20’s
399: Week before last
398: Midnight Reflection
397: Love and Hotness in Martial Arts Fitness
396: After Boardgames
395: New Bedframe and Closet
394: Shaved eyebrows part 2
392: After the fight
392: Before the fight
391: More more more
390: MDMA, Muay Thai and Quran
389: Feminine gives birth to feminine and masculine
I hate… Schatten am See
388: Reflection and Keeping Sexual Energy
387: emotional time
386: Khara 3a Kulshi
385: Midnight Reflection
384: 3x Meditation
383: Character Development
382: Kung fu and action camera
381: Ice on Floor
380: Thank you
379: Lazarus
378: Acknowledging Sadness
377: Recovering from Injury
376: 5 Star hotel
375: Short Dubai Visit
374: Structure Structure Structure
373 Fear and Dubai
372: Piece of Rock
371: More Freedom Please
370: Anger is Owning
369: Closing Tabs
368: Love you all
367: Tanjirooo
366: Meditation: Peace in mind, heart, body
365: Balance Is The Topic
364: My chest hurts
363: Going Back
362: New Moon
361: Maintain My Energy
360: VN to Jo
Lila - The game of life
358: Faro Airport
357: Ecstatic Dance Lunar Air
X: San Pedro learnings
X: Crecent Moon
X: High Day
X: After Memoires of a Snail
VN: Ashraf Message II
VN: Ashraf Message
356: Muay Thai and Distraction
355: I have no ego now
354: I want to give myself gifts
353: Midnight Reflection 14.07.2025
352: Holding
351: Contemporary Art
350: Am I confident?
349: 22nd of June 2025
348: After Sisyphos and Jazz Dance
347: San Pedro Learnings
346: Bahibak Kteer
Week 345: Walk in Granada
344: On The Beach At Night
343: First time Lisbon
342: Stockholm to Malmo
341: After Family Circes
340: Before family circles
339: Childhood Friend
338: Half Moon
337: Time is passing
336: Dancing Time
335: Before Barcelona
334: Apocalypse
333: All this evil is not mine
332: Push the needle
331: Crippling Boredom
330: The Toyota Way
329: Cancelled Vipassana
328: Ice Week
Week 327: Tilted square, straight square
Week 326: After Sunday Yoga
Week 326: Feelings and emotions stopping me from work
Week 325: End of Year Reflection Part 2
Week 324: End of year reflection Part I
Week 323: It's a week till the new year
Midnight Reflection
Week?: Mononoke Instrumental
Week?: social burnout
Week?: After Palestine Rave
Week?: I did great this week
Week?: Atomic Habits
Week?: Box B
Week?: Problem A, B and C
Week 9: Who am I?
Week 8: Need healing
Week 7: Mad mom
Week 6: In Amman
Dream 5: stone soul’d people
Week 5: On the way to library
Week 4: after Lettretage, Ashraf coaching session, sex addiction, going home
Week 4: reflecting on last moments with Lilly
Week 4: 16-22 September
Week 3: Im outside her door
Week 2: Dream in a vagina
Week x Starting first project
Cleansing from impurities
Before bus to Bremen
After Tea Party
Iii doont caaarree
T&D, The Device Dilemma, Life
Finishing This
Humming for life
After youtube fiasco
The Heavy Performance
Last night London
Buying Electronics - Week in General
Sven - Skydiving - Therapy - The Amazon Curse
Birthday recording - Before Yoga Retreat
Citizenship inbound - New Moon
Ärger von Aurine
Kinan and Mama Bday
Kali
Week 292: Unbelievable Horniness
Week 292: Voicenote To Ashraf
Week 291: Sardinia Roadtrip
Week 290: In Cagliari
Week 289: Philosophy - New Blood
Instrument of Power
Week 288: After Hero's Journey
Week 287: Before Hero’s Journey
Week 286: Mo, Mahadeen, Jan
Week 285: Voicenotes - Zeit vergeht schnell
Week 284: New Couch
Week 283: You’re doing great
Week 282: Sunday - After Party
Week 282: Friday - After Shoes
Week 282: Monday - Vissudachakra
Week 281: Dune II, Poor things, work tomorrow
Week 280: Tools - eating, sleeping, general state
Week 280: After Valentines Day
How I look 18.02.2024
Week 278: Ramez Azizi - First friend
Week 277 - Meditation and Growth
Reflection Week 276
Week 275: Last day in Amman
Week 274: In Amman
Week 273: Before Pegasus flight
Week 272: Recorded with Ashraf
New years 2024
Week 271: In Leeuwarden
Week 270: i don’t know what to title this
Week 269: Back home reflecting
Week 268: Tired but glad I’m alive
اسبوع ٢٦٧: اذاعة مباشرة من ازرلون
Week 267: Full moon
Week 266: Back from Hamburg
Week 265: The modern dating playbook
Week 264: After Protest. New Moon.
Week 264: Where it started
Week 263: Skin, another person, beauty
Week 262: 5th Year
Week 261: Venting from the beauty from Vabali
Week 261: 8th jump - first solo jump
Week 260: A lot more calmed down
Week 259: Like Father Like Son
Week 258: After full moon
Week 257: The Physical is your illusion
Woche 256: Noch 50 Sekunden
Week 255: 50 Seconds
Week 255: Skydiving in two days
Week 254: elemental today, oppenheimer tomorrow
Week 253: with family in Iserlohn
Week 252: Rude Sara
Week 252: Pursuit of Love and Legs
Week 251 - Voice message to mom
Week 250 - I love you Khalid
Week 249 - I need direction
Week 248 - Water and Earth
Week 247 - New Moon on a Sunday
Week 246 - I might not be here again
Scratchpad 02.07.2023
Week 244: Can you tie him?
Week 243: New Moon Reflection
Week 242: before 27
Week 241: SLAA Sex and Love addiction
Talk 240: Jo Dawg
Week 239: Continuing to operate from hurt
Week 238: operating from hurt
Week 237: spoke to a girl called Jacky
Week 236: Zaandam
Week 235: Moritz Platz
Week 234: The dragon festival
Week 233: After haircut, grocery shopping and smoking a little
Affirmations
Week 232: new podcast, new approach to creation, posting on instagram a lot, toastmasters
Week 231: Writing about control
Week 230: Experiencing Slavian for who he is
Week 229: Krishnamurti
Woche 229: Ich werde Toastmaster, Knee Schmerz, Heilung
Week 228: The positive push is me
Week 227: Limits are sometimes what makes a man
اسبوع 226: بعد عمان
Week 225: Avatar way of the water
Week 224: Let’s see how the full moon fades
Week 223: In Amman
Week 222: Jordan soon, focusing on legs, full weeks
Week 221: A lot of little positive things
Week 220: FEAR
Week 219: Transitioning into 2023
Week 218: Longer reflection
Woche 217: Yfood, meditieren und schreiben
Week 216: New mic stand, chance at apartment
Week 216: Anger, dreams, after Munich
Week 215: Connect with myself
Week 214: Fall asleep to wake up, fall asleep to wake up, until you die
Week 214: would you pet the dog
Week 213: Things are better
Week 212: I’m tired
Week 211: Vipassana experience 05.10.2022-16.10.2022
Week 210: Ain’t I a woman?
Woche 209: Eine einzige Frage
Week 208: After Vipassana
Osboo3 207: Yalla 3a Vipassana
Week 206: I will not try to find love in anything outside of myself
Week 205: Violet Evergarden, moving fast, moving stable
Week 204: Dream, Organising, Writing
Week 203: Back from London
Week 202: Family, London, after HotPod
Woche 201: All the names, Adam, Frauen
Osboo3 201: Voice message to Ammo Ziad
Week 201: Lao Tsu, Faceless Water, Family, Anger
Week 200: After Fasting, Altes Museum, 2 workouts in one day
Week 199: What stays?
Week 194: What is love really?
Week 198: Flamingo farm, sisyphos
Week 197: Attention, permanence of states, growing
Week 196: Laith, Kinan, trees
Week 195: Balance, meditation, growth
Singing: and it sucks!
Week 194: Rage
Week 193: Growth
Week 192: Vipassana Meditator
Week 191: Wollankstr Vipassana
Week 191: As real as can be
Week 190: 26th Birthday
Week 189: Gremendorf Tierpark
Truth in self
Lettretàge
My tailbone is chapped
Identity crisis, might help finding identity
Nichts
Wisdom is not to keep in circles.
Dream 183: Tarek and red hood
Week 183: Let's see how we grow, right?
Week 182: I donated blood yesterday
Reflection 182: All at once
182: Different
Learning 181: Politics I
Dream 181: Marlen, Greece, Turkey, Morocco
Dream 180: Old man, agent, lower floors
Week 180: Coffee again, the narratives of women, the pace, individuals
Week 179: Be the change you are, own it
Week 179: After Ein Volksfeind
Week 178: Midnight Wisdom
Week 177: Reorganising Room and Re-initiating life
Woche 176: Scheint, ich mag Konflikt
Week 176: Dream: Throwing snakes, a castle, a party
Week 176: TCM and Stuck
Week 175: Ekta
Woche 174: The nun with a funny costume
Woche 173: Bauch ging nicht gut, Helsinki und Saunas
Week 172: Fasting ATM
Woche 171: Los geht’s
Woche 170: Fangst an, nochmal
Week 170: Buying Fish
Woche 169: Und.. Ja
Week 168: Specialty Hospital CCU 4
Week 167: The night of New Year 2022
Week 167: The dreams we're in
Midnight Meditation: all you have are your thoughts
Week 166: Bittersweet Randomness II
Woche 165: Vollmond
Woche 164: 12.12.2021 Mann konnte nur besser werden
Woche 163: Wie Lange Muss Man Warten
Woche 162: Theater Stück
Woche 161: Droeloe und Workouts
Woche 160: Positive Woche
Woche 159: So fangst an
Week 158: Vipassana Experience
Singing 158: A girl with a certain life
Vipassana 157: Meditation and Silence
Vipassana 156: Meditation and Silence
Week 156: Omw to Vipassana
Week 155: Silver Skates
Reflection 154: After Lakehouse - Back in Berlin
Week 153: Laptop
Reflection 152: Everything
Thought 152: Difference in frame of writing
Reflection on writing 151
Writing Session 151: Vernon comes home
Reflection 151: Day 4
Week 149: Reflections, time with family
Week 150: Scrivener and state
Retreat 150: Lakehouse
Specialty Hospital 149: My dad 2
Specialty Hospital 149: My dad
Israa Hospital 148: Dad asleep in hospital
Week 147: To Jordan
Week 147: Dad and Jordan
Thought 146: Dad and his health
Reflection 146: Structure, and what branches off from it
Week 145: Reflection is good, but not always
Week 145: After Milan
Week 144: Khalo Atallah
Week 143: The moon is a half formed thing
Week 142: I hum
Week 141: Reflecting, work
Week 140: As of now, I'm not a writer
Week 139: States change
Week 139: I’m Ok
Week 138: After Greece
Week 137: Greece today
Week 136: Tension and a few learnings
Week 135: relfections
Week 135: Talking to the bros
Week 134: Crypto went down
Week 133: New doings and new identity
Week 133; Realization: I'm terrified of being abondoned
Week 133: Palestinian Demonstration
Week 132: Viagra pills
Week 132: Shopping and letting it in
Week 132: Bringing to form and structure
Week 132: Red blood and winter
Week 131: Quality of mind, quality of heart
Week 131: Oat Milk
Week 130: Life Today
Week 130: Death Tomorrow
Week 130: I hope I can breathe
Week 129: Respect for old people
Week 128: Itching Fast
Week 128 Thoughts: Hell on Earth
Week 127: The middle thread
Talk week 126: Qais Akasheh - Purple Vibes
Week 126: .
Midnight Reading: Morningstar
Week 125: Take care all
Week 124: We are what we make of what we are
Week 123: Hay Fever
Midnight 122: Expression
Week 122: Letting it all go
Week 121: Food and Balance
Week 120: Update
Week 120: 4:38 am
Week 119: The Agenda
Week 118: The Truth
Week 118: A Wolf Howls
Week 117: Covid +
Week 116: Al Khan Street
Week 115: Before Dubai
Midnight Talks: Marvin Lenz #2
Week 114: I really did write a lot this week
Week 113: Bloodborne Really
Reflection 112: Where I am where I'll be
Week 112: Rejection and Alignment
Week 111: Seeing Gratitude
Week 110(2): Russian Bone Doctor
Week 110: Receding Moons
Week 109: Vulnerability, Heart, Claustrophobia
Dream 11.24.2020: A girl and her kitchen, a playground
Week 108: More Structure
Week 107: Immediate Aftermath
Week 107: Open the door
Week 106: Punch to the Heart
Week 105: After Party
Week 104: Life is nice
My Life: Week 103
Midnight Thoughts: Let go
Midnight Reflections: On writing, on work, on learning
Midnight Thoughts: 1 year 11 months
Midnight Thoughts: On Creation
Midnight Thoughts: Tenet and Flow
Midnight Mirror: Moon Axis and Chess
Midnight Thoughts: Looking at Dread
Midnight Thoughts: Words
Midnight Thoughts: Catching up with myself
Midnight Thoughts: Be there when it happens
Midnight Thoughts: Being Let Go
Midnight Thoughts: Tuna Fish Pizza
Reflections: Bathtub and Games
Midnight memory: Takaschi Kovac
Midnight Reflections: Metro: Last Light
Midnight Thoughts: Creating stories in our heads
Midnight Thoughts: The ups, the downs, the falls on writing
To 24
Midnight Thoughts: Pissing me off
Midnight Thoughts: Back Pain
Midnight Reflections: The Branch
Midnight Thoughts: Internalizing States
Midnight Thoughts: Pure Core
Midnight Nothing: Arabic, breathing, and systems
Midnight Thoughts: Holding on to Sand
Midnight Reflection: Own Your Shit
Immediate Reflection: Old and Alone Man
Midnight Thoughts: Green Leaves
Midnight Thoughts: Quick Update
Midnight Reflections: My Words
Midnight Thoughts: As Quick as a Dream
Midnight Talks: Ahmed - The Meso-Paq
Meditation: Deepest Wisdom
Midnight Talks: Ibraheem Mahameed - Nothing In Particular
Midnight Thoughts: Opportunity
Midnight Wisdom: Journey's Beginning II
Midnight Thoughts: Thank You Apple
Midnight Messages: To A Brother
Midnight Reflection: On the 15th
Midnight Thoughts: COVID-19
Midnight Thoughts: 3 Liters
Midnight Reflections: It starts with breathing
Midnight Talks: Johannes - Daylight Savings II
Midnight Thoughts: Kinktastish
Midnight Talks: Johannes Jolkkonen - Daylight Savings
Midnight Thoughts: Self Esteem II
Midnight Limits: Self-Esteem
Midnight Reflections: Kampfst Du?
Midnight Limits: All and loneliness
Midnight Limits: Problems to fix
Midnight Thoughts: Inner Peace
Writing
Midnight Limits: Need a hug?
Midnight Reflections: Feeling Structured
Midnight Limits: We are water
Midnight Talks: Caroline - Don't be a dick
Midnight Thoughts: Deliberate Randomness
Midnight Limits: Fitting Creation
Midnight Reflections: It has been spoken
Midnight Limits: Do I Deserve My Life?
Midnight Talks: Jan Apel - Bankruptcy
Midnight Limits: The Fear We Carry
Midnight Reflections: Beginner's Mind
Midnight Limits: The Questions We Ask
Midnight Reflections: Lazim
Midnight Talks: Jan Apel - The Corporate Animal
Midnight Thoughts: Setting Limits
Midnight Thoughts: My Life is My Metaphor
Midnight Thoughts: Losing the Moment
Midnight Thoughts: Right Choices?
Midnight Talks: Yazan Al-Qawasmi - One True Thing
Midnight Reflections: Shifting Shadows
Midnight Thoughts: All Out
Midnight Stories: Shifting Shadows
Midnight Thoughts: bumkk
Midnight Thoughts: Four Days Left
Midnight Thoughts: Nothing to Protect
Midnight Thoughts: Quick Confessions
Midnight Thoughts: Gay Pride
Midnight Thoughts: Half A Mind
Midnight Thoughts: Millionaire Mind
Midnight Talks: Dominic Eskofier - Extended Reality XR
Midnight Reflections: Cut Short
Midnight Thoughts: The Chain Breaks
Midnight Thoughts: Genuine Artificial World
Midnight Thoughts: The Next Step
Midnight Thoughts: Inner Dialogues
Midnight Thoughts: Born Among Us
Midnight Thoughts: 3 days to 23
Midnight Reflections: The Good That Comes II
Midnight Talks: Oliver Wojahn - a.k.a Doctor "W"
Midnight Thoughts: Continuous Representation
Midnight Thoughts: The Good That Comes I
Midnight Thoughts: Unexpected Consequences
Midnight Thoughts: Free-Fall
Midnight Thoughts: Foggy Lens
Midnight Thoughts: Cool Monkey
Midnight Thoughts: Understanding Happiness
Midnight Thoughts: True Intentions
Midnight Talks: Finnish Meat
Midnight Reflections: Calm and Nice
Midnight Thoughts: Theories of Existence II
Midnight Moments: Childlike Bus rides
Midnight Thoughts: Paths Taken II
Midnight Thoughts: Paths Taken
Midnight Talks: Son Of God
Midnight Talks: Alya AlHamad - Earth Warriors!!
Midnight Talks: Ahmad Kadhim - Objective Filters
Midnight Thoughts: Looking Forward
Midnight Thoughts: Bittersweet Randomness
Midnight Thoughts: This Is Our Story
Midnight Thoughts: Systematic Sustainability
Midnight Talks: Marvin - New Years 2019
Midnight Thoughts: Football Field
Midnight Thoughts: Sanity Signals
Midnight Wisdom: The Road Ahead
Midnight Thoughts: Comfortable Avoidance
Midnight Thoughts: Understanding Want
Midnight Talks: Hani Akasheh - Human Energy Management
Midnight Thoughts: Cue In The Music II
Midnight Thoughts: Cue In The Music I
Midnight Thoughts: Theories Of Existence
Midnight Thoughts: What Ought To Be
Midnight Thoughts: We Are Life
Midnight Thoughts: Journey's Beginning