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Personal Pans
by Vanessa Walilko
Conversations about belief, transformation, deconstruction, and late diagnosis ADHD. Let's talk about the strange and weird.We also love pizza.
Episodes
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43. "Just a little bravery will open the door" with Lisa Pahl of The Death Deck
Lisa Pahl is a hospice and emergency medicine social worker the co-creator of The Death Deck. The Death Deck is a party game that lets you explore a topic we’re all obsessed with but often afraid to discuss. It features 112 cards with a mix of multiple choice and open-ended questions guaranteed…
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42. The Medicine Wheel with Barry Goddard
Barry Goddard is an astrologer, shamanic practitioner, and all around Aquarius. We talked about his book The Medicine Wheel, and how the four elements are ways of relating to the universe and realizing that we're intimately connected with the universe. We talked about what it means to live true…
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41. "I'm done making excuses for everybody" - Disability, long COVID, and leaving the church with Steph Fowler
Steph Fowler is the founder of Inkwell Psychotherapy and a therapist for weirdos, misfits, neurodivergent folks, and cycle disruptors. She's also one of the best people I know. If you've ever listened to my podcast before and heard me mention "my friend with long COVID," that's Steph. She talks...
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40. Haunted Offices and Therapy for Weirdos with Steph Fowler
Steph Fowler is the founder of Inkwell Psychotherapy and a therapist for weirdos, misfits, neurodivergent folks, and cycle disruptors. She's also one of the best people I know. Steph and I talked about what it was like to work in a haunted office building, and being a therapist for misfits. Part…
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39. UFOs, Ethics, and Protecting the Vulnerable with Erica Lukes
Erica Lukes is a historian, archivist, and researcher. Erica Lukes also has an undying passion for the mysteries of the universe, particularly UFO reports and other strange aerial phenomena. Since childhood, she has been fascinated with imagery of how vehicles and beings from space might appear…
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38. Clown Pants, Bowling Pin Aliens and Small UFOs with Rob Kristoffersen
Rob Kristoffersen is a UFO researcher and the host of Our Strange Skies, a UFO podcast that explores the nooks and crannies of UFO history and lore, diving deep into UFO sightings, alien abductions, cryptids, and all things paranormal. On this episode, we talked about small UFOs, bowling pin...
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37: Somatic Therapy, Missionary Work, and Intergenerational Trauma with Jenny McGrath
Jenny McGrath is a licensed mental health counselor, a somatic therapist, and a movement educator. She's also the creator of the Embodied Sexuality Course. We had an incredible conversation about trauma therapy, deconstructing narratives about individualistic healing, and understanding healing as...
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36. Baba Yaga, Storytelling, and The Goblin Circus with Halo Quin
Halo Quin is an author, a storyteller, and witch. She's had a lifelong relationship with the spirit realm and has written multiple books about her craft. She also runs the local storytelling circle, and an ADHD resource center, as well as The Enchanted Academy. She's written several books,...
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35. Anime, alienated ancestor work, and what it means to be a good person with Dash Kwiatkowski
Dash Kwiatkowski is one of the co-hosts of Psychic Friendz, an advice show where non-psychics help Facebook users in need. The also love mascots. We talked about WitchsFest and their experience with talking to someone who had a near-death experience. We talked about discovering anime and ancestor...
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34. "If you want your magic to be effective, you need to be fully present in it" - Irene Glasse and Caine Dreamwalker of Blackfeather Mystery School
Today's guests are Irene Glasse and Caine Dreamwalker of Blackfeather Mystery School. Their school is " focused on reducing self-sabotage while providing a solid grounding in magickal theory, dedicant practices, mysticism, spellcasting and ritual work, beginning spiritwork, journeywork and much...
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33. "You're villainized for questioning anything that's taught" The Pentecostal to Witch Pipeline with Hana of Suburban Witchery
Hana the Suburban Witch is a psychic, professional tarot reader, natal astrologer and eclectic witch based in Australia. The focus of Hana's work is to make witchcraft and spirituality fun, and after our conversation, I can see why. She grew up with a lot of fear and trauma in the Pentecostal...
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Bonus - Growing up in a haunted house with Logan Dean
Logan Dean is the tabletop RPG designer behind The Company, and the ENnie-nominated EXTRACTION FROM DEMON-FUCKED CLEVELAND 1996. This is just an excerpt from our conversation back in January, where Logan talks about his experiences growing up in a haunted house. Voting for the ENnie's goes until...
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32. "It starts and ends with standards of evidence" - Cadillacs and UFOs with Jack Brewer
Jack Brewer is a UFO blogger and researcher and the author of two books, The Greys Have Been Framed and Wayward Sons. Jack sat down with me to talk about the emotional draw of UFOs as well as the danger of chasing down facts about a slippery phenomenon. We discussed what drives people to believe...
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31.5 - Grief, trauma, guilt, and hope with Holly Laurent
Holly Laurent is a writer, filmmaker, comedian, performer, and the host of Mega, a completely improvised podcast satirizing the world of a fictional mega church. She is also one of my favorite people. This is part 2 of our near 2-hour conversation where we talk about setting boundaries…
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31. "When we talk about the god of the bible, are we really talking about ourselves?" The nature of consciousness and belief with Holly Laurent
Holly Laurent is a writer, filmmaker, comedian, performer, and the host of Mega, a completely improvised podcast satirizing the world of a fictional mega church. She is also my friend. Holly and I talked about growing up Evangelical, dealing with hateful trolls online, curses, and the knowledge…
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30 - "It's the end of the world, but we still have to pay our credit cards" - Consciousness, technology, and the absurd, mundane apocalypse with Red Pill Junkie
Red Pill Junkie (Miguel Romero) is a Fortean blogger and artist. He's a writer for The Daily Grail and the visual artist behind the Ufology Tarot. I initially reached out to him to talk about the Ufology tarot, but we ended up talking about so much more. From the adaptability of the human…
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29. "It's really important to validate people's stories and experiences" - The Importance of Empathy and Storytelling in the Phenomena with Amelia Cotter
Amelia Cotter is a writer, poet, and storyteller. She's written multiple books about the paranormal such as Where the Party Never Ended: Ghosts of the Old Baraboo Inn, This House: The True Story of a Girl and a Ghost, Maryland Ghosts: Paranormal Encounters in the Free State, and the children’s…
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28. "The way we understand our origins effects how we see ourselves politically" - A Primer on White Supremacy and Fascism in Paraweird Spaces with Professor WHAM
Tonight's guest is Dr CS Matthews (a.k.a Professor WHAM). She recently wrote a book about paranormal reports in the Hudson Valley called Mysterious Beauty: Living with the Paranormal in the Hudson Valley. She's studied religion, new religious movements, occultism and paranormal experiences for…
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27. "Thinking through your internal biases and your own unconscious biases--that's inner alchemy" - Diversity, Innovation, and the Real Great Work with Melaninated Magician
Tonight's episode features Melaninated Magician, a writer and occultist with lots of spicy things to say about diversity and inclusion in paranormal and occult spaces. I don't think I've ever laughed so hard talking about such difficult issues. We talked about structural oppression and the inner...
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26. "Lazy is not a four-letter word... I mean, it literally is, but it's not a swear word" - ADHD, Grief, and Tarot with Erica Davis
This ADHD-inspired conversation features Erica Davis, writer, editor, and intuitive tarot reader behind Dork Witch. We talked about channeling creative ideas and feeling like we're giving form to things that already exist, whether characters or creative pieces. We also talked about working with...
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25. "There's a lot of good we can do here... Eat that donut!" - Queer Qabala and the Importance of Little Treats with Enfys J. Book
Enfys J. Book is a High Priest of the Fellowship of the Ancient White Stag (FAWS), and the author of the forthcoming book Queer Qabala. Enfys sat down to talk with me about the Hermetic tradition of the Qabala, their journey to studying the Qabala, and their queer approach what is usually…
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24. "What is the soil like that this tree is growing from?" - Gnostics, River Spirits, and Alien Interest in Microorganisms with Jeremy Puma
Jeremy Puma is 1/3 of Liminal Earth and the author of multiple books on Gnostics and foraging. We talked about interrogating the people leading and inspiring our traditions, and the importance of calling out and rejecting racist aspects of it. We also talked about the playfulness of the…
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23. "Gardening is a way to have hope for the future" - Fairies, Donuts, and Mycelial Networks with Bex Atwood from Liminal Earth
Bex Atwood is a mycological researcher, liminal investigator, botanist, and 1/3 of Liminal Earth. She also survived an upbringing of Christian hell houses to explore forests and learn the wonders of mushrooms. In this ADHD-fueled podcast, we talked about the work that Liminal Earth is doing…
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22. "I am worthy of pleasure" - Dissecting the Devil as a Spirit Wrapped in Flesh with Kiki Dombrowski
Tonight's guest is Kiki Dombrowski, medium, certified life coach, and tarot reader. She wrote A Curious Future: A Handbook of Unusual Divination and Unique Oracular Techniques, a book that explores multiple types of divination systems and how to use them. We talked about the energy of different...
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21. "At a certain point you have to say yes or else you're not really here" - On Crafting a Magickal Personality with Stephanie Quick
Tonight's episode features Stephanie Quick, the esoteric writer behind Ghost Dog is a Mystery Box. Using Moon Magick and Sea Priestess as an example, Steph talked about how to use color, scent, light, the physical space, movement, garments, to create a certain atmosphere. We talk about embracing...
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20. "If it can help one weirdo know that they're not alone" - Researching the Paranormal with Courtney Block
Courtney M. Block is a research, instruction, and user engagement librarian and also the author of Researching the Paranormal: How to Find Reliable Information about Parapsychology, Ghosts, Astrology, Cryptozoology, Near-Death Experiences, and More. Courtney was inspired to write her first book…
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19. "Take your donuts elsewhere, you maniac!" Holy Donut Magick and Discordianism with AP Strange
We're back! After taking a week off to rest and recuperate, I'm happy to be back with a new episode with AP Strange. We managed to slog through some technical difficulties and made some prayers to the Holy Donut and got the recording back on track. We talk about the importance of play in magickal...
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18. "Our memories are the keys to divining our futures" - Divination, Horror Movies, and Magic Mike XXL with Katie Webb
Divinatrix, paranormal webseries maven, and horror movie aficionado Katie Webb joins us for this episode of Personal Pans. Katie talked with me about the art of horror movies, the work of learning tarot, addiction, and the difficulty in dealing with abusers in a small community. We laughed a…
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17. "It takes a certain amount of healing to believe that you deserve justice" - Ancestor Work, Healing Trauma, and Finding a Momma in The Morrigan, with Lisa of OldGodsHeal.com
What happens when your mother is not a mother? Where do you find a maternal figure? When you find yourself in a cult, how do you find the tools to escape? What happens when your ancestor work connects you to a massacre in Virginia 400 years ago? This incredible conversation with Lisa of Old Gods...
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16. "Let me show you your lane" - On being a death doula with an intersectional perspective and working with the Akashic Records with Emmy Colón-Geistlinger
Today's episode features Emmy Colón-Geistlinger, death doula, witch, and medium working from an intersectional perspective. We talked about the differences between Big T trauma and little t trauma in terms of navigating our reactions to the pandemic, how the pandemic shifter her death doula work,...
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15. "The sky is for everyone" - Astrology with Maighdlin Kelly
Maighdlin Kelly is my guest tonight for this incredible conversation about astrology. They talk about their journey to astrology, the astrology of the weird, and the "fractally complicated" nature of astrology. They encourage everyone to learn astrology on their own because of the comfort of…
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14. Seeing the world through hope-colored glasses - Activism and Reclaiming Witchcraft with Irisanya Moon
Author, priestess, and witch Irisanya Moon joins me for tonight's episode of Personal Pans. She discusses the principles of reclaiming witchcraft and how it's evolved over time to be more inclusive. We also talked about staying open and curious in a ritual practice, how we can nourish ourselves…
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13. Representation, Fact-Checking, and Asking Difficult Questions with Alex Matsuo
Tonight's episode features Alex Matsuo of The Spooky Stuff. We talk about representation in paranormal television (and how to avoid tropes), the importance of fact-checking and data collection in paranormal research, and using your platform to ask difficult questions. This conversation was a...
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12: "The biggest magic in your life is connecting with other people" - Cults, chaos magick, and connection with Jason McConahey
Tonight's episode features Jason McConahey, Pentecostal cult survivor, and magical practitioner. We talk about being Aquariuses with moons in Scorpio, the pursuit of knowledge, the importance of human connection, and, of course, Hellier. Jason is one of the first friends I made in the...
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11. Kenneth Anger, Thelema, and Magical Technology with John Thomure
Performance artist and writer John Thomure sits down with me to talk about cults, Thelema, and the movies of Kenneth Anger as occult technology. Personal Pans: https://twitter.com/personalpans https://www.instagram.com/personalpans
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10. "When the Trickster Starts A-Poking" - Joy in the void with Chelle from the Eternal Void, but with Jazz!
Chelle from The Eternal Void, but with Jazz! talks with me about the Trickster, finding lessons in every experience, learning how to wield your swords, and Gogol Bordello. ESOTERICA - Women In Occultism Playlist: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l8tpCOEWX6U&list=PLZ__PGORcBKyt4eBmAsQ5lTZzzDln4ntc...
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9 - "Of course the horse can come!" - Death, The Morrigan, and Quantum Physics with Mortellus
Mortellus is a witch, necromancer, mortician, medium, and author, and also the best person to talk to about Dark Souls and dark matter. We talked about trauma (because I always do), death, being called by The Morrigan, the mysteries of dark matter, and carnival life. They were also generous…
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8. Loki, Aphrodite, and Talking to the Tarot with Star (a_starwitch)
Today's episode is with my friend Star, who talks with me about working with Loki and Aphrodite, confronting and healing trauma, tarot, and perfectionism and streaming. Their cat Mochi makes a guest appearance. Follow Star online: https://twitter.com/a_starwitch...
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7. Glitches in the Matrix and the Mandela Effect with Mark Obscura
This episode features Mark Obscura. We talk about loving weird and goth things at a young age, the importance of questioning your assumptions and beliefs, the nature of consciousness, and the Mandela Effect. As a stress-relief hypnotist, Mark also talked about the power of allowing and...
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6. "This episode is brought to you by chaos" with Adler Cooper
We're back from the holiday break with a chaos-fueled conversation with Adler Cooper, a PhD student who feels comfortable talking about ghost farts, adventures in the woods, and haunted ramen. Adler was part of the Paranormal and Tech panel for the first PanParacon. Check out the panel by…
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5. Live Episode with the PanParaPals
Today's episode is a relaxed chat with Jayson and Mera, co-organizers of PanParacon. Do you want to help shape the future of upcoming conferences? Reach out to us with speaker recommendations or panel ideas. Email us at [email protected] Send us a message on Twitter:...
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4. Goosebumps and the call to adventure with Caite of Steampowered Mouse
Today's conversation is with Caite of Steampowered Mouse. Illustrious designer of the PanParacon logo, she's also a puppeteer. She talks with me about the importance of play, the call to adventure in the children's and young adult books of the 90s, and the importance of trauma work in being able…
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3. "There are plenty of other things trying to limit you. Don't let it be you." - Amanda Woomer talks about The Feminine Macabre and so much else
This incredible episode features Amanda Woomer of The Feminine Macabre and Spook Eats. We talk about death, transformation, staying curious, and creating the paranormal spaces that you want to see. Submissions for The Feminine Macabre Volume 3 is open for one more month! You can submit a piece...
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2 - "Oh, she's here? Something weird is going to happen"
Today's conversation is with Alisha Landreth of Tidy Tarot Co. She talks about a lifetime of high strangeness and how she started making tarot journals and other witchy tools. Follow Alisha: Tidy Tarot C. Linktree: https://linktr.ee/TidyTarot Tidy Tarot on Instagram:...
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1 - Disappearing geckos and mantis photos
Today I talk with Melissa of meloticart about disappearing geckos, tall white ghosts, and mantis apparitions, among other things. Follow Melissa: Art account: https://www.instagram.com/meloticart/ Podcast: https://www.instagram.com/773cobrasclutch/ Follow Personal Pans on Twitter:...
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Conversations about belief, transformation, deconstruction, and late diagnosis ADHD. Let's talk about the strange and weird.We also love pizza.
HOSTED BY
Vanessa Walilko
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