Raising vibrations with DeeVenom1!

"I Quit, You Can Have It." is an honest conversation about reaching the point of emotional and mental exhaustion. In this episode, I share my personal experience with stress, burnout, and fatigue, along with insights I gained from an ADHD awareness magazine that discusses ADHD-related fatigue and ME/CFS awareness. I also reflect on the demands of corporate America, a nearly 10-hour mandatory workplace training, and the importance of setting boundaries to protect your mental health. If you've ever felt overwhelmed by the pressures of work and life, this episode is a reminder that your well-being deserves to come first.

Before we get started, I want to mention that I've now surpassed the sobriety milestone I refer to in this episode. I'm also uploading this a little later than I originally intended, but I believe the message is still worth sharing. This episode is a personal reflection and a reminder of God's faithfulness through life's challenges. I recorded it as a way of acknowledging the tests and temptations I've faced and how, by God's grace, I was able to overcome them. On the day this episode was recorded, one of my cell carrier's towers in my area was down, disrupting both my phone and internet service. I needed to take care of a few important things—pay my rent, return a phone call from my roommate, and access the internet—so I left my apartment in search of a stronger signal. That search led me to a familiar park where I knew the connection would be better. As I pulled in, I noticed someone standing near a picnic table. At first, I didn't think much of it and focused on the phone call I needed to make. But before long, that individual made his way to the driver's side of my vehicle, and what began as a routine stop quickly became something much more. As followers of Christ, we're reminded that our adversary is always looking for opportunities to tempt, distract, and test us. In this episode, I'll share what happened that evening, what I learned from the experience, and several other topics that I hope will encourage you to remain watchful, grounded in your faith, and steadfast in your walk with God. Thank you for listening, and I hope this conversation encourages and strengthens you. Disclaimer: All rights to the music featured in this episode belong to their respective copyright owner(s). No copyright infringement is intended.

Arriving home yesterday after a nearly ten-hour unpaid mandatory training session for one of my employers reminded me of how corporate America often leaves people feeling as though they don't have a life outside of work. Although the training is required for my field, it was incredibly time-consuming, and by the time I arrived home, I was mentally exhausted. I was so drained that the plans I had made for the rest of the day never got completed. It made me reflect on how burnout has become a reality for so many hardworking Americans. Between demanding work schedules and the rising cost of living, many people are forced to work longer hours just to make ends meet. When grandparents who have reached retirement age are still working because they can't afford not to, that speaks volumes about the challenges many people face today. Although I believe God has called many of us to serve and care for vulnerable populations, the cracks within the systems designed to support them are a conversation of their own. Working in this field has given me a greater understanding of what burnout truly feels like. When caregivers are overwhelmed and unsupported, the people they serve can also be affected, sometimes resulting in neglect or various forms of abuse. This experience reminded me of something I must continue telling myself: I have to remain a priority in my own life. If I'm not taking the time to refill my own cup, how can I effectively help fill the cups of others? Thank you for joining me as we discuss these topics and so much more.

As I'm slowly building Silent Light and Support Co., I find myself appreciating small businesses more than ever. Like any business owner—whether you're running a large corporation or just getting started—you hope your organization is supported by the community. That's one of the reasons I wanted to create this Hidden Gem episode. Sometimes it's not always about the biggest companies. In my experience, supporting a local business can lead to more personalized customer service and genuine care. It's often the little things that leave the biggest impression. For example, after having my vehicle serviced, M&M Auto Repair placed a reminder sticker on my windshield for my next oil change. It's a simple gesture, but it's one I appreciated and haven't always experienced at larger auto service centers. Recently, I needed some work done on my vehicle, so I took it to M&M Auto Repair on North 32nd Street here in the Valley. That's where I met the owner, Alain. During my visits, he has always treated me with kindness, explained the repairs, and worked with me to find fair pricing on parts and labor whenever possible. On more than one occasion, he even helped me save money, which I truly appreciated. Because it's a smaller shop, the customer service feels much more personal. I never felt like I was just another number. Based on my own experiences, Alain and his team have been honest, professional, and respectful. Depending on the type of service needed and how many vehicles are ahead of yours, they work efficiently to get you back on the road as quickly as they can. While you wait, they also offer complimentary water, coffee, and snacks. And if your repair takes a little longer, there are several restaurants and shopping options nearby. If you're looking for quality automotive service and friendly customer care, I'd encourage you to consider giving M&M Auto Repair a try. They've earned my trust through my own experiences, and I wanted to recognize them as one of my Hidden Gems. The team knows me as Dee, so if you decide to schedule an appointment, feel free to let them know I sent you.

Three days ago, what began as a routine shopping trip to Dollar Tree quickly turned into a test of my endurance and sobriety. As I pulled into the parking lot, I noticed someone searching through the dumpster area. At first glance, I didn't realize it was someone I had previously engaged in drug activity with on several occasions. Once inside the store, I grabbed a shopping cart and prepared to head down one of the aisles. Before I could, that same individual walked in and approached the cashier to ask a question. The moment I recognized their face, I did everything I could to avoid being seen. Moments later, after they finished speaking with the cashier, I heard a voice call out, "Hey, friend... remember me?" In that instant, I knew my sobriety was being tested. Music Disclaimer: Any music featured in this episode is the property of its respective artist(s). I do not own or claim any rights to it. The music is included solely for entertainment and expressive purposes.

I want to take this opportunity to clarify a few things. In this episode, I mentioned that another podcasting platform was the beginning of my podcasting journey when, in fact, that credit belongs to Podbean. In yesterday's recorded upload, I also forgot to mention another meaningful experience. While checking out at the same Goodwill where my sobriety was nearly put to the test, the cashier noticed my sobriety bracelet. What began as a simple observation quickly opened the door to a meaningful conversation. Looking back, that interaction played a significant role in prompting me to create this episode. I want to make it clear that I'm not here to condemn 12-step meetings or the individuals who attend them. Many people have found support, healing, and community through those programs. However, when your eyes and ears become open to certain things involving systematic organizations, it can be difficult to ignore what may exist beneath the surface rather than focusing solely on what is visible on top. I understand that some of the viewpoints expressed in this episode may offend individuals who enjoy attending these groups, and that's okay. We can agree to disagree. My purpose is not to simply go along with the grain. I believe in asking questions, challenging perspectives, and examining what society often accepts as normal—especially when those things could potentially be harmful in certain situations. If this episode resonates with you, please consider sharing, liking, and commenting. I would sincerely appreciate your support and engagement. Disclaimer: I do not own the rights to any music included in this episode. All rights belong to their respective creators. The music is used for spiritual reflection and entertainment purposes only.

Yesterday, what was supposed to be a routine trip to Goodwill after getting my car's oil changed turned into a major test of my sobriety. While browsing through the store, I noticed an individual who appeared to be under the influence of a substance. Throughout my visit, we exchanged conversation on and off, which initially seemed harmless enough. As time went on, however, I noticed this person interacting with someone else who also appeared to be struggling with substance use. Eventually, the individual I had been speaking with ended up near the same aisle where I was shopping, and that's when the situation began to feel different. What started as casual conversation slowly evolved into a temptation that challenged the progress I have worked so hard to achieve. This content was recorded yesterday while the experience is still fresh on my mind because I felt it was important to share just how quickly an ordinary day can become a serious test of recovery. Long story short, if it weren't for the cashier at Goodwill who recognized my sobriety bracelet during checkout, the support of those looking out for me such as the invisible, my faith in God, and the memory of voices such as Regina Wells that have encouraged me to stay on course, I very well could have made a decision that would have cost me my sobriety. This experience reminded me that temptation often appears when we least expect it. Recovery requires vigilance, discernment, and the willingness to walk away from situations that threaten our peace and progress. Sometimes the greatest victories are the ones no one else sees—the moments when we choose not to give in. If you're currently struggling, please know that one decision can change the direction of your day. Stay alert, stay grounded, and never underestimate the importance of protecting your recovery. Please feel free to support this content by commenting, sharing, and passing it along to someone who may need the reminder. Thank you for your support, and take care. Music Disclaimer: The music featured in this content is not owned by me. All rights, ownership, and credit belong to the respective artists, musicians, producers, and copyright holders. This music is used for inspirational and entertainment purposes only.

The Lambda Center here in Phoenix often hosts guest speakers on special occasions and recovery-related events. On one particular evening, I decided to attend for fellowship and to hear the story of the speaker who had been invited to share. As I walked in and found a seat, I had no idea that the beautifully dressed woman sitting in the front row would soon be introduced as that evening's speaker. That woman was Regina. It's no secret that, like myself, Regina struggled with addiction. Yet she chose to use her experiences to help others who were still fighting for their sobriety. Whether I was in recovery or struggling with relapse at the time, I'm not entirely sure. What I do know is that I am deeply grateful for the opportunity to hear her speak and eventually form a connection with her that extended beyond the walls of the Lambda Center. When Regina's name was called and she stepped forward to share her story, I was immediately captivated by her elegance, confidence, and presence. Over the years, I had heard many people tell their stories at Lambda, but hearing one from the perspective of an African American woman resonated with me in a unique way. Addiction affects people from all walks of life, yet each person's experience is shaped by their own background, identity, and circumstances. Listening to Regina felt familiar and deeply personal because parts of her story reflected pieces of my own journey. Her presentation took us through a range of emotions—from laughter and sarcasm to moments that brought many of us to tears. By the time she finished speaking, I knew I wanted to thank her personally for sharing so openly and honestly. After the meeting ended, we spent some time talking before eventually exchanging phone numbers. I told her it would be an honor to interview her on my podcast one day. Unfortunately, that opportunity never came to pass. Instead, we maintained a connection through social media, occasionally commenting on one another's posts and supporting each other from afar. During a recent meditation, I found myself praying for Regina and asking God to have mercy upon her soul. She was, and continues to be, a vessel through which hope, healing, and inspiration were shared with others—especially those still battling addiction. One of my regrets is that I never developed a deeper personal friendship with her. Yet I find comfort in believing that relationships do not end simply because someone's physical presence is gone. The impact they leave behind continues to live on in the hearts of those they touched. Regina, thank you for inspiring me to continue sharing my own story. Your courage that night at Lambda left a lasting impression on me. You were a gift not only to the LGBTQ+ community but to people from all walks of life. Your voice, your spirit, and your willingness to be vulnerable helped others feel less alone. Continue shining as brightly in spirit as you did here on Earth. You will be deeply missed. Though my dream of interviewing you never became reality, I am grateful that our paths crossed when they did. May you rest peacefully in God's loving embrace. My heartfelt condolences go out to your family, friends, and all those whose lives were blessed by your presence. With love and gratitude, Silence     Music Disclaimer: The music featured in this episode is used for inspirational and entertainment purposes only. I do not own the rights to the music, and all rights remain the property of their respective owners.

While taking inventory of my YouTube platform and deleting old posts, I came across a powerful reminder of just how brutal addiction can be. About two years ago, I worked as a housekeeper at the Hilton Phoenix Airport here in the Valley. During that period, I was also deeply trapped in my addiction. There were many days when I arrived at work under the influence. As a result of my substance abuse, my skin would break out severely, especially across my forehead. Working in a four-star hotel surrounded by bright lighting certainly didn't help. During those years, all I wanted to do was hide from the world like a vampire and remain in complete darkness. Instead, I was expected to interact with managers, coworkers, and hotel guests on a daily basis. Fulfilling guest requests and working in close proximity to others often left me feeling exposed and uncomfortable. One thing that helped me navigate that difficult chapter was the makeup experience I had developed earlier in life while living as a transgender woman. Those skills, along with hairstyles that covered my forehead, helped conceal many of the wounds caused by the repetitive cycle of addiction and self-destruction. In this recording, I also share a recent experience involving a test that could have easily led me back into relapse. Recognizing what was taking place, I intentionally put protective barriers in place and remained mindful of the situation. By choosing silence, maintaining healthy boundaries, and staying focused on my recovery, I was able to overcome the temptation and remain sober for another day. What makes this experience even more significant is that it occurred during a weekend—a time when many people in recovery find themselves most vulnerable to relapse. Since recording this episode, I have continued to move forward in my sobriety journey and am now well beyond the sobriety date mentioned in the recording. This is exactly why sharing these small mustard seeds of faith and hope is so important to me. Far too many people are still struggling in silence. Far too many lives are being lost to addiction. If sharing my story helps even one person choose recovery over relapse, then every difficult chapter of my journey has served a purpose. Disclaimer: I do not own the rights to any music featured in this episode. All rights belong to the respective artist(s) and copyright holder(s). I truly appreciate your support through your likes, comments, shares, and continued encouragement. Happy sober living, and much love to each of you.

Many helping professionals enter this field with a genuine desire to serve others, yet the reality of chronic understaffing, overwhelming caseloads, limited resources, and constant exposure to crisis can leave workers frustrated, compassion fatigued, burned out, and emotionally exhausted. Over time, this level of stress can place tremendous strain on the nervous system and leave even dedicated staff questioning whether they can continue in their roles. Unfortunately, that stress does not remain isolated. It can affect workplace culture, relationships among staff, and ultimately the quality of care provided to those who depend on these services. While many professionals are deeply committed to helping others, there are also individuals who may have entered the field for reasons that have little to do with service and support. One of the most eye-opening aspects of my own journey has been recognizing behavioral patterns that mirror the very struggles many clients and patients face. As a person in recovery, I have become increasingly aware of how addiction, unresolved trauma, burnout, and unhealthy coping mechanisms can impact not only those receiving services, but sometimes those providing them as well. The more I observe these realities, the more I understand how neglect, mistreatment, and various forms of abuse can develop within systems that are stretched beyond their limits. This does not excuse harmful behavior, but it does highlight the importance of accountability, proper support, adequate staffing, and healthy workplace environments. My goal is not to judge or condemn anyone. Rather, it is to remain aware of what is happening around me, continue focusing on my own recovery, and do my best to be part of the solution rather than contributing to the problem. The deeper I look beneath the surface, the more I realize that healing is needed not only for those receiving care, but often for those providing it as well. Thank you to everyone supporting this episode. Your downloads, listens, and shares are truly appreciated. Please note that any music included in this episode is not owned by me. All rights and credit belong to the respective artist(s), creator(s), and copyright holder(s).

Before I begin discussing what this episode is truly about, I want to apologize for the music not being incorporated into the beginning and ending of this recording. Unfortunately, there’s an issue with my wireless headset that prevents the music from being heard while recording. So no worries about copyright concerns — it’s not like y’all can hear the music anyway. I created this episode because the longer I remain clean from substance abuse, toxic cycles, and generational bondage, the more clarity God continues to reveal through spiritual discernment and awakened understanding. At the same time, I constantly have to remind myself that every battle is not mine to fight. Some battles belong to God because He is far better equipped to handle them than I am. I truly believe I was called into this field of work for several reasons, but one of the biggest reasons is exposure to truth — even the uncomfortable truth hidden beneath the surface. Recently, I began reflecting more deeply on certain recovery environments and twelve-step meetings I once genuinely enjoyed attending. Over time, I started recognizing patterns that caused me to question whether some systems are fully focused on healing or whether, in some cases, people unintentionally become trapped within repetitive cycles that are difficult to escape. What makes this even more heartbreaking is that the unhealthy behaviors of individuals who are still deeply conditioned by addiction, manipulation, and dysfunction can sometimes overshadow those who are sincerely fighting for change, healing, and freedom in their lives. And those individuals deserve real support, real guidance, and real opportunities to rebuild themselves. This episode is not about condemning people. It’s about awakening discernment, asking deeper questions, and learning how to see beyond surface appearances. Please join me as I unpack truths that often go unnoticed in everyday life and recovery culture. Thank you in advance for downloading, listening, and supporting this journey. Until the next episode — allow truth, wisdom, healing, and discernment to guide your path forward. Much love, healing, and peace.

As Jesus mentioned in the Bible, “It is finished.” I created this episode after attempting to go live tonight, only to receive a message stating that this feature officially ended on the 18th of this month and will be fully phased out sometime in June. While I was initially disappointed, I chose to view the situation from a different perspective. Much like the renovations taking place within my own temple and personal journey, I realized that sometimes inventory must be taken in order to move forward. I’m sure Podbean reached a similar conclusion — recognizing that maintaining the livestream feature may have cost more than simply removing it altogether. Even so, this is far from the end of the world. I’m genuinely grateful for the opportunity Podbean gave me to share my story with people from all across the globe. Through this platform, I’ve encountered some truly amazing individuals — and, admittedly, a few not-so-amazing ones as well. Regardless, every interaction became part of the experience, the growth, and the journey. For that, I remain thankful. Although I remain uncertain regarding my long-term journey here on Podbean, the platform itself has been an incredible learning experience — helping shape me into a more polished speaker, communicator, and podcaster. I sincerely pray that whatever decisions I make moving forward, many of you will continue to be part of that journey alongside me. I mainly created this episode as an update. Although there have been difficult and trying moments along the way, God has continuously taken those experiences and used them for my growth, strength, and elevation. For that alone, I could not be more grateful. Within this episode, I discuss relapse, perseverance, earning certifications, temptation, spiritual warfare, and the various challenges that arise while attempting to grow, heal, and walk with purpose. Thank you all in advance for your continued support, encouragement, and understanding during this transitional season moving forward.

[RECORDED YESTERDAY NIGHT] Thank you for tuning into Raising Vibrations! My apologies for just now uploading this content later rather than sooner. In this live stream. I wanted to share some words of encouragement with those addicts still suffering. The weekends were a huge trigger for me while deep in my addiction. The control that "THE GODDESS ISHTAR" had over me with mind altering substances, sexual rituals, porn, secular music, scallywags, and just simply crossing ethical boundaries is exactly what this spirit wants! And not just from me either! "NO ONE IS EXEMPT DUE TO HER POSSESSIONS!" I now know why my family's lineage has suffered for so long. And why I'm the chosen one of the family picked to uplift them from their bandages! Unfortunately, acts of paganism has destroyed my family, and this world for decades! Addiction, mental, physical, verbal abuse, alehouse worship, god and goddess worship, sexual relations outside of marriage, sexuality identification boundary crossing, societal conditioning, etc! I am the generation chosen to carry my lineage to promising grounds! Unfortunately but fortunately, with each relapse that I experience, something new is revealed to me about myself, the world, and man! "THANK YOU JESUS THAT I'M PART OF THE WORLD, BUT NOT OF IT!" Join me to help set free, not only those addicts still suffering, but ourselves from years of unnecessary conditioning! Until my next upload, happy sober living and namaste. Also, thanks to those who took the opportunity to engage in the live stream chat last night! You all know who your are and much love! [DISCLAIMER: NON OF THE MUSIC SHARED ON THIS PROGRAM BELONGS TO ME. THE MUSICAL CONTENT IS COURTESY OF AMAZON MUSIC.]

In this episode. I explain "HOW I DID IT" and beat the odds. Even while going through phases of addiction and relapse! Though I made the mistake of falling victim to the "HOLIDAY" relapse quad. I managed, with the help of the invisible, to persevere. Which in return, opened the doors to some major opportunities! Satan took so much from me because it's what I allowed. Now that I realize how much of a value I am within the spirit realm. Is the very reason why Satan won't leave me the fuck alone! He knows that Source is elevating me to a level of unstoppable! This is where I'll truly shine. If he doesn't want it for any of you. What makes me think that I'm exempt!!! "I AM NOT!" But considering the fact that I'm "WELL" protected via Source. There's really nothing Satan can do in order to harm me. Don't get me wrong. I'm not exempt from this either! But when you're chosen. Source devotes more than enough protection in order for us to fulfill his missions while on earth. I created this content, not to glorify relapse, but to let it be known that it still can be done! I am a testimony of this considering what I'm sharing via this content. And unfortunately, the world plays a huge role in this as well regarding control, mind manipulation, status, identity theft, etc. I'll never be able to take back the fact, it was me who decided to open "PANDORA'S BOX" that night in Vegas when I decided to indulge. But I be damned if I allow that night to define me, or take away from me. It's refining me by giving to me what it tried to withhold! I pray that my story encourages addicts, and/or the non, that it doesn't stop unless you allow it to! Until my next upload of hope and encouragement. Much love and namaste. [DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THE MUSIC FEATURED ON TODAY'S SHOW. THE MUSIC IS COURTESY OF AMAZON MUSIC.]

In this episode. I share some stories of encouragement that goals can still be accomplished. Yes, even while going through relapse phases! I managed to achieve my (CPI) certification while relapsing on the eighth of this month. Hell, I even achieved my peer support certificate in 2022 while dealing with intermittent relapses. I'm not at all trying to influence it. I'm just saying that you can still achieve even if you've fell off of the bandwagon. Which in my case, has opened the doors for me becoming a certified (BHT). Which is an acronym for, "BEHAVIORAL HEALTH TECHNICIAN." Then within a couple of days. I'll be attending a course geared toward the prevention of suicide. Which will hopefully land me a job working with the national suicide prevention phone line! That's not it for I have a few other endeavors to accomplish. Plus I still have magazine interviews to start and finalize. For some addicts, tackling these achievements while going through a phase of relapse isn't easy. With the help of the invisible, and the strength from my own damn self. I overcame and doors continue to open, heavenly promises are being fulfilled, I'm earning certifications geared towards helping myself and others, abundance is flowing my way, etc. My spiritual path of living life as a humanitarian is going to be a humbling and rewarding experience indeed. Also, caller (CARLA) calls in with her own story of trial and error centered around addiction. But wait until you hear her victorious moment that overshadows her addiction, and her most recent relapse! This is exactly why I do what I do regarding my platforms! To give hope, strength, and encouragement to those needing it the most. Especially all of my addicts that are still suffering in silence! Until my next upload of hope and encouragement. Happy sober living and namaste.

In this episode of "RAISING VIBRATIONS" podcast. I open up in regard to my feelings centered around what happened at tonight 12-step meetings. I truly thank Dr. Bob and Bill for creating an amazing read "THE BIG BOOK OF AA" that has helped thousands of addicts recover from addiction. But lately, I've been feeling this type of energy that tells me "THESE AREN'T MY PEOPLE" in those fellowship rooms. I've come across more shady acting people than anything. I'm starting to see that these places can be quite judgemental for a quote on quote, "FELLOWSHIP!" These types of organizations aren't ready for my level of spirituality because it's too deep! And that is what caused tonight issue. I simply don't agree with everything concerning these rooms, or that big book. Source will never just give us one option to view situations. That's why he gave us choices because there's always another way of viewing things. To thank man and these rooms first before thanking the creator for saving your life from addiction says it all in regard to a great majority of these rooms that I've entered into! If the energy doesn't feel right. More than likely, something isn't right. If I can't rely on Source to uplift me from my addiction before man. Then something is terribly wrong! Until my next episode, 👀 wide open and namaste.

[HAPPY 2026 EVERYONE!!!] In this episode. I spoke openly about how I (WILL NOT) allow my addiction to refine me. Rather, it's refining the fuck out of my ass! After a few relapses, both occurring after major holidays. I had, another, out of many, spiritual awakenings that revealed to me what my purpose is while here on earth. I'm a humanitarian, and I am to live a life of humanitarianism!!! Much as I dislike most humans. Source wants me to have a change of heart. I slightly figured my role in this world would be serving mankind. But this serves mankind in a whole other way! "THIS IS MAJOR! AND OBVIOUSLY CONFIRMATION VIA THE UNIVERSE CONSIDERING IT'S ANGELIC TIME 12:44 PM RIGHT NOW!" What Satan thought he was going to steal from me. I've reclaimed back! I've also stolen back my identity from years of socialized conditioning!!! Satan hates that his plan to ruin me pretty much has backfired! I allowed myself to be his puppet for the last time! There's only so many foolish situations that Satan can place me in until I've had enough! I'm very thrilled with myself, and all of the other addicts whom placed themselves into 12-step meetings over the holidays!!! "ESPECIALLY ON NEW YEAR'S EVE AND DAY!" This is a huge blessing considering the greatest majority of addicts were probably out getting shit faced! Things are uplifting for me in major ways! I'm even looking into the (EASTERN PHILOSOPHY) of living and thinking! Again, Satan, you've given to me more than what you've taken. And now I'm about to take flight in some major ways! "THANK YOU!" My addicts still suffering. I've made it, and making it, period! Long as your faith channels are tuned up and you remain optimistic. You'll be speaking the universe's language in no time. Once you're in alignment. That's when the true transformations start to happen! Until then, happy sober living, and namaste.

In this episode. I share why I stepped away from the mic, and all of my other social media platforms for awhile. "IT ALL CENTERS AROUND WHAT OCCURRED THAT NIGHT OF NOVEMBER THE NINTH!" I'm not really surprised at what I witnessed. Unfortunately, this is the direction that our world is heading in. But the fact that I'm involved with this in a "SPIRITUAL" sense is what had me blown away! Who knew that what I thought about years ago in Vegas while undergoing meth psychosis. Would manifest into reality later down the line. I was so fucked up in the head by all of this to the point I needed time to process it all. I wanted to meditate about it in order to receive clarification via the spirit realm why I was led to that particular area to begin with! When I tell y'all it was perfect timing! "I MEAN IT TRULY WAS PERFECT TIMING!" I wanted to find out the spiritual significance associated with it. What I do know is that this event created a huge impact on myself, my life, and the destruction that this world will soon face if we don't continue to raise her vibrations! It allowed me the chance to see why Source separates his chosen from the world! And that's simply because it's a huge distraction! It's definitely keeping me from fulfilling my spiritual obligations! I'll soon be posting what footage I did capture on my alternate social media platforms! Once I have done this. I'll let you all know in the event some of you want to 👀 for yourselves what I witnessed! The footage isn't the best considering I was dealing with an archaic galaxy phone during that time. But with me explaining the events at hand. That should be enough to give y'all a general idea of what you're viewing! Until my next upload, y'all be good, happy sober living, and namaste.

In this episode. I share a hidden (GEM) with you guys that's truly a whole vibe! There's live music, singers, good food and beverages. But most of all, you're amongst some good company! I'm also reaching out to all of my Indie musicians that have experienced addiction, lived through it, and from those experiences. You created some compelling music centered around your struggles. I would love to interview and share your music on my platform. Music is story telling and the power of sharing your music with the world could very well help that next person in need. There's also a few other things mentioned that y'all can take advantage of as well. Until my next (💎) . Much love, happy sober living, and namaste!

It's been awhile since I've shared a hidden gem with you guys but that's going to change! I have several upcoming (💎's) for you all to work with if you so choose. Most of the gems that I share are going to be primarily local to my area. If you're traveling, or visiting here. Feel free and attend any of the activities that I post. There are several different events via this recording that you all can take advantage of as well. Who knows, maybe my ass will be at one of these functions! Until then, happy sober living, and namaste.

On this live show. I foreshadowed the fact that today "HALLOWEEN" is my birthday! Though there's ample excitement regarding my special day. There is some shocking truths centered around it as well! Which I share with you all via this stream. It'll make you think twice before celebrating "SATAN" each year!!!I I opened up in regard to my addiction, and how I've been coping with it. I even marched in this years gay pride parade on behalf of Lamba. We represented on behalf of "CMA", Crystal Meth Anonymous! I explained how I really wasn't in to it due to the event being so worldly. Even my ego wasn't feeling it, and somethings wrong if my ego doesn't want any attention!!! I share this and so much more! Also, a huge shot out to Jim for staying 25 days clear of his addiction!!! Continue on with your success! And I want to shot out Christopher Ferrone. He's a dear follower of mines here on Podbean and I appreciate him dearly. Until my next live show, happy sober living, and namaste!

In this episode. I took some time out to apologize for my absence. I foreshadowed a great majority of the events that played out prior to me stepping away from the mic. I titled this episode what I did because it's important to touch base on addiction and adversities!!! People of addiction are struggling nearly every single day with some form of adversity. And instead of turning to a support system for help. We'd rather turn to that addiction for our choice of a coping mechanism!!! "SATAN IS A LIE!" Though I really wasn't facing too hard of a time regarding my phase of adversity. My decision to "THINK THAT IT'S OK " cost me my last two feathered friends!!! Yes you guys, I no longer have ANY of my feathered friends in my life! Recall, two of them passed away from a mysterious death while residing in the previous apartment! I'm deeply saddened by what occurred regarding the remaining two. I eventually have gotten over it, and though it's hard, I'm choosing to continue on for myself, and them. I'll definitely tell you all the full story eventually. For now, I just wanted to leave you all with a little something because I owe that to you guys. Until my next upload, happy sober living and namaste.

In this episode. I spoke about how my guidance from the universe is opening doors to an abundance of magic! Reading the book ( THE SEVEN TYPE OF SPIRIT GUIDE: HOW TO CONNECT WITH YOUR COSMIC HELPERS) is by far one of the best books I've read leading me right to this very point! Because of this book. It allowed my spirit to guide me in the direction of my (MESOAMERICA AND ANDEAN) roots! Like the author of the book mentioned previously. Yamile Yemoonyah also has spiritual lineage similar to mine! Which prompted me to do some research!!! MesoAmerica refers to the region in Central America that encompasses cultures such as the Aztecs, Maya, and Olmec, characterized by advance cultural techniques, monumental architecture, and intricate trade networks. In contrast, the Andean civilization, including the Inca, focused on the high-altitude environments of the Andes mountains, developing unique agricultural practices like terrace farming and utilizing llamas as both pack animals and food sources. MesoAmerican societies practice pyramidal construction and had complex calendar systems based on cycles of the sun and moon, while Andean cultures emphasized finely crafted textiles and pottery along with advanced metallurgy using gold and silver. The belief systems differed, as MesoAmerican religion often revolved a pantheon of God's linked to nature, while the Andean civilization included ancestor worship and a strong emphasis on (THE INCA SUN GOD) Inti! These distinct geographical, agricultural, and spiritual traits highlight the diversity of pre-Columbian civilization in the America's. Learning this has changed me, and my life, in a whole different light! I'm fascinated with everything that I'm learning about my people. But what I'm truly aiming to learn are the spiritual practices amongst both parties!!!! There's more to share, including knowing what direction my spiritual team wants me to go regarding helping those addicts still suffering in silence. Until my next upload, knowing who you truly are changes everything, and namaste.

In this episode of Raising Vibrations Podcast. I speak about my necessary hiatus away from the platform. As one of God's chosen. It's a must that I seclude myself away from the rest of the world in order to hear his messages. Which has led me to some major blessings! During that much needed hiatus. I elevated into a whole new person. One that wants to do God's work at all means necessary with limited distractions! I share life after the death of my two feathered friends and so much more! Including several major milestone that I'm praying will influence those addicts still suffering in silence that it can be done! I want to thank everyone in advance for your support and listening pleasures. Until my next episode, continue raising those vibrations, and namaste.

[RECORDED JUNE 26, 2025] My apologies for uploading this episode later rather than sooner. I do believe this is the actual day that I found my two feathered friends deceased! Due to this tragedy. I've now started a movement/support group on Facebook for addicts who have lost their (NON-HUMAN) companions due to whatever circumstances. I think it's important to address every aspect of addiction. "INCLUDING ADDICTS OF PETS BECAUSE WE MATTER AS WELL!" I also spoke about some changes, that are not only just happening to me, but with this platform as well! Which will take effect very soon! It's time to start taking more control of things! Until then, stay on that straight and narrow, happy sober living, and namaste!

[RECORDED JUNE 26, 2025] In this episode. I share something very heart breaking for not only myself. But also for my remaining two that's left behind. As I explained via this recording. I'm not sure what caused this to happen! I just know that the discovery of my friends was traumatic enough as it is! I can just imagine what the remaining two felt considering it was them four. I still have the two that have departed this world preserving until otherwise. Considering my circumstances at hand. I sought out support groups for addicts going through what I'm experiencing. And unfortunately, there are non available! Which prompted me to create my own Facebook group! It's important that we touch on (ALL ASPECTS) of addiction. Because addicts that are experiencing my type of grief matter! Thank you all so much for your prayers, love, and positive energies during this time. Have a wonderful rest of your morning. And until my next episode, happy sober living, and namaste!

In this episode. I took some time out to update my people of addiction, relapse, and recovery regarding the latest centered around my life! I further explain why I haven't been as active here on my podbean platform like I normally would. "LET'S JUST SAY THAT A WHOLE NEW DEE VENOM HAS EMERGED!" And I don't want to waste anymore of my time than what I did fucking around with methamphetamine! I have a (SPIRITUAL CONTRACT) to fulfill, and I don't have the time to waste on meaningless conversations! I could be helping someone but instead. I'm engaging with people on here that simply aren't talking about shit! So it's time for myself, and my platforms, to merge in a different direction! I also go deep in regard to present and future plans for my platforms and so much more! Please, download and share my content! It helps to get the word out in regard to my purpose. Until my next upload, happy sober living, and much ❤️!

In this episode. I share a (💎) with you all. "ESPECIALLY MY LOCALS HERE IN THE ARIZONA AREA!" There is a important cause that's happening courtesy of a particular food bank that I frequent quite often. If you have a heart and enjoy being one of Source's chosen servers. Feel free and donate toward something that could feed more than enough mouths right here in the Arizona area!!! If you'd like to participate in this event. Please feel free to listen and share this content in order to get the word out! Until my next (💎), happy sober living, and much ❤️. LINK TO PARTICIPATE: WWW.HARVESTCOMPASSIONCENTER.ORG/DONATE

In this episode. I share a (💎) with my people local to the Arizona area! Get your pantries ready for some extra free food items courtesy of DESERT FINANCIAL BANK! They also have a website and link for more information regarding their mission. I'll provide that info below for anyone who is interested. "YOU NEVER KNOW! YOU MIGHT SEE ME THERE!" Make sure to share this info with others who are in need. Myself and the universe would gladly appreciate any efforts! Until my next (💎), happy sober living, and namaste! /@kingdomhelps/ www.kingdomhelps.org/ "SATURDAY, JUNE 21ST IS THE ANNUAL DRIVE! HOURS ARE BETWEEN 9:00 AM - 1:00 PM!"

In this episode. I share an (UPCOMING EVENT) with my people of addiction, relapse, and recovery within the Arizona area. The event centers around CAFTANS, SWIMSUITS, AND FUN! But most importantly, the main cause of this event is for fellowship! Check below for more information. Until my next (💎), happy sober living, and namaste.   azspringbreak.org

In this episode. I spoke about going (ONE STEP BEYOND) for some very special people! I explain why I haven't been so active on my podbean platform. And that's because I dedicated my time to a week of training regarding the people that I've been (CHOSEN) to look out for. The things that I learned during training truly changed me for the better. And now that I've seen the history of the people that I've been (CHOSEN) to look out for. It makes me even more proud at the fact Source has (CHOSEN) me for this particular role! And guess what! The organization that I'm employed with are seeking compassionate people for employment, culinary, education, drivers, fitness trainers, and the arts, to come join the team at ONE STEP BEYOND, INC! They're hiring here in the Arizona and California area! "AND THEY TRULY DO NEED COMPASSIONATE STAFF TO HELP WITH THESE BEAUTIFUL WALKS OF LIFE!" I'll post below, more info regarding how to move forward in the event you're wanting to participate! They're also non profit, if I'm not mistaken, so donations is a plus! If you have extra things that are no longer serving your highest self. Think about donating it to (OSBI) to better the lives of these very (SPECIAL) people! Thank you all so much for listening and sharing this content in order to spread the word! Until my next (💎), lots of ❤️, and namaste!!! OSBI CONTACT INFO IN ARIZONA: (623) 215-2449 OSBI CONTACT INFO IN CALIFORNIA: (650) 532-0509 OSBI WEBSITE: OSBI.ORG MAILING ADDRESS: PO BOX 1022 PEORIA, AZ 85380-1022 CULINARY ARTS TRAINING CENTER 9299 W. OLIVE AVENUE, SUITE 311 PEORIA, AZ 85345

In this episode. I share some (VITAL) info regarding next year's 2026 Cocaine Anonymous Convention! I'm giving my people of addiction, relapse, and recovery (MORE THAN ENOUGH ⏲️) to plan and attend this event! When I tell you that I had a blast at this year's event held in Scottsdale, Arizona. "BOY DID I HAVE FUN! I JUST WISH THAT I COULD'VE ENJOYED MORE THAN ONE DAY OF IT!" Even if you're not dealing with addiction. I suggest going to support the cause overall! Again, you just never know who you'll meet at one of these events considering people from around the world attend!!!! Please share this episode with others who you think may want to attend such an event! Until my next (💎), much love ❤️, L.L.S, and happy sober living!   MORE INFO: [email protected] 

In this episode. I share a (HIDDEN 💎) with my people of addiction, relapse, and recovery. There's an event that's approaching and I'm giving my people (AMPLE) time for planning. Feel free to download, listen, and share this upcoming (SPIRITUAL GATHERING) event with others! "👀 BELOW FOR MORE INFO!" Until my next (💎), much ❤️ and happy sober living! EVENT: SAVE THE WEEKEND/RENEWAL IN THE DESERT! WHEN: OCTOBER 10TH-12TH, 2025 RENEWAL IN THE DESERT INFO: HTTP://RENEWALINTHEDESERT.ORG

In this episode. I share a (HIDDEN 💎) with my people of addiction, relapse, and recovery! This (💎) has both in person and zoom meetings! I'll provide the zoom meeting info so that you all can take advantage of this event, which is held every Sunday for anyone interested!!! Feel free to support addiction by participating in this event, which is not just open to our people right here in the valley. But it's open to any and everyone interested!!! "YOU NEVER KNOW! YOU MIGHT SEE ME AT ONE OF THESE EVENTS!" Until my next (💎), happy sober living, and much ❤️. ZOOM ID FOR SWAY THE (NA) WAY: 239-607-7536 ZOOM PASSWORD FOR SWAY THE (NA) WAY: LGBTQIA

In this episode. I share a (HIDDEN 💎) with you guys. "ESPECIALLY MY PEOPLE HERE WITHIN THE ARIZONA AREA!" I suggest attending this workshop in order to learn how to use this product. You never know if you may need it in order to save someone's life. Also, I foreshadow in this recording, about a little (SOMETHING SOMETHING) that centers around (DEEVENOM) merch! I'm looking into a few things regarding t-shirts for (ALL) body types! "JUST TO FORESHADOW!" The place that this particular workshop will be held at is the same place that I attend my (12) step meetings! Maybe one day I'll see one of you guys there! "COME UP AND SAY HELLO!" Until then, happy sober living, and namaste, 😇🙏😇!

In this episode. I catch you guys up to speed in regards to one's life. There has been some (VERY) interesting things that have occurred over the past month or so. And to my recollect, nothing has been negative! I'm so thrilled with myself considering I'm forty five days clean from methamphetamine! "AND CLIMBING!" The more I stay clean. The more blessings I receive via Source, and the universe!!! "AND MAJORITY OF THESE AREN'T NO SMALL BLESSINGS EITHER!" Take a break out of your busy lives to listen at how the universe delivers! "ON TIME! EVERY TIME!" By downloading and listening to this content! I and the universe would gladly appreciate any efforts! Until my next upload, happy sober living and namaste!

In this episode. I share a (HIDDEN 💎) with you all in the form of a song! If you're a huge (GODZILLA) fan just like I am! Then maybe you all can allow your minds to meander to another place other than here for a bit! A place where mythical creatures live and reign supreme! A place where dragons breathe 🔥 and unicorns roam free! But most of all! Picture (MOTHRA) emerging from it's sacred hiding place ready for the 🌎! Don't pay attention to the beat of this song! Pay more attention to the background sounds/music while imagining yourself in (MOTHRA'S) 🌎! "FEELS GOOD TO MENTALLY ESCAPE, HUH!" Until my next (GEM), happy (ELEVATION) and namaste!

Satan is (TRULY) a liar and for so many years (A GREAT MAJORITY OF US) have been lied to in regard to our (TRUE) identities! The more I remain sober. The more that the universe reveals to me. "AND IT'S A BEAUTIFUL THING, TO SAY THE LEAST!" I know that I'm chosen. But I didn't realize that (I'M MARKED FOR LIFE) due to my spiritual agreement and it bares right in the middle of my palms!!!!! Spiritual lineage from years and years ago I carry. And all this time I just thought the lines on my palms were just that, lines! But they bare so much more! Spiritual coding just for those that (SOURCE) carefully handpicked to carry out specific missions! "IT ALL COMES TOGETHER FOR ME NOW!" Please, you guys, look at your palms, and if you have that letter (M) on it! "YOU'RE ONE SPECIAL PERSON WITH SOME AMAZING POWERS! AND, YOU'RE PART OF MY TRIBE!" As I'll show y'all once these images of my palms are uploaded!!!! When you learn (WHO YOU TRULY ARE), there's no going back because your eyes are now open! "OPEN TO THE TRUTH!" My tribe, you must emerge because the world needs you, and your light! With that being said, y'all will no longer be my (STINGERS), that has changed! Y'all are officially my "CRESCENT 🌙 AND LETTER TRIBE!" Once you figure out who you (REALLY) are! Please comment and let me know what you think regarding those crescent 🌙 and letter (M) videos courtesy of YouTube! Until then, I hope that y'all enjoy today's (HIDDEN GEM) and namaste!

In this episode. I share a (HIDDEN GEM) with you all in the form of a video! This video speaks volumes regarding what addiction truly is! I was amazed at what I was hearing and learning to the point. I just had to share it! "AND THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I AM DOING!" Please my people of addiction. If you don't do anything good for yourself throughout your battle with addiction. At least watch this video! I think it'll make you reevaluate yourself, and your circumstances! Until my next (GEM), lots of L.L.S and namaste!

In this episode. I spoke about my time spent at the (RECOVIA) center! I opened up to one of the people who I am working alongside with in regard to a certain childhood trauma that I explained via this video. I also share my time spent at yet another (12 STEP) meeting Monday night. And lastly, I find out that I've been talked about behind my back by some ex co-workers of mine! To find out who they are and so much more! You'll have to download and listen!!! Until my next upload, lots of L.L.S and namaste!

[RECORDED LASTNIGHT] In this episode. I was going to play some music for the people in order to get y'all Friday night going! But I had a caller phone in and I will admit. I was a tinge irritated that my show was interrupted due to the fact someone needed to vent. Interestingly enough, me being irritated turned into complete joy because I ended up having a (FANTASTIC) experience! I spoke with someone who I was going to reach out to anyway in regard to something they posted on their podbean platform that entered into my live show! Long story short. Myself, Miss Mo, Christopher Ferrone, Cory, Keron Bartley, Mr. B. Great, and a few others all joined together for an (AMAZING) experience! Please, feel free and join us as we (DEFINITELY GET CHA SOME) with some of the topics we discussed last night! Ranging from coochie to peer support specialist! Thanks in advance for your support and much ❤️!

[RECORDED YESTERDAY] In this episode. I spoke about my time spent at yet another (NA) meeting! While there, I earned a little (something something) that I'm proud of. "AND I SHARED ONCE AGAIN!" I also shared with you all. My experience regarding (RECOVIA) and how things went! Let's just say, I've only been there two times thus far. And I already love this place, the staff, and their services! I'm glad that I took the initiative and gave them a call! I also speak about so much more like withdrawal and scallywags! Thanks in advance for supporting me and my journey towards recovery. And thanks for downloading and listening to my episodes! Until my next upload, L.L.S and namaste.

[RECORDED MAY 4, 2025] "COME (GET CHA SOME) AS I GO INSTRUMENTAL WITH SOME BELLY DANCE MUSIC!"   [DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THE RIGHTS TO THE MUSIC BEING PLAYED IN THIS RECORDING. THE MUSIC IS COURTESY OF YOUTUBE.]

COME (GET CHA SOME) AND LISTEN IN AS I TURN OUT SOME OF MY LISTENERS WITH SOME (XXX) TALK!"

In this episode. I spoke about how my life is changing for the better due to me making some positive changes. I discuss how (POWERFUL) of an empath that I am due to the hands of Source! I also foreshadowed my time spent at another 12 step (NA) meeting last night, and the gifts that I received while there! I also update y'all regarding my first official day at Recovia today! "WHICH WAS ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC!" Please, support by downloading and listening. I and the universe would gladly appreciate any efforts! Until my next upload, L.L.S and namaste.

In this episode. I share with you all why I think the universe has jokes! "WELL, AT LEAST I THINK SHE DOES!" Please, download and listen as I thank my (FOREVER HIDDEN GEM) the universe! Until my next episode, y'all be good and happy sober living!!!

In this episode. I spoke about how these (12 STEP) meetings are doing me thus far! And considering it's a Saturday night! I know (EXACTLY) what I'd be doing had I not made better decisions for myself! I explained in this recording whether these meetings have been beneficial for me or not. I also share other topics such as my visit with (RECOVIA) on Thursday and much more! Please, download and listen! Maybe this episode will inspire someone out there to make that change for the better! Until my next upload, y'all be good and namaste.

[DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN THE RIGHTS TO ANY OF THE MUSIC THAT'S BEING PLAYED ON THIS SHOW. THE MUSIC IS COURTESY OF YOUTUBE] Join me on this Friday as I bring y'all further into my 🌎 by playing music MY WAY! Join me as I jam some of my favorite (INSTRUMENTAL) tracks by various different artists!!! As I told y'all before, I love the vocals regarding most of the music that I enjoy listening to. But let's take that away and simply listen to the music itself (WITHOUT) any vocals. You tend to hear all of the instruments that have been drowned out due to voices! And without these various instruments, most music (WOULDN'T) be music! So sit back and relax as you hear the sounds of the tambourines, horns, bells, chimes, and other instruments that make up our music! Also, Keron Bartley and Mr. B'Great stop by for a little chit chat session. Until my next upload, y'all enjoy and much love!

[RECORDED LASTNIGHT] In this episode. I spoke about how I (TREATED) myself, (TWICE) to a certain something yesterday. "AND IT WASN'T ICECREAM EITHER!" One event I attended and the other was via a phone call! I'm super excited, and proud, of myself for making these decisions! I gathered inspiration to do this from various different places. Including a family friend of mines who placed themselves in rehab in order to receive a much better life, drug free! I'm extremely happy considering where my life is now headed! "AND THAT'S IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION!" Tonight is another event regarding this (TREAT), and I'm sure I'll attend considering I was invited back! It's never the end my friends of addiction. Unless that's where you want it to be! Allow this episode to give you the strength and courage to make better decisions for yourself moving forward! Thanks in advance for y'all support during all of this and namaste!

In this episode. I spoke about how I completed those series of 💉 in order to rid myself of this certain something! I further go on to tell y'all what happens next after all of this! I explain relapse and how I merged off of the straight and narrow. But there's a 🙌 in all of this thanks to my psychiatrist! I'm also going about adding other preventative measures as blockers against my battle with methamphetamine! Maybe by listening to my story. It will help someone else out there who lives a similar lifestyle! For me, it's about helping one another so that (WE ALL) can make it through the battles of addiction stronger and wiser. Thanks in advance for y'all support and much love!