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The Butterfly Broadcast
by Baylee Demars
Baylee lost her second pregnancy at 10 weeks. This personal devastation completely altered her perception of miscarriage, stillbirth and infant loss as she yearned for compassion and understanding. She created this podcast as Mrs. Utah America to serve as a resource of conversation and community. Butterflies have been symbolic for her in this journey which is why she chose the imagery of metamorphosis to organize the interview format: Caterpillar phase: what life was like beforeChrysalis phase: the climax & ooey gooey mess of the lossButterfly phase: the changes and beauty that have emerged
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60. Aubin Palmer: Finding Empowerment in Saying "No"
Meet Aubin, an author, life & business coach and an RN who is also reigning as Mrs. Vineyard 2024. As if that resume isn't impressive enough, she also hosts a podcast titled "Power Women" and exemplifies just that through her battles with infertility and PSOS. After bringing three beautiful girls...
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59. Holly Naylor: Huck Everlasting
Meet Holly, a Californian teacher whose life turned upside down the moment she found out she was pregnant. Take a listen to learn the MANY things Holly needed to grieve in addition to her beautiful son, Huck, born at 22 weeks gestation under incredibly unique circumstances. You’ve never heard a...
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58. Breanne Su'a: Be Strong Like Milo, Endure Like Dante
Meet Breanne, a breakfast-loving Boise native that is most importantly mother to two beautiful angel boys. After a diagnosis of PCOS, she and her husband were thrilled to finally get that positive pregnancy test. Take a listen to learn what happened at 17 weeks gestation not only during her first...
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57. Bernice Quesenberry: Chasing the Rainbows
Meet Bernice, a Pennsylvanian mom enthusiastic about running but even more passionate living out her daughter, Brooke's legacy. After suffering secondary infertility, Bernice and her husband were thrilled to finally get pregnant after 2.5 years. Take a listen to learn the challenges that caused...
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56. Suzzie Vehrs: Finding Peace After A Molar Pregnancy
Meet Suzzie, a doula and childbirth educator passionate about helping moms create a birth they love. However, her own first experiences with pregnancy were less than ideal, beginning with a molar pregnancy, which drove her to this line of work. Take a listen as Suzzie gets real about the...
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55. Shauna Blaunquie: Sending Sierra Smiles Out Into The World
Meet Shauna, a northern Californian mother, wife, certified athletic trainer, Norwex consultant, and advocate for congenital heart defect warriors. When she was 26 weeks pregnant, it was discovered that her daughter, Sierra, had developed HLHS (hypoplastic left heart syndrome). Take a listen to...
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54. Ana Lepe Vick: Mothering My Son Owen Through Stillbirth Prevention Advocacy
Meet Ana, co-founder of Push for Empowered Pregnancy and co-director of Medical Innovations and Advancements. After her first baby girl was born, she had a miscarriage and looked forward to a "redemptive" pregnancy. Once her son Owen was conceived, everything was going well until third trimester...
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53. Markie Ostler: Happy Everly After
Meet Markie, an Utah mom & influencer better known by her handle @meeteverlyjo. Her page originally started as a journal that began the day before her daughter was born & has evolved into an inspiring platform. Take a listen to learn how Markie believes that sadness and joy can co-exist as she...
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53. Amanda Feltmann: Measure the Placenta for Junie
Meet Amanda, a Minnesota mama to three girls and co-founder of the instagram page @measuretheplacenta. During her first pregnancy with Juniper, baby was measuring small at the anatomy scan so she was regularly monitored by MFM specialists. Despite the extra care, an important diagnosis of small...
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52. Andrea Bender: 2 Sets of Twins + Adoption Miracles
Meet Andrea, a mother, ER nurse, and the reigning Mrs. Wisconsin America 2023. After years of battling Crohn's Disease and struggling to conceive, Andrea still never gave up hope on her dream of having 5 children. Two miraculous sets of twins later, Andrea still felt there was another child...
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51. Ken & Tanya Jacobi: Ryleigh’s Resources
Meet the Jacobi's, a couple from Connecticut who work together to honor their daughter with the 501(c)(3) they’ve created called Ryleigh’s Resources. Take a listen to hear the perspectives from both husband and wife on what it was like to lose their baby at 40 weeks and how their non-profit aims…
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50. Lindsey Wimmer: The Star Legacy Foundation
Meet Lindsey, nurse practitioner and mother to three (earth-side) teenagers in Minnesota. It was nearly 20 years ago that Lindsay was pregnant with her first child, Garrett, when her worst nightmare took place at 38 weeks. Take a listen to learn how an annual birthday memorial for Garrett...
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49. Skylar Randle: Mailee Taught Me A Lot
Meet Skylar, an ambitious 20 year old pursuing her masters in Forensics Investigative Sciences in Texas who is unfortunately no stranger to grief. After losing her father in 2021, she found out she was expecting not too long after. Take a listen to learn the extensive monitoring that Skylar would...
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48. Elizabeth Michalski: Sending Love & a Teddy Bear Hug
Meet Elizabeth, a busy mom in Cleveland Ohio and founder/operator of the 501(c)(3) non-profit organization 'A Touch of Teddy'. After a cancerous thyroid nodule was removed & resolved, she was relieved to finally conceive and have a textbook pregnancy. Take a listen to learn how all that changed…
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47. Amber & Kenzie: The Origin Story of the Non-profit, 'Held In Hope'
Meet Amber & Kenzie, two women from Indiana who have been friends since high school and now have 12 living children between the two of them. As they leaned on one another during their losses throughout the years, they decided to create a non-profit in 2022 called 'Held in Hope' to support and…
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46. Carmen Grover: Remembering Our Angels & Embracing Our Rainbow
Meet Carmen, an RN, yogi, author, farmer from Canada and most importantly, mama to 7 angel babies. As she begun her journey of motherhood with a missed miscarriage, she started documenting her thoughts and feelings in the form of a diary to the baby she'd lost. Take a listen to learn how this...
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45. Naomia May: When Cancer Changes You
Meet Naomia, Mrs. Washington 2023 and mother to three children in a blended family. She didn't anticipate fertility troubles when she had her two daughters close together, yet everything changed when she was diagnosed with stage 3 uterine cancer at the young age of 21. Take a listen to learn what...
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44. Mary Adkins: What 3 Miscarriages in 1 Year Taught Me
Meet Mary, a writing coach in Dallas and founder of The Book Incubator; a 12-month program to write, revise, and pitch novels or memoirs. While she's a published author of three best-selling novels, she finds it most gratifying to write about her story of losing three consecutive pregnancies in...
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43. Holly Ann Abel: Bloom Like Magnolia
Meet Holly Ann, a first grade teacher in Kansas and creator of the instagram resource page @bloomlikemagnolia. Everything was going smoothly with her first pregnancy with her daughter Magnolia until Holly Ann noticed a decrease in movement while 8 months pregnant. Take a listen to learn how…
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42. Grace Peterson: My Rainbow Baby Story
Meet Grace, a reading specialist teacher in New York. When her first daughter was diagnosed with Trisomy 18 (incompatible with life), Grace and her husband had to 'make a decision in a situation where they had no choice' and terminate the pregnancy at 13 weeks. Take a listen to learn how writing...
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41. Andrea Meyers: After Terra
Meet Andrea, creator of the @grievinglikeamother instagram platform and mother to six children in Northern California. When a 20-week ultrasound on her 5th child revealed a two-vessel cord. she was told it was not a concern. Take a listen to learn what happened when Andrea went into labor with...
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40. Gina Mundy: A Childbirth Attorney's Insights on How to Have a Safer Birth & Protect Your Baby
Meet Gina, an attorney who has specialized in childbirth cases for 20 years. In June 2023, she published a book unlike any other, "A Parent's Guide to a Safer Childbirth", in which she shares the critical facts and lessons she's learned throughout her career. Take a listen to discover knowledge...
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39. Megan Holmstead: I Can Do Hard Things
Meet Megan, a 6-ft tall dental hygienist living in Houston who knew early in her adulthood that she wanted to be a mother. Without too much delay, the Holmsteads welcomed one boy into their family, then another, and then a third. Take a listen to learn how the third home-birth was a dreamy…
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38. Laura Rizzo: Creating Community & A Legacy
Meet Laura, a crafty mama living in Massachusetts whom is the creator of the instagram resource page @_thethingsiwishyouknew. As if being pregnant during COVID wasn't stressful enough, Laura was met with more anxiety at 31 weeks when she sensed reduced fetal movement. Take a listen to learn how...
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37. Sarah Urcino: Angelee Our Angel
Meet Sarah, a musical and nature-loving mom that shares three children and a bonus child with her wife of 9 years, Rosa. After Sarah's first "textbook perfect" pregnancy, the second pregnancy with Angelee followed suit all the way until birth. Take a listen to learn what happened when the baby's...
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36. Veronica Lybbert: Jayne Made Me a Better Mom
Meet Veronica, a talented photographer with Chilean heritage, who was still learning who she was when she conceived her first child. Everything was going smoothly until she was met with dreaded silence at her 20 week ultrasound. Take a listen to learn how Jayne's birth was a catalyst for growth…
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35. Sarah Cox: Mom Uses Infertility and Losses to Help Other Loss Families
Meet Sarah, an accountant in Georgia who loves the Office so much she named her pit bull after one of the characters. With a teenage diagnosis of PCOS, she sought out fertility treatments which resulted in one healthy pregnancy and birth, but also several miscarriages along the way. Take a listen...
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34. Kayla Graver: Mom Trying to Honor Her Angel Babies & Keep Them Alive In Our Hearts
Meet Kayla, a mama to four children; two earth-side and in heaven, who recently had her dreams come true. While attending a Jonas Brothers concert, Kayla held up a sign about her angel babies that attracted the attention of the boyband. Take a listen to learn the impact that her message had on…
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33. Nichole Feltner: Opening the Doors Grief Closed
Meet Nichole, your Mrs. Central Maryland and a busy mama running a micro publishing label with her daughter. After having two healthy children, Nichole went several years without pregnancy on her mind- in fact she even had an IUD placed. Take a listen to learn how Nichole felt when she still...
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32. Madisan Dockendorf: Brooks and Beyond
Meet Madisan, mama to four boys and an adventurist who has moved six times over the last eight years with her husband Mike. When her firstborn son was diagnosed with a cancerous tumor at six months old, Madi thought this would be her greatest life trial. However, two years later when she was...
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31. Ashley Sorenson: Bringing Awareness to the Physical and Emotional Recovery After a Loss
Meet Ashley Sorenson, a Core & Pelvic Floor Corrective Exercise Specialist as well as Mrs. Washington County 2024 who very much enjoys the recreation that Southern Utah offers her family. When she worked in an OBGYN clinic and as a physical trainer early in her career, she observed a severe gap…
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30. Tia Hansen: I'll Love You Forever My Baby You'll Be
Meet Tia, a Utah native who is sure to beat you at any Seinfield trivia! She and her husband, Logan, had welcomed both a boy and a girl into their family so with their third pregnancy they'd decided to keep the gender a surprise. Tia's pregnancies cause her extreme sickness, and this one was no...
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29. Jessica Ells: My Little Ray of Sunshine
Meet Jessica, a mama of three that enjoys her beautiful home of Salt Spring Island, Canada through hobbies such as running, hiking, and gardening. Upon the healthy delivery of her first child, it was discovered that there was a velamentous cord which is an abnormal insertion of the umbilical cord...
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28. Moria Rooney: Mother of Wilde
Meet Moria, a faithful mama who balances the full-time job of caring for her children while also running a ministry out of her home in Wilmington, North Carolina. She and her husband Brian are all too familiar with birth trauma... from infertility and miscarriage to pre-term birth and NICU stays....
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27. Ayako Gallagher: How I Found Guilt-Free Joy After Loss
Meet Ayako, a relatable British Columbian mother who shamelessly indulges in a variety of reality TV. When she received the life-shattering news that her baby girl Emi had died in utero at 24 weeks, Ayako not only felt isolated, but left to do her own research. With a determination to make things...
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26. Rachel Lohman: Finding Hope Again
Meet Rachel, a Southern Californian who says her entire perspective on motherhood was shaped by journey beginning with miscarriage. Despite now having two earth-side children, Rachel has felt moved to contribute to the pregnancy & infant loss community. In the few years since her loss, she has...
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25. Mallory Stone: Seeking for Seth & Life After Loss
Meet Mallory, a former sixth grade teacher who now delights in homeschooling her children and sharing with them her love of gardening and exploring the great outdoors. Once she and her husband had three children (with some infertility struggles in between), they were unsure whether their family…
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24. Kennedy Garrett: Williams Heart Changed Ours
This is a story about Kennedy, a dental hygienist who is passionate about her career, her husband Brady, and now her angel son William. Kennedy had always known she wanted an unmedicated birth at home, so when her perfectly smooth pregnancy came to an end with a cinematic-like water breakage,...
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23. Kristianna Hall: A Mother's Chance - Honoring Arabella
Meet Kristianna, a Colorado native who loves her life being outnumbered by three boys; her son, husband and husky. However, she can never forget her sweet baby girl, Arabella, whom she has chosen to honor by recently developing a non-profit Kristi calls, 'A Mother's Chance'. It all began with a...
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22. Britney Boekweg: "The Pain is Worth the Privilege of Loving You"
Meet Britney, a small-town loving woman and mom to Nash (National) and Isla. When Britney and her husband decided 5 years ago that they wanted to start a family, they encountered fertility issues... with the biggest issue of all being lack of transparency from providers. After much fundraising…
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21. Ally Glover: Lincoln's Legacy
Meet Ally, owner of both a social media marketing and a photography business and married to Drew Glover. However, the most important thing Ally would want you to know about her is that she's Lincoln's mom. When the Glovers got pregnant, they didn't anticipate any complications especially when all...
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20. Abby Frazier: The Beautiful Miracle Journey with Lily
Meet Abby, a social butterfly who enjoys horseback riding and country line dancing. Conceiving was both exciting and nerve-wracking for their family as Abby carries an 18th chromosomal anomaly that could be passed to baby. At the 20 week ultrasound, the doctor confirmed a concerning diagnosis...
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19. Luisa Gates: The Peace of a White Butterfly
Meet Luisa Gates, a Colombian born woman who has a dream of owning a farm and living the self-sustainable, homestead lifestyle with her family. She and her husband were ecstatic to be pregnant with their first child and had a blissful pregnancy up until 24-weeks gestation. When Luisa experienced...
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18. Clarissa Thomas: Strong, Slow, and Graceful
Meet Clarissa, the outstanding Mrs. Utah County 2023, leader of the "Glitter Force" which comprises of her three daughters and home renovator extraordinaire. Another important detail to know about her is the advocation she provides for women that suffer from PMDD (premenstrual dysmorphic…
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17. Cierra Olsen: The Calm Before the Storm
Meet Cierra Olsen, Colorado native and mother to two adorable girls ages 3 and 5 years old. Imagine the surprise she and her husband felt when their subsequent pregnancy came to an abrupt halt just days after the positive test. Within the very same year, she lost another pregnancy at 18 weeks and...
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16. Jenessa Kramer: An Open Book After 6 Losses
Meet Jenessa, graphic designer and wife of an air traffic controller that has led them to live in wild places such as the Grand Canyon. She is also the face behind the instagram handle @heyjenessa in which her objective is "spreading hope and light during recurrent pregnancy loss, PCOS…
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15. Julie Card: Life After the Life Flight
Meet Julie Card, recent VP of Share Parents of Utah and volunteer extraordinaire. Julie says, like many people, she was once naive in thinking that healthy babies come naturally with wholesome aspirations. However, her first pregnancy put her through the ringer, being sick and bedridden for 6...
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14. Tiffany Lindstrom: President of THE Club
This is a story about Tiffany, current president of Share Parents of Utah and mom to two adopted children, two angel babies, and two rainbow babies. In her own words, she was "living her best life" and preparing for her wedding when she found out she was pregnant. She and her fiance were thrilled...
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13. Aubrey McDonald: Tess, an Anencephaly Angel!
This is the story of Aubrey McDonald, a Nashville dwelling mama who loves being apart of the Burn Boot Camp staff and workout fam. After having two healthy children, things were going well with her third pregnancy until the 20-week ultrasound where they were given a terminal fetal diagnosis. The...
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12. Baylee Demars: From MIScarriage to MRS. Utah
This is a story about ME, your host Baylee Demars! I grew up dreaming of the children I would one day have while at the same time feeling terrified that it would never happen for me, given my family history of infertility. After my first son's miraculous yet traumatic pre-term birth, I was eager…
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ABOUT THIS SHOW
Baylee lost her second pregnancy at 10 weeks. This personal devastation completely altered her perception of miscarriage, stillbirth and infant loss as she yearned for compassion and understanding. She created this podcast as Mrs. Utah America to serve as a resource of conversation and community. Butterflies have been symbolic for her in this journey which is why she chose the imagery of metamorphosis to organize the interview format: Caterpillar phase: what life was like beforeChrysalis phase: the climax & ooey gooey mess of the lossButterfly phase: the changes and beauty that have emerged
HOSTED BY
Baylee Demars
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The Butterfly Broadcast currently has 60 episodes available on PodParley. New episodes are automatically indexed when they're published to the podcast feed.
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Baylee lost her second pregnancy at 10 weeks. This personal devastation completely altered her perception of miscarriage, stillbirth and infant loss as she yearned for compassion and understanding. She created this podcast as Mrs. Utah America to serve as a resource of conversation and community....
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The Butterfly Broadcast is created and hosted by Baylee Demars.
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