The MINDFUCKERY Podcast
by elizabethgoddard
I’m your host Elizabeth, I’m Author of Finding Lily, The A to Z of Emotional Abuse and Divorce Matters.I am here to remind you that love should be UNCONDITIONAL, Divorcing Emotionally is LIFE-CHANGING and you have a DUTY OF CARE for yourself it should be your MANTRA! Each week I discuss some of the terms you may hear along this journey and I will help you INNER-STAND and PROCESS what is happening INSIDE YOU!I will help you find the DISCOVER THE BEST TOOLS | PUT IN PLACE THE BEST RITUALS as you start to take back the control over your own life AND learn the tools to heal on a deeper level becoming THE BEST VERSION OF [email protected]
Episodes
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Episode 172 | Playing by their rules will hurt you more
This is a game and you don't have the rules. You would never inner-stand them evening if they were printed out, because once you start to see the game being played they are changed, just to spice things up a little bit more. The joy comes from seeing you hurt, in pain, confused. So when you see...
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Episode 171 | Unplugged: When Someone Else's Darkness Becomes Yours
What happens when somebody else's darkness becomes something you carry inside? A strange encounter with a moving black shadow on a supermarket screen leads Elizabeth to explore the emotional heaviness left behind by an abusive relationship. Using her electric vehicle analogy, she explains how...
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Episode 170 | Is 2026 the Fall of the Narcissist?
Since the beginning of this year, I've been hearing that 2026 would be the year of the fall of the narcissist. And I'll admit, there was a part of me that thought — yes, bring it on. But recently I've started noticing something else: people we've placed in positions of authority being publicly...
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Episode 166 | You're Not Just Grieving the Relationship
This week I talk about the grief that comes after emotional abuse — grief for the relationship, yes, but also grief for the version of me that existed before it, and for the future I thought I was building. I share my own experience of the manipulation that continued long after the relationship...
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Episode 169 | Lost, Confused and Numb — Look at Your Thumb
Lost. Confused. Numb. If that's where you are right now, look at your thumb. That fingerprint hasn't changed once through any of it. This week I talk about coding — the beliefs, rules and conditioning we're handed before we're old enough to tell what's ours and what isn't, and how an abuser can…
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Episode 168 | The Caterpillar That Wouldn't Let Go
Last week a caterpillar landed on me and refused to let go, no matter how gently I tried to move it. It stayed with me for days afterwards, because it reminded me so much of the healing process itself — the breakdown before the rebuild, the shamanic idea of being taken apart before being put back...
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Episode 167 — What If You're the One You've Been Waiting For?
I posted a short video a week or so ago on TikTok and wasn't expecting the response I got. This week I want to talk about why it landed the way it did — the loneliness of spending years editing yourself, minimising yourself, softening the truth of who you are, just to feel safe. I talk about why…
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Episode 165 | Who Do You Think You Are?
"Who do you think you are?" For many of us, those words weren't asked with curiosity. They were used to make us question ourselves. To keep us small. To remind us of the place we were expected to stay in. But what if we asked the same question for a completely different reason? In this episode, I...
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Episode 164 | The Labels That Were Never Yours
A follow-up to the Five Pillars series. Before we believed we weren't enough, before we believed love had to be earned, before we became the strong one, the people pleaser, or the scapegoat — someone handed us those beliefs. This week I explore how labels quietly become part of our identity, why…
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Episode 163 | The Financial Pillar: When Money Becomes a Weapon
The final episode in the five pillars series. This week I cover financial abuse — often the most overlooked pillar, yet one of the fastest ways an abuser controls a partner and stops them from leaving. I break down how financial abuse fits within coercive control (UK law since 2015), the tactics...
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Episode 162 | The Mental Pillar: How Emotional Abuse Rewires Your Brain
Week 4 of the five pillars series. This episode is about the mental impact of emotional abuse — how chronic manipulation and unpredictability physically change the brain. I break down what happens to the amygdala, hippocampus, and prefrontal cortex under sustained psychological stress, why...
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Episode 161 | The Physical Cost of Emotional Abuse
Over the last few weeks I've been exploring the Five Pillars of Abuse and how emotional abuse, coercive control and manipulation affect every area of our lives. This week we're exploring the Physical Pillar. Trauma doesn't just live in your memories. It lives in your body. The nightmares. The...
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Episode 160 | The Emotional Pillar: When the Person You Fell in Love With Never Existed
Over the last few episodes I've been exploring the Five Pillars of Abuse. The different areas of our lives that are targeted, weakened and often systematically dismantled through emotional abuse, coercive control and manipulation. This week we're exploring the Emotional Pillar. Emotional abuse...
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Episode 159 | How Emotional Abuse Disconnects You From Yourself
Over the last few months, I've been sharing the Path of Sovereign Integration and the journey back to yourself after emotional abuse, trauma and survival. This week we're exploring the first of the Five Pillars of Healing: the Spiritual Pillar. When people hear the word spiritual, they often…
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Episode 158 | Integration Meditation — Healing Abandonment, Shame & Betrayal
Over the last few months, we’ve walked through the Path of Sovereign Integration. We’ve explored grounding, recognising patterns, rebuilding intuition, healing emotional wounds, calming the nervous system, and learning to trust ourselves again. This episode is an opportunity to let some of that...
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Episode 157 | Living the Life You Don’t Want to Abandon Anymore
In this episode, we bring together the journey of The Path of Sovereign Integration and step into what happens next. Not the healing. Not the awareness. But the part where you actually begin to live it. Over the last few weeks, we’ve explored grounding, recognising patterns, rebuilding intuition,...
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Episode 156 | When You Start Trusting Yourself Again
In this episode of The Mindfuckery Podcast, we move into the next stage of the Path of Sovereign Integration — where everything you’ve been working on begins to feel natural. This is the point where you’re no longer trying to change. You’re responding differently. You’re thinking differently. And...
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Episode 155 | Why Healing Doesn’t Always Stick — And What Changes That
In this episode we continue The Path of Sovereign Integration and move into a stage that so many people misunderstand. You’ve done the work. You’ve had the insights. You’ve started to feel different. And then… something happens. It feels like you’ve made progress — and then like you’ve taken five...
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Episode 154 | The Moment You Stop Explaining Yourself and Start Living Differently
In this episode, we continue The Path of Sovereign Integration and move into a stage where something shifts in a very real and visible way. You’re no longer trying to change. You just aren’t the same. After grounding, recognising patterns, questioning what you were told, rebuilding intuition and...
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Episode 153 | The Moment You Start Becoming Who You Were Meant to Be
In this episode of The Mindfuckery Podcast, we continue The Path of Sovereign Integration and arrive at a stage many people don’t expect. We’ve talked about grounding, recognising survival patterns, questioning what you were told to believe, rebuilding intuition, clearing emotional wounds, and...
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Episode 152 | Why We Repeat the Same Patterns — And How Healing Breaks the Loop
In this episode of The Mindfuckery Podcast, we move into the next stage of The Path of Sovereign Integration — completion. Many of the struggles we experience in relationships, family dynamics and life patterns aren’t random. Trauma can forge unspoken contracts — roles we take on, burdens we…
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Episode 151 | The Healing Stage That Feels Like Going Backwards
Sometimes when healing begins to take hold, something unexpected happens. Emotions begin to rise again. Old memories surface. You might feel tired, unsettled, or wonder if you’ve somehow gone backwards. You haven’t. This is often the point where the nervous system finally feels safe enough to…
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Episode 150 | The Code of Inner-standing: Reclaiming the Intuition
There was a time when you trusted your body. Before you were told you were too sensitive. Before you were told you were overthinking. Before you learned that listening to yourself might cost you connection. In this episode, I’m speaking into The Code of Inner-standing — the stage in The Path of...
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Episode 149 | The Portal of Untruths — When What You Were Told Wasn’t True
So much of what we believe about ourselves was never consciously chosen. It was learned early. Repeated often. And absorbed in moments where safety, belonging, or love felt uncertain. In this episode of The Mindfuckery Podcast, I guide you through Stage Three of the Freedom Beyond Trauma – Soul...
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Episode 148 | Embodiment Isn’t a Technique — It’s Where Healing Begins
So many women have done the therapy. The workshops. The practices. And yet still feel as though they are living slightly outside themselves — watching life rather than fully inhabiting it. In this episode of The Mindfuckery Podcast, Elizabeth speaks to the root of embodiment — the first condition...
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Episode 147 | The Journey That Begins When You Say 'Enough'
You may have done years of healing. Therapy. Books. Courses. Practices. And yet something still loops. The same emotional patterns. The same pain in different forms. A quiet sense that healing hasn’t fully landed — not in the body, not in the nervous system, not in your lived experience. In this...
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Episode 146 | Freeze Isn’t Failure — It’s Survival
Most women who grew up in emotional neglect, chaos, addiction or narcissistic parents learned to freeze — not because they were weak, but because it was the only survival strategy available. In today’s episode, I talk about what freeze actually is, why your body chose it, how it follows you into...
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🎙️ Episode 145 | Freedom Beyond Trauma: The Soul Journey to Healing the Original Wound
You’ve read the books. Done the therapy. Taken the courses. But somehow… it still loops — the same triggers, the same pain, just in different costumes. In this episode of The Mindfuckery Podcast, I’m taking you beyond the language of trauma into the soul work — the point where healing becomes...
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Episode 144 Beyond Survival: Why Trauma Still Loops After “Doing the Work”
You’ve done the therapy. Read the books. Taken the courses. But somehow… it still loops. The triggers, the shame spirals, the old pain. Why? In this episode of The Mindfuckery Podcast, I’m getting real about why recovery isn’t linear — and why simply “doing the work” isn’t enough. We’ll explore…
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Episode 143 Healing the wound of not being good enough
This week I am talking about the journey of recovery. It isn't linear, there are lots of lows and a few highs, until you manage to balance the pain - but you can go deeper and healing the wounds will help you claim back your power or be even more powerful than you were before, how does that…
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Episode 142 Your Healing Journey and the role of GRIEF
This week I am talking about the journey of recovery. It isn't linear, there are lots of lows and a few highs, until you manage to balance the pain - but you can go deeper and healing the wounds will help you claim back your power or be even more powerful than you were before, how does that…
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Episode 141 Letting go! Cutting the ties that hold us to the abuse.
Have you heard the term tendril? A tendril is part of a plant like a grapevine that hangs on - entwines around something to hold firm. Get your secateurs out as we are cutting them away! Get your ROADMAP here https://linktr.ee/elizabethgoddard Do you want a copy of my FREE Self-Care is vital...
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Episode 140 What would be the best gift you could be given right now? `
What would be the best gift you could be given right now? This week I ask this question and there are a few journal prompts to help you find your purpose. Get your ROADMAP here https://linktr.ee/elizabethgoddard Do you want a copy of my FREE Self-Care is vital workbook?...
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Episode 139 Three things I wish I had known starting this journey
Three things I wish I had known when the relationship broke down and how they kept me trapped - What THREE things do you wish you had known? Get your ROADMAP here https://linktr.ee/elizabethgoddard Do you want a copy of my FREE Self-Care is vital workbook?...
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Episode 138 Creating passion for the New Year - healing the wounds and living life with purpose
This week I discuss the difference between healing wounds and working with the inner-child. And I explain some creative ways of building a life with passion for 2025 using #misogi #kevinsrule #winninghabits Red Pill or Blue Pill? Episode 136 The Journey to Healing the Wounds...
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Episode 137 And Breathe! Lets create some space and peace in our lives.
In this week's episode, I talk and breathe with you - lets create some space and peace in our lives. Red Pill or Blue Pill? Episode 136 The Journey to Healing the Wounds https://www.podbean.com/ew/pb-e6vat-17673c9 Get your ROADMAP here https://linktr.ee/elizabethgoddard Do you want a copy of my...
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Episode 136 The Journey to Healing the Wounds
In this week's episode, I discuss the healing journey and ask if you are going to take the red pill or the blue pill? Get your ROADMAP here https://linktr.ee/elizabethgoddard Do you want a copy of my FREE Self-Care is vital workbook? https://www.innerhealingsanctuary.co.uk/free-resources Get your...
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Episode 135 What Walking on Eggshells does to your body and a quick Vegus Nerve reset
In this week's episode, I discuss what Walking on Eggshells does to your body and I talk you through a quick Vegus Nerve Reset Not sure what the Vegus Nerve is? That OK I briefly explain that as well. https://linktr.ee/elizabethgoddard Do you want a copy of my FREE Self-Care is vital workbook?...
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Episode 134 Where is the power? Taking responsibility verses taking the blame
In this week's episode, I discuss the difference between taking the blame and taking responsibility and show you where the power is https://linktr.ee/elizabethgoddard Do you want a copy of my FREE Self-Care is vital workbook? https://www.innerhealingsanctuary.co.uk/free-resources Get your copy of...
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Episode 133 Shame and its twin Sister (or brother) Guilt and what we can learn from them
In this week's episode, we're taking a look at how the wounds or Shame and Guilt and how healing them will help you keep strong boundaries. https://linktr.ee/elizabethgoddard Do you want a copy of my FREE Self-Care is vital workbook? https://www.innerhealingsanctuary.co.uk/free-resources Get your...
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Episode 132 The POWER of grief - Shine like a Diamond
In this week's episode, we're taking a look at how grieving the part of yourself that have gone will help your healing journey. https://linktr.ee/elizabethgoddard Do you want a copy of my FREE Self-Care is vital workbook? https://www.innerhealingsanctuary.co.uk/free-resources Get your copy of...
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Episode 131 Dealing with Energy Vampires, Thieves of Time and Toxic People
In this week's episode, we're taking a look at how you can stop the energy vampires and thieves of time and setting strong boundaries. If you are passionate about healing - Book your place here https://www.innerhealingsanctuary.co.uk/services/claim-back-your-power-transform-your-life...
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Episode 130 One Step Forward Two Back and dealing with Grief
In this week's episode, we're diving into the power of taking a step back and how it can be used to empower you! Also look at grief and what we have to grieve. If you are passionate about healing - Book your place here...
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Episode 129 Should you wait for the abuser to take responsibility?
In this week's episode, we're diving into the powerful topic of responsibility - should forgive the abuser if they can't take responsibility? If you are passionate about healing - Book your place here https://www.innerhealingsanctuary.co.uk/services/claim-back-your-power-transform-your-life...
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Episode 128 How to save your life and Divorcing Emotionally
In this week's episode, we're diving into the powerful topic of how abuse impacts both your body and mind, and how you can start reclaiming your life. We’ll explore how emotional and psychological abuse can manifest physically, and the toll it takes on your mental health, from flashbacks to...
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Episode 127 Gaslighting, Guilt, and the Volcano of Anger: How to Heal
Today’s episode, where we’re diving into the intense, volcanic anger that can bubble up after narcissistic abuse. We’ll be exploring why these emotions feel so overwhelming, how manipulation tactics like gaslighting and triangulation leave us questioning our reality, and most importantly, how to...
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Episode 126 How Journaling can help you process the trauma
TO HELP YOU process what is happening if you are experiencing overwhelming unfamiliar emotions that feel like they possess you SO YOU be able to recognise what is happening to you and start to take back some control over your life whilst you learn the tools to heal on a deeper level. If you are...
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Episode 125 Why Do We Repeat Painful Patterns?
This week I talk about Why we repeat painful Patterns. It isn't linear, there are lots of lows and a few highs, until you manage to balance the pain - but you can go deeper and healing the wounds will help you claim back your power or be even more powerful than you were before, how does that…
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Episode 125 Learning to Trust again after Narcissist and Emotional Abuse
This week I am talking about Learning to Trust again and the journey of recovery. It isn't linear, there are lots of lows and a few highs, until you manage to balance the pain - but you can go deeper and healing the wounds will help you claim back your power or be even more powerful than you were...
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Episode 124 The 3 things you need to do Divorcing a Narcissist | Divorce Matters
The 3 Things you need to do Divorcing a Narcissist | Divorce Matters You probably won't come out of the divorce unscathed but you can protect yourself better and negotiate like a QUEEN YouTube: Know your worth the Narcissist does - https://youtu.be/GBo7LIcInk0 If you are passionate about healing…
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About this show
I’m your host Elizabeth, I’m Author of Finding Lily, The A to Z of Emotional Abuse and Divorce Matters.I am here to remind you that love should be UNCONDITIONAL, Divorcing Emotionally is LIFE-CHANGING and you have a DUTY OF CARE for yourself it should be your MANTRA! Each week I discuss some of the terms you may hear along this journey and I will help you INNER-STAND and PROCESS what is happening INSIDE YOU!I will help you find the DISCOVER THE BEST TOOLS | PUT IN PLACE THE BEST RITUALS as you start to take back the control over your own life AND learn the tools to heal on a deeper level becoming THE BEST VERSION OF [email protected]
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