The Sadie Green Story.

Send us Fan MailReleasing our last episode in this series is a practice of letting go. So many feelings. So much unsaid. One story in one space of time. We talk about the cost and what it gives to reveal one's story late in life when shame and secrets still hold power. We explore how loyalty can live in the same place as humiliation, how joy can be allowed without the guilt, how to separate the past and present when big feelings take over our nervous system, and if a life of reactivity can turn toward knowing one's desires. The world is made of nuance. We love that you have joined us!Thanks for listening! Feel free to share with others. You can also email us at <[email protected] or send a voice message from any particular episode on our website http://SadieStory.Buzzsprout.comSpecial Thanks to our supporters, who have made this podcast possible.Lucy Mathews Heegaard: Audio Engineer with music via Epidemic SoundTerry Gydesen: PhotographerPolly KelloggKate TillotsonDawn CharbonneauJacob WyattMolly TillotsonClare DudzinskiJulian BowersWendy HorowitzMaggie KazelPat FarrellLynette TabertLaura JensenPeople's Farm CollectiveDeborah Copperud of "Spock Talk" podcast

Send us Fan MailRetirement can be an identity shift, especially for people who have spent their lives working in service, building community, and getting validation through being useful. We talk about how early abuse can echo through adulthood, retirement, and relationships. We explore what helps: talk therapy, but also nervous system regulation through movement, such as a room full of people at "dance church." From there, we move into family estrangement and how denial and conflicting memories can make survivors question themselves. Feel free to subscribe and share with others. You can also email us at < [email protected] or send a voice message from any particular episode on our website http://SadieStory.Buzzsprout.comSpecial Thanks to our supporters, who have made this podcast possible.Lucy Mathews Heegaard: Audio Engineer with music via Epidemic SoundTerry Gydesen: PhotographerPolly KelloggKate TillotsonDawn CharbonneauJacob WyattMolly TillotsonClare DudzinskiJulian BowersWendy HorowitzMaggie KazelPat FarrellLynette TabertLaura JensenPeople's Farm CollectiveDeborah Copperud of "Spock Talk" podcast

Send us Fan MailA life can look solid on the outside while feeling insecure inside. Is this universal? Is keeping oneself busy and useful an avoidance of pain and joy? Sadie shares how retirement, the end of a long relationship, and returning to therapy helped her recognize emotional numbing. Can enough approval-seeking and validation from others ever help us feel "filled up?" Does deferring wants and the "right-hand gal" role help one feel safer around power? We ponder these questions.And we reflect on separating the adult self from the child self, building emotional awareness, and welcoming feelings instead of barricading the door, ending with Rumi’s “The Guest House.” Feel free to subscribe and share with others. You can also email us at < [email protected] or send a voice message from any particular episode on our website http://SadieStory.Buzzsprout.comSpecial Thanks to our supporters, who have made this podcast possible.Lucy Mathews Heegaard: Audio Engineer with music via Epidemic SoundTerry Gydesen: PhotographerPolly KelloggKate TillotsonDawn CharbonneauJacob WyattMolly TillotsonClare DudzinskiJulian BowersWendy HorowitzMaggie KazelPat FarrellLynette TabertLaura JensenPeople's Farm CollectiveDeborah Copperud of "Spock Talk" podcast

Send us Fan MailToday, we’re joined by Stevie, Sadie’s former foster mother, to retrace the unlikely beginning of their bond. Stevie reflects on her own struggles with drinking and the choice to get sober, while Sadie shares memories of those years that still carry tenderness and humor.From there, we turn to family and wanting an apology that never comes. We revisit Sadie’s grandmother, who paid a high price for intervening. Sadie also speaks candidly about identity, relationships, and power, including describing her shift toward dating women as a political choice.Thanks for listening. Feel free to subscribe and share with others. You can also email us at < [email protected] or send a voice message from any particular episode on our website http://SadieStory.Buzzsprout.comSpecial Thanks to our supporters, who have made this podcast possible.Lucy Mathews Heegaard: Audio Engineer with music via Epidemic SoundTerry Gydesen: PhotographerPolly KelloggKate TillotsonDawn CharbonneauJacob WyattMolly TillotsonClare DudzinskiJulian BowersWendy HorowitzMaggie KazelPat FarrellLynette TabertLaura JensenPeople's Farm CollectiveDeborah Copperud of "Spock Talk" podcast

Send us Fan MailHere, we introduce Stevie, the foster guardian who changes everything by simply offering clear expectations and real freedom. The details feel small until you realize they are the building blocks of safety, attachment, and a life that finally belongs to her. On late-night drives, Sadie’s thoughts loop back to Ma's relentless rural labor as if she's carrying the world upon her shoulders. Sadie describes the complexities of what never fully leaves: sadness, shame, and complicated loyalty; how sympathy can exist without empathy; and why rage might miss its target. Thanks for listening. Feel free to subscribe and share with others. You can also email us at < [email protected] or send a voice message from any particular episode on our website http://SadieStory.Buzzsprout.comSpecial Thanks to our supporters, who have made this podcast possible.Lucy Mathews Heegaard: Audio Engineer with music via Epidemic SoundTerry Gydesen: PhotographerPolly KelloggKate TillotsonDawn CharbonneauJacob WyattMolly TillotsonClare DudzinskiJulian BowersWendy HorowitzMaggie KazelPat FarrellLynette TabertLaura JensenPeople's Farm CollectiveDeborah Copperud of "Spock Talk" podcast

Send us Fan MailSafety can be a roof, a routine, and a full refrigerator, and yet feel like you are still holding your breath. One can learn that being “easy” is the price of peace. The story turns toward personal ways that trauma can show up: hiding food, staying invisible, expecting blame, and chasing acceptance outside the home through risk, rebellion, and whatever makes you feel less alone.Then comes a raw look at boundaries, control disguised as care, and why privacy can be survival for an abuse survivor. Thanks for listening. Feel free to subscribe and share with others. You can also email us at < [email protected] or send a voice message from any particular episode on our website http://SadieStory.Buzzsprout.comSpecial Thanks to our supporters, who have made this podcast possible.Lucy Mathews Heegaard: Audio Engineer with music via Epidemic SoundTerry Gydesen: PhotographerPolly KelloggKate TillotsonDawn CharbonneauJacob WyattMolly TillotsonClare DudzinskiJulian BowersWendy HorowitzMaggie KazelPat FarrellLynette TabertLaura JensenPeople's Farm CollectiveDeborah Copperud of "Spock Talk" podcast

Send us Fan MailTogether, we talk about how early trauma shapes memory, safety, and identity, and why a child can learn to survive by guarding the biggest family rule: Never, never tell!  In this episode, a favorite staffer sits beside her on a porch and listens while Sadie says out loud what she has shielded from sight for years. Rita offers a line that changes everything: "You now have choices." That sentence becomes the first crack in shame, the first step toward foster care, and the first realization that she will be leaving people and a place that she has learned to love.Thanks for listening. Feel free to subscribe and share with others. You can also email us at <[email protected]> or send a voice message from any particular episode on our website, http://SadieStory.Buzzsprout.com.Special Thanks to our supporters, who have made this podcast possible.Lucy Mathews Heegaard: Audio Engineer with music via Epidemic SoundTerry Gydesen: PhotographerPolly KelloggKate TillotsonDawn CharbonneauJacob WyattMolly TillotsonClare DudzinskiJulian BowersWendy HorowitzMaggie KazelPat FarrellLynette TabertLaura JensenPeople's Farm CollectiveDeborah Copperud of "Spock Talk" podcast

Send us Fan MailWe follow Sadie’s memories of how fear and disassociation can erase days, even as the record still claims everything went “great.” We connect the dots between childhood trauma, secrecy, and a lifelong struggle with food, trust, and self-protection. Sadie shows how school, books, and a supportive summer program helped her build an independent self. Thank you for listening, and feel free to share.You can also email us at < [email protected] or send a voice message from any particular episode on our website http://SadieStory.Buzzsprout.comSpecial Thanks to our supporters, who have made this podcast possible.Lucy Mathews Heegaard: Audio Engineer with music via Epidemic SoundTerry Gydesen: PhotographerPolly KelloggKate TillotsonDawn CharbonneauJacob WyattMolly TillotsonClare DudzinskiJulian BowersWendy HorowitzMaggie KazelPat FarrellLynette TabertLaura JensenPeople's Farm CollectiveDeborah Copperud of "Spock Talk" podcast

Send us Fan MailWe return to Station 64 as Sadie remembers the joys of a locked psychiatric ward, where clothes, movies, and music become a lifeline. Outside the hospital walls, on the University of Minnesota campus, protest, freedom, and the first Earth Day swirl like a living promise. In staff notes, Sadie is “blossoming," yet a call from her mother triggers a home visit. We unpack why survivors keep abuse secret, how shame and fear of being labeled “bad” keep us silent, and what it takes to start building a new self-image.Thanks for listening. Feel free to subscribe and share with others. You can also email us at < [email protected] or send a voice message from any particular episode on our website http://SadieStory.Buzzsprout.comSpecial Thanks to our supporters, who have made this podcast possible.Lucy Mathews Heegaard: Audio Engineer with music via Epidemic SoundTerry Gydesen: PhotographerPolly KelloggKate TillotsonDawn CharbonneauJacob WyattMolly TillotsonClare DudzinskiJulian BowersWendy HorowitzMaggie KazelPat FarrellLynette TabertLaura JensenPeople's Farm CollectiveDeborah Copperud of "Spock Talk" podcast