The Spiritually F*cked Podcast!

Taylor shares what happened after taking 2 months to completely disconnect from the world, after her trip to india fell through.  No social media, no friends, no work… Just herself and her tonights (YIKES). What she found was a radical return to herself. And she’s here to share it all: How connections can act as distractions What happens when you put your life/trust in others hands The true gift of silence Abandonment anyone? Returning to yourself… Because why else are we here? This episode explores what happens not only when you choose silence, but when you choose yourself. When you stop reaching outward and begin listening inward. YAY. WE ADORE YOU!!!    ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

In this epi, Taylor reflects on the closing of a chapter that held so much of her becoming. It’s been 4 years in the home that marked the beginning of her life in Boulder… to now preparing to leave it. (The house, not boulder - lol) What once felt like a beginning is now asking to be honored as an ending. We talk about the bittersweet nature of change and the beauty of this cyclical life. How some things are meant to be lived fully, and then released. Enjoyed in every moment. Let this message be an invitation to be present with your life as it is now. To recognize that even the moments you wish you could hold onto forever are temporary… and that’s what makes them sacred. Because this life, this version of you, this chapter is just a blip in eternity. And maybe that’s exactly why it matters so much. Thanks for being here <3 ~ Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

Another heart led yap with Taylor’s Boulder bestie Lilly from Home to Self Podcast!! This epi feels like sitting on the floor with your best friend, realizing… you’re not crazy, you’re just human. Lilly is a subconscious healing coach and founder of Home to Self. Taylor sits down and interviews her to talk about what it actually means to come back to yourself. We go deep into the patterns that quietly run our lives: people pleasing, fear of abandonment, overthinking, needing to prove our worth, and how so much of it isn’t “who we are,” but what we learned to believe. Lilly shares her journey from obsessive health + control into subconscious healing, and how the real shift didn’t come from doing more but from looking within. We yap: Why your brain is wired to keep you safe (not fulfilled) How subconscious beliefs shape your relationships, identity and reality The hidden root of people pleasing (and why it’s not your fault) What it actually means to “rewire” a pattern The difference between intuition vs. fear Why overthinking is really under-feeling How to work with your mind instead of against it The balance between doing the work… and actually living your life Host reminder: Healing isn’t about fixing yourself, it’s about remembering who you were before you learned you weren’t enough. “You are both a masterpiece and a work in progress… at the same time.” - Lilly  Lilly links: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/lillymterry/ Home program: https://home-program.info/ Home to Self Podcast: https://open.spotify.com/show/077MdAVa2izkqWuMQUJBsR   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships  

Welcome to the new series! Star weather report - Where we break down what’s happening in the sky and what that means in your life! YAY!  Aries season brings a powerful PUNCH into our passions. We chit chat all about the new identity our hearts are calling us to step into and what this energy means in your life. Kicking off April is the full moon in libra, with the invitation to return to the relationship with your inner child. Chiron in aries anyone? The wounded healer comes through with a message from your past. We go into the delicious aspects of sensual venus in taurus and what this means in your love and relationships.  We tap on mercury, mars and the way these two planets influence how you communicate and move through the world. What better season to build trust in your self than aries season?  This epi explores the energetic blueprint of April and how to move with the planets… not against it. A message from your favorite astrologer: Take what you like and leave the rest. April brings some powerful shifts, how are you implementing? WE ADORE YOU! AND ALL YOUR ASPECTS!!! Thanks for being here.   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships    

In this epi, Taylor sits down with her Boulder bestie Lilly from Home to Self Podcast to explore how astrology can help us understand our patterns, reconnect with our intuition, and step into a new identity rooted in self-trust. We move into deeper conversations around self-abandonment, subconscious conditioning, reparenting the inner child and what it actually looks like to trust yourself in everyday decisions. This episode is a reminder that real change happens when we stop outsourcing answers and start coming home to ourselves. Topics covered: What the current astrology is activating collectively Why intuition is the most important tool right now The difference between intellectual insight vs embodied change Learning to stop outsourcing answers to other people Releasing self-abandonment and people-pleasing patterns Discovering what you actually want vs what conditioning told you to want Fear of embarrassment, rejection, and being seen Reparenting yourself with compassion Sovereignty and the power of choice This episode goes pretty deep… but also comes with mad sense of humor and poetic lightness that will reconnect you back into your heart. WE ADORE YOU!! Thanks for being here fam. Ways to work with Lilly:  Here HOME program: https://home-program.info  Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/lillymterry/%E2%81%A0    ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

“So I actually didn’t go to India…”  After a two month hiatus, Taylor shares where she’s been, the intentions behind it and why she never actually made it to India. (she really did try though!!) Let this episode be a silent return to yourself… (cough cough #silence), and an opportunity to land back into presence.  We talk about the power behind intention, the truth about bridging trust with yourself and the depth that happens when you reconnect with your spirit team. Taylor also shares what’s coming to the surface in her next ‘soul coming.’ If you’ve been looking for a podcast during those “trust fall” seasons… let this be the episode for you. Hopefully you didn’t unfollow us during the silence… and if you’re still here, thank you. We’re so happy to have you. Welcome back to Spiritually F*cked.  We adore you. xx,  Taylor   ~   podcast links    Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

Here is a snippet from Taylor's - unleash your inner muse - workshop where we explore "we're all just a mirror medicine" — the idea that what we encounter in others is reflecting something within ourselves, inviting deeper awareness rather than judgment. We also unpack why “letting go” is so often misunderstood, and how it can become a form of spiritual bypassing when it’s used to avoid feeling, processing, or being with what’s actually present. This episode explores: The low down on the workshop itself Why triggers are invitations, not obstacles How reflection becomes medicine when met with honesty The difference between true release and emotional avoidance What it means to alchemize emotion instead of transcending it If you’ve been trying to heal by overriding your feelings or rushing toward detachment, this conversation offers a more embodied, compassionate path back to yourself. We adore you, muse. ;)   For the full workshop: https://sadflowerswritten.com/products/unleash-your-inner-muse-%E2%9C%A8 ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

A good day for astrology hey? What If the Most Spiritual Thing You Could Do… Is Stop Trying to Look Spiritual at All? In this epi, I sit down with Ben Duffy for a raw, expansive, and surprisingly obviously hilarious conversation about authenticity, ego, emptiness, pain, devotion — and what it actually means to come home to yourself. What starts as a trippy synchronicity (same birthday, same year, eerily similar charts, and almost the same podcast name) opens into a deep exploration of dark nights of the soul, lineage healing, embodiment, and why humor might be one of the most sacred tools we have. (cough cough... it is) We talk about performative spirituality, rigid identities, and the quiet violence of constantly trying to fix yourself. About grief, devotion, heartbreak, art — and the freedom that comes when you stop abandoning yourself in the name of “healing.” This episode is a love letter to your expression. To feeling instead of performing. To staying loyal to yourself — even when it’s messy. A reflection on devotion, heartbreak, art, and the freedom that comes when you stop abandoning yourself in the name of healing. We Explore: Performative spirituality vs. lived truth Emptiness, non-duality, and the freedom of groundlessness Dark nights of the soul, depression, and surrender Grief, pain, and the alchemy that turns heartbreak into art Ego, shadow, and integration over “ego death” Embodiment, feminine lineage healing, and the body as teacher Devotion, ritual, prayer, humor — and not taking life so seriously Integrity, right livelihood, and choosing a soul-aligned life WE ADORE YOU FAM!!! For more Ben:  instagram: duffdaddy100 & spiritualfxckboy spotifty: spiritualyfxckboy  https://benjamenduffy.com/   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

Roast anyone??? This episode is a live chart read (or live roast) of Taylor’s astrology chart. What starts as a honest self-examination (drag lol) turns into real-time interpretation, intuitive hits, and pattern recognition that feels a little too accurate. It moves between humor and depth, offering a candid look at how an astrology chart actually reads when you stop being polite about it. If you’ve ever felt personally victimized by astrology — or curious about what your own chart might reveal — you’ll probably recognize something here. WE ADORE YOU!! And all your placements... ;)   To book an intuitive reading - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-astrology-sessions or email [email protected]   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

"Sorry can't get to the phone right now I'm at Joe Dispenza..." In this epi Taylor shares how she found her way into daddy Joe Dispenza’s work and how it became one of the catalysts that changed her life. She spills the low down on attending three of his retreats, what actually happens in the rooms people love to speculate about, and how his teachings around coherence, meditation, and commitment reshaped her entire relationship to living life. We explore what it really means to take responsibility for your inner state, how the body responds when the mind changes (embodiment helloooo), and why consistency—not bypassing—is the work.  Call it a cult? We call it devotion... And we want to be apart of this cult. This isn’t a sales pitch or blind praise. It’s a firsthand reflection on learning how to heal yourself, meet your edge, and stay committed to that higher frequency. Because no one is coming to save you - so you better buckle up and take ownership of your life. Taylor also gives a mini update on her life: what's brewing for her in the next few months and the intentions she's stepping into. (You don't want to miss this).   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

"Our body speaks the needs the soul is too shy to ask" - Taylor Mulholland Early menopause anyone??? In this episode, Taylor shares the full story behind her experience with premature ovarian failure — from the early signs of cycle irregularity, the detrimental side effects of birth control, and the frustration of searching for answers within Western medicine, to the injury that sent her into a profound dark night of the soul (or many nights of the soul...lol). Taylor talks openly about the experience with hormone replacement therapy, what it provided for her, and where it fell short — and how slowly weaning off that industry's way of "healing" guided her toward a deeper, more holistic path of living. This includes nervous system regulation, trauma work, herbalism, spirit doctoring, and the teachings that reshaped Taylor's entire relationship with her body/mind/spirit, including the work of Joe Dispenza and Kim Anami. This episode is not medical advice or a prescription. It is one woman’s lived experience — and an invitation to see your cycle and experiences not as something to control or fix, but as a language your body uses to communicate. If you’ve ever felt redirected by your body, dismissed by systems, or disconnected from your feminine center, this conversation is for you. "Today, I have a healthy, regular cycle — but more importantly, I have trust, safety, and an intimate relationship with my womb that I never had before." - Taylor WE ADORE YOU! AND YOUR WOMB!   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships  

MILF of the hour! Man, I Love Frogs… In this episode, Taylor shares her Kambo experience — how she was first guided to the medicine, what brought it to her psyche, and how her relationship with it evolved over time. What began as a search for physical healing (specifically around acne) quickly revealed itself to be something much deeper. We talk about how this experience felt divinely guided, what the medicine began to heal beyond the physical, and how it met Taylor in ways she didn’t expect. We explore who Kambo may be right for — and why it’s not for everyone. Taylor speaks honestly about the intensity of the medicine, the importance of discernment, and why curiosity is potent medicine in itself. Taylor also gauges what ceremonies can look like, grounded insight on Kambo responsibility/integrity and the responsibility that comes with working with such a powerful medicine. This conversation is rooted in respect, humility, and right relationship — not instruction or persuasion. This episode is shared as reflection, not recommendation — an honest account of medicine, discernment, and the path from experience into responsibility. Final note - listening to the body’s wisdom above all else. WE ADORE YOU! AND FROGS TOO!!   Mentioned: Spiritual Guide to Acne: https://sadflowerswritten.com/products/the-spiritual-guide-to-acne-mini-course   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

Originally: The spiritual truths I’m afraid to say out loud… “This episode was recorded, deleted and eventually revisited — not because the truth changed, but because I did.” - Taylor In this conversation, Taylor shares why she originally took this episode down, what felt misaligned at the time and full circles to what feels more resonate now. Rather than calling anything out, Taylor’s offering reflection — on her own growth, own blind spots and ways spirituality can both support and complicate your path. ~ so many blurred lines ~ We explore topics that are often spoken about in extremes — religion, twin flames, plant medicine, ego, government narratives and the infamous ‘spiritual performers’ — not as proclamations, but as lived experiences that ask us to slow down, soften and take responsibility for our own discernment. This isn’t about right or wrong ways to be "spiritual" — It’s about noticing when language outpaces true embodiment, and that soul growth isn’t always linear… nor performative. Let this epi be a permission slip — to be honest about where you are, to stay curious and to trust that evolving doesn’t require erasing your humanity. Because maybe the spiritual path isn’t about transcending the human experience... But learning how to stay. And that being a good human matters more than sounding enlightened... “It’s all an experience… Here is mine.”  XOXO, Taylor  ENJOY!  ~ Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships  

A love note for returning to self...  This episode is a personal life update and reflection on the final stretch of 2025. Taylor shares where she's currently at, the lessons 2025 brought forward and the ones that didn’t just land intellectually, but were fully lived and integrated. She reflects on the themes like alchemy, returning to nature / our life's natural rhythm and calling out the BS in the distractions and noise that we consume ourselves with. No spiritual bypassing in this one! This epi is both a closing and a clearing — an opportunity to honor what has been, release the stories that no longer needs and make space for what’s next. What is Taylor consciously embodying in the new year? Take a listen to find out.  If you’re moving through a season of transition, endings, or quiet reorientation, this conversation is for you. We’re all here to walk each other home...  ~ Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

In this intimate 1:1 session, Taylor sits down with her dear friend and space holder, Shay Rays. What begins as a heartfelt conversation unfolds into a profound exploration of the subconscious—revealing hidden layers, emotional truths and a powerful breakthrough moment.  Together, they explore embodiment, awareness and the courage it takes to meet yourself fully. If you’re on a journey of self-discovery or ready to uncover deeper parts of who you are, this episode invites you into the transformative power of being truly seen, heard, and held. "I would highly recommend booking a 1:1 session with Shay Rays if you’re ready to uncover deeper layers of yourself and fully embody who you are. She holds such a safe, loving space for transformation." - Taylor   Work with Shay Rays:  Shay Rays website: https://raysofshay.com Shay Rays substack: https://substack.com/@shayrays  Shay Rays youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@shay_rays ~  Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

When source aligns with stars…  In this episode, I sit down with Kaisha Slaughter - intuitive mother, mentor and founder of MILF ERA. Kaisha bridges self-image, neuroscience and source truth to empower women to live and lead from their life and family’s from intuition. She’s built her entire business by trusting her inner guidance, so I thought - how powerful would it be to explore her astrology chart and see how it aligns with that intuitive way of being? Let’s just say, the results were spot on. we look at how her chart reveals natural gifts in communication, creativity, and leadership and how these align with the evolution of MILF ERA. Astrology charts can be used as a powerful tool - an energetic blueprint of the soul’s purpose. They reveal our innate strengths, gifts and patterns, while also illuminating the shadow aspects that shape our growth. When we understand these cosmic imprints, we gain clarity on how our energy is designed to move through the world.   To book a reading with me to explore how your own chart can become a guide for alignment, purpose and intuitive leadership. https://sadflowerswritten.com/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/   To book a mentorship or session with Kaisha: https://www.kaishaslaughter.com/ https://www.instagram.com/kaishaslaughter/   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-spiritually-f-cked-podcast/id1829193477 substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

In this episode, Taylor shares Fragments of Remembrance - An Essay on Return, a spoken reflection on what it truly means to come home to yourself. When Memory Becomes Meaning - she explores how healing isn’t about becoming someone new, but recognizing what’s always been here. The quiet unfolding that happens when the noise fades and truth becomes audible again. In her post-essay reflection, Taylor speaks on the return to childlike wonder and the courage to follow your true heart’s desire. Reminding us that remembering ourselves can feel like rediscovering the curiosity in life. A meditative podcast on Saturn return, remembrance and the soft art of returning to who you’ve always been. Full substack article - https://substack.com/home/post/p-176757911   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

The Rejection Illusion - Healing the Fear of Not Being Chosen DAD? In this episode, we explore one of the deepest human fears - rejection. From unanswered texts to childhood wounds, we examine why being “left out” can feel like danger to the nervous system and how that fear quietly shapes the way we love, create and show up in the world. We discuss the biological, psychological and spiritual roots of rejection, the energetic cost of seeking acceptance and how self-rejection often hides beneath perfectionism, people-pleasing or overthinking. To sum it up - If you're rejecting yourself... People will reject you.  You’ll learn how to: Recognize the subtle ways rejection shows up in your life Rebuild self-trust through awareness and repair Reclaim your power by choosing self-acceptance over approval Practice radical self-love as a daily energetic alignment This conversation is an invitation to stop abandoning yourself in search of validation and to remember that love isn’t something to earn, but something to return to. We would never abandon you... WE ADORE YOU! Thanks for being here.    ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

for the lineage breakers, the womb-bearers and the ones remembering their power. In this special episode, we explore the witch wound - the ancestral fear that has been passed down for centuries. We talk about intuition, ego vs. higher self, triggers and even the fluoride anti-christ (yes, really). We trace how the persecution of wise, intuitive women lives on in our DNA through self-doubt, people-pleasing and the fear of being seen. And how choosing to heal, listen inwardly and following your intuition isn’t just personal work - it’s lineage work. Because we love our ancestors.  We spill the cauldron on: - The link between the number 13, lunar cycles and the feminine - Why “witch” is a sacred word - not an aesthetic - How ancestral trauma gets stored in the body and passed through generations - Modern witch hunters (and how they show up today) - Practical ways to rebuild trust with your intuition This episode is a remembrance: that your inner wisdom is not dangerous - it’s an inner compass. Every time you choose to trust yourself, you heal the fear that once silenced generations before you. We adore you, and your lineage too.   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

In this episode, Taylor shares what she's calling in for this next chapter - and what it truly means to embody it. From bringing more structure into creative flow, to deepening relationships (yes, even calling in love), to nourishing vitality and leading with an open heart… this conversation feels like a collective diary entry for her becoming. We talk about: - Following through on our word and building trust with ourselves - The reflection behind indecision and how it fragments our energy - Nourishment as safety: teaching our bodies it’s safe to let go - Living with an open heart instead of making ourselves small - Turning intentions into embodiment, because that’s where the magic happens As we enter October and the season of harvest, we’re asking together: What are you calling in? And more importantly… how are you embodying it? Because of course, we ADORE you.   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

Finally! Some shifts! This week we’re sharing a story that reminded us of something powerful: the work has been working. After months of challenges, identity crises, self-worth struggles and wondering if anything was ever going to shift - Taylor was gifted the most magical, soul-affirming weekend at a women’s retreat in Sedona. In this episode, we walk you through how saying “yes” to that experience cracked Taylor open, reflected back her true essence and showed us that healing doesn’t happen overnight… but it does happen. From night terrors that became teachers, to surrendering control, to the unexpected doors that opened once Taylor trusted herself – this episode is about remembering that life rewards us when we live in alignment with who we really are. If you’ve ever wondered: “How do I know if the work I’m doing is actually working?” – this one’s for you. Because well, we adore you.   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com substack - https://substack.com/@sadflowerswritten  Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

Well it's always been... But right now your frequency matters more than ever. We are diving DEEP into one of our favorite topics over here: your frequency. What it is, why it matters and how to keep it sparkly clean in today’s overstimulating, fear mongering world. If you're an artist, creator, "sensitive sally" or literally anyone who consumes the outside world - this episode is a MUST. What “frequency” actually means and how it shapes your emotions, creativity and well-being What happens when you don't make this your top priority *yikes* Stories from my own 11-year journey with energy therapy, spiritual strengthening and the so called “spiritual gym” training An invitation to deepen your daily energy-hygiene practices to keep your system clear Your frequency is sacred, treat it like something worth protecting - because it is!  If you’re ready to strengthen your humanness, clear the static and align with higher vibes, this one’s for you and all your friends. Join my live Energy Hygiene 101 class on Zoom (or grab the replay) - just $25.  Purchase class here: https://sadflowerswritten.com/products/energetic-hygiene-101 Reel mentioned: https://www.instagram.com/reel/DOrkM2JiX4B/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link&igsh=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships  

A Podcast: When You Need to Let Go… For the moments when your grip is too tight, your heart feels heavy, or the past won’t quit. Sometimes the only thing standing between you and freedom is a single, quiet move. For when holding on feels heavier than the unknown waiting ahead, this is permission to breathe, to shift and to let by. ~ Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

Welcome to Spiritually F*cked Story time! Where we talk about truth, laugh at ourselves and learn from all the things. ~ This week I’m catching you up on life, but more than that - I share the reflections that came with broken closets, Instagram cloning, and even a duplicated podcast!! Like WTF ?  All those “glitches” held an intimate lesson: energy is everything and when you shift it on an energetic level, your environment shifts too. We’ll explore: Life updates because you love me What breakdowns are really here to show us How to create shifts with your sh*t (literally) Why energy runs the whole damn show This episode is part story time, part reflection, and part reminder that even your sh*t can become sacred. Energy is the cheat code, Welcome to the mess!  ~ Spiritually F*cked.   ~   Links: https://matethelabel.com/ - 20% discount code: TAYLORMULHOLLAND20 Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships  

Heeyyyy laddiieeeeess!!! Yeah! I’m diving deep into feminine energy and a concept I call radical beauty: when you take full responsibility for how you look - you stop outsourcing your worth and start embodying your soul. BOOM. I’m sharing what I’ve learned from the dirty trenches (of my womb), tips from Kim Anami’s work, and of course my personal journey of shifting out of wounds and back into embodiment.  This is for every woman (or man who wants to understand) that has felt out of alignment with herself, disconnected from her body, or stuck in cycles of self-criticism, sabotage or looking fugly. We’ll explore: -  What feminine energy really is - Signs of “wounded” feminine + over-masculine energy - Why your physical beauty always mirrors your inner state - How to reconnect with your essence + radiance (cough cough - radical beauty) -  Practices that pull you back into flow - Wet juicy P This isn’t about perfection or judgment, it’s about loving yourself into the woman you know you’re meant to be. Because the truth? Feminine is magnetic. Beauty is radical. And it all starts with you. GOD MADE YOU PERFECT, EMBODY IT B*TCH Because we adore you, and you should adore you(r coot) toooo.   Linky links: The Well F*cked Woman Salon - https://kimanami.ontraport.com/t?orid=368403&opid=1  Vaginal Kung Fu - https://kimanami.ontraport.com/t?orid=368403&opid=3 Coming Together for Couples - https://kimanami.ontraport.com/t?orid=368403&opid=7 Sexual Mastery for Men - https://kimanami.ontraport.com/t?orid=368403&opid=2 Sexy Mama - https://kimanami.ontraport.com/t?orid=368403&opid=15 ~ Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com Intuitive Guided Mentorship with me - https://sadflowerswritten.com/blogs/news/intuitive-guided-mentorships

Emphasis on the light hearted !  No matter what is happening in the world, I’m here to remind you about radical responsibility. That CHOICE is the ultimate transmuter when it comes to shifting the frequency of your life and breaking loops of self-destruction. No victims here!!!  I also spill the tools I’m using to shift back into a love-based frequency. We also hit topics on:  Learning from your pain, instead of numbing it F the victim hood mindset Daily grounding, cleansing + protection practices Embodiment, touch, and movement - to presence Music, writing, and creative release - to shift You’ll hear practical, heart-centered ways to pause, ground, connect and transmute pain - without bypassing it or numbing out. If you’ve been feeling overwhelmed, lost or stuck in chaos/self destruction, this is your reminder that you’re not alone… And that heaven on earth starts with the choice you make today. Acceptance leads to transformation.  Transmute your pain into power… And watch the world around you shift. The doorway to change starts with a choice. Joy and love are always available… If we choose them. Do it for me… Please!!!  P.S (Because I ADORE YOU!), I’m not here to fear-monger or tell you everything you’re doing wrong. I’m here to share the messy, human, real side of spirituality - the parts where we fall apart, catch ourselves and learn to choose love over and over again. I believe we are all here to walk each other home, This is my walk. XX! Links:  Tuning Forks: https://biosonics.com/product/body-tuner-s-c256-and-g384/ ~ Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com  

Poetryyyyy pooeeetrryyy…. Who likes poetry???   Ever wonder the serendipitous story behind sadflowerswritten? Or curious about publishing your own book? Well, here you go!    I spill all the tea on   MY VULNERABLE LIFE The story behind sadflowerswritten Intention behind my book baby - VOLUME BLOOM WHY poetry How you can self-publish your own book Tips, tricks and lessons to ~ inspiring artist ~   I’m going to leave you with this… If I can publish a book on my vulnerable life, you can too!!! I’m here to inspire and also tell you… YOU CAN DO IITTTT.   “to feel is a gift it’s one thing us humans all have in common and to read something that you may relate to brings us a little bit closer to harmony for the whole world can sing.” Insert from sadflowerswritten VOLUME BLOOM    Buy your own copy of VOLUME BLOOM - https://sadflowerswritten.com/products/sadflowerswritten-volume-bloom-a-poetic-diary   Thanks for being here fam!! We adore you.   xx,    ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com

Welcome to Spiritually F*cked Story time! Where we talk about truth, laugh at ourselves and learn from all the things. Today’s episode -  The invisible script running your life…. Self worth baby! Do you have it? I’ll tell you about mine… *yikes* In this episode we discuss: What led me to the discovery of my “huge self worth issue” The reflections it was bringing into my life The dirty lessons I was gaining from them The shifts that happen when you truly start to see yourself My hilarious, cute sense of humor Here - We don’t tell you what you’re doing is right or wrong, or that one way of living is better than the other.  We just tell the truth. Through unconditional love, real stories, and the kind of honesty that pulls you back into your own heart. To being better humans!!! Thanks for being here.  WE ADORE YOU! Quote to take home: “God would never put you on this earth with a negative balance where you have to go and find your self-worth externally.” Tuning fork video: https://www.youtube.com/shorts/ohciUaOw1BE   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com

55 pages…   Find out why I got ‘un-casted’ and the beautiful lesson behind this whole experience   *This is really just a roast of Taylor Mulholland*   ENJOY!   xx, Taylor Mulholland    ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com

You were never lost… The breaking, is just the point.    In this episode, we uncover the beauty in storm and how chaos is the precursor to coherence - or your next up level.    Let the sacred unraveling begin!   We discuss: My raw unfiltered spiral  The medicine in expression (and what can happen if we DON’T) The energy of tuning forks & what they teach us Silence is the prescription Nature, fasting, grounding - tools that may or may not help you ;)   Let this episode be a permission slip for you to go fully unhinged. It may just lead you back home to yourself.   Own it, feel it, let yourself go there -   and let chaos be the midwife to your next unraveling.   Thanks for being here!   xx, Taylor Mulhollnad        tuning forks video mentioned: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tFAcYruShow   ~   Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com

Welcome to the first episode of The Spiritually F*cked Podcast!!! With your host, me - Taylor Mulholland. Yay!   This episode is a love letter to the listeners. Where I talk about the shows intentions, my story (or spiral) that led me here, the mission behind “Spiritually F*cked” and what I hope it can offer to those who find it.   A space where being human isn’t something to heal out of, fix, or bypass - but something to romanticize. To feel deeply, live out emotions fully and to laugh so hard it brings you back into your heart. I tell the story of where I’m at in this moment, who I’ve been, and the sacred chaos that shaped me into the host of a podcast like this.   If you’ve ever felt too much, not enough, or just feel completely out of place - welcome, this one’s for you.   Because to be human is spiritual. And to feel deeply is the point. Welcome to the first chapter. I’m so glad you’re here.   Welcome home, human.   xx, Taylor Mulholland  ~ Connects! instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thespirituallyfckedpodcast/ https://www.instagram.com/taylormvlholland/ youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@TheSpirituallyFckedPodcast tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maylorgangordie website: https://sadflowerswritten.com