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that which does not kill us — 396 episodes

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Title
1

Pursuing Happiness

2

Welcome Back

3

Accountability

4

In Transition

5

Awakening

6

Been a While

7

Coming Home to Roost

8

In My Feelings

9

The Final Countdown

10

Enlightenment

11

Strange Situation

12

Weird Release

13

Current Coping Strategies

14

Awaiting Tumor Extraction

15

Following the Tumor Trail

16

A Tumor Part V

17

Tumor Humor

18

A Tumor Part VII

19

A Tumor Part VI

20

A Tumor Part IV

21

A Tumor Part III

22

A Tumor Part II

23

A Tumor

24

It Is What It Is

25

Questions Unanswered

26

Dating in Midlife

27

Uncomfortable Situations

28

Energy in Motion

29

July 11th Shorty

30

July 2nd Short Shorty

31

June 30th Epiphany

32

June 14th Shorty

33

June 8th Super Shorty

34

April 27th Shorty

35

March 30th Shorty

36

March 18th Shorty

37

March 12th Shorty

38

Relational Wounds

39

Black Holes

40

Interpretations

41

Daily Practices II

42

Daily Practices

43

Action and Reaction

44

Liberating Action!

45

Consistency and Character

46

Soapbox Derby III

47

Let That Sh*t Go

48

Discomfort

49

Abuse Origins?

50

Message Received

51

Finding a Home Within Yourself

52

Through the Looking Glass

53

Wired For Sound

54

Segregation and Inspiration

55

Juxtaposition

56

Establishing Trust

57

Receptivity

58

Tunnel Vision

59

Another One Bites The Dust

60

Emotional Word Vomit

61

Healing The Father Wound

62

Situations II

63

Experiences With Perspective

64

Situations

65

Values and Struggles

66

Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents Teaser

67

In Bloom

68

Time Management

69

Subconscious Processing

70

Complacency in Comfort

71

Brain Chemistry

72

Light Bulb!

73

Relationship Origins

74

Victimizing Myself

75

Hungry Mind

76

Smokescreens

77

The Present

78

Making Headway

79

Adulthood

80

Roots

81

Seven Levels of Intimacy

82

Heavy Emotions

83

Choices

84

Embracing the Unknown

85

Life is Meaningless

86

Not the Droids You’re Looking For

87

Times They Are a Changin

88

Relationship and Mental States

89

Confidence Challenges

90

Presence of Mind

91

New Books, New Chapters

92

Stupid Behavior

93

Attachment and Maturity

94

Too Much XII

95

Too Much XI

96

Too Much X

97

Too Much IX

98

Too Much VIII

99

Too Much VII

100

Childhood Memories

101

Primal Experiences

102

Too Much VI

103

Too Much V

104

Oh The Places We Will Go

105

Untitled Episode

106

Too Much IV

107

Too Much III

108

Too Much II

109

Too Much

110

No One is Coming to Save You V

111

No One is Coming to Save You IV

112

My Weird Morning

113

Accountability and Healing

114

No One is Coming to Save You III

115

No One is Coming to Save You II

116

No One is Coming to Save You

117

Freedom

118

Mastery Part Three

119

Mastery Part Two

120

Mastery of Love

121

The 12 Laws of Karma

122

In Dreams

123

Renewal

124

Suffering and Soothing

125

Unf*cking Relationships

126

Full Circle

127

Applied Knowledge

128

Inquiring Minds

129

Apologies

130

Validation Achieved!

131

God Concept

132

The Four Agreements

133

Retrospective

134

Attraction

135

Heartache

136

Idealization

137

Hurt People

138

Stay-Cation Day One

139

Abandonment

140

Lazy Sunday Ramblings

141

Somatic Release Cranked to Eleven

142

Escapism

143

Nutrient Deficient

144

Terrible Twos

145

Smorgasbord

146

Recollection

147

Desires Unfulfilled

148

Sound Therapy

149

Unplugged

150

Unhealthy Mindsets

151

The Attitude of Gratitude

152

Valuable Lessons

153

What Did We Learn?

154

Recent Behaviors

155

Disembodied

156

Masochism

157

Neurochemistry and Soothing

158

Victimization and Validation

159

Mindset Matters

160

Growth Journey II

161

My Journey to Growth

162

Waiting

163

Perspective

164

Seeing Old Ghosts

165

Disconnected

166

Insert Clever Title

167

Temper Tantrums

168

Reality Bites

169

About Me

170

Condensed Quips

171

Coincidence?

172

Cheater Cheater Pumpkin Eater

173

A Day in the Life

174

The Weight is Over

175

Random II

176

My Take on my SA II

177

My Take on my SA

178

Disingenuousness

179

Telltale Childhood Trauma Signs

180

Healthy Choices

181

Survival Mode

182

Brain Chemistry

183

Loneliness

184

Perspective Shifts

185

The J is for Judging

186

Awaiting Climax

187

Self Nurturing

188

Call of the Void

189

Snap Judgments

190

Mommy Issues II

191

Mommy Issues

192

Boring Old Lady Sh*t

193

Grief, Acceptance, and Surrender

194

Memories

195

Life in Transition

196

Haunting Concepts

197

Two Hundred Episodes Later

198

Silencing the Noise

199

Dream Sequence

200

Broken Boundaries

201

Parallel Parking in the Unknown

202

Needs Unexpressed

203

Easter Eggs to Crack

204

My Spiritual Practice

205

Apologies Owed A Young Sailor

206

Fourth Street

207

Values

208

My Current Space

209

Divine Intervention

210

Significant Dates

211

Ritual Release

212

My Unprocessed Wounds

213

What Safety Isn't

214

Key Takeaways

215

Non Toxic

216

Trust

217

Hope and Hopelessness

218

The Company You Keep

219

Giving Myself Grace

220

Support Systems

221

Spiritual Healing Ramble

222

Old Wounds

223

The Truth About Healing

224

Current Events

225

Food for Thought

226

Perception is Reality

227

The Present

228

Navigating Conflict

229

Comfort and Catharsis

230

Parallel Storylines Part III

231

Parallel Storylines Part II

232

Parallel Storylines Part I

233

Deep In These Feelings

234

How I Love Myself Today

235

Navigating Stagnation

236

Foundations Laid

237

A Shorty

238

Spiritual Sh*t

239

Nervous System Dysregulation

240

Gratitude and Growth

241

Off the Rails

242

Esoteric Content

243

Authentic Affection

244

Self Care

245

New Labels

246

What is Safety?

247

Evaluating Relationships

248

Biases

249

Lessons Learned

250

Menagerie of Random Thoughts

251

One Step Forward

252

Good News Everyone

253

The Me Generation

254

Dating After Marriage

255

Healing the Mother Wound

256

Abusive Eros

257

Faith and Dreaming

258

Psychological Conversations

259

Safe Spaces

260

Love Linguistics

261

In the Meantime

262

Marital Word Vomit

263

Marital Brain Damage

264

Small Victories

265

Generational Trauma

266

Mean Girl Syndrome

267

Embracing Empowerment

268

Random

269

Because I'm Happy

270

PTSD Dream

271

Swallowing Hard Pills

272

Hormone Doused

273

Triggered

274

Communication Tools

275

Overstimulated

276

Soapbox Derby Part Two

277

Missing Motherhood

278

NPD, BPD, CPTSD, and Me

279

Repetitive Red Flags

280

Self Reflection and Behavior Patterns

281

Daydrinking and Change

282

Nurture Versus Nature

283

Thought Provoked

284

Cyclical Sensations

285

Probationary Periods

286

Emotions Embodied

287

Stones Unturned

288

One Bite

289

Love Hurts

290

Bondage

291

Relationship Stages

292

Emotional Invalidation Part II

293

Emotional Invalidation Part I

294

Validation and Connection

295

Community

296

Holding Space

297

Raw

298

Receiving Love

299

Basking

300

Anger, Transience, and Letting Go

301

Emotional Quicksand

302

Creating Safety

303

Integration

304

Lost Parts

305

Reconnection and Repair

306

2023 Reflections Part Four

307

2023 Reflections Part Three

308

2023 Reflections Part Two

309

2023 Reflections Part One

310

Receptivity and Consent

311

Embracing Change

312

Navigating Trust

313

Support or Solutions

314

Gratitude

315

Love in the Unknown

316

Love and Infinity

317

What is the Path to Growth?

318

Individuation

319

Found Family and Legacy

320

Family Ties

321

Patterns Emerge

322

Rinse and Repeat

323

Flashbacks

324

Weight and Gravity

325

Into the Unknown

326

Functional Freeze or

327

Prioritizing and Values

328

Reflections

329

Patience is a Virtue, Presence is the Gift

330

New Books, New Chapters

331

Ghost of Xmas Past

332

Should Wear a Warning

333

Positively Rejected

334

Daddy Issues

335

Building Back Better

336

Dating Myself

337

Shameless

338

Treating Me Right

339

Unfinished Memories

340

In Memory

341

The Ironing is Delicious Part 2

342

The Ironing is Delicious Part 1

343

Cranked To Eleven

344

Connectivity and Investment

345

Where Is My Mind?

346

Nightmare Fuel

347

Family Values

348

Soapbox Derby

349

Narcissism and Oblivion

350

Power Struggles

351

My Unhealthy Behavior Patterns

352

Spiked

353

Compassion and Discomfort

354

Empathy and Lack

355

Love and Anxiety

356

What's Up Doc?

357

Love and Choices

358

What We Accept As Love

359

Other Tools In My Toolbox

360

Tools In My Toolbox

361

Perpetuating Cycles and Pattern Repetition

362

What I Did On My Spring Break

363

Processing Old Ghosts

364

Intellectual Filtering

365

Death of a Marriage

366

Patterns and Puzzle Pieces

367

My Anniversary

368

Suffocation and Father Wounds

369

The Doctor Is In

370

Loyalty and Boundaries

371

Legacy and Investments

372

Reciprocity and Dead Plants

373

End of an Era

374

The Final Countdown

375

Moving Motivation

376

The Reunion that Never Came

377

Here's to the Past, the Present, and the Future

378

Ballad of Derek Hicks

379

Are We Done Yet?

380

Attached?

381

Love Addiction and Trauma Bonds

382

Freedom and Hope

383

Romance, Abandonment, and Fear

384

Manipulation Tactics

385

Going to Carolina

386

Professional to Personal Wisdom: Ownership and Accountability

387

Catalytic Converters

388

Fight, Flight, Freeze, or Fawn

389

Positive Perspective Shifts

390

One-waytionships

391

High Speed Come Apart

392

Flailing Armed Kermit the Frog

393

Fishnet Bodystockings and Hooker Heels

394

Letting Go II

395

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