Patriarchy, Tarot & The Holy Spirit: My Unfiltered Deconstruction Story

Melissa finally says out loud what’s been brewing for years: why she no longer trusts “church as usual,” how she still deeply loves God, and what happened the night the Death card showed up for her - twice.In this raw, unfiltered episode, Melissa shares the story she’s been nervous to tell: her journey out of traditional church culture and into a more expansive, Spirit-led faith.She opens up about being “a good little Christian soldier” for years; Bible studies, leadership, pastors as friends - while quietly wrestling with questions about patriarchy, power, fear-based teaching, and who gets to speak for God. After walking through divorce, abandonment from church community, and deep disillusionment, Melissa started studying, listening, and paying attention to her own inner knowing.You’ll hear how a book (The Dance of the Dissident Daughter by Sue Monk Kidd), midlife awakening, and a girls’ trip with tarot cards all collided to crack something open. Melissa talks about psychic gifts, sensing illness in other people, cord-cutting with her ex, and why she now believes intention matters more than religious labels.If you’ve ever secretly wondered, “Am I losing my faith or just losing my fear?” this conversation will feel like a permission slip. You don’t have to choose between loving God and telling the truth about your experience.If you want to hang out with me more you can find me at www.melissalahti.comhttps://www.facebook.com/melissalahtibrownhttps://www.tiktok.com/@melissalahtibrown