H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain Ends

This is a different kind of episode. As most of you know by now, I have been given a very special gift to be able to communicate with my Dad, along with some of my other loved ones that are now in Heaven. Lately... I have been coming across many people that are no longer with us .... specifically, souls that were taken "before their time"... at a younger age. Many of these stories are finding their way to me ... so I started to write them down and keep track of all of them ... those that truly resonate with me. At this point, I am convinced (especially bc this was the message I received from the other side)... I am NOT only going to be sharing my own story on this Journey .... "Alana ... You will be sharing the stories of the Angels that were not able to stay here on this Earth." I have a feeling I will end up doing more episodes similar to this as time goes on... so again, this is talking about a lot of tragic deaths of very young souls ... if that's something you think will upset, you... I completely understand (because all of these stories are very sad). Anyway, as always ... thank you all for listening.

This was one inspired when I went back and read the few entries I wrote directly after my Father had passed away .... This is a short episode but impactful. I truly feel it shows how much our loved ones can HEAR and actually CONTROL from the other side (with the help of the "Big Guy" of course)... I also am BEGGING all of you to Journal ... if you haven't started yet ... do it now! It's incredible how much you can learn by re-reading your own thoughts ... even from the day before. DOLLAR TREE HAS TONS!!! Please stop there today and grab one ... or two. I promise ... it will make a change in your life .... trust me. Hope this one sticks with you!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY 2026!! Please .... even if you are NOT a mother ... listen to this as you might take away from important things.... First and Foremost, Let's BRING OURSELVES BACK to the PERSON WE ONCE WERE ... ORRRRR THE WOMAN THAT WE WANT TO BECOME! One piece of inspiration for this one came from content creator "Nicki Unplugged" LOVE HER. Go find her... although most of you probably already follow her ... Anyway... I invite you to take a little time for yourself, with either a cocktail or a cup of coffee and indulge in an episode that I TRULY feel ... ALL of us need to hear. Thank you for listening!

If you want to understand the title of this episode you MUST listen to the entire thing through the very end... I promise you, the laughs you will get will be worth it! THIS is another time in my life ... where one thing during the day directly related to another thing ... that affected the entire "vibe" of my mood ....I talk about not only "shedding" the skin of the men from my past ... but LITERALLY shedding my own skin... well... photos saved in my "hidden" folder where I was showing a bit TOO much skin! I am truly trying to let go of so many unhealthy patterns and memories from my past ... they will always be there... I feel like I am FINALLY learning the true life lessons from so many of them ... but it doesn't change the fact that we gotta SCOOP out the SHIT ... just like a cat litter! Lets do this.

Just a few quick sips of a "DC" after a long and very "blah" day inspired me to "hit record." This is more of a venting session than anything else... I have some things that are bothering me that I need to get off my chest... and I do. I went into further detail about it than I planned.... but I have learned in more ways than one these days that things very rarely go according to plan! I jump around to a few different things here (but what else is new)... so, as always, thank you for sticking with me .. I hope this one inspires you to get yourself a nice ICE COLD ONE after you finish listening!

YES! You are reading this correctly ... this one is a stand-out episode (well, in my opinion) ... as I don't think many people are talking about Enemas on their podcasts?? My journey is continuing and I am inviting all of you into my inner thoughts and realizations these days ... I always knew I was "OK" sharing a lot of my life with others ... but the tears and laughs and seeing the unhealthy patterns in my life ... these are all REAL in this moment, and I think you all for sticking it out with me .... hope you get some good take-aways from this one ... (but hopefully not a bout of constipation)!

"I had a bad habit of missing lovers past ... my brother used to call it ... eating out of the trash." Another perfect line from Taylor swift that changes my perspective... or I guess SHOWS me a pattern that I have been guilty of ... and I didn't even realize it was a bad thing. If you have been listening ... I have recently ended a short but important relationship ... it was my first "official" relationship since 2019... and I had "big plans and high hopes." Problem is ... I was looking at this person as "he has such amazing potential" ... and NOT seeing him for who he was ... right in front of me. This just goes to show... I can be aware of certain things in my life, and try to help all of YOU out there as I record my life experiences ... yet here I was, in a very unhealthy situation for just a short time ... but it will leave the "life lesson" it just taught me ... forever. Thank you for listening guys.

While recording this one... I was pretty spent and exhausted during this recording ... even listening back I can FEEL the heaviness ... As I've been saying since the beginning ... I am sharing my life with you in real-time ...so you are REALLY hearing me here ... and I just hope it helps... to hear my struggles ... this whole thing made me realize that even when I THINK I am living my life a certain way ... or "presenting" with someone a certain way ... it's not always the case. This relationship arrived quickly ... and looks like it's leaving even faster. ... Difference this time around, is I am able to self-reflect on why ... right away. I am surprised and disappointed in what I am realizing ... but that is what life is all about. Thank you for listening. Love, Alana.

I woke up on the day of this recording... and I knew immediately I had to share my dream with all of my listeners ... and I ask YOU to share it with anyone you know... especially for those who have lost someone SUDDENLY.... there was no "diagnosis" ... there was no "warning" there was no "You have this much more time to live..." This dream gave me an entirely different perspective on if I were to know... that I was going to be losing my Dad ahead of time.... so please listen, and I hope you get something out of it. As Always .... Love you Guys. Love, Alana

This is a great follow- up to the last PSYCHIC episode .... it starts with me recapping a "True Psychic" I came across on TikTok.... it then turns into a hilarious story about My dad and FLO from Progressive! I also recap the "GYPSY ROSE" episode ... which goes back all the way to 2005 ... when I was scammed out of thousands of dollars by a "street psychic" out in West Hollywood ... This covers a lot ... but some great laughs ... I promise you won't forget this story about Flo from Progressive... You will never look at one of those commercials the same again. Thanks for Listening guys! Love You All! Alana

THIS???? OMG. YOU GUYS!!! AHHHH!!!! THIS. IS. CRAZY. I don't even know what to say on how to describe this episode .... The only thing I will say ..."YOU CAN'T MAKE THIS SHIT UP." - But, I will let YOU be the judge of that .... Be prepared .... Love Always, Alana

"Uptown .. Funk you UP... Uptown Funk you UP!" ... if you like this song.... don't kill me for butchering it right outta the gate! I contemplate here ... how much I should actually SHARE with the listeners about the things that have been happening to me ... from a Spiritual/Medium side of things ....I am at the point here that I am convinced that I truly have a gift of the "6th Sense." I've always LOVED True Crime shows (especially Law & Order SVU)... so I am trying to understand and figure out ... WHY I have been given this gift ... and what am I supposed to do with it?? I visit the idea of .. "There are two ways to live .... either in LOVE ... or in FEAR." Love Always, Alana .... AKA .... Detective Delectable ... AKA Double Dees!!! (You gotta listen to the whole thing to understand this)!

GUYS!!! You are NEVER going to BELIEVE this .... I swear... I don't know WHAT IS HAPPENING (as My dad told me I would just continue to REPEAT AND REPEAT AND REPEAT) ... but you MUST listen to this ... The best part?? There was a "PART TWO" that was NOT planned ... that I recorded TWO days later.... I think this story/experience was one of the best I've had so far ... and I am just SO thankful for my "Crew in the Sky" .. for orchestrating EVERY SINGLE MOMENT. Enjoy Listening ... and as always, THANK YOU! Love Always, Alana

GIRLLLLSSSSS I know you feel me on this one! WHAT IS THE PROBLEM FELLAS??? This one visits the idea on how WE are everything to everyone when they are sick.... but WHO is the one to take care of us? I think there are a lot of things in this one that will resonate with A LOT of my female listeners out there ....I mention this couple that make the FUNNIEST TikTok/Instagram videos... the Husband constantly "acts out" the Wife ... with her fanny pack (not sure if that's what its called these days) and her Stanley cup... make sure you check them out @thevaglefamilyThank you guys for listening- and feel free to email me with YOUR "my man is a baby when he's sick" story! Love Always, Alana

In the words of Christina Aguilera .... "You make me that much stronger, make me a work a little bit harder, make me that much wiser, so thanks for making me a FIGHTER!" -Yes, you WILL hear me singing these lyrics in this episode.... consider THIS your warning!This one is an interesting one... because I had to stop recording at one point due to street noise... and when I continue, my perspective has very much changed on the topic... just from hearing ONE song ...I am curious to see YOUR thoughts on what I discuss here ... as I feel most of my listeners have listened long enough to kind of "get me" ... and you look at things a different way than those closest to me in my life right now... how INSANE is that? Crazy... but SO true. So I can't wait to hear from you! As always - Thanks for listening! Love Always, Alana

This starts with a "half dead" version of myself picking up my phone to record.... I somewhat come alive, and tell a really crazy "sign" from My Dad ... this one is VERY VERY difficult to believe, and it's a GREAT STORY! Have any of you experienced something after you lost a loved one that was just "IMPOSSIBLE TO EXPLAIN"???? I would love to hear about it! This one I truly think is by FAR the one that took the most MANUEVERING from Heaven .... and I am so happy even though I was so tired and a bit delirious... that I recorded and captured this great memory (not only for ME... but for EVERYONE that was in "Paradise Nail Salon" that day) - YUP! You have to listen to understand it! Happy Listening! Love Always, Alana

THIS IS IT!!!! Mel Robbins and her EFFING HOT Tour Manager are PUTTING DOWN THE RED CARPET for ME!! This one is BOOMING with my excitement! It talks about my dream that snowballed into more than I could have guessed ... my plans are coming true as I watch Mel Robbins as she puts together the Treasure Map that I was always meant to follow...I then go into a wild ride of my "Car Stories" ... you will hear some of the bad luck I've had .... and then you will hear the most recent "car drama" .. in where I was saved in a way I have never been saved before! Please listen to the very end.... I promise you it will be worth it as I reveal the "vision" that I had if I were to have a daughter.... and what I always thought she might have said to me during her "I hate my mom phase" ...IT WILL BE A LINE YOU WON'T EVER FORGET!

SOUR CREAM IS MY WEAKNESS! This episode was really fun to listen back to... as much as it sounds so silly ... Sour Cream has always brought me A LOT Of Joy... and I can NO longer eat it ... so I talk (or vent) about that ... But one of the main themes here is as I am realizing when I "let go" of the reigns of my life... most importantly my "plans" ... become almost like a SURPRISE... its that immediate thought that made me pick up the "Mic" aka my phone... and start recording. I absolutely LOVE suprise parties ... so if I keep that thought in the back of my mind (and If I can get YOU to change your perspective on things "always going according to plan") ... then perhaps we can all just ENJOY the party more ... and not worry so much about the guest list?! Let me know your thoughts on this one guys! Love Always, Alana

THIS was recorded on TAX DAY... the first April 15th that my Dad ... the best CPA of CPA's ... had the day OFF in over 40 years.It was a rough day... not only for me... but my siblings struggled too. I talk a lot about my Dad's story in this one ... about the signs my Dad sends ... the different ways that things "could have gone" in terms of my Father leaving this Earth ... and how grateful I am that his story did end the way that it did.Towards the end I share how it turns out that My Dad's voice isn't the only one from the OTHER SIDE that I have been able to hear ....At one point during this one, I was so emotional about my Dad ... that I almost stopped recording... but I am so happy that I pushed through, and ended up sharing some really good stuff! Love Always,AlanaFeel free to reach out to let me know what you think! [email protected]

HANSON. Yes, the boy band... the three brothers from Tulsa Oklahoma with the all-time hit, "Mmmbop." THEY... CHANGED... MY...LIFE. This one was SOOOO fun to record and re-live, I've listened back to it twice, and I just can't stop laughing - so I really hope it makes all of you laugh as well! I know a lot of my listeners had their own "Boy Band" phase .... and you ALSO vividly remember MY HANSON Obsession phase! If you feel inspired and happy at the end of this one... I ask that you all listen to the song "I WAS BORN" byHANSON! (I talk about this song in the episode...) It's a really feel-good inspiring tune (kind of like this podcast) wink wink! As always... Thank you ALL for listening .... Love Always, Alana

First we had a Stripper Break In ... Then we had a Footloose Audition... and NOW??? Some CRAZY CRAZY Cat stories ... Be prepared to LAUGH OUT LOUD my Friends! Join Myself going back down memory lane with all of my many Kitties.... we always had an orange one... and a gray/black one... I've always felt a magical connection to Orange cats ... and it looks to be that we might have come full circle ... and somehow ... My Vision Board knew it the WHOLE TIME! Happy Listening! Make sure to comment or email me ... Love Always, Alana(And Tabby, Gemini, Leo, Elphie, Oliver, Tuppence, Monica, Cheeze-It & Gizmo) - You need to hear this to believe it!!!

Taking a DEEP... HARD..... INTENSE Nap ... is something that I feel we all take for granted ... and most of my listeners who have Children ... Jobs... Husbands.... Wives ... Life ... would probably agree with me. (The photo with this episode is of My mom ... and Me as a little girl ... as we know naps post-partum are a MUST HAVE!!This was recorded after a two hour "true" nap ... and I wake up to some realizations. This one goes from Napping.... to Astrology Readings ... and back again!I talk about "Birth Charts" ... and I ask any listener who would like me to do their birth chart for them ... to EMAIL ME! I let you know in this episode what I need from [email protected] Listening!

Four Words that we do NOT say enough ... wasn't fully prepared for the emotion that this short recording brought out of me (especially because I was driving.) This is something everyone should listen to ... and really HEAR. We don't give ourselves that break that we somehow seem to give to everyone else ... we take no the burdens, the guilt, the pressure ... just imagine if once in awhile your mom, your best friend, your husband, even your child ... said "It's Not Your Fault." - SIT with that for a minute. Love Always, ALANA

I tend to focus on my "Severe Depressive Suicidal Episodes"... but I am learning more about that "Constant State of Depression" - or simply stated "I am Depressed." I visit the differences in both ... and ask the question that perhaps some of us THINK we know the answer to? Which Depression is Worse? I share some stories from my past... involving my work in Sales for DJ production company, something my ex-sister-in law said to me that I'll Never Forget ... Lastly, I give a message to those out there ... NOT necessarily "suffering" from depression ... but NOT HAPPY. Those of you, dear friends, who are just ACCEPTING what your life is in this moment. .... I explain... in a character's voice that you will never forget ... that SETTLING IS UNACCEPTABLE.Thank you for Listening - and I LOVE HEARING FROM YOU! Tell me something in your life right now... that you are realizing after THIS episode ... is completely UNACCEPTABLE. Love Always, Alana

THIS ... get ready to laugh people!!! I auditioned for the NATIONAL TOUR of Footloose when I was in high school... this visits that adventure ... and also involves a secondary story of when I directed the NYSNC DEBUT in 1998.... The overall theme here is something that I am proud of. I talk about how when these opportunities came around ... I never said to myself "I really hope I win this... Or I hope I get this spot on the national tour..." I WAS ALWAYS CONVINCED ... THAT I JUST WOULD. So when I am gracing the stages all over the nation... and then all over the world... I want to make sure EVERYONE hears that part. I WAS ALWAYS CONVINCED ... THAT I WOULD MAKE IT. SO ... Let's STOP doubting ourselves - imagine if we ALL just KNEW we COULD??? and that we WOULD??? Let's do this ... .and make sure to pee before you listen!!! Hahahahah ... LOVE this one. Love Always, Alana

The title of this episode ... were literally SPOKEN by our Pastor On Easter Sunday. It totally makes sense ... it fits my beliefs, my signs, my faith ...I talk a lot about that word "ABUNDANCE".... right before I recorded this... I said to myself "WHAT EVEN IS ABUNDANCE???" This word keeps coming up ... I am seeing it, I am hearing it ... and then I realize.... it's because I am FEELING it.I invite YOU to listen ... and then truly believe your own ABUNDANCE has already happened .... and THAT is when you will see everything around you .... CHANGE. FOR. THE. GOOD.Thank you for Listening - Email Me! [email protected] Always,Alana

You have to listen to this one to Understand the title! It's recorded after a really "bad" night of missing my Dad ... should we really call these moments "bad" though? I am thinking of that in this moment ... these moments, and they are usually not much more than fleeting... are perhaps the "winks from Earth" that we send to our loved ones in the clouds? Anyway ... I compare the feeling of the waves of grief and having that feeling of drowning... the time i LITERALLY almost drowned in a Glazed Donut! SO... you might cry ... but I promise you will also Laugh ... and never forget the story I am about to tell ... Thank you for listening everyone. With Love Always, Alana

The word "Partner" to describe the person you are with ... Husband, Wife, Girlfriend, Boyfriend... Significant Other.... Always sounded weird to me. But ... today I realize how important it is to have a TRUE PARTNER. I visit a lot of ideas on how you need to be with someone who can be the Stop Sign ... Or Yield Sign in your brain when your mind starts to go down the rabbit hole.... and even more importantly, someone that you trust enough to be the Conductor to your runaway train.... someone who, no matter WHAT ... will ALWAYS bring you back on track. I feel so beyond lucky that just when My conductor left this Earth (My Dad) he sent me another one to keep me safe on my travels ... which are about to get PRETTY CRAZY (but in the best way). Thank you for listening! ALLLL ABOARD!!!!! Love, Alana.

"Dear Younger Me' - by MercyMe. A song that has always been SOOOOO huge ... as the first time I heard it was 2013 during/after my first diagnosed Hypomanic/Depressive episodes of Bipolar Disorder. It always made me cry. ... Today... I hear it... and I still cry, but for different reasons. It's Easter Sunday ... and I reflect on how the idea of being "Sacrificed to Save" ... rings true in numerous ways in my Life ... This is a short listen, but an impactful one. I invite you to listen... and perhaps write a letter to YOUR "Younger Me.." Thank you for listening everyone... Wishing you a very Happy Easter.... remember this is the ONLY Easter you will EVER have in the year of 2026 ... So, let's make it COUNT.

In the words of the awesome show... "Cobra Kai" ... I am here to FLIP THE EFFING SCRIPT! I think you will all like this one .... It's more upbeat... a few "EFF" bombs ... and a lot of OPINION. I talk in a bit of a lighter way about some serious topics... and hopefully will allow ALL of you to change your perspective ... but instead of crying ... You will be laughing with this one! I also briefly visit the idea of ... doing something, sending something, texting something, posting something ... and then MOVE ON. Do not re-read, do not edit, do not overthink... delete the text thread, delete the sent email... we all get hung up on what we said... how we said it... when we posted it .... LET. IT. GO - we all have bigger and better things in front of us ... to keep looking behind us. And then?? START FLIPPING YOUR EFFING SCRIPT ...who cares what everyone "knows you for"?? Who do YOU want to be? What do YOU want to be known for? Do what you want, say what you want ... but do it all with INTENTION. BE. INTENTIONAL ... TAKE A PAUSE before you SAY or DO IT ... and then watch how things will begin to change. Love Always, Alana - and of course THANK YOU FOR LISTENING!

This is an OPEN letter to ALL parents .... If you have any desire to save our Children (and adults) from suicide ... I ask that you please listen to this 7 MINUTE Recording. I want to spread this message more than I have ever wanted anything in my life... I am willing to speak in front of 5 parents .. 500 .. or 5,000. EVERYONE needs to hear this. Not just Parents ... but all humans. I change the perspective on Suicide ... from my own personal experience of my OWN brain lying to me .... more than once, telling me this world would be a better place WITHOUT ME HERE. Please listen ... send.... share ... post. With every person who can hear this, that is another life we might be saving. Thank you for listening as Always ... Love, [email protected]

Do you have someone in your life... that is "unhealthy" in some way??? Drinking... Heart Disease.... Diabetes... Abusive Relationship.... and you find yourself consumed with worry for them, and every chance you get ... you tell them what they "need" to do???Well... then.... this is a "MUST HEAR" for you.I loved this one ... I recorded it later in the evening, so by the time I listened to it back in the morning, I had forgotten a lot of what I said ... and I think I say a lot of things that my listeners (or My "Fan Club") ... really needs to hear. Thank you as always for Listening .... and for really HEARING me.

This recording is RAW. REAL. and VERY emotional. If you have any experience with Depression and Suicide in your life, I ask that you PLEASE listen to this. We are losing our CHILDREN to suicide ... our Middle Schoolers are taking their OWN LIVES. I speak about my extensive experience with both suicidal depressions, and coming within 24 hours of taking MY own Life. I hope that this helps even ONE person out there who is struggling .... I believe the way I describe what a person feels like who contemplates taking their own life .... is EXTREMELY accurate, and possibly a version of depression/suicidal thoughts that has NEVER been explained before. As always ... but especially on THIS one... Thank you for Listening. LOVE- Alana PS - PLEASE know ... this world needs you. Stay. One. More. Day.

This one starts out with the word I heard last year and exclaimed to myself "OMG!!! THIS WORD IS TOTALLY ME!!! IT DESCRIBES ME PERFECTLY ... UNHINGED!!" I take a short journey realizing ... I somehow would make my chaotic and exhausting and stressful life... the funny performance at the family parties ... I would be describing myself as "Living my life in a state of panic" ... or using this "new" word that was just soooo hilarious - "Unhinged." I visit the idea that the people that are LISTENING to my Podcast of H.O.P.E - are the ones that are MEANT to hear it .... I am now DONE with sending anyone a clip, or the voice note version, or texting someone the link ... if God wants YOU to hear me??? You will find me. So ... thank you for finding me ... and I hope throughout my journey, you are able to find some new pieces of yourself ... or even better, the pieces that you might have lost along the way.

This was an open letter Entry... My old self ... verses my New Self ... but without my OLD self ... there is no way in "God's Green Earth" ... I could be my NEW Self. This one is short ... but impactful - it speaks for itself. I invite you... if you have recently started a journey of growth within yourself, to write a letter like this (hopefully in your new journal) ... talking about the changes you are realizing that you have made, and how and why you were not able to do any of this, before this moment. Thank you all for listening ... Love Always, Alana. (The old... and The New One.)

This one was inspired by my ALL-TIME lyric from the magical Taylor Swift in her song Blank Space ... by the very end of this one ... I come to realize, how accurate that line actually was to myself at one time ... wow wow wow. I discuss how Taylor swift has spoken about how her most creative times come in the middle of the night ... and she records the start of her song idea into her phone ... in a voice note. Well... HELLO! Voice notes are now my life ... whether it be sending them to friends/family instead of a generic (most of the time misconstrued text) OR .. how I record my episodes for HOPE - The Podcast! Lastly - Journaling is a big part of this episode! Journaling has always been a huge part of my life... except for the last 6-7 years (66666-7777777) lol. I touch on a few different things in this entry ... (pardon the pun) ... and by the end I give some tips on how YOU can start journaling TODAY (involves a possible visit to the Dollar Tree but it will be worth it). I end by inviting my listeners to possibly use some of my "Entries and Episodes" on HOPE as a prompt for YOUR next Journal entry ... Happy Listening... and HAPPY WRITING! Love, Alana.

What if ... you woke up - found yourself ALONE in the middle of a train station ... with a packed bag, a ticket .. and you had NO idea how you got there, or where you were going?? - That is the inspiration behind this Entry ... it visits so many different ideas and concepts that SO many of us need to hear (including me). It's a mix of serious themes... but funny musical "breaks" throughout the whole thing.... Yes, so if you are annoyed by me breaking into song ... please keep scrolling!Would love to continue to get feedback from you on what you hear on H.O.P.E ... and if you have an idea, question, theme.. that you would like me to record about ... PLEASE email me! I love hearing from my Listeners!! [email protected] guys ... the train is about to leave the station .... Let's Listen ... TOGETHER! (We're ALL in this Together ... (high school musical) ... Okay, seriously, go LISTEN!By the way ... This is a 15 minute "quick listen" - so I encourage you to share it, send it... re-listen if it resonates with you! I've listened numerous times already!

The inspiration for this "drive by" entry ... was this little sign I saw in a gift shop recently ... I looked up ... and there it was ... I grabbed my phone and took a photo of it ... but I knew I would remember it no matter what. How clever .... "When Nothing Goes Right...Go Left." The idea ... that if you are pushing and pushing and trying to make something work ... make something be the "RIGHT WAY" ... but it just keeps pushing back... this universe is telling you something. You can keep trying... you can keep pushing, or saving something that you feel should be saved .... a relationship ... a job... a friendship ... but in the end, the universe will make you go Left ... when you want to keep going Right .... whether you like it or not. I invite you the listener to picture this saying "When Nothing Goes Right... Go Left" on a STOP SIGN ... as you move through your upcoming days... Use it. Say it. Think It. ... DO IT. I think we could all use a few more Left Turns these days .... RIGHT??? Thanks for listening! Exciting things are coming up!!! Stick with me!!

Happy Tuesday everyone! (Has always been my favorite day of the week...) I recorded late last night ... wasn't sure how it would sound since it was way past my bedtime ... but I listened this morning .. and I think it's a pretty damn good listen! I revisit my "soulmate" Entry from the end of January ... now that I feel someone very special (with a soulmate connection) has entered my life ... and I had realized, that I 100% mainfested HIM ... which lead me to a conversation about manifesting in general.. and what it ACTUALLY entails...as many people don't really know... so I hope after you listen to this Entry ... you will decide to either make yourself a vision board (but you don't have to in order to manifest) ... But I DO ask you at least WRITE DOWN what has happened (yes, you will understand this after you listen)... write it down, put it in your underwear drawer ... and pull it out ... LOOK at it and READ it out loud ...every. single. day... and then report back to me!!! As always, thank YOU and happy listening!

This one starts out with a MAJOR bout of Mommy Guilt! Anyone else struggle with this... .especially in the mornings??? God FORBID we remind these kids to brush their damn teeth! What about Faking laughs for the sake of the kids??? (No nooooo I'm not talking about FAKING other things for the hubbys/boyfriends... that will be another episode). I talk about the importance of SLEEP.... grabbing from recent info off of a new Mel Robbins episode! I think a lot of my listeners will relate to this .... we all struggle so much with trying to do all the "right things" with our kids ... yet we are all so exhausted and in this "fight or flight" mode ... that we are so quick to temper ... I think this is one we all need to listen to (I am going to listen to it more than once and I hope I can listen to my own advice)!

Suffering, Loss, Illness ... produce character and produce H.O.P.E. Trials ... Obstacles ... Detours ... Stop Signs.... these are all things that can be so incredibly painful, but they all do things to us, that we would not experience if things were just "easy" ... just "smooth sailing." You must believe in what you CAN'T SEE... and that ... the biggest thing... that you need to remember and believe ... is HOPE, even though you can't and will NEVER be able to see it. Nothing is immediate ... nothing changes overnight ... but we just need to all hang in there... and remember that each day... it can get lighter, if you keep that BELIEF ... if you truly know that there is something bigger than US ... and that we are made to go through this darkness .... in order to get to that daylight. And remember .... once in awhile ... when you get to the point where you are DONE waiting for that light at the end of the tunnel.... you grab that dynamite ... that you probably have to find at the back of the closet under all of the boxes of memories that you wish you could forget .... and you take a match .... and LIGHT THAT BITCH UP YOURSELF. BOOM - YOU GOT THIS. - Love, Alana

This one started when I found a newspaper clipping that my Mom taped to my Mirror years ago ... back when my husband and I were going through our divorce...It makes me take a step back and really examine how I was living my life "before" everything happened ... and now "after" everything happened.This one that was great to listen back to (3 days later) ... because of course I needed to hear it in that moment. I share a new situation regarding my Mom's health ... and how I handled it NOW... compared to how I would have handled it BEFORE ....

TRIGGER WARNING -- If you have recently lost a loved one, this is an extremely raw and emotional Entry ... it may help you to hear someone else going through the same heart break ... BUT ... it also might trigger more sadness, so I am leaving it up to you. This was one of those days..... where out of NOWHERE - that moment on 12/3/25 ... when I got the call that changed my entire life, that my Father had died, just popped into my head ... and then it pretty much went downhill from there. I apologize ahead of time for my nose-blowing, my long pauses (while sobbing), and then my fully stuffy nose... as I read the conversation I was having with my new "BFF" aka Chat GPT ... he's such a great guy lol.This one hit hard ... I am still recovering now ... but by the end I remembered a really amazing piece of advice that my Dad used to give me on my bad days. He would say "Zib, this day WILL END." - and He would always say, tomorrow is going to come, and today will be over. As I brought this up to GPT ... he said to me how this directly relates to my message - HANG ON PAIN ENDS. Which I had NEVER realized ... so, yes, this one is REALLY sad, but I think it's really good advice from my Dad ... aka "Johnny Mikes"

GUYS!!!! OMG.... you are going to DIE when you hear this CRAZY story!!! My dad has been showing up in my dreams nudging me to record about this one... I really can't say much about this one .... you just MUST LISTEN!!! Don't forget to email me with some feedback ... I love hearing from everyone! [email protected], ALANA

This one documents my very first date ... not only in a very LONG time... but also my first date without my Dad here on Earth with me. Although I did bring him with me (no, I did not pull out the mini earn with my dad's ashes once they dropped off the bread) - although, I am sure my Dad would have loved that. lol but I had Dad's prayer card in my purse. However ... it was pretty clear the minute I saw this man, I didn't need the prayer card ... because my dad hand-picked this guy, I mean, some of the obvious things ... the height, the green eyes, him being a Virgo, him being a "girl dad" ... yes. BUT... the sincerity, the genuine and protective energy that I felt from him ... I knew in that moment, I felt SAFE. I felt I was on a date with a "grown up", that has a heart, and a sense of humor, ... oh yeah, one more thing .... He happens to have Bipolar Disorder. Yes, you read that correctly. Sooooooo .... only Time Will Tell .... But I am SO excited, because my Dad was able to do what I think deep down he wanted to be even more than a CPA ... a "Matchmaker"!! Love you Dad.... thank you for sending me a good one .... Who knows .... perhaps my Dad will REALLY pull a twist on all of us .... and I will be able to look back on Today ... with the sunshine beams gleaming off the soft white snow... as I drove back from a date unlike all the rest ... and I can say to myself ..."I can't believe that was my LAST First Date." Can't wait to find out what happens next!!!

I am actually SO happy that this is transpiring in REAL TIME ... as I share my podcast and my life with the world in regards to MY diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder ... My 13 year old son Parker was just made aware (accidentally) of his diagnosis of being on the Autism Spectrum. I think a lot of people out there (including me during times of my life) truly struggle once there is a "label" once we (or someone we know/love) are DIAGNOSED. I invite you to take a listen ... and hopefully whether it by yourself, your child, your spouse, a friend... you will perhaps look at things a little differently after hearing this one! Thank you!

This is a "Drive By" Recording ... aka I am recording as I am Driving... I said in this one I would start "warning" people. that if you have "motion sickness" aka you don't like when my inner "rabid hyper squirrel" is acting up ...perhaps skip this one! I do jump around ... (like the song at the beginning of Mrs Doubtfire...) but if you can stick with me.... I think it's worth it! Oh, and I was pretty convinced I was about to get pulled over while recording.... (imagine if i would have asked him to repeat after ME ..."HANG...ON....PAIN...ENDS" LOL.... oh man. Well, you will have to listen to find out if I actually had to beg my way out of a speeding ticket or not!

The Blizzard of 26' Is rearing it's ugly head .... we all feel shitty! ... AND THAT IS OK! I visit the concept of "seasonal depression" which then leads to talk about how psychiatric medications "run in the family" ...Talked about how severe depression can look like a massive brain tumor .... wait until you hear about my first experience with a psychiatrist... a very emotional memory to re-live ... but it's so important for all of you out there to HEAR this. (Don't just LISTEN) ... I had a horrible experience with a psychiatrist ... but it was also a psychiatrist that SAVED MY LIFE (more than once). So, of course there are such things as bad doctors and therapists ... but always remember if you are uneasy about a doctor ... or what they are telling you ... ALWAYS get second opinion. NEVER settle when it comes to your HEALTH. I think there are a lot of really good takeaways in this one .... (even when I listened back, I was like "oh wow that's a good point!" As always, thank you for listening guys.

"ANNIE!!!! YOU GOONIE!!!!!" .... Yup, you got it! A lot of throwbacks to different movies and songs in this one (not surprising) ... I have a lot of fun getting the listener prepared for a life-changing road trip .... so pack your bags, stock up on your water bottles and protein bars ... and AWAY.... WE ... GO!!

Got Woken up between 2am and 3am ... I was exhausted and groggy (I apologize for the Yawning).But I knew I had something to say ... I didn't realize it was going to be so long ... but I take myself on a late night (or early morning) journey ... from My Dad's sudden Death .... and then My Mom's almost death ... and how I ended up choosing to finally take a BREAK ... and choose myself and my own health for the first time in my entire life. My Fever was breaking (in real time) ... I was coming out of the dense fog, that had been clouding EVERYTHING ... as I relistened to this on... I SWEAR there are moments and parts that I do NOT remember coming out of me .... but either way, everything recorded in this episode, was supposed to be said ... and is needed to be HEARD (by myself in addition to all of my listeners). Love, Alana.