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Part 2 of 2Krystal shares her experience attending Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry, where she and her brother were deeply involved in the community and on the worship team. What began as a calling eventually became something much more complicated. In this episode, she opens up about the moments that didn’t sit right, including being discouraged from speaking about racism and social issues, and navigating situations that were often downplayed or dismissed. During her third year, everything shifted as her mom battled stage 4 breast cancer. As Krystal chose to step away to be by her side, she was made to feel like she was doing something wrong. After her mom passed away, she was met with silence from leadership. This is a conversation about grief, identity, boundaries, and what it looks like to walk away and rebuild your beliefs in a way that feels true to you.-Krystal’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@thequeen.krysKrystal’s podcast: https://tr.ee/HhQtrD3IE0-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Part 1 of 2Krystal shares her experience attending Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry, where she and her brother were deeply involved in the community and on the worship team. What began as a calling eventually became something much more complicated. In this episode, she opens up about the moments that didn’t sit right, including being discouraged from speaking about racism and social issues, and navigating situations that were often downplayed or dismissed. During her third year, everything shifted as her mom battled stage 4 breast cancer. As Krystal chose to step away to be by her side, she was made to feel like she was doing something wrong. After her mom passed away, she was met with silence from leadership. This is a conversation about grief, identity, boundaries, and what it looks like to rebuild your beliefs in a way that feels true to you.-Krystal’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@thequeen.krysKrystal’s podcast: https://tr.ee/HhQtrD3IE0-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

April Ajoy joins me to talk about growing up in Christian nationalism, where fear of the rapture, politics, and faith were deeply intertwined. She shares what it was like to be raised believing the end of the world was always around the corner, including a moment where she thought she had been left behind.We talk about her experience singing on conservative TV, making campaign videos, and the turning point that led her to start questioning everything. April now uses humor and satire to process it all, and we get into what deconstruction looked like for her and how she rebuilt her faith on her own terms.-April Ajoy’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@aprilajoy?lang=enApril Ajoy’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/aprilajoy/-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Bethany Joy (a past Healed-ish guest) joins me to react to some wild and messy Reddit stories. We get into purity culture and a husband who said his wife’s virginity didn’t matter, a destination wedding dilemma, and what to do when someone calls themselves your husband’s “work wife.”We also talk about whether it’s ever okay to tell your sister she brought her situation on herself after a series of bad choices. Lots of opinions, lots of chaos, and definitely some moments where you’re going to pick a side.-The Overshare Hour: https://open.spotify.com/show/4rhjrn5AYvOKJnN0gIeSLm-Bethany’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@bethany_joyfulBethany’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/bethany_joy_ful Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠

Micki grew up as a Jehovah’s Witness after her mom joined when she was a child. From going door to door and studying The Watchtower, to missing out on birthdays, holidays, and normal milestones, her life was shaped by strict rules, purity culture, and fear of the outside world.At 35, everything started to unravel. After falling down a Reddit rabbit hole, Micki began questioning what she had always been taught and ultimately made the life altering decision to leave. What followed was devastating. She was shunned by her entire community and lost nearly everyone she knew.Now known as Apostate Barbie, Micki shares her story online. She documents her deconstruction, reclaims her identity, and explores her sexuality for the first time.-Micki’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@apostatebarbieMicki’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/apostatebarbie/-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

David Archuleta joins me to talk about his new memoir and everything that shaped the person he is today.We get into what it was like growing up in the LDS church, the pressure he faced from his dad at a young age, and how that carried into his experience on American Idol. David shares how much of his life felt like it was being lived for other people, and what it took to start questioning that.We also talk about his journey with identity, coming to terms with being queer, and what it looked like to finally choose himself after years of trying to fit into a version of life that never fully felt like his.-David’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@davidarchieDavid’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/davidarchie/?hl=enDavid’s Website: https://davidarchuleta.com/-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Content warning: This episode includes discussion of domestic violence and sexual abuse.Bethany was raised in IBLP, the same belief system associated with the Duggars, where teachings like the “umbrella of authority” shaped her understanding of marriage and submission. As one of eleven children, she was expected to help raise her siblings and follow strict gender roles. When she met her ex-husband, their relationship quickly moved toward marriage under intense pressure from purity culture and family expectations.What followed was an abusive marriage marked by control, gaslighting, and betrayal. With the help of a therapist, Bethany began to recognize the reality of what she had experienced, including abuse that had been normalized in her upbringing. Today, she is no contact with her dad, many of her siblings have deconstructed, and she has built a safe and healthy life with her partner.-Bethany’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@bethany_joyfulBethany’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/bethany_joy_fulBethany’s Poetry: https://www.instagram.com/this.is.not.a.train-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Content warning: This episode contains mentions of domestic violence and sexual abuse.Bethany was raised in IBLP, the same belief system associated with the Duggars, where teachings like the “umbrella of authority” shaped her understanding of marriage and submission. As one of eleven children, she was expected to help raise her siblings and follow strict gender roles. When she met her ex-husband, their relationship quickly moved toward marriage under intense pressure from purity culture and family expectations.What followed was an abusive marriage marked by control, gaslighting, and betrayal. With the help of a therapist, Bethany began to recognize the reality of what she had experienced, including abuse that had been normalized in her upbringing. Today, she is no contact with her dad, many of her siblings have deconstructed, and she has built a safe and healthy life with her partner.-Bethany’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@bethany_joyfulBethany’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/bethany_joy_fulBethany’s Poetry: https://www.instagram.com/this.is.not.a.train-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Content Warning: This episode contains discussions of physical & spiritual abuse, self harm, and suicide.Mia was born and raised in the LDS church and experienced childhood sexual abuse that deeply impacted her mental health. As she struggled with self harm, an eating disorder, and thoughts of ending her life, her bishop referred her to a therapist she was told she could trust. She saw him for nine years. What began as therapy turned into abuse. He told her she was being oppressed by a demon and needed his help to be set free. Over time, this escalated into physical abuse, including suffocation and injury, all under the guise of helping her.Mia eventually told a friend and reported him, beginning a long fight for justice. Her case was later covered by Rolling Stone. Today, she has built a safe and healthy life for herself. After everything she endured, she is now in a loving relationship and preparing to get married. Her story is one of survival, truth, and resilience.-Mia’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@madmncMia’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/madmnc/-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

*Scroll for CW*Get ready for Trauma Tuesday! Scarlet is a content creator known for sharing her trauma through dark humor, and her stories have gone viral for a reason.In this episode, she opens up about growing up in an abusive home where her brother was treated like the golden child, while she was constantly dismissed, excluded, and targeted. From her mom giving away their family pets while they were at school, to being verbally and physically abused, to being left at a gas station in the middle of the night by her Nanny, Scarlet shares the moments that shaped her.We talk about what it’s like to grow up feeling unwanted, how she coped through humor, and the decision to go no contact. Content Warning: Childhood abuse and neglect-Scarlet’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@chronicallygirlScarlet’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/scarletdelemeny/-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Jordan as a Jehovah’s Witnesses, where his childhood revolved around church meetings, strict rules, and going door to door to share what he believed was the truth.In this episode, he shares what it was like growing up in that environment, from confessing sins to elders to the belief that they are the one true religion, including teachings like the 144,000. We also talk about some of the more surprising aspects of the faith, like no voting, no birthdays, and restrictions around blood transfusions.Since leaving, Jordan has experienced being shunned by his family, but he has also found his voice. He now shares on TikTok under the name “disfellowdipped,” using humor to talk about some of the wildest parts of the religion while also raising awareness about deeper issues within the culture.-Jordan’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@disfellowdipped2Jordan’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/disfellowdipped/-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠https://www.patreon.com/TheOvershareHour

Mattie Mae Motl is a Bible scholar who specializes in gender and sexuality, and her work sits right at the intersection of faith, doubt, and curiosity. In this episode, Mattie shares what first sparked her deconstruction and the moments that led her to question some of the beliefs she once held about the Bible. We talk about the tension of studying scripture deeply while also confronting the fact that parts of the Bible may not be historically accurate.Mattie also opens up about what it’s been like navigating faith and deconstruction within her marriage, especially when she and her husband no longer believe the same things. Despite the questions and uncertainty, she explains how she has found a way to maintain her faith while holding space for nuance, complexity, and ongoing growth.-Mattie’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@mattiemaemotlMattie’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/mattiemaemotl/-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Cora Lakey has been documenting her healing journey on TikTok after choosing divorce during a season when she thought she and her husband would be trying for a baby. She knew it was the right decision, but that didn’t make it easy. In this episode, she shares what it was like to hold both certainty and heartbreak at the same time, and how painful it was when her ex mother in law, someone she truly saw as a mom, was the one who served her divorce papers.We talk about the red flags she wishes she had paid attention to before getting married, why learning to trust your gut can change everything, and what rebuilding looks like now. Cora also shares about her time as a Disney princess at Disneyland, from the audition process to what the job was really like. Today she is starting over with her two dogs, her creativity, and a deeper sense of self.-Cora’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@coralakeyCora’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/cora.lakey/-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

In this Q&A episode of Healed-ish, I’m answering your most frequently asked questions about religious trauma, purity culture, and deconstruction. We talk about faith, healing, unlearning fear, and navigating life after high-control religion. And yes, we also address the very important question of how good the Disney World burger actually was.-Brandon’s Band: Desert Sky - https://open.spotify.com/artist/4aKBlpa9KSi1LAoCwiMQID-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

In this episode of Healed-ish, I’m joined by my husband Brandon for the first time!Brandon was raised Catholic in a small church and has only positive memories of his faith. He was never threatened with hell, taught purity culture, or taught to associate love with fear or obedience. His experience with religion is very different from mine.We met just a few months after I left an abusive marriage and a high-control religious environment. I was deeply wounded, and Brandon loved me without trying to fix me or rush my healing. He gave me safety and showed me what a relationship without shame or control can look like. We talk about what it’s like to love someone with religious trauma and how our faith upbringings shaped our relationship.-Brandon’s Band: Desert Sky - https://open.spotify.com/artist/4aKBlpa9KSi1LAoCwiMQID-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

*CW* sexual clergy abuse, spiritual abuse, and groomingSarah joined Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry searching for healing and closeness to God, eventually interning for a leader who spiritually adopted her into his family. What was framed as care and spiritual fatherhood created a deep imbalance of trust and authority that later shifted in ways Sarah did not experience as consensual or mutual, despite being publicly framed as an “affair.” In this episode, Sarah shares her story in her own words and reflects on the manipulation, grooming, and power dynamics. She shares how they impacted her safety, relationships and identity. This conversation centers her perspective and the long-term effects of unchecked spiritual authority.-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Abigail grew up in the Church of God, spending multiple days a week at services, youth events, and church gatherings. Many of her memories from that time are genuinely sweet and full of community and belonging, even though there were also moments that were not so simple. As a teenager, she began writing love letters to her future husband, hoping that one day she could give them to him as a meaningful gift. Years later, she rediscovered those letters and started reading them aloud to her now husband on TikTok. In this episode, Abigail shares how her perspective began to shift after working for a nonprofit and educating herself in new ways, which slowly led her into deconstruction. We talk about what it feels like to revisit your younger self with compassion, how faith can evolve over time, and where she finds herself now. -Abigail’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/fabigailinsta/Abigail’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@fabigail11Abigail’s Podcast: https://www.tiktok.com/@readirectpodcast?lang=en-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

CW: This episode contains discussion of childhood abuse, cult involvement, exploitation of minors, and human trafficking.Kim Kelley was raised inside one of the most infamous high-control cults of the 20th century, formerly known as the Children of God and later rebranded as The Family International. Raised largely by the community rather than her mother, who was a high-ranking leader, Kim grew up in an environment where abuse, manipulation, and exploitation were normalized and reality itself was shaped by indoctrination. As she explains, when you are raised in a cult, you do not know anything else. Red is blue and blue is red.As a child and young teen, Kim spent years on the streets of Houston fundraising for the cult, unseen and unprotected. In this episode, she shares how she eventually escaped, unlearned the world she was raised in, and built a life beyond survival. Today, Kim works to combat human trafficking by training law enforcement to recognize red flags and better protect vulnerable children.Note: This episode discusses how sexuality and LGBTQ+ identities were used as tools of control within a cult. The perspectives shared are fully affirming of LGBTQ+ people and communities and are intended to highlight hypocrisy, abuse of power, and harm within high-control systems.-Kim’s website: ⁠http://TheKimKelley.com⁠Kim’s TikTok: ⁠http://tiktok.com/@thekimkelley⁠ Kim’s Instagram: ⁠http://instagram.com/the_kim_kelley⁠ Kim’s Non-profit:⁠DigitalDefendersUnited.org⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/@DigitalDefendersUnitedInc⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/digitaldefendersunited⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@digitaldefendersunited⁠⁠https://www.facebook.com/DigitalDefendersUnited/⁠⁠https://x.com/DDUnonprofi⁠-Patreon: ⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠⁠  Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠⁠

CW: This episode contains discussion of childhood abuse, cult involvement, exploitation of minors, and human trafficking.Kim Kelley was raised inside one of the most infamous high-control cults of the 20th century, formerly known as the Children of God and later rebranded as The Family International. Raised largely by the community rather than her mother, who was a high-ranking leader, Kim grew up in an environment where abuse, manipulation, and exploitation were normalized and reality itself was shaped by indoctrination. As she explains, when you are raised in a cult, you do not know anything else. Red is blue and blue is red.As a child and young teen, Kim spent years on the streets of Houston fundraising for the cult, unseen and unprotected. In this episode, she shares how she eventually escaped, unlearned the world she was raised in, and built a life beyond survival. Today, Kim works to combat human trafficking by training law enforcement to recognize red flags and better protect vulnerable children.Note: This episode discusses how sexuality and LGBTQ+ identities were used as tools of control within a cult. The perspectives shared are fully affirming of LGBTQ+ people and communities and are intended to highlight hypocrisy, abuse of power, and harm within high-control systems.-Kim’s website: http://TheKimKelley.comKim’s TikTok: http://tiktok.com/@thekimkelley Kim’s Instagram: http://instagram.com/the_kim_kelley Kim’s Non-profit:DigitalDefendersUnited.orghttps://www.youtube.com/@DigitalDefendersUnitedInchttps://www.instagram.com/digitaldefendersunitedhttps://www.tiktok.com/@digitaldefendersunitedhttps://www.facebook.com/DigitalDefendersUnited/https://x.com/DDUnonprofi-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

* CW* Eating disorder recovery, OCD, intrusive thoughtsIn this episode of Healed-ish, I sit down with Rihanna, who attended Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry with me back in 2012. Raised in a conservative Christian home and shaped by purity culture, Rihanna eventually found her way to Bethel, where she had meaningful spiritual experiences but also quietly relapsed into an eating disorder while working in a health-focused Internship. After moving to Los Angeles, she began healing her relationship with food and her body, and during the 2016 election season started deconstructing her faith as she wrestled with Christian nationalism and the version of God she had been taught. Today, she still loves Jesus, but on her own terms.We also talk about her recent OCD diagnosis and living with intrusive thoughts, what it has been like to finally understand her brain, and how she is working to break the stigma around mental health and eating disorder recovery online. We reminisce about the quirky, funny, and complicated parts of life at Bethel, the highs and the lows, and what healing has looked like on the other side.-Rihanna’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/thediaryofrihanna/Rihanna’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@thediaryofrihannaRihanna’s Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/c/RihannaTeixeira-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Danielle grew up in a non-denominational church and, like many teenagers, found community and belonging through her local youth group. It was there that she met James, the youth director who would slowly become one of the most important people in her life. What began as mentorship and friendship quietly shifted into something far more complicated. Over the years, James groomed Danielle through one-on-one time, emotional intimacy, gifts, and letters that blurred boundaries. At the time, she believed they were simply best friends.After Danielle’s story went viral on TikTok, she’s continued to process the grief of reframing memories that once felt safe and meaningful. In this episode, we talk about the unique pain of healing from grooming when it doesn’t look like what people expect, the confusion of realizing harm years later, and what it takes to untangle love, loyalty, and betrayal. This is a conversation about power, manipulation, and the long road to trusting yourself again.-Danielle’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/daniellerose143/Danielle’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@daniellerose143_-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

In this episode, I’m joined by Beth Granger, author of Born and Razed, who shares her story of being taken from her parents at just four years old and placed into what was presented as a Christian boarding school, but functioned as a deeply controlling and abusive cult. Beth describes being put on a diet at the age of five, subjected to “light sessions” designed to psychologically tear children down, and raised under constant fear and obedience enforced by 2 women known as “the mothers.”Beth spent more than 30 years inside this system before eventually escaping and beginning the long process of healing. Her story became part of the first historic cult abuse case in Canada to win. In this conversation, Beth reflects on survival, identity after control, and what it means to reclaim your voice after a lifetime of spiritual abuse.Content Warning: This episode contains discussions of abuse, eating disorders, and experiences within a cult. Take care while listening.-Beth Granger’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/happygranger/Beth Granger’s Book & Website: https://bethgranger.ca-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Becca was raised in the Mormon church, where nearly every part of her childhood revolved around faith, obedience, and preparation for marriage. From constant church commitments and Mormon Treks to attending BYU, her life followed a path that was considered righteous and ideal, but rarely questioned.In this episode, Becca opens up about Mormon doctrine, purity culture, and the invasive ways control over women’s bodies can show up in religious spaces. She shares her experience of a premarital medical exam, being given dilators, and undergoing an unnecessary hymenectomy. Now divorced, deconstructed, and living fear free as a queer woman, Becca reflects on unlearning shame, reclaiming autonomy, and rebuilding her identity outside the church.-Becca's Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@ripbeccs-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

In this episode, I sit down with Amy Duggar to talk about faith, family, and what it means to disrupt dysfunctional patterns. Amy shares her experience growing up adjacent to fame on 19 Kids & Counting, the red flags she noticed early on, and what it was like holding truth while surrounded by silence. We also talk about her book, Holy Disrupter, and why she believes disruption can be sacred when it comes to breaking unhealthy family systems.Amy opens up about healing from an abusive father, how her relationship with God has evolved, and how she is learning to live with honesty, boundaries, and purpose. This conversation is about choosing truth over image, faith over fear, and finding the courage to disrupt cycles that were never meant to continue.-Amy Duggar King’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/amyrachelleking/Amy Duggar King’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@amyrkingAmy’s Book & Website: https://amyduggarking.com-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Part 2 of 2Emily didn’t grow up religious, but after a traumatic assault, she was searching for something to make her feel whole again. That search led her into Campus Crusade for Christ, years of overseas missions, and a deep commitment to faith and service. Over time, she began to notice troubling patterns, including witnessing a child with cerebral palsy accused of seeking out witchcraft and pressured to walk. In this episode, Emily shares how her experiences in missions and a charismatic church, including false prophecies and prayers to heal her own son, ultimately led her and her husband to step back and reevaluate everything they believed. Through deconstruction, grief, and rebuilding, they found a new way forward rooted in humanity, community, and compassion. -Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Part 1 of 2Emily didn’t grow up religious, but after a traumatic assault, she was searching for something to make her feel whole again. That search led her into Campus Crusade for Christ, years of overseas missions, and a deep commitment to faith and service. Over time, she began to notice troubling patterns, including witnessing a child with cerebral palsy accused of seeking out witchcraft and pressured to walk. In this episode, Emily shares how her experiences in missions and a charismatic church, including false prophecies and prayers to heal her own son, ultimately led her and her husband to step back and reevaluate everything they believed. Through deconstruction, grief, and rebuilding, they found a new way forward rooted in humanity, community, and compassion. -Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

In this episode of Healed-ish, Cherie talks about growing up in an ultra-strict Christian home where she was homeschooled with curriculum that rewrote history, promoted strict creationism, and even framed Barack Obama as the anti-Christ. From childhood, Cherie was taught that her primary purpose was to become a wife and mother within the ideals of complementarianism. At her Christian college, men and women were not allowed to spend time together off campus, and girls were even prohibited from wearing their hair wet because it was considered tempting.Cherie shares what sparked her deconstruction, being in an interfaith marriage, and why she is now raising awareness about Project 2025, something she recognizes deeply because she was essentially raised inside its ideology. This conversation is about indoctrination, awakening, and speaking out before history repeats itself.-Cherie’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@canceledchristian-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Joshua Harris, author of the bestselling and culture-defining book I Kissed Dating Goodbye, joins Healed-ish for a conversation I’m sure neither of us saw coming. In this episode, we talk about his upbringing, what led him to embrace purity culture as a teenager, writing his book at just 21 years old, and watching it explode across evangelical spaces in ways he never imagined.Josh opens up about what later caused him to question everything he once believed, how listening to the stories of people harmed by purity culture changed him, and why he ultimately chose to publicly renounce his own book and apologize for the damage it caused. Together, we explore accountability, deconstruction, and what it really looks like to rebuild your life when your faith, identity, and certainty fall apart.-Josh’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/harrisjosh/Josh Harris’s Website: https://joshharris.comSurviving I Kissed Dating Goodbye Documentary: https://streamable.com/1ldz9c?utm_source=ig&utm_medium=social&utm_content=link_in_bio&fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAc3J0YwZhcHBfaWQMMjU2MjgxMDQwNTU4AAGnwVL6rB615JLPYmBioQFG75ATVnZuQ1OS8VWvve_EKhvfII63IhpIEnveJQM_aem_vmFb_Hm5AvMLmCul_tdSjA-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Toni grew up Southern Baptist in a rule-heavy home marked by emotional and physical abuse. After ministry school and getting married, she and her husband joined the World Race - 11 countries in 11 months, raising nearly $31,000 to serve overseas. But what was marketed as a life changing missions journey quickly revealed a darker side. In this episode, Toni shares how leadership pressured her to minister through debilitating migraines, blamed her for lacking faith, and how the entire experience unraveled her beliefs about short-term missions.-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Toni grew up Southern Baptist in a rule-heavy home marked by emotional and physical abuse. After ministry school and getting married, she and her husband joined the World Race - 11 countries in 11 months, raising nearly $31,000 to serve overseas. But what was marketed as a life changing missions journey quickly revealed a darker side. In this episode, Toni shares how leadership pressured her to minister through debilitating migraines, blamed her for lacking faith, and how the entire experience unraveled her beliefs about short-term missions.-Krystina’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@lifebeyondbeliefKrystina’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/krysandken/https://open.spotify.com/show/5jSEc2KnDIifE3ATcMf0br?si=0953232c76c64ccb-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Krystina grew up Southern Baptist, in a world where women stayed silent on stage and drums were considered sinful. Later, in a charismatic church, she received unsettling prophetic words that painted her future as “anointed, but lonely.” She pursued worship ministry at Liberty University, only to face racism, tokenization, and microaggressions from the very people who claimed to love her. Behind the scenes, she discovered how worship was intentionally designed to manipulate emotions.... something she once believed was purely spiritual.Everything shifted when she became a mother. Wanting to raise her child with honesty and clarity, Krystina began revisiting her faith with fresh eyes. Instead of the certainty she hoped for, she found herself wrestling with questions she had never allowed herself to ask. Over time, this led her into a season of deep reevaluation and eventually toward a new journey outside of Christianity. Today, she and her husband share their story on Life Beyond Belief, offering a space for people navigating doubt, change, and rebuilding after leaving a faith tradition. In this episode, Krystina opens up about the moments that shaped her, the questions that transformed her, and what it looks like to find peace on the other side of certainty.-Krystina’s Tiktok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@lifebeyondbelief⁠Krystina’s IG: ⁠https://www.instagram.com/krysandken/⁠Life Beyond Belief Podcast: https://open.spotify.com/show/5jSEc2KnDIifE3ATcMf0br?si=0953232c76c64ccb-Patreon: ⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠⁠

Part 2 of 2From praying to cast out demons to trying to resurrect her guinea pig, Anna Stone was all in on her charismatic faith. She believed she’d one day be a missionary in Mozambique and dedicated her entire life to spreading the gospel.But at seventeen, an inappropriate encounter and the fallout that followed began to reveal the darker side of the church. Later, her curiosity about Mormonism pushed her to reevaluate everything she’d been taught. In this episode, Anna shares how education, curiosity, and heartbreak led her from dreaming of being a missionary to dreaming of a simple, beautiful life rooted in peace instead of fear.-Anna’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@awna1997?lang=enAnna’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/awna_stone/-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Part 1 of 2From praying to cast out demons to trying to resurrect her guinea pig, Anna Stone was all in on her charismatic faith. She believed she’d one day be a missionary in Mozambique and dedicated her entire life to spreading the gospel.But at seventeen, an inappropriate encounter and the fallout that followed began to reveal the darker side of the church. Later, her curiosity about Mormonism pushed her to reevaluate everything she’d been taught. In this episode, Anna shares how education, curiosity, and heartbreak led her from dreaming of being a missionary to dreaming of a simple, beautiful life rooted in peace instead of fear.-Anna’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@awna1997?lang=enAnna’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/awna_stone/-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Were we lied to about hell?This week, I am joined by Brian Recker, a pastor's kid, former minister, and author of Hell Bent. Brian asked the question most of us were taught to fear: Is the hell we grew up with actually biblical?Brian shares how studying Scripture and church history unraveled fear-based theology and led him into a deeper and more loving experience of God. We talk about the harm of "turn or burn" messaging, what Jesus really taught, and how letting go of hell did not destroy Brian's faith, it healed it.If you grew up terrified of eternal punishment, this conversation offers clarity, freedom, and hope.-Brian Recker’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/berecker/Brian Recker’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@brianrecker5Hell Bent: https://www.penguinrandomhouse.com/books/771172/hell-bent-by-brian-recker/-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Maddie Zahm grew up in a Christian home where she took her purity seriously and poured her heart into worship leading. Years later, after auditioning for American Idol, she began writing the kind of songs that reach straight into the stories of those deconstructing their faith and identity.Her song “You Might Not Like Her” became an anthem for anyone learning to love themselves after leaving shame based systems (including me). In this conversation, Maddie opens up about coming out to her family, finding her community, and the beautiful, messy process of discovering who you truly are.-Maddie Zahm’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/maddiezahm/Maddie Zahm’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maddiezahm-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Monte was raised in rural Wyoming to believe she might have to die for her faith.Growing up under alt-right Christian nationalism, her family prepared for war, built a bunker, and warned her that Democrats would come to kill them. She was taught to shoot at a young age and to see obedience as holiness.Seen as her father’s “chosen one,” she was encouraged to get an education so she could “change the world for God.” She signed a purity contract and learned that her worth was tied to submission and control. Years later, after escaping the abuse and fear that defined her childhood, Monte began rebuilding her life, teaching others what the Bible actually says, and using her voice to fight Christian nationalism.-Monte’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/montemader/Monte’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@montemader-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Part 2 of 2Victoria joined Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry at a pivotal time in her life, hoping to grow in her faith and purpose. During her time there, she began an internship with Nick and Jess, a couple who led a group of students through life coaching and emotional healing practices. What started as mentorship quickly shifted into something harmful, as Victoria found herself leading unlicensed “therapy” sessions, participating in anxiety inducing trust exercises, and watching leaders blur the lines between spiritual growth and manipulation.In this episode, Victoria opens up about how a program built on transformation and vulnerability became a system of control. She shares how the pressure to perform, obey, and protect her leaders led to emotional and spiritual harm, and what it took to reclaim her voice after being coached into silence.-Victoria’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/victoriagreerhathaway/Victoria’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@victoriagreerhathaway-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Part 1 of 2Victoria joined Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry at a pivotal time in her life, hoping to grow in her faith and purpose. During her time there, she began an internship with Nick and Jess, a couple who led a group of students through life coaching and emotional healing practices. What started as mentorship quickly shifted into something harmful, as Victoria found herself leading unlicensed “therapy” sessions, participating in anxiety inducing trust exercises, and watching leaders blur the lines between spiritual growth and manipulation.In this episode, Victoria opens up about how a program built on transformation and vulnerability became a system of control. She shares how the pressure to perform, obey, and protect her leaders led to emotional and spiritual harm, and what it took to reclaim her voice after being coached into silence.-Victoria’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/victoriagreerhathaway/Victoria’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@victoriagreerhathaway-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Azriél Crews, actor, writer, and daughter of Terry Crews, grew up in front of the cameras on her family’s reality show The Family Crews. As a teenager, she signed a purity pledge on national TV, turning her private coming-of-age into a public spectacle.In this episode, Azriél opens up about navigating faith, fame, and identity in the spotlight. She shares how college gave her the space to embrace who she truly is, her journey of deconstruction, and how she now uses humor (and a touch of “nepo baby” honesty) to tell stories about healing, queerness, and self-acceptance.-Azriel’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/azrielpatricia/Azriel’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@azrielpatricia-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

I’ve known Jade since middle school, and I’ve watched her story unfold over the years. After college, she married her wife in what seemed like a dream come true. They even won a free elopement in a contest, creating memories that felt magical in so many ways.But after seven years together, everything unraveled in a matter of days. A series of accusations and bizarre circumstances ended the marriage suddenly, and the two never spoke again. Jade first shared pieces of her story on TikTok, where her series caught attention, and now she is here to share the full journey.From fairytale beginnings to an abrupt and painful ending, Jade opens up about how she picked up the pieces, rebuilt her life, and is now chasing her passions with resilience and strength.-Jade’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jade.nyasia/Jade’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jade.nyasiaSixth Seat: https://www.instagram.com/sixth.seat/-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Part 1 of 1Colten grew up in the Holiness movement, a Pentecostal tradition with even stricter rules than most. In his church, women were not allowed to cut their hair, wear jewelry, or even wear pants. Baptism had to be done in a very specific way, or else your eternity was on the line. His dad was the pastor, and Colten took those rules to heart, believing his salvation depended on them.In this episode, Colten shares vivid memories of his upbringing, including the moment he broke down sobbing after seeing his mom wear pants for the first time because he believed she was going to hell. He talks about what it was like to go to seminary, to begin evaluating what he had been taught, and how he has turned those experiences into knowledge he now shares with thousands of people on TikTok.-Colten’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/coltenbarnaby/Colten’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@coltenbarnaby-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Part 1 of 1CW: mentions of suicideYou may know Gabrielle Stone as the bestselling author of Eat, Pray, #FML, where she chronicles the wildest year of her life: discovering her husband’s affair with a 19-year-old, falling into a whirlwind romance, and then getting dumped just before a month-long trip to Europe. But her story doesn’t begin or end there.In this conversation, Gabrielle opens up about the layers of loss and heartbreak that shaped her. She shares about losing her father at a young age, grieving the death of a boyfriend, and living with the belief that everyone she loved would eventually die. We talk about the pain that inspired her to write, the healing she’s done since, and the vibrant life and community she has built today.This episode is about love, grief, resilience, and rewriting your story even when the plot twists are unthinkable.-Gabrielle’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/gabriellestone/Gabrielle’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@gabrielle_stone-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Part 2 or 2Corey’s story pulls back the curtain on what it was really like inside Teen Mania’s Honor Academy, the infamous discipleship program featured in Amazon’s Shiny Happy People. From grueling workouts to “Unreached People Group Week,” where students were forced to cosplay as missionaries, Corey was subjected to bizarre exercises in control and spiritual manipulation. During his time with Teen Mania, he toured with Acquire the Fire, lived on just $5 a day, telemarketed for Jesus, and was pushed into purity culture teachings that took years to unpack.In this episode, Corey shares what it meant to grow up in a world of extreme legalism disguised as discipleship, as well as how he is finding freedom and healing after leaving.-Corey’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/coreylwright/Corey’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@coreylwright-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8

Part 1 of 2Corey’s story pulls back the curtain on what it was really like inside Teen Mania’s Honor Academy, the infamous discipleship program featured in Amazon’s Shiny Happy People. From grueling workouts to “Unreached People Group Week,” where students were forced to cosplay as missionaries, Corey was subjected to bizarre exercises in control and spiritual manipulation. During his time with Teen Mania, he toured with Acquire the Fire, lived on just $5 a day, telemarketed for Jesus, and was pushed into purity culture teachings that took years to unpack.In this episode, Corey shares what it meant to grow up in a world of extreme legalism disguised as discipleship, as well as how he is finding freedom and healing after leaving.-Corey’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/coreylwright/Corey’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@coreylwright-Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

This is a special crossover episode with my other podcast, The Overshare Hour, where we read listener submissions and respond in advice-column style. We’re diving into a topic close to both of our hearts: religious trauma and the journey of deconstruction. From purity culture and church guilt to untangling fear and finding freedom, we share our experiences and open up space for healing conversations.- The Overshare Hour Podcast: https://open.spotify.com/show/4rhjrn5AYvOKJnN0gIeSLm?si=djs7yJarRSW56PO2jP9gTQThe Overshare Hour IG: https://www.instagram.com/oversharehour/Kenzie’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/itsmakenziejene/Kenzie’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@itsmakenziejeneJubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠

Part 2 of 2We’re bringing it close to home this week with someone you’ve heard me mention before — my ex–sister-in-law, Kenzie. We first met as teenagers in youth group, navigating the pressures of purity pledges, religious guilt, and the rollercoaster of charismatic Christianity. While we shared plenty of fun moments during those years, we were also shaped by environments that demanded conformity and obedience.Kenzie went on to join the International House of Prayer (IHOP), a high-control religious group where the spiritual abuse ran deep. While newly pregnant, she was forced to stay awake in prayer through the night, and when she expressed doubts, men laid hands on her belly and prayed her child would become a martyr. That moment marked one of many in which her humanity and dignity were disregarded in the name of faith.Her story didn’t end there. Kenzie eventually left IHOP, got divorced, and began the long process of deconstruction. Today, she identifies as queer, continues to navigate hard conversations with friends and family, and is writing a new chapter in her healing journey. She and I now co-host The Overshare Hour, where our shared history adds both depth and laughter to every conversation. This episode explores purity culture, spiritual abuse, queerness, and what it means to reclaim joy and belonging after religious disillusionment.—Kenzie’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/itsmakenziejene/Kenzie’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@itsmakenziejenePatreon:⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Part 1 of 2We’re bringing it close to home this week with someone you’ve heard me mention before — my ex–sister-in-law, Kenzie. We first met as teenagers in youth group, navigating the pressures of purity pledges, religious guilt, and the rollercoaster of charismatic Christianity. While we shared plenty of fun moments during those years, we were also shaped by environments that demanded conformity and obedience.Kenzie went on to join the International House of Prayer (IHOP), a high-control religious group where the spiritual abuse ran deep. While newly pregnant, she was forced to stay awake in prayer through the night, and when she expressed doubts, men laid hands on her belly and prayed her child would become a martyr. That moment marked one of many in which her humanity and dignity were disregarded in the name of faith.Her story didn’t end there. Kenzie eventually left IHOP, got divorced, and began the long process of deconstruction. Today, she identifies as queer, continues to navigate hard conversations with friends and family, and is writing a new chapter in her healing journey. She and I now co-host The Overshare Hour, where our shared history adds both depth and laughter to every conversation. This episode explores purity culture, spiritual abuse, queerness, and what it means to reclaim joy and belonging after religious disillusionment.—Kenzie’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/itsmakenziejene/Kenzie’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@itsmakenziejenePatreon:⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Kelli grew up deeply rooted in Mormonism, where rules and worthiness shaped her entire identity. She and her husband walked through deconstruction side by side. They traded their garments for coffee runs, tried things once considered off-limits, and together learned what freedom outside the church could look like.Their journey led to them ending their marriage on their anniversary. But instead of bitterness, it opened space for new forms of connection. Kelli even helped introduce her ex-husband to a close friend, and today the three of them remain good friends. They’ve been able to support each other through deconstruction and beyond.In this episode, Kelli shares what it means to dismantle old beliefs, navigate divorce, and find healing in unexpected places.-Kelli’s IG: https://www.tiktok.com/@kellichristinecaseKelli’s Tiktok: https://www.instagram.com/kellichristinecase/Patreon:⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠Follow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Part 2 of 2Trigger warning: Domestic Violence, Pregnancy LossAlissa Gray’s story is one of survival against overwhelming odds. What began as a relationship full of promise quickly spiraled into years of physical and verbal abuse. After enduring countless assaults and a terrifying police escape with her children, Alissa managed to break free - but her journey through domestic violence did not end there. She entered another relationship marked by abuse whenever alcohol was involved, even marrying her second abuser at Disney World while hiding bruises on her arms.Through therapy and intentional healing, Alissa has reclaimed her voice. Today she bravely shares her story to raise awareness, shed light on the hidden realities of domestic violence, and encourage others who feel trapped to know they are not alone. Her resilience is a reminder that healing is possible, even after unthinkable trauma.-If you or someone you know is experiencing domestic violence, please reach out for help:National Domestic Violence Hotline (U.S.): 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) or thehotline.orgRAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) or rainn.orgInternational resources: Find hotlines worldwide at ⁠hotlineproject.org⁠-Patreon:⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠-Alissa’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/absolute_gray_media/Alissa’s Podcast:https://open.spotify.com/show/171GL1rfMCB9QdeWn4W1SaAlissa’s Website: https://www.makeituncomfortable.com/Alissa’s Ebook: https://stan.store/absolute_gray_mediaFollow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Part 1 of 2Trigger warning: Domestic Violence, Pregnancy LossAlissa Gray’s story is one of survival against overwhelming odds. What began as a relationship full of promise quickly spiraled into years of physical and verbal abuse. After enduring countless assaults and a terrifying police escape with her children, Alissa managed to break free - but her journey through domestic violence did not end there. She entered another relationship marked by abuse whenever alcohol was involved, even marrying her second abuser at Disney World while hiding bruises on her arms.Through therapy and intentional healing, Alissa has reclaimed her voice. Today she bravely shares her story to raise awareness, shed light on the hidden realities of domestic violence, and encourage others who feel trapped to know they are not alone. Her resilience is a reminder that healing is possible, even after unthinkable trauma.-If you or someone you know is experiencing domestic violence, please reach out for help:National Domestic Violence Hotline (U.S.): 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) or thehotline.orgRAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) or rainn.orgInternational resources: Find hotlines worldwide at hotlineproject.org-Patreon:⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠-Alissa’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/absolute_gray_media/Alissa’s Podcast:https://open.spotify.com/show/171GL1rfMCB9QdeWn4W1SaAlissa’s Website: https://www.makeituncomfortable.com/Alissa’s Ebook: https://stan.store/absolute_gray_mediaFollow for more:  Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠ Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠ Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠ Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠