Sex, Drugs, and Sound Bowls

Season 2, Episode 5HI FRIENDS! Settled in with a warm cup of horsetail tea and here to take you on a journey through some of the most powerful tools and ideas I've been sitting with lately. I open up my windowsill apothecary and walk you through the every day health boosting treasures I’ve been storing there.  From tooth health to electrolytes replenishing (it's not a very far jump).From there we dive into Wu Wei, the ancient principle of effortless action that has haunted me for years like an angel on my shoulder reminding me to heave a big *sigh* from time to time and let the energy of life work it’s magic through me.  I share a real life experience that brought its full spectrum meaning home for me in a radical and powerful new way.Then we get into one of my favorite lessons I come back to again and again in the spiral dance of life: the art of writing a better story. The narratives we construct in our minds about other people, their motives, their actions….they're always just that: stories. So why not make them ones that free us rather than bind us? That lighten us rather than aggravate us? The stories born from the matrix of the mind aren't enemies, they're messengers, revealing something true about you.We play in land of invisible energetic strings, I KNOW you know, the ones that unconsciously drain us, and the profound liberation that comes from plugging those leaks and reclaiming your vitality, clarity, and agency. Think of it as energetic housekeeping for your soul.And we close with one of my favorite truths: speak to a king and a king will arrive. Our words are spells. They can nurture, nourish, and elevate or quietly erode the relationships and realities we're building.Connect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: [email protected]✨Find me@JessieSirenOfficial (IG)@JessieSiren (TikTok)@SirenSkoolie (IG/TikTok)⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

Season 2, Episode 4A prayer and blessing for you, and for me:Source. Love. God. Universe, please continue to show me what I am blind to. What I have been unwilling or unable to see that is holding me back from living my fullest, most compassionate, most ecstatic, love-infused, joy-infused existence. Show me. Teach me. Teach me in ways that wow me and delight me and leave me wondering. Teach me in ways that integrate the wisdom of the learning seamlessly. As you have, as you do, as you will. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.The rigidity, the inflexibility, the immobility of my skull bones was causing headaches and tension and somewhere in the middle of the night it became a beautiful metaphor for me. Because the same rigidity and immobility I was feeling mentally and emotionally was also impeding the flow of the energy of LIFE through me, and causing suffering in my life. This episode is an offering of a few different ways I work with that inflexibility.The past few months have been a wild ride. So many big changes, painful and grief-filled things happening. And just like on a good roller coaster, even when you're excited, even when you're grateful for the ride,  there is a bracing that happens. A tension that sneaks into the body. And that tension, that immobility, causes suffering if it is not acknowledged and released. After a couple months of dealing with death, being triggered in really big ways through toxic family patterns playing themselves out, finding myself cut off from people I needed to hold protective boundaries with, entering into grief and sadness about that separation,  I wanted to share what's actually helping.In this episode I walk you through:Cranial release: a practice that has genuinely changed things for me (linking the incredible work of Dr. Karen Drummond's chiropractic)Myofascial release: because fascia is the webbing of life, the connective tissue through which all of the body's major systems: muscles, ligaments, tissues. are woven. When it is rigid and closed off, that affects our feeling of ease, flow, and vibrancy. Special shout-out to Dr. Nancy Kulik who introduced me to this life-changing practice, and I'm sharing this myofascial release from Human GarageDeep stretching through the neckShaking the body out: and yes, special shout-out to the year I spent learning to twerkFive Rhythms dance:  my final and ultimate somatic practice. I spend some time talking about the power of rhythm, how the five different rhythms correlate to the cycles we see in nature and the cycles we see reflected back to us through even the human cycle of life. I'm sharing my Spotify Wild Woman playlist that I shuffle for a five rhythms dance flowAnd I close with something I've been developing, Psychosomatic Face Yoga, a new series I started on social media because I kept noticing a missing link in all the face yoga and facial release content out there. This series is about noting the signs on the surface and going to the root. From the inside out and the outside in, let’s work some things out together, wildflowers. Connect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: [email protected]✨Find me@JessieSirenOfficial (IG)@JessieSiren (TikTok)@SirenSkoolie (IG/TikTok)⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

Season 2, Episode 3There is an old story about the rabbit. Running through the field, gripped by terror, it cries out,  “don't eat me, eagle, don't eat me” until finally the shadow of wings darkens the grass and the eagle swoops down and does exactly that. It was rabbit who called it in its exact demise. Not because it wanted to be consumed, but because fear is a frequency, and frequency is a broadcast, and the universe answers what you're transmitting.In this episode, I’m sitting with that story and what it reveals about the power we have as humans to co-create our own reality. When we broadcast scarcity, lack, not-enoughness out loud, in our bodies, in the low hum beneath our thoughts, we are not protecting ourselves from those things. We are calling them to us. We become the rabbit. We magnetize exactly what we most dread.The invitation here isn't toxic positivity or spiritual bypassing. It's something ancient, a way the mind begs us to forget: embodiment. You cannot simply think your way into a new frequency. I’ve tried, and I’ve got a hunch you probably have too. The thing you want most? You have to become it. In your nervous system, your breath, your willingness to let the thing you want actually land. This episode is about waking up to the harmful frequencies I’ve been broadcasting, the eagles I've been summoning, & learning to choose, sovereignly, to no longer beat the drum of the things I do not want . Connect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: [email protected]✨Find me@JessieSirenOfficial (IG)@JessieSiren (TikTok)@SirenSkoolie (IG/TikTok)⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.RESOURCES Vipassana Meditationdhamma.orgKCSARC — King County Sexual Assault Resource Centerkcsarc.orgThe Body Keeps the Score — Bessel van der KolkFree with Libby app (library card)  ·  libbyapp.comThe Biology of Belief — Bruce LiptonFree with Libby app (library card)  ·  libbyapp.comBookshop.org

Sex, Drugs, & Sound Bowls | Season 2, Episode 2 *TRIGGER
WARNING*This is an episode all about unpacking sexual trauma. No gruesome details, but storied expression and feels. It journeys through the shadowlands and lands in the valley of GRACE and gratitude <3 If you're here with me, I'm so sorry it's been hard, and I'm so happy we found each other <3Shiiiiiiiit I keep almost deleting it. We’ll see if/how long I can handle it here. It feels naked and messy and awkward. But I think that's because healing IS a little naked and awkward and messy. Whatever it is, it for sure isn’t linear. I've come to know it as the spiral dance of life. Each time we come back around to the sticky spots, we are invited to navigate with more and more compassion, awareness, wisdom, and grace.It's been a while since I felt the residual energy of past trauma in my body, yet here it is, showing up in strange places once again. Instead of holding it in this time, I'm sharing it. And instead of feeling defeated, I feel excited. Because I know how much I've grown through. How much I've brought into the light. I know the power I have to alchemize and get a little freer with each dissolved layer of trauma in these cells. I know that these sticky spots rearing their heads are the guardians and secret keepers of my body and always have something valuable to show me about myself.In this episode I share different stories as gateways to my own awakening. I honor the power of forgetting, and the power of remembering. The power of allowing myself to be messy, and also of taking ownership and responsibility for my part in the dance.The inability to push or rush or mentally force my own healing has been one of the most difficult things to navigate on my journey and also one of the most radically freeing. Taking back my power has meant so many things in this life: Recognizing my own role in playing out old patterns and paradigms. Normalizing trauma amnesia aka forgetting until it is safe enough to remember, weird kinks aka exploring kinks as literal energetic kinks in the hose of my energetic body, and rewriting/rewiring the story of love into something SAFE.Even as I finished this episode I felt myself flooded with so much hope, gratitude, love, and healing. Bless that those same waves wash over you dear one! Bless that you remember that no matter how ugly or deep or bloody your wounds are, they are never too much. You are never too much. There is always hope. You are worthy of healing, and honey, you do not have to go it alone.Connect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: [email protected]✨Find me @JessieSirenOfficial (IG) @JessieSiren (TikTok) @SirenSkoolie (IG/TikTok)⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.RESOURCES MENTIONEDVipassana Meditationdhamma.orgKCSARC — King County Sexual Assault Resource Centerkcsarc.orgThe Body Keeps the Score — Bessel van der KolkFree with Libby app (library card)  ·  libbyapp.comThe Biology of Belief — Bruce LiptonFree with Libby app (library card)  ·  libbyapp.com

Season 2, Episode 1Butthole lips, tucked tailbone, contracted belly OH MY! These are the postures of a body living in fear and I wore them for most of my life. In this episode I'm reporting live from the middle of my own unraveling: how trauma shows up in the face, the tissues, and the teeth, and the natural, embodied ways I've been finding my way back to open. We talk about natural ways to plump and soften your lips, the magic of bow-spring, and navigating loss with grace and compassion. We also get into holistic dentistry, how I remineralized 6 cavities, and how to walk into a room with someone in authority without handing them your power.Connect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: [email protected] ✨Find me @JessieSirenOfficial (IG) @JessieSiren (TikTok) Skoolie Bus @SirenSkoolie⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

THE LAST EPISODE OF THE SEASON BBS! Holy cow. Houston, we have a SEASON. So fucking grateful to be here, breath in my lungs, truth on my tongue, in all my glorious messiness with YOU. Thank you thank you thank you. For every listen, share, email, text, heartfelt reflection. Thank you for mirroring back to me at every turn there is nothing WRONG WITH BEING IN PROCESS, with being messy, mushy, confused, unsure, honest, and authentic. In fact, thank you for mirroring back to me the exact opposite. I hope you feel it too, that acceptance, that belonging, that connection. Cheers to season ONE! And to you! And to me! And to life and to living the way of the journey!This one is from way back when we thought Matt was gonna be my co-host. He’s still my ride or die, but as you will come to know…he is more of a “Being” kinda guy than a “talking” kinda guy. This is us before the bus, before I knew how to talk about any of this clearly, or even wtf it was gonna be.But it’s the root of everything. Matt and I sitting down, trying to put words to how we got here…the mess, the love, the choices, the chaos…sex, drugs, sound bowls, and somehow… this life.If you’ve found me recently and you’re wondering what is this and how did she get here, this is the closest thing to an origin story.Resources: Northwest Vipassana CenterOffering courses in Vipassana Meditation as taught by ⁠S.N. Goenka⁠in the tradition of Sayagyi U Ba Khin⁠https://www.dhamma.org/en-US/schedules/schkunja⁠Connect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: [email protected]✨Find me @JessieSirenOfficial (IG) @JessieSiren (TikTok) Skoolie Bus @SirenSkoolie⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

It’s hard to explain, but John was Matt’s standing dad for the past two decades. And he’s gone, and the lands gone, and the community is broken, and we still want to live here… on the land where I first saw Matt @ 14, where we got married, where we wished we could live and grow old together… Behind the garden that he spent his whole life cultivating, on the river he was born and raised on. But it’s really painful to do that in this space right now. It’s really fucking unsettling to be in the garden looking at his house right now… I’ve never experienced anything like it. I realize it’s really triggering in the way of: I grew up in a home where really bad things were happening, but everybody smiled and waved and played nice and pretended that everything was fine. The same thing is happening here now. Everyone around is talking about how awful this thing is, how something devious was done in this deal. And yet everybody smiles and waves it very when he comes in and takes over. Experiencing my full fucking multidimensionality right now, like a layered cake with every flavor contradicting the other. Grief, betrayal, fear, old trauma, compassion, gratitude, hope, trust, love. Matt and I were gardening in the rain together a few days ago, tilted our faces to the sky and just prayed, show us the way. Show us so we cannot miss it. The way of peace, of joy, of love, of abundance. We are listening. We will follow where you lead. Amen. (and a little woman)Resources: Northwest Vipassana CenterOffering courses in Vipassana Meditation as taught by ⁠S.N. Goenka⁠in the tradition of Sayagyi U Ba Khin⁠https://www.dhamma.org/en-US/schedules/schkunja⁠Connect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: [email protected] ✨Find me @JessieSirenOfficial (IG) @JessieSiren (TikTok) Skoolie Bus @SirenSkoolie⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

I cried in the first 10 seconds of this episode. SO MANY FEELS RN in the wake of this solar eclipse portal and shadow of this new moon in Pisces. I am cracked the fuck open, so wide it feels painful like a birthing, so beautiful it feels like a first deep breath after a lifetime of holding.This is what healing looks like. This is mycelium brain and integration at its messiest/finest. I got brave and journeyed into a painful memory. And it broke me open. It was terrifying, and I shook and cried and felt the waves of pain and fear. And you know what was on the other side of it?More truth.More compassion.More CAPACITY.More TRUST.More power. No more begging for crumbs. No more honoring programs and systems and ways of being that were never intended to nourish the blossoming of my highest expression. No more waiting to feel safe. This episode is about turning up the volume on your inner essence, that still small ever-present voice that will always point you towards your truth north, your people, your most fulfilling expression. This episode is about claiming the life you fucking WANT, not the one you’ve been programmed to settle for. They told you you couldn’t’ have your cake and eat it too, well BIATCHES there is ALWAYS always a third option: BAKE FUCKING TWO CAKES, baking fucking ten if your heart so desires! You can have your hearts deepest desires AND you can have them the way that you want them.Be the Rose and the thorns or be consumed by the world.  But know that by not choosing you ARE making a choice. Listen if you’re ready to stop begging for crumbs and start having your cake AND eating it too,We can do it! I wub you. <3 meResources:Northwest Vipassana CenterOffering courses in Vipassana Meditation as taught by S.N. Goenkain the tradition of Sayagyi U Ba Khinhttps://www.dhamma.org/en-US/schedules/schkunjaConnect with me! In the comments, socials or by email: [email protected] ✨Find me @JessieSirenMusic⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

I recorded this episode the day after a heroic dose journey with the epic Cloud Seeker. Fresh on the other side of a deep and epic exploration of inner space, still tender, still integrating, still listening.Nothing polished, nothing "figured out". Just beginning the process of weaving what was shown to me back into ordinary life: journey notes, pieces of insight, feelings, and revelations. Oh, and making soup. Little Bears Birthday Soup to the rescue! Tasty Earth medicine in a bowl!Think of this episode as the day-after integration: a moment to sit with the medicine, the mystery, and the meaning while it’s all still alive in my body and heart.✨Find me @JessieSirenMusic⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

In this episode, life holds up the mirror and I reflect on recognizing the pattern of looking outside myself for safety, protection, or rescue, and the shift that happens when I realize the whole and healed masculine and feminine I’ve been waiting for...actually live inside of me.I talk about healing and integrating these energies and finally fucking BECOMING my own safe place. I revel in the power embodying that kind of integration lends itself to...a wholeness, a beauty, a nourishing and blessing quality I can fill up with and pour out on my partner Matt, my children, and my community.I also touch on the importance of boundaries again: no thorns, no rose, baby. In this world everything eats and is eaten, and without boundaries we are easily consumed. Learning to hold loving boundaries is part of what allows that inner safety and wholeness to exist. Letting your thorns show is the very thing that creates the safety for your BLOSSOMING, baby! ✨Find me @JessieSirenMusic⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

What does it mean to nurture the feminine? Not just to mental it, but to LIVE it?Exploring the discomfort and power of re-patterning, especially as it shows up when we begin holding clear boundaries. A boundary, by nature, creates disappointment because we’re saying no to something or someone who wants a yes. This episode is about me navigating how to stand in that truth with grace, clarity, and self-respect while simultaneously allowing the other to feel their feelings AND NOT BE PULLED OUT OF MY BOUNDARY. Watch me pull my own hair, give myself the best massage eva and hang upside down with me as I share some practical tools I’m using right now to break up old negative holding patterns both physically and emotionally without bypassing or forcing positivity.And big ole fat note to self here* soooooometimes “feeling good” isn’t joy or bliss, sometimes it’s just one step up. From numbness to anger. From anger to frustration. From frustration to presence. From presence to noticing little glimmers of beauty.We talk about: • Repatterning the nervous system gently and honestly • Allowing disappointment without self-betrayal • Curating small, meaningful moments that signal safety to the body • Building ojas / jing / vital force during the winter months • Nourishing the nervous system, restoring vitality, and supporting hair health, slowing, preventing, and even reversing premature graying.Nurturing the feminine isn’t about feeling good all the time.Sometimes it’s just choosing a feeling that’s one step better.We can do it! I wub you. <3 me✨Find me @JessieSirenMusic⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

There was a time when the world was full of signs and symbols, but I didn’t yet have the language to read them. Like a child staring at letters before they make sense. In this episode, I trace my journey from the sleeping maiden to slow awakening. Somatic, psychic, collective. This is about learning the technology of presence and direct perception, remembering how to read the living world, and what happens when a whole new reality opens like a book you finally understand.✨Find me @JessieSirenMusic⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

Today is a momentous day. The day where I finally take Matt’s podcast virginity. We’ve been together 100’s of lifetimes, 12 years in this one. I’m the talker, the nurturer, the dreamer, the visionary. He’s the rock, the anchor, the safety, the builder. Sharing here was vulnerable and brave of my sweet Matty but I am so glad he was brave enough to do it because he is truly a testament to the power of unconditional LOVE. I do not know who I would be without his tender, fierce and unwavering love. Here we dip our toes in the waters of remembering and relate a bit of our journey together and how we have used psychedelics  mindfully and therapeutically to support ourselves in healing together and apart on the Journey. ✨Find me @JessieSirenMusic⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

This episode begins with the retelling of a pretty fresh and very real story of the time I smelled propane in my house… and still almost made fried rice because I “didn’t want to make a fuss.” (Yes, the firefighters later told me there was a lot of propane in the air. Yes, I could’ve actually blown up my family. No, I’m not proud.)From there, I open up about all the ways we learn to override our intuition. Those tiny gut hits, body signals, and psychic whispers that say “Hey you, something’s off.”Most of us were trained out of listening to ourselves long before adulthood: told we were too much, too sensitive, too dramatic, or just flat-out wrong about what we felt.I share a few moments from my own life where I ignored my inner knowing and paid a high price, and how I’m learning to alchemize those patterns instead of shaming myself for them. This episode is all about reclaiming the body’s intelligence, reconnecting to the inner signals we’ve silenced, and remembering that intuition isn’t mystical!! It’s  a guiding light and practical AF.Sometimes it even saves you from accidental self-made explosions.✨Find me @JessieSirenMusic⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

🎙️I’m your host, Jessie Siren! Oooor maybe not a host anymore. Maybe just a woman documenting the way of her own becoming🌿These are my transmissions (aka ramblings) as I reconsider what it means to be a human living in authentic expression, to feel, to soften, to embody, to stop fucking living to feed the beast of performance and just LIVE and move/speak/share in the ways my spirit feels compelled to. From heart-opening medicine & ceremony, to life itself as the ceremony & every moment the medicine, today I’m reflecting on how love deepens, how the comedown dissolves, and how the sun and moon learn to dance. On the medicine of friendship that calls you out and calls you IN, the beauty of discernment and boundaries that make not just safety possible, but play, rest, & BEINGNESS, and finally on the magic of surrender ie learning how to let the universe surprise & WOW me instead of demanding things come in the way (and time) I expect they should.THANK YOU, for being with me on this wild path of breakdowns, breakthroughs, ramblings and all! MWAH! Here’s to softening, to trusting, and to allowing ourselves to be wowed by life over and over again, darlings. ✨Find me @JessieSirenMusic⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states--whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines--can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

Hi cutie pies! Today I hit record just after a full-blown meltdown. Complete with a handful of F-bombs and an entire pint of Cold Stone Creamery ice cream (coffee flavor + oreo cookie dough fudge and almonds duh). Because this is the journey too. From there, I dive deep into the transformative magic of devotional repetition aka how intentionally repeating sacred phrases, actions, practices and ways of being can and has reshaped my life in unimaginable ways. I explore the metaphor-rich world of microdosing mushrooms as a guide, especially when paired with intentional rituals and nervous system rewiring practices. I share personal protocols, how I cleanse the channel to hear my deepest truth, and what it means to let your inner knowing lead the way.And then there’s the forest. 700 women. And a profound remembering: wealth is multidimensional, and true joy lives within the eternal, untouchable Summer of our Being, not in the material things that one second bring us happiness and the next bring us pain (ie new car HAPPY! new car scratched NOT HAPPY!). This episode is about imagination as a portal, mushrooms as guides,  repetition as pure magic, and alchemy as our birthright.THANK YOU, for being with me on this wild path of tantrums, transmissions, breakthroughs and all! MWAH! One of my go-to "Breathe with Sandy" videos (just five minutes to reset!) : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8GTd3u_qwGA&t=8s⚠️ DisclaimerThis podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states—whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines—can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

In this episode I share from the eye of the storm—smack in the middle of a breakdown that’s becoming a breakthrough. We’ll explore nervous system regulation through the lens of Deb Dana’s book Anchored, and how her teachings are landing in my lived experience in powerful and practical ways. I talk about how pushing forward from a state of panic only plants seeds of more chaos, and how choosing to slow down, root in safety, and respond differently begins to change the whole story. I open up about how old, protective neural pathways have quietly kept me stuck—how hidden triggers often arise in the mundane—and how I’ve begun to meet them with curiosity, compassion, and new choices. I share three foundational stepping stones that are guiding me toward a more present and embodied life: 1. Creating a safe internal and external environment to help cue my system back into the safety of the moment. 2. Deepening connection with my inner voice—the knowing within that speaks with the voice of Source, Unity, Love. 3. Using my senses as a gateway to return to the here and now, anchoring through what I see, smell, feel, hear, and say.And most importantly, I speak to the power of intentional self talk—using my own voice with deep conviction and emotion to declare the reality I am choosing:“I am safe. Safe to move slow. Safe to be in my body. Safe to be all the way here now. I embody the wisdom of the ages.”This episode is about nervous system healing that doesn’t come through grand catharsis, but through consistent, sacred repetition in the everyday. Through tea in the sun. Through mindful self-talk. Through remembering again and again: we are not broken—we are coming home.Inspired by Anchored by Deb Dana👉 Buy it through Bookshop.org and support local bookstores!⚠️ DisclaimerThis podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states—whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines—can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

This one’s raw. I recorded it sitting in the Trader Joe’s parking lot, feeling more in my body than maybe ever before. I talk about choosing a new way — and I speak from the middle of the reckoning.When I started the bus project, I was still in fight-or-flight, chasing some shimmering oasis out there so I wouldn’t have to feel what was in here. But pain doesn’t vanish. It waits — like a rubber band around the waist, anchoring us to a moment we’ll ever be able to outrun.In this moment, I got: wisdom and scars have something in common — they have to be earned. No one can walk the fire for you. This is me, standing in it, choosing to become whole from the inside out.We are the tuning forks. We are the sound bowls. We embody the frequency of whatever it is we are carrying inside of us — or running from. I’m not looking for a safe place anymore… I am the safe place.I end this episode with a short soul song — a prayer to reclaim the lost soul parts we’ve scattered along the way. ⚠️ DisclaimerThis podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states—whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines—can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

In the whirlwind of modern life, my husband Matt and I have learned to make space—sacred space—for the kind of remembering that only comes through deep inner journeying. When things feel sticky, stagnant, or spiraling, we return to the wellspring of connection that lives beneath the noise. Sometimes this portal opens through silence. Other times through rhythm, breath, sex or the support of ancient plant allies. There are an unlimited number of ways we as energetic beings can reach transpersonal states.This episode is my first journey report—a story shared not as prescription, but as offering. I do not believe in one-size-fits-all healing. Plants are not pills, and healing is not linear. But story? Story is medicine we can all receive.This is the tale of one deep dive into the mystery. I trust it will land on the ears of the ones who are meant to hear it. And I hope, in some small way, it reminds you: you are not alone.⸻⚠️ Disclaimer This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states—whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines—can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

Hiya friend, and welcome back! In this episode of Sex, Drugs, & Sound Bowls, I share a deeply personal aha moment that landed this winter—one that cracked me wide open. What started as an attempt to record a podcast with Matt turned into a powerful reflection on trauma, intimacy, and the freeze response that shows up in so many of our most vulnerable moments.I speak candidly about how, for years, I couldn’t fully access the realm of sensuality and sexual connection in our marriage—how my body would freeze, how my past held me hostage, and how Matt never made me feel wrong for that. I saw, in his fear of the camera, a mirror of my own journey through healing. This episode is a love letter to the quiet, persistent ways we can hold space for one another and a celebration of the patient, playful, pressure-free invitation Matt extended to me—back to aliveness, back to the land of the living.This one’s tender, and it’s real. A story of grace, nervous system truths, and the kind of love that doesn’t push, but waits.

Hi Wildflower!In this episode, I’m sharing how I’ve been harmonizing with the energy of spring—not through big changes, but by paying attention to what’s growing right at my feet.Lately, I’ve been practicing eating one wild thing a day—nettles, dandelions, yarrow—plants that are bursting through the earth all around me here in the Pacific Northwest. These wild greens carry something I’ve been craving: deep nourishment, aliveness, connection.We live in a time where our food has become so sterile and depleted. Our bodies—made of more microbes than human cells—are longing for wildness, for minerals, for something real. And for me, connecting to the land through food has become a way to remember who I am.I talk about how I’m letting the season guide my sleep, my rhythms, my care—and how tuning into the smaller cycles within the bigger ones has helped me feel more balanced and alive.These are just the things that are supporting me right now. My hope is that something here might stir something in you—something you can make your own, in your own timing, your own rhythm.

Welcome to Sex, Drugs & Sound Bowls, a podcast for the wild-hearted seekers, the deep feelers, and those unraveling the old stories in search of their own truth.In this trailer, I share the spark that ignited this podcast—my personal healing journey, the unraveling of anxiety and self-doubt, and the power of tuning out the noise to finally hear my own inner guidance. This space is not about fixing or perfecting. It’s about showing up messy, honest, and curious. It’s about grace unfolding in real time.If you’re tired of being told what to do, and ready to remember your own medicine, you’re in the right place.>>>Acoustic guitar melody fingerstyle #4 brought to you by Garuda1982 -- https://freesound.org/s/658529/ -- License: Attribution 4.0

Hi sweet souls and welcome back! This is the episode that just might get me excommunicated. Here, I dive into what it means to be a conscious curator of your life—an intentional, mindful author of your reality, weaving together the threads of your experience with intention, mindfulness, and gratitude.I explore how the stories we tell ourselves about the things we experience—the dramas, as well as the successes—can either bring more suffering or peace. We have the power to choose the narratives we create about our lives. Isn’t that empowering?I also reflect on how not getting what we want can actually be a gift. As children of the universe, we can never fully see the bigger picture. We often can’t even imagine what the universe has in store for us. Sometimes, the very things we think we need or desire might not be part of the plan, but that doesn’t mean we’re being punished. It could be the universe guiding us toward something far more expansive than we can see in the moment.The stories we tell ourselves about who we are, our experiences, and our relationship to the world go straight to the core of our being, shaping our sense of connection—or disconnection—with everything around us. These stories form our beliefs, and our beliefs create our reality. But the first story many of us are told—the origin story of humanity, love, God, and our place in it all—is one of sin, punishment, exile, and condemnation. Deep down, many of us carry this feeling of lack, this fear of wrath, and the belief that questioning or stepping outside the lines will lead to punishment. This keeps us small and stuck.But what if we began to rewrite those stories?In this episode, I offer a reimagined perspective on the story of Adam and Eve—a view that might get me excommunicated, but one that rings with truth through every cell of my being. This version resonates deeply with my experience of the One, of the Beloved, of universal Source, energy, and love. It invites more compassion and explores how contradiction is the gateway to free will. I believe that a benevolent God was always waiting for us to make the choice that would take us on a journey that would last through the ages—from the illusion of separation back to unity with the One.

In this episode of Sex, Drugs, & Sound Bowls, I reflect on what it means to hit rock bottom—and how pain, when we truly honor it, can become a powerful portal. A guide. A signal pointing us toward the parts of our lives, bodies, and hearts that need our attention.Hi friends! Welcome back! From breakdowns and debt to doubt and overwhelm, I share what it’s been like to stop fixing and start feeling. To trust that the unraveling has its own intelligence. That maybe we’re not meant to push through, but to listen deeply—because pain doesn’t come to punish, it comes to realign.When we slow down, feel it all, and tend to what’s hurting, we create space for healing, harmony, and flow to return. And maybe… that’s what abundance really is.

Hi friends, it's me, Jessie! Welcome to my very first episode! In this first episode of Sex, Drugs, and Sound Bowls, I dive into the process of letting go of the need to micromanage and control every little detail of life. I explore how we can stop waiting for the “perfect time” and instead start showing up authentically, just as we are. Join me as I reflect on my journey to meet the spirit of the new year, discovering how playfulness and gratitude can open the door to divinity, abundance, and JOY. We’ll explore how grace unfolds in every moment—reminding us that everything, from the good to the bad, the beautiful to the ugly, is happening for us, not to us. I also share a little guided meditation + some tips for how you can start to play with your own inner guidance and higher consciousness, weaving the wisdom of life into something usable and meaningful. Let’s begin the journey together!