Becoming A Mum Didn’t Break Her. Pretending She Was Fine Did.

When Nikki became a mum at 41, she thought it would be the missing piece. Instead, it marked the beginning of the hardest season of her life, and no one around her had any idea.In this unfiltered conversation, Nikki shares the truth behind the smile: the silent weight of postpartum depression, the shame that kept her quiet, and the identity unraveling that so many mums experience, but rarely speak about.It took her 18 months to finally ask for help. And one quiet moment by the water in Montenegro changed everything.We talk about:Why we often hide the truth from the people who love us mostWhat postpartum depression really feels like on the insideThe emotional cost of trying to be “a good mum” when you're barely hanging onThe message that helped her come up for air, and reminded her to breatheHow humour, music, and 7-minute workouts helped rebuild her identityThe six human needs, and what they reveal about your emotional wiringWhy asking for support isn’t weakness, it’s one of the strongest moves you can makeWhether you’re a parent or not, this is an episode about honesty, healing, and reclaiming who you are when it all feels like too much.Because sometimes, the bravest thing you can say is:“I’m not okay.”Connect with Nikki:Website: www.thescottishsoulsister.comInstagram: @thescottishsoulsister