Healing Our Relationships: From Codependency to Authenticity

Today on the podcast, I'm joined by Laura Wolf, a feminine embodiment teacher, retreat leader, and founder of The WildWoman Experience. For more than 20 years, Laura has guided women in reconnecting with their bodies, nervous systems, and authentic selves through embodiment practices, breathwork, nervous system support, and sacred feminine spirituality. She is also the creator of Sacred Body: Return to Self, a nine-month journey designed to help women move from stress, over-functioning, and self-abandonment into deeper self-trust, aliveness, pleasure, and connection. I'm excited to have her here today to explore what it truly means to come home to ourselves. Together, we explore why relationship conflict can trigger such intense fear, how our nervous systems are wired to interpret disconnection as a threat to survival, and the many ways we try to avoid feeling fear, grief, vulnerability, and uncertainty. Laura shares why healing isn't simply a mindset shift, and why the nervous system often requires physiological tools—not just positive thinking—to experience true safety and regulation. We also discuss what it really means to be embodied, how reconnecting with the body opens the door to intuition, wisdom, and authentic self-expression and why so many women have learned to suppress their power, gifts, and aliveness. Our conversation expands into the transformative power of women's circles, the importance of community in healing, and why isolation often keeps us stuck in shame, believing we are broken, failing, or alone in our struggles. Laura shares her perspective on creating energetic containers rooted in unconditional love, where women can feel safe enough to soften, be vulnerable, and reconnect with themselves. In this episode, we explore: • Why relationship distress can feel like a survival threat • The connection between fear, attachment, and the nervous system • Practical ways to stay present with uncomfortable emotions • Why women often heal more deeply in community • The role of energetic containers in creating safety and transformation • Reclaiming aliveness, authenticity, and self-trust Whether you're navigating relationship challenges, struggling with anxiety or loneliness, or longing to feel more connected to yourself, this conversation offers both insight and hope for the journey home. Learn More about Laura Here: https://laurawolf.com/ Learn More about Wild Woman Retreat (SEPTEMBER 2026) Here: https://wildwomanexperience.com/ Book a 1:1 With Laura here: https://laurawolf.com/private-mentorship Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST Read the Back Cover A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount. Follow our NEW instagram page @soulalchemyhealing Our new website will be live in June @ www.healingourrelationships.com Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching

This week I am talking about the messy and complicated journey of healing codependency inside of our immediate family relationships. Especially our parents! Decades of patterns, trauma, and life experience mold the way we relate to our parents and our familial relationships. Trying to set new boundaries or step into the authenticity of who you are with people who have known you and related to you in a certain way your entire life can be the most confusing, challenging, and fearful changes to make. If you are trying to figure out how to feel safe being yourself, say no after 30 years of saying yes, create more space between yourself and those you love, or learn how to hold who you truly are within the expectations of others, let this episode inspire you to release guilt, shame, and emotional responsibility. I hope it will inspire you and give you the courage to allow others to hold their own reactions, disappointments, and pain — while learning to hold yourself with love. Receive some tools, inspiration and hear a little of my own story of growing up in an Italian, Catholic, emotionally intense and boundaryless environment and how I found the courage to set boundaries and change family dynamics that had gone on for decades.  Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook! PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST Read the Back Cover A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount. Follow our NEW instagram page @soulalchemyhealing The book and our new website will be live June First @ www.healingourrelationships.com Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching

Season 2 is here! And I am bringing something tangible with it! 📖  Hello Journeyers! I am so excited to open this season with a companion to your journey. Inspired by all of your emails asking for the tools to really transform painful relationship patterns, I have spent the last seven months devoted to creating the Healing Our Relationships From Codependency to Authenticity Workbook. In this episode, I share the story behind its creation and the recovery and devotion that went into it. This isn't your average workbook. It's a journey of deep and powerful transformation inspired by 18 years of soul recovery, that offers mind, body, and spirit teachings and tools to support you in healing painful relationship patterns, while simultaneously offering you a powerful way to nurture and grow a deep and loving relationship with yourself.  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW  instagram page @soulalchemyhealing  The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching See you next week!   

Welcome Back! I'm Marisa, Transformation Guide, Insight Timer Meditation, and a woman who has spent over 18 years walking her own road through addiction, codependency, and soul recovery. This is Season 2 of The Healing Our Relationships: From Codependency to Authenticity.  Last season was an invitation to step into compassionate awareness. To ask yourself where codependent patterns show up in your relationship to yourself and others. This season, we heal it at a deeper level. In the mind, body and spirit. I am going to have incredible guests for you AND the Healing Our Relationships Workbook will be available for purchase in a few weeks!  I spent the last six months devoted to creating a journey of healing and transformation that you can tangibly follow and hold. I gave it ALL of me and believe I have created something special and powerful for lasting change.  📖 Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW  instagram page @soulalchemyhealing  The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching  

This final lesson is an invitation to continue walking between your inner and outer worlds. Everything you've experienced in this course — your landscape, your guides, the symbols, the sensations, the clarity that rises from within — becomes truly transformative when you nourish it and bring it into your daily life. Integration is not an ending. It is the beginning of living from your heart center — using your body as your compass, your intuition as your guide, and your inner world as a place you can return to again and again. This lesson is a reminder that the doorway is always open, and you now have everything you need to continue the journey within. Please download my free mediation app HealSpace https://healspaceapp.com You will hear me refrence mediation journeys and they can all be found here. I'm Marisa, Insight Timer Meditation Teacher and Transformation Guide and I am bringing this Insight Timer Course to you here on the Healing Our Relationships Podcast. This course is a bridge into embodied transformation: To become deeply connected to yourself and your inner world where your intuition, boundaries, and truth actually live. Through heart-centered visioning practices, guided inner exploration, and embodied teachings, you will learn how to: Enter your heart center with intention and clarity Navigate the inner landscapes that arise through visioning Understand the symbols, sensations, and imagery that come forward Connect with your intuition, inner guidance, and helping energies Strengthen self-trust and emotional regulation Shift out of mind-made stories and into truth Build new neural pathways that support healing and transformation Develop a deeper, more grounded relationship with yourself Access the unseen wisdom and spiritual connection already within you If you are ready to stop circling the same patterns and start living differently book a Free Connection Call with me to see how a 12-week guided 1:1 journey can help you rebuild trust with yourself and step into the life of radial self-acceptance and embodied love.  Book your connection call here 📖 Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW instagram page @healingourrelationships The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching

In lesson seven you'll move beyond theory and into direct experience. You'll be guided through a deep inner journey designed to attune your body, heart, and energy field to receiving authentic guidance from within. After the journey, you'll be given space for integration through journaling or creative expression. This lesson is a ceremonial doorway — a chance to experience your inner guidance directly and anchor it into your waking life. Please download my free mediation app HealSpace https://healspaceapp.com You will hear me refrence mediation journeys and they can all be found here. I'm Marisa, Insight Timer Meditation Teacher and Transformation Guide and I am bringing this Insight Timer Course to you here on the Healing Our Relationships Podcast. This course is a bridge into embodied transformation: To become deeply connected to yourself and your inner world where your intuition, boundaries, and truth actually live. Through heart-centered visioning practices, guided inner exploration, and embodied teachings, you will learn how to: Enter your heart center with intention and clarity Navigate the inner landscapes that arise through visioning Understand the symbols, sensations, and imagery that come forward Connect with your intuition, inner guidance, and helping energies Strengthen self-trust and emotional regulation Shift out of mind-made stories and into truth Build new neural pathways that support healing and transformation Develop a deeper, more grounded relationship with yourself Access the unseen wisdom and spiritual connection already within you Follow me on Instagram @soulalchemyhealing Join my Mailing List at www.healwithalchemy.com Email me with any questions or if you need any support [email protected] Book a free connection call if you feel called to work 1:1 and dive deeper into this work.  

In lesson Six you'll learn how to receive inner guidance in the way it was always meant to be received — through the body, not the mind. You'll explore how visioning invites you to enter a state of somatic receptivity — a shift in your nervous system that opens the door to your inner world. From this place, guidance doesn't need to be forced or figured out. It rises on its own. Visioning works because it bypasses the mind's defenses. It reveals the truth beneath the Ego's story and narrative. And when the body feels that truth, the ego can no longer hold onto its old perception. The imagery becomes so real. When it is felt physically, emotionally, and energetically, the ego mind reorganizes itself around what you've experienced. This is why people have breakthroughs during inner journeys: not because they understand something new, but because they feel something true. In this lesson You'll learn how to receive guidance directly through the body's intelligence — the place where transformation actually happens. Please download my free mediation app HealSpace https://healspaceapp.com/ You will hear me refrence mediation journeys and they can all be found here. I'm Marisa, Insight Timer Meditation Teacher and Transformation Guide and I am bringing this Insight Timer Course to you here on the Healing Our Relationships Podcast. This course is a bridge into embodied transformation: To become deeply connected to yourself and your inner world where your intuition, boundaries, and truth actually live. Through heart-centered visioning practices, guided inner exploration, and embodied teachings, you will learn how to: Enter your heart center with intention and clarity Navigate the inner landscapes that arise through visioning Understand the symbols, sensations, and imagery that come forward Connect with your intuition, inner guidance, and helping energies Strengthen self-trust and emotional regulation Shift out of mind-made stories and into truth Build new neural pathways that support healing and transformation Develop a deeper, more grounded relationship with yourself Access the unseen wisdom and spiritual connection already within you Follow me on Instagram @soulalchemyhealing Join my Mailing List at www.healwithalchemy.com Email me with any questions or if you need any support [email protected] Book a free connection call if you feel called to work 1:1 and dive deeper into this work.

In lesson five you'll learn how to strengthen self-trust by following the first images, sensations, and impressions that arise in your heart center. Instead of analyzing or searching for meaning, you'll explore how intuitive truth reveals itself through feeling, symbolism, and subtle inner knowing. You'll learn why the first impression is often the clearest, how to stay with what appears instead of trying to control it, and how to navigate the difference between a visceral no, avoidance, resistance, and a genuine growth edge. You'll also explore how doubt shows up inside your inner landscape, and how imagination becomes a bridge— not a barrier— to intuitive clarity. This lesson includes a rapid-fire "visioning flashcard" practice to help you tune into your inner vision quickly and naturally. Through these exercises, you'll begin building a deeper relationship with your inner world, learning to receive without pressure, soften into the unknown, and trust what arises within you. Please download my free mediation app HealSpace https://healspaceapp.com/ You will hear me refrence mediation journeys and they can all be found here. I'm Marisa, Insight Timer Meditation Teacher and Transformation Guide and I am bringing this Insight Timer Course to you here on the Healing Our Relationships Podcast. This course is a bridge into embodied transformation: To become deeply connected to yourself and your inner world where your intuition, boundaries, and truth actually live. Through heart-centered visioning practices, guided inner exploration, and embodied teachings, you will learn how to: Enter your heart center with intention and clarity Navigate the inner landscapes that arise through visioning Understand the symbols, sensations, and imagery that come forward Connect with your intuition, inner guidance, and helping energies Strengthen self-trust and emotional regulation Shift out of mind-made stories and into truth Build new neural pathways that support healing and transformation Develop a deeper, more grounded relationship with yourself Access the unseen wisdom and spiritual connection already within you Follow me on Instagram @soulalchemyhealing Join my Mailing List at www.healwithalchemy.com Email me with any questions or if you need any support [email protected] Book a free connection call if you feel called to work 1:1 and dive deeper into this work.

In lesson four you'll learn how to discern between the voice of the ego and the voice of the soul by working inside your heart center. Rather than thinking your way into clarity, you'll discover how your inner landscape reveals the energetic difference between fear and truth. You'll explore the qualities of ego and soul as archetypal forces within you, learn how they feel inside your inner realm, and understand the dance between them. This lesson teaches you how to bring situations from your outer life into your heart center for clarity, compassion, and soul-led direction. Please donwnload my free mediation app HealSpace: www.healspaceapp.com You will hear me refrence mediation journeys and they can all be found here. I'm Marisa, Insight Timer Meditation Teacher and Transformation Guide and I am bringing this Insight Timer Course to you here on the Healing Our Relationships Podcast. This course is a bridge into embodied transformation: To become deeply connected to yourself and your inner world where your intuition, boundaries, and truth actually live. Through heart-centered visioning practices, guided inner exploration, and embodied teachings, you will learn how to: Enter your heart center with intention and clarity Navigate the inner landscapes that arise through visioning Understand the symbols, sensations, and imagery that come forward Connect with your intuition, inner guidance, and helping energies Strengthen self-trust and emotional regulation Shift out of mind-made stories and into truth Build new neural pathways that support healing and transformation Develop a deeper, more grounded relationship with yourself Access the unseen wisdom and spiritual connection already within you   Email me with any questions or if you need any support [email protected] Book a free connection call if you feel called to work 1:1 and dive deeper into this work. Follow me on Instagram @soulalchemyhealing  Join My Mailing list  www.healwithalchemy.com  

In lesson three you're guided fully into your inner realm — the living landscape within your heart center. You'll prepare your body by lying close to the earth, grounding into your breath, and softening into receptivity. Through breath, visualization, and the spiral of light in your heart, you'll cross the veil into your landscape, explore its elements, and meet a helping spirit animal or guide. This journey helps you receive symbols, colors, sensations, and intuitive messages from your soul. Afterward, you'll process through journaling or art to honor what emerged. Please download my free mediation app HealSpace https://healspaceapp.com/  You will hear me refrence mediation journeys and they can all be found here. Email me with any questions or if you need any support [email protected] Book a free connection call if you feel called to work 1:1 and dive deeper into this work. I'm Marisa, Insight Timer Meditation Teacher and Transformation Guide and I am bringing this Insight Timer Course to you here on the Healing Our Relationships Podcast. This course is a bridge into embodied transformation: To become deeply connected to yourself and your inner world where your intuition, boundaries, and truth actually live. Through heart-centered visioning practices, guided inner exploration, and embodied teachings, you will learn how to: Enter your heart center with intention and clarity Navigate the inner landscapes that arise through visioning Understand the symbols, sensations, and imagery that come forward Connect with your intuition, inner guidance, and helping energies Strengthen self-trust and emotional regulation Shift out of mind-made stories and into truth Build new neural pathways that support healing and transformation Develop a deeper, more grounded relationship with yourself Access the unseen wisdom and spiritual connection already within you Follow me on Instagram @soulalchemyhealing  Join my Mailing List at www.healwithalchemy.com 

In lesson two you'll learn how your inner world communicates through symbolic imagery, sensation, energy, and intuitive knowing. We explore elemental landscapes, colors, emotions, animals, guides, and the ways your heart will speak to you. You'll discover how visioning works, why nothing you see is "made up," and how to trust whatever arises — whether vivid, subtle, somatic, or symbolic. This lesson prepares you for your first embodied journey into the "other realm" of your great within in the next session. Please donwnload my free mediation app HealSpace https://healspaceapp.com/ You will hear me refrence mediation journeys and they can all be found here. Email me with any questions or if you need any support [email protected] Book a free connection call if you feel called to work 1:1 and dive deeper into this work. I'm Marisa, Insight Timer Meditation Teacher and Transformation Guide and I am bringing this Insight Timer Course to you here on the Healing Our Relationships Podcast. This course is a bridge into embodied transformation: To become deeply connected to yourself and your inner world where your intuition, boundaries, and truth actually live. Through heart-centered visioning practices, guided inner exploration, and embodied teachings, you will learn how to: Enter your heart center with intention and clarity Navigate the inner landscapes that arise through visioning Understand the symbols, sensations, and imagery that come forward Connect with your intuition, inner guidance, and helping energies Strengthen self-trust and emotional regulation Shift out of mind-made stories and into truth Build new neural pathways that support healing and transformation Develop a deeper, more grounded relationship with yourself Access the unseen wisdom and spiritual connection already within you   Follow me on Instagram @soulalchemyhealing  Join My Mailing list www.healwithalchemy.com   

In the first lesson you'll learn how the heart center serves as the gateway to your inner world — the place where intuition, clarity, and your soul's voice become accessible. We explore why the mind alone can't reveal deeper truth, how the heart communicates through visioning and sensation, and why this inner realm becomes the foundation for healing, self-trust, and spiritual connection throughout the course. Please donwnload my free mediation app HealSpace https://healspaceapp.com/ You will hear me refrence mediation journeys and they can all be found here. Email me with any questions or if you need any support [email protected] Book a free connection call if you feel called to work 1:1 and dive deeper into this work. I'm Marisa, Insight Timer Meditation Teacher and Transformation Guide and I am bringing this Insight Timer Course to you here on the Healing Our Relationships Podcast. This course is a bridge into embodied transformation: To become deeply connected to yourself and your inner world where your intuition, boundaries, and truth actually live. Through heart-centered visioning practices, guided inner exploration, and embodied teachings, you will learn how to: Enter your heart center with intention and clarity Navigate the inner landscapes that arise through visioning Understand the symbols, sensations, and imagery that come forward Connect with your intuition, inner guidance, and helping energies Strengthen self-trust and emotional regulation Shift out of mind-made stories and into truth Build new neural pathways that support healing and transformation Develop a deeper, more grounded relationship with yourself Access the unseen wisdom and spiritual connection already within you

Codependency is often the habit of leaving yourself to stay connected to someone else. It can look like over-functioning, people-pleasing, hypervigilance, controlling, fixing, rescuing—anything to create safety through the external world. But healing codependency isn't just changing behavior. It's rebuilding the inner relationship that was interrupted: self-trust, nervous system safety, and the ability to stay with yourself when something feels uncertain, uncomfortable, or emotionally risky. Most of us spend our lives looking outside of ourselves for clarity—seeking answers, guidance, and spiritual connection from the world around us. But the deepest truth, the clearest direction, and the most reliable wisdom you will ever receive lives within you. This course is designed to help you access that inner world. I'm Marisa, Insight Timer Meditation Teacher and Transformation Guide and I teach Psychospiritual Meditation. I am bringing this Insight Timer Course to you here on the Healing Our Relationships Podcast.  This course is a bridge into embodied transformation: To become deeply connected to yourself and your inner world where your intuition, boundaries, and truth actually live. Through heart-centered visioning practices, guided inner exploration, and embodied teachings, you will learn how to: Enter your heart center with intention and clarity Navigate the inner landscapes that arise through visioning Understand the symbols, sensations, and imagery that come forward Connect with your intuition, inner guidance, and helping energies Strengthen self-trust and emotional regulation Shift out of mind-made stories and into truth Build new neural pathways that support healing and transformation Develop a deeper, more grounded relationship with yourself Access the unseen wisdom and spiritual connection already within you This work is experiential and alchemical. It allows you to move beyond thinking and into a lived relationship with your inner world—one that transforms how you relate to yourself and how you move through life. By the end of this course, you will know how to step into your heart center, listen to its guidance, and use this inner realm as a source of clarity, grounding, intuition, and spiritual connection. You will walk away with a reliable practice for accessing your own wisdom—again and again. This is a journey into the great within. And it begins here. Please donwnload my free mediation app HealSpace https://healspaceapp.com/ You will hear me refrence mediation journeys and they can all be found here.  If you are ready to stop circling the same patterns and start living differently book a Free Connection Call with me to see how a 12-week guided 1:1 journey can help you rebuild trust with yourself and step into the life of radial self-acceptance and embodied love.  Book your connection call here 📖 Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW instagram page @healingourrelationships The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching

Our final episode of Season One is inspired by Lily Allen's West End Girl. This is not a pop-psych analysis or an attempt to interpret the artist's life or relationship. I'm bringing this album into our space as a mirror for the work we have been doing here. As I listened to West End Girl, I noticed how much it stirred in my own healing work. The linear and direct way she shares her experience feels potent, and the record spread so widely because it's deeply relatable. When we approach another person's experience with awareness, it can reveal something essential about our own. Inside this episode, we move into the heart of some of the most painful and often misunderstood patterns in relational healing: saying yes when we mean no staying in situations that hurt because we're afraid to lose connection suppressing our truth to stay safe rumination as an attempt to feel in control and the quiet self-abuse that shows up as shame, self-hate, and self-abandonment More than anything, this episode is about recognizing how we relate to ourselves inside relational pain — how quickly we blame ourselves, disappear, or try to control the outcome through self-abandonement — and how awareness becomes the turning point. Not by fixing the pattern, but by noticing and interrupting the moment we begin abandon ourselves to keep ourselves safe.  This is an invitation into awareness, compassion, and embodied self-honesty. Not to rush change or force resolution, but to stay present long enough for something deeper to shift — and to begin healing your relationship to self from that place. As we close this season, I invite you to practice one thing: stay. Stay with your truth. Stay with your body. Stay with the moment you want to disappear or attack yourself. That choice — again and again — is where the healing begins.  If you are new here-go back to episde one. I invite you on a linear journey to come into a deeper relationship to yourself.  If you are ready to stop circling the same patterns and start living differently book a Free Connection Call with me to see how a 12-week guided 1:1 journey can help you rebuild trust with yourself and step into the life of radial self-acceptance and embodied love.  Book your connection call here 📖 Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW  instagram page @soulalchemyhealing  The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching  

Today I have someone incredibly special with me. Not just a renowned Toltec Master of Transformation, not just a teacher or an author, but a dear friend to me and to everyone he meets. don José Ruiz is a Toltec Master, a storyteller, the author of The Fifth Agreement, Ripples of Wisdom, and My Good Friend the Rattlesnake. He's a speaker, a devoted vegan, a coffee lover, and someone who has dedicated his life to translating ancient Toltec wisdom into practical teachings that bring more truth, love, and personal freedom into the world. But beyond all of that... José is someone who embodies unconditional love. He walks through the world in a way that makes people light up when they see him. His presence softens defenses. His humor and humility make the teachings feel accessible. And the way he loves openly, generously, and without condition is medicine this world desperately needs more of. José shares his own personal story, the obstacles he has worked to overcome, his journey inside of relationships and addiction. He will inspire you to remember you are more than your human experience. You are infinite, and you have the power to create the life of your dreams. You have the power and courage to love yourself and soften to love others and the world around you, even if you do not agree with their personal dream.  This conversation is unscripted and straight from the heart. No planned questions. No performance. Just two friends sharing truth, laughing, exploring, and letting the moment guide us. I'm so honored to share this space with him, and I hope you feel the love, the freedom, and the permission that José naturally awakens in everyone he meets. *Content note: This episode includes a brief reference to sexual abuse. Please prioritize your emotional well-being as you listen. Let's dive in. Learn more about Jose here If you are ready to stop circling the same patterns and start living differently book a Free Connection Call with me to see how a 12-week guided 1:1 journey can help you rebuild trust with yourself and step into the life of radial self-acceptance and embodied love.  Book your connection call here 📖 Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW  instagram page @healingourrelationships The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching  

Yes — there are many people in this world you could be in a relationship with. There is no shortage of potential partners. But when you are struggling inside your relationship, when there is fear, insecurity, reactivity, shutting down, chasing, or any kind of trauma response, the idea that there's "someone better out there" doesn't empower you. It actually pulls you further away from yourself. It keeps you externally focused instead of internally connected. For someone who is living inside anxiety, attachment wounds, people-pleasing, avoidance, perfectionism, or the pattern of running every time things get hard… the message "you deserve better, go find it" becomes another way to disconnect from yourself. It reinforces the belief that your healing lives outside of you. That someone else will come along and soothe everything you haven't yet learned how to hold within yourself. And that is where this narrative becomes harmful. Because it pushes people into the next relationship without ever stopping to understand: why they choose who they choose what part of them gets activated, frightened, or shut down what version of themselves takes over when things feel threatening what need in them keeps going unmet, and why what patterns they are replaying from their childhood or past what agreements or beliefs about love they are still living inside of Without that awareness, leaving doesn't create clarity, it creates repetition. If someone leaves without doing their inner work, they don't "find better." They find a new person to run the same patterns with. They carry the same wound into the next connection. They carry the same fear into the next dynamic. They bring the same unspoken needs, the same unhealed parts, the same survival strategies — and eventually, those patterns show up again, no matter how different the new partner seems at first. And because the beginning of a relationship feels exciting, hopeful, intoxicating… people mistake that dopamine rush for healing. They mistake the quiet of a new connection for safety. They mistake difference for evolution. But when the high wears off, when the nervous system settles, the same wounds come forward. And the cycle repeats. So when I say that "go find better" is harmful, this is what I mean: it seduces you into believing that your healing is waiting for you in someone else, instead of waiting for you in you. It distracts you from the work that actually changes your patterns. And it prevents you from looking at the version of yourself that keeps showing up in your relationships, over and over again. You don't break the cycle by finding someone new. You break the cycle by coming home to yourself. If you are ready to stop circling the same patterns and start living differently book a Free Connection Call with me to see how a 12-week guided 1:1 journey can help you rebuild trust with yourself and step into the life of radial self-acceptance and embodied love.  Book your connection call here 📖 Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW instagram page @healingourrelationships The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching

Release resentment in this transformative 5-minute spiritual based practice. Let go of giving someone or something your energy and power. Through a powerful practice of cord cutting, sever the ties that bind you to the other.  Step away from the ego's grip on resentment and step into the energy of your soul. Step into your courage and let go of giving someone or something yoru energy, your power and your time.  Close your eyes, take a breath, and allow the journey to hold you. You can find more of my meditations on Insight Timer or my personal mediation App Healspace.  Learn More About Working With Me @ www.healwithalchemy.com Find Me on Instagram @soulalchemyhealing 

Welcome back to Healing Our Relationships. This episode dives into the space between who you have been and who you are becoming. The bridge is the place where awareness meets embodiment, where intent becomes practice and where the real transformation happens.  On one side of that bridge is the familiar self, the one who moves from the patterns of codependency that keep them "safe" to avoid pain, the side that is often built on the foundation of fear. Fear of not being good enough, not doing right or fear of truly being seen. On the other side of the bridge is what it looks like when you are living as your authentic self. It is here, on the bridge, it can be really uncomfortable, but where the real lasting healing and growth happens. It is in that walk across when the relationship to yourself deepens in love and reverence.  I will inspire you to have the courage to navigate the discomfort in the in-between of wanting to be chosen and learning to choose ourselves. We look at how the mind, body, and spirit each hold a piece of that work: the mind still learning to release the old story, the body remembering safety, and your spirit teaching you how to trust what's real. This episode is about the devotion it takes to live in alignment with your soul — to stay steady when the bridge shakes beneath you, and to keep walking toward the life that's actually yours. It is on the bridge you not only meet yourself, but others walking alongside you, tools to help you keep walking and the awakenings that will forever change you.  The first step towards ourself is the scariest, the rest is an unfolding of more than you could probably imagine.  If you are ready to stop circling the same patterns and start living differently book a Free Connection Call with me to see how a 12-week guided 1:1 journey can help you rebuild trust with yourself and step into the life of radial self-acceptance and embodied love.  Book your connection call here 📖 Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW instagram page @healingourrelationships The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching

This week on the Healing Our Relationships Podcast I have a very special guest. She is the author of 13 books, the Founder of Venus Rising Association for Transformation and creator of Shamanic Breathwork. She has been a shamanic visionary teacher and guide to thousands of people over the last four decades, dedicating her life to assisting soul seekers to transform and embrace their lives. Star Wolf's lifelong passion and sacred purpose is to support personal transformation. She shares openly and vulnerably of her addiction and codependency recovery and brings forward a theme we have not yet touched on in our podcast, Codependency as a crisis of the Spirit. In this vulnerable and intimate conversation, we explore how the roots of codependency can stem from spiritual disconnection, the forgetting of who we truly are and the divine source that is all around us. Star Wolf speaks to how recovery, in its truest sense, is a process of remembrance and of coming home to the sacred within ourselves. Together, we discuss how healing moves beyond human behavior and into the realm of the soul, where surrender becomes an opening rather than a loss, and where breath becomes the bridge between the human and the divine.  We also touch on the deeper spiritual roots of codependency and how it reflects the collective wounding of the Divine Feminine under patriarchal systems that have long valued doing over being, pleasing over truth, and control over trust. In reclaiming our connection, we begin to restore balance within ourselves and the world remembering that our worth, our power, and our love were never meant to be earned, only remembered. This episode is an invitation to those on the path to explore if a connection to something greater could help them reclaim the power of love, and to remember that the journey of healing is ultimately a journey of returning to wholeness, to truth, and to the heart of who we are. I invite you to have an open heart and open mind. Take what feels in alignment, leave what doesn't and be curous about that which may push you to your edges. Remember we are sharing our own personal expereince- not overarching truths.  Learn More About Star Wolf and Venus Rising at https://www.shamanicbreathwork.org/ You can buy her new book Aquarian Shaman Here You can learn more about SHIP (Shamanic Healing Initiatory Process) Here  Buy Jacquelyn Small's Book Awakening In Time From Codependency to Co-Creation Here  If you are ready to stop circling the same patterns and start living differently book a Free Connection Call with me to see how a 12-week guided 1:1 journey can help you rebuild trust with yourself and step into the life of radial self-acceptance and embodied love.  Book your connection call here 📖 Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW instagram page @healingourrelationships The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching       

In order to be authentic we have to have the courage to be seen, judged and misunderstood. So much of our fear of authenticity comes from making assumptions and projection — seeing others not as they are, but through the lens of our own unhealed stories. Whether we are the projectors or being projected upon, in this episode of Healing Our Relationships, we explore how projections keep us afraid to be fully ourselves, and understanding that people's personal experience with us, is rarely just about us. And how having the courage to live with this awareness transforms it into a pathway of freedom. We explore the subtle and often painful ways projection keeps us trapped in fear — fear of being misunderstood, fear of being too much or not enough, fear of losing love if we show who we really are. This is a conversation about learning to let others be themselves without trying to fix, manage, or interpret them through the lens of our own wounds. It's also about reclaiming your own freedom by allowing people to have their experience of you and learning how to hold judgement, criticism and someone else's fear.  Together, we'll explore what it means to stand rooted in authenticity, to hold the discomfort of being misunderstood, and to meet yourself with compassion when fears rise. Through reflection and embodied practice, you'll begin to notice the moments when projection takes over, and learn how to return to truth again and again. Because when you stop trying to control how others see you, you make space for the one thing you've been searching for all along: the freedom to be yourself.  If you are ready to stop circling the same patterns and start living differently book a Free Connection Call with me to see how a 12-week guided 1:1 journey can help you rebuild trust with yourself and step into the life of radial self-acceptance and embodied love.  Book your connection call here 📖 Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW instagram page @healingourrelationships The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching

This month I am on an ancestral pilgrimage to Italy with my father so I am getting creative to bring you something every week. A couple weeks ago my offering for you was a free 7 Day Morning Practice at your own pace video course, last week I offered you a prayer for moments of relationship fear, obsession or disastermind. This week I offer you a guided meditation. In this meditation you will embark on a profound journey to release feelings of insecurity, unreasonable expectations for yourself and "not enoughness," fear, and anxieties. Expand your consciousness, and transition from focusing on the micro to the macro. As you immerse yourself in the energy of your soul, you will rise above your current state, and transcend beyond the constraints of your rolls, expectations and surroundings. Find inner peace and transform your perspective in this empowering meditation experience. Give yourself 10 mins to be held, inspired inside of your vision and connect to yourself. I have a reputation for being the best meditation teacher for people who don't like to meditate. I don't invite you into silence, but into vision, into a creation of an inner landscape where you can learn to trust yourself and remember who you are.  You can find more of my meditations on Insight Timer or my personal mediation App Healspace.  If you are ready to stop circling the same patterns and start living differently book a Free Connection Call with me to see how a 12-week guided 1:1 journey can help you rebuild trust with yourself and step into the life of radial self-acceptance and embodied love.  Book your connection call here 📖 Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW instagram page @healingourrelationships The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching    

This month I am on an ancestral pilgrimage to Italy with my father so I am getting creative in order to bring you something every week. Last week my offering for you was a free 7 Day Morning Practice at your own pace video course. Give it a listen for the free promo code.  This week I am offering you a prayer for moments when you are experiencing obsession and fear inside of your relationships. Whether it be catastrophic thinking, disaster mind, or fight or flight in your body; Ask the Spirit, the univer, God, whoever you connect to- for relief and the courage to come back home to yourself. Make room for your feelings, honor your experience, and soothe the part of you that needs healing, love, and support. This is a favorite for all of my Insight Timer listeners.  I hope you will find your breath, inner peace and trust.  If you are ready to stop circling the same patterns and start living differently book a Free Connection Call with me to see how a 12-week guided 1:1 journey can help you rebuild trust with yourself and step into the life of radial self-acceptance and embodied love.  Book your connection call here 📖 Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW instagram page @healingourrelationships The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching      

This week I have something special for you.  We can only go so long on our healing journeys with concepts and conversation. We need rhythm. We need practice. We need to move from head to heart to truly begin to embody the work we are doing. We need tools that helps us feel connected to ourselves in a real and powerful ways.  In this bonus episode, I'm offering you just that. A way to root deeper into self-love and self-trust. A way to expereince compassionate awareness as a real living thing and not just a concept. A space for daily practice, without pressure or perfection. As I am traveling this month and can not bring you a full in depth episode this week, I wanted to make sure you had something substantial from me. So give this short episode a listen, head back here, click the link below, and put in the 100% off code.  On the other side is a gift from me to you — one you can return to again and again.  Your Free Gift Is HERE  Your Promo Code is: PODCAST22 You are worth it. Come home to yourself.  If you are ready to stop circling the same patterns and start living differently book a Free Connection Call with me to see how a 12-week guided 1:1 journey can help you rebuild trust with yourself and step into the life of radial self-acceptance and embodied love.  Book your connection call here 📖 Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW instagram page @healingourrelationships The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching

Codependency can be so confusing. Where does true caring end and self-abandonment begin? How do we know when we've shifted from showing up with love into people-pleasing, controlling, or living for someone else's approval? In this episode of Healing Our Relationships, I share one of the most direct tools that helped me begin to sort this out: the framework of "Codependency and Recovery — The Differences." Using clear examples, I walk you through these patterns — like in codependency, my good feelings come from you liking me; in recovery, my good feelings come from me liking me — and show how to apply them in real life. This isn't theory; it's practical guidance you can start using today. As you begin to work with these distinctions, you'll find yourself stepping out of confusion and into greater authenticity, self-trust, and inner peace. Boundaries become clearer. Self-worth grows steadier. And slowly, you return to yourself. You can find the PDF I am referring to in the episode here: Download PDF And if you'd like to explore this work more deeply in community, join me for my Healing Our Relationships live circle on Zoom on the last Thursday of every month. You'll also find guided meditations, teachings, and resources in my HealSpace app — your sanctuary for coming home to yourself. Learn more about me and my offerings at www.healwithalchemy.com Email me your story submissions, questions or thoughts at [email protected] Follow me on Instagram at @soulalchemyhealing Follow me on Insight Timer Join me in Sedona this November for Awakening Woman Retreat. 

In this special conversation, I sit down with Don Miguel Ruiz Jr. — A Toltec Master, author, speaker, teacher, and the son of Don Miguel Ruiz, author of The Four Agreements. Together, we explore the Toltec path and how its wisdom can help us navigate the fears and patterns that shape our relationships.  Miguel shares powerful insights from his new book, The Poisoned Arrow: The Toltec Guide to Overcoming Fear, on how fear underlies so much of our human experience, and why the key to healthy, happy relationships is not control, shpeshifting, or perfection — but authenticity and unconditional love. We talk about the courage it takes to surrender, to honor both our yes and our no, and to meet others not through fear but through freedom and truth. This episode is an invitation to pause, reflect, and remember that love rooted in authenticity transforms not only our relationships, but our relationship with ourselves. By combining the wisdom of his family's traditions with the knowledge gained from his own personal journey, Miguel helps others realize their own path to personal freedom. Meet him on his website www.miguelruizjr.com Check out his new book in bookstores and online: The Poisoned Arrow: The Toltec Guide to Overcoming Fear If you are ready to stop circling the same patterns and start living differently book a Free Connection Call with me to see how a 12-week guided 1:1 journey can help you rebuild trust with yourself and step into the life of radial self-acceptance and embodied love.  Book your connection call here 📖 Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW instagram page @healingourrelationships The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching

Boundaries are one of the most misunderstood aspects of healing and recovery. For some of us, being "boundariless" looks like saying yes when we mean no, letting others decide for us, and living in fear of rejection or disapproval. For others, it looks like building walls, controlling outcomes, or cutting people off entirely as a way to feel safe. Both are forms of disconnection — from ourselves, and from authentic relationship. Today, we'll explore why so many of us struggle to set boundaries and how this ties back to fear, perfectionism, and old survival strategies. More importantly, we'll talk about why boundaries are not only safe, but necessary. Setting a boundary is one of the most self-honoring acts we can take — it's how we reclaim our authenticity and create space for others to show up authentically too. You'll discover: How being boundariless can look like over-giving or walling off  Why guilt, shame, and uncertainty are normal when we start practicing boundaries. The difference between boundaries that keep us safe and walls that keep us stuck. Tools to practice boundaries as an act of truth and self-worth, rather than control. Why taking care of yourself first is not only safe, but sacred — and how doing so creates space for authentic, honest connection with others. This conversation is a reminder that boundaries are not about shutting life out; they're about letting life in, in a way that feels safe, honoring, and true. When we learn to set them, we reclaim our energy, our relationships, and our place in the world as whole, worthy beings. And, in order to give you a powerful guidepost for really transforming behaviors that are rooted in self-abandonment, you are getting two episodes this week so you don't have to wait to begin the powerful practice of coming. home to yourself.  If you are ready to stop circling the same patterns and start living differently book a Free Connection Call with me to see how a 12-week guided 1:1 journey can help you rebuild trust with yourself and step into the life of radial self-acceptance and embodied love.  Book your connection call here 📖 Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW instagram page @healingourrelationships The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching

You can't just flip a switch and love yourself after a lifetime of feeling disconnected. For many of us, self-worth was never modeled it was something we had to earn through approval, performance, or meeting someone else's expectations. Over time, our nervous systems adapted to live in survival mode, we lost sense of who we really are and  But this is not who you are. Beneath the roles you've played and the patterns you've carried is the unshakable truth of your worth. In this episode of Healing Our Relationships, we'll explore why reclaiming self-worth isn't about pretending, bypassing, or forcing affirmations to land. Instead, it's about coming back into alignment in your mind, body, and spirit recovery and discovering your truth, accepting the truths that already exists. It is about creating space for compassion and care to grow.  In this episode you will learn three powerful practices you can start using today to move from head to heart and to shift your nervous system out of survival mode, ground into security, and reconnect with yourself in a way that's loving and lasting This is your reminder: self-worth isn't the starting point. It's the result of choosing truth over fear, moment by moment. The books mentioned in this podcast are:  Dr. David Hawkins - Letting Go The Pathway to Surrender  Don Miguel Ruiz- The Four Agreements  Learn more about me at www.healwithalchemy.com Follow me on instagram at @soulalchemyhealing  Join us on Zoom on the last Thursday of the month for Healing Our Relationships the Circle 

Welcome back to Healing Our Relationships. I'm Marisa, Healer & Transformation Guide. Love avoidance often gets mistaken for independence, but in truth, it's another face of codependency — a strategy to control connection and protect ourselves from pain. In this episode, I'm unpacking three core beliefs that keep love-avoidant patterns alive: I can't trust anyone, If I don't get close, I can't get hurt, and I am not worthy of love. We'll explore how these beliefs form — often from early abandonment, betrayal, or a deep mistrust of others — and how they quietly dictate the way we choose partners, keep people at arm's length, or test whether they'll chase us. I'll share why walling off isn't the safety net we think it is, but a self-imposed cage that limits intimacy, joy, and real connection. This conversation is about awareness, compassion, and the courage to take contrary action: to open the gates, to allow closeness without giving up yourself, and to risk being loved for who you truly are. You'll leave with reflection questions and practices to help you step out from behind the walls and into relationships that feel safe because you are safe inside yourself. If you are ready to stop circling the same patterns and start living differently book a Free Connection Call with me to see how a 12-week guided 1:1 journey can help you rebuild trust with yourself and step into the life of radial self-acceptance and embodied love.  Book your connection call here 📖 Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW instagram page @healingourrelationships The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching

What a title! We are packing a lot in today. In this episode of Healing Our Relationships, we explore the deep-rooted beliefs that quietly shape compliance patterns—the part of us that abandons our truth to stay safe, to be liked and to avoid loss. These patterns aren't weakness. They're survival strategies we learned in environments where our voice didn't feel welcome. But they cost us. They cost us authenticity. They cost us self-trust. And over time, they keep us from the very connection we long for-connection to ourselves and others.  Together, we'll explore four core beliefs that often live beneath compliance behaviors: If I speak up, I'll be rejected:  It's the fear that our truth will cost us connection. That we'll be too much. That if we ask for what we need, they'll leave. So we quiet ourselves. We hold back. We sugarcoat. We speak in half-truths. We edit who we are just enough to stay acceptable and keep the peace.  I'm responsible for how others feel:  This belief convinces us that other people's discomfort is our fault. We walk on eggshells. We manage their moods. We monitor our every word to prevent someone else's reaction. But the truth is: You are responsible to people—not for them. You can be kind without controlling. You can be honest without caretaking. We learn that it's not loving to protect others from their own feelings—it's enabling. And it's not loving to take on their emotions at the expense of our own. If I disappoint someone, I'll lose them: For many of us, this wasn't just a feeling—it was a lived experience. Love was conditional. Approval came when we performed correctly. Safety meant staying agreeable, available, and easy to be around. So we adapted. We became who others needed us to be.We said yes when everything in our body said no. We became masterful at anticipating needs and avoiding conflict. And disappointment felt like danger. But here's what this belief forgets: Disappointment is not the same as betrayal. Discomfort is not the same as abandonment. They'll leave me and find someone better:  Many of us stay in unhealthy relationships because we believe we're replaceable. That if we walk away, they'll find someone better. That our absence won't even matter. But that belief doesn't come from your soul—it comes from your wounds. The truth is, you are not disposable. You are not interchangeable. But if you stay where you're not seen or valued, you'll start to believe you are. In this episode: You'll learn how these beliefs form, how they play out in relationships, and what it means to meet them with compassion rather than shame. I'll offer tools, teachings, reflection questions, and small but powerful practices to help you reclaim your voice and come home to your truth. This is the path of coming back to yourself—not to please or perform, but to live in alignment with your integrity, even when it's uncomfortable. Even when it's scary. Even when it means someone won't approve. You are worth it. Come home to yourself.  New episodes drop each week!  And if you'd like to explore this work more deeply in community, join me for my Healing Our Relationships live circle on Zoom on the last Thursday of every month. You'll also find guided meditations, teachings, and resources in my HealSpace app — your sanctuary for coming home to yourself. Learn more at www.healwithalchemy.com Email me your story submissions, questions or thoughts at [email protected] Follow me on Instagram at @soulalchemyhealing Join me in Sedona this November for Awakening Woman Retreat

Welcome back to Healing Our Relationships. I'm Marisa, Healer & Transformation Guide. In this episode, I'm diving deep into the low self-esteem patterns that so many carry—patterns that whisper, "I'm not enough," "I'm not worthy," "I can't trust myself," and "If I show up fully, I'll be rejected." These beliefs aren't the truth of who you are. They're stories you learned to survive. And if you're here, I know there's a part of you that's ready to tell a new one. Together, we'll explore how these patterns show up in relationships—with others and with yourself—and how to begin shifting them with radical self-honesty, compassion, and small but powerful acts of devotion to your own healing. This conversation isn't just about awareness—it's about action. I'll offer reflection questions, embodied practices, and small but sacred shifts you can make right now to begin loosening their grip. This isn't about becoming someone else. It's about remembering who you've always been—and having the courage to live from love for yourself instead of fear of others.  📖 Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW  instagram page @soulalchemyhealing  The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching  

This is a bonus episode — one I felt called to share because I know how torturous it can feel to be caught in that anxious loop of "Should I stay or should I go?" And there is a good chance if you are on this journey with me. You may be in a relationship that doesn't feel good. When you're unsure what's yours and what belongs to someone else… the confusion can feel unbearable. The mind obsesses, the body tightens, and the urgency to get clear becomes overwhelming. But beneath that question, there's something deeper. A river beneath the river. This episode invites you into that deeper current — the one that asks: Do I trust myself? Am I safe to listen to what's true for me? Can I hold the not-knowing with compassion, not panic? Together, we'll explore: Why clarity can't be forced, but must be felt How codependency makes it hard to hear your own truth A few simple questions to help you tune into whether you're in a codependent pattern Practical ways to soothe the nervous system so clarity can emerge And a reframe that may help you feel less alone, less crazy, and more at peace in the in-between If you're struggling in the not-knowing, this episode is for you. You don't need to rush. You don't need to force answers. You just need to stay with yourself. If you are ready to stop circling the same patterns and start living differently book a Free Connection Call with me to see how a 12-week guided 1:1 journey can help you rebuild trust with yourself and step into the life of radial self-acceptance and embodied love.  Book your connection call here 📖 Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW instagram page @healingourrelationships The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching

Welcome back to Healing Our Relationships. I'm Marisa, Healer & Transformation Guide. So many of us live trapped inside stories we inherited long ago — stories about who we're supposed to be, what makes us worthy, and how love must be earned. In this episode of Healing Our Relationships, I explore how these old stories block us from our authentic, divine unfolding — and how remembering who we truly are is the path back to freedom and wholeness. We'll talk about: The invisible agreements we made in childhood How codependency keeps us living in old narratives The difference between your story and your soul Gentle ways to begin rewriting your story and reconnecting to your authentic self Because your story does not have to be your prison. It can be the doorway back home. If you're ready to explore the space beyond your old story, I'd love for you to join me. ✨ New episodes drop every week. And if you'd like to explore this work more deeply in community, join me for my Healing Our Relationships live circle on Zoom on the last Thursday of every month. You'll also find guided meditations, teachings, and resources in my HealSpace app — your sanctuary for coming home to yourself. Let's keep walking this path together.

Welcome back to Healing Our Relationships. I'm Marisa, Healer & Transformation Guide, In this episode, I want to go deeper than just naming patterns of codependency. Because self-abandonment comes at a cost — and until we see that cost clearly, we stay trapped in cycles of survival instead of living the life we're here to live. Today, I'm exploring the hidden toll that self-abandonment takes on us — emotionally, physically, spiritually, and in our relationships. In this episode, I'm sharing: ✨ How each emotional struggle — resentment, anxiety, numbness — reveals something sacred we're sacrificing ✨ How our bodies become messengers when we're not living in alignment ✨ The quiet spiritual costs of feeling disconnected from purpose, Spirit, and our own soul ✨ The relational pain of feeling unseen  ✨ A sacred inventory practice to help you gently explore where you might be leaving yourself behind and what it would mean to come home to your authenticity.  This episode isn't about shame or blame. It's about remembering that your life is sacred — and you are worth fighting for. If you're ready to begin choosing yourself, even in small ways, I'd love for you to join me. ✨ New episodes drop every week. And if you'd like to explore this work more deeply in community, join me for my live Healing Our Relationships circle on Zoom on the last Thursday of every month. You'll also find guided meditations, teachings, and resources in my HealSpace app — your sanctuary for coming home to yourself. Let's keep walking this path together.

Welcome back to Healing Our Relationships. I'm Marisa, Healer and Transformation Guide.  One of the biggest questions I hear from people on the journey of codependency recovery is this: "How do I know if I'm being loving… or if I'm being codependent?" Because when you're healing from codependency, it can feel confusing to tell the difference between true caring and patterns of people-pleasing, self-abandonment, or over-giving. In this episode, I'm diving deep into how to recognize when your caring is coming from fear, obligation, or anxiety — versus when it's rooted in genuine love, choice, and self-connection. I'll talk about:The key differences between codependent behaviors and healthy, interdependent relationships Real-life examples of what codependent caring looks like — and how true caring feels different A story from my own journey of learning to stay connected to myself while loving others Reflection questions to help you explore how these patterns show up in your life If you've ever wondered whether helping someone else is codependent or simply part of healthy love… this episode is for you. I want you to know: Caring for others isn't wrong. The question is whether it includes you, too. Thanks for being here with me. Let's keep walking this journey — together. If you are ready to stop circling the same patterns and start living differently book a Free Connection Call with me to see how a 12-week guided 1:1 journey can help you rebuild trust with yourself and step into the life of radial self-acceptance and embodied love.  Book your connection call here 📖 Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW instagram page @healingourrelationships The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching

Welcome back to Healing Our Relationships. I'm Marisa, Healer and Transformation Guide.  In our first episode, we talked about noticing the ways we abandon ourselves to feel loved, safe, or chosen. But awareness alone can leave us wondering… Why do I keep doing this, even when I know better? In this episode, I want to help you understand why codependency runs so deep. We'll explore how these patterns don't just live in our minds — they live in our bodies and our nervous systems. I'll share how many of us learned, even as children, that our safety and worth depended on keeping others happy, reading the room, and shape-shifting to avoid conflict or rejection. I'll talk about: How codependency is actually a survival response, not a personality flaw Real-life examples of how these patterns begin in childhood Clues that your nervous system might still be stuck in old survival modes Moments from my own journey of learning to come back to myself I'll also leave you with reflection questions to help you gently explore where these patterns might still be living in your life and in your body. This work is not about blaming yourself for the past — it's about understanding how brilliant and adaptive you were, and how you can now choose something new. Thanks for being here with me. Let's keep walking this journey — together. Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW  instagram page @soulalchemyhealing  The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching  

Welcome to the first episode of Healing Our Relationships. I'm Marisa, Healer and Transformation Guide.  If you've ever felt like you're losing yourself in relationships… like you're constantly saying yes when you mean no, staying silent to avoid conflict, or feeling invisible even with the people you love most… you're not alone. Today, I want to help you begin to understand what codependency really is. Not just the clinical definitions — but the deeper truth: that codependency isn't who you are. It's something you learned to do to stay safe. In this episode, I'm sharing: How codependency often begins in childhood and becomes a survival strategy The subtle ways we abandon ourselves to avoid rejection or loss How these patterns live in our nervous systems and shape our relationships A piece of my own journey with codependency Reflection questions to help you notice where you might be leaving yourself behind My hope is that by the end of this conversation, you'll feel a little less alone… and a little more hopeful that there is a path forward. This work isn't about fixing yourself. It's about remembering who you are beneath the patterns that once kept you safe. Thanks for being here. Let's begin this journey together. Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW  instagram page @soulalchemyhealing  The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching  

Welcome to Healing Our Relationships. I'm Marisa. I'm a Healer and Transformation Guide, and someone who's spent years untangling my own patterns of addictions and codependency — and helping others do the same. Join me each week on Healing Our Relationships as I guide you through understanding codependency, reconnecting with your authentic self, and creating relationships rooted in truth. Codependency often sounds clinical, as though it's only a problem for people in chaotic relationships or recovering from addiction. But it's subtler and far more pervasive than that. Codependency is what happens every time we abandon ourselves to avoid conflict, rejection, or loss. These are not failures. They're survival strategies. Brilliant adaptations we created to stay safe. But survival is not the same as living. And at some point, the strategies that kept us safe become the very cages that keep us disconnected from our truth. Healing Our Relationships is a space to explore all of this with compassion, curiosity, and courage. Together, we'll talk about how these patterns show up in real life. We'll learn how to come back to ourselves, even in the middle of messy relationships. And we'll discover practices for building connection that doesn't cost us our own wholeness. If you've ever felt like you're losing yourself in the name of love… you're not alone. And you don't have to keep living that way. Join me as we begin the journey — back home to ourselves. Want to Dive Deeper? Get The Workbook!  PRESALE IS OPEN! USE THE PROMO CODE: PODCAST  Read the Back Cover👇 A Compassionate Guide To Understanding The Patterns That Once Protected You  Whether you know the C-word, "Codependency,"and feel ready for this book, or the word itself makes you recoil from it like a hot flame, I promise this journey will surprise you, and hopefully inspire you to pass it on to a friend. Codependency is often misunderstood. It is not just people-pleasing or insecurity, it lives on a spectrum that almost everyone dances on. It shows up in the one who over-gives and the one who withdraws, in the perfectionist, the caretaker, the person who stays guarded, and the one who has spent years abandoning themselves to keep the peace. If you have ever related to others from a place of fear rather than authenticity, this book was written for you. Inspired by the author's beloved Healing Our Relationships podcast, this workbook draws from eighteen years of lived spiritual exploration. The workbook does not ask you to see yourself as broken, or to become someone better, but simply to remember and return to the authentic truth of who you already are. Through a lens of compassionate curiosity you will explore five core areas of codependent patterns, patterns many of us adapted to survive when our needs, feelings, and truth felt unsafe to express. Each area is explored through a five-step inquiry process that reveals the pattern, honors its origin, acknowledges the cost, and re-orients you towards new possibilities. Then, it brings it all into the practice of daily life. This is where the mind stops running old patterns on autopilot, the nervous system begins to heal, and you reclaim the power of choice. You are not here to judge yourself or label yourself as being codependent. You are here to honor what once protected you and to reclaim the parts of yourself that got lost along the way. If you have spent years abandoning yourself, shape-shifting for others, staying walled off or emotionally unavailable, or repeating painful relationship patterns, this is your invitation back to the most important relationship of all- the one you have with yourself. Head to https://www.healwithalchemy.com/presale use the Promo Code: PODCAST to pre-order the book at a special discount.  Follow our NEW  instagram page @soulalchemyhealing  The book and our new website will be live June First @  www.healingourrelationships.com  Work with me 1:1 or set up a free connection call @ https://www.healwithalchemy.com/coaching