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Hope, Help, Happiness
by Daniel G Layman
Welcome to the Hope, Help, Happiness Podcast. It documents my journey from the dark consequences of depression and the brink of taking my own life to... well I don't know yet. I am just starting that journey. I hope this podcast will help me keep track of my progress & perhaps give me accountability for my recovery. It might also help others similarly suffering. But if I let the dark thoughts win, then it'll help explain to my friends & family why. I've not shared my suffering with them because of the stigma I have about dealing with mental illness, so I publish this anonymously.
Episodes
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150. Three Strategies I Employ To Hide How I’m Feeling When I’m Feeling This Low
My recent run of days feeling very low continues. In this episode I share three of the things I try and do to hide it from the rest of the world.
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149 Feeling Like This Is All Consuming, Paralysing & Somewhat Worrying
In today's episode I share my concerns about how being engulfed by my low mood paralyses me. I don't seem to be able to shake it which is worrying. The show notes for this episode can be found at https://hopehelphappiness.com/
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148 I Think The Way Out Starts With Awareness
I've had quite a bad week. I've hit consistent lows to an extent that I've not experienced for many months now. The reason for this has its roots in my limited emotional skills coupled with my underlying challenges that appear to stay firmly buried inside my head. In today's episode I reflect on...
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147 Sunday Summary 21 - It's Been A Bad Week All Round And I'm Starting To Think "What's The Point?"
In my weekly summary of the happenings of this podcast I share my insights and lessons learned. These include: I still have underlying challenges that remain unresolved that help trigger a downward spiral in my mood. Anxiety about the challenges I face has started to rear its ugly head and have…
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146 I'm Feeling Quite Sheepish After A Couple Of Really Bad Days
In today's episode I share how I am feeling after a few really bad days. The show notes for this episode can be found at https://hopehelphappiness.com/
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145 Sometimes There Are Days That You Just Don't Feel Like Sharing - Today Is One Of Those Days...
This title of this episode is pretty much the transcription of what is said in today's podcast. There are those days when everything just seems to get on top of you and it gets you down to the point where you just don't feel you can share anything. Today is one of those days! The show notes for...
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144 I Have To Take Control Of My Recovery But How Am I Going To Make The Changes Necessary To Improve My Mental Well Being?
My recent "relapse" has reminded me that there is still a lot of work to do to improve my mental well being. I have started CBT with the NHS but my next appointment isn't for another 4 weeks. However I have come to the conclusion (again) that I have to take control of my recovery. As a result of...
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143 It Might Sound Odd Me Saying This, But I'm A Perfect Example Of What I'm Talking About
Yesterday I hit a low mood. Well today it continued. In this episode I explain how that manifested and then how it panned out for the rest of the evening. Its impact carried over into today and then even got worse. I share my worries about this in the context of the treatment I am going to get…
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142 The Creeping Sense Of Overwhelm With An Added Hint Of Anxiety - I'm A Text Book Example Of A CBT Case Study
In this episode I share my thoughts on feeling overwhelmed and a little anxious about everything I need to do. When you breakdown what I am experiencing, I am text book case study for CBT The show notes for this episode can be found at https://hopehelphappiness.com/
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141 Sunday Summary 20 - Letting Go Of Old Stories, A Look To The Future, A Reminder Of Living In The Moment And My First CBT Session
In my weekly reflection and review of what has happened in the past 7 days I share my insights and lessons learned. These include: Becoming more aware of how my story of the past is still influencing me. That I need to let go of my old story. Getting a little clearer on what attributes and skills…
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140 Why Do I Struggle With Emotional Stuff And Why Do I Hang On To Negative Feelings Long After The Event?
Today I am feeling low, but for some reason I want to hang on to those feelings. In this episode I share how I am feeling. The show notes for this episode can be found at https://hopehelphappiness.com/
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139 My First Session Of Cognitive Behavioural Therapy
Last week the NHS got in touch and told me I had come to the top of the waiting list. My first session with the NHS therapist was last week but that was more of an assessment/introduction session than a therapy session. So today I had my first actual therapy session. In this episode I briefly...
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138 I'm Still Concerned The NHS Will Not Follow Through And Help Me Deal With My Challenges
Tomorrow I have my first "proper" appointment with my NHS therapist. After receiving the follow up letter to last week's initial appointment I had concerns after it raised a number of alarm bells. In anticipation of tomorrow's episode I share my continuing concern that the NHS will not support me...
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137 Sometimes You Have Just Got To Enjoy The Journey
In today's short episode, I reflect on my intentions to live in the present today on what is a beautiful day where I live. I share my thoughts on being mindful on a day like today and how that can benefit the quality of my life. I also challenge you to do a very simple mindfulness exercise you…
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136 Looking To The Future - My Shopping List of Skills And Attributes For Self Esteem
In yesterday's episode I mulled over the need to let go of my old story and start living my life today. In effect I need to develop a new story. The trouble is, I don't know what that story is. So having thought about it overnight, I put together a list of attributes and skills that I think I'll...
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135 More On Letting Go Of My Old Story
I keep getting the same message from a variety of different sources and experiences. I am a bit slow picking up on these hints thrown at me by the universe but now I am starting to listen. One of those repeated messages is the need to let go of my own story of the past. In this episode I share…
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134 Sunday Summary 19 - The End Of Counselling, NHS Treatment Kicks In And Learning How To ACT
In my weekly summary of what has been happening on the podcast this week I share the key insights and lessons I have gleaned from the last 7 days. These include: A new online counselling resource recommended by Tom Bilyeu at Impact Theory. How just talking about how I am feeling (with my...
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133 Four Points Of Contact With The NHS In 2 Weeks - I'm On A Roll, But Will It Last?
Having had my first appointment with an NHS therapist this week, I received a letter seeking to confirm what we had discussed. This is the fourth contact I have had with the NHS in a matter of weeks. In this episode I dissect today's letter and share my thoughts on what it contains.…
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132 My Introduction To ACT - Acceptance & Commitment Therapy
In today's episode I share my initial thoughts about the book Get Out Of Your Mind & Into Your Life. It was recommended to me by my NHS therapist at my first appointment yesterday. Already just the introduction is making me curious about ACT. The show notes for this episode can be found at...
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131 At Last The NHS Therapy Arrives After 6 Months - But Will It Be Worth It?
In yesterday's episode I announced the end of my counselling and the long anticipated arrival of my NHS Treatment. In today's episode I share the background to my wait, how my first session went this morning and how I feel about the future. The Show Notes for this episode can be found at...
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130 An Expensive Cup Of Coffee But Without The Coffee - My Last Day Of Counselling
Today was my last day of counselling. In this episode I share the impact the sessions have had and I explain why I am stopping them. The show notes for this episode can be found at https://hopehelphappiness.com/
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129 Intercepting A Drop In Mood - The Anatomy Of A Near Miss
Yesterday I found myself on the verge of dipping into another low. In this episode I share why I think that was and how I started to deal with it. Fortunately the decline was intercepted and I managed to avoid sinking down. I explain how. The show notes for this episode can be found at...
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128 An Online Counselling Provider That Seems Affordable And You Can Remain Anonymous
In today’s episode I share a resource for online counselling.
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127 Sunday Summary 18 - Why Sharing Is Caring, Some Helpful Psychology And More Frustration With The NHS
In my regular weekly summary of the things that have been happening in the last 7 days on the podcast I share the lessons and insights worthy of note. These include: The value of being able to talk to someone, even if it is just to vent how you are feeling. Why "Are You OK?" is definitely the…
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126 Other Things That Need Fixing After Struggling With Depression
Compared to where I was just 6 months ago, I am in a good state right now. I seem to have arrested the low mood and suicidal thoughts (without the use of antidepressants or any active therapy). With the work I have done on myself that I've documented over the course of this podcast so far, I even...
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125 Another Letter From The NHS - No My Mistake! It's Exactly The Same As The Last One
Today I received another letter from the NHS giving me an update on my impending treatment. Well, when I say another letter, I mean it is exactly the same as the one I received last month, just with a different date on it. In this episode I share my thoughts on feeling like a number in an...
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124 What Happens If You Want To Wallow In The Feelings Of Depression?
In the last couple of episodes, I have shared a couple of ways that we can break ourselves out of a low mood. But what happens if we hang on to that mood, even though we know there are things we could at least try to help shift it. In this episode I share my thoughts and experiences of that…
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123 How To Turn Off Your Emotional Brain When You Are Highly Emotional (Depressed?)
In yesterday's episode I shared that asking "How are you feeling?" is a much better question to ask than "Are you ok?". I mentioned that talking about the emotion you are experiencing and describing what it is was actually healthy for you. In this episode I share the brain research I discovered...
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122 Why "Are You OK?" Is The WRONG Question To Ask Someone You Think Might Be Feeling Down (Or Depressed)
Today I watched a moving video on the BBC website about a lady who successfully petitioned the local council to make changes to a bridge that had been the scene of a number of suicides. Towards the end of the video she talked about understanding how people who consider taking their own lives…
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121 Why Sharing (About Your Struggles) Is Caring (For Yourself)
It's been a week now since I shared my struggles with my new girlfriend. Doing that was a groundbreaking milestone in facing my challenges. Since then I have had a few other conversations with her and in this episode I share my thoughts and feelings about what has happened since sharing. I still...
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120 Sunday Summary 17 - A Landmark Week For Me With A Mixture Of Disclosure, Emotional Regulation And The World Health Organisation
In my weekly summary of the events of this week on the podcast I share the lessons learnt from each of the episodes. Perhaps the biggest lesson has been that it was ok to share my struggles with someone I've become very close to very quickly.
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119 Angelo's Story - A World Health Organisation Video About Recovery From Depression
Yesterday I stumbled across some depression resources on the World Health Organisation's Website. Amongst them were a series of videos that covered a number of depression related topics. One of them stood out for me. It was about a guy called Angelo's experience of suffering and then recovering...
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118 Another Great Source Of Information About Depression - The World Health Organisation
Whilst researching more about those affected by depression, I stumbled upon the World Health Organisation website. It has resources about depression that look extremely useful. I share my first impressions and tell you where you can find them for yourself. The show notes for this episode can be...
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117 I'm Confused And I Don't Know What To Do Next
My challenge at the moment is that I feel ok. That might sound like a good thing however to think so would be to be lulled into a false sense of security. I have covered a lot of ground over the last (nearly) 4 months since I started the podcast. I have tried many things, some of which have…
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116 Control And Consideration Trumps Confrontation And Challenge
At the weekend I learnt from Dr Andy Cope that we feel our thinking. It is an interesting idea gleaned from the UK's only Doctor of Happiness at a festival of happiness held a few days ago. On the way to the festival, I had an experience where I fully experienced what it was like to feel my...
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115 The Aftermath Of My Admission
Yesterday I finally shared my struggles with depression and the close brush I had with the desire to take my own life with someone I have become extremely close to extremely quickly. I'd like to say it was because I did the right thing and took the plunge of my own accord. However it was because...
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114 The Cat Is Out Of The Bag - It Takes Courage To Confess But The Vulnerability Is Worth It
After putting it off a number times in the last couple of weeks, I finally took the plunge and shared the challenges I have faced with someone I have grown extremely close to over the last couple of weeks. In this episode I share the reasons behind my reluctance, tell the story of how my...
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113 Sunday Summary 16 - Ways To Increase Serotonin In The Brain, More Stigma Reluctance And A Bit About Happiness
In this weekly summary of the activity on the podcast over the last 7 days I share the highs, the lows and the lessons learnt. These include: The ongoing control the stigma of mental illness has over me. 4 different ways to increase the levels of serotonin in the brain (and do the job of...
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112 I've Been To A Conference On Happiness - Here Are A Few Ideas I Picked Up
Today I have been attending a conference on happiness. There were some great speakers and in this episode I share the thoughts I had gathered "live" during the day. The show notes for this episode can be found at https://hopehelphappiness.com/
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111 Have I Been Skirting Round The Real Issue?
Recently I have spent a lot of time looking at what goes on in the brain when someone is depressed. I have spent time researching the role of antidepressants and have sought out alternative natural ways of achieving the same result. However, I have come to realise that this activity has…
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110 Agghh! I Could Have Told Someone Close To Me About My Challenges, But I Bottled It!
After days mulling over whether I should share my challenges with someone who has become close to me, I finally summoned up the courage to invite them over so I could tell them. But.... I bottled it and didn't. In this episode I share what happened and my feelings about it. The Show Notes for…
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109 Increasing Serotonin In The Brain By What You Eat - My Journey Through A Bunch Of ClickBait Articles And Scientific Research
Today I have explored how to increase serotonin levels in the brain by what I eat. My research unearthed a mixed bag of heavy duty scientific research and click bait articles. I managed to piece together a basic understanding which I share with you in this episode. The show notes for this episode...
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108 Four Alternative Ways To Increase Serotonin In The Brain Without Drugs
After exploring the power of cold showers on treating depression and looking at St John's Wort, I felt it was time to explore other ways of increasing the right neurotransmitters in the brain naturally. I found a gem of an article that explained some of the research behind non-pharmacological…
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107 The Conflict Of Connection
In a previous episode I contemplated the challenges of dealing with depression and getting involved in an intimate relationship. The episode talked about the possibilities of meeting someone and the dilemma I might face about whether I get involved (out of a sense of responsibility) or if I did,...
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106 Sunday Summary 15 - 100th Episode, A Doctor's View Of Cold Water Immersion For Depression And Finally More Information About St John's Wort
In my weekly review of what has been happening on the podcast in the last 7 years, I share the lessons and insights I've gleaned. These include: How it feels after publishing 100 episodes of the Hope, Help, Happiness Podcast. Why a medically trained and experienced doctor recommended using cold...
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105 Using St John's Wort To Help With Depression - Fact Or Fallacy?
In my research to understand what antidepressants did in the brain so I could identify natural alternatives, I kept coming across references in St John's Wort. In this episode I share the results of my research into St John's Wort. I look at what it is, the research about its' effectiveness and…
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104 A Couple Of David Goggins' Quotes That Really Resonated With ME
Yesterday I sat watching an interview with David Goggins done by Tom Bilyeu from Impact Theory. There were two quotes that jumped out at me from the screen, screamed around my kitchen and then slapped me in the face and said "Wake Up Numb Nuts!!!" In this episode I share what those quotes are and...
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103 How To Get Started With Cold Showers As An Antidepressant
Over the last couple of episodes I have reported on the research I have done on the benefits of cold water immersion. The evidence is compelling and it seems cold showers stimulate the generation of same neurotransmitters in the brain that antidepressants do. In this episode I share with you the...
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102 More About The Benefits of Cold Water Immersion For Relieving The Symptoms Of Depression
After being inspired by the videos I found yesterday on the benefits of Cold Water Immersion I thought I would dig a little deeper to see if I could find out more of the science behind what is going on. In this episode I share my interpretation of the research I unearthed. The show notes for this...
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101 The Doctor Who Gave Up Drugs And Tried Cold Water Immersion To Treat Depression
During a recent chance conversation with a friend I heard about twin doctors who have been exploring non-drug alternatives to treating depression. I did a google search on them and discovered 3 short video clips from a BBC series called "The Doctor Who Gave Up Drugs". In this episode I share what…
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ABOUT THIS SHOW
Welcome to the Hope, Help, Happiness Podcast. It documents my journey from the dark consequences of depression and the brink of taking my own life to... well I don't know yet. I am just starting that journey. I hope this podcast will help me keep track of my progress & perhaps give me accountability for my recovery. It might also help others similarly suffering. But if I let the dark thoughts win, then it'll help explain to my friends & family why. I've not shared my suffering with them because of the stigma I have about dealing with mental illness, so I publish this anonymously.
HOSTED BY
Daniel G Layman
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