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In the healing of trauma you are given so much information about divinity

The totality of you returned from trauma

In healing you are being put back together like a shattered cup - you’re being made whole

Because in trauma you are severed from love & divinity - the healing is home - love & reconnection

Your trauma is not your truth - but to get to your truth you must face it

You don’t get to run the world when you heal but you do get to be whole -at peace with u

There is always another version of you .. always

Expect the unexpected in healing trauma - surprise is not an option - it will happen

So many chances to heal & live again with love -

No matter your trauma, you can heal / just ask for help - it will come & not in the way you imagined

There’s always something bigger going on - it’s not just the trauma

You will heal - whatever happened - whenever it happened - it’s all possible

Locate your child - whatever happened to them - they’re blacked out shut down - go wake them up

There are layers to be torn down to get to the prison where you’ve been held hostage

You the predator & the trauma cook together - all of it needs to be expelled

Yess.. it’s a departure .. you will have to leave or metaphorically “die” - all of your trauma clean

You are the gift but like the lotus flower you might need to nourish in the dark

Trauma is contradiction - deceit - you’ve left home - you have to get home

You’re energy & trauma is “blocked” energy - it’s a boulder in your tea cup - it needs extraction -

You got nothing on the technology of the plant medecine - it is the trauma revolution

It’s a practical process in healing - it may feel unknown but it’s happening ..

You’re the perfection disfigured by trauma - & then you’re perfect again

The trauma is bad but it’s the refusal of your life force your divinity that’s the damage

Yachts armor & dark energy .. it’s all part of the healing of trauma.. waking up

There’s a choice - a real choice when u face trauma - it’s YOU that finally matters

Darkness can’t exist in the light - that’s where the medecine comes in

39 trillion microbacterial bugaloolas all over you - you can’t see like - like the shadow

You’re here .. stuck, unstuck .. big .. small - it’s your journey .. live it

Pretty straight up procedure in trauma to be unwrangled

Power- yes .. it’s part of the big theme of fear - your traumatized .. your powerless

Fear - an interesting dilemma - an energetic cauldron & a force to be battled

You can’t be “half” of anything - like pregnancy - like an avalanche - everything must be seen

You’re nature - every single piece of you is nature .. but you’re severed from your spirit

If there’s trauma you’re blinded by terror - that’s the source - shutdown

And then the moment comes when the first terrifying wound is faced - the universe is healing

Yes we’re nature - all the information you need lives there - that’s where I can heal

Yes.. your energy .. every last cell is carrying every part of you including le trauma

It’s subtle entangled sophisticated & sick - but traumas are real life stories

The most powerful initial weapon in healing is meditation

Here it is - the code .. where are u?

So many lessons in the dark.. so much repair - seriously it’s like an emergency ward

Expose & expel - that’s how trauma heals - are you ready?

Your trauma has a character - an understanding - it needs to be understood to be healed

No point pulling out your guitar to twang your way back to healing - the path is fierce

Energetic imprinting us real & needs to be cleansed

& then the universe shows up & dissolves you & then huh??

You have to risk all of you to get all of you back

The journey home is the reconnect with your little munchkin

How do you know your healing? Your beginning to feel the truth .. messy difficult but true

Evil is ether - it weaves into you & you can’t see it - until you can

How can someone replace your childhood - the medecine can

Decode your whole system ..& heal

You’re not a social security number - you’re a breathing living piece of nature & divinity

You’re going there to heal.. it’s not a competition

When the student is ready the jigsaw puzzle is put back in place

Can you hear them calling? It’s you .. your higher self .. listen .. go

If you’re in camouflage ..try the Gap.. & expose your wounds only then can healing take place

You may not hear the pounding on the door when the universe comes knocking it might take a tragedy

And of course it won’t be easy .. & you’ll know but hung until the trauma is faced

The journey home is the journey back to your soul & no it’s not easy ..

You’re here but not .. if you’re held captive by trauma you need to heal

Trauma is the absence of love - the way home is to love

Because your nature & that nature heals everything

Because you need to be cleansed if there’s trauma

So much to learn .. always ongoing with the aya

Time to go home

There is never “an end” just a transition after you heal trauma

Your trauma is the refusal of you.. your healing is the ignition of what you have refused ..

Face the trauma face the dark & be released

As you’re dissolved you’re made whole..

There’s a truth of you that’s bigger than your trauma

You will see earth after you’re in space

It’s a circle.. to be made whole you must die ( metaphorically) & eliminate the trauma

When the final showdown happens with your trauma all of you is returned

You can heal .. but you have to return to the scene of the crime

You will return to the scene of the crime and you will be healed

When you blacked out - you froze - & the darkness stampeded - now you found the breaker switch

There’s even more - the deeper you go

Different ways to take the first step into your trauma

The medecine is a practical experience - you need to become whole

Whose afraid of the big bad wolf? You are if there’s trauma, but the wolf is weak& you’ll find out

You will reach farewell - where your soul is being returned ..

You need to take the elevator to your basement - that’s where your storing your trauma

If the baton they pass on is diseased - throw it out - don’t try to fix it

Trauma is a battle with the dark - you will need a fabulous knights armor

A perfect platter

And then the fierce warrior of love shows up!!

The gift of life is love - that’s your pass into the candy store

In you go.. crash burn rebuild

The deeper you go into your trauma the more your mission is defined

Sub personalities hold your shit .. go get your shit

Agreements in the dark

Game over.. that’s where the destination is ..

Finding Waldo .. that you in trauma .. where are you?

Every connection must be dissolved .. sometimes you can’t see the most important connection

All sorts of everything in a spin dry cycle that you have to stop

Wait.. you’re human? What does that mean.. ? You won’t have a clue until you dissolve ..

It’s straightforward .. if you follow the path

Humpty Dumpty does get put back together ..

Healing with ayahuasca is a practical act

Energy holds information - frozen terror/energy hold your trauma - dissolve it

You got cooked .. so now you can uncook.. you can go all the way back..

Terror is a gravitational force - you are shackled to the predator like a magnet

Of course you can heal ., the universe is waiting in the wings to catch you ..

There is a home .. a true home .. a you that is a perfect Yes..

If you hate yourself don’t .. you didn’t learn to refuse yourself .. it was part of the trauma

Take the belt out of the washing machine ..

You.. the injury & the coverup - it’s the equation of trauma

Don’t get limited by other people’s limitations ...trauma gets healed in bigger places

You’re not the trauma ..but how will you know if you can’t see it

You can’t see a mental wound ..but now you can ..

Life .. it’s a little ask.. you just need to cut down a forest ..

If your stork got ambushed and you landed in the wrong place .. Call Aya

Yes dark energy exists .. but it’s sneakier than you think

Yikes .. you mean I get to be connected to divinity? Like on my own.. like yesss

Trauma happens as a sequence - to tear it down you need to follow the sequence back

Just go in...let yourself be spin dryed & washed out - it’s nature . Go with it

You build around a crooked trestle .. it’s energetic ..your whole body is graffitied with the abuse

So much help waiting to for you if you’re willing to “go there” ie not here

The motivation to heal is the love for you - the love hidden under the 7 circles of hell

It will get weird & you will say WTF but in the end it’s a beautiful love story home

What was there before the Big Bang? There was a you before the trauma...

No ones coming .. u think as a child that the predator will save u but they won’t

You’re going into energetic territory .. you need guides

When you move everything had to go.. every last nail.. healing is an all or nothing game

You’re energy .. bottom line ..storage rooms of energy is where you keep trauma .. get back & heal

You can be healed but you need to return to the frequency in which you were injured

Trauma happens in a different frequency if you’re a child - you need the key

The Aya will love you back into existence .. so all your poison will be removed

Your power .., your life .. your kingdom.. it does not belong to trauma!

What woowoo?? Just do it & plunge ..

You get replanted .. whatever was scorched damaged suffocated returns .. you’re him/her again

The closet .. the shadow.. the shit show .. no one wants to go in .. but that’s where the gold is..

Of course you’re ready .. you were born ready to THRIVE - blow up the blockade

You’re the everything .. you just need to lift the hood of the car

To freeze or to dissolve ... that’s the question ..

There is only ONE of you..all of it must work as one moving energetic field .. not broken into shard

The tienemen square moment - you & your trauma face off

Transformation is not that noticeable .. only sped up can you see it’s power

2x {xyz)#+y7...huh? you are the end result of an equation. .. if that’s trauma . Uncode

It’s ohhh sooo much bigger .. you are divinity itself ..

How do we work? A mystery

You’re the fish in the net .. removed from the soup.. the soup is home ..

When everything feels wrong you know there’s a right somewhere

A room with a view - not a view to the back of a building

Such a conundrum.. & a cleansing .. it’s a maze ..& a journey for 100% connect

There’s an “original” you - a blueprint that got stolen - go find it

That original feeling that you’ve stored away .. that beautiful divinity of you ..that’s the mussion

You’re an energetic structure .. welcome to you.. built in hell .. designed by hell

The gift is just “the party” - you get to go to the ball of life.. you get the call back home

In trauma your like a torpedoed ship - fragments floating at the mercy of the wind .. whole is home

In trauma there’s fragmentation - look at the end of the equation - you’re not that

Yep.. there’s a you you’ve never known .. & you will meet them once the invaders leave

Did someone shout “fire”? Then run .. but come back & rebuild - traumas a diva

Why the shadow ? Because no-one was there to love you when it happened

You will find out everything & more .. if you discover your trauma ..you are the universe

You built all of your armor - yes .. you’re the master craftsman of your survival

And when you see the truth you will be free

There will be a new you.... once you’ve wrangled the demons

You will survive.. of course you will..the universe is pushing you to grow

There can be not one dust of darkness left for total freedom - healing is the lighting up of dark

Of course the universe loves you .. but how would you know if you’re smothered in trauma

Trauma is an oil spill - you were the original magnificent clear ocean - you just gotta clean up

There’s a you before the trauma ..a you that has an original script

If you have trauma -accept the challenge to heal

You’ll get a face lift but you won’t release your endless suffering with a plant medecine huh??

There’s a method to the madness.. if you understand the method the removal works

& then you will finally slay the dragon ..& the trauma will be resolved

The destination is not the trauma - the trauma is just another stop on the way

It wasn’t a good day when the trauma hit.. find the vault

Wait.. there’s more? Trauma has TONS of lessons ..to heal you have to learn

You won’t know .. you will suffer & then you won’t because YOU WILL KNOW - do chill

No need to “read” anything .. listen closely to you.. healing happens in the heart .. no library the

Trauma creates layers... each layer needs to be carpet bombed ..

Lots of seeing ., lots of dissolving & unearthing - the shadow us a “trip” pack appropriately

Will you go THERE...if you want to heal trauma you NEED TO

Looking for safety is paramount in trauma

Trauma is a dungeon keeper in your past - it’s there you need to travel

You will keep crashing through walls until you face the trauma & then there’s another one ..

Don’t count on organizing the universe .. she doesn’t care about your “schedule”

Energy is like a great cake - it forms in layers - each layer needs to be dissolved

Never argue with the universe

If you’re a prisoner of trauma don’t accept your assignment -

Don’t argue with the universe because you will lose 100%

Trauma is like living inside a washing machine that’s been on it’s final cycle your whole life

Trauma is frozen energy - solid, packed .. it disrupts “the flow” - a landline in a garden of flower

You’re baked - your trauma is built into the cake - the medecine extricates you

Trauma = Terror = fear ... simple to cook difficult to uncook but can be done - don’t give in

If you open the door of the shadow you won’t know what awaits ..

Dark energies in the underworld of your trauma

Did you get into the candy shop? Or did the bouncer of fear refuse you entry?

If you drip poison into blotting paper daily it will rot

You’re built of active energy - everything is energy - trauma is an ACTIVE wound inside your field

Fear is the organizing principle of trauma - how to deactivate it

If you can look under a microscope to see what’s “really” happening you can do ayahuasca

You need to find your soul .. trauma evicts your soul ...

Of course you don’t know.. you’ve been marinated in shit .. trauma is the tell tale sign

So much to know .. & unknow in trauma

It’s all a huge mystery.. remember that .. and in that huge mystery you can be healed ..

The firewall of fear around the fetid lake of sewage - trauma is a clean up -

What if you can’t see the enemy? In trauma the enemy is ether..

The firewall of fear & the mastery of your presence

Wrong destination? Did the Uber drop you off at the wrong place ? Perhaps it’s time to GPS locstion

Humpty Dumpty can put itself back together

The Honda or the rolls Royce of healing ? An ape or the whole universe - yes .. you have a choice..

The trick of darkness is the strongest force you’ll face

Many layers many stories .. all gravitating around trauma

Ok.. you don’t win anything - there’s no prize .. just your freedom .. is that enough?

Time to go.. yikes .. but you said you wanted to heal!!

Yes you can...

Everything is it..

Yikes .. how much do you need to clean?? All of it..

Let the universe take it from here..

Next.. you will never know what’s next - Relax .. surrender..

You’re not a chimney sweep ...

To defend or not to defend.. that is the question..

You live on the other side of trauma

Never underestimate the dark.. it shows up in vulnerability .. & it’s there where you slay it

Don’t kid yourself.. evil roams in ether ..trauma exists void of love - the summit is a journey homd

It’s a total demolition & rebuild - if there’s a trauma it’s a total injury - everything needs work

You’re it.. no books words .. niente nada can replace you as an energetic force of nature

It happened it’s packed with energy & then it didn’t.. it never happened..

Defense mechanisms are a battalion of soldiers to ensure you survive .. but they’re also the crypt

Life isn’t “heavy” or “spiritual” it’s just life - there’s shit & no shit.. there are clouds & sun..

Sitting is the threshold into your odyssey

Trauma can be traced .. there’s a point at which it grew .. follow the tributary back

Go on .. get back into the party / trauma us a party pooper

The man & the king - the gurl & the queen - simple ... if you want to rise ranks face it ALL

It’s a domino effect.. an avalanche but first the odyssey

Simple & magical - apes need to stop believing other apes all the time ..

The scene of the crime & the holy grail - your sown back together

Humpty Dumpty gets put back together .. yep.. the fairytale was re-edited..

It’s a long way to Tipperary 🤪🤪

There is always help.. no.. I mean real hrlp

You can’t take some out & leave some in.. all of it needs to go

Addiction - are you chased by demons? Blacked out trauma - to stay or to leave ..

Because it’s not here.. not this .. this is the one dimension of many .. your trauma sits in anither

You’re part of a story ..your trauma is not you.. it happened “to you” - to leave you must see..

It’s all you & not you .. so what is it?

If you’ve been pushed to the edge of the cliff .. will you jump?

Does a universe get built in a day.. naaahhh

If you open the vault to your shadow the process of resurrection has a fixed plan

Yikes.. here you go.. down the rabbit hole .. hope you packed a lunch

If you’re emerging from the depths of trauma you are Poseidon surfacing ..

Let’s not get “spiritual” let’s get honest .. call a spade a spade

If there’s a crime .. there’s usually accomplices - healing requires that everyone gets caught

Commitment & victory

It’s a simple equation becoming whole - there’s no woo woo just seeing it from a distance

Who do you send on a dangerous mission - the elite - the navy seals - trauma requires nothing less..

You are radiant light they say.. but not if you’re splattered with trauma

At some point the whole dark skeleton will be dredged up.. & you will be released..

Healing in other dimensions.. huh?

All the men & women merely players.. act 1 scene 1 - where did u get dropped off..

The journey is subtle.. the trauma is intricate .. don’t be fooled by headlines ..

Once you’re in you don’t know you’re in..then a spark ignites the fire .. will you stay or go?

You make a ton of stops on the way back home from trauma ..

If you fall you feel the knock .. you’re human- you’re here .you can’t pretend yourself out of this

Are you aren’t you? Will you won’t you? So much self doubt .. where’s my lifeboat?

You want to go on a mystical “spiritual” journey with Kumbaya tracks to heal trauma .. think again

If you want to heal it feel it..

Your life.. your path .. your power

There is no “to be or not to be” there’s “to love or not to love” that’s all trauma needs LOVE

Your pilgrimage might be bigger than the trauma

Stopping the momentum of a transatlantic liner .. dealing with trauma

Trauma lodges within you .. a seismic energy it navigates everything .. your life force is on hood

You are energy .. you arrive to an energetic cauldron that’s been bubbling with its own motivations

Unearth & shed... dig & dispose ...the aya is the tractor for that manicured ego

Everything wants you to be it’s captive

The untrodden cellar of your soul

The subtle operation of detachment

If your traumatized you’re a host for evil

Going into ayahuasca

It’s a much bigger consciousness than we think

No time or space

It’s not what happened it’s what you refused to feel

The whole truth & nothing but the truth..

Dissolving robots

Trauma is an annexation .. like A kingdom annexing a country ..the generals will show up

Leering the medecine in..

Why? ..,

& then you will finally show up

Of course you don’t know & of course you’re scared .. you’re the one who was captured..

Of course you want to go home .. & yes there’s a path back..

You’re armor isn’t pretty always.. it’s a lumbering defensive in your face swat team that suffocates

The blueberry pie filling..

Homeward bound ..the disentangling of you..

It’s not what you think.. it will never be what you expect... that’s the shift

You’re “snatched” on arrival .. or not ..

There is nothing here that will give you what you want

Power.. how much are you owned .. how much do you own?

Ode to the eternal love of the universe

Get frustrated .. give up hope ... get whatever & then come back.. & keep going

The darkness is real... & so is driving through fog

Stay home.. stay at your center .. anchored .. sit in the shitshow & heal

Open.. open more ... open until you’re all gone..

Jet fueled amorreee from the source - that’s the hift

In trauma you’re hanging onto the cliff face.. there’s no cliff face only a broken lightswitch

It’s all you & it’s all good

A hostile takeover

The breaker switch & the trick

Trauma likes neat corners

Get rid of it all

Oh the places you’ll go..

Keep opening to the mystery

Time to show up

Onto the backroads to heal

The magic hospiral

Every imprint is in you

You’ll survive

Healing the continent of grief

If you’re traumatized you’ve built a defense mechanism not you..

What goes up must come down

What dimension?

Inter dimension travel

Keep sitting with the fear

Why do it... because no one wants to be a prisoner.. outside or inside...

You arrive to u..

What was my original face before my mother & father was born

Yes.. everything sits in your energetic field

Illegal squatters need to leave..

Find your self hatred

You contain all the info in EVERY cell of your body..

You are the crystalline Aegean the trauma an oil spill...

To see or not to see that’s the question..

Wash rinse repeat...

There’s no “rehearsing” to be you..

Badger your ego..

And then you must tear it all out..

Everything on the path will tell you you’re going the wrong way.. keep going

When the Odyssey into the forest is over.. the dragon slayed.. a new path..

Yessss... Humpty Dumpty can be put back together.. rewrite yourself with ayahuasca...

A few tips for entering the rabbit hope

Healing is a “long game” - get frustrated but keep going..

Act one scene one... it was going on well before you arrived...

How much of you lives in the light?

Yep... embrace the unknown like it’s a new local restaurant.. visit .. try .. let it sink in ..heal

To move forward we must shed.... egos like stability .. like the stock market ..

You will not know anything .. & dissolving encounter realms that will guide you home ..

The path is never clear ... until you start looking back...

Because you’re not enough.. because you’re always negotiating you.. because you’re “wrong?” Huh???

To be vulnerable sweet loved safe .. the holy grail of healing .. the mothership ..

If you want out ..dissolve the darkness with love

Inner healing is a “expose & expel” strategy - no half measures - All or nothing

Fearless presence in hell is the gift

Darkness demons .. welcome to the underworld

Ayahuasca is not a one time affair.. it’s like a nuclear explosion that will transform everything

The energetic trap has to be seen fully for it to lose it’s fuel..

It’s a crowded stage .. you don’t arrive to act 1 - there’s no space for you in trauma

In the end neither of it really matters - the armor or the shadow ..as the zen say “there’s nowhere

Ice fishing through a thousand years of ice - penetrating the crust ..

The truth is not who you are ... she has to go ... therein the great journey

The trauma will put you on a leash..

You have to make the choice - your child or the dragon .. love or fear ...

Whatever your code .. your dragon..🌼🌼it will threaten you if you want to leave

The path will disappear

Returning home

Wakanisha - sacred children

We all arrive as a package of powerlessness .. what happens after

Scooby doo ayahuasca .. is this energetic body for real... so many demons in the underworld..

When it turns out your parent is THE PREDATOR...

Yes.. you’re IT.. all of IT... problem is someone blocked off your EVERYTHING

Switch up your divinity.. & commit to YOU with ayahuasca

Clean out your demons & pull the breaker switch back ON

Go .. bring yourself home.. GOOO .. you ARE THE WARRIOR!

The ayahuasca will give you the greatest gifts.. not always the ones you want

And then the ayahuasca knocked on my door ..

Piercing the first veil - The shitshow & meditation

Hunting down your BLACKBOX (Trailer)