The Ramblings of an Insomniac

Send us Fan MailWhat’s keeping me up? Gratitude. Being happy, at peace. Loving and living life. People shouldn’t feel bad or guilty for being happy. For enjoying things they’ve earned. You can have empathy and sympathy for others, while still being grateful. I feel awful for people and animals suffering. I feel terrible that people have difficult lives. I, too have struggled and have had a difficult life. It’s all the more reason I want to relish the non toxic, peaceful times. No one should feel ashamed of being successful, wealthy, good looking, happy or healthy. Be ashamed for being an ass, narcissistic, lazy, mean, racist.  Don’t allow  other people to bring you down. Tonight I have a glass of wine, sit outside and enjoy the night time noises. Enjoy the fresh air and the silhouette of the mountains. I am soaking up the one life I have… Support the show

Send us Fan MailThis episode is as about imperfect as it gets. I somehow, pause the episode and don’t realize I’ve done so until quite a bit later? After it’s too late. Because of this error, I start discussing one topic and end up on an entirely new one? One minute I’m discussing hobbies. The next, I’m rambling on about imperfection. Which is pretty ironic? Sorry about that. Did it stop me from publishing this episode? No. Because imperfection is my jam. Maybe it’s unprofessional? Anyway, this episode covers down time. Finding your sanctuary. Finding your peace and hobbies. I discuss being comfortable with who you are. Loving yourself. I soeak about the importance of grounding myself. I talk about feeling happy and positive. The fact I have had a great week and made some amazing connections! I talk about networking. Meeting people that can connect you to groups you love. And I talk about what an amazing feeling it is to have MUTAL respect from horse and human.  The fact you have such a healthier relationship with animals and humans if there’s a MUTAL respect and trust. It’s a better and healthier partnership, in my opinion. Support the show

Send us Fan MailIn this episode I discuss being fabulous. Finding your inner fabulous and loving yourself. Taking the time to live life. Love being alive. Going out and enjoying yourself. I also talk about having a hobby. Doing something for you and you only. Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s been keeping me up? NOTHING! I finally got some, much needed sleep. I feel I could get used to this and sleep another eight hours. In this episode I discuss Hollyweird. The strange cult it seems to be? The bizarre behaviors. The narcissism. It’s interesting to me when people worship celebrities? I also discuss my thoughts on Anderson Cooper, among others, that have the potential to be aliens? I talk about Ross and Rachel’s toxic relationship. I talk about giving grace, humility, pride and asking for help. Support the show

Send us Fan MailIn this episode I discuss being in someone else’s shoes. It’s easy to pass judgement on to others, if we haven’t  walked a mile in their shoes. I discuss Fauci and WNBA. I talk about my thoughts on men in the WNBA and what I think should happen to Fauci. I also discuss my thoughts on serial murderers and those that allowed gender affirming surgeries. I go in to quite the rant with regards to my thoughts on mutilating children. The consequences, I feel should happen to ALL involved in allowing those surgeries. The idea I have for people that encouraged the mutilation of children. As per the usual, I do not mix my words and you may offend people?  Support the show

Send us Fan MailAlright, I’m not going to lie. This episode gets off to slow start. I get far too side tracked by crickets and coyotes. I get back on track and discuss the reasons for my 1:00 am episode. Which include: stress, PTSD, anxiety, anger and sadness. I am feeling all of the emotions, hard. I talk about my mom and the relationship I have with my son. Which isn’t good.  I cry a bit. Then pull it together.  I discuss perspective. The fact there are people complaining about algae when homes are burning! The fact our own government will literally watch us burn, for their own gain. They’d rather create a pandemic, shut down businesses, force injections, keep us away from loved ones and burn cities,  than have our best interest.  I talk about those that feel the need to search for things to whine and complain about.   I’m absolutely sick of it and I do not mix my words! I will offend people. I say some things you may find out of line? Too descriptive? I said I would be genuine. Well, I am. This is your disclosure….Support the show

Send us Fan MailExcuses, excuses…. People just love to make excuses. I am sick of hearing them. Accountability. I’ve discussed my thoughts on accountability many times. But in this episode, I mix it up a bit. I also discuss the WNBA. I talk about people backing up their talk. I love what  Enas Kanter has proposed! I love that the WNBA and certain groups of people will understand the consequences of what they’ve encouraged and supported. Support the show

Send us Fan MailIn this episode I discuss self care. Taking the time to care for yourself. I talk about hobbies. I feel it’s important to have a hobby. I talk about couples that spend every, waking moment together. That can’t seem to do things separately? I find it unhealthy. I discuss enabling. Finding the balance between supporting and enabling. As a parent, it can be hard to find that balance. Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s keeping me up? Insomnia! I discuss insomnia, sleep patterns, night terrors, sleep walking and talking in your sleep. I talk about Jada Pinckett Smith in all of her annoying glory. The fact that we never know what’s going on behind closed doors? The family that looks perfect and happy from the outside, can be going through hell behind the scenes. I discuss context, intention and excuses. I talk about making snap judgments and saying, “I would NEVER.” Never say never. We don’t know what we would do when put in certain circumstances? And lastly, I talk about unsolicited advice. I tend to give it. I shouldn’t. I’m working on it…. Support the show

Send us Fan MailToday I keep politics out. Well, MOSTLY. I discuss support. Having people to vent to and support you. I talk about the fact that hate is going nowhere. Hate, racism and imperfection will always be around. No matter how hard we try, hate will exist. Stop seeking perfection. You will never find it. I discuss finding the good in others. There are far more amazing people on this earth, than bad. Give those people attention. I talk about asking for help. Don’t be afraid to reach out. I discuss being an adult and finding common ground. I discuss employment, coworkers, pecking order, excuses and entitled humans. Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s preventing me from sleeping soundly? Hypocrisy!  Hypocrisy seems to be running ramped these days? Just spreading like wild fire. Sad and scary. There are things certain groups don’t want you to remember or speak about. Things people don’t want you to bring up. Why? Because it proves their blatant hypocrisy. It proves them wrong.  They can’t have this… Support the show

Send us Fan MailIn this episode I discuss STANDARDS. How many people have standards nowadays? It seems people have set them  pretty low? I feel both pride and standards have sunk far below what humans are capable of? What’s been keeping me up? People’s ridiculously low standards for some. But not others. Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s been preventing me from counting sheep? FAUCI! I refuse to refer to him as, “doctor.” He is the devil. In this episode I discuss my great disdain for Fauci and the massive karma, I hope he receives. I talk about the policies put in place by Kate Brown and the Biden administration. I discuss the fact I 100% blame those policies for the death of my mother and thousands of others. As per the usual, I do not sugar coat my episode. I say what I mean and mean what I say. Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s been keeping me up all night? People’s lack of self respect and dignity. I discuss my definition of PRIDE. It seems to be vastly different than others?  I am mortified by the things people are PROUD of these days? I feel there’s a real disconnect? Dignity is lost. Support the show

Send us Fan MailOk. It’s been a while since I got political. Haven’t wanted to go down the negative, political road. However, today is the day I do. This is the episode I get back in to politics. And I do it fully. I don’t mix my words. I discuss many things. Nazis, Jews, using words correctly. I also discuss liberals, racism, ignorance, and being retarted. Yes, retarted. That’s what I said. I jump right back in to offending people and countries. I discuss Iran, Palestine and Venezuela. And the morons that stand for terrorism. I will piss off a lot of you. Those that don’t get pissed, congratulations! You are an adult! Support the show

Send us Fan MailIn today’s episode I discuss taking a time out from politics. I don’t want to bury my head and never speak of politics again. But for now, I need a break. I want to focus on the good. The good going on in the world.  I also talk about changing my name. I have always wanted to change my name. I discuss the poor quality of this podcast, the power of positivity and the fact animals are the BEST! Last, I discuss my claim that most humans are pretty decent. What’s been keeping me up? My need for positivity. Support the show

Send us Fan MailIn this episode I discuss several things in a short amount of time. I talk about family, how the elderly are treated, dementia and having a hard time focusing. What’s keeping me up? ADHD….Support the show

Send us Fan MailIn this episode, I discuss family. Relationships we have with each of our family members. The bond between parents and their children. But what happens when the bond is broken? What happens when you aren’t sure if you even like each other anymore? What’s been keeping me up? Boundaries and feeling like a bad parent. Support the show

Send us Fan MailI have to be honest. I ramble a lot in this episode. I discuss being grateful, humble and giving grace. I talk about having an ulcer and worrying about worrying. I also discuss letting go. I keep it simple.Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s been keeping me up? People that call others a Karen because they care. Are you a busy body if you step in and prevent someone or an animal from being bullied? Or saying something to a person that’s causing a scene or being out of line? I discuss the difference, in my opinion, between a KAREN and a person that CARES. I also talk about Britney Spears, bullying, prank calls and betrayal. Support the show

Send us Fan MailI apologize for being MIA for so long. That was rude of me. And I did it so abruptly! I apologize. But I’m back! Here I am. Did Anyine miss me or even know I was gone? In this episode I discuss writing letters. I miss writing letters. I want to start writing my friends letters and doing it in cursive. Not only in cursive but using ink and a quill. Being graded on penmanship, despite the fact I was a leftie, forced to use my RIGHT hand.  Left handed lives matter! I discuss me writing letters to my sons and being a doing the same for my grandkids. I talk about being a grandma. This may not sound exciting but you never know until you check it out? Support the show

Send us Fan MailIn this episode I discuss being an eternal Debbie downer. While people are laughing and appreciating life, America, the rain… others are out to bring everyone else down. Misery loves company. Somehow rain is now racist? I talk about accountability and karma. I dive in to actions and oppression. I discuss day drinking and rules regarding drinking I feel are stupid? But mostly I discuss life! Living life and having fun. What’s keeping me up? LIFE! Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s been keeping me up? Watching people from all over the world, fall in love with America! I’ve been binge watching reaction videis of people singing praises about America. Saying theur media LIED about the United States. I love the unity going on. People from ALL BACKGROUNDS, coming TOGETHER to have fun and experience soccer. i don’t want it to end! Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s been keeping me up? People hating on America. Especially American citizens. I talk about the fact that there are things that work in certain countries, that will not work in America. America is too large to have things set up like Sweden, for example. I discuss how AMAZING America is, The fact that most people from other countries would kill to live in America. They’d jump at the chance to come to the United States and become a citizens. America has all types of topography. It’s huge. Each state is like a different country. I discuss stereotypes and assimilating. If you want to live in the United States, learn the language. I hate when immigrants live in America for YEARS and STILL do not speak English? If you’re visiting, ok. No problem. But if you truly want to be a citizen, learn the language? I talk about the fact people want to live in the United States more than any other country. In my opinion, at least? They want to come to America and become a citizen, more than any other country. Why? Because America is the best! If people had a one way ticket to America, France, England, South Africa, Mexico or America, what country do you think they’d choose? You know. You know what country it is? AMERICA! Support the show

Send us Fan MailDon’t worry, I don’t get political or fired up in this episode. Today, I am looking at things from a different perspective. Another point of view. What’s keeping me up? Stress, the inability to relax! I know all the things I should do. All the tips. I know what to do. It’s the implementing, that’s difficult. I also discuss the health risks to stress, anxiety and insomnia. I need to get my life under control. Learn to cope with my anxiety, stress, trauma, etc. Make better choices for me. Not for others. Sounds depressing. I swear, I’m not a downer! I talk about perspective. I always talk about loving photography because you get to look at things from all angles.  I love learning about people, nature, life from all points of view. Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s been keeping me up? HYPOCRISY! I am so tired of it I can’t sleep. To the people upset by the consequences Karmelo Anthony will be facing, I ask you, why? What are you upset by? Let’s close our eyes and imagine if this EXACT scenario happened but the person that died was BLACK? Given every, single statement, testimony and scenario being IDENTICAL would you be protesting, if a WHITE kid did the stabbing? NO! NOPE! You’d be CELEBRATING! I discuss the gross hypocrisy and audacity some people have. I talk about pride being a great thing to have. Being proud is a good thing. I also discuss what’s going on in the UK and France. Not going well at all. My heart goes out to those that wanted NO part in illegal immigration. But to those that welcomed Muslims and criminals into their countries, look what you’ve done? Support the show

Send us Fan MailIn this episode I discuss nature. I am in awe of wild animals and how amazing they are! How evolved they are? And how evolved humans are? I discuss living in a foreign country. I feel people should learn the language and assimilate to the country they CHOOSE to live?  It’s very frustrating when parents do not speak English after they’ve lived her for years. I talk about people’s lack of appreciation, happiness and respect for others. Those that  feel their beliefs are far more important than yours. What’s keeping me up? Evolution,  narcissism, entitlement, and people expecting perfection..Support the show

Send us Fan MailRemember the movie with Julia Roberts called, Sleeping With the Enemy? In this episode, I discuss that movie. I talk about women thst have gone through this in real life. I hope anyone that may be in an abusive relationship finds the strength to get out? I hope they have support? What’s been preventing me from sleeping soundly? Relationships… Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s been keeping me up? People that choose fixer uppers, yet get upset when they need fixing? Why do people choose partners they feel need work? This episode is to remind people to respect and love themselves or no one else will. Do not stay with a person because you feel you don’t deserve better. In this episode I discuss bad relationships. Ya gotta know when to hold’em and know when to kick’em to the curb! I also talk about prison reform and healthcare. They both need a lot of work! I know, strange combination of topics? But some how, this episode still flows nicely? Support the show

Send us Fan MailIn this episode I discuss people that lead double lives. Like something movies are made of.  The life that makes people go crazy. Lives where shows like Snapped are created. I have a friend that is going through this very thing, as we speak. I also discuss dental pain and intuition. Trust your gut. What’s been keeping me up? Pain. Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s been preventing me from counting sheep? Deceit. Lies. Manipulation. I feel like life is just a  house of cards? Support the show

Send us Fan MailToday I discuss compliance. When the government or groups of people want you to comply. If our governors try to force masks, vaccinations etc again, how are you going to handle it? Speaking for myself, I will deal with it the same way I dealt with COVID. I will not comply. I also take the time to remind people they STILL aren’t special. Too many people having the impression they’re super awesome. You aren’t. I assure you. I talk about consequences and accountability. Racism, prejudice and people that refuse to apologize. Why do people have such a difficult time, apologizing? Whatever happened to humility? Respect? Accountability? Why is it so hard to admit you aren’t perfect? I go on about rights, entitlement and people that feel they’re deserving of more than others. That feel they should be allowed special treatment. I am over groups of people that feel they should be null and void of accountability. Last, I talk about the reason I started my podcast. I have discussed this multiple times. But it is the soul reason I started this show. So, I’m bringing the topic up again. COVID and the insane, ridiculous policies that unalived innocent people. That made people die alone, scared and unnecessarily. What’s keeping me up? Guilt and sadness over my mom’s death. Being angry over policies put in place during COVID. And people having zero accountability. Those that feel they’re exempt of rules? Feeling they’re extra special…. Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s keeping me up? Perspective. Point of view.  I try to look at things from all angles. It’s the photographer in me. I wish people would stop and take a moment to hear another person’s point of view? To understand it’s our differences that make this country so amazing. There are many ways to solve a problem. It’s fascinating how people choose to do so. I also discuss how being different is great. However, we need to understand, being different doesn’t mean we’re special or more important. That being a certain religion or race doesn’t make us more deserving. I talk about Spencer Pratt running for mayor of Los Angeles. I am in full support of that. Anyone that’s still undecided or wants more of the same crap, deserves what they get. You made your beds. Better lay comfortably in them…. Support the show

Send us Fan MailToday I talk about people taking things personally. Making anything and everything about themselves. I tI also discuss giving grace, forgiveness and being an adult. Sometimes we forget we are grown adults and should conduct ourselves accordingly. And that forgiveness does not mean condoning. I talk about people feeding and capturing wild animals. Feeding wildlife makes them dependent. Makes them weaker. You aren’t helping them.  Just like always catering to your children.  Doing everything for your kids doesn’t help them grow. I discuss the primal need for humans to conquer and take over.What’s been keeping me up? A lot! Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s been preventing me from counting sheep? A puppy! To be more specific, a  six month old, Bernadoodle. Puppies are like having a newborn, without the contained poop. But I wouldn’t have it any other way! I am dog sitting for a customer and loving every moment! I discuss puppies and living life. Hugging your family and friends. I also talk about trying new things. Saying things like, “I would NEVER try….” Is no fun. Getting out of your comfort zone can be good for your physical and mental health. I love being wrong about my negative expectations. I talk about reaction videos  and the fact I feel we all have a little redneck in us. Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s been keeping me up? People with Portos. people that find themselves far funnier than they actually are. Thise that feel they have a sense of humor but ratings show otherwise. I talk about having class, maturity and respect. I discuss being an adult and having morals. Something LIBERALS are lacking. I also talk about the fact that America is ,hands-down, the best country of all time! OK so I’m biased. But I love this country.  I strongly feel the haters are gonna hate. But when push comes to shove, everybody wants to visit America or live in America…Support the show

Send us Fan MailIn this episode, I discuss people that would not have a job, if it weren’t for Donald Trump. People whose ENTIRE LIVES and CAREERS, revolve around our current President. Today I give my thoughts on Jimmy Kimmel’s lack of morals, education and ratings. I talk about people thinking a “joke” is no big deal. Jimmy not only stood by his words but went on to say Trump started this. No apologies. What’s keeping me up? Preventing me from sleeping ?  Terrible humans who obsess over death, violence, division, ignorance and Donald Trump. The double standards, hypocrisy and down right STUPIDITY of certain groups of people. I get vulgar. I get angry. I do not censor how I feel. Again, if you are the type to use the phrase, “I need a safe room,” this is NOT your episode. Support the show

Send us Fan MailI don’t know about you, but when I hear the word, “force,” I think of negative things? Nothing positive springs to my mind? How about you? Yet this is what people try to do to each other all the time.What’s been keeping me awake at night? Forceful people. Those that feel the need to force their beliefs, their opinions, their religion and their  world, onto everyone. They use pee pressure, threats and force to do so. I’ve never understood why that works for some people? I’m not the person that bends by force. Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat am I babbling on and on about in this episode? Not sleeping. The fact that  I’m not sleeping because I’m a neurotic basket case! Today I discuss the fact that I simply cannot relax. I am a tense ball of crazy 24/7. It’s absolutely ridiculous! I am happy, healthy and am my own boss. I have a healthy family, great friends and a lovely home. I am so thankful. Blessed. Yet I cannot settle my mind down enough to sleep? I talk about my thoughts on this along with all kinds of random nonsense… Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s been keeping me up all night? Sensitive people. People that simply cannot cope with life. I discuss obese people, crappie children, bad parents, mooches and gluttony. I am tired of humans being glutinous pigs!  Feeling entitled to everyone ELSES stuff. I talk people wanting the rich to have nothing. They won’t stop until anyone successful and wealthy, are poor and miserable. Just like them…. Support the show

Send us Fan MailToday I discuss the fact that humans are not special. We are a dime a dozen. Billions of us. There are far too many people that feel they are truly unique and special. I discuss why I, wholeheartedly, disagree with that. I also talk about those that judge the way other’s grieve? It’s bizarre to me. Unless you’re Casey Anthony and dancing on tables while your daughter is missing, back off on the way people grieve. I discuss true diversity and people that claim to believe in it. Yet theur actions tell the real truth. What’s keeping me up? Hypocrites. Mean people. And missing my dogs! Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s been preventing me from counting sheep? Lyrics of music playing over and over in my head! You know, when you don’t know all of the words to a song? So you get one line stuck in your brain? That’s where I’m at. Unfortunately, I don’t understand what the line even means? I also discuss being a freak. That it’s OK to let your freak flag fly! Own it. Humans say and do a lot of weird things. It’s fine. Just go with it. I also talk a bit about Kanye West and Kim Kardashian, fashion and other nonsense… Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s been keeping me up? The thought of getting old! I’ve always had this vision of me being a cranky ole lady? Sitting on my porch. Shotgun at my side. Whittling something out of wood with my spittoon next to me. I don’t know why I see myself as that type of old lady? That or the eccentric lady that wears huge hats? And is like the characters from Steel Magnolias. I don’t know? Could go either way? I babble on about this and reincarnation. Enjoy… Support the show

Send us Fan MailIn this episode I am barely awake discussing people that get upset over pronouns and men holding the door open. I haven’t had my coffee but I manage to pull off the episode. What’s keeping me awake? People that get triggered easily and ruin life for normal humans. Chill out. Relax. You’ll be fine. Support the show

Send us Fan MailIn this episode I discuss the fact it’s been four years since my mom passed. I am not crying or sad. Just discussing my feelings regarding that and COVID. I talk about policies put in place by Democrats I disagreed with at the time. I also peer pressure. People that do or buy things, simply because someone else said it was cool. I talk about followers and celebrities. What’s been keeping me up? People trying to convince others to do things they don’t want to do. Support the show

Send us Fan MailIn this episode I discuss adrenaline! That crazy hormone that makes you want to live la vida loca. What’s keeping me up? Adrenaline. People that have a wild side. I wasn’t born with feeling the need to jump out of an airplane. But I appreciate those that want to feel the rush. I’ve always been Ms. Responsible. I want to do something crazy. But in a controlled a way…. Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s been keeping me up? Iran and all of Europe. Why? Because Europe threw America under the bus! They are supporting Iran and their need to unalive us. America tried to warn Iran. Talk to Iran. Deal with them civilly. Trump tried to get Europe involved. They wanted no part in that. Instead, , Europe felt it, far better to help Iran? To pay off the bully, instead of knock the bully down? Which, in turn, is directly funding Iran to attack America.  I discuss this and what European countries contribute to America? I’m with Trump. NATO does NADA for America. Support the show

Send us Fan MailI am so dehydrated I feel like a cactus! I look like the crypt keeper. Seriously, I could pass for his stunt double. I need to drink water. Or at least some water. I honestly have zero clue how I’m alive considering how little I drink? Between being dehydrated, insomnia, stressing for no reason and my teeth, I am not aging well. I babble on about the effects of stress, lack of sleep and just all around not caring for yourself fully. I also discuss Facebook memories, taking a break from social media and energy. I talk about nature being so grounding for me. My sleep issues seem to disappear when I’m camping or surrounded by nature? I also discuss feeling connected to nature. Feeling the energy. Being connected to your surroundings.  Support the show

Send us Fan MailWhat’s keeping me awake? Literally everything! I can’t figure out what I want to watch, read, listen to? What podcast to watch? What to eat or what to wear? Am I hungry? If so, for what? I finally make a decision , after overthinking for an hour. Then change my mind 10 minutes in to doing whatever took me an hour to decide.  I am incredibly overstimulated. Life seems to be moving in the right direction? I am happy and excited. I’m far less stressed than usual. Which freaks me out and the reason I can’t sleep. If I let my guard down and relax, things will crash. If I get comfortable and let my guard down… BOOM! Life will remind me of how cruel it can be. I feel I need to quite literally, keep one eye open at night. Then I obsess on time flying, death, how words are formed and the fact I’m certifiably nuts! It’s a whole thing. So, here we are. Middle of the night, impromptu podcast. Why not? Support the show

Send us Fan MailToday I discuss the haters of the world. Those that simply refuse to work hard or put in the time and energy. Instead, they project their lack of motivation and self worth on to others. Making excuses as to why it’s everyone else’s fault, they aren’t happy. I talk about feeling bad or apologizing for being successful? Why? Don’t apologize for earning things. I feel society expects wealthy people or good looking, in shape people to feel bad? No one should feel bad, unless they have committed crimes or harmed others to get where they are? Don’t ever apologize for being successful!I also discuss energy. Manifesting what you want. Putting energy out there. How energy affects us. What’s been keeping me up? Energy…Support the show