ALIVE with Tenji

What happens when we leave Earth? Where do our souls go? What does what happens next tell us about the purpose of our lives today? And how does knowing what’s on the other side influence how we live today - our choices, our relationship with life and ourselves, our understanding of our life path? And is it better to know what’s next or live in blissful unawareness?Join me as I share my perspective on the afterlife, our eternal soul nature and how our souls make decisions about what body, life circumstances, challenges, and major events we will experience. I’m strongly influenced by my study of Michael Newton’s work, which has been corroborated by my own past life regressions. My life has become infinitely easier since understanding these truths and I hope it will do the same for you.

Today, I reflect on how the sudden death of my favourite cousin devastated me but changed my relationship with death in unexpected ways.Death is something that terrifies most of us. We’ve made it a taboo topic and something we spend our whole lives trying to avoid. How do we come to peace with the fact that we all die? What do we need to believe about our capacity to survive our own deaths and the deaths of our loved ones so that we can live fully? Birth/Life and death are made of the same stuff - both are sacred. How do we learn to honour death so we can become one with it as much as we choose to be one with life? Let’s speak about this most sacred of topics.I also share how letting go of Christian “Judgement Day” thinking helped me be so much less afraid of dying and more relaxed about how I live my life. This episode is dedicated to my beautiful cousin. Thank you for loving me.

2026 is here, guys, and it’s giving us the chance to start again. This numerological cycle is a Year 1 and it’s offering us supportive energy for new beginnings, planting new seeds, being sovereign and charting our own path with assertiveness and self-trust. Let’s explore this energy in greater depth and discuss how 2025’s Year 9 energy of attainment, closure, and humanitarian leadership also pushed us to let go of what wasn’t serving us so we would have room for the seeds 2026 wants to plant. In the second half of the epi, I help you layer in how your personal year theme will colour what you experience and are motivated to work on this year. You’ll learn how to calculate your personal year number and then learn more about what your number means. I had such fun in this episode - I love numerology!If you’d like a personalised reading to help you set your personal theme for the year using numerology, and discover how your unique Life Path, Soul Urge and Destiny numbers come in the mix to create your soul path, book a spiritual reading at www.tenjimoyana.com/book

Hi lovers, I’m back after a little break from the pod. I’m experimenting with recording in seasons - dropping a few juicy episodes for you to binge to in meaningful chunks. Tell me what you think about this new model - I’m excited to give it a try. To kick off, let’s talk about my move back to Zimbabwe, where I’m from. Let’s chat about mushroom ceremonies and the clarity and wisdom they bring, even though the mushroom journey itself may be tough. And finally, let me share the card for this season from Kyle Gray’s Angels and Ancestors oracle deck: Snake - Shed old skin. Enjoy and catch you again soon.

What a fun episode! I felt like keeping things lighthearted today so I asked ChatGPT - I call her Illuma - to ask me 5 fun spiritual questions it would ask me if it were a fellow mystic meeting me for the first time. What a delight. We talk about favourite tools and practices, secrets I haven’t told anyone before, messages from my future self, the soundtrack to my spiritual journey (this was a hard one!) and what I’d talk about if my future self dropped by for tea. Tuck into this cozy episode and if you feel inspired to, maybe you can ask yourself these cool questions and get to know yourself or a friend better in a lovely way. And I’d love to get to know you better and hear your answer to any of the questions Illuma asked me - please share in the comments if you feel inspired :)See you in the next one!

Today’s episode started as a life update and evolved into a deep-dive into how my experience exploring and experimenting with my sidereal Human Design chart is teaching me so much about my hidden soul lessons, my secret soul longings and the difference between my personality and psyche vs my soul’s truth.I share where I think Tropical human design fits in our personal development work (showing us the masks we wear and helping us articulate the path we’ve walked before our spiritual awakening) and what Sidereal human design can offer (showing us our soul’s truth and dharma and the path we may be invited to walk once we have deconditioned out of a good chunk of our societal programming, shadow behaviours and limiting beliefs). As always, I’m on a path of finding deeper wisdom and expanding in awareness so I don’t pretend to be an expert or have the final answer on anything - there is no such thing as absolute truth anyway. So listen to this episode with the perspective that this is my evolving truth and the meaning I’m finding in my path and it may not necessarily mirror what you understand about or are experiencing in your path.Thank you for being here x

Virgo season is winding down! Virgo governs the 6th house in astrology which governs healing, service, work life and routines. So this time of year will offer us opportunities to strengthen and support these areas of our life.I’ve been learning a lot about psychosomatic symptoms, the link between trauma, the nervous system and physical illness, and how healing our emotional wounds and addressing mindsets that are keeping us trapped in suffering are powerful tools to heal the body beyond what medicine and lifestyle changes have been able to offer me.But here’s the kicker. With Libra in the 6th house in my natal chart, I’ve had a tough pill to swallow about how the pursuit of harmony and service to others in my relationships at the expense of my physical wellbeing might be what’s keeping me sick. It makes perfect sense and I see this theme all over my life. It’s time to make a change. Pull out your astrology chart and follow along if you want to explore what themes might be at play for you that Virgo’s energy or the 6th house’s themes are activating in this season. For the Astro nerds: My 5th house is in Virgo, my 6th house is in Libra, Venus is in my 9th house so spiritual philosophy and the right fundamental truths (mindset and life) are core to my 6th house healing journey, and Venus is my chart ruler.Thank you for joining me :) See you next time!

I realised recently that I’ve been living my life like it’s a job in which I have no rights and no benefits. Always saying yes to every growth opportunity - even when I don’t have mental, physical or emotional capacity for more. Life isn’t a job, an obligation and a game of endurance that you get an A for if you struggle hard enough. We get to be happy, joyful, safe, and to know when we’ve reached a limit and choose not to engage with more spiritual work, personal growth, and life up-leveling. We get to coast. Why? Because it’s our life and we decide what’s good enough for our souls - especially if we believe that we are loved unconditionally and there are no prizes in heaven for A+ performers.BUT this goes against everything I’ve been taught and raised in! So, let’s talk it out.

Ciao tutti! I’m on the cusp of launching a new venture in my business and so much fear is coming up as I gear up to do it. So, today I’m chatting about risk - something I’ve had to think a lot about as I take this step - and how hard it is to take a big, bright, bold step towards what we most desire to experience in our lives.Life is as abundant as we choose for it to be, but how do we believe that when the potential fallout is terrifying? Why is risk so scary? What is our fear of moving forward showing us we need to work on within ourselves? What lies have we believed about risk vs. Reward that just aren’t true? What limiting beliefs do we need to throw away if we want to have the life we dream of?Join me as I get vulnerable and pave a possible path forward.

Gemini is here and bringing the energy of self-expression, playfulness, evolution without the pressure to define oneself, and trusting your voice. Today I share my experience learning how to let go of old identities and rigid philosophies and expectations of myself, and how to embrace curiosity, an adaptable sense of identity, and self-definition instead of being defined by the beliefs held by my family, romantic partners, jobs, and religion. It’s about the courage to define myself and express who I am even as I continue to change and explore new truths. For the astrology-curious, we deep dive these themes through my North/South Node evolutionary path and I help you explore your own path using your natal astrology chart. I have North Node in Gemini in the 1st house and South Node in Sagittarius in the 7th house :)The app I mention is Astrology Master. I also share a 2-card mini reading for the energy we’re invited by the universe to embrace so that we can fully own our voice, and what we need to let go of.Enjoy x

Hi hi! I’ve realised that when my tank is beyond empty and I’m teetering close to shut down, more intense - and less conventional - self- methods are needed to truly regulate my system and nourish me back to life.I realised that so many of us limit self care to physical practices hoping they will automatically replenish our hearts and minds as well. But what we need to do is take a targeted approach to each aspect of ourselves - mental activities for an overstimulated mind, energy practices for an overwhelmed aura (especially if you’re an empathetic or highly sensitive person!), emotional nourishment if our heart is sore or drained, and physical practices that are customised to what works for our unique bodies.Join me as I use Human Design and spiritual insight to craft a personalised self-care regimen for myself following a 2-day leadership training I led last week that involved lots of late nights, 1x1 coaching and holding space for a big group of leaders.Some atypical practices I share that do wonders for me are changing up my environment and going to hang out in a space that feels calming and peaceful for me (others might feel energised in active places), buying something luxurious, not hanging out with anyone, talking it out by recording this podcast episode to release trapped mental energy, and several more customised practices that instantly settle me down and fill me up.Hope it helps you too! Enjoy x

I have endometriosis and it’s been the single biggest challenge I’ve experienced in my life. But it’s taught me how to stop trying to control and change my body, and how to be in healthier relationship with it. It’s also brought me into deeper spiritual reverence for the wonder that is the human body’s ability to survive and be steadfastly committed to the soul’s purpose. And most recently, it’s revealing a major past life karmic lesson I have to heal about disempowerment and a sacrificial lamb relationship I’ve had with my growth path and ability to choose the life I want to life. Listen to my story and explore where in your life you might be ready to let go of familiar pain that no longer serves you.Themes: Psychosomatic healing, past lives, self-acceptance, empowerment, manifestation, chronic illness, spirituality

In this episode I’m waxing lyrical about the nature of truth and whether it serves us to try make truth absolute. I believe that this is something we do to try cope with reality and to try to feel safe. But the need for right and wrong, black and white, truth and lies, and absolute knowing and certainty limits us. It only separates us from others, makes us struggle to accept reality, makes us make premature declarations of knowing when we have no clue at all, makes us more likely to make mistakes, keeps us small, and makes us gate keep knowledge and wisdom to horde power and resources. It just increases our suffering.What I hope for as individuals and mankind at large is that we can let go a little of needing to know with certainty and needing to be right. May we learn to hold the discomfort of not knowing and of multiple things being true at once so that we can transcend both the conflict that society has descended into and the separation that infects our relationships and inner union. This is what brings true freedom. PS: This episode was in the backlog - it was recorded at the beginning of February when the year felt fresh, hence the “New Year” check in :)PPS: I kept mixing up Human Design Gate 63 and 64. Brain fog during to ovulation plus being in the middle of an inflammation flare… Gate 63 is the Gate of Doubt - it’s an energy that seeks to push the logic and understand patterns and then correct the patterns that aren’t working or are compromising our safety. It asks: Is this true? Gate 64 is the Gate of Confusion - it’s an energy that constantly wants to analyse the past and understand what it meant so we can learn from it - it holds the gift of being able to wade through confusion and handle the pressure of not knowing. It asks: What does this mean?Themes: Fear of the unknown, the nature of truth, letting go of control, multi-dimensionality, transcendence, spiritual awakening, the meaning of life, trusting time

In today’s conversation I share the culmination of 5 years of discovering and beginning to overcome my unconscious emotional avoidance one failed relationship at a time. I explore the origins of emotional avoidance, including parentification, unhealed childhood wounds, good-girl conditioning and attachment styles. I discuss unravelling repeating dating patterns and mistakes, deciding enough was enough, and finally becoming willing to be seen and loved as an imperfect woman with healthy needs worth meeting and not as the impervious Florence Nightingale one-dimensional archetype that I people-pleased and parentified myself into in order to avoid punishment and rejection. Phew, that was a long-ass sentence! Let’s dive in. P.S. After recording this episode, I woke up at 2am compelled to research codependency and realised it encapsulates everything I was talking about in this episode! It also explains the relational fallout I discussed in the previous episode. Here’s an awesome article you can read to learn more about codependency.  Themes: Childhood trauma, attachment styles, breaking unhealthy dating patterns, emotional avoidance, relational healing

A little update on my life turned into a reflection on recent platonic relationship endings that have rocked my world and made my world the last few months. I achieved something I never would have been able to had I not stood for myself and found my voice in some of my closest relationships. But it took time for things to unwind and for me to accept the relationships had to end, so of course they were ripped out of my bloody hands when I finally reached my limit and said No. It’s ok for things to take time and we must allow our process to unwind in its own way without judgement. I also explore how my Human Design explains my conflict resolution style and has helped me to find deeper self-acceptance and work with my style to get aligned outcomes. It will also show you where you can look in your chart for yours. PS. After recording this episode, I woke up at 2am compelled to research codependency and realised it encapsulates much of what I was talking about in this episode! It also explains the romantic relationship lessons I discuss in the next episode. Here’s an awesome article you can read to learn more about codependency.  Themes: Conflict resolution, relationship endings, human design 

How do you move on from the loss you never thought you could survive? How do you make sense of it? When your very foundation is obliterated, how do you find new ground? How do you believe that love is safe and become willing to let joy in again when it feels like it is that very love that caused you so much pain?  Not having the answers to these questions and the fear that extreme loss will destroy us makes us try to avoid grief at all costs or bypass it by trying to process it as fast as possible. But this only keeps us small and blocks us from learning what it’s here to teach us and arriving at its greatest gift – pure love and expansive joy.  Join me as I share my journey through the most devastating 4 years of my life (loss of my long term health, my father, 3 extremely close relationships from childhood, my career, financial security and my ability to work) and the lessons that led me, miraculously, to the other side.  ** Here’s a link to an image of the Star Ancestor card by Kyle Gray that I share in the card reading at the end of the episode.   Themes: Grief, death of a loved one, chronic illness, relationship endings, surrender, trust, abundance, clawing your way back after loss   ** PS: As a spirit gift to you all I’m giving away a free 75-minute oracle card reading to 5 people. This is an amazing way to get guidance from your guides, learn 2024’s lessons, or call in something you are trying to manifest. DM me on IG or send me an email on www.tenjimoyana.com/book **

Say it with me: Oracle cards and tarot are not evil. Lol!  For real though, when I was a Christian and for a long time after, I was convinced they were a tool of the Devil used to derail and cast spells of misfortune over my life! It was terrifying.  I have since learned through research and my own experience that they are not – they are merely a tool for receiving guidance and wisdom from whatever deity/greater force you believe in. They are powered by the intention and energetic frequency of the user and will support and empower whatever they believe in. Plus, if you actually work with them, you see that most of them carry wonderfully high vibrational energy and card descriptions.   If you’re feeling drawn to this tool, this episode is a powerhouse of information on: my story, how cards have helped me, how you can bring them into your practice, how to find and bond with your first deck, how to give yourself your first reading, example questions you can ask, how to interpret your cards and some pitfalls to avoid (e.g., predictions and manipulating others). Let’s dive in!  ** PS: As a spirit gift to y’all I’m giving away a free 75-minute oracle card reading to 5 people. DM me on IG or send me an email on www.tenjimoyana.com/book **  Themes: Oracle cards, tarot, spiritual practice, spiritual tools, trusting intuition, spirit guides, self-stewardship

Do you believe you live in a hostile universe or a benevolent one?  Trusting life is so hard when you’ve experienced a lot of loss, pain, insecurity and disappointment. But I’ve discovered that repairing our life wound is essential in our spiritual and personal development journeys if we are to become who our souls came here to become, or if we finally want to experience peace and a holding, sense of security and aliveness unlike any we have ever known. The unexpected thing I’ve also learned as a result is that when we finally trust life, life trusts us back and it’s so beautiful.  Stay tuned to the end for an unexpected channelled message to you from life ✨❤️ Themes: Trust, letting go, trauma, the spiritual path, past lives, personal development ** PS: I’m soft launching 75-minute oracle card readings. I’ve been doing them for friends for years and I feel led to offer them more widely. They’re at a very low fee right now and you can book one by DM’ing me on IG or sending me an email at www.tenjimoyana.com/book **

Guys, I’m a hun who has experienced a lot of pain in life. Death, sorrow, suicidality. Heartbreak, burnout, bullying as a teen. Chronic illness, financial loss, loss of purpose. SO many things. And it all made me generally run sad, pessimistic, and anxious. But I’ve done A LOT of healing work on myself and I feel capable of facing anything life throws my way. I feel secure in my heart and spirit. I feel big and expansive and open and trusting of life and the love I have found in my life. I think it’s time to let go of running sad and wearing my survival on the surface of my skin, and time to run happy and optimistic, or at the very least temperate. When you’ve been sad for most of your life, you have to deliberately choose and teach yourself how to be happy. I’m ready to start 😊. For anyone who’s also had tough times in life, this one is for you xx   Themes: Complex PTSD, trauma, depression, healing, letting go, emotional regulation, nervous system regulation, mindset management

So, what do you do when you’ve built the wrong life? So much happens to us in life that changes who we are – we heal our hearts and past trauma, our values change, we settle into more of ourselves – truer versions of ourselves, we grow up, life happens to us and changes our priorities, and suddenly the life we built, that was once perfect, just no longer serves us anymore.  And we suddenly feel stuck in a life – a career, job, lifestyle, friendships, a neighbourhood, financial obligations, a religion, a relationship, etc – that just doesn’t fit anymore. I have found myself here – 20 years since I left my parents’ house and started building a life of my own, and so much of it no longer feels right.  How do we unstack and rebuild lives that feel truer to us, look more like who we’ve become and integrate the new parts of ourselves (without throwing away the good parts) so that we can feel free, abundant, and right again?   Themes: career pivots, people-pleasing, parental expectations, balancing masculine and feminine energy, survival-mode, chronic illness, human design, purpose, self-acceptance

I’ve had to learn to let go of the illusion of perfection that I spent my whole life chasing. Forgiving myself for not always getting it right and not being amazing. Forgiving life for not being amazing to me and what I always dreamed it would be. And forgiving other people for just being human and colliding into me in ways that really hurt me. We’re all doing our best and life is what it is. I just want to be more loving towards myself and people by not holding us to an impossible bar that we’ll never meet. We find more peace and room for connection when we can approach ourselves and others with this level of empathy and acceptance.  Also, introducing rapid fire questions! In the style of the Abundant Leaders with Tenji Moyana Podcast, I’ve brought these fun questions across to ALIVE to help you get to know me better and maybe you can answer these questions yourself and get to know yourself better 😊.   Plus I’d love to hear your answers to the rapid fire questions 😊 comment your answer below in the Instagram or Spotify comments:  1. What superpower do you wish you had? 2. What was your favourite escape as a child?  Catch you next time 😊  P.S. Do you want to join me for an easy chat on the pod to discuss anything on your mind and or a topic I’ve covered? DM me on Instagram @tenjiwe Themes: Self-acceptance, forgiveness, realistic expectations, empathy, self-love, relationships

Most of society assumes that everyone should want to get married. It’s seen as the end goal of every successful woman’s life, and the obvious culmination of any happy relationship. But why are we really getting married?  Today I’m sipping bubbles and snacking on nibbles with my friend Lee Nguni! Lee shares my view that we – especially women – should only get married if it makes sense for US. We chat about her relationship journey, finding love after divorce, choosing for now not to get married to her partner of 7 years, what we see in other married relationships that makes us sceptical about whether marriage is a place where you can find happiness or peace. We’re busting myths about what it really means to be happy, the role marriage should or shouldn’t play in that, expanding models of romantic commitment, the need for self-awareness in dating, finding deep intimacy outside of romantic relationship – and so much more. Join us on video or audio. I’m so curious about your perspective. What choice have you made about marriage? Tell us in the Spotify poll or Q&A or send me a Spotify voice note: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/tenji-moyana/message Themes: Marriage, relationships, challenging stereotypes, patriarchy, non-romantic intimacy, self-awareness, self-love 

Video episode. I have found that trying to love unconditionally has kept me in unbalanced relationships for way longer than I should have been because I was focussing so much on how I was loving the other person and not enough on how I was being loved.  Has this happened to you? I’ve been finding that a more supportive definition for me is “complete love” not “unconditional love” – which means loving myself as much as I love the other person.  Then I can say are we both being loved completely? Is there balance here? Is what is flowing towards me contributing with what is flowing from me so that our relationship can be complete, i.e., nourished and sustainable? It’s really releasing me from unhealthy dynamics and love poverty and I hope this episode brings the same for you. Do you have a question or topic you’d like me to cover? Share in the IG comments or Spotify Q&A or send me a Spotify voice note: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/tenji-moyana/message   Themes: Love, relationships, healthy boundaries, give and take in relationships, realistic expectations of love, personal growth

We’re doing something different today! A listener sent in a question asking for advice as she navigates a long period of waiting for a breakthrough in her career.  She’s trusting the process and feels comfortable with her pace of getting active in the job market after a long period of downtime but worries she’s moving slower than everyone else – is something wrong? It doesn’t help that she’s getting pressure from family, too. I share insights from my own journey with learning how to trust my pace, moving with the natural seasons of life, trusting that in the stillness a lot is still happening beneath the surface and learning how to have constructive conversations with family who may not understand your process.  I also drop in some Human Design tips – knowing how I naturally navigate change and difficult moments has been a huge gift for me in times like these. Do you have a question or topic you’d like me to cover? Share in the IG comments or Spotify Q&A or send me a Spotify voice note 😊 Spotify voice note: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/tenji-moyana/message  *Correction: The human design planets that constitute your incarnation cross are your conscious and unconscious Sun and Earth. Gate 63 is my conscious Sun and Gate 64 is my conscious Earth.

There are three things you need to know about me.  1: I have been working my whole life. 2: I hate the topic of “manifestation”. 3: I’m done with being a “good girl”. About number 1:  Believing that I have to work hard for anything good in my life has left me exhausted and resentful and, as I have discovered, completely out of alignment with the fact that life is abundant and contains more than enough of all that we need. That we don’t earn good things because that would make good things a salary for our efforts. And that’s certainly wrong. About number 2:  I’ve hated manifestation all my life because I always wondered why other people seemed to do it so easily and I was mysteriously incapable or unworthy of manifesting. I finally know what I’ve been misunderstanding about manifestation and I’m telling you all about it today. About number 3:  Being so focussed on being a good girl and wanting everyone to feel good around me has blocked me from being myself and thus manifesting a life and relationships that are true to who I actually am vs. Nice Tenji’s performance. Let’s talk. This is a juicy one. What experience have you had with manifestation? Share in the IG comments or Spotify Q&A or send me a Spotify voice note 😊 Spotify voice note: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/tenji-moyana/message 

How do we awaken to the truth of who we are as souls? How do we discover, accept, and lean into our power so that it can transform our lives? What does it mean to have a spiritual awakening? What does it look and feel like? What is its purpose, anyway? What does it mean to become one with the Universe and all it is and to birth new realities from that infinite power? How do we use it to manifest truer lives? And how do we survive how crazy, painful, exhausting and quite frankly terrifying spiritual awakenings can feel? All this plus a view into the spiritual awakening I’m currently experiencing. P.S. Let me know in the Spotify or Instagram poll if you’ve experienced a spiritual awakening or dark night of the soul. Or, share your wisdom with me in the Spotify Q&A or IG comments.

This is a special episode with a surprise guest at the end 😉.  I turned 40 this month and something shifted in me this birthday. I arrived into a comfort with who I am that I’ve never had before. I’m a vibe. And I’m capable. And I’ve endured and survived so much. I’m ready for an era of joy, DEEP self-confidence and shining boldly as me on an even bigger scale than I ever have before.    Today I’m reflecting back on each decade of my life and celebrating something wonderful about who I was in that season of my life, and one lesson I’ve learned or what I wish I had understood in that season of my life. Some surprising things came up including an unplanned guest who shared what she’s witnessed in me as I turn 40!

Guys. Everywhere I look I see an unhappy or failed marriage or people going through monumental challenges in order to find marital happiness again. Is marriage all that it’s cracked up to be? Is the cost I’m seeing (the work, heartache, drama, danger) worth the benefits? I’m questioning whether or not I still want it. Does marriage still mean to us and play the role in society that it used to? Should it? If not, what should it be instead? Is marriage the only noble path or singleness just as much a form of security, growth, happiness and support? Could the cost benefit analysis of singleness actually come out on top? Join me as I talk about the value proposition of marriage and share my story and what I’m learning about whether or not marriage is actually a good fit for me and women like me. Do you want to join me on a future episode to discuss this topic? Let me know in my DM’s or the episode comments on Instagram @tenjiwe and I'll set it up!

Happy New Year, lovies! My blessing for all of us is that we don’t reject how hard we worked, the risks we took, the fears we faced, and the incredible strides we made in our lives in 2023 by entering into hustle and do the most energy in 2024. Let’s go easier on ourselves this year. Let’s create a soft place for us to land by being our cheerleaders and supporters, and by having REALISTIC expectations of what is possible for us this year. It will be a good year and a hard year. Let’s set ourselves up for success. Let’s lovingly encourage ourselves and pay attention to the energy with which we set New Year’s resolutions (if we do them) and with which we evaluate what was and was not achieved in 2023. Love and light, and a beautiful blessing for 2024 for you from my guides at the end.

Join me for a video show and tell of a super comprehensive list of the tools I use to support my spiritual practice – 10 in total! They ground me, sharpen my energy and hone my gifts, help me gain clarity, insight and wisdom, help me connect with my guides, and maintain my physical, emotional and spiritual wellbeing, as well as to learn and master myself. I cover everything from Human Design, astrology and numerology, to crystals, essential oils and dream interpretation books and so much more. I also share the names of authors, pictures, and exactly where you can find them if you’re based in South Africa. Trust your intuition to guide you to what you need, expand your mind and let’s play. You’re a powerful being and these tools will amplify your spiritual potency. Your soul will thank you for it. Feel free to DM me on Instagram @tenjiwe for connects to practitioners or resources that I mention here.

Here’s a rundown of the practices that support me in my spiritual walk and in life in general – 12 in total! From meditation to plant medicine ceremonies to nightly energy clearing and regular healing baths, I do a lot to support myself to remain energetically and spiritually clear, attuned and supported to do my work in this life. Hopefully you get some inspiration for your own spiritual path. As always trust your intuition but be open to experimenting to see what works for you. Feel free to DM me for connects to practitioners or resources that I mention here.

I choose not to be affiliated with any single religion or school of thought, but rather, I’ve taken bits and pieces from many of them to form an understanding of what is true that resonates with me. I’m ok with being my own leader and creating my own truth because I trust myself, I have discernment, I’ve cultivated my relationship with my intuition to a point that I’m comfortable letting it be my authority. Everything I believe feels right and expansive for me in a way that enables me to live well and to keep growing – which is exactly what spirituality is meant to do. So, let me break down what I believe and how my relationship with the universe is evolving into more of a partnership.

I have endometriosis and I’m in the thick of bad flare which is getting me down and making me wonder: How do I have a good life with this illness? How do I fulfil my desires and live abundantly and get to realise my purpose? Is there a lesson in here that my soul is inviting me to learn about the source of my strength and power and impact? (Clearly there is – and I think I understand some of it.) Am I failing to see how I partner with the universe to cocreate something that works? Can my spiritual energy create for me the things that my physical body cannot?   So many questions, but the summary is: I’m not leaving without my purpose. I will fight until I die to have a fulfilling, impactful life. And I think we should all do the same – no matter the limitations we face.

My first video podcast episode! Watch it on Spotify, or listen to the audio in the usual places. Stay tuned to the end of the video for a special message from our spirit guides and oracle card to support us. I’ve done a lot to fight for my voice, my truth, to find my personal power in a family filled with strong personalities and siblings and parents who had a different experience of the same events. But, because we each experienced things differently, have different soul-level growth objectives, and are taking different growth pathways, have different needs and desires, how do we meet at a place of compassion that can abundantly allow for multiple realities? How do we remain in union and deepen our relationships when our growth takes us in different directions?

Forgiveness is often spoken about as the only way to truly move on. But is it? What is forgiveness anyway? Is it coming to peace and acceptance? Is it taking someone else off the hook for what they did? Does it mean we must continuously expose ourselves to the scene of the crime or situations and people that wound us repeatedly? Is turning the other cheek really a virtue? Where do boundaries fit in? And what do we do when forgiving prematurely actually leads us into self-abandonment, thus blocking us from healing and our aggressors from feeling true remorse?

I came to the pod to talk about forgiveness but ended up giving an update on my online dating exploits. Lol! I’ve met an interesting guy who’s bringing such different energy into my world that I think he might be the pattern breaker, should I choose to progress with him. I’ve always gone for a certain type of guy and it never works out. This feels like an opportunity to pick something different. Therapy has helped me to see and value guys like this, and to show up with more of the type of energy that can have a create a great experience. It’s been so valuable to engage with lots of different guys so I can see how much I’ve grown and can actively choose what I don’t want.

If you’re in my inner circle or pay any attention to my Insta stories you’ll know how much I LOVE Human Design. It’s the one archetyping system that has given me the most comprehensive view into who I am not just from a personality and strengths perspective, but also from an energetic and spiritual perspective. (And I am a personality test junkie so I know this one is special!) I believe that one of our main purposes in life is to be ourselves. This is the spiritual path. Human Design has helped me accept traits that I thought were wounds I needed to heal. I better understand how my energy flows and works, and what environments and types of relationships and practices I need to honour so that I support myself to thrive and flow as me. It really feels like a pathway back to myself – the me I was before life happened to me (my soul blueprint) – AND the wisdom of the lessons my soul came here to learn and expand into. It’s so empowering.  I use human design in my business and my clients – male and female – love it. I hope this inspires you to go get your chart and dive into the wonder that is you. And I’m offering 2 free live readings to anyone who listens to this episode to the end 😊

Life is real. And hard. So hard for so many of us. Yet we survive the moments that will pull us into the void and come back willing to be here, to keep trying, to keep living and angling ourselves towards life and the gift of being alive. This podcast is about what it means to be ALIVE and to live well. But what happens when it’s hard to keep ourselves alive? I’m a suicide survivor – that’s what I call myself as someone who has considered suicide at different points of my life. I’m choosing not to carry shame in it any more. I’m opting into life in such a powerful way and choosing to build my strength and resourcefulness so that I live with intentionality and humility at the very real proximity of death that we all live with. I am wise, powerful, smart, vibrant, full of love AND prone to not wanting to be here or feeling incapable of being here any longer. Suicidality isn’t a wilful state. It isn’t something that happens to “weak” people or those who have “chemical imbalances” or who have survived unspeakable traumas. You can be a badass B, like me, and still experience it. So journey with me as I share my story. And what I’ve learned about how to cope and rescue myself when I’m in the valley of the shadow of death. And how I’m learning to face the full reality of life – which is partly what I’ve been trying to escape. And how I’m discovering that when you save your life and heal you have to learn how to use the parts that you’ve healed and that is just as hard as saving your life was – if not harder!

As I advance on my spiritual path, I’m discovering more about consciousness i.e., our awareness of what is. There’s more than just the mind, which is what we typically refer to as conscious or subconscious awareness. There are 5 more levels of consciousness, in fact. The 3 individual ones are: somatic (body), spiritual (soul) and non-mind (a mysterious beauty I recently discovered that is hugely powerful). The 2 collective ones are: the collective mind (what we call collective consciousness) and what I call the universe (all that is, including and beyond Earth and this dimension). It’s fascinating and fun and has helped me to feel 1) more grounded in my experience of being alive on Earth; 2) more mature in my spiritual practice; and 3) wiser and considerate of the bigger picture, complexities and interdependencies as I do my healing work and personal growth and development. Sometimes my mind wants to make one choice but I consider the impact on my soul’s intention for this life and I reconsider, or I think something is going to kill me but my body’s wisdom tells me it’s got this, it knows how to live and I can lean into its wisdom and mystical strength…

I’m talking about it all – How respectability politics set us up to fail in our marriages. How single sexually-active women are villains. How men want ladies in the streets but freaks in the sheets yet they marry sexually inexperienced women. How women’s vagina’s belong to their fathers then to Jesus, then to their husbands and then to the grave when their husbands die - but never to themselves (a farce!). And how hard it is to own your sexuality when you’ve received so much shame-filled conditioning from society and the church. Give us free!

This is an ode to my parents – my late father, Dr Kombo James Moyana, and my living mother, Marcia Petricia Moyana. Our souls choose our parents. It blew my mind when I discovered this because my parents were both my first loves (I idolised them) and my greatest heartbreak (they broke my spirit). They’ve left me with so many gifts of character, values, support and rich experience, but they also left me with a legacy of trauma, insecurity, feelings of unworthiness and deep wounds to heal. But this is what my soul intended – my soul wanted me to expand and that could only happen if my parents parented me the way that they did. Let’s explore this concept. I discovered it in Michael Newton’s book, “Journey of Souls” and it instantly resonated as true. It has helped me tremendously to even more deeply honour and forgive my parents while holding them accountable by not self-abandoning.

I was raised believing that hard work = success, that we earn everything we have, that we can get what we need but wants are another story, that life is generally hard and nothing good comes easy, that at any moment we can lose everything we have so we have to be austere and humble…   It’s led me to distrust flow, to settle for less sometimes, to horde resources or be quick to downgrade so that I make sure I don’t run out… But more than this, it has made me distrust ease, to struggle to connect with my wants and desires – not just my needs, and to reach out from life for good things with a healthy dose of entitlement. It's exhausting and I’ve finally run out of runway with this limiting belief because life is inviting me to expand into more - because more is actually my birth right.

Guys. Patriarchy has us in a choke hold. All of us. Men and women. I hate seeing what it does to men – how much they suffer because of it. But the feminist movement is coming for them too and asking them if they’re coping being as disconnected from their feminine energy as we were from our masculine energy.   There’s a beautiful invitation for men to find healing and more freedom if they can let go of the stigma that patriarchy has placed on feminine energy and open up their hearts to acknowledge their own suffering. And there’s an invitation for women to heal their own relationship with feminine energy so that they can create space for men to be vulnerable and go on this journey with their support and encouragement. But I’m a woman talking about men’s experiences which is a bold thing to attempt to do. But I have eyes and I know pain when I see it. Men, let’s talk.

Your girl is on Bumble and LOVING it. This is the best online dating run I’ve ever had. Hot men, smart men, sparkly bantery connections, down to earth people. It’s so nice. But I’ve also been on a date with a guy who refused to take off his sunglasses during the entire date! And the other guy who called my spirituality pagan LOL. That went nowhere. I’m experiencing a lot and seeing the fruits of all the work I’ve put into my growth coming to bear in how I show up and who I match with. Part 1 is about the SA online dating market, my approach to Bumble this time around and my worst dates. Part 2 is about the awesome connections, how Bumble is both triggering my insecurities and revealing how much I’ve grown.

Your girl is on Bumble and LOVING it. This is the best online dating run I’ve ever had. Hot men, smart men, sparkly bantery connections, down to earth people. It’s so nice. But I’ve also been on a date with a guy who refused to take off his sunglasses during the entire date! And the other guy who called my spirituality pagan LOL. That went nowhere. I’m experiencing a lot and seeing the fruits of all the work I’ve put into my growth coming to bear in how I show up and who I match with. Part 1 is about the SA online dating market, my approach to Bumble this time around and my worst dates. Part 2 is about the awesome connections, how Bumble is both triggering my insecurities and revealing how much I’ve grown.

I’m single at 39 and spent most of my 20s and 30s feeling ashamed at “not being able to make love work” and falling prey to all the ways that society tells a woman she’s at fault or less-than if no one has chosen her. Even though I never lacked marriage options and proposals, relationships never stuck for me. Discovering and unpacking my trauma and learning what my soul’s intention is for this lifetime (my dharma) has brought me peace, self-forgiveness and an empowered way forward.

I started a podcast. It's hilarious because I already have one - but this one is different. On this pod, I'm talking about what life means and how we live well. I'm chatting about spirituality, personal development, what I'm learning about life and what I'm experiencing e.g., visiting a shaman for the first time, joining Bumble for the Nth time... It's casual, fun and easy conversation and sometimes it gets deep when things don't make sense or life gets hard. In this episode, I'm informally introducing myself and talking about all of the above plus a bit of my story. Welcome! :)

I had an existential crisis in December 2022 and it led to the most paradigm shifting realisation that love isn't real... well what we think love is is not what love actually is. And if love isn't what we think it is, is finding, being and dwelling in love the main point of life? If it isn't, then what is? Deep questions.