Sitting in the Dark

April is Sexual Assault Awareness Month—but this conversation goes deeper than awareness.In this episode of Sitting in the Dark, we explore the history behind SAAM, the meaning of Teal Tuesday, and the powerful story that led to Denim Day. But more than that… we talk about the people behind the movement—the survivors who spoke when it wasn’t safe, and the ones still finding their voice today. This episode is both educational and deeply human. A reminder that what we see on the surface—colors, campaigns, and hashtags—are rooted in real stories, real pain, and real resilience.If you’re a survivor, this space is for you.If you’re supporting someone, this will help you understand.And if you’re just beginning to learn—this is a place to start.You are not alone. And you never have to carry it by yourself.

This Women’s History Month, Sitting in the Dark is taking a deeper look at the women who didn’t just participate in history—they rewrote it.In this episode, Maci is joined by Sexual Assault Advocates Michayla and Helena for a powerful, honest conversation about the women who shaped the movement against sexual violence and gender inequality. From Susan Brownmiller’s groundbreaking work reframing rape as a crime of power and control, to Tarana Burke’s survivor-centered vision behind the Me Too movement, to Ruth Bader Ginsburg’s lasting legal impact, this episode explores how advocacy has evolved across generations. But this conversation goes beyond well-known names.Together, they reflect on the cost of advocacy, the emotional labor carried by women in this field, and the tension that still exists when pushing for survivor-centered change. They also share personal stories about the women who shaped them—mentors, advocates, and family members whose strength may not have been loud, but was deeply transformative.This episode is a reminder that advocacy doesn’t always look like a microphone or a movement.Sometimes, it looks like presence. Like consistency. Like choosing to stay.And while progress has been made, the work is far from finished.Because the door may be open—but it’s our responsibility to hold it wider for the next generation.

Somewhere along the way, stalking got rebranded as devotion.The guy who won’t take no for an answer? “Persistent.”The guy who shows up everywhere? “Passionate.”The guy who watches from a distance? “Protective.”But in real life, stalking isn’t romantic — it’s dangerous.In this episode of Sitting in the Dark, Maci unpacks how movies, media, and even trending dark romance narratives can blur the lines between fantasy and harmful behavior. She explores the difference between fictional tropes and real-world power and control, discusses what stalking actually looks like, and explains why normalization can put survivors at risk.Fantasy is controlled. Real stalking is not.If you’ve ever wondered where the line really is — this conversation is for you.As always, this episode discusses sensitive topics related to stalking and sexual violence. Please listen with care.

January can be loud.Full of resolutions, expectations, and pressure to start fresh—before we’ve even had time to catch our breath.In this episode of Sitting in the Dark, Maci offers a softer start to the year. One rooted in honesty, rest, and compassion—for ourselves and for each other.We talk about arriving in January already tired, why “new year, new you” doesn’t work for everyone, and how healing, survival, and care don’t follow a calendar. This episode is for helpers, survivors, and anyone who feels like this year has already asked a lot.Instead of resolutions, we explore intentions.Instead of pushing through, we talk about grace.Instead of doing it alone, we sit together.If you’re feeling worn down, overwhelmed, or just human—this one’s for you.🖤 Gentle grounding included🖤 Survivor-centered, trauma-informed conversation🖤 A reminder that you don’t have to carry it all

This end-of-year episode of Sitting in the Dark is an honest conversation for survivors, current advocates, and anyone curious about stepping into this work. Maci reflects on the moments that shaped this year — the heavy ones, the hopeful ones, and the ones that didn’t make it to social media.Together, we talk through:what advocacy really looks like behind the scenes,what survivors may have faced or felt this year,the emotional reality of supporting others through trauma,what it means to rest, reset, and rediscover your strength,and how to know if becoming an advocate might be your next step.This episode is an invitation to breathe, reflect, and carry only what’s meant for you into the new year.Whether you’re healing, serving, or learning — you belong here.If you or someone you love needs support, the Crisis Center of Northeast Texas is here 24/7 at 903-454-9999.

Holding Space Through the Holidays: Supporting Loved Ones & Stepping In With CourageThe holidays can be beautiful… and heavy. Whether you’re a survivor, supporting someone you love, or navigating complicated family dynamics, this episode offers a gentle guide for getting through Thanksgiving week with compassion and courage.Join Maci as she explores trauma-informed ways to check in with loved ones, create soft exits, validate emotions, and intervene safely when something feels wrong. You’ll also learn how to recognize overwhelm, protect moments of joy, and show up for yourself if you’re the one carrying pain into the holiday.This episode includes a grounding exercise at the beginning and a holiday self-care checklist at the end — because you deserve softness and support, no matter what this season brings.If things feel heavy, you’re not alone. We’re here to sit with you in the dark, one breath at a time.

🎙️ Breaking the Silence: Race, Trust, and Identity After Sexual AssaultWhen we talk about sexual violence, we have to talk about power—and power is shaped by identity.In this episode, host Maci Torres and guest Sarah Enderlein, a sociology graduate student and volunteer advocate, explore how race, ethnicity, and sexuality influence survivors’ experiences after sexual assault.Drawing from research by Kimberlé Crenshaw, Joane Nagel, Charles Gallagher, and Sophie Lanthier, they unpack how stereotypes, systemic racism, and cultural stigma continue to silence survivors of color and LGBTQ+ survivors. Together, they discuss concepts like intersectionality, intersectional sexual-assault stigma, and cultural humility, translating academic insight into real-world advocacy.Listeners will hear about how stereotypes such as the “Strong Black Woman” trope, the “model minority” myth, and immigration fears affect reporting; how media bias shapes public empathy; and what true allyship looks like inside survivor-support systems.Whether you’re an advocate, student, or survivor, this conversation invites you to confront discomfort with compassion and move from awareness to accountability.Trigger warning: This episode discusses sexual assault, racial discrimination, and systemic injustice. Please take care while listening.📘 References:Crenshaw (1989); Nagel (2003); Gallagher (2012); Lanthier (2023); Journal of Interpersonal Violence (2024).If you or someone you love needs support, visit www.ccnetx.org/podcast or call our 24/7 hotline at 903-454-9999.You are not alone.

Rape Culture & Sexism in the MediaHeadlines. Movies. Music. Ads. Everyday conversations.The media doesn’t just reflect our culture—it shapes it. And too often, what it reflects is a world where sexual violence is normalized, excused, or ignored.In this episode of Sitting in the Dark, we break down how rape culture shows up in the media we consume, how silence fuels the next generation’s beliefs, and why calling it out matters. With real-world examples and survivor insights, we’ll talk honestly about what needs to change—and how each of us can be part of shifting the narrative.Because the stories we tell matter. And survivors deserve better.

⚠️ Trigger Warning: This episode includes discussion of sexual assault and survivor experiences. Please take care of yourself and listen at your own pace.When survivors of sexual assault are ready to tell their story, the process of reaching out for help can feel overwhelming. Seek Then Speak is an innovative, online tool designed to change that—giving survivors the chance to share their experiences safely, in their own words, and at their own pace.In this episode of Sitting in the Dark, we sit down with our guest from End Violence Against Women International (EVAWI) and a Victim Advocate who championed the tool to talk about how Seek Then Speak works, why it matters, and how it can make the first steps toward healing and justice less intimidating.Whether you’re a survivor, an advocate, or someone who wants to understand how to support loved ones better, this conversation is about choice, empowerment, and making sure every voice can be heard.

In this episode of Sitting in the Dark, we welcome Shahd Alasaly, founder of Blue Meets Blue and the voice behind the Shattered Vows series. Through her work as a social researcher and humanitarian entrepreneur, Shahd creates spaces of empowerment, dignity, and healing for refugee women and survivors of emotional abuse.Together, we explore the intersection of resilience and vulnerability—how strength and softness can coexist—and the importance of honoring cultural context in the healing process. This conversation sheds light on what it means to reclaim identity, embrace collective strength, and move forward after betrayal and loss.Tune in for an inspiring dialogue about compassion, creativity, and the courage it takes to transform pain into purpose.

In this powerful episode, we’re joined by Nikki Barnett from Student Advocacy and Support and Amanda Berry from the Title IX office at East Texas A&M University. Together, we explore what real support looks like for student survivors of sexual violence—both on campus and through off-campus partnerships like ours at the Crisis Center of Northeast Texas.We discuss safety planning, Title IX protections, accommodations, reporting options, and the importance of trauma-informed advocacy. If you’re a student, survivor, or someone working in education, this conversation is for you.📞 Need help or want to learn more? Visit www.ccnetx.org or call/text our 24/7 support line at 903-454-9999.

For many survivors, healing begins in silence—but it doesn’t have to stay there.In this episode of Sitting in the Dark, we explore the power of creative expression in the aftermath of trauma. From painting and journaling to music and movement, creative healing gives survivors a way to process what words alone can’t always hold.Whether you're a survivor yourself or supporting someone on their journey, this episode offers insight, encouragement, and gentle reminders that healing can look a thousand different ways—and art is one of them.If you need support, call the Crisis Center of Northeast Texas anytime at 903-454-9999.

Swipe Safe: Online Dating & Digital BoundariesOnline dating can open doors to connection, community, and companionship—but it also comes with real risks. In this episode of Sitting in the Dark, Maci explores how to navigate dating apps and digital spaces with confidence and care. We’ll talk about setting clear boundaries, recognizing red flags, protecting your privacy, and trusting your intuition—so you can build connections without losing your safety or peace of mind. Whether you’re a seasoned swiper or just thinking about dipping your toe into the world of online dating, this conversation will leave you feeling informed, empowered, and ready to swipe safe.

In this episode, we’re breaking down the myth that self-care is a luxury or selfish act. Join us as we explore what true self-care looks like for survivors, advocates, and anyone carrying heavy emotional loads. From setting boundaries to reclaiming rest, this conversation is your reminder that taking care of yourself is not only valid—it’s vital.

Episode 12: Journey of Advocacy – Sitting with You in the DarkIn this solo episode, Maci reflects on the powerful connection between advocacy and healing. Speaking directly to survivors and those curious about advocacy work, she explores what it truly means to show up, offer support, and hold space for others in their darkest moments. Whether you’re seeking support or considering becoming an advocate, this episode is a reminder that you are not alone—and that healing is possible.

⚠️ Trigger Warning: This episode discusses trauma triggers and coping strategies, which may be distressing for some listeners. Please take care while listening.In this episode of Sitting in the Dark, Amy and Maci are joined by Clinical Director Nicole Everett to discuss triggers—what they are, why they happen, and how survivors can manage them. They explore common trauma responses like dissociation, emotional numbing, and anxiety, while sharing practical coping strategies to help survivors regain control and feel safe.If you or someone you know struggles with triggers, this episode offers validation, tools for healing, and hope. 💙#ManagingTriggers #HealingFromTrauma #HopeHealingJustice #SittingInTheDarkPodcast

⚠️ Trigger Warning: This episode discusses trauma and its effects on the brain, which may be distressing for some listeners. Please take care while listening.In this episode of Sitting in the Dark, Amy and Maci sit down with Clinical Director Nicole Everett to explore the neuroscience of trauma. They discuss how the brain reacts to traumatic events, why survivors may experience memory gaps or heightened stress responses, and how long-term trauma can impact mental and physical health. Most importantly, they highlight the brain’s ability to heal through neuroplasticity, therapy, and support.Tune in to gain a deeper understanding of trauma’s effects and how we can foster compassion for survivors. 💙

⚠️ Trigger Warning: This episode discusses sexual assault, multidisciplinary response, and survivor experiences. Listener discretion is advised.Episode Title: SART Roundtable – Coordinated Care for SurvivorsIn this special roundtable episode of Sitting in the Dark, hosts Amy and Maci sit down with key members of the Hunt County Sexual Assault Response Team (SART) to explore how a coordinated, multidisciplinary approach enhances support for survivors of sexual assault. You'll hear firsthand from representatives of law enforcement, the District Attorney’s office, a SANE nurse, and a victim advocate as they discuss their unique roles, challenges, and the importance of collaboration.Together, they share how SART ensures survivors are met with compassion, professionalism, and trauma-informed care from the moment a report is made through the legal process. This episode highlights the power of partnership in promoting justice and healing in our community.🎧 Tune in to learn how collaboration creates a path forward for survivors.

⚠️ Trigger Warning: This episode discusses sexual assault response and survivor support, which may be distressing for some listeners. Please take care while listening.In this episode of Sitting in the Dark, hosts Amy and Maci introduce listeners to the Sexual Assault Response Team (SART)—a multidisciplinary team dedicated to providing coordinated, survivor-centered care. They break down what SART is, who is involved, and how it helps survivors navigate the medical, legal, and advocacy systems with compassion and respect.Join us as we discuss the importance of collaboration between law enforcement, medical professionals, victim advocates, and legal experts to ensure survivors receive the support they deserve. If you’ve ever wondered how communities can create a more effective response to sexual assault, this episode is a must-listen.

⚠️ Trigger Warning: This episode discusses sexual assault and awareness efforts, which may be distressing for some listeners. Please take care while listening.In this episode of Sitting in the Dark, Amy and Maci kick off Sexual Assault Awareness Month (SAAM) by discussing why this month is so important in the fight against sexual violence. They explore the history of SAAM, the ongoing efforts to support survivors, and how individuals and communities can take action to prevent sexual assault and promote a culture of consent and respect.Join us as we shine a light on this critical issue, share resources, and encourage meaningful conversations. Together, we can create a world where sexual violence is not tolerated, and survivors are believed and supported. 💙#SAAM #SexualAssaultAwarenessMonth #HopeHealingJustice #EndSexualViolence #SittingInTheDarkPodcast

*TRIGGER WARNING*This episode discusses the immediate aftermath of a sexual assault offense, and the medical care received afterwards. Please take care of yourself, step away if needed, call our 24/7 Sexual Assault Hotline at 903-454-9999 to speak with an advocate. *Episode Details*If you've ever wondered what happens after an assault, this episode is for you. A compassionate Sexual Assault Nurse Examiner (SANE) walks us through the process—what to expect, your rights, and how they provide care with dignity and support.

We're diving into consent in this special "mini" episode.*Trigger Warning* We discuss difficult topics of sexual assault. Please take care of yourself, walk away and come back, reach out for help on our 24/7 hotline at 903-454-9999.

*Trigger Warning* We will be discussing heavy topics regarding sexual violence. Please take care of yourself; step away if needed and reach out for support.

In this episode, we introduce CCNETX to you. We include our mission, services we offer such as 24/7 sexual assault hotline, advocacy, and therapy, we talk about some team members, and how you can get involved! For more information, please visit our website at www.ccnetx.org or call 903-454-9999.

🌙 Sitting in the Dark – A video podcast for survivors, their loved ones, and the community. Created by the Crisis Center of Northeast Texas, this series offers support, education, and compassion for those navigating through the pain and uncertainty that comes after sexual assault. Because healing isn’t always linear, and sometimes, just sitting together in the dark is enough. 💙   Trigger Warning: We will be addressing sensitive topics related to sexual violence. If at any point you feel overwhelmed, please prioritize your well-being, and take a break if you need to. You may also call our 24/7 sexual assault hotline at 903-454-9999.