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SMARTER THAN TRAUMA Podcast — 532 episodes
I've said it before & why, this is the LAST TIME (there will be no nEXt time--since I won't be dating). "What is your God-given talent & how are you going to give it away?"
To find where I am typing in, must find that page that I found. I took a screenshot so...
PART II | previous posts is the "mega note" to remind self, contact T.
Next step is DIALOGUE.
Again, getting it our regarding TECH. I figured, one day, I'll find my writing & read it since I will not trigger by it.
I think this is the seed for hope...
Never thought I'd use ChatGPT, but you never know WHO is going to trigger ya...
Finally, I can hear myself, hold the thought, put ideas in proper sequence & most importantly make a CHOICE : keep or abandon.
INTENTION & EXECUTION
I'll be sharing a few things going in my life PRESENTLY. This is one of them.
PART II | why education
PART I | post EVERYTHING
ADVOCACY is a lot of numbers.
Again, just tell. I started in JUNE. Now it's July 15th. It's pretty much gone,
Exposure to numbers | Finally, it doesn't have to be private anymore.
What has helped?
5 days to respond? MORE THAN PLENTY TO UNDERSTAND, "interested?"
P3 (video editing in 3 parts : play) / number created
Wow! It's really the right choice.
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PART I | even though it came after. This is to document the adrenaline needed to prepare self for brainwork. Your brain may hurt. Kids complained. Parents swooped in. Teachers' education/knowledge abandoned.
DESCRIPTION CONTAINS ***TT*** or Trauma, Trigger. Let's really do this for the LAST TIME. There will be no nEXt time.
How many times did I talk about being ITALIAN!?
#10.
This is the transfoooooorm or STEP 3
USA!
#14
Roy Orbison | when someone says something & you're transported to that playlist...
ULTIMATE TRUST | post it without listening to it & listen tomorrow to dampen last piece of adrenaline.
I am imagining who I am speaking to---people on FB who wished me a HB.
long U was YouTube, Neptune and pronoun you.
I found YouTube. Shared 3 videos with 1 person.
1/2 | GOT IT OUT | step one.
PART II | hear self & than REFLECT (part two)
PART I | I googled TBI yesterday & I want to know if "anything" happens.
REFELCTION & a decision to...
PAST + PRESENT. I am listening to & responding to my voice. I can 100% hear is since physically, a lot of "junk" was removed by advocating for others. YAY
PRESENT DAY. Let's go through the past & let's put it away. FINALLY!
Whatever. It's over. What? Their crrrrap.
& the notes...
said it, "the worst."
The last word I said was "describe." Today, recording the "describe" the trigger (NWMH)
Why Write? (poem) Short Story (genre) | numbers, lillies & explaining how to care for over & over ~2500/100 = 25x | GrubHub and the word "level"! Exactly. What a great response :)
You start to realize you're thinking this thought because...
AFTER THIS, it'll connect to all these other "digital" spaces since I just realized---duh---this is all prolonged exposure therapy.
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I missed the deadline by 58 minutes, but that's okay. I got audio/visual (film) back.
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TO GET THE WORD & MEMORY involving the word "DIFFERENT"
Let's start some recipes. Being able to explain it is priceless...
Yea. I said, for the first time ever...
These are the people who KNEW AFTER NWMH & ADVOCATE healthcare systems. BOO!
Thank you to the person who was KIND to SPEECH DISORDER
St. IGNATIUS, DETROIT | Happy Mother's Day
SKILLS | scroll, tap, airdrop, accept, drag & drop IN ONE FOLDER | looking for numbers...
Finally, how to assist someone with NUMBER ISSUES/dyscalculia.
PART II.
PART I.
END OF ADVOCACY.
Finally, advocacy can be a dialogue. Not a monologue.
1st 6 minutes (6x4 = 24) is where the VII (very important info) is, so just listen to that. The rest of repeat repeat repeat & notes are contained in "Episode Description." OK. DIVE INTO TECH. Let's go!
& again. The black & blue bruise hue again & again until THE END.
holy cannoli. It's over. There's nothing but typing, listening & evidence of regression at the exact date & then ask GEE. WHAT CHANGE?!?
all of that to get to, "MOVING TO A BEAUTIFUL SPACE" like a showroom can instantly uplift mode.
I hear it! It's in the UK. Created a template when ptsd is removed like this injury. 2 years without PTSD.
felt COMPELLED to do so. Then realized when they did respond publicly (with their name...hmmm) it was really about...
I am into the PROVE IT game. Rude behavior. These are "friends."
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Listening to self. APRIL 18th PRIOR | all containers for ptsd.
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LAST ONE
PART II | tick tick boom
Part I | TRUST & ACCEPTANCE & SUPPORT TEAM
Part II
PART I
SUICIDE & how to assess.
Keepting data on SLEEP & why "every day is no longer a new day."
AGREEMENTS & CONSENT!
#14 | We have #s back fo' realz! THE END OF ADVOCACY IS HERE!
Getting nearer to writing or Museum Label.
In the classroom. Tick Tick Boom!
The weight of these headphones now feel great!
WORST FIRST | Christmas Letter!
Listening to these & EZ to delete [many] since I say, "Hey ____" [insert name] making it easy to quantify the worst triggers.
The Plan is INTACT since I do not want to lose my phone & yet that's where PTSD resides.
Helping others helps GAIN NEW WORDS.
ADVOCACY is LIVE.
Norman & Ida Stone Institute | this is an origin of ME LEARNING SOMETHING NEW. This care is monetized not on how much you can help, but a unit/hour.
The HOW-TO to ending *ptsd. You have to sit with it.
TO : the lovely individual who sent me "fan mail." I'm on it!
A restaurant in CHICAGO is definitely IN!
LISETNING TO NOTES in their entirety.
Thx!
HEAR SELF SAY THE WORDS OVER & OVER. OK!
"I forget if today is the day to record things."
Planning ahead.
I said "the interaction will be different."
Have background noise. Sounds like I'm moving through the house.
OPINION vs. FACT & creating that momentum for kids/people.
the name is Eugene Lipov and first charity & attached to due to diagnosis of ptsd.
dunkin' donut to remove darkest day
again. another rhyme.
To see the next day is a CONSTANT THING, but no progression to a 2nd step.
This is the apple orchard VOICE MEMO.
Next STEP | recipes with apples | I thought I was uploading 1-3 minutes. IT happens. I make MISTAKES
Just capturing an idea & yes, I've used this "replace" function a few (3-4) times. Have not uploaded [yet]
This definitely sums it up.
Losing TRUST in people is one of the worst symptoms, but it did keep me safe & most importantly, how to reestablish that?
This was recorded in first week of SEPT [2025]. & ON SAT (I know where I'm going), finally memorized the route.
FINAL PIECE & PLACEMENT
We start with WOMEN in Chicago & MEN in Michigan. Got it!
I got poe[TRY] floe[TRY] again.
awww Neppy.
First realization, do not tell these doctors things that require attention to major details. Not even minor. IT'S DANGEROUS. These narrative they make up.
What is the point of the INTRO?
DBT description & "edited" so writing in air while editing is all that is.
The picture represents the time LEFT & after listening 2m, how much time now is LEFT?
According to MY FRIEND, this WOMAN was a little scary so I would try & say at least hello & one other thing.
READING the first paragraph in how I HEARD IT | Have the best memory stick & you can only design it for a certain type of person. A real person. Did ya know, there's these levels (WOMAN. CHICAGO)
That's the ADRENALINE & I feel it.
I know I'm ITALIAN since I grew up listening to it IN THE HOUSE.
WOW | The character I said, "that's you!"
I said once I begin reading, I'll read what I wrote knowing, "oh that's safe. It's me. Oh great. Let's see."
US vs. THEM
Just DO YOUR BEST.
there's EMPHATICS. Better than mumbling. SCANNING for voice memos 1 minute or less. Symptoms elevated, REDUCE NUMBER.
Focus on the prompting event. Not the sensory sooooo much.
It will be too much to organize these AUDIO DIGITAL NOTES taken under duress when their noise was loudest.
TECH's a wreck. NECK's in check.
PART ONE | the INTRO after listening to PART TWO (will upload after I get into the office)
COMPOSITION | just takes ONE [friend]
This is how we put the bullies away.
The Last Noise are SAFE DETROIT VOICES
spits, spurts, pops & stops.
It's 8:59. TIME FOR THE BOARD MEETING
Wednesday was THE BEST DAY. The word is "see." The video for the word SEE due to someone "testing me." It's always a test. Yes, I do not get those words.
The Thing That Absolutely Ends Trauma is to Share IT with the Right Person [so they can remind me]
Finally, I can start looking at all the notes in 23+ digital containers for PTSD.
Moving side-to-side; Am listening to self. OMG. It's wild, but it is what was on the INSIDE.
I'll relive people messing with me.
I do NOT vouch for you.
just say it once & I promise, you will survive & fear will decrease.
When you know... it "hits" you.
especially with elderly or lonely | just check in on them.
non-response
K-W-L & I mention Scotland. Just choose a random "digital note."
listening to "FB Scotland" & I definitely have TV unlocked, meaning, 100% access to this previous trigger.
Reading the description in the previous podcast and adding to it. Because the word is truly. That’s how I got the word back.
THE END, truly
Wow. Saying it (present tense)
Picnics & how the story will be told by TWO he/him…
Recorded 2/25 & posted 12/28
The last word is/was IT | flipped it to INdependent & INtact
I am now listening to self | IT IS FAST & A LOT | who tells ya first? "You're triggering"
Easy or Hard life? That is the first Y or N question to ask people who show a little "stuck in the past" behavior. Don't let the past rule you. FLIP IT! It's all information for you if you WANT TO DO ADVOCACY & really change lives.
WHO & WHAT & WHERE... who taught you?
When certain SINGLE WORDS STICK.
"I will not lose music!" When I screamed this, I was in the PLACE of VIOLENCE
Wedding seed dropped. This just means "get it out." Then it's not "scary," since it's the first time, that anticipation that is the mental, emotional or physical hurdle.
FINally, the seed for marriage.
HAPPY THANKSGIVING & first time, but no reflection. What the heck is in here?
Y'know what? That is true love. | This monologue contains "The Groper" & what to do (seed to zoom in on since I'm not alone)
the color ORANGE is for accountability & transparency & is a BF to never forget (now deceased)
now a segue or a BRIDGE | the first bridges crossed was in England.
brought to you by the city of DETROIT
WHO, WHAT & WHERE?
FINALLY. ART!
unlocked LSC & that' Dave or David. What's your name?
You first need MEASURABLE DATA (quantifiable) & not anecdotal.
GOING.COMING | words are hard sometimes
13 minutes left & movies.
No need to keep going with this since finally, the adrenaline/anticipation/dread is no longer there & replaced with simple words of kindness & reliability.
There will be no PART I & PART II since I'm realizing I am ahead of this.
PART ONE | then we'll get back to dropping those seeds.
#12. Meaning, ahead of number 11 & also GOAL-SETTING & that PT who would make an easy goal & then achieve it & do nothing.
SEED THREE is 3 minutes long. That is universe/God or modern day www (Wild Wild West) saying STAY HERE or don't die.
SEED TWO was Food but lost it. SEED THREE INTRO (posted below, but no numbers, no title) | "when doing something new, it'll get worse than better, I promise."
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SEED ONE | liberté, égalité, fraternité
INTRO to SEED DROPPING & how to organize this shIT. the "t" sound is left out at the end. First dropped letter sounds: m, p, t, c/k/ck | every podcast will have a YOUtube link since it's all about you/it. WHO was just telling me off/putting me down/orderi
EXPRESSIVE or NON0-EXPRESSIVE | TBI | been reliving a memory for past 2-3 days.
TBI & why I've learned, don't wait.
IN THE OFFICE because of the one act of kindness.
The Road Map.
"That's what I sound like?"
Well, I heard it, finally.
RED | I completely redid my bathroom (the worst first) & made it red & disability friendly. No threshold shower & touch-free
the word is OTHER.
IDENTIFY ROADBLOCKS to WRITING | editing!
TWO 10 minute voice memos re: customer service & a TWITTER UPDATE
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***TRIGGER WARNING*** In conclusion : it's working
THEME : superheroes
COMMUNICATION IS A TWO-WAY STREET
start with SPEECH
In conclusion, it works.
TRIGGER WARNING | suicide & feedback on strategy (validation)
Validating suicide so it doesn't happen to get to YEAR TWO | need for validation & grooming (learned this word in 2018. If I was aware before, could I have stopped it from settling in?)
This could literally go on forever, but I think we're here finally | suicide
PART ONE | recorded second
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GROK | first time | X
can we begIN?
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example of fairly clear scheduling request.
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allergies to cats & CLEANING!
repeat #s
looking at photos to purposely retriever or do what they did but this time with consent. Ok, I'm getting this methodology
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Said it again | "significant" or "significance" & first lesson plan (LP) will be HYDROTHERAPY
iReady to FLIP TRAUMA
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13m04s of NOTES (in pic) | 90% of curriculum since was aware when speaking; these words on REPLAY (not theirs)
COVER ART is in BLUE NOTEBOOK
MOVIES | are they getting what's going on? JUST ASK
This contains all the best parts of ADVOCACY
This is THE END.
Worst first? How do you know the worst? Just count. "You get dizzy." Now think, is this audio or visual?
Today is September 17, 2025 & two people in two days have said, "you sound different" & then explained. There's that difference again. WHY difference is a good thing [if you want to assess self & keep POWERFUL data]
I've said this to SO MANY OF MY FRIENDS & I brought it up repeatedly to give them an opportunity/classroom to be DIFFERENT
unlocked PASTA, finally.
ADVOCACY 101
PART TWO first (?) | a little confused, but the point is ADVOCACY 101 + remembering the organizational "notes"
PART ONE
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GET IT OUT
Not knowing how to COMBAT ABUSE OF POWER is mental
FULL CIRLCE | explained it verbally 1x. In-the-moment :) & that's why one day, you'll HEAR YOUR VOICE*
seed for V or VICTORY. The origin being Vietnam.
REINFORCEMENT 100% of the time. These women who had to talk to me about my body...
the FINAL PROGRESS MONITORING DATE IS this one | time-stamped by Buzzsprout
Then practice that word TALK.
THE END. When you get that word change so no more VOICE, NOISE, CHOICE, DUBOIS. just TALK
...3 & then...
...2...
This will be as easy as 1...
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Posted "that"
FIRST CHARITY | veterans | find a veteran/expert in their field?
CORRECTING MISTAKE & adding a lot more!
HEARD SELF | Correction, future tense (Will*) and capitalized since it's a name FIRST, then a future tense
GOAL | get into QUIET OFFICE. Always a need for some background noise once was able to stop talking that helps to diminish vertigo/head pain (~APRIL 2025)
REFLECTION | automatic/instant & reminds me, this is going to be easy without PTSD. Thank God!
WE WROTE THE MORAL CODE down (then the bro code)
CHINA.
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GOAL : completed (all of them at same time to create that EQUAL IMPACT or LEARNING!)
10 is/was "wake up & do this all over again" or the AM/PM mantra to keep teaching...
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WROTE NOTES | First Time
ONTO the STRATEGIES, but not all here. HERE Is the organizational plan.
Numbers & TV & tech.
HOPE again.
That IMPACT isn't there.
RAPID SPEECH was the adrenaline & the conversations I had with people about this. NO RESPONSE.
Speed in speech was the adrenaline.
Finally. I GOT THERE & didn't have to share every single thing. FOR A PURPOSE.
Best & the Worst [companies]. Beginning today & "What's advocacy?" It's not attaching to a cause. It's getting all the FACTS & getting those FACTS to anyone who is going through a "first time" so they make THE BEST DECISION (Wisemind)
INTRODUCING an Idea. How a bell sound can remove audio triggers IF attached the the safest people.
X & Buzzsprout (where I podcast this) both count down to the second.
17, 18, 19 = sequence
I heard, "...exposure to evil," & that was in previous podcast.
KOHLS
THANK YOU to those who taught me, "give up."
Why those around you WHO KNOW (not everyone has to) is your REPRESENT. Isn't that a political word? Who represents you?
CORRECTION | depending on the people (individual), Chicago can be a safe space.
Yesterday was November 8, 2022.
SHARING disability in the only place I kept feeling "compelled" to go to on replay | that guided me to "the body" (The Eucharist)
The combination of COMPANIES (made up of people) & individual PEOPLE throughout history who thought differently
COMPOSITION SIX | & this weekend, I will ask someone to "take it back" literally since they gave me some Asian-centric gift.
NO TEARS & then REAL TEARS
THIS IS MY BACK when I rotate left leg & hip side to side ~ 45 degrees while in supine position.
NOTES | listening to self keep track of notes. Posting with timestamps/dates. (progress monitoring in IDEA)
DROPPING THE SEED for Michigan, Writing, Photos & LIVE (that's X. With news; it counts to the seconds)
COMPOSITION ONE is a Diary | Amsterdam is the place.
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STEP THREE | transform it into something that can help others
STEP TWO | the reflection
STEP ONE | get it out (hopes & desires)
TRYING TO GET OUT of the HOUSE (on-time still) | use your voice.
CORRECTION | whatsApp and heard self as well as www research...
Seed for WhatsApp, male bullying & video (with consent) | RELIABILITY. You say what you're going to do or update matters #mentalHealth #ptsd #confusion #whathappened #questioning
BACKGROUND NOISE as a distraction & what do I listen to?
There were two "get it out" (STEP ONE) and a reflection later, but I didn't upload.
I do not hear ANY REFLECTION | PART TWO
I do not hear ANY REFLECTION | PART ONE
A true deadline & the first I've made since the beginning. Scroll all the way down = June 9, 2022. PROGRESS/RECOVERY does take time.
I listened to a lot & each day is an opportunity to lay a foundation for tomorrow, if you recall the day before (yesterday)
WORLD TWO | POEM TWO | to, too, 2
SAME BEHAVIOR | why ptsd exists | warning!
SEED : video & start with the best #adoptdontshop
Finally, SPONTANEOUS CONVERSATION | just write the scene & emphasis of importance of giving people your time/attention/energy to MAKE NEW MEMORIES
NOTES in Description. Origin of WORLD ONE | Who provided the word "significant?" since it was during survival when asking about PHOTOS. 4 Categories in SURVIVAL
NOTES in DESCRIPTION since that is the worst neurologist ever & a starting point to dampen photos with an xmas letter. CORRECTION : writing workshop or literature discussion
Plant the seed for TECH & why it's so difficult. There's all these bits & pieces and also, I've never wanted to be connected to tech [due to threats to loved ones]
(NOTES : read the description) origin: IVAN | CURIOUS ABOUT how to know if someone's curiosity is genuine or simply a way to be manipulative.
TV says it better sometimes or a memory connects | Consent was spoken about every day in terms of GOOD CHOICES (what do you consent to), mental health or TREATMENT & identifying r-culture
Making calls is, no was, difficult. Never with advocacy.
Aware & Awake | this was a phrase I'd say for step one (be aware) & then step two (now awake) that yes, this memory is on [ptsd] replay
I didn't know you could CHANGE YOUR NAME (learning tech through tech)
April 19, 2025 | not everyone who experiences health concerns will be "KIND" (see description)
the word NOPE is like no, but it's not the same.
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mm & MM
This first time AUDIO TRIGGER refers to the excuse, "this is my first time" & was always with "my parents didn't teach me."
Y/N Question ASKED & if no response, that's a "no."
Reflection or STEP TWO | what comes up immediately after-the-moment
"PRIVATE SCHOOL CHOICE --past & present" | American Educator, FALL 2017
the final F word.
TAKE A BREAK & tomorrow*...
Take a break. The first PART is MUSIC (how many people have you known who listen to the same song over & over again?)
Same words almost. Different content totally.
LAST WORD is "Nebraska" & when people repeat themselves over & over again...
Not sure I recorded this then, but maybe since I saw a lot of kids being bullied, but the first... oh my.
Just wrote about this. Now I hear it. That's it.
UNLOCKED TV | for some, the best voices. For me, sometimes they just say it better
I used to watch KOREAN HORROR with one person. Only those that needed to know a) why I'm not into horror much b) after assaults, I won't be going to the movies with you--sorry
SCENE | when you hear something the same way for a long time, just write it & see if the next day, it's less.
Those who repeat themselves & those who repeat with a purpose---to get a reaction.
Tomorrow, will be calling BEST BUY | customer service.
PTSD present & why instead of "that," I'll listen to "this" <---previous two podcasts
First Step | get consent (must understand what advocacy is) & must be sober
Let's Begin | Advocacy, TBI, Chronic Pain & PTSD
Dropping the seeds for multi-tasking (evident) and ahead of ptsd (evident) and checked desire (still there) & knowledge (evident through conversation and thank goodness, I can hear OUR VOICES)
LAST THING is the new Reflections. Just an afterthought.
THE REFLECTION | "go find. your passion/God given talent & give it away."*
SEED for Women's Clothing, finally.
The Reflection or STEP TWO
To go back to the beginning | Putting on this on film as a way to GET IT OUT
PTSD EPISODE | completely different than last time (when was that?) & SELF TALK THROUGH IT
I ended PTSD with a scrunchy. You'll have to watch the YouTube to see it. Also, when you're entering someone's home, give them a head's up if there's a +1 (basics)
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My regrets & THE SEED for reclaiming a space (you have to invite people in)
REFLECTION : what's the one thing said just moments ago you hear again? 10 ("wake up & do this all over again") in all & then DONE.
When you have ONE SKILL (numbers, dates, times) KEEP DOING STEP-BY-STEP & make those calls.
Since I've made a lot of boundaries this 3 minute (it all comes in 3s) podcast is the FINAL LINE...
CONFIRMED : numbers intact & also, the first seed to consent. WHO you let into your house & WHY. Sometimes it the people that describe others.
DEADLINE. APRIL 14, 2024. I meant, April 15, 2025.
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MEGAN MANNING now that meghan markle (little m for "what a little man," said the student--right on!) since both were ptsd prompting events (or triggers since removing that word since overused & becoming desensitized to it)
At the base of the stairs at the ACME HOTEL. CHICAGO, IL, there is a name.
in print or AHA moment & OPRAH connecting to digital or The Tig since got all the information I could from these ptsd moments
FULL CIRLCE & to remove the snippets of another interview & timestamp something extraordinary | the end to PTSD connecting to radiating nerve pain, also dissipating.
Dr. Sophie Chandauka's interview | LISTENING & RESPONDING to remove ptsd created by Board of Directions in cahoots with The Building Group. Chicago, IL, USA
TRANSITIONS | first, but not only component in an IEP. MATERIALS | in a lesson plan. STICK + ROCK + STEEL + WOOD are materials that flipped Teaching was a tt**
POST PTSD | Truly a new day.
COMPOSITION 8 or "Words Better Than Great" or ADJECTIVES | I had 8 minutes to upload this month & now ahead of it.
PART THREE | WOKE UP, SAID STUFF & now, we can write.
PART TWO | spontaneous conversation is littered throughout
PART ONE | woke up, had thoughts, said them in ~50 to realize the first sentence in 9 compositions, but gotta know the FIRST ONE FIRST
the trigger is "PERFECT," & someone saying it all the time---origin of get it out truly---just stfu. Anyway, this description is not accurate imo when you bully woman (& from another woman) aye aye aye aye aye
THE END : on Linked In. GET IT OUT. Then hashtags what you recall in a reflection. Note if it's anything (tbi). Then write in the description. Check if it's full capacity or not. If not, then it's NO LONGER CONTAINER for ptsd
DECEMBER 10, 2024 | reading study guide
[their] GENERALIZATIONS taught me about how to remove [their] SPECIFIC TRAUMA
ONE TIME ONE TIME ONLY
4 hours until midnight, but doesn't matter because "lost a day."
STEP TWO
STEP ONE
THE LAST ONE | next will be dialogue & removing CHARITY (mostly Chicago, some Michigan)
Here's the voice when trying something new...
SPARE & HEIR connection | being treated differently.
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I don't FEEL it anymore!
LISTEN TO SELF & GO THROUGH OFFICE.
I trust what I said.
when CONVO matches the SYMBOLISM/ASSOCIATION
The first step...
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HERE IS THE PLAN | we start explaining dogs & the group are MEN, WOMAN & COUPLES | when you see their perspective it explains everything & tick tick boom, ptsd goes away! It's the shock that hurts. Than the awesomeness of how easy this was going to be.
DIGITAL NOTES & just "say it" THEN DO IT | label documents way better
NEW DAY & A NEW WAY TO END "their trauma" (write it little since it's insignificant | first visual reminder that WHOA, that perp is bigger! Realizing that's not rational so first feeling of FEAR)
NOTES
I heard Megan...
Just say it. THE WORST FIRST [you can tackle every trigger/flashback after that since it's not the worst\
That's the plan & going through the office...
The Real Life Meaningful Experiences do matter | Aisha Kazi and what exactly are you paying for?
When reading, you can tell HOW YOU FEEL.
DEADLINE | when behavior flips on tech which is the worst thing since I cannot follow it & 100% trigger.
They can't answer ONE simple question, but all this EMOTION comes up...
CDL Part II | Do these things matter?
CONTAINS A NAME | now it's gone.
SEE PREVIOUS POST
HOMELESS ADVOCACY is SUPPORT WITH ADDICTION [& how I first learned consent]
Homeless advocacy is TECH SUPPORT
...wasn't meant for you. A LATE BLOOMER & what does that mean.
...put away marketing. I'm not a commodity.
when "VERIFIABLE PROOF" came into my life & PURPOSE of a MOBILE PHONE | call record
MORE WORDS.
this is a long one | I think this one is the influencer one.
this one HAS VISUALS so this one. Listen to again...
again...
pronoun is I[dentity] & trauma is IT or "I"ndescribable "T"rauma
In advocacy, this happens A LOT.
POETRY | to battle their brutality
the site is FACEBOOK.
that guy again.
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Take a sound walk with me | used to do this with my students whenever OUT & ABOUT
UGH | get it out & then it goes away because I recall that PIZZA MAKING DATE NIGHT (the most important bit is why?)
ADVOCACY is a DIALOGUE, not a MONOLOGUE | part one
STEP ONE | inspired by them...
So when there's no FEAR, you can just say it & I don't have to break it up again.
the DATE on this recording is September 16, 2024
January 14, 2024 | still visuals since there's VISUAL TRIGGERS. When there's not, I report there's not and it's a VERY GOOD THING.
The next step to KNOW | can you rebuild trust?
BOD pt. III
BOD pt. II | Can listen to the entire thing. Why there's no YOUtube visual component.
Board of Directors or BOD (to dampen not having "comfort in my bod" due to repeated predatory behaviors.
Introducing 15/18 homeless client | consent to record granted | wants to help others NOW that at last step!
I caught suicide. I've been capturing it every time I went on periscope...
PART TWO | since the video was too long, had to splice it in two...
PAT ONE | just more words
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Now, a count UP. 1/10
Untitled Episode : omg, I didn't write in every container! It is truly over since it's DIFFERENT. That's prolonged exposure therapy, but instead of writing, I had to rely on www (ha!)
All the biological uptick of ptsd is gone & now able to follow-through with what I said I would do. Contact those who I said at one point, "I'm highly injured. I'll contact you when I can." How many years has it been? & why are these [sensory] memories on
Words Do Something to me with PAST & PRESENT verbatim triggers [until now]
& the Reflection. This podcast & the one prior is to the 1-2 punch/kick/stab/choke/belittle combo.
Third Round 🥊 When you get IT out of the body with ART, We All Win. What's your preferred outlet? Mine's my voice. Now add beats.
The only thing I can remember is I may have repeated self a bit & at the end, yes, u take back that suicide shhhhh. Not mine once you name it/say it/spray it & finally slay/write IT/fight IT so u will not deny it. I don't have control over that. God will
This contains poetry, but to get there, you'll have to find the YouTube...
We are going to Elevate Difference & NOT be like them. I reject their words, ideas, behaviors, philosophies & the MOTIVATION/INTENTION when you ask, "why?" | I lost this, but when I got it back, you really do have an inner voice that will pop up. Listen t
When you confront the people who created the trigger & you get their response---that's it---first step--WHAT DO YOU THINK?--now use that info to make further interventions like, NO, I do not consent to talking to you without the other person.
When you can hear you voice, you can hear what you said & finish the thought/sentence. DONE
Advocacy is a dialogue, but can also be a monologue ***TRIGGER WARNINGS*** we discuss fake art activist & intent to create ****.
unLOCKed TV
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JUST SAY IT | brainwashing
2-WAY CONSENT for recording & why that's a law/felony. This creates tt. Lowercase to validate, on the way out, but also, "no respect"
PART III | & then you stop... because IT is NOT there anymore :)
THIS MAY HAVE BEEN UPLOADED EARLIER | will check time, but ultimately... it has highest # (so I know, choice isn't intact)
PART III | I don't have to share the whole convo. I just have to LISTEN TO MY VOICE
The Dark[ness] is OK if (a) never forget WHO (b) fight to ensure NEVER HAPPENS AGAIN
GOAL : find convo regarding Mr. Baker (notes for Monday | What to find/email & Who to call (E)
When the shock of HOW EASY PEOPLE USE THEIR TRAUMA TO... or CHANGE THEIR NARRATIVE...
PART II | May 9th, something incredible happened. Will upload a lot of that since the "in between time" I think is...
PART ONE | how difficult it is when everyone is promoting communication COMPARE/CONTRAST with those actively trying to disconnect
part ONE of many | before & after THE FALL | anticipation & will to float & the reality of trauma & triggers (NOW tt) is stated very clearly the very thing said specifically. IF/THEN.
Note-taking & Starting to Write out "their words" verbatim since I think it'll end ptsd.
Listen to VMs & delete/abandon anything that does NOT fit into methodology.
This is where I can end. UPLOAD VISUAL & delete this.
Megan Manning PREWRITING
When you FIND THE TRIGGER & ADDRESS IT, IT does go away.
Just keep moving...
the prompting event was the brainwashing/grooming/mental, physical, s.a & more, but the CONTINUATION was awareness that the connective thread is INSANE GREED (on the backs of kids with special needs & misuse/abuse of mental health) & AVOIDANCE OF Qs
2nd STEP : whatever you hear (in this case, previous 2 podcasts) REFLECT
PICK-UP pt. II
PICK-UP pt. I
No time stress. No need for visual triggers. No nothing. It's over, so now what?
Hearing self. Yes, Getting back to a day to day schedule, at last. Find the Meghan M. convos and while searching, will force self to listen to everything else & make decisions. Keep or Abandon.
I a still figuring it out | Am avoiding since not sure if I have all the skills necessary if I have to TOUCH paper in the office since OUT-OF-SIGHT-OUT-OF-MIND makes organization very hard
I learned how to swim ~Wednesday, February 17. When people know your weaknesses they will take advantage. He knew I was dizzy & we sent xmas cards (THE CHRISTMAS LETTER & need for photos) stating we're moving to CO.
It's a new day! A new way to end trauma. Hip hip hooray!
The time is 11:58PM (sssstress, but nothing like anticipating those monthly meetings) & how can I sum up my time here in 2 minutes? 100% created by b.o.d./tbg & number 17
HEALTHCARE : 2nd go & this time, we don't wait for NWMH/neurologist to respond (are you going to testify or not? You said, "I'm on the side of kids with special needs," yvonne 😐) We do it LIVE (in-the-moment) since learned, they want you to lose it/die. S
FIRST TIME : specific triggers connected to tv/film seed planted GOAL : go to the movies
First Time : plant the seed TONIGHT so tomorrow, I remember exactly the next step.
HELPFUL, HAPPY & HEALTHY!
reliving CHASE (first time writing a letter) & now, I have to write another one
The objective is to continuously HEAR SELF (by listening to everything recorded) until all ptsd is gone.
Let's Explain FILMS are WAY TOO REAL. The seed... planted YEARS AGO.
More Methodology | Aim for 3 hours | Removing Media, too | One day, will explain it
What was written in here was already written in there. TODAY IS January 3rd, 2024. Happy New Year! Getting rid of media.
FIND THE OTHER TWO MESSAGES & of course the one I left with receptionists <---safest people ever.
New Day : just get it out to UNDERSTAND STRATEGY of layering.
The greatest impact since made a decision about this space. No need to post audio triggers, try to explain or connect audio with visual. NOT EFFECTIVE as simply getting a response [from the right people]
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PART ONE : mm/mm. (let's do the LAST CONVERSATION first & interrupted so TIMESTAMP is today at 1:16)
Advocate Aurora Illinois & making sure your voice gets heard
NWMH
1st time listening & sharing SAFE VOICES. When OTHERS GIVE YOU YOUR WORDS back, but also...
It's a New Day & That Means a New Way to End Trauma every Day since I Slay, Spray & WILL Say What I Want to Say! Ok?
TOUCH is no longer a PROBLEM & why you can now follow my poetry that was created while under duress & during eustress.
The methodology is LIVE.
Mr. Baker is going to school! My job is to make your dreams come true #teacher
BITS from NOVEMBER 2022 an why say what you want to say each & every day.
More important stuff & just in-the-moment & want to get rid of media & what helps TBI? repeat repeat repeat. TECH IS GREAT AT THAT!
Droppin' seed for MM (PT manager) in first 10 seconds (visual) & first time hearing self after recordings since had to remove LAST NAME. Why said it repeatedly to remind self, listen to this one!
GOAL : Know Every Day (I leave the seeds from the previous day to "pick up" the next day) "to get" every day.
11/1 because I "caught it" & can write the next step in this process.
Blast from the past : VOICE while triggering & on phone with doctor.
FIND THE ORIGIN & homeless advocacy since comfort was found in those I saw one & over walking the same way to NWMH.
it stARTs tonight & the best words before I had my own were media, but specifically musical ones.
This is where we start. THE IDEA was given to me by D.M...
PART II : it's true, when you can say/hear you're name, the trauma of someone reNAMING you has ended.
PART ONE : now, we're connecting the dots & why KEEP SPEAKING
First time reading (Wilson method) a book (weight) while recording (non-consent): check the date. I've gotten a lot better & more...
Very Happy to Announce, I have #s so we're starting again with SEASON 1 EPISODE 1 : triggered by Chicago Police Department (CPD) led to seed planted for Chicago Parks District (CPD) & Larry Labiak.
https://youtu.be/bKwu7ZrlKs8
This podcast is to state TOMORROW, IT BEGINS
how to plant seed for making phone calls. Unfortunately, it is to say "RECORD" to help TBI. They will not be honest, but it's a strategy that works
This is called Evidence (referring to Twitter), but also how to remove choking
Dropping seeds for CHASE BANK (account manager) & TWO HEALTHCARE SYSTEMS.
Harvestin' Time for AFT (planted seeds in previous podcast created by HOPE of the new Chicago mayor)
Dropping seeds & AFT (American Federation of Teachers) & Chicago has a NEW MAYOR
Missed the DEADline (18th/monthly by 12ET) but I know why 17-18 has been a trigger
when PTSD triggers are (a) lying to my face (b) lying on paper like a health record or NOT submitting incident repots (c) hypocrisy/contradictions with motivation to (1) avoid questions (2) avoid consequence, how to ensure SUICIDE does not "pop up" when h
SEASON 10 : wake up & do it all over again. Whaaaaat??? (thx Oprah & MM) | Advocate/speak for those who were unable to in (a) public school (b) healthcare system (c) bystander abuse on a board of directors/groups (d) employment discrimination if unwilling
SEASON 10 : wake-up & do IT all over again | First time LISTENING & EDITING (& posting with plenty of time before deadline) in its entirety!
Did 7 before 11PM CT & that was the only goal. Do more. THANK YOU.
Compare THIS MONTH to all PREVIOUS MONTHS & the difference is NO VIDEO/NO iMOVIE (easier to post)
RECOGNIZE without VISUAL/VIDEO/iMOVIE connecting to VISUAL (sensory) triggers & THREATS using tech (an origin!), podcasting just voice is EASY.
INTRO : suicide. Don't know what what was said & the point with TBI/concussion/trauma. GET IT OUT.
NEXT SUICIDE with VISUAL TRIGGERS
SEASON 5 | part II & how technology or "the universe" will decide to put away how I had no choice & when under duress, sensory was truly on SURVIVAL MODE ALL THE TIME.
SEASON 5 is all about LIVE STREAMING the METHODOLOGY
Advocacy is a DIALOGUE not always a MONOLOGUE
firsTime sharing "Flo' Is the Intro"
Exposure to visuals & just try to EXPLAIN/TALK while looking/seeing/processing what I'm looking at.
I have ONE hour left. I want to EXPLAIN the visuals--now that ahead of VOICE
Chicago Parks District, Chicago Public Schools, Chicago Teachers Union & some companies, charities, organizations & tag twats. Not all at once, but kind of.
12th EPISODE | took a break due to the B.O.D. (threats in annual meeting) & the words, "nice welcome, Jamie."
SEASON PART I FINALE | part two is using my mobile since it's tech & it was all bad... but now, better.
Season 2 | episode 4 | case study since at one point I witnessed 4 people talking to each across each other & all at once. I remember thinking, they do NOT communicate. More evidence to come.
SEASON TWO | episode three | I don't remember & why I am rebuilding TRUST with my WORDS, my VOICE & no fear when they use strategies that really aren't effective...
SEASON TWO | episode two | describe the triggers & isolate the sensory to remove the biological acute symptoms of ptsd
SEASON TWO | episode one | GET IT DonE
INTRO SEASON TWO : since I did not make goal or posting in JULY
EPISODE 5 : still can't "hear" it, but I think the next one will have an intro en point. Thank you!
FIRST NAME in 4 podcasts
I trust what I said when I said it : EPISODE : until I can hear my voice again | acknowledging that I still can't hear my VOICE
2nd Podcast : now hidden, but how I got out of Advocacy. Due to being taken advantage of (TBI/PCS/WOW) no thanks.
Smarter Than Trauma presents SMART E MC | episode one | still can't hear voice