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These are the people who KNEW AFTER NWMH & ADVOCATE healthcare systems. BOO!

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Thank you to the person who was KIND to SPEECH DISORDER

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St. IGNATIUS, DETROIT | Happy Mother's Day

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SKILLS | scroll, tap, airdrop, accept, drag & drop IN ONE FOLDER | looking for numbers...

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Finally, how to assist someone with NUMBER ISSUES/dyscalculia.

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PART II.

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PART I.

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END OF ADVOCACY.

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Finally, advocacy can be a dialogue. Not a monologue.

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1st 6 minutes (6x4 = 24) is where the VII (very important info) is, so just listen to that. The rest of repeat repeat repeat & notes are contained in "Episode Description." OK. DIVE INTO TECH. Let's go!

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& again. The black & blue bruise hue again & again until THE END.

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holy cannoli. It's over. There's nothing but typing, listening & evidence of regression at the exact date & then ask GEE. WHAT CHANGE?!?

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all of that to get to, "MOVING TO A BEAUTIFUL SPACE" like a showroom can instantly uplift mode.

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I hear it! It's in the UK. Created a template when ptsd is removed like this injury. 2 years without PTSD.

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felt COMPELLED to do so. Then realized when they did respond publicly (with their name...hmmm) it was really about...

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Untitled Episode

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I am into the PROVE IT game. Rude behavior. These are "friends."

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Listening to self. APRIL 18th PRIOR | all containers for ptsd.

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Untitled Episode

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LAST ONE

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PART II | tick tick boom

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Part I | TRUST & ACCEPTANCE & SUPPORT TEAM

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Part II

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PART I

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SUICIDE & how to assess.

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Keepting data on SLEEP & why "every day is no longer a new day."

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AGREEMENTS & CONSENT!

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#14 | We have #s back fo' realz! THE END OF ADVOCACY IS HERE!

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Getting nearer to writing or Museum Label.

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In the classroom. Tick Tick Boom!

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The weight of these headphones now feel great!

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WORST FIRST | Christmas Letter!

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Listening to these & EZ to delete [many] since I say, "Hey ____" [insert name] making it easy to quantify the worst triggers.

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The Plan is INTACT since I do not want to lose my phone & yet that's where PTSD resides.

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Helping others helps GAIN NEW WORDS.

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ADVOCACY is LIVE.

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Norman & Ida Stone Institute | this is an origin of ME LEARNING SOMETHING NEW. This care is monetized not on how much you can help, but a unit/hour.

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The HOW-TO to ending *ptsd. You have to sit with it.

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TO : the lovely individual who sent me "fan mail." I'm on it!

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A restaurant in CHICAGO is definitely IN!

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LISETNING TO NOTES in their entirety.

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Thx!

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HEAR SELF SAY THE WORDS OVER & OVER. OK!

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"I forget if today is the day to record things."

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Planning ahead.

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I said "the interaction will be different."

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Have background noise. Sounds like I'm moving through the house.

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OPINION vs. FACT & creating that momentum for kids/people.

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the name is Eugene Lipov and first charity & attached to due to diagnosis of ptsd.

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dunkin' donut to remove darkest day

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again. another rhyme.

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To see the next day is a CONSTANT THING, but no progression to a 2nd step.

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This is the apple orchard VOICE MEMO.

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Next STEP | recipes with apples | I thought I was uploading 1-3 minutes. IT happens. I make MISTAKES

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Just capturing an idea & yes, I've used this "replace" function a few (3-4) times. Have not uploaded [yet]

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This definitely sums it up.

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Losing TRUST in people is one of the worst symptoms, but it did keep me safe & most importantly, how to reestablish that?

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This was recorded in first week of SEPT [2025]. & ON SAT (I know where I'm going), finally memorized the route.

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FINAL PIECE & PLACEMENT

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We start with WOMEN in Chicago & MEN in Michigan. Got it!

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I got poe[TRY] floe[TRY] again.

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awww Neppy.

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First realization, do not tell these doctors things that require attention to major details. Not even minor. IT'S DANGEROUS. These narrative they make up.

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What is the point of the INTRO?

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DBT description & "edited" so writing in air while editing is all that is.

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The picture represents the time LEFT & after listening 2m, how much time now is LEFT?

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According to MY FRIEND, this WOMAN was a little scary so I would try & say at least hello & one other thing.

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READING the first paragraph in how I HEARD IT | Have the best memory stick & you can only design it for a certain type of person. A real person. Did ya know, there's these levels (WOMAN. CHICAGO)

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That's the ADRENALINE & I feel it.

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I know I'm ITALIAN since I grew up listening to it IN THE HOUSE.

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WOW | The character I said, "that's you!"

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I said once I begin reading, I'll read what I wrote knowing, "oh that's safe. It's me. Oh great. Let's see."

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US vs. THEM

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Just DO YOUR BEST.

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there's EMPHATICS. Better than mumbling. SCANNING for voice memos 1 minute or less. Symptoms elevated, REDUCE NUMBER.

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Focus on the prompting event. Not the sensory sooooo much.

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It will be too much to organize these AUDIO DIGITAL NOTES taken under duress when their noise was loudest.

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TECH's a wreck. NECK's in check.

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PART ONE | the INTRO after listening to PART TWO (will upload after I get into the office)

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COMPOSITION | just takes ONE [friend]

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This is how we put the bullies away.

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The Last Noise are SAFE DETROIT VOICES

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spits, spurts, pops & stops.

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It's 8:59. TIME FOR THE BOARD MEETING

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Wednesday was THE BEST DAY. The word is "see." The video for the word SEE due to someone "testing me." It's always a test. Yes, I do not get those words.

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The Thing That Absolutely Ends Trauma is to Share IT with the Right Person [so they can remind me]

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Finally, I can start looking at all the notes in 23+ digital containers for PTSD.

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Moving side-to-side; Am listening to self. OMG. It's wild, but it is what was on the INSIDE.

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I'll relive people messing with me.

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I do NOT vouch for you.

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just say it once & I promise, you will survive & fear will decrease.

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When you know... it "hits" you.

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especially with elderly or lonely | just check in on them.

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non-response

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K-W-L & I mention Scotland. Just choose a random "digital note."

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listening to "FB Scotland" & I definitely have TV unlocked, meaning, 100% access to this previous trigger.

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Reading the description in the previous podcast and adding to it. Because the word is truly. That’s how I got the word back.

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THE END, truly

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Wow. Saying it (present tense)

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Picnics & how the story will be told by TWO he/him…

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Recorded 2/25 & posted 12/28

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The last word is/was IT | flipped it to INdependent & INtact

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I am now listening to self | IT IS FAST & A LOT | who tells ya first? "You're triggering"

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Easy or Hard life? That is the first Y or N question to ask people who show a little "stuck in the past" behavior. Don't let the past rule you. FLIP IT! It's all information for you if you WANT TO DO ADVOCACY & really change lives.

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WHO & WHAT & WHERE... who taught you?

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When certain SINGLE WORDS STICK.

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"I will not lose music!" When I screamed this, I was in the PLACE of VIOLENCE

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Wedding seed dropped. This just means "get it out." Then it's not "scary," since it's the first time, that anticipation that is the mental, emotional or physical hurdle.

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FINally, the seed for marriage.

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HAPPY THANKSGIVING & first time, but no reflection. What the heck is in here?

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Y'know what? That is true love. | This monologue contains "The Groper" & what to do (seed to zoom in on since I'm not alone)

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the color ORANGE is for accountability & transparency & is a BF to never forget (now deceased)

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now a segue or a BRIDGE | the first bridges crossed was in England.

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brought to you by the city of DETROIT

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WHO, WHAT & WHERE?

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FINALLY. ART!

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unlocked LSC & that' Dave or David. What's your name?

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You first need MEASURABLE DATA (quantifiable) & not anecdotal.

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GOING.COMING | words are hard sometimes

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13 minutes left & movies.

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No need to keep going with this since finally, the adrenaline/anticipation/dread is no longer there & replaced with simple words of kindness & reliability.

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There will be no PART I & PART II since I'm realizing I am ahead of this.

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PART ONE | then we'll get back to dropping those seeds.

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#12. Meaning, ahead of number 11 & also GOAL-SETTING & that PT who would make an easy goal & then achieve it & do nothing.

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SEED THREE is 3 minutes long. That is universe/God or modern day www (Wild Wild West) saying STAY HERE or don't die.

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SEED TWO was Food but lost it. SEED THREE INTRO (posted below, but no numbers, no title) | "when doing something new, it'll get worse than better, I promise."

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SEED ONE | liberté, égalité, fraternité

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INTRO to SEED DROPPING & how to organize this shIT. the "t" sound is left out at the end. First dropped letter sounds: m, p, t, c/k/ck | every podcast will have a YOUtube link since it's all about you/it. WHO was just telling me off/putting me down/orderi

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EXPRESSIVE or NON0-EXPRESSIVE | TBI | been reliving a memory for past 2-3 days.

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TBI & why I've learned, don't wait.

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IN THE OFFICE because of the one act of kindness.

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The Road Map.

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"That's what I sound like?"

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Well, I heard it, finally.

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RED | I completely redid my bathroom (the worst first) & made it red & disability friendly. No threshold shower & touch-free

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the word is OTHER.

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IDENTIFY ROADBLOCKS to WRITING | editing!

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TWO 10 minute voice memos re: customer service & a TWITTER UPDATE

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***TRIGGER WARNING*** In conclusion : it's working

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THEME : superheroes

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COMMUNICATION IS A TWO-WAY STREET

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start with SPEECH

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In conclusion, it works.

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TRIGGER WARNING | suicide & feedback on strategy (validation)

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Validating suicide so it doesn't happen to get to YEAR TWO | need for validation & grooming (learned this word in 2018. If I was aware before, could I have stopped it from settling in?)

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This could literally go on forever, but I think we're here finally | suicide

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PART ONE | recorded second

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GROK | first time | X

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can we begIN?

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example of fairly clear scheduling request.

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allergies to cats & CLEANING!

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repeat #s

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looking at photos to purposely retriever or do what they did but this time with consent. Ok, I'm getting this methodology

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Said it again | "significant" or "significance" & first lesson plan (LP) will be HYDROTHERAPY

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iReady to FLIP TRAUMA

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13m04s of NOTES (in pic) | 90% of curriculum since was aware when speaking; these words on REPLAY (not theirs)

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COVER ART is in BLUE NOTEBOOK

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MOVIES | are they getting what's going on? JUST ASK

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This contains all the best parts of ADVOCACY

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This is THE END.

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Worst first? How do you know the worst? Just count. "You get dizzy." Now think, is this audio or visual?

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Today is September 17, 2025 & two people in two days have said, "you sound different" & then explained. There's that difference again. WHY difference is a good thing [if you want to assess self & keep POWERFUL data]

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I've said this to SO MANY OF MY FRIENDS & I brought it up repeatedly to give them an opportunity/classroom to be DIFFERENT

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unlocked PASTA, finally.

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ADVOCACY 101

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PART TWO first (?) | a little confused, but the point is ADVOCACY 101 + remembering the organizational "notes"

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PART ONE

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GET IT OUT

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Not knowing how to COMBAT ABUSE OF POWER is mental

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FULL CIRLCE | explained it verbally 1x. In-the-moment :) & that's why one day, you'll HEAR YOUR VOICE*

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seed for V or VICTORY. The origin being Vietnam.

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REINFORCEMENT 100% of the time. These women who had to talk to me about my body...

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the FINAL PROGRESS MONITORING DATE IS this one | time-stamped by Buzzsprout

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Then practice that word TALK.

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THE END. When you get that word change so no more VOICE, NOISE, CHOICE, DUBOIS. just TALK

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...3 & then...

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...2...

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This will be as easy as 1...

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Posted "that"

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FIRST CHARITY | veterans | find a veteran/expert in their field?

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CORRECTING MISTAKE & adding a lot more!

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HEARD SELF | Correction, future tense (Will*) and capitalized since it's a name FIRST, then a future tense

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GOAL | get into QUIET OFFICE. Always a need for some background noise once was able to stop talking that helps to diminish vertigo/head pain (~APRIL 2025)

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REFLECTION | automatic/instant & reminds me, this is going to be easy without PTSD. Thank God!

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WE WROTE THE MORAL CODE down (then the bro code)

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CHINA.

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GOAL : completed (all of them at same time to create that EQUAL IMPACT or LEARNING!)

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10 is/was "wake up & do this all over again" or the AM/PM mantra to keep teaching...

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WROTE NOTES | First Time

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ONTO the STRATEGIES, but not all here. HERE Is the organizational plan.

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Numbers & TV & tech.

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HOPE again.

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That IMPACT isn't there.

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RAPID SPEECH was the adrenaline & the conversations I had with people about this. NO RESPONSE.

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Speed in speech was the adrenaline.

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Finally. I GOT THERE & didn't have to share every single thing. FOR A PURPOSE.

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Best & the Worst [companies]. Beginning today & "What's advocacy?" It's not attaching to a cause. It's getting all the FACTS & getting those FACTS to anyone who is going through a "first time" so they make THE BEST DECISION (Wisemind)

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INTRODUCING an Idea. How a bell sound can remove audio triggers IF attached the the safest people.

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X & Buzzsprout (where I podcast this) both count down to the second.

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17, 18, 19 = sequence

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I heard, "...exposure to evil," & that was in previous podcast.

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KOHLS

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THANK YOU to those who taught me, "give up."

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Why those around you WHO KNOW (not everyone has to) is your REPRESENT. Isn't that a political word? Who represents you?

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CORRECTION | depending on the people (individual), Chicago can be a safe space.

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Yesterday was November 8, 2022.

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SHARING disability in the only place I kept feeling "compelled" to go to on replay | that guided me to "the body" (The Eucharist)

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The combination of COMPANIES (made up of people) & individual PEOPLE throughout history who thought differently

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COMPOSITION SIX | & this weekend, I will ask someone to "take it back" literally since they gave me some Asian-centric gift.

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NO TEARS & then REAL TEARS

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THIS IS MY BACK when I rotate left leg & hip side to side ~ 45 degrees while in supine position.

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NOTES | listening to self keep track of notes. Posting with timestamps/dates. (progress monitoring in IDEA)

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DROPPING THE SEED for Michigan, Writing, Photos & LIVE (that's X. With news; it counts to the seconds)

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COMPOSITION ONE is a Diary | Amsterdam is the place.

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STEP THREE | transform it into something that can help others

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STEP TWO | the reflection

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STEP ONE | get it out (hopes & desires)

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TRYING TO GET OUT of the HOUSE (on-time still) | use your voice.

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CORRECTION | whatsApp and heard self as well as www research...

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Seed for WhatsApp, male bullying & video (with consent) | RELIABILITY. You say what you're going to do or update matters #mentalHealth #ptsd #confusion #whathappened #questioning

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BACKGROUND NOISE as a distraction & what do I listen to?

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There were two "get it out" (STEP ONE) and a reflection later, but I didn't upload.

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I do not hear ANY REFLECTION | PART TWO

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I do not hear ANY REFLECTION | PART ONE

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A true deadline & the first I've made since the beginning. Scroll all the way down = June 9, 2022. PROGRESS/RECOVERY does take time.

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I listened to a lot & each day is an opportunity to lay a foundation for tomorrow, if you recall the day before (yesterday)

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WORLD TWO | POEM TWO | to, too, 2

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SAME BEHAVIOR | why ptsd exists | warning!

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SEED : video & start with the best #adoptdontshop

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Finally, SPONTANEOUS CONVERSATION | just write the scene & emphasis of importance of giving people your time/attention/energy to MAKE NEW MEMORIES

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NOTES in Description. Origin of WORLD ONE | Who provided the word "significant?" since it was during survival when asking about PHOTOS. 4 Categories in SURVIVAL

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NOTES in DESCRIPTION since that is the worst neurologist ever & a starting point to dampen photos with an xmas letter. CORRECTION : writing workshop or literature discussion

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Plant the seed for TECH & why it's so difficult. There's all these bits & pieces and also, I've never wanted to be connected to tech [due to threats to loved ones]

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(NOTES : read the description) origin: IVAN | CURIOUS ABOUT how to know if someone's curiosity is genuine or simply a way to be manipulative.

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TV says it better sometimes or a memory connects | Consent was spoken about every day in terms of GOOD CHOICES (what do you consent to), mental health or TREATMENT & identifying r-culture

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Making calls is, no was, difficult. Never with advocacy.

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Aware & Awake | this was a phrase I'd say for step one (be aware) & then step two (now awake) that yes, this memory is on [ptsd] replay

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I didn't know you could CHANGE YOUR NAME (learning tech through tech)

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April 19, 2025 | not everyone who experiences health concerns will be "KIND" (see description)

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the word NOPE is like no, but it's not the same.

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mm & MM

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This first time AUDIO TRIGGER refers to the excuse, "this is my first time" & was always with "my parents didn't teach me."

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Y/N Question ASKED & if no response, that's a "no."

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Reflection or STEP TWO | what comes up immediately after-the-moment

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"PRIVATE SCHOOL CHOICE --past & present" | American Educator, FALL 2017

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the final F word.

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TAKE A BREAK & tomorrow*...

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Take a break. The first PART is MUSIC (how many people have you known who listen to the same song over & over again?)

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Same words almost. Different content totally.

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LAST WORD is "Nebraska" & when people repeat themselves over & over again...

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Not sure I recorded this then, but maybe since I saw a lot of kids being bullied, but the first... oh my.

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Just wrote about this. Now I hear it. That's it.

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UNLOCKED TV | for some, the best voices. For me, sometimes they just say it better

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I used to watch KOREAN HORROR with one person. Only those that needed to know a) why I'm not into horror much b) after assaults, I won't be going to the movies with you--sorry

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SCENE | when you hear something the same way for a long time, just write it & see if the next day, it's less.

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Those who repeat themselves & those who repeat with a purpose---to get a reaction.

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Tomorrow, will be calling BEST BUY | customer service.

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PTSD present & why instead of "that," I'll listen to "this" <---previous two podcasts

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First Step | get consent (must understand what advocacy is) & must be sober

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Let's Begin | Advocacy, TBI, Chronic Pain & PTSD

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Dropping the seeds for multi-tasking (evident) and ahead of ptsd (evident) and checked desire (still there) & knowledge (evident through conversation and thank goodness, I can hear OUR VOICES)

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LAST THING is the new Reflections. Just an afterthought.

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THE REFLECTION | "go find. your passion/God given talent & give it away."*

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SEED for Women's Clothing, finally.

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The Reflection or STEP TWO

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To go back to the beginning | Putting on this on film as a way to GET IT OUT

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PTSD EPISODE | completely different than last time (when was that?) & SELF TALK THROUGH IT

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I ended PTSD with a scrunchy. You'll have to watch the YouTube to see it. Also, when you're entering someone's home, give them a head's up if there's a +1 (basics)

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My regrets & THE SEED for reclaiming a space (you have to invite people in)

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REFLECTION : what's the one thing said just moments ago you hear again? 10 ("wake up & do this all over again") in all & then DONE.

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When you have ONE SKILL (numbers, dates, times) KEEP DOING STEP-BY-STEP & make those calls.

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Since I've made a lot of boundaries this 3 minute (it all comes in 3s) podcast is the FINAL LINE...

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CONFIRMED : numbers intact & also, the first seed to consent. WHO you let into your house & WHY. Sometimes it the people that describe others.

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DEADLINE. APRIL 14, 2024. I meant, April 15, 2025.

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MEGAN MANNING now that meghan markle (little m for "what a little man," said the student--right on!) since both were ptsd prompting events (or triggers since removing that word since overused & becoming desensitized to it)

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At the base of the stairs at the ACME HOTEL. CHICAGO, IL, there is a name.

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in print or AHA moment & OPRAH connecting to digital or The Tig since got all the information I could from these ptsd moments

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FULL CIRLCE & to remove the snippets of another interview & timestamp something extraordinary | the end to PTSD connecting to radiating nerve pain, also dissipating.

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Dr. Sophie Chandauka's interview | LISTENING & RESPONDING to remove ptsd created by Board of Directions in cahoots with The Building Group. Chicago, IL, USA

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TRANSITIONS | first, but not only component in an IEP. MATERIALS | in a lesson plan. STICK + ROCK + STEEL + WOOD are materials that flipped Teaching was a tt**

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POST PTSD | Truly a new day.

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COMPOSITION 8 or "Words Better Than Great" or ADJECTIVES | I had 8 minutes to upload this month & now ahead of it.

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PART THREE | WOKE UP, SAID STUFF & now, we can write.

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PART TWO | spontaneous conversation is littered throughout

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PART ONE | woke up, had thoughts, said them in ~50 to realize the first sentence in 9 compositions, but gotta know the FIRST ONE FIRST

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the trigger is "PERFECT," & someone saying it all the time---origin of get it out truly---just stfu. Anyway, this description is not accurate imo when you bully woman (& from another woman) aye aye aye aye aye

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THE END : on Linked In. GET IT OUT. Then hashtags what you recall in a reflection. Note if it's anything (tbi). Then write in the description. Check if it's full capacity or not. If not, then it's NO LONGER CONTAINER for ptsd

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DECEMBER 10, 2024 | reading study guide

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[their] GENERALIZATIONS taught me about how to remove [their] SPECIFIC TRAUMA

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ONE TIME ONE TIME ONLY

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4 hours until midnight, but doesn't matter because "lost a day."

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STEP TWO

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STEP ONE

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THE LAST ONE | next will be dialogue & removing CHARITY (mostly Chicago, some Michigan)

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Here's the voice when trying something new...

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SPARE & HEIR connection | being treated differently.

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I don't FEEL it anymore!

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LISTEN TO SELF & GO THROUGH OFFICE.

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I trust what I said.

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when CONVO matches the SYMBOLISM/ASSOCIATION

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The first step...

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HERE IS THE PLAN | we start explaining dogs & the group are MEN, WOMAN & COUPLES | when you see their perspective it explains everything & tick tick boom, ptsd goes away! It's the shock that hurts. Than the awesomeness of how easy this was going to be.

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DIGITAL NOTES & just "say it" THEN DO IT | label documents way better

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NEW DAY & A NEW WAY TO END "their trauma" (write it little since it's insignificant | first visual reminder that WHOA, that perp is bigger! Realizing that's not rational so first feeling of FEAR)

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NOTES

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I heard Megan...

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Just say it. THE WORST FIRST [you can tackle every trigger/flashback after that since it's not the worst\

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That's the plan & going through the office...

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The Real Life Meaningful Experiences do matter | Aisha Kazi and what exactly are you paying for?

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When reading, you can tell HOW YOU FEEL.

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DEADLINE | when behavior flips on tech which is the worst thing since I cannot follow it & 100% trigger.

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They can't answer ONE simple question, but all this EMOTION comes up...

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CDL Part II | Do these things matter?

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CONTAINS A NAME | now it's gone.

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SEE PREVIOUS POST

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HOMELESS ADVOCACY is SUPPORT WITH ADDICTION [& how I first learned consent]

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Homeless advocacy is TECH SUPPORT

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...wasn't meant for you. A LATE BLOOMER & what does that mean.

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...put away marketing. I'm not a commodity.

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when "VERIFIABLE PROOF" came into my life & PURPOSE of a MOBILE PHONE | call record

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MORE WORDS.

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this is a long one | I think this one is the influencer one.

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this one HAS VISUALS so this one. Listen to again...

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again...

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pronoun is I[dentity] & trauma is IT or "I"ndescribable "T"rauma

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In advocacy, this happens A LOT.

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POETRY | to battle their brutality

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the site is FACEBOOK.

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that guy again.

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Take a sound walk with me | used to do this with my students whenever OUT & ABOUT

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UGH | get it out & then it goes away because I recall that PIZZA MAKING DATE NIGHT (the most important bit is why?)

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ADVOCACY is a DIALOGUE, not a MONOLOGUE | part one

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STEP ONE | inspired by them...

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So when there's no FEAR, you can just say it & I don't have to break it up again.

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the DATE on this recording is September 16, 2024

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January 14, 2024 | still visuals since there's VISUAL TRIGGERS. When there's not, I report there's not and it's a VERY GOOD THING.

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The next step to KNOW | can you rebuild trust?

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BOD pt. III

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BOD pt. II | Can listen to the entire thing. Why there's no YOUtube visual component.

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Board of Directors or BOD (to dampen not having "comfort in my bod" due to repeated predatory behaviors.

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Introducing 15/18 homeless client | consent to record granted | wants to help others NOW that at last step!

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I caught suicide. I've been capturing it every time I went on periscope...

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PART TWO | since the video was too long, had to splice it in two...

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PAT ONE | just more words

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Untitled Episode

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Now, a count UP. 1/10

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Untitled Episode : omg, I didn't write in every container! It is truly over since it's DIFFERENT. That's prolonged exposure therapy, but instead of writing, I had to rely on www (ha!)

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All the biological uptick of ptsd is gone & now able to follow-through with what I said I would do. Contact those who I said at one point, "I'm highly injured. I'll contact you when I can." How many years has it been? & why are these [sensory] memories on

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Words Do Something to me with PAST & PRESENT verbatim triggers [until now]

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& the Reflection. This podcast & the one prior is to the 1-2 punch/kick/stab/choke/belittle combo.

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Third Round 🥊 When you get IT out of the body with ART, We All Win. What's your preferred outlet? Mine's my voice. Now add beats.

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The only thing I can remember is I may have repeated self a bit & at the end, yes, u take back that suicide shhhhh. Not mine once you name it/say it/spray it & finally slay/write IT/fight IT so u will not deny it. I don't have control over that. God will

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This contains poetry, but to get there, you'll have to find the YouTube...

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We are going to Elevate Difference & NOT be like them. I reject their words, ideas, behaviors, philosophies & the MOTIVATION/INTENTION when you ask, "why?" | I lost this, but when I got it back, you really do have an inner voice that will pop up. Listen t

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When you confront the people who created the trigger & you get their response---that's it---first step--WHAT DO YOU THINK?--now use that info to make further interventions like, NO, I do not consent to talking to you without the other person.

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When you can hear you voice, you can hear what you said & finish the thought/sentence. DONE

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Advocacy is a dialogue, but can also be a monologue ***TRIGGER WARNINGS*** we discuss fake art activist & intent to create ****.

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unLOCKed TV

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Untitled Episode

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JUST SAY IT | brainwashing

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2-WAY CONSENT for recording & why that's a law/felony. This creates tt. Lowercase to validate, on the way out, but also, "no respect"

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PART III | & then you stop... because IT is NOT there anymore :)

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THIS MAY HAVE BEEN UPLOADED EARLIER | will check time, but ultimately... it has highest # (so I know, choice isn't intact)

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PART III | I don't have to share the whole convo. I just have to LISTEN TO MY VOICE

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The Dark[ness] is OK if (a) never forget WHO (b) fight to ensure NEVER HAPPENS AGAIN

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GOAL : find convo regarding Mr. Baker (notes for Monday | What to find/email & Who to call (E)

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When the shock of HOW EASY PEOPLE USE THEIR TRAUMA TO... or CHANGE THEIR NARRATIVE...

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PART II | May 9th, something incredible happened. Will upload a lot of that since the "in between time" I think is...

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PART ONE | how difficult it is when everyone is promoting communication COMPARE/CONTRAST with those actively trying to disconnect

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part ONE of many | before & after THE FALL | anticipation & will to float & the reality of trauma & triggers (NOW tt) is stated very clearly the very thing said specifically. IF/THEN.

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Note-taking & Starting to Write out "their words" verbatim since I think it'll end ptsd.

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Listen to VMs & delete/abandon anything that does NOT fit into methodology.

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This is where I can end. UPLOAD VISUAL & delete this.

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Megan Manning PREWRITING

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When you FIND THE TRIGGER & ADDRESS IT, IT does go away.

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Just keep moving...

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the prompting event was the brainwashing/grooming/mental, physical, s.a & more, but the CONTINUATION was awareness that the connective thread is INSANE GREED (on the backs of kids with special needs & misuse/abuse of mental health) & AVOIDANCE OF Qs

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2nd STEP : whatever you hear (in this case, previous 2 podcasts) REFLECT

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PICK-UP pt. II

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PICK-UP pt. I

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No time stress. No need for visual triggers. No nothing. It's over, so now what?

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Hearing self. Yes, Getting back to a day to day schedule, at last. Find the Meghan M. convos and while searching, will force self to listen to everything else & make decisions. Keep or Abandon.

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I a still figuring it out | Am avoiding since not sure if I have all the skills necessary if I have to TOUCH paper in the office since OUT-OF-SIGHT-OUT-OF-MIND makes organization very hard

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I learned how to swim ~Wednesday, February 17. When people know your weaknesses they will take advantage. He knew I was dizzy & we sent xmas cards (THE CHRISTMAS LETTER & need for photos) stating we're moving to CO.

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It's a new day! A new way to end trauma. Hip hip hooray!

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The time is 11:58PM (sssstress, but nothing like anticipating those monthly meetings) & how can I sum up my time here in 2 minutes? 100% created by b.o.d./tbg & number 17

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HEALTHCARE : 2nd go & this time, we don't wait for NWMH/neurologist to respond (are you going to testify or not? You said, "I'm on the side of kids with special needs," yvonne 😐) We do it LIVE (in-the-moment) since learned, they want you to lose it/die. S

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FIRST TIME : specific triggers connected to tv/film seed planted GOAL : go to the movies

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First Time : plant the seed TONIGHT so tomorrow, I remember exactly the next step.

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HELPFUL, HAPPY & HEALTHY!

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reliving CHASE (first time writing a letter) & now, I have to write another one

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The objective is to continuously HEAR SELF (by listening to everything recorded) until all ptsd is gone.

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Let's Explain FILMS are WAY TOO REAL. The seed... planted YEARS AGO.

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More Methodology | Aim for 3 hours | Removing Media, too | One day, will explain it

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What was written in here was already written in there. TODAY IS January 3rd, 2024. Happy New Year! Getting rid of media.

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FIND THE OTHER TWO MESSAGES & of course the one I left with receptionists <---safest people ever.

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New Day : just get it out to UNDERSTAND STRATEGY of layering.

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The greatest impact since made a decision about this space. No need to post audio triggers, try to explain or connect audio with visual. NOT EFFECTIVE as simply getting a response [from the right people]

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Untitled Episode

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PART ONE : mm/mm. (let's do the LAST CONVERSATION first & interrupted so TIMESTAMP is today at 1:16)

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Advocate Aurora Illinois & making sure your voice gets heard

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NWMH

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1st time listening & sharing SAFE VOICES. When OTHERS GIVE YOU YOUR WORDS back, but also...

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It's a New Day & That Means a New Way to End Trauma every Day since I Slay, Spray & WILL Say What I Want to Say! Ok?

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TOUCH is no longer a PROBLEM & why you can now follow my poetry that was created while under duress & during eustress.

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The methodology is LIVE.

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Mr. Baker is going to school! My job is to make your dreams come true #teacher

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BITS from NOVEMBER 2022 an why say what you want to say each & every day.

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More important stuff & just in-the-moment & want to get rid of media & what helps TBI? repeat repeat repeat. TECH IS GREAT AT THAT!

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Droppin' seed for MM (PT manager) in first 10 seconds (visual) & first time hearing self after recordings since had to remove LAST NAME. Why said it repeatedly to remind self, listen to this one!

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GOAL : Know Every Day (I leave the seeds from the previous day to "pick up" the next day) "to get" every day.

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11/1 because I "caught it" & can write the next step in this process.

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Blast from the past : VOICE while triggering & on phone with doctor.

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FIND THE ORIGIN & homeless advocacy since comfort was found in those I saw one & over walking the same way to NWMH.

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it stARTs tonight & the best words before I had my own were media, but specifically musical ones.

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This is where we start. THE IDEA was given to me by D.M...

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PART II : it's true, when you can say/hear you're name, the trauma of someone reNAMING you has ended.

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PART ONE : now, we're connecting the dots & why KEEP SPEAKING

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First time reading (Wilson method) a book (weight) while recording (non-consent): check the date. I've gotten a lot better & more...

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Very Happy to Announce, I have #s so we're starting again with SEASON 1 EPISODE 1 : triggered by Chicago Police Department (CPD) led to seed planted for Chicago Parks District (CPD) & Larry Labiak.

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https://youtu.be/bKwu7ZrlKs8

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This podcast is to state TOMORROW, IT BEGINS

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how to plant seed for making phone calls. Unfortunately, it is to say "RECORD" to help TBI. They will not be honest, but it's a strategy that works

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This is called Evidence (referring to Twitter), but also how to remove choking

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Dropping seeds for CHASE BANK (account manager) & TWO HEALTHCARE SYSTEMS.

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Harvestin' Time for AFT (planted seeds in previous podcast created by HOPE of the new Chicago mayor)

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Dropping seeds & AFT (American Federation of Teachers) & Chicago has a NEW MAYOR

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Missed the DEADline (18th/monthly by 12ET) but I know why 17-18 has been a trigger

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when PTSD triggers are (a) lying to my face (b) lying on paper like a health record or NOT submitting incident repots (c) hypocrisy/contradictions with motivation to (1) avoid questions (2) avoid consequence, how to ensure SUICIDE does not "pop up" when h

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SEASON 10 : wake up & do it all over again. Whaaaaat??? (thx Oprah & MM) | Advocate/speak for those who were unable to in (a) public school (b) healthcare system (c) bystander abuse on a board of directors/groups (d) employment discrimination if unwilling

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SEASON 10 : wake-up & do IT all over again | First time LISTENING & EDITING (& posting with plenty of time before deadline) in its entirety!

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Did 7 before 11PM CT & that was the only goal. Do more. THANK YOU.

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Compare THIS MONTH to all PREVIOUS MONTHS & the difference is NO VIDEO/NO iMOVIE (easier to post)

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RECOGNIZE without VISUAL/VIDEO/iMOVIE connecting to VISUAL (sensory) triggers & THREATS using tech (an origin!), podcasting just voice is EASY.

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INTRO : suicide. Don't know what what was said & the point with TBI/concussion/trauma. GET IT OUT.

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NEXT SUICIDE with VISUAL TRIGGERS

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SEASON 5 | part II & how technology or "the universe" will decide to put away how I had no choice & when under duress, sensory was truly on SURVIVAL MODE ALL THE TIME.

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SEASON 5 is all about LIVE STREAMING the METHODOLOGY

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Advocacy is a DIALOGUE not always a MONOLOGUE

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firsTime sharing "Flo' Is the Intro"

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Exposure to visuals & just try to EXPLAIN/TALK while looking/seeing/processing what I'm looking at.

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I have ONE hour left. I want to EXPLAIN the visuals--now that ahead of VOICE

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Chicago Parks District, Chicago Public Schools, Chicago Teachers Union & some companies, charities, organizations & tag twats. Not all at once, but kind of.

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12th EPISODE | took a break due to the B.O.D. (threats in annual meeting) & the words, "nice welcome, Jamie."

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SEASON PART I FINALE | part two is using my mobile since it's tech & it was all bad... but now, better.

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Season 2 | episode 4 | case study since at one point I witnessed 4 people talking to each across each other & all at once. I remember thinking, they do NOT communicate. More evidence to come.

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SEASON TWO | episode three | I don't remember & why I am rebuilding TRUST with my WORDS, my VOICE & no fear when they use strategies that really aren't effective...

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SEASON TWO | episode two | describe the triggers & isolate the sensory to remove the biological acute symptoms of ptsd

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SEASON TWO | episode one | GET IT DonE

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INTRO SEASON TWO : since I did not make goal or posting in JULY

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EPISODE 5 : still can't "hear" it, but I think the next one will have an intro en point. Thank you!

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FIRST NAME in 4 podcasts

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I trust what I said when I said it : EPISODE : until I can hear my voice again | acknowledging that I still can't hear my VOICE

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2nd Podcast : now hidden, but how I got out of Advocacy. Due to being taken advantage of (TBI/PCS/WOW) no thanks.

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Smarter Than Trauma presents SMART E MC | episode one | still can't hear voice