Spiritual Stylism (English Version)

Today I talk about my experiences with concepts, opinions, ideologies and how this is blocking us from receiving. As soon as we think that something has to be in a specific way, or we already decided this is "good" or "bad", or "healthy" and "unhealthy" we cut ourselves off from the direct embodied perception and thus from the flow of life. In concepts we are trapped in the mind, our database from the past, and not in the present moment. How reliable can this be when it comes to a completely new and  innocent moment, where we want to create something new? Our higher being cannot guide us when we have an opinion and have already decided certain things without proofing, if our body is aligned with this or not. Ask yourself "Is this really my highest truth here, now and today"? Does my body opens up, expands and there for resonates or does this thought, this concept etc. actually weakens my system and is not true for me? This requires courage to fully trust your perception, embodiment, space, consciousness and slowing down. Give yourself time and space to tune in and feel beyond any concept, like an Alien that just arrived here :-) and has never experienced this moment before. Then you will feel what the next step is for you, guided  from something thats infinite intelligent and just knows....

We do not exist dimensionally, but frequencyally. Different levels of reality exist now, right at this moment, and your vibration decides what you have access to and what you can receive. If we raise our frequency by consciously feeling and accepting what is currently there, without wanting to change it at that moment and at the same time focussing on our truth, our higher self, then we automatically enter at that moment a higher level with completely different possibilities, information and gifts. This is possible at any moment in which we realign ourselves with the part that exists beyond survival and struggle. We cannot perceive from a primal state something that exists at a higher level. It is not possible to receive anything that does not correspond to the frequency in which we find ourselves at that moment. This is not magic, this is physics!

This episode isn´t about what you do, it is about the inner field your life is unfolding from. We explore why our nervous system is the foundation for everything you perceive, receive and create. This is why the state your system is living in is the most important thing. So often we move through our days trying to get somewhere, to reach, to become, to finally arrive, without realizing that creation is already happening. With every thought, every feeling, every breath. YOU are the field of creation, nothing is more important than your inner state. 

In this episode I speak about one of the deepest pattern in many women. The unconscious belief that "if I just love enough, he/she will meet me there", or I can love another person into their healing. This happens when we fall in love with the potential of another human being and are not able to see reality fully. We are literally "blind" for what is actually truly embodied and the capacity of this person right now. The gift of seeing the potential, the essence of another human is absolutely beautiful and comes from a huge capacity of love and a pure and innocent heart. If we are not willing or able to also see what is real and how this person interacts in daily life, we are trapped in a fantasy. We don´t really see the person in front of us anymore, we are in a relationship with something that could be possible but isn't real yet. And this is hard to accept and to let go of, but every human being has its own free will and its own timeline to start the journey of their own transformation and even if we can see how it could be, we need to surrender into the fact, that it isn't here yet choose what serves us most, wich is sometimes leaving, even if we love them truly. 

Many people describe themselves as very emphatic, especially in the spiritual community, but often what we call empathy is a learned survival pattern. This episode is about the subtle distinction between real connection and emotional entanglement. True closeness does not arise through fusion but through clarity and compassion and complete acceptance of what is currently there. We always see only a fragment of so called reality, in ourselves and also our counterpart and the greatest gift is not to fall into the other and to sink into his reality, but to keep the space of clarity and love, so that your counterpart remembers again, the only truth that exists, we are held and loved and always gifted, even if it is not palpable at the moment.

What if much of what we call spirituality is actually avoidance? In this episode we are going to explore spiritual bypassing and how easily we use awareness, concepts and so called "higher truths" to avoid feeling and integrating what still "lives" in our nervous system and wants to be felt. Why do patterns repeating even after years of doing inner work? We are divine beings in a physical body, we wanted to make the experience of it, fully, juicy, all of it. If we are living in our mind, we are not fully living and we can never play the game of life as a powerful being, we suffer unconsciously through it in repeating old patterns. You can study all metaphysical books for centuries, nothing will change in your life without true embodiment. You can push yourself superficially into a higher frequency over and over, but you will never be able to fully embody it and stay there most of the time, as the next trigger will pull you out of it easily. 

In this episode we explore how our presence shapes the atmosphere around you far beyond words. We all have a huge impact with what we emanate and therefor a responsibility for it. "Waking up", becoming more aware of your inner world, becoming conscious of your patterns is not  something you are just doing for yourself, you are influencing everything in the field with it. "Healing" yourself creates a better life for everyone around you, not just for yourself. The question is simple, are you part of the problem or the solution? Is there something more important than dedicating yourself to this?

Real connection is not created by saying the right things or trying to fix each other. It grows from inner capacity, from the ability to stay fully present with emotions, uncertainty and truth. A kind of presence that does not rush to solve, analyze or change, but allows clarity and healing to emerge naturally. Your own inner journey shapes the quality of your relationships. If you haven´t faced your own shadows, you will be likely  overwhelmed by another human being expressing their emotions, as your own suppressed ones get triggered in that moment. The deepest gift we can offer another person is not an advice, it's the trust in their greatness, their capability, their own divine guidance and to remain while they walking through the fire. 

Your true being knows that you are not here on this planet to function and perform, but to experience life as a creative process through you as an active and conscious creator. Neuroplasticity is more than a scientific term, it is for me the biological evidence that we actively shape our lives, whether unconsciously or consciously. So in every human being lies the ability to create reality and that with this knowledge is no longer a mystical metaphor, this is a scientific fact. How can we play small any longer, let the past dictate the future wich means continuing living from automated programs? HERE, NOW and TODAY, at this specific moment, you can rewrite your future. Is it easy? No it is not, but of course it is possible and the difference between living your unlimited power and existing as a prisoner in the Matrix. My question to you is: "Are you ready to take full responsibility for your power and your greatness"?

The body is innocent, it simply reflects the state we are living in. If we live in survival all the time (sometimes without even realizing, as we are so used to the state in our nervous system ) we are emanating lack into the field. The body craves the familiar chemistry like adrenaline and cortisol and often people are only feeling "alive" and awake when running on survival. Peace, regulation, stillness feels boring to them, as the body is already addicted to these stress hormones and craves them,  so we are re-creating the past over and over again by giving the body the same experience in slightly different versions. This is what people call their live and don't know about their power to change their reality. Pleasure, joy, playfulness is healthy "food" for the body, it creates new experiences and safety. So taking care of yourself by following your intuition,  beyond any "healthy concepts" suggested by completely different people with different bodies will give you everything you desire. Beauty, pleasure, joy, bliss...all of these higher states need a regulated state in the nervous system, otherwise they are not accessible, as in danger and survival it´s time to run and fight and not feeling joy and bliss. Ask yourself during the day, what do I feel in my body at the moment and what do I emanate...to become more conscious about your state and see it as an information what you actually create at the moment. 

Transformation does not mean the old pattern disappears. It means we can see it, and still choose to not react in the old way. Many of us are working with manifestation, vision boards, and affirmations. We set intensions, imagine new possibilities, and focus on the life we want to create. All of this is wonderful, creative and brings hopefully a lot of fun into your life while you are doing this. Real transformation happens in the trigger, the moment when our nervous system activates old survival patterns. The trigger (we suddenly feel attacked, overwhelmed, not seen, unsafe etc.) then feels like the problem, but what if the trigger is actually the portal? A portal into unconscious patterns stored in our nervous system but also a portal into our power and liberation. A gateway to old patterns and suppressed emotions that have now worked their way up to the surface to be felt and released. If we already have built capacity in our nervous system to pause und breathe, rather than being reactive, we have the choice to choose consciously how we actually would like to respond in alignment with our vision and not from autopilot.  This is the moment of choice, where we are becoming aware of what comes up (the urge to fight, to defend, to withdraw, control etc.) and we allow it to be there and still choose differently. This is leaving the victim state (unconscious creation out of survival) and becoming the conscious creator. 

Through an intense, real moment of activation, I experienced what it means to stay completely present while my nervous system went into a strong panic mode, and how something deeper in me continued to hold "me" in safety and guided me back into the parasympathetic state. This is self-leading, this is power, this is how we can overcome the old programs that running us. If we are able to not identify with whatever is activated, we realize that our true self, the I AM is bigger than any state that appears in our consciousness.  

Our "core" is our inner holding system, it is our body centre, for me the tangible connection between "heaven and earth" in our physical vehicle. Feeling this inner strength automatically lifts us up, we feel safe and allow ourselves to truly take up space and expand.  Speaking from the core, means expressing the heart felt truth, because even the voice (our expression) has something to do with a strong core. If we strengthen it and pay attention to it, we have a strong vessel that carries us through life. For me, the gentle and steady strengthening of my inner holding system was such a catalyst for regulation, strength and presence, that from this new embodiment incredible gifts have come into my life, because only then was I able to receive and hold them safely in me. Our families body whisperer :-)........www.Jesforber.com

On our journey there comes a moment where we no longer fight for connection but living truth and dignity. It is the fire that rises when self betrayal becomes unbearable. This is the warrior archetype in a woman when she reaches a state where she is letting go of the self image to be  "easy to handle", always loving and compassionate, having endless tolerance,  just to make sure she is not risking attachment. This is not living real feminine energy, this is pretending to be someone who accepts bread crumbs and never really showing your core self and be a flag in the wind. This is not authenticity, this is a role out of survival. 

The woman who plays is alive, truthful and authentic, she allows life to express itself completely through her. The woman who "performs", is in a fight with life, she manipulates, controls and holds herself together, and lives with immense tension. For divine playing, wich is being in the "flow state", we need safety in our nervous system and sometimes performing looks like playing, but it is not, as we "play" to achieve something. Playing happens in the NOW, is spontaneous, is real, is free, is innocent, has no intention. To be able to distinguish between these two different states requires embodiment and awareness for micro-tension, for the moment when we leave ourselves internally and focus on the outside to please, to control, to gain security, etc. The closer we get to ourselves, the clearer it will become to you when you are really awake and play with life, and when you "perform" from one of the many roles that you have acquired over time and with which you protect yourself. These roles are often completely invisible to the outside as well as to ourselves, but their frequency comes from lack and uncertainty and we cover something up that we think is not acceptable or lovable. We pretend to be something that we are not and thus separate ourselves from the world and our fellow human beings in an often very subtle and hardly perceptible way.

This episode is specifically for women who identify with their feminine core in this incarnation. Time and time again, the question arises: “How can I be more feminine? What do I need to DO? How should I dress, move, speak, and so on?” The truth is that you can grow long hair, dress very femininely, move sensually, speak deeply and calmly, and still not be embodied in your femininity. This is because all of these things arise naturally when we, as women, stop living in survival mode. Femininity lives in a regulated nervous system, beyond any survival program. From this place, true femininity emerges and expresses itself uniquely through each woman, just as every flower is uniquely beautiful. Every woman carries this wisdom within her, and it unfolds in a completely natural way when we move from fighting into receiving.

Isn’t it fascinating that as soon as we are genuinely touched in a relationship and our heart begins to open, old, suppressed “treasures” from our unconscious rise to the surface? Real closeness reaches the parts of us that were challenging and overwhelming in our earliest childhood. An encounter that truly opens our heart can act like a catalyst for integration, if we have the courage to turn inwards and are able to stay with whatever arises. There is a lot we can do for ourselves without being in a relationship, regulating our nervous system (expanding our capacity to sit in the discomfort of being triggered for example), understanding our patterns, and so on. But what is ultimately needed is another person. Understanding things on a mental level and then being faced with them in real life are two very different levels of integration. What was “wounded” in relationship also needs to be “healed” in relationship. We need new, nourishing experiences in order to overwrite the old adaptive model that no longer serves us, wich is our attachment pattern. With enough self aware-ness, an understanding of our hidden self sabotaging programs, a heart that keeps opening, and a nervous system that can hold a wider range, we can bring heaven to earth, instead of unconsciously continuing to fight what we deeply long to live.

Do you know that feeling that giving is easier than receiving? Not out of generosity, but because giving seems to give us a sense of control. Receiving requires surrendering. The body stops holding on, stops fighting, and sinks into life itself. True receiving is quiet, natural, and genuinely sustaining, and often we are no longer even consciously aware of it, because it has not been experienced for many generations. Receiving marks the end of the struggle for survival and the beginning of a life lived in abundance and trust.

If we want to live sacred polarity in a relationship, then it needs two layers of safety. It takes the inner safety in both nervous systems AND the safety within the relationship itself. We cannot open up and hold tension if we are not safe in ourselves, nor if the relationship is not a stable and protected field. Without safety in us, we cannot hold tension and intensity and without stability in the relationship, we cannot really open up, surrender and receive. It takes two mature and integrated adults who are whole and complete in themselves, free from dependencies to live a love in polarity, rather than in compensation, where one is carrying and regulating an aspect of the other. This is not love, this is regulation. 

In this episode, we dive into the essence of the masculine and feminine, not as roles or identities, but as living forces, as inner movements that work through us. When we as women have integrated our male energy, something quiet and at the same time powerful is created, an inner support. We become clear, present and self-supporting. Our inner space opens up, a kind of container that holds us. From this inner capacity we become truly receptive. Not out of lack, not out of need, but out of openness, because we already have wholeness within us. And only then can the masculine in the outside truly give, because we no longer pull, but remain within ourselves. We no longer need anyone to carry or hold us, but we choose to be held, because we simply enjoy to be a woman and that also brings the man into his power because it is the natural order in polarity. Old dynamics, dependencies are dissolving. We meet the masculine from our inner strength, awake, free and conscious and just from there we can really embrace all of it, because we have integrated the masculine within us. We can relax outside into it and no longer have to fear it or put it on a pedestal, wich has nothing to do with love, it´s a survival program and dependancy. From our own inner strength we are soft, nourishing, sensual, devoted, receptive without losing ourselves. Only then does healthy polarity arise. And of course, this is just as true for men. The more integrated a man’s inner feminine is, the more present, grounded, and powerful his masculinity becomes. He no longer seeks a mother nor a woman who submits or idolises him. He chooses a companion. A partner on equal ground to create with. Not from lack or inner fragmentation, but because he wishes to consciously embody his masculinity and there for he chooses a woman who is grounded in her primal feminine power.  Maturity emerges here as well, when direction and feeling, structure and aliveness, come together within. When the masculine and feminine no longer compete, but support one another we can live the sacred union. 

Why clarity initially overwhelms the body and how integration really happens. We decide on a new version of ourselves and are crystal clear in our focus. At first, we are completely convinced, we feel the high of the new creation, and that generates uplifting hormones in our system. We are deeply convinced of what we want to live and highly motivated, we are a mission, until, usually after a few days, our first defense mechanisms kick in and resistance emerges. Our old self does not let go so easily; it does EVERYTHING to keep us in the old, this is his job. Why this always happens when we expand, grow, and rebirth ourselves, and why it is a logical part of creation. This purging phase is essential and usually a bit messy :-).   

The frequency of these archetypes can serve us as a kind of transitional space, as a bridge into the embodiment of the aspects and frequencies of these fields. They serve as energetic placeholders and then fall away from us when we have integrated and embody this level of maturity. They are a kind of orientation to rise from the survival mode of the "wounded girl and wounded boy" into the whole. Here it is not about the outer crowning, but the inner expansion into this level of maturity, about growth, about wholeness, about consciousness.

How can we bring real change into our lives? Away from reactive behaviour (old identity), towards new conscious choice from the energy of conscious creation of what you choose to embody. This is not a mental process (the mind is of course a part of the whole process), it's a physical process, as we have to embody the frequency of this new state, before is has even manifested. As so often, your nervous system plays a crucial role in this. It takes security within us to "allow" new paths and to close old tracks.  How can you step by step, in the Here and Now, in your everyday life, with every breath let go of what you no longer want to live and embody what you really choose, what truly corresponds to your essence?

Feeling is NOT being in emotions. Present feeling is to perceive directly what is alive in the body, because the body always lives in the NOW. If it expands, becomes wide, a deep breath comes, it releases tension... all these are signs of truth. If the body shuts down, microstress comes, get´s heavy..."that's not true for me". BUT and this is important, we can just feel the truth in a regulated state of the nervous system. Why does it take courage to allow yourself to feel truly? Because then action must follow, consequences are pending if we feel again what we want to live and what is not aligned with us anymore, what is coherent and what is not. How do you want to bring a vision to life when you can't even feel it and are cut off from your true needs? How do you want to distinguish what comes from the ego (feels overstimulated, stressful, overregulated, exiting but in a driven way) and what really comes from your essence (feels also exciting, but calm in the same way, is always quieter, more grounded, it is a YES..that's it)? We need the feeling as a compass, otherwise we are lost and easy to manipulate through other people and environments.  The other day someone told me that if you can't feel, you should get sick leave and practice only feeling for 3 months. I find it true and it touched me. We can only perceive directly when we are regulated (and most are nearly never truly regulated and in the now) and thus present, NOT when we are in survival mode, then we are superimposed by our past, reactive, in fear, self-sabotaging what we actually desire to have, are blind and deaf for the truth.

Our false self, our ego cannot love, in truth the ego does not exist at all, because it is a construct of our wounds, pain, conditioning, survival strategies, etc. In the ego, in our personality, we are never able to love truly, we drag and pull on the other, we need them, we manipulate, we control, we protect ourselves at the slightest touch of an old wound, withdraw like a shot animal, fight and do everything to stay safe in our familiar patterns. All this is NOT love. We use our fellow human beings to maintain our false personality, constantly, daily, almost always, often very subtly. Feeling this can be a shock and at the same time a liberation. Ask yourself, how often are you truly in the now, present and free from your Identity...that are the only moments, where you can actually say..."I do love". How many relationships are based on survival, regulation and Not love? True love never goes out of the ego, true love flows when the ego leaves the stage, when we free ourselves from our own prisons and remove our armour. 

The truth does not come from the body, it does not come from the emotions, thoughts, triggers, pain, etc., the truth comes from our consciousness, from our essence, from our higher self. The body is denser, slower, it stores the past, in it sits the old identity. When we begin to really realise, and not only mentally, but at the cellular level, that we can guide the body with our consciousness and it then follows, then we have the strongest healing energy available that exists. So we never split off the body, we bring the consciousness into it and completely incarnate in it. We lead the body with awareness and guide it into abundance and health with our consciousness. We don´t let the past dictate our health state, we integrate the past in taking over the leadership with what we truly are and the body will follow, as it´s an instrument of resonance. 

If you have you consciously create and choose another reality, one that is closer to the truth of your higher being, then a strong focus and willpower is needed to embody the frequency of this reality on any possible level. It´s  the prerequisite for you to make it experienceable. On the way there, it often feels like 2 realities exist in us at the same time and it takes strength to hold both of them in your nervous system. What you still experience on the outside is the old, mostly unconscious manifestation and the new one is still taking physical shape, but already exists on another level. Everything in you may be oriented to this reality and there will be offers of your old self, which may also seem exciting and lucrative, but if you tune into it, they carry the old energy within themselves, wrapped in a new cover Then you need to stay true to your vision, even if you don't even have a clear picture in front of you, but only feel a vague energy of the new creation. Every conscious NO to the old creates space for the new and at the same time is a powerful yes in the field. It takes courage to resist these seductions and to recognise them as what they are, last temptations from the old field.

We live here on this planet in the constant conflict between our conditioned identities and their limitations and the inner call of our soul for freedom and thus authenticity. It feels like an inner tornness, like 2 levels, like 2 worlds. And that's exactly what it is..it's completely different frequencies and we can choose which ones we feed, at any moment, provided we are awake and determined. Our nervous system is the vessel, so we need to expand it over and over to be able to hold the light of the soul and let go of our programs. Authenticity allows us to embody our individual and unique expression of the one whole and bring it into the world. This attracts exactly the opportunities and people who can dance and create with you there. You can breathe and be and become wide and life lives through you.....

The body always knows the truth and you can use the body as a seismograph for your next steps, if something is serving you or not and if someones energy isn´t aligned with his words. The body always tells us the truth, sometimes it´s it's truth from the past and it´s functioning like a guard, so it´s reaction is not trustworthy for the now, as the body relives an event of the past. If we can understand this, we have the most precise messenger of the truth always with us. No guru or spiritual teacher can really know what the right next steps are for you, as we all are also human and see through our limited lense, even when we are so called not fully dreaming the dream of the separated self anymore. To be able to trust the body fully, we have to be in a regulated state of the nerves system. Only then will the body be able to give a clear message to us.  If we are not in a regulated state (and most of us aren't without even realizing) the body is in survival mode and will just respond out of this state, with has nothing to do with the now. So its message is not aligned with the present moment and will therefor send the wrong message to us. 

In this shorter introductory episode, I give you a taste of what is on offer with the Spiritual Stylism podcast. Listen and relax, let the voice wash over you, and feel in your heart if this journey is for you. With love your host Antje https://www.spiritual-stylism.com  

We play the game of separation here and consider ourselves to be this person we embody in this life, as if it were a state carved in stone. This first version of our avatar was never our conscious choice (from a soul perspective certainly it was), we were conditioned into this version of us. Many of us, including the people who look calm and relaxed to the outside, are often without knowing it, permanently in an unregulated state of their nervous system and see the world permanently from a survival mode. Here we have a very limited capacity for perception and can hardly imagine any other reality at all, here we are reactive machines one could say. But there are still countless of other realities of yourself, you can be anything you can imagine and what you long for. You only long for it because this version of you already exists in the quantum field, now at this moment, in a different frequency. You have your life in your hands if you choose to take full responsibility for your reality and focus on what you want to live, again and again, at every moment. You are this creator, you were never anything else, you just forgot how to play the game of life properly.

You probably know how to adapt almost automatically to the mood in your environment and dim your light when someone in your environment is going through a challenging time. This is a matrix program, "we suffer together and thus create a connection". We are often not aware that then no one is in the truth anymore. Our nervous systems automatically vibrate with each other, we as humans are social beings and compassion is a wonderful quality, but pity is of no use to anyone. You both lose yourselves in the illusion and thus feed the wrong self. True connection happens in the truth of your higher self, not in the ego. If you feel that you are losing yourself into the field of the other person to be in his suffering out of false loyalty, to supposedly support him, then wake up and come back to you. Keep the field clear and in truth, not in the apparent truth, but in the only one, keep the field with your true self. So you are the space that regulates without doing anything, without teaching, without robbing the other of his learning field, but you lead with presence. Here, and only here, can healing really happen, because here we are true seers.

Feeling separated and cut off from one's own depths, from one's inner source is the state of most people on this planet. To make the conscious choice to no longer feel numb or on the run and to feel more liveliness within oneself is and falls with the capacity of our nervous system to be able to maintain intensive states. If we were never held from our caregivers in strong inner movements as children, then we have never learned to hold ourselves in them purely biologically. We separate ourselves from our inner experience by thinking instead of feeling, working against it, breathing it away and distracting ourselves with various things and are therefore not at home in ourselves. Life seems to us as a consequence bland and sober, seemingly safe, but we feel no connection in ourselves and with the world. The good news is that we can learn and develop to stick to everything that appears in us. We can let what is shown in us flow unfilterled in the present moment without having to do anything with it. So we feel truly in our body and feel deeply alive, life pulsates in us, because nothing is really separated from us, we are life itself.

We all do it and have often done it as children, we drift into our dream worlds in the future... and dreamed away from the present moment, because it was simply much more beautiful there than what we experienced outside. That's how life could be endured. I have often wondered where exactly the difference is and how I can feel it when I dream away and fantasize and thus avoid the present moment, compared to the pure creation, where I create my reality as I would like it to be. One comes from the Ego, from our personality and thus from a point of lack and the other comes from our higher self, from our essence. If you catch yourself moving away from the present moment, then always come back to the now, don't let yourself be tempted to drift away into fantasy worlds and move away from the presence, this is simply avoiding life and keeping you trapped in the past.

Manifestation often feels like playing and that's a beautiful energy and a high state of being. We might think, we can play a bit with energy and see what happens and if it is even possible to manifest etc. This cosmic "game" has consequences and is very powerful. It has power and if your awareness and focus is powerful and strong, then you can move to another version of yourself in a very short time. In order to slip into a new reality, everything that no longer vibrates with your new frequency wants to leave your field, so that what is now attracted by you can come in. Are you ready to let go to be able to receive? We often underestimate this process and its impact. I am always fascinated by how quickly things are "torn" out of my life, sudden and unexpected scenarios arise, which are often also unpleasant and challenging, to make room for the new version of me and my desire. If I hold on and don't  surrender, then I am blocking the entire manifestation, because nothing can come in, as the space is already occupied. Where do you hold on to things, humans, identifications that are no longer meant to be part of your life and refuse to grow?

Do you know the magical moment in the morning when you only perceive space, peace and full potential? If you haven't fully woken up yet or rather before you fall asleep again? Fallin asleep into this perceived limitation of being a separate being with your name, your preferences and your story? If you are attentive and mindful, then you perceive it. That moment, where you are still a nobody, a space, pure energy between the worlds. Expand this sacred moment, every morning a little bit more, become this experience. This can be one of the keys for you to experience yourself tangibly as what you really are, pure divine consciousness.

Why do some of us constantly experience situations in life where they have to fight their way through again and again and can prove to themselves and the world how "strong" they are. According to the motto "Life, you can't get me small, I can overcome anything" (which of course attracts them even more situations to fight in their lives), but not as a wise and strong inner attitude to face challenges awake and resting in themselves, but as a declaration of war. Still others seem to attract situations where they suffer and feel like victims of life and circumstances and others where fear and doubt repeat themselves again and again. We ourselves, of course unconsciously, create again and again these situations in our lives, which appear "accidental" on the outs and with which we then have to deal. If we go back even further and explore which part of us this tailor-made scenario unconsciously serves and which identity keeps alive with it, then you have a chance to interrupt this cycle. This presupposes that you take responsibility for your unconscious manifestations and recognise yourself as the creator of your life.

Do you know the guilt and shame of taking time for yourself and even putting your relationship with yourself first? In the matrix, this is often called "selfish". I would reverse it exactly, not doing it is selfish. How can you be a light from an unconscious personality for yourself and thus also in the world? Is anything else on your daily to-do list really more important than becoming truly aware of "yourself" in yourself? Without going inwards and feeling what looks out of you, what perceives so called reality, what rests behind all the worldly events, it becomes almost impossible to experience this in a tangible way. You can read about it, read thousands of books, attend courses, learn techniques, but to experience it, tangible... truly, that's what makes the difference. That takes time and energy...and can there really be something that's more important than that? When you have found yourself in yourself, felt yourself, then you stop running, you run less and less and what you truly are becomes more and more real. But it takes your dedication and your time....the clear decision to put yourself first

What is your true purpose in this incarnation? And does that actually exist, the ONE mission? Or is it much more true that we always embody our "mission" when we are awake and conscious? That every breath, every action, every expression is where our mission is alive? How we touch the world, be touched by our own? If we are one with all that is, then we are connected with the one truth, we are then an expression of that one truth and is not that our only true "mission" that is then expressed in every action?

Consciousness is the only reality that exists. Whenever you are saying to yourself "this is me, this is how I am, I am that kind of a person", you are running a program, you are trapped in the Matrix. The only truth is "I am the I am", that´s it. You are everything and nothing, you are consciousness in a physical vehicle, in a human body. It is such a trap to put ourselves in a box with a name on and this is than our life. The worst is, that all of these programs has nothing to do with us. We are conditioned from our ancestors, parents, teachers, friends, society etc., and we don't even know that we have a choice to just decide to step out it. As all of it is unconscious, we are just letting these believes drive the bus, wich we call our life. You have the choice to free yourself, every single moment. So watch yourself, whenever you have the thought "this is me" or "I am that kind of a person", you are deepening the false self, the imposter in you. Be brave and let your higher self lead this incarnation, therefore let go of all identifications and become a nobody to be able to become everything. 

To feel yourself pur and vulnerable again, without masks and rolls, to perceive this raw core in you, that is intimacy for me. You allow yourself to see yourself completely, with everything that is there and to love and fully accept you with it. No judgement, no "wanting to get rid of it", pure acceptance for everything that is there. Then the protective walls collapse more and more, because there is nothing left to hide. You recognise this innocent and untouched core in you again and an incomparable closeness and depth to yourself arises. Only then can you be really close to someone else.

I invite you to courageously and truthfully question your deeper intentions behind your actions. And don't stop at the first answer you get, it's definitely  coming from your ego, dive deeper and deeper and be bold. Why are you really calling your friend? To hear how he oder she is doing? Or because you're actually lonely underneath? There is nothing wrong with it, but own it and take care of this loneliness with yourself first, let it be there, feel it and then let it go. Or why do you want to apologise to someone? Really for the other person? Or to be able to feel the superficial "peace" and "harmony" in yourself again, because you do not want to feel the feelings of guilt that have been waiting for your loving attention and embrace for ages. You are not a giver if you carry out your actions out of a deeper lack in your person. Then you take energy from the other to replenish yourself for a short moment, to get short-term satisfaction and deep inside you it continues to ferment... until the next opportunity that life offers you.

Are you living in the zone of magic? Do you know, it´s just a question of the vibration you are in, as your higher self IS pure magic, is where the miracles happen, is beyond logic, is infinite and abundant. As this is what we truly are, we can access this state at any moment. Most humans have forgotten about this, have forgotten about the truth, it seems they have lost access to that state, but that is a lie, it´s just hidden underneath the persona and their believes and story. Wake up and live your live out of your higher self and NOT out of a program in the matrix. It´s not complicated or just for so called "special beings", it´s for you and me, for everyone who is willing to drop the false self.

Be at peace with reality, even if it is challenging. If you are not at peace with the now, you are emanating more energy on what you do not want. Energy always follows the attention. You struggle with the movie on the screen instead of transforming the projection wich comes from within you and that is causing the story on the screen. What is, is already there, it has already manifested. How much sense does it make to fight against it? None at all.  If your vessel is full to the limit, how are new things supposed to get in there? Always remember, you don't get what you want, you will get what you already are! Therein lies the magic, the power and the change.

That sounds weird, doesn't it? But it is the same. What we all seek is within us, is always there, was always there and will always be there. You've heard that many times, I suppose. But mental understanding will not help you, only the true feeling and perception of your divine essence will open this truth for you. You can still read 100 spiritual books, travel to big gurus, search everywhere and there is nothing wrong with that. At some point it will exhaust you so much, soften you, let you resign ... hopefully. Then you are ready to stop, stop yourself as a person, stop your programs and give up. Give up the search and find out with all your being. Here and now...it's here, right now in this moment...

We all give ourselves the "drug shot" several times a day, the dopamine kick to cover up what is in us and hurts under the surface. This can be anything, we can even use a prayer to not feel what is alive in us and distract us. This is always a movement away from ourselves, we close ourselves up again and send what has made it´s way to the surface to get released back into our system. "No, you're not welcome, I don't want you, not yet, to overwhelming"....that's the message towards these parts in us. This is avoidance and blocks the natural flow of energy in you more and more. What you really are, the energy that naturally lives in you cannot come to light. Everything that lies above wants to be felt briefly, appear in your space for a moment without any judgement and then say goodbye. Your system is constantly trying to free itself from the old to make space for the truth...for ecstasy, love, joy and bliss. 

We are addicts, addicted to our identity, to the next drug shot, to be able to identify ourselves again and again with something, with something that keeps this person that we are playing here alive. As long as we fully identify with this character, we are prisoners. Only once you have looked at the stage from the perspective of the viewer, the pure consciousness, have focussed your gaze on your avatar, a choice begins, a piece of freedom begins, life begins. Everything that you can perceive can´t be you, as you would have disappeared already like thoughts, emotions, sensations...all objects, they all come and go, over and over, what lasts is you! Consciousness is the only truth thats existing!

Isn't that an exciting question? Who would we be if we had never been conditioned and could fully express our unique energy? That would be true authenticity and truthfulness. Play with it a little, if there was no fear, no doubt, no feelings of not being worthy in you and you would conquer the world like Pippi Longstocking. Free and full of confidence and inner security you wake up in the morning and are "excited" to create. Without intention and pressure that an specific outcome, in the energy of innocence, simply because you are alive and want to play, as a natural expression of your essence, like inhaling and exhaling. All´ your talents and gifts for this incarnation, your authentic expression lives in you, they are always there. Reconnect with the child have been, with the innocent energy where everything was possible, because it still is. These false limitations live only in your head, they are not your truth,  only part of this earthly game. Dismiss them from your system and be free.

Be gentle and loving with yourself and have compassion and love for everything that appears in you. The way back to our essence is sometimes very challenging, but there is nothing more worthwhile. To feel life, how it flows through you, how you are one with it and everything that is, you can't experience that if you remain closed. Embrace everything in you, not just the so called light and be gentle and loving with yourself...be your best friend.

Thoughts are not free. We can´t just "think wildly" and assume that there are no consequences here. Everything in this universe is energy, everything vibrates, including our thoughts. As you know by now, thoughts and emotions form an electromagnetic field from which we create and which we can also direct on other people and things through our focus. So everything has an effect, on your own life and on the lives of the people you think of. You send energy out into the universe and if it is negative energy for example, because you are angry with someone, then be sure that it arrives with the other person. Be careful with your thoughts, take responsibility for them and be the master in your own home.