Cosmic Mess Podcast

What happens when you finally stop hiding?When you stop shrinking to be digestible — and start telling the truth, even when it shakes your voice?In this raw and unfiltered episode of Cosmic Mess, Monica opens up about a difficult phone call with her parents, being honest about her mental health, her sexuality, and the cost of being seen.This isn’t an episode about blame — it’s about boundaries, grief, and the quiet freedom that comes from saying: this is me, and I’m not sorry.If you’ve ever been told your truth makes people uncomfortable, this episode is for you.It’s a reminder that you can speak up, cry through it, and still be worthy of love.Because healing isn’t tidy — it’s real, messy, and deeply human.💌 Connect: [email protected]🌐 Follow: @cosmicmess.llc | @cosmicmesspodcast🎧 Listen to more at cosmicmessllc.com

Part Two takes us deeper into ancestral healing—where release becomes reclamation. We talk about creating open dialogue with your ancestors, altar practices, and the simple but powerful ways signs and synchronicities show up in daily life. You’ll also hear a guided ritual for letting go of inherited pain, plus a card pull to check in with the energy of the week. This conversation is a reminder: you are not broken, you’re part of a long line of survivors, and your healing ripples both backward and forward through your lineage.Connect:• Monica — IG: @cosmicmesspodcast • @monica.elzbieta • Email: [email protected]• Brittany (guest) — IG: @_issavibecheck_P.S. Got a spooky story for our Halloween special? Send it to [email protected] with “Spooky Story” in the subject.

📍 Ancestral Wounds w/ Britt, Part OneWhat happens when the pain we’re carrying isn’t just ours? In this episode, I’m joined by my dear friend Brittany (@_issavibecheck_), a multi-passionate creative, vibe curator, and creator of the Issa Vibe Check affirmation deck, to talk about the ancestral wound—the inherited trauma, silence, and survival patterns passed down through our families.We share personal stories about body image, money, family expectations, and the unspoken rules that shaped how we thought we had to be. This isn’t about blaming our ancestors—it’s about honoring them while choosing to break cycles and live differently.✨ Part Two drops next week! In it, we’ll get practical with mirror talks, cord-cutting, building ancestral altars, and a collective card pull to help you bring this healing into your own life.🎙 Cosmic Mess is unfiltered conversations for the too much and not enough among us.💌 Connect with me:Instagram: @cosmicmesspodcast | @monica.elzbietaEmail: [email protected]

We’re told healing is about fixing, upgrading, or becoming someone new. But what if it’s not? In this episode, I share why healing isn’t about polishing yourself into perfection — it’s about remembering who you already are. ✨From treating healing like a Virgo-style checklist, to realizing my body is a doorway to the divine, to living the life my ancestors dreamed of — this conversation is about coming home to yourself. You are not broken. You are not behind. You are whole, messy, divine, and human.📩 Connect with me:Instagram: @cosmicmesspodcast | @monica.elzbietaEmail: [email protected]

✨ No More Shrinking — Breaking Free from People Pleasing ✨For years, I bent myself into shapes that weren’t mine — silencing my truth, softening my edges, and playing the role of “easy” because I thought that made me lovable. Spoiler: it didn’t.In this episode of Cosmic Mess, I’m sharing the real cost of people pleasing — how it sneaks into our relationships, friendships, work, even tiny everyday moments — and how I’m learning to stop abandoning myself. From trauma in a trench coat to saying “it’s fine” when it’s not, this one is raw, messy, and maybe a little too relatable.If you’ve ever struggled with shrinking yourself for approval, comfort, or belonging, this episode is for you.🎧 Listen now and let’s talk about what it really takes to stop pleasing, start expanding, and belong to yourself first.—✨ Let’s connect:Instagram: @cosmicmesspodcast | @monica.elzbietaEmail: [email protected]

Hey, beautiful messes. Welcome back to Cosmic Mess, unfiltered conversations for the too much and not enough among us.Episode 11 is something new — the start of a series I’m calling Dear Diary. I’m opening the pages of my journals from the very beginning of my healing journey back in October 2019.These entries are raw and unedited — filled with confusion, hope, anger, affirmations, Reiki reflections, angel numbers, and the first glimpses of PMDD. Think of this episode as a breadcrumb trail, a time capsule of where it all began.⚠️ Trigger Warning: Themes of pain, grief, PMDD, anxiety, anger, medication side effects, and emotional struggle. Please listen with care and step away if you need to.✨ If these words resonate with you, I’d love to hear from you. Connect with me on Instagram @cosmicmesspodcast & @monica.elzbieta or by email at [email protected] you are worthy — simply because you exist. 💫

⚠️ Trigger Warning: Discussion of loneliness, patriarchal conditioning, queerphobia, fatphobia, and religious themes.In this empowering episode of Cosmic Mess, we dive deep into being single on the spiritual path, breaking generational trauma, and healing women’s loneliness. I unpack the so-called male loneliness epidemic, the patriarchal systems that shaped it, and why women have been carrying the emotional weight of the world for centuries.You’ll hear about:🌙 The sacredness of singleness and the Maiden archetype🔥 Why partnership doesn’t define your worth🖤 Ancestral patterns of loneliness — and how to alchemize them into self-love🪄 Witchy wisdom for reclaiming your wholeness💬 Personal stories of healing queerphobia, fatphobia, and “too much” energyWhether you’re single, partnered, or rethinking love entirely, this episode will help you see yourself as already complete — no waiting for Adam required.📩 Share your story: [email protected]📲 Follow: @cosmicmesspodcast | @monica.elzbieta

✨ Breaking the Cycle, Rewriting the Story ✨This episode is a sacred space for the cycle breakers — the ones doing the work no one modeled, who carry both grief and hope, and who are rewriting the story in real time.We’ll move through personal storytelling, ancestral trauma, the science of epigenetics, and the emotional and spiritual toll of being the first to choose differently. If you’ve ever felt like the outsider in your own family, like healing is too hard or too slow, this episode is for you.💭 We explore:Generational trauma + ancestral memoryEpigenetics and what we inherit through the bodyFamily estrangement and grieving what never wasHow to recognize if you're the cycle breakerRituals and spiritual practices for supportThe cost and the courage of healing⚠️ Trigger Warnings: Emotional abuse, family trauma, estrangement, grief, mentions of mental illness__✨ Issa Vibe Check:For more information on the Issa Vibe Affirmation Deck, please visit issavibecheck.com💌 Contact:@cosmicmesspodcast | @[email protected] are not broken.You are the turning point.You are the rewrite.

Episode 8: The Lie of Not Enough🎙️ Imposter syndrome, ancestral wounds, and the messy miracle of becoming.Ever feel like you're faking it? Like at any moment someone’s going to figure out you have no idea what you’re doing? Same.In this episode, we're pulling apart the myth of not-enoughness — where it starts, how it shows up in the body, and why it gets loudest when you’re on the verge of something sacred.We explore:🌿 The roots of imposter syndrome in trauma, neurodivergence, PMDD, and systemic harm🧠 Why this isn’t just mindset — it’s nervous system, lineage, and survival📚 Overachievement, burnout, and the double-bind of being “too much”🕯️ Rituals for remembrance, ancestral healing, and body-based reclamation💬 A live oracle card pull to close it out (and yes, there are tears)⚠️ Trigger Warnings: Mental health, internalized shame, PMDD, trauma, burnout, self-doubtWhether you're navigating a creative project, stepping into your voice, or just trying to believe in yourself again — this one’s for you.📩 Connect with me:Instagram: @cosmicmesspodcast + @monica.elzbietaEmail: [email protected] don’t have to be perfect.You don’t even have to be consistent.You get to be a whole-ass human with messy edges and brilliance.

What if your cycle isn't a curse, but a key?In this deeply personal and soulfully educational episode, Monica breaks down the four phases of the menstrual cycle, shares her lived experience with PMDD (Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder), and reclaims the bleed as a sacred, powerful rhythm. You'll learn:What's happening in your body during each cycle phase, hormonally, emotionally, and spirituallyFoods, teas, and movement to support each phaseThe difference between a White Moon and Red Moon cycleHow PMDD feels from the inside, and what has actually helpedHow to track your cycle without giving your data to Big TechThe witchy history of blood magic, ancestral wisdom, and lunar alignmentThis episode is a love letter to bleeding bodies, shadow work, and cyclical healing. You are not broken. You are sacred. Even in the mess. 🩸 Trigger Warnings: Mental health symptoms, PMDD, suicidal ideation, medical gaslighting, mention of blood📬 Connect: @monica.elzbieta | @cosmicmesspodcast | [email protected]

In this softer, more playful episode, I’m sharing the weird witchy wellness rituals that actually help me feel grounded — from crystals in my bra to moon water in my tea. We’ll talk about intuitive tools like oracle cards, talking to your guides in the shower, ancestral altars, energy cleansing, and tuning into your menstrual cycle as a sacred rhythm.I also open up about a recent shift in my mental health journey — including a medication adjustment, finding a new OBGYN, and receiving an official diagnosis of PMDD.⚠️ Content note: This episode includes mentions of depression, medication, and PMDD. Please take care of yourself while listening.🔮 Want to connect or share your own weird rituals?Find me on IG @monica.elzbieta and @cosmicmesspodcast📧 Or email me anytime: [email protected]

Awakening isn't always light and clarity. Sometimes it's heartbreak. Sometimes it's sacred rage. Sometimes it's feeling so overwhelmed by the state of the world that you don't know how to keep going, but you do anyway. In this episode of Cosmic Mess, we talk about the emotional and spiritual cost of being conscious in a world that thrives on disconnection. This is for the ones who can't unsee what they've seen and are trying to stay soft anyway. We explore: Sacred rage + spiritual violenceThe fog of not knowing what to doLosing people as you set boundariesThe energetic imbalance of masculine/feminine paradigmsNervous system burnout and somatic toolsThe 7 activist archetypes (and how you show up)Why rest and presence are radical acts of resistanceIf you're feeling like it's too much, you're not broken.You're awake. And that is sacred.🛑 Trigger warnings: mentions of systemic injustice + cruelty (no graphic detail), spiritual violence + performative politics, personal experiences of burnout, fatigue, and emotional overwhelm, body disconnection and nervous system survival, grief, boundary loss, and relational traumaPlease listen gently. Take breaks. Come back when you're ready. 💛📩 Contact & ConnectDM me on Instagram: @cosmicmesspodcast or @monica.elzbietaOr reach out via email: [email protected]💌 Resources, archetypes, and transcripts available at @cosmicmesspodcast on Instagram.

In this episode, I’m getting real about my lifelong diagnoses of Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) and Major Depressive Disorder (MDD)—and why, even after years of therapy and self-work, those labels still feel more like symptoms than answers.We explore:The shame that grows when you feel like you’re always “too much” or “not enough”How women—and especially women of color—are often dismissed or disbelieved by the medical systemWhy I believe ADHD and PMDD are part of my story tooWhat it looks like to advocate for yourself when the system tells you not to trust your own experienceHow shame disconnects us from our bodies—and how I’m starting to rebuild that trustThis episode includes a short closing meditation to help you ground and reconnect after what may be an emotionally charged listen.Trigger Warning:Mentions of mental illness, diagnostic invalidation, medical gaslighting, PMDD, and emotional dysregulation.If you’ve ever felt dismissed, misdiagnosed, or unseen inside your own body—this one’s for you.Let’s stay connected:💌 Send your thoughts to: [email protected]📸 Follow along on Instagram: @monica.elzbieta | @cosmicmesspodcastIf this episode resonates, please share it or leave a review—it helps more messy, magical humans find this space. 🖤

What happens when movement becomes more about punishment than pleasure? When our bodies are treated like problems to fix, rather than sacred spaces to inhabit? In this unfiltered and heartfelt episode, I sit down with my very first guest, Amy’rie, to talk about our complicated (and ever-evolving) relationships with movement, intuitive eating, diet culture, and body trust.Together, we unpack:What it means to move without shame or performanceHow diet culture sneaks into even our most “wellnessy” intentionsThe healing potential of joyful, intuitive, and mindful movementWhy "play" might be the missing piece in your healing journeyAnd how being seen in our full humanity is one of the most radical acts of allPlus, an intuitive oracle reading from me to Amy’rie, highlighting themes of alignment, devotion, ancestral support, and awakening to a new way of being in your body. If you’ve ever felt like your body was "too much," "not enough," or just… confusing, this episode is a love letter to you.🧿 You are sacred in motion. Especially in the mess.—✨ Mini Bio: Amy’rieAmy’rie (she/her) is a self-described chaotic wholesome cat mom. In her spare time she casually crochets, plays cozy video games, reads, and is trying her hand at postage stamp gardening this summer. —🔗 Let’s connect:Host: @monica.elzbietaPodcast: @cosmicmesspodcastEmail: [email protected]✨ If you loved this episode, share it with someone who needs permission to move gently. Leave a review and let us know what resonated most. Stay messy. Stay magical.

In the premiere episode of Cosmic Mess, host Monica shares the raw, honest origin story behind the podcast. This episode explores body image struggles, spiritual healing, and what it means to live as a highly sensitive, neurodivergent soul in a world that often demands perfection. If you've ever felt like you're "too much" or "not enough," this podcast is your permission slip to take up space, speak your truth, and reconnect with your messy, magical self.✨ Topics covered: body acceptance, energy work, self-healing, spirituality, empowerment, and mental health🎙 Keywords: body image podcast, spiritual healing, self-acceptance, energy work, neurodivergent, feminine empowerment, highly sensitive, reiki, witchy podcast📲 Connect on Instagram: @monica.elzbieta & @cosmicmesspodcast📧 Reach out: [email protected]

⚠️ Trigger Warning: This episode includes personal reflections on dieting, disordered eating, body shame, and body image struggles. Please take care while listening and pause if anything feels overwhelming.In this powerful episode of Cosmic Mess, Monica unpacks the toxic myth that our bodies must look a certain way to be lovable, successful, or worthy. Sharing personal stories of early dieting, starvation, and the pressure to shrink herself to fit in, Monica offers a raw look at how body image wounds are formed—and how we begin to heal them.This episode is a love letter to the bodies we were taught to hate. If you’ve ever felt like your worth was tied to your weight, your appearance, or your ability to be "palatable," this conversation is for you. You’ll walk away with a new lens, soul-deep validation, and practices to start reclaiming your body from systems that profit off your shame.Questions from the Episode:Who told me what my body should look like? What have I been taught to fear about taking up space?What does safety feel like in my body — not society’s version of it?Can I let my body be enough today… without needing her to change?✨ Topics covered: body image healing, self-worth, diet culture recovery, disordered eating, body liberation, spiritual self-love🎙 Keywords: body image podcast, body acceptance, self-worth, healing body shame, intuitive healing, body positivity, anti-diet, worthy body, energy work and self-image📲 Follow on Instagram: @monica.elzbieta & @cosmicmesspodcast📧 Contact: [email protected]