Mill Creek OA 100 Pounder Speaker Meeting

Graduated HS at 285, but will never get to 300, Then hit 407 and stopped using a scale At a couples event I met a guy who was over 400 but was not now. He got my attention. I have always thought I was just a fat kid. It was not the reality looking at pictures but I thought it was. My goto prayer is -"God, show me what I need to see." I always did well with fasting and/or Keto. The king of short term weight loss.  Until it didn't work. Was on the plan and failed every day. It was the darkest I can imagine. and it got worse. I called a guy I had met - actually called, he called back and I got involved in OA. I I threw myself into following a sponsors  I had the moment where I had a sudden crisis and my first thought was food, but niot my action.\ I used to eat to treat my spiritual malady. Not taday.  

I come from generations of alcoholics and overeaters. I am one of eight and we all have 'issues' I thought we were a close knit family, I was a strong fixer. I later discovered I was a martyr and a victim putting my emotional well being onto my husband. In adolescence I felt 'large' but looking back l it was not the case. It was in marriage I progressed from plump to 280 lbs. I was scared into seeking 'life' one evening in the 90s It was in open AA meetings where I really learned about the 12 steps and all the human drama that work with the 12 steps. I keep my eyes on the prize - being joyous, happy and free.