Only God Rescued Me: My Journey From Satanic Ritual Abuse

SA and SRA can leave survivors with long-term gynecological conditions that are often surrounded by deep shame. That shame can become so overwhelming that many survivors feel unable to ask questions, seek medical care, or even talk about what they are experiencing.Today, Dr. Claire Robertson Taylor joins us to help remove that shame and place it back where it belongs—on the abusers. Together, we explore difficult but important questions, offering understanding, validation, and practical information for survivors navigating these lasting effects.Content Warning: This is a highly triggering interview. Please take care of yourself as you listen. Go slowly, pause when needed, and return only when you feel ready.Disclaimer: This episode is for educational and informational purposes only and is not intended to provide medical or mental health advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare professional regarding your individual circumstances.

What if everything you believed about one man's childhood sounded too unbelievable to be true?Today we proudly bring you the story of a male survivor. Male survivor stories have been rare on this channel, making this interview all the more important.In this powerful conversation, Anonymous Italian shares a life that seems almost impossible to comprehend. He grew up in a town where spies, Nazis, Russians, the military, and the mob all intersected. His uncle had connections to Nazis and Operation Paperclip, while his father was a low-ranking member of the mob.Although his Catholic mother came from a loving Italian family, she placed him in an Episcopal church where he says he became part of Project Artichoke. For years, he struggled to understand the fragments of his past. When he finally confronted his mother as an adult about the sexual abuse he endured, her response was one of anger, telling him never to speak of it again.This interview follows Anonymous Italian as he pieces together a life filled with secrets, trauma, and unanswered questions. Whether you're a survivor, a helper, or simply seeking to understand the complexities of trauma, this conversation offers a remarkable look at one man's journey to make sense of the unimaginable.Thank you for joining us. If this interview is meaningful to you, please consider subscribing, sharing it with others, and leaving a respectful comment below.Only God Rescued Me exists to give survivors a voice, educate helpers, and point people toward hope and healing through Christ.Only God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Trust, it's a hard concept for survivors when it comes to God, yet so essential. Today we dive into what trust is and how we can begin to approach trusting God when everything inside us says not to. Only God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Welcome to the Gillard Trilogy! In this series, Lisa Gillard invites us into the everyday reality of life as a survivor. Together, we explore flashbacks, triggers, chronic health issues, family relationships, navigating the mental health community, malevolence, crime, justice, healing, and what it takes to weave all of those experiences into a meaningful life. This interview is especially important for helpers who want a clearer picture of what survivors live with day after day. It is also an opportunity for survivors to recognize their own experiences in someone else's story and discover that they are not alone. Through honesty, wisdom, and hard-won insight, Lisa helps bridge the gap between surviving and understanding. For her original podcast with all her story, you can catch it here: https://youtu.be/Hl11aBj5hoE https://youtu.be/VR3c_jcrEXk https://youtu.be/68yEznP15Nk Only God Rescued Me: Website: https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/ Contact Lisa: [email protected] To help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/join Spotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribe PayPal [email protected] Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvV Buy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Welcome to the Gillard Trilogy! In this series, Lisa Gillard invites us into the everyday reality of life as a survivor. Together, we explore flashbacks, triggers, chronic health issues, family relationships, navigating the mental health community, malevolence, crime, justice, healing, and what it takes to weave all of those experiences into a meaningful life. This interview is especially important for helpers who want a clearer picture of what survivors live with day after day. It is also an opportunity for survivors to recognize their own experiences in someone else's story and discover that they are not alone. Through honesty, wisdom, and hard-won insight, Lisa helps bridge the gap between surviving and understanding. For her original podcast with all her story, you can catch it here: https://youtu.be/Hl11aBj5hoE https://youtu.be/VR3c_jcrEXk https://youtu.be/68yEznP15Nk Only God Rescued Me: Website: https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/ Contact Lisa: [email protected] To help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/join Spotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribe PayPal [email protected] Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvV Buy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Welcome to the Gillard Trilogy! In this series, Lisa Gillard invites us into the everyday reality of life as a survivor. Together, we explore flashbacks, triggers, chronic health issues, family relationships, navigating the mental health community, malevolence, crime, justice, healing, and what it takes to weave all of those experiences into a meaningful life.This interview is especially important for helpers who want a clearer picture of what survivors live with day after day. It is also an opportunity for survivors to recognize their own experiences in someone else's story and discover that they are not alone. Through honesty, wisdom, and hard-won insight, Lisa helps bridge the gap between surviving and understanding.For her original podcast with all her story, you can catch it here:https://youtu.be/Hl11aBj5hoEhttps://youtu.be/VR3c_jcrEXkhttps://youtu.be/68yEznP15NkOnly God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal [email protected] @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Welcome to the Gillard Trilogy! In this series, Lisa Gillard invites us into the everyday reality of life as a survivor. Together, we explore flashbacks, triggers, chronic health issues, family relationships, navigating the mental health community, malevolence, crime, justice, healing, and what it takes to weave all of those experiences into a meaningful life.This interview is especially important for helpers who want a clearer picture of what survivors live with day after day. It is also an opportunity for survivors to recognize their own experiences in someone else's story and discover that they are not alone. Through honesty, wisdom, and hard-won insight, Lisa helps bridge the gap between surviving and understanding.For her original podcast with all her story, you can catch it here:https://youtu.be/Hl11aBj5hoEhttps://youtu.be/VR3c_jcrEXkhttps://youtu.be/68yEznP15NkOnly God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal [email protected] @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Join Sydney Millage as she gives a wonderful explanation on how to view suffering. For the rest of her interview, find: Sally's Story with Sydney Millage.

Sydney Millage discusses embodiment with us today on this short. Join us for the rest of this discussion on the podcast under the title: Sally's Story with Sydney Millage.

Welcome to Sally's Story. Author Sydney Millage joins us to explore the beginning stages of the ritual abuse healing journey through the story of Sally. This beautifully written book gently introduces the challenges survivors often face when they first begin uncovering wounds they may not yet fully understand.With warmth, compassion, and insight, Sydney gives language to experiences that can feel confusing and overwhelming. She helps remove some of the fear surrounding the healing process, replacing it with understanding, hope, and confidence. Where the inner critic speaks shame and condemnation, she offers kindness and grace.Join us for this fascinating conversation as we discuss the realities of beginning the healing journey, the obstacles survivors encounter, and the hope that healing is possible—even when the path ahead seems uncertain.Sally's story is available on Amazon, #ad: https://amzn.to/43j3RylOnly God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

“Fault” is one of the hardest words for abuse survivors to bear—especially for those who have experienced SRA.Why does this word cut so deeply?How do double binds trap us?What is moral injury, and why does it linger?Today, we step into this painful space together. And to make sense of it, we’ll look at SRA in a way that may feel unexpected—as a kind of game.It’s a perspective that may change how you understand the impact of abuse.Only God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Sheryl’s healing journey began when her postpartum depression didn’t lift after nine months. With her fourth child, she knew something wasn’t right—and her wise therapist gently suggested there might be more beneath the surface than the baby blues.Desperate for answers, Sheryl was willing to try anything.What followed was a descent into the terrifying reality of ritual abuse.Over the past ten years, Sheryl has walked through distinct seasons of healing—each one marked by struggle, revelation, and ultimately, God’s faithful presence. Today, she shares how she can see His hand guiding her through it all, leading her to the healthiest and most grounded place she has ever known.Join us as Sheryl bravely tells her story.Only God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Mother’s Day can be especially hard for survivors.In this episode, Lisa shares a message for getting through the weekend—holding space for the heartache many are carrying, while gently reminding us that we are not alone.Even in the heaviness, there is strength in community.We can take this one step at a time, together.Hang in there, my friends.We will make it through.

Mother’s Day can be deeply complicated when your story with your mom includes trauma.How do you honor your mother as Scripture calls us to…while also protecting yourself?Are you allowed to create distance?What does forgiveness look like when the harm is real?And how do you guard the next generation?Today, we step into these difficult and often unspoken questions with Monique Koven, host of the Healing Trauma Podcast.This is a gentle, honest conversation about faith, boundaries, and healing—especially on a day that can carry both love and pain.Join us for a meaningful Mother’s Day discussion.The Healing Trauma Podcast: https://www.youtube.com/ ⁨@Thehealingtraumapodcast⁩  Only God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Art therapy can reach parts of the brain that traditional talk therapy often can’t. Research is beginning to confirm this—but the “why” is still unfolding.In this episode, Samantha Liddicoat joins us to explore how creativity opens pathways to emotion, healing, and connection. She introduces The Imagination Journal, a playful, non-threatening way to engage your thoughts and feelings through color, art, and curiosity. It’s a conversation about creativity, expression, and discovering new ways to connect with yourself. #adAmazon Link: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0CQXFFH5Y/ref=cm_sw_r_as_gl_api_gl_i_SQ8S9FVK1Q0KVKCN00Y3?linkCode=ml1&tag=ogrm-20&linkId=3b90043a414db07d262697d53c91e36dOnly God Rescued Me:Website: https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa: [email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Hey Littles, this one is especially for you.Anita Anderson has written a beautiful book just for DID parts—especially Littles—called The Hearthouse. It’s a warm,inviting story that gently guides survivors into connecting with their inner world, building communication, and growing compassion within their system.In today’s episode, Anita joins us to share the heart behind the book and her own lived experience with DID over the past 80 years. We talk about what it means to create safety inside, to build community among parts, and to approach healingwith kindness.If you’re navigating DID, this book can be a meaningful companion. And if you love someone who is, it offers a window into their inner world with insight andcare.This was such a thoughtful and grounding conversation—we’re really glad you’re here for it.“Heart House”https://amzn.to/48GrRylContactAnita: [email protected] soon:HearthouseCommunity: www.hearthousecommunity.com Only God RescuedMe: Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/ Contact Lisa:[email protected] To help support this podcast:  Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

In today’s episode, Amy Weber joins us to guide a deeply important conversation about the role of the body in healing. Our bodies have carried us through so much—especially in the context of abuse—and yet they are often the most overlooked part of the healing process.Amy shares that the body is the “forgotten element” in recovery, and invites us to begin reclaiming it through one simple, powerful word: movement.As we move—into healing, into rest, into peace, and into relationship with God—our bodies begin to respond. They learn to settle. To breathe. To feel safe again.Coming from her work with the Releve One Foundation, Amy brings a message of hope: our bodies are not broken beyond repair—they are capable of responding, restoring, and healing.Episode on Extravagant Joy: https://spotifycreators-web.app.link/e/SGl62USe81bOnly God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Good Friday can carry deep weight for survivors.Today, we gently enter into a hard but important conversation about the “why” behind that. This episode may be triggering, so please listen with care—only if you’re in a place where you feel grounded, and pause whenever needed.We’ll also talk about how cult environments can mock and distort the death and resurrection of Yeshua, often leaving survivors in a painful in-between space.If this resonates with you, I invite you to join me. Together, we can grow in compassion and understanding.Only God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Meet Linda Etherton—another courageous voice in our Victor Series.Linda shares her story with a deep desire to bring glory to God, even through the hardest parts of her journey. Her testimony includes the painful aftermath of ritual abuse and the complex path she has walked toward healing.Through seasons of confusion, emotional waves, and slow but steady restoration, Linda has continued to press forward. Along the way, she has experienced powerful moments of God’s presence and miracles that bring hope in the midst of brokenness.Her husband’s faith and prayers became part of her journey home, and together they have remained committed through it all.Linda’s story honestly reflects both the deep struggles of surviving SRA and the quiet, enduring victories of belonging to God.Only God Rescued Me: Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/ Contact Lisa:[email protected] To help support this podcast:  Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com 

Larry Macmurdo first heard about ritual abuse and sex trafficking and knew he wanted to help. He reached out to me with a sincere heart, searching for a way to step into this difficult work. For several years, he prayed and wrestledwith how he could make a difference.As a former Marine, Larry eventually realizedthat his training had uniquely prepared him to serve as a rescuer.He connected with the 1,000 Men organization,where he received specialized training and now travels internationally gathering intelligence to help dismantle sex trafficking operations. Yet his heart remained burdened for the work here in the United States as well, which led him to become involved with Gideon’s Army.These organizations rely on each member to raise their own support, and Larry continues to trust God to provide as hefollows this calling.In this episode of Only God Rescued Me, Larry shares his personal story of abuse, the path that shaped him, and his deep desire to protect vulnerable children. His long-term vision includes bringing hope to those trapped in ritual abuse.If you feel led to support Larry’s mission, your contribution would be deeply appreciated.Larry, may God bless you and keep you safe as you walk this road. Larry’s Info:To contact Larry: [email protected]’s Webpage for information and to donate: https://www.equipnet.org/missionaries/lmacmurdo1000 Men Website: https://1000men.org/Gideon’s Army Website: https://www.gideons-army.org/ Only God RescuedMe: Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/ Contact Lisa:[email protected] To help support this podcast:  Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Tabitha Westbrook, a licensed therapist specializing in complex trauma, joins us for a gentle conversation about learning to approach our bodies with compassion.In a world filled with constant information andemotional overload, it’s easy to feel overwhelmed or disconnected. But our bodies are not working against us — they are often doing their best to protect us.In this episode, Tabitha invites us to slow downand view our nervous system responses through a kinder, trauma-informed lens. Together, we explore simple, supportive ways to honor what our bodies arecarrying and to help them settle with care.This is a soft place to land — a reminder thathealing doesn’t have to be harsh, and that our bodies deserve patience as wecontinue living in the midst of healing.Tabi’s Book: Body & Soul, Healed and Whole: AnInvitational Guide to Healthy Sexuality after Trauma, Abuse, and CoerciveControl https://www.amazon.com/Body-Soul-Healed-Whole-Invitational/dp/1496490665/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0 Tabi’s Website: The Journey and the Process: https://thejourneyandtheprocess.com/ The Promises of God, by Jennifer Lyle: https://amzn.to/4aSgxj3 Only God Rescued Me: Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/ Contact Lisa:[email protected] To help support this podcast:  Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvV

Dr. Claire Robertson Taylor knows that barely surviving isn’t where the story has to end. Healing requires intention — a decision to turn in a new direction.When staying inside feels safer, stepping out the door can feel almost impossible. But that simple act can be a game-changer.The world is drenched in green — a color that naturally boosts serotonin in our bodies. Even the soil beneath our feet carries microorganisms (yes, even the bugs — thank you, Dr. Claire!) that help stimulate serotonin production when we walk outside. Our bodies are designed to respond to nature.Sometimes hope isn’t abstract — it’s biological.When we step into the beauty God has so extravagantly woven into creation, something in us shifts. We breathe deeper. We soften. We remember.In this episode, Dr. Claire shares her love for the mountains, her deep faith in God, and practical insight into how engaging with nature supports us as we learn to live — not just survive — in the midst of healing.Dr. Claire's Victory Testimony: https://youtu.be/KJscyqxN2EwOnly God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

From the outside, it was the perfect church family.A pastor uncle.A choir-singing mother.A ministry-leading grandmother.But behind that image was something unthinkable.Pamela Richards-Woodall was trafficked by her own family.Was the church unaware? Or unwilling to see?Her story includes ritual abuse, generational secrecy — and a life-or-death standoff with a shotgun that changed everything.In this episode, Pamela breaks the silence.Pamela's Book:House Full of Secrets: Human Trafficking and Redemption: https://amzn.to/3OoL804Only God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

The world is still trying to process the impact of what’s been revealed in the Epstein files. Audra Lynn Fasano didn’t just read about it — she lived it.In her twenties, Audra encountered Jeffrey Epstein, and more than twenty years later, she is still navigating the fallout of that abuse. The effects don’t end when the headlines fade. They ripple forward.In this conversation, Audra shares what survival has looked like for her — the trauma, the targeting, and the deep healing she has found through her close relationship with God. As new waves of attention surface, she is drawing even closer to her faith to steady herself.This is a timely and powerful story of endurance, faith, and the ongoing journey of reclaiming your life.Facebook: Audra Lynn FasanoInstagram: audra_lynn_fasanoBooks:Unseen Targets: https://amzn.to/4bURGgKUnseen Chains: https://amzn.to/46CqZK6Unseen Spirits: https://amzn.to/46CqZK6#ad Only God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa: [email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Rebecca Davis joins us for an important and thoughtful conversation on how to help survivors of Ritual Abuse. Together, we explore the complex realities survivors often face, including issues of trust, insecurity, and the deep need for safe, informed support.This episode also addresses the education and preparation helpers need before stepping in, the challenges they may encounter, and practical ways to offer meaningful care to survivors. There are not enough helpers to meet the need, and we invite you to prayerfully consider this vital ministry.With the Cult Abuse Network estimating that approximately 2% of the population are Ritual Abuse survivors, these individuals may already be around you—quietly in need of understanding, compassion, and support.Rebecca's Blog: https://heresthejoy.com/Facebook: Rebecca Davis - Untwisting ScriptureUntwisting Scripture, Book 5: Brokenness and Suffering: https://amzn.to/4cfwGBk #ad Only God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Levels of CommunicationPatiane teaches about the 5 Levels of Friendship. Take these levels slowly and make friends earn their level.

In this episode of Only God Rescued Me, we meet Patiane, who exemplifies what it means to live life while continuing to heal the hard. She has endured the extremes that abuse can bring and is still working to piece together the complexities of perpetrators and victims within her own family system.As she navigates daily life alongside ongoing healing, Patiane shares moments of unexpected grace—finding comfort in the color blue, and discovering the quiet amazement of having her voice respected in her work. Her love for Yahweh remains a steady and powerful presence in her life and heart.Join me for this honest glimpse into the life of an SRA victor.Only God Rescued Me: Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/ Contact Lisa:[email protected] To help support this podcast:  Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Lara grew up in a home marked by violence and repeated injustice. In one pivotal moment, she acted in desperation to protect herself—only to be taken away by police and labeled the aggressor. This pattern would repeat itself throughout her childhood in the Derchak home.As a child, Lara knew something was deeply wrong. Years later, she would come to understand the hidden layers of sexual and ritual abuse that had also shaped her life.Lara’s story is heartbreaking, but it is also one of hope. God became her refuge and her rescue. Today, Lara is pursuing a degree so she can help others find healing, just as she has begun to do herself.Join me as Lara shares her journey of survival, truth, and restoration.

We are so grateful to begin a new season with an incredible line-up of SRA Victors and Helpers who are bravely sharing their stories. This season offers a meaningful mix of encouragement, education, healing, and hope, grounded in lived experience and compassion.Thank you for being such an important part of this community. Your presence matters more than you know. 🤍

Jennie Grace grew up in the UK foster care system. She livedin an area of 742 square miles and had 100 children's homes. She wasphotographed and placed on a "menu" to be sold into an organizedcrime world of sex trafficking and SRA. Picked up by taxis and drugged atnight, she remembers being driven around England and the places she was taken.The police refused to take her seriously. Having this information investigatedwould help rescue the children in the UK currently caught in abuse today. TheUK needs to listen to Jennie and other survivors and rescue the childrencurrently being abused. This can only happen when the adults are heard andtheir stories investigated. It's time to truly care about the children inEngland.Jennie’s Interview: https://youtu.be/DT2vVoxub_cOnly God RescuedMe:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/ Contact Lisa:[email protected] To help support this podcast:  Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

In today's episode I introduce you to Patrick, my husband of 30 years. We discuss our early years of dating and marriage and find out why he believed the sexual abuse and the sra. I hope you enjoy hearing our journey of discovery of abuse from his perspective. 

Merita Atherly Engen is from a family of SRA, although she herself was not a victim of the SRA. She has released her first book about her story, documenting how the silence enforced on them all seriously affected her life. "Heartache of Promise" is a well-written book that shows the pain and abuse Merita suffered and how the fallout of the toxic family system affected her life and the choices she made along the way. Her next book will document her sister, who suffered SRA. She calls this "a soft approach to a hard topic." The code of silence enforced in her family is quite fascinating in how she explains it in this book. Through it, she talks about the issues and shame that silence generates. SRA produces secondhand trauma, which we don't often talk about. Merita documents this very well in "Heartache of Promise." I found this a very interesting read and cannot wait for her next book. Heartache of Promise, available on Amazon: https://amzn.to/3TBMRieMerita's Website: https://meritaatherlyengen.comOnly God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/ Contact Lisa:[email protected] To help support this podcast:  Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com 

Clinging to God in DespairJuxtaposing the god of the torture of rituals with the Yahweh of love in the Bible, we know who to cling to in despair. Hear who Angie turned to in her despair. Catch up with the rest of her story in "Angie, SRA Victor," on the "Only God Rescued Me" podcast.

Angie Tripp grew up in a home filled with fear and an unpredictable, angry mother. For years, she learned to survive by shutting down her emotions. But adulthood—and eventually marriage counseling—forced her to confront the anger she carried but never understood.As Angie began journaling, her writing took unexpected turns, revealing pieces of her story that didn’t make sense at first. What followed was a confusing, painful, and ultimately courageous journey as memories and impressions of ritual abuse began to surface.In this episode, Angie shares her personal experience of unraveling suppressed emotions, facing trauma, and finding a path toward healing. Her story is raw, honest, and a testament to the strength it takes to look inward and seek the truth.Only God Rescued Me: Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/ Contact Lisa:[email protected] To help support this podcast:  Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Kardia Joi joins us today to share the story behind her powerful song, “Small.” It’s one of my personal favorites—always on repeat in my playlist. The song asks a deeply honest question: Can we trust God to be big in the midst of our deepest pain and trauma?Through raw emotion and lyrical grace, Kardia invites us to let God rebuild our identity, restore what’s been broken, and lead us into healing. “Small” is a song only she could write—one that brings hope into impossible places and reminds us that we serve a great big God who truly sees.Other Kardia Joi Episodes:Let's Get Unstuck, with Kardia Joi: https://youtu.be/yYka7ImvLOc"Life to Me," with Kardia Joi: https://youtu.be/PCX1BzQBWl4"Child of My Dreams," with Kardia Joi: https://youtu.be/63zNb9V1YhUDiscovering Faithfulness, with Kardia Joi: https://youtu.be/Q_lt1egA2v0"Love That Will Not Leave Me Blind," with Kardia Joi: https://youtu.be/6JO1IkiTSHI"It Isn't Well," with Kardia Joi: https://youtu.be/n0rN902IZ4YHealing Music with Kardia Joi: https://youtu.be/2jzDXEyZJqUFind Kardia on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/26nfYblvXy3ruxooCv3j8K?si=ntw9hpoWTbiHWrJVo-GrywOnly God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

As the day of her interview approached, Sherry Spears found herself in a deep battle for her life. Suicidal thoughts pressed in, but she fought back the darkness—writing the words “I don’t have to kill myself” again and again.Sherry made it through. And today, she bravely shares her story.Targeted and isolated for years, Sherry continues to fight for healing, for meaning, and for the chance to live free from the corruption that has long surrounded her. Through her pain shines a powerful truth: her heart is still full of courage, compassion, and hope.This episode is raw, real, and redemptive—an unflinching look at survival and the strength it takes to keep going.#SurvivorStories #FaithAndHealing #CourageToLive #PodcastOnly God Rescued Me:Website:https://www.onlygodrescuedme.com/Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: Become an OGRM Support Angel on YouTube ($4.99 per month): https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXudcfKU-b6NtSQphUOstRA/joinSpotify Subscriber ($2.99 per month): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/lisa-meister/subscribePayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

This All Hallows’ Eve, Lisa steps out from behind the mic—not as the host of Only God Rescued Me, but as a survivor. In this unscripted and unfiltered episode, she shares raw reflections from the heart: the hidden grief survivors carry while the world celebrates costumes and candy. Short, gentle, and deeply real—this episode invites you to listen, reflect, and see survivors with compassion.

Brandy Young has spent years advocating for survivors of human trafficking. Her work took an unexpected turn when a survivor of ritual abuse disclosed her story. Unfamiliar with the concept of SRA, Brandy began researching and educating herself to provide informed, compassionate support.As more survivors began to come forward, Brandy recognized a pattern—and a need for awareness. She believes that, just as society has gradually come to understand sex trafficking, it must now begin to acknowledge and address the realities of ritual abuse.In this episode, Brandy shares her journey, her advocacy, and her deep commitment to helping survivors find healing and hope.You can connect with Brandy at www.brandyyoung.comYou can connect with Brooke Abella at www.quietwatersrestoration.comOnly God Rescued Me: Website: www.onlygodrescuedme.com Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: PayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

In generational SRA families, domestic abuse often operates beneath the surface of daily life.Joining us today is Sydney Millage, executive director of Clarity in Action Ministries. She’s the author of 37 Ways to Be Taken Captive: Warning Signs and Prevention for Destructive Relationships—a pivotal resource for understanding how abuse takes root and how freedom begins.Together, we’ll unpack what domestic abuse really is, how it intersects with SRA, and what recovery can look like. Whether you’re in a difficult marriage, seeking a healthy relationship, or trying to make sense of the home you grew up in, this conversation will offer clarity and hope.It’s a challenging topic, especially if you’re hearing it for the first time, so take your time and give yourself plenty of compassion as you listen.37 Ways to Be Taken Captive: Warning Signs and Prevention for Destructive Relationships: https://amzn.to/3WhxgWgTo contact Clarity in Action: https://clarityministry.org/Only God Rescued Me: Website: www.onlygodrescuedme.com Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: PayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Undocumented children are quietly disappearing from Delaware classrooms — and one teacher refused to stay silent. When educator Wendy Mears began asking questions, she was met with intimidation and disciplinary action instead of answers. If thousands of documented children go missing each year, how many more are uncounted?In this gripping interview, Wendy speaks out about what she’s seen, the price of telling the truth, and why this story matters far beyond Delaware.⚠️ This is an episode that demands attention — because if children are missing in Delaware, how many are missing where you live?Contact Wendy Mears:wmears5409 @gmail.com  wmears @protonmail.çom  https://wendymears.substack.com/Only God Rescued Me: Website: www.onlygodrescuedme.com Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: PayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Overcoming Fear is not easy for survivors, but it is something we can step carefully into as we heal. You can catch up with the rest of Brooke's interview here: https://youtu.be/HgNa-rYcxUE

In this powerful episode, the tables are turned as cohost Brooke Abella steps in to interview Lisa Meister. You may know Lisa’s story as a courageous survivor of SRA, but this conversation begins at a pivotal point—her journey to writing her memoir, "Only God Rescued Me." Together, Brooke and Lisa explore the heart behind the book and the inspiration that led to the creation of this podcast. With Brooke’s background as a counselor, she brings fresh insight and thought-provoking questions about attachment, parenting, and healing. Her compassionate curiosity draws Lisa into sharing deeply personal reflections she rarely speaks about publicly. Don’t miss this intimate and inspiring episode that reveals new layers of Lisa’s story and the mission behind the podcast.To contact Brooke Abella for counseling:https://www.quietwatersrestoration.com/Only God Rescued Me: Website: www.onlygodrescuedme.com Contact Lisa: [email protected] help support this podcast: PayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Standing in the Gap event in Delaware with Wendy Mears

Mary joined us in 2022 to give us encouragement and biblical counsel on getting through the month of October. I feel it is well worth re-publishing. You can find her website at www.marydemuth.com. Only God Rescued Me: Website: www.onlygodrescuedme.com Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: PayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

You met Brooke in 2023 as Avi Shepherd when she gave her victor story. https://youtu.be/ZXyruR-pbX0Today, she comes to you as Brooke. She explains her name change in the podcast. She now has a masters in pastoral counseling. Today we talk about the courage to speak as a survivor, being the black sheep of a generational RA family, the beginning of healing, and what to expect, how to find a counselor, DID, making friends, and where God is in the process. You can look Brooke up at www.quietwatersrestoration.comEmail [email protected]: Brooke AbellaInstagram: @quietwatersrestorationOnly God Rescued Me: Website: www.onlygodrescuedme.com Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: PayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Lisa Gillard tells her story in today's podcast. Parts 1 and 2 of her interview painted the picture of how the abuse has affected her life, thereby creating a cry for justice that has spurred her to reach out for someone who would help her achieve it. It has also given her a heart to help other survivors along the way. Join me today in honoring LIsa's story as a compassionate listener. Only God Rescued Me: Website: www.onlygodrescuedme.com Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: PayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

We have been slowly working our way through Lisa's story. In part 1, we discussed how Lisa has experienced flashbacks, triggers, medical conditions directly resulting from trauma, financial strain from therapy, and managing the loss of family and friends. Today, we discuss managing the mental health industry, understanding malevolence, look at the crimes involved in the group, discuss the cry of injustice, and the resulting need for justice. This paints the picture of the life Lisa has lived, and thereby the lives survivors, in general, have to tolerate. In part 3, Lisa will finally get to tell her story. Only God Rescued Me: Website: www.onlygodrescuedme.com Contact Lisa:[email protected] help support this podcast: PayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Lisa Gillard is a good friend who graciously gave mecreative license to play with her story to present it a bit differently than I normally do. What we created was a picture of the life of a survivor. Lisa vulnerably shared the gritty day-to-day challenges survivors face to brave the past and the present in an attempt to deal with the criminality of ritual abuse, the malevolence of the abusers, the toll of the abuse on the mind and body, as well as the stigma of society she bravely faces as she wages her social media campaign. I hope you find this interview as intriguing as I did. Thank you, Lisa, for your trust. You have my permission to pay me back later. A shout-out and a big thank you to Monique Koven of “The Healing Trauma Podcast” (check the podcast out if you haven’t, lots of healing resources to be had there) for introducing us years ago, and for making today possible. This is part one of a two-part series.    Only God Rescued Me: Website: www.onlygodrescuedme.com  ContactLisa:[email protected] To helpsupport this podcast: PayPal@Lisa453Venmo@lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me aCoffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Sharon grew up in what can only be described as a life of trauma. Her mother didn’t want her. Her father was distant. She grew up without love and filled with shame. She began drinking at thirteen to numb the feelings she couldn’t begin to describe. When she tried to kill herself at seventeen, a voice told her to try to hang in there because it couldn’t get worse. She listened to the voice, even when the memories of sexual abuse and ritual abuse came in. Sharon’s journey is rough, but also filled with her joy and love of God. You won’t want to miss this episode.Only God Rescued Me: Website: www.onlygodrescuedme.com Contact Lisa: [email protected] help support this podcast: PayPal @Lisa453Venmo @lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com

Adrian felt called to visit Jerusalem. He couldn't visit many places while there, but was looking at a valley when a stranger walked up to him to tell him it was the Valley of Hinnom where they sacrificed children. Where did this man come from? Why did he tell him that? Follow Adrian's journey as we hear of God's love for us as the Valley of Hinnom connects to Jesus' walk to Golgotha. Jesus definitely had sra on His mind and the cross had everything to do with it. This interview shows of God's great love for survivors and is a must hear. Thank you, Adrian Geist, for sharing this with us! The valley in the Bible:2 Kings 23:102 Chronicles 33:6; 28: 2,3Joshua 7:31,32; 15:8; 18:16; 19:2,6; 32:35Nehemiah 11:30Mark 9:43Links mentioned by Adrian:https://youtu.be/R5ICZ1BdVl4?si=9NvIt2B_gqLpJX6dhttps://youtu.be/hNpdU9S3Y3A?si=ZQHCMEQP56c8Be64https://youtu.be/nKJ6GPvNUgc?si=KR0E2xasUlCfw0WICriteria for sectarian drift (cults):-mental destabilization-exorbitant nature of the financial requirements-the break with the original environment-the existence of attacks on physical integrity-the recruitment of children, antisocial speech, disturbances of public order-the importance of legal disputes-the possible diversion of traditional economic circuits-attempts to infiltrate public authoritiesOnly God Rescued Me: Website: www.onlygodrescuedme.com Contact Lisa:[email protected] To help support this podcast: PayPal@Lisa453Venmo@lisameister4242 Square https://square.link/u/kQLAozvVBuy Me a Coffee https://buymeacoffee.com/onlygodrescuedme.com