Shut the F**k Up
by Kelly Connolly
My mind won’t shut the f**k up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, how unworthy I am.And, I’ve f**ken had ENOUGH!The best part is, I don’t actually have to listen to this mean voice inside my head anymore. But, now comes the hard part. Cleaning up all of its mess and getting rid of every single f**ked up word it has ever spoken to me. This is my therapy. My way of healing. And, sharing all I have learnt over the last few years. So, enjoy my f**ked up thoughts!
Episodes
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The Final Episode
This is the final episode of the Shut the Fuck Up podcast. It has been such a thrill to bring this to you, but, I have been guided to create another show. The Love Body Woman Show. The first episode will air at the end of January. It will involve more topics, stories, interviews, and more than…
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What is love anyway?
What is love? Love is that elusive feeling we cannot seem to quite get a handle on. We give it away but it doesn’t always come back to us. Either not at all or not in the way we anticipated. What is love anyway? And, why do we find it so hard to come by? Listen in to find out more...
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What is blocking my love?
My emotions have never really served me well. They were scattered and erratic. Intense and overwhelming. But, now that I have let go of a lot of those unwanted feelings, there is this energy sitting in my belly that has enough power remaining to block these good feelings I work so hard to…
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The Habit of Self
“Habits are first cobwebs and then cables” Proverb What exactly is a habit? A habit is “A recurrent, often unconscious pattern of behaviour that is acquired through frequent repetition” (The American Heritage dictionary). Habits aren’t always bad. They are actually quite helpful in our day-to-day...
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Relationships are hard
Relationships are hard. I’m no good at them. Well, that’s what I tell myself when I find myself caught up in another messy interaction. Are relationships hard or is it the people in them that make them hard? You can’t have a relationship without people! So, it must be the people? In my...
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Food Fear
My mind won’t shut the fuck up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, how unworthy I am. And, I’ve fucken had ENOUGH! The best part is, I don’t actually have to listen to this mean voice inside my head anymore. But, now comes the hard part. Cleaning up all of its mess and getting…
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My depression doesn’t want me to
My depression doesn’t want me to do most things. My depression doesn’t want me to do anything. My depression doesn’t want me to grab a hold of the joy I have inside of me. No! It wants me to live in this world it has created for me. Listen in to find out more about why my depression doesn't want…
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How did I really lose the weight?
When I reflect upon the three significant times I lost weight, I wonder how did I really lose the weight? It is somewhat of a mystery. I say that because I don’t know if I can absolutely 100% pinpoint what it was. In this world of ours there is a silent understanding that there is only one way to...
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Let’s start running
August 2021 I was going about my morning. I had just finished doing some strength training, or maybe it was a HIIT workout, and I was cooling down when my loving voice chimed in and said “let's start running”. So, I listened. Unfortunately, my mind was not going to allow this to happen quite so...
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Is it possible to love my body?
My mind won’t shut the f**k up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, how unworthy I am. And, I’ve f**ken had ENOUGH! The best part is, I don’t actually have to listen to this mean voice inside my head anymore. But, now comes the hard part. Cleaning up all of its mess and getting…
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Interview with Anna hastie. Business Mindset Coach
Anna is a business mindset coach for women. As a woman who has given her life to building her business over the last 6 years or so. I have come to know that the mind is the most important part of the equation. Because if the mind is not expressing love and kindness, then it makes everything feel…
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How can I forgive you?
My mind won’t shut the fuck up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, how unworthy I am. And, I’ve fucken had ENOUGH! The best part is, I don’t actually have to listen to this mean voice inside my head anymore. But, now comes the hard part. Cleaning up all of its mess and getting…
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Love. A fucked up problem
My mind won’t shut the fuck up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, how unworthy I am. And, I’ve fucken had ENOUGH! The best part is, I don’t actually have to listen to this mean voice inside my head anymore. But, now comes the hard part. Cleaning up all of its mess and getting…
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I'm nothing special
My mind won’t shut the fuck up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, how unworthy I am. And, I’ve fucken had ENOUGH! The best part is, I don’t actually have to listen to this mean voice inside my head anymore. But, now comes the hard part. Cleaning up all of its mess and getting…
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Nobody Understands Me
My mind won’t shut the fuck up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, how unworthy I am. And, I’ve fucken had ENOUGH! The best part is, I don’t actually have to listen to this mean voice inside my head anymore. But, now comes the hard part. Cleaning up all of its mess and getting…
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Optimism and doom. I have it all.
My whole life has felt like a waste. That I was nothing special and I have nothing special to offer. There was no meaning and no direction. Each day as dull and repetitive as the last. Why am I here? What the fuck am I even doing here? Listen in to find out more. ————————————————————————— My mind...
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Why am I so fat?
Why am I so fat? Why am I so fat? Why am I so fucking fat? I have asked myself this a million times over the last 30 plus years. I have screamed this question into the darkness of my mind in the desperate hopes of finding an answer. I have now found that answer. Keep listening to find out what…
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Why am I Depressed?
Every morning I would awaken to my misery. Perpetuated by my depression. Fuelled by the thoughts and feelings my shitty voice endlessly and unfailingly echoed inside my mind and my body on a daily basis. For decades. I was so used to hearing it and I was so used to feeling those debilitating...
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Trusting in Yourself
Trust in yourself. Trust in that quieter part of you. Trust yourself to feel the difference between each part of who you are. I never trusted myself. I never trusted there was more to me than a fat, useless, horrible girl. Who then became a woman. It was these thoughts that kept me in the…
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Confessing to Yourself
Confessing to yourself is not easy. Confessing to yourself about your deepest and darkest thoughts and feelings should be left well enough alone. You don’t need to know what’s really going on inside that mind of yours. Just keep it all tucked away where no one can find it. Especially you.…
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Rules to lose weight and be skinny
Every day a new rule seems to appear telling us how we must eat, what we must eat and what we must avoid at all costs because it is very, very bad for you. To lose weight and be skinny. Over the years of me trying to lose weight every single fucking day of my life I came across rule after rule...
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Punishing myself with food
Thirty fucking years. Thirty years of my life spent punishing myself. For what? Why on earth would someone do that to themselves for so long? And how? What possible reason causes such a daily torrent of abuse? Hi, I’m Kelly and I am a recovering food addict. I spent all of my days thinking about...
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Who I Was Meant To Be
This woman that I became was a real struggle. A constant fight of who was who and what was what. Somewhere beneath all the bullshit, I had a sense of something more, and, it was this sense that kept me reaching outside of myself to find something (ANYTHING) that would help me to rid myself of all...
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Who am I?
I am a thinker. A deep one at that. My mind is constantly seeing the world through the eyes of an observer. People have always fascinated me but it wasn’t until a few years ago when I began this desperate need to feel better, to be better and to do better that the questions and observations took...
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Why can’t I just be f**king happy?
Why can’t I just be fucking happy? Why can’t I let go of my misery and enjoy my life? I guess I can sum it up in one word…depression. How did I get to that? How did I become the person who was so angry and mad at everyone and everything that it blinded me to so much? I couldn’t see straight. I...
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I Feel Dead Inside
I can’t quite remember when my feelings began to dry up, I only know they did. I think somewhere around the beginning of my teenage years. That’s when the weight really started to pile on. That’s when I really started to hate myself and my body. My feelings were overtaken with anxiety and...
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The Mean Thoughts Inside My Head
The thoughts inside your head are really very mean. And nasty. They incessantly chatter all day long. Telling you you'll never be enough or that you aren't worthy of the wonderful life waiting for you. What if you didn't have to listen to that voice anymore? What if I told you there is another...
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I Hate My Body. I Hate Myself.
My mind won’t shut the fuck up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, how unworthy I am. And, I’ve fucken had ENOUGH! The best part is, I don’t actually have to listen to this mean voice inside my head anymore. But, now comes the hard part. Cleaning up all of its mess and getting…
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What is this all about?
My mind won’t shut the fuck up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, how unworthy I am. And, I’ve fucken had ENOUGH! The best part is, I don’t actually have to listen to this mean voice inside my head anymore. But, now comes the hard part. Cleaning up all of its mess and getting…
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About this show
My mind won’t shut the f**k up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, how unworthy I am.And, I’ve f**ken had ENOUGH!The best part is, I don’t actually have to listen to this mean voice inside my head anymore. But, now comes the hard part. Cleaning up all of its mess and getting rid of every single f**ked up word it has ever spoken to me. This is my therapy. My way of healing. And, sharing all I have learnt over the last few years. So, enjoy my f**ked up thoughts!
Hosted by
Kelly Connolly