You are the One you seek

I wanted to share, finally, my honest feelings about my history with Cannabis use. I want to offer some information, caution, and also destigmatizing of what this plant offers. From my first time trying it in high school to my dream job working from home for a Cannabis company for 3 years. I also ramble about a few other things loosely tied to Cannabis, as is my heathen custom. Enjoy!email: [email protected]: @youaretheoneyouseek

**My comments about not respecting religions should be clarified. As an ex-Christian for 37 years, and after coming face to face with multiple SA criminals within the walls of the small churches I attended, many of their offenses against children, I developed a very low opinion of religious systems in general. The more I explored as I stepped out of faith in 2018, the more I realized just how truly depraved and amoral many of these belief systems actually are, in terms of the number of flagrant, grievous acts that are perpetrated without justice. I have personally been convinced that religion overall (not in every case) is one of humanity's biggest hurdles towards progress, and mostly is used as a shield for power, influence and corruption. This is obviously not true in all cases, I am talking more about the power structures within these religions that house so much of the corruption and perpetration. HOWEVER, I do believe in autonomy and personal rights, and I don't believe people should be forced to not follow their chosen religion. I am not advocating for fascist movements of taking away a persons choice to believe and follow whatever they want. However, we have to be more frank and honest with each other when those beliefs directly infringe upon the well being of others. This is obviously a long, nuanced conversation, but I just want you to know, that if you are a person with religious beliefs, I respect you, and respect your journey. I may deeply disagree with your beliefs about certain things, but expecting all of us to agree on the same exact things is kind of what got us into this mess, in my opinion, so I stand here with my hand outstretched to meet you in the middle somewhere. My hope is that LOVE is our guiding force now and from this point forward. We've tried the old ways, and they are failing spectacularly in front of our very eyes. **In a continued theme, I am exploring ideas around shedding the old, and leaning into the new, while simultaneously understanding how little we presently understand about the reality that surrounds us. I also reflect on 14 years since my brother, my only sibling, passed away after a long battle with paralysis related issues from a terrible car accident in 2005. He sadly predicted many of the horrors and terrors that are unfolding around the world, and especially at home, and I almost feel like he definitely chose to exit before all of that for a reason! Of course I can't be sure his soul chose that, or that any of us chose any of this. I have faith, but faith has led me down darkened alleys of despair in the past, so I am extremely hesitant to lean into any 'faith' ideas. However, there has actually been evidence to support aspects of this faith, whereas my religious beliefs truly provided none. In keeping with the idea of not knowing, I wanted to celebrate us all for doing what we are able to do, with such DEEPLY limited knowledge and understanding. We truly only hold a tiny drop of knowing or understanding in our eager little hands, while we toss and swirl about in a seemingly endless ocean of options, knowledge, insight, experiences etc. The prospect of that option can be exciting, or utterly crushing and defeating. Here's hoping the former is true! Be well everyone, and thanks for [email protected]

Wanted to focus this episode on an idea that has resonated with me for a few years. This is the idea that we are like a caterpillar making the transition to butterfly, in a chrysalis phase. I didn't come up with the concept, obviously, or maybe I did? Maybe you and I did?! Besides the point.... Everything that was once structure, and known, is now goo, and dissolving under it's own weight, seemingly lost to entropy and oblivion. The beautiful secret is that the melting down process is the most important, and is the only way to get to the next phase. Enter the butterfly- a beautiful, expansive, new creature. The goo phase doesn't have clarity, clear purpose, and doesn't allow for the old ways to be repeated or copied. There is no time or space for staying in the past. We are here to either embrace the transition and eventual transformation, or we are here to fight against it tooth and nail, and learn the hard lesson of fighting the only constant: change. Thank you for listening, and if you are interested in supporting me or the channel in any way, or if you just want to chat and exchange ideas, please reach out to me here: [email protected] and light to you all!

It has been just a little over 2 years since I struck out with this little diary style podcast, exploring all kinds of new ideas and explorations after years spent in the stifling beliefs of Christianity. In this episode, I reflect back on what it has been like to traverse these last 2 years, and the daily challenge to bring more of the heart into a world that seems to be racing to the bottom. If you are in pain, and feeling both hope and despair at the same time, this may resonate deeply with you. Just know that we are at the darkest before dawn part of the movie. Gandalf (us) is just about to pop over the hill and bring with him much light and truth. We are on the cusp of the next huge leap in human consciousness, and I am both terrified and excited to be here right along side each and every one of you for this ridiculous journey!Thoughts and ideas can be hurled my way here: [email protected]: @youaretheOneyouseek

So yeah, I made a hilarious mistake when I initially released this, as I rendered it in the speed I edit the episodes in. LOL!!!! I swear I didn't shapeshift into a chipmunk! Thanks for listening, and being patient with my silly behind.

I'm back. I felt good about leaving things be when I signed off a few months ago, but felt compelled to share some new thoughts, ideas, and also a bit of a plea for help. My body and I have always been in a wrestling match, but lately, the pains and issues have begun to get the better of me. I am doing my best to stay positive, and to manifest the healing I need. Slow going, and am not too proud to ask for help, even if I have been a little weird about advice in the past.I also teach you the Gamma brainwave state breathing technique that Darryl Anka uses to channel Bashar. I have only been playing with it for a few days, but am already finding it super useful. Hoping it is of assistance to someone out there!Anyway, thank you tons for listening, and I hope that you sifted the good of what I said, and ignored the dumb or irrelevant. Nobody is an authority on anything as a human, so it's ok to recognize that the only true answers for ourselves exist within. But it sure makes the journey more fun and smooth when lift each other up. Bashar Gamma breathing: https://youtube.com/shorts/cnfKzkrIvUI?si=yCAdclMieCP5JWkk

Just a wee little update from me, reflecting on this current moment, and my place in it. I don't have a lot of answers, more questions and yearnings. Trying to stay in the moment, and not let outside forces impact you negatively is certainly the great challenge of the human experience. I have far from mastered it, that's for sure! Anyway, as usual, thanks for listening!*Also, I think I meant to say clockwise, when I said counterclockwise, as far as the chakra reading.

As we move into a time of escalation on SO MANY FRONTS, it is very hard to feel balanced and grounded. This episode is both a confession of my own struggle owning my place in this current moment, and also my hope still for a future that is far better than any of us could have imagined. As usual, I am trying to remind you the listener, that the focus always comes back to you and your power. I am certainly not an expert in really any field, I am propelled forward by my heart, intuition, and gut, so I often do not follow any playbook. Maybe ask yourself if you work better within defined parameters, or if you are more creative and expansive when you enter undefined space, and the canvas is empty, awaiting your input. As always, the goal of this podcast is to help you find more of a bridge back to your inner light, which is the answer, always. No thing or being or 'god' outside of you will save you, or give you the answers you need. You already have all of the answers, you are just keeping a lot of them secret from yourself, but only for a brief time. :) email me here: [email protected]: @youaretheoneyouseek

Faith seems to be a theme that is inescapable for me, despite my logical brain constantly rejecting such an outlandish notion. I need PROOF DAMNIT! It seems my astrology confirms my need to have tangible proofs, to feel satisfied about my participation in what it is I am involved with. HOWEVER, Earth school is meant to turn that on it's head, or at least, for a time. Sounds like there have been many cycles of enlightenment, and darkness on this plane, but ALLEGEDLY, these cycles are coming to an end, and Karma will be replaced by Dharma, and we will move from 3D bodies, to 4D. Whatever happens, I fully welcome it, but even more so, I am more hungry for raw, un-distilled truth than ever, and am holding onto that ugly sliver of faith that it will be made known to me, even in this lifetime.If you have any thoughts you want to share, you can email me here: [email protected] you all, and be well!

I am sort of back! I have been really feeling things deeply and strongly in the last several months, as many of you have as well. It has been a time of listening, and absorbing. I still feel that as a human, I know so damn little, and laugh at my tiny grasp of not only human history, but the history of this planet. Tiny grasp might be too much credit. But a big wide smile comes over my face when I realize that as a complete, divine, whole and knowing being, I chose this limitation, for reasons I am not supposed to be fully connected to, or I wouldn't properly learn the lesson with the 'realness' of believing in my limitations. So this episode is just a collection of my recent thoughts and feelings about my life, and events in the world around me. I have recorded about 6 episodes that never saw an edit, because I was just dealing with a lot of heavy relationship situations, mostly pertaining to the current 'political' climate. I am not here to put out angst and negativity, but I do believe that my highest value is raw honesty. I don't personally know how to discern the line between raw honesty, and obnoxious whining, so I usually err to the side of sparing the audience of episodes that feel like an airing of grievances. Thank you for listening, if you are still here. I am not sure what the future holds for me, or this podcast. Some people I love and respect believe the sky is the limit, but I know that I am not able to make it there alone. I have not been in a mode that is tenacious after anything in awhile now, and I think I am ok with that, for now. :)Love/Hate mail here: [email protected]*per the Spotify rant: clearly my moral crusade was short lived. I went to renew for a month on Podcastle, and the price had gone up quite a bit. sigh, guess I'll use the devil's streaming service for now...

In this episode I discuss "The Formula" as channeled by Bashar, through Darryl Anka. I read the 5 basic steps of the formula, and how even in the short time I have been working with it, I am finding it to be quite life changing. If you are unfamiliar with Bashar, I highly recommend a deep dive. What can be off-putting for some at first, is the more abrasive, masculine energy that Bashar comes through with. However, when you listen to several different sessions, you come to understand his quite diverse sense of humor, and also his constant references to his unconditional love for humanity, and that it is his passion and pleasure to assist us. I have found few other channelings as compelling as Bashar's, and what he has been discussing lately, in terms of what is around the corner for humanity and the earth, (should we choose that path) is a sublime world, filled with open contact and cooperation with other positively oriented non human sentience. We are on the cusp of an amazing new world, but part of embracing it, is letting go of our half baked, limiting beliefs that were usually formed out of desperate fear and survival instinct. Bashar challenges us to investigate our belief systems, and bring a positive state to the situation, even if it is negatively charged, so that our positive state will result in a positive take away, regardless of the situation. This is true autonomy, alchemy, spirit and who we really are, beginning to peak out. If you want to check out the formula for yourself, you can go to: www.bashar.org/formula Email me @ [email protected]

I'm not dead! I have been a bit under the weather physically and otherwise, so just been laying low. I wanted to give an update with where I am at, and thoughts about UFO/UAP sightings that are happening worldwide, as well as the recent torrent of Bashar channelings I have been ingesting. I find that his style is super direct, to the point, and still very profound and loving. It seems to resonate with me in a very significant way, and has really been a fantastic addition to all of the other channeled material I have been taking in. It is wild how vast and creative this universe is, and how endless the possibilities are for us to explore. Thanks for listening, and sticking with me. I will have some new interviews and other fun episodes in the future (unless I leave my physical form) but will be on break until early/mid January. email: [email protected] IG: @youaretheOneyouseek

Pauline Edward is a Canadian Author, Astrologer, lover of music, and lover of plants and people. She sits down with me and talks about a number of different topics, including her incredible new book "Gateway to a New World" Pauline may be just a wee bit older than me, but she has a mind, heart and energy that keeps her in touch with her youthful energy of love and awe. I say this because she often refers to how amazed she is at what 'young people like me' have access to now, versus her upbringing in Catholic traditions of the 50's, 60's, 70's. I love her journey, and how far she has been able to come, and how many deep, profound and healing insights she has had about not only this life, but the ones before it too. We cover a lot of ground, so buckle up! Please check out Pauline here: www.paulineedward.com and you can also find her books on Amazon.

As the 'outside' world begins to destabilize, and there are many scary possibilities as to what the future holds, I take a minute to ponder how we can respond to this, and live a love filled life regardless. It's easy to give into despair and become rather hopeless about the state of many things happening on the Earth right now, but we also always have a choice in what we focus on, and how we respond to everything. Me 5 years ago would have been in full meltdown mode right now, and so I can relate to those who are really going through it. We are only ready to embrace the fullness of who we are, when we are ready. Very rarely can anyone shove you into it, and have it stick. We have to want to choose differently from a heart level, but it can only really organically occur when we experience many things we do not prefer or enjoy. Rather than those things being something we are victimized by, they can be the starting block for a whole new reality, perspective and interpretation of life and the path in front of you. You ALWAYS have choice, in everything, not in the physical things that happen to you, but how you respond, and what you make of it. I hope you are all hanging in there, and learning to trust and love yourself more and more. If you are struggling with that, it's ok! Take your sweet time, and tenderly approach yourself. There is no need to rush, as we truly have all the 'time' we could ever want, to learn the things we want to learn.

It's hard to believe this is the last reading I will be doing from The Jeshua Channelings, as the book is now complete! The good news is, Jeshua is still channeling away through Pamela and many others, so there is no need to stamp this book as a Bible, and say 'well that settles it!' Jeshua is just pointing us back to our own, dynamic selves, and the Christ energy/consciousness that is inherit in everybody. I hope you have enjoyed this series, and I look forward to seeing what is next for the podcast! Please like and subscribe, and hit me up if you have feedback or questions: [email protected] Or IG: @youaretheOneyouseek

This episode is technically the last chapter in The Jeshua Channelings, but as I tend to do, things are slightly out of order, and there is still one more very short chapter left, that will conclude all material from this book. This episode is about a spiritual awakening that has been under since the end of World War 2. Different waves of lightworker souls have been incarnating here to anchor the Christ consciousness. And yes, when Jeshua was being channeled for me, I did ask if I was a lightworker soul, as opposed to an earth soul. He confirmed my suspicion of lightworker, which was wild! It really helps put all of the pain and struggle into context, knowing that this is all leading to something far more profound and beautiful than any of us could possibly imagine. Keep the vibes high, and keep remembering to love and forgive yourself. That is truly your only mission on Earth. For information on Pamela's channelings, and other material: www.jeshua.net Email me: [email protected] IG: @youaretheOneyouseek

This chapter is really a great source of encouragement to me, as it lays out a bit about how we are meant to walk through the door of the New Era, by healing and releasing our past wounds and karmic struggles. There are only a few chapters left until the book is complete! You can find more from Pamela and Gerrit here: www.jeshua.net You can email me @ [email protected] IG: @youaretheOneyouseek

This episode is really for you if your personal health, or that of a loved one is something that consumes large portions of your time and attention. It is really easy to lose our perspectives and give in to fear when we have all of these weird, scary things that can happen to our body. Jeshua gives some great perspectives and insights as to how we can approach and deal with these issues. I hope you enjoy!

We are getting down to the end of the book! Only a 4 more short chapters left, and then it's on to some interviews, rants, and other books that are really grabbing me! One of them is the one I was beyond honored to write a forward for "Gateway to a New World" By Pauline Edward. You can find it on her website: www.paulineedward.com You can find more channelings from Pamela, as well as this book, and other books she has done here: www.jeshua.net Email me: [email protected] IG: @youaretheOneyouseek

It feels like this series of channelings never runs out of super relevant topics, and this one is clearly a significant energy we are still in the process of healing and harmonizing. Much is awry in the minds of the collective about sexuality, because there have been centuries of messages centered around shame and guilt, and a rejection of your natural human expression. Jeshua does a great job expanding on what he was dealing with in "Male and Female Energy" another great channeling from a few episodes back. I also highly recommend checking out www.jeshua.net to find other channelings from Pamela, including her channeling Mary Magdalene in "The Forbidden Female Speaks" which is an incredible series of channelings. Mary expands on the topic of sexuality and autonomy in some VERY profound ways, and I found it to be just as enlightening as The Jeshua Channelings. Thanks again so much for those of you who have been steadily listening along. This channel is still tiny, but I am more than grateful for those of you who are checking it out. All love and light to you and yours. email: [email protected] IG: @youaretheOneyouseek

I can't imagine anyone alive who wouldn't resonate with the idea that emotions are a powerful force in our minute to minute lives. From what I have learned from NDEs, channelings, esoteric teachings etc. is that we always have a choice in what to do with our emotions, and that when we willfully encircle our unbalanced emotions with love, forgiveness and release, then we finally learn to heal, take the next step, and begin the process of remembering our unique divinity. I feel like I connect so easily with the words spoken in this book, and in so many other channelings across multiple people, many who channel Jeshua. Never have I heard a message of fear, and beware, and repent or else! This is why they resonate with me so much, because when I was taught about the Jesus of the Bible as a child, I always envisioned him being completely open, expansive and loving with us. No condemnation, threats or judgement necessary. It is easy to see where the human mind, especially at the time Jeshua came, was unable to grasp this expansiveness, and thus the Bible and Jeshua's words were heavily altered to suit agendas of control, power, and fear. Also, make sure you check out Pauline Edward's new book 'Gateway to a New World' available on Amazon currently. I was beyond honored, shocked and elated when Pauline asked me to write the foreward for this book! It really does sit so perfectly with the vibe of Jeshua channelings, and many other esoteric channelings and teachings I have been coming across. Highly recommend it! You can find her as well at: https://www.paulineedward.com/ Jeshua channelings and books by Pamela and Gerrit here: https://www.jeshua.net Email me: [email protected] IG: @youaretheOneyouseek

This one was very profound to me when I first read it, as I had felt a distinct lack of good information pertaining to the balance of feminine and masculine energy, and certainly not from the Bible I grew up with. This channeling covers a lot of ground, and really contextualizes the conflict still at play in our world, between men and women, and how much room we still have to grow in our ability to see each other as equals, with both energies available for us to balance, and harmonize. It's also nice that Jeshua never mentions a word of judgment, condemnation, or reducing someone or something to just a category. This is part of what makes these and other channelings like it so authentic to me, is that their is a distinct lack of harsh, judgmental, reductive language and ideas being put forth. It resonates with the Source and Jeshua/Jesus I had felt in my heart growing up, despite the teachings of my upbringing focusing much on sin, hell, and judgment. God loves you IF! Somehow, I felt like there was something missing or wrong about this information. I now feel a sense of wonderment as I believe that innocent little child, that small, wonderous version of me, was right on the money. Hope this is a healing one if you have dealt with toxic energies on either side of the coin. Thank you so much for listening! email: [email protected] IG: @youaretheOneyouseek "The Jeshua Channelings" and other channelings, books and info can be found at: www.jeshua.net

I feel like I keep saying "This is one of my favorite chapters" but this one really has been important to me. I am very thankful for my birth family, but I have also been very thankful to learn loving, meaningful ways to detach my sense of self worth from their opinion of me, and to reframe my quest for validation from them, and really anyone else. While I don't ever recommend the scorched earth approach, for me, it was a pivotal moment in 2021 when I told my parents I was an Atheist. I knew how that would come across, but I was really starting to finally step into who and what I am, and it felt like an important step to my personal healing, to be honest and upfront with them about where I landed. I still can't tell now if that was more hurtful to them, or when I found my belief in the spiritual again, but it was still totally removed from my Christian upbringing. Neither personal opinion on reality was ever meant to wound them, only to express myself openly and honestly. When we express ourselves openly and honestly, we will get a different opinion, judgment, or conclusion about it from our friends, family and peers, depending on their own particular experiences which lead them to a specific perspective. Is it really possible for you to live up to each and every version of you out there, existing in everyone else's mind and reality? Does that bring you joy, or fulfillment, to achieve "worthiness" in the eyes of a friend, family member or peer? If you are like me, it sadly really does sometimes, and while it's nice to have the approval of your friends, family and peers, I believe it is more important to stay authentic to what truly resonates deep inside your feeling heart, and not your thinking mind. If what you have felt deeply for a long time, leads you away from some of your in-group, it can be painful, but also wildly beneficial on the other side of it. We are allowed to set boundaries, with our friends, family, peers, co-workers etc. However, there is always a choice in HOW we do the things we do, so setting boundaries can be a harsh, 2 middle fingers up telling off of the person you wish to no longer associate. However, I find that choosing to be loving, respectful and honest, is your best route forward, and leaves you feeling the most at peace with it in the end. Sometimes a hard truth is a valuable tool for the other person to hear, but often, the best route from my experience, is to start and finish with love. Some parents, especially in religious circles, will not be able to accept their child leaving 'the faith.' This is a very upsetting time for both parent and child, but it is an opportunity for both to come face to face with the solution of their dilemma: to let go of expectations they had of others, and even themselves. We are let down so often in this life, when we hold ourselves and others to unrealistic, and often parasitic standards, thoughts and beliefs about who they are, in light of the way they go through their lives. We can't really truly accept and see the world as all divine light, flowing through every single thing around us, until we release our expectations, and allow things to be as they are, and love them. This is more where we are heading, and for many of us, it is tough to let go of the attachments to expectations, and the penchant for being disappointed in someone else, as well as yourself. Special thanks again to Pamela and Gerrit who run www.jeshua.net, and were the conduit for Jeshua to channel through Pamela. They have been very warm and encouraging in our email correspondence, and I truly hope that the words from these channelings reaches more ears. email me: [email protected] IG: @youaretheOneyouseek You can find a playlist of all the Jeshua channelings under 'playlist' on my YouTube channel.

Keeping the Jeshua train rolling again this week, with another chapter "Pitfalls on the way to becoming a Healer" from "The Jeshua Channelings" as received by Pamela Kribbe, with assistance from Gerrit Gielen. This one, as most of them do, really resonates with me, because it describes a heartfelt desire in me to heal others, but I have only just begun to discover the first steps at doing this. For that reason, I often fall into many of these pitfalls, and have to be able to step back, breathe, and give myself the love, forgiveness and permission to just be who I am in this incarnation, and to appreciate every step of the journey, even when it hurts like s!*%. All of the original material, plus updated channelings from Jeshua through Pamela can be found here: www.jeshua.net You can email me @ [email protected] Or find me on Instagram: @youaretheOneyouseek

So I have read the first small section of this chapter, when I read 'Cosmic Birthing Pain' from 'The Jeshua Channelings' but I wanted to finally read the whole thing! The views I express outside of the channelings are not endorsed or affiliated with Pamela and Gerrit, who have received and facilitated these channelings. My thoughts and views are 100% my own, but I do feel strongly about being honest with my perspective on the material as well. Make sure to check out the playlist that I have on YouTube, of every chapter I have read thus far from 'The Jeshua Channelings' www.jeshua.net email me: [email protected] IG: @youaretheOneyouseek

I am reading from the final chapter in "The Lightworker Series" section of "The Jeshua Channelings" Only a few chapters left to read, but this section was the most profound to me, when initially coming across these channelings. I have expressed before, but will say again, the definition Jeshua gives of a Lightworker, sounds eerily familiar to my own experiences in this life. He explains that a Lightworker is not superior to anyone else, because superiority is a construct of ego, but that we are all Lightworkers, and all Angels at stages in our development as souls. It has also been really healing to reframe the stale, tired religious and church based teachings I had been taught about the person of Jesus. What a relief he ends up being the all inclusive, love beacon I had envisioned as a little kid! email me here: [email protected] IG: @youaretheOneyouseek

*This is an updated version, as I had some edit issues with the previous upload. From the 'Lightworker series' portion of 'The Jeshua Channelings' I am reading the chapters 'Lightworker' parts 1-3. This is a bit of a longer one, but really illuminating, at least to me personally. I have found that I really resonate and connect with the psychological profile of a Lightworker according to Jeshua, but that doesn't mean I am one, in the sense Jeshua describes here. He also goes on to say that we are ALL lightworkers at some stage of our development. There is no division, and no superiority to be had here. I am really excited about the next installment as well, "From Ego to Heart" which will be split between 2 episodes. Please feel free to send me an email, or find me on my lone social media platform lol. email: [email protected] IG: @youaretheOneyouseek You can purchase the book, and find much more content from Pamela and Gerrit here: www.jeshua.net

In this episode, I am reading again from "The Jeshua Channelings" and am finishing the 4 chapter section of "The Lightworker Series' with "From Ego To Heart 3-4" These final 2 chapters highlight what happens when we begin to, then fully release our ties to old, stale, ego energy. This material is incredibly energizing and exciting to me, and perfectly details what my heart has been longing for since I incarnated in this body, and I suspect has been a desire of mine for many lifetimes. Please feel free to check out more about these channelings from Pamela and Gerrit's website: www.jeshua.net You can catch me here: [email protected] Instagram: @youaretheOneyouseek

This episode is the next 2 chapters in "The Jeshua Channelings" from Pamela Kribbe and Gerrit Gielen: "From Ego to Heart I-II" This is from the larger "Lightworker Series" in the books, which contain the following chapters: "The New Earth I-II" "Lightworker I-III" "From Ego to Heart I-IIII" "Time, Multidimensionality, and your Light Self" Next episode will be "From Ego to Heart III-IV" If you would like to know more about Pamela and Gerrit, and keep up to date with their Channelings, books and newsletters, scroll on over to: www.jeshua.net You can email me here: [email protected] IG: @youaretheOneyouseek

From the 'Lightworker series' portion of 'The Jeshua Channelings' I am reading the chapters 'Lightworker' parts 1-3. This is a bit of a longer one, but really illuminating, at least to me personally. I have found that I really resonate and connect with the psychological profile of a Lightworker according to Jeshua, but that doesn't mean I am one, in the sense Jeshua describes here. He also goes on to say that we are ALL lightworkers at some stage of our development. There is no division, and no superiority to be had here. I am really excited about the next installment as well, "From Ego to Heart" which will be split between 2 episodes. Please feel free to send me an email, or find me on my lone social media platform lol. email: [email protected] IG: @youaretheOneyouseek You can purchase the book, and find much more content from Pamela and Gerrit here: www.jeshua.net

It's been a pretty spiritually, emotionally and physically tumultuous stretch the last month plus, and I have been struggling to keep the podcast going on schedule. I am nothing if not painfully, brutally honest and transparent with how I feel about my journey through life, and I figured I would share that, because why not? I am not looking for people to send me messages and tell me I am enough, and I am worthy, I am just wearing my heart on my sleeve, and attempting to be honest and vulnerable. Those of us in this space, talking about the topics we are covering, are just as human, fallacious, and prone to regression as anyone else. It's ok to be human, and let others know you are hurting. That is all this is. I thank you for listening regardless. email: [email protected] IG: youaretheOneyouseek

In case it's not clear by now, I have decided to make this an ongoing series. The Jeshua Channelings have been one of the most profound and inspiring aspects of my spiritual awakening, and I feel honored to be able to share it with you the listener. This chapter is about the transition of Earth that is imminently at hand, or between 1950-2070 according to Jeshua. It discusses a concept that is gradually gaining traction in science, that planets are indeed conscious, and perhaps everything is conscious on some level. This chapter feeds in perfectly to the next one I will read, which is the Lightworker series, and will be a 2 parter. Thank you for listening, and go in love and light. Namaste. IG: @youaretheoneyouseek email: [email protected]

In this episode, I read a chapter from 'The Jeshua Channelings' by Pamela Kribbe. The chapter is 'Relationships in the New Era' and it has been one of my absolute favorites in the whole book. It really challenged my understanding of my marriage, and many other critical relationships in my life, as well as being able to start to approach the idea that I am truly the one I seek. That the divinity of all creation is folded into my being, and I am no less, and no greater than it. Same goes for you, according to Jeshua. If you would like to find about more about Pamela and Gerrit, and their channelings with Jeshua that are ongoing, as well as other books and topics, check them out here: www.jeshua.net Please like, subscribe, and all that boring stuff. IG: youaretheOneyouseek Email: [email protected] Music custom generated in Suno.

In this episode, I have the utmost honor of talking with Bill Letson, who is a Southern California native, surfer, and career firefighter, now retired. Bill walks me through his NDE (near death experience) story when he briefly died back in the mid 90s, after a call to help someone with the flu. Bill shares how much his experience parallels with DMT, or Ayahuasca, and how psychedelics may be a window into our true nature, rather than a wild distortion of it. Bill does a great job explaining many other deep topics, that the human race is starting to discuss without nearly the same level of abject ridicule and stigmatization. Bill is such an important part of raising the vibration and frequency on this planet, and I am so stoked I was able to have this chat with him. For more about Bill, just type his name into Google or Youtube, and you will be set! email: [email protected] IG: @youaretheOneyouseek Music 'Canvas Solaris' song 'The Binaural Beat'

In this episode, I get into my journey through understanding the role of victimhood in my own life, and how it has functioned in my personal journey of self-discovery. It has become a resounding theme of many of the texts I have been reading lately, that victimhood is the game of the ego, and the karmic wheel we get stuck on by continuously playing the role of victim, offender, and rescuer. Rinse/repeat. It is our birthright to transcend the wheel, and begin to further step into the divinity of who we truly are. It's ok to take the journey through all of the lower vibration aspects of the projection of reality we have created, but we all eventually crave ascension, love, and unity consciousness. Next week, I have a very special guest on to share his NDE! email: [email protected] IG: @youaretheOneyouseek Music: 'Canvas Solaris' from the song 'The Binaural Beat'

Rebecca Austill-Clausen is an Occupational Therapist, Reiki Master, award-winning author, and international speaker. She had a Spiritual Transformative Experience in 1995 when she discovered the ability to communicate with her brother after he passed, even though she had no psychic or spiritual skills at the time. Becky struggled with how her spiritual awakening and eventual spiritual transformation could mesh with the practical everyday world. She kept her spiritual adventures quiet for 20 years while exploring many avenues of spiritual practice.In 2016, Becky sold her large rehabilitation private practice that had grown from a one person operation to a staff of over 350 therapists servicing 100,000 clients, specifically to share her spiritual journey. Her book, 'Change Maker, How My Brother’s Death Woke Up My Life' became a national multi-award winner.Find Becky here: www.RebeccaAustillClausen.comIG: @youaretheOneyouseekemail: [email protected]

It has become a rather common theme in my life as I discuss difficult topics with people, that I am often given the dictate: "You have to pick a side!" That has never sat very well with me, because there are far more choices than 2 out there in the world. The cycle of binary thinking, of right and wrong, or this side or that side, pigeon holes us into a very narrow focal point, that often misses the beautiful nuances of this life. I wanted to flesh out my thoughts on how binary thinking has been detrimental in my own life, and journey towards self awakening. EDIT: This episode was recorded before several of the more recent episodes, so some of the information is incorrect, such as timing of guests, and the fact I thought the interview with Mary was gone! Apologies for the confusion. :) Musical intro and outro are from the song 'The Binaural Beat' by 'Canvas Solaris' from their album "The Atomized Dream" Find me on Instagram: @youaretheoneyouseek email: [email protected]

Betty Guadagno's journey commenced amidst shadows of adversity, grappling with the weight of drug addiction, involvement in sex work, and the heartrending loss of her parents to suicide. However, a profound turning point emerged in March 2019 following a near-death like experience due to a drug overdose. During this awakening, Betty found herself traversing the ethereal realm between life and eternity. She experienced a life review, was greeted by loved ones that had crossed over, and was shown her divine mission. It was here that she was guided through her pre-birth planning, igniting a revelation within her: she was not merely a passive victim of circumstance but an active co-creator of her own reality. Upon her return to Earth, she felt as though she had undergone a profound rebirth. You can find much more about Betty's story here: https://linktr.ee/buddhabetty Email: [email protected] IG: @youaretheoneyouseek Music by 'Canvas Solaris', from the song "The Binaural Beat"

In this episode, I am reading a chapter, and small snippet from "The Jeshua Channelings" as channeled through Pamela Kribbe, with the assistance of Gerrit Geilen. You can find the book & channelings at www.jeshua.net I am focusing on the "Cosmic Birthing Pain" chapter in which Jeshua explains the core and origin of the pain, suffering, and deep loneliness we feel on this Earth, and the various ways we seek to fill it. I also read a brief bit of the introduction to who Jeshua is, in the context of these channelings. I had come across TJC right around the time I discovered my first NDE story, and these channelings lept out at me in extremely profound ways. It is written in such a plain, easy to understand way, that it's hard to miss the direct impact of the words. Jeshua is speaking straight up, not in Christianese. It feels like the words I always expected to hear! IG: @youaretheoneyouseek email: [email protected] Music by 'Canvas Solaris' song: 'The Binaural Beat'

In this very special episode, I have the honor of interviewing NDE Experiencer, Author, Speaker, Metaphysician, Chiropractor, and all around incredible person, Dr. Mary Helen Hensley. She is from Virgina originally, schooled in South Carolina, but has been in Ireland for the last 25 years, where she has her chiropractic and metaphysical healing practice. Mary shares bits of her NDE experience, as well as very illuminating views on some very serious topics. We discuss our consciousness, and how it relates to specific frequencies, and how frequencies can be used to heal or hurt. Mary shares a very unique perspective on suicide, and many other profound insights.Mary's story is also available on many other great channels and podcasts, like Anthony Chene Productions on Youtube, and Next Level Soul podcast etc. You can find her here: www.maryhelenhensley.com IG: @youaretheoneyouseekemail: [email protected]: 'Canvas Solaris' song: 'The Binaural Beat'

This episode was an absolute treat to record, as I get to talk to my childhood friend Sean Bon Bon, of The Bon Bon's Nook podcast, Pure Love Chocolate, and Bon Bon's Nook Casava Tortilla mix, among MANY other things. Sean and my brother Michael became good friends in High School, and I was fortunate enough to insert myself into their friendship, and forge my own relationship with Sean, which has endured over the years. Sean has been a native NW dude, living mostly in Washington State, but has made Oregon his home since 2018. He is currently in Eugene, where he co-runs his Stevia based, sugar-free dark chocolate brand Pure Love Chocolate: www.purelovechocolate.com as well as Bon Bon's Nook: www.bonbonsnook.com and Star Child Creative Services: www.starchildcreative.com Sean and I cover a number of topics, so enjoy the ride! Instagram: @youaretheoneyouseek Email: [email protected] music by 'Canvas Solaris' from the song 'Recticular Consciousness'

I wanted to make a special episode, honoring the short, difficult, and inspiring life of my brother Michael. (he preferred Mike, or Myco, or MycoGonzo, or any number of other amusing aliases) I talk about the difficulties we had in relating, especially due to some more neuro-divergent traits in both of us, and how it took many years to develop a very challenging, but ultimately great relationship. Not an uncommon tale between siblings, but our journey definitely had some memorable twists and turns, like the night we got caught making materials for explosives! Enjoy the ride, and a tribute to a one of a kind soul, Michael O'Donnell. I miss you and love you every day brother, and I know that I will see you again soon. Find me on Instagram: @youaretheoneyouseek Email: [email protected] Musical intro and outro are from the song 'Interface' by 'Canvas Solaris' from their album 'Cortical Tectonics'

The future of this show is having guests on to talk about their experiences, but before we have on folks who have had an NDE, I would like to provide a little context and information about my understandings of how it seems to work. Thankfully there are millions of people with first hand experience with OBE or NDE experiences, so the likelihood you know someone who has, is pretty decent. I attempt to articulate a little more on Jeshua's role in coming to Earth, and how I see it fit in so perfectly with the description of experiences people have during an NDE. I have a bit of an overactive mind, and that comes through here, but my heart hopefully will shine out over my ignorance, and occasional propensity to shove my foot all the way into the back of my throat. Find me on Instagram: @youaretheoneyouseek Email: [email protected]

This is the first episode in the podcast, and I just wanted to give you some background story on how I arrived at this current place of understanding. I have been enamored with Near Death Experience stories, both from strangers and friends, and have been immersed in Yeshua and Ra Channelings, as well as A Course In Miracles. I would still consider myself somewhat of an atheist, but within that, also a spiritualist. Like me, it seems rather self-contradictory on the surface! :) Find me on Instagram: @youaretheoneyouseek Email: [email protected]