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Alive & Fragile
by catharaxia
“What’s wrong with being fragile?” she asked.If you consider yourself to be sensitive and hate it, please subscribe. If you love your sensitivity, definitely subscribe. If you hate talking about feelings, woo-woo nonsense or have refused anything adjacent to a yoga session in your life, hang around for a bit. If you’re the opposite, of course, stick around. If you are somewhere in between, there’s a place for you.This space is for anyone who craves change in themselves and the world. Join me as we figure this out. catharaxia.substack.com
Episodes
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You could be having so much more fun
My personal theme for October is ‘let it be fun.’ October invites play, mischief, and embracing what is beyond comprehension. This isn’t the time to be stuffy and strict. Shake off the debris of Virgo season, the careful acrobatics of Libra season. When Scorpio descends and brings us into the...
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Tarot is hot right now. Don’t get burned.
Within the last two weeks, I have seen post after post of [insert celeb] consulting or carrying around a tarot deck, a flurry of tarot creators I hadn’t heard of before, and tarot readers at the corporate party. As a long-time tarot reader, lover, and advocate, the sudden shift excites and…
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“Art is where what we survive survives”
Strands of hair on a mantle. Tied into a bow on my finger.Savoring the taste of someone once here. Obsolete nature. Ephemerality. We are dust and to dust returned. I am dust already. This thing in me that whirs all day like a computer filled with color and light and flowers. I am such a beautiful...
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30-30: A guided daydream meditation
Video version (out Sep 2nd) ;) And we’ve arrived at the endpoint. I can(‘t) believe it. I had hoped this project would unearth some change in me. To some degree, it did, and in other ways, it witnessed the changes that were scheduled to happen. I’m very happy and buzzing with possibility. I have...
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28-30: Congratulations! You survived The Pits!
Whenever I record these, I feel very rambly and scattered like I’m throwing spaghetti at a wall. Listening back is like stepping away to find that the spaghetti is in the shape of a windy, Van Gogh -esque painting. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or...
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27-30: I learned tarot because of my job
Video version ;) I didn’t realize how rarely I give this lore until I started explaining it. So much has changed since that summer I learned how to use a tarot deck — the way I read, who I read for, what I ask, who I am as a reader and person. I’m welcoming a new era in my tarot journey that I’ve...
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24-30: A re-education on the meaning of legacy
Video version ;) You may notice that this audio is timely with current events because I am mixing up the order in which I’m releasing these entries into the world. There are three in the queue that can wait because this one is too time-dependent. Consider this an eclipse season whack on the head....
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23-30: I am the answer
This has a video version ;) I revisited the Neighbourhood’s Wiped Out album last week, around when this was recorded. I used to loop it in my car until I knew all the words by heart, looped it in my room and on my new Spotify account, daydreaming to it, of course. I still know all the words and...
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20-30: Daydream therapy
[Video version] I remembered while listening back to this that Jacob Anderson recently talked about his experience doing this as a kid, and my brain lit up like a light display. One of my favorite kindred spirit moments. This has been such a weird process. Up-and-down energy. Curious to see the...
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19-30: Channeling on my channel
Today’s audio has a video version, because I felt like it. I lie about not editing. No chopping up the voice, but I wanted some visual zest. Just realized my light literally turns on when I hit the grand conclusion. The universe is a comedian. Channel 1, Channel 2, & Channel 3 mentioned. People...
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August Forecast: We'll never be those kids again
August’s playlist! Listen & check in later for updates 𓂃 ོ☼𓂃 If you’ve been keeping up with my semi-daily voice notes the last month, then you know July was intense. Predictive tarot always shocks me with how it manages to find accuracy. It’s never how you think it will be. It demands surrender...
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15-30: A turning point
* I finished no books. None of what I’ve been reading felt worth finishing. I did start reading fanfiction again, and, of course, newsletters on here. * The only movie I watched worth sharing is Sheep Detectives. I also saw The Odyssey like everyone else, but you don’t need my suggestion for that...
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14-30: Breathe with me
Oh hello, for those unfamiliar. Recording this one felt nice for me. (Alexandra) Apple mentioned! This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit catharaxia.substack.com/subscribe
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10-30
Sometimes I get lucky and catch myself right as an idea is forming. I’m very curious to see how I can weave all of these ideas together into something bigger. There are layers to this mental split. Not a very black-and-white-friendly realization, but thankfully I enjoy nuance now and then. Media:...
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Step it up!
July’s playlist! Listen & check in later for updates 𓆉°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ Welcome to July! This month’s energy is going to be a bit of a firecracker (no pun intended), but make no mistake: we are the architects of the world we want to see. This is not the month to be passive and sink into the background....
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1-30
In this entry, twitchy witch and Savannah Brown are both cited as inspiration for this format and project. It’s only right to give them their flowers. There’s something compelling to me about watching people figure things out in real time, and this unedited format allows that. I write from this...
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How do we engage with pain?
If you’ve been keeping up with the newsletter this year, this audio vlog entry will likely not surprise you. It’s been an intense six months. The change has been welcome but hard to move through nonetheless. That’s why I like to take voice memos to listen back to and remember how I was thinking…
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I try not to draw clean conclusions
I’m starting with a story, which will soon reveal irony. The last time I felt like an epistemological imposter was when I abandoned Cathar’s Corner. This podcast, which had been my light and love for two years, quickly evaded me. Attempting to give life insights week after week as if I held any...
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Don't say I've never looked out for ya
June playlist! Listen & check in later for updates ₊‧.°.⋆🫧•˚₊‧⋆. Welcome to June! The start of something new! Summertime! Butterflies! My birth month! This month’s cornucopia is full of promise. Of course, with promise comes the unknown, which can also lead to a lot of apprehension. If you feel...
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Phantasmagoria
In March of 2026, I decided to participate in a beta test of an app for tracking synchronicities. The idea of synchronicity is credited to Carl Jung. As I am not a Jungian Scholar and have little interest in becoming one for this report, take this knowledge as an invitation for your own deeper...
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Time for the grand finale...
May playlist is here! Go listen now .𖥔 ݁ ˖ᯓ ✈︎ Starting this month, paid subscribers can request a personal single card reading once a month. Learn more here. The past few months have been filled with closing doors. If you are astrologically inclined, you’ve probably heard once a month that a...
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All the things I’m drawn to are helpful mirrors
This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit catharaxia.substack.com This year has been the hall of mirrors. It’s a welcome change from the cycle archetypes of the year prior, filled with spirals and butterflies, but very trippy in comparison. I don’t think past me could’ve…
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Where do we go from here?
April playlist is here and growing ♫₊˚.🎧 ✩₊˚ Congrats! You survived the upheaval that was March 2026. One may wonder things like “what now?” and “where do we go from here?” This month is unlikely to provide many answers, but it will provide a renewed sense of faith. The forecast for the month...
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Innocence, queerness, & Jordan White
(An updated version with voiceover.) This post is spoiler-friendly. If you’d like a spoiler-free discussion of The Doom Generation, check out last week’s post. I also added more songs to the Apocalypse playlist if you want a reading soundtrack. Enjoy! Jordan White from The Doom Generation has…
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Apocalypse
This is a spoiler free zone. There’s a themed playlist to enjoy if you’d like 𓇢𓆸 ˙•˚☘︎ If I could explain myself in easy colors, I would. Instead, my interior is made of butterfly hues that my human eyes fail to see, and my spirit eyes can hold between fingertips. Whatever darkness lives in me...
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H-O-T T-O G-O
Let’s get real for a moment. This energy we’re starting March with is a lot. It’s a post-eclipse aftershock alongside the muck of Mercury retrograde, which concludes March 20th. Nevertheless, we persist through this elongated start — not just the year but a new era of life. No pressure, am I…
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And if nothing else stay true
This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit catharaxia.substack.com There’s a February playlist btw. Enjoy ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹ ᥫ᭡ One thing I love about reading for others is creating personalized spreads. It makes the process more collaborative, and each reading feels very special. Plus, I...
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I can't keep fighting what I am
I listen to mixes like this a LOT when creating. Felt real to add it to this message. I sit in this moment of apathy and shame for not fitting my own self-inflicted mold. It shows up all the time. When I “fail” to be open and friendly despite knowing I’m a rather calm and reserved person. I get...
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The world is your oyster
It’s Phantogram Phebruary for me ˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞. Hello loves! Welcome to this month’s tarot forecast. The energy predicted for the month is different from what I anticipated, which means we’re in for an interesting time. Remember to check in halfway through the month and at the end of the month to see...
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You are here
Found this song during quarantine and it came to mind today. I’m finding myself at a weird impasse. I haven’t been doing the song and dance of digital protest. I’m not tapped into the leftist collectives because I don’t want to be. I’ve become part of the disillusioned public. Sometimes I…
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30 days of prompts from me to you
Earlier this month, I announced that I would be giving daily tarot prompts and sharing my readings. These prompts were meant to be straightforward and light. The process was a way for readers new and old, to strengthen their interpretation skills while bonding with the deck. As I progressed…
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Respect the work
I’ve been recording audio entries for the last year that I’ve been meaning to share with you, but I move slowly. I’ve decided I’ll share them when it feels right. December was such a portal month. January has been carrying the dream forward. Messages are coming in many fun, lighthearted forms....
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Everything in its right place
I’m still processing how much of last year was about grief and transition. As this new year begins and this old season of life closes, I find myself confronting it again and again. There’s still so much more to say. This current musing felt important to share with you. Whenever I feel a little...
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In a new room
Music for your reading ☆*️ᥫ᭡ I’m writing to you from the other side of things. Hello. How are you? Have you been feeling well? Refreshed. It’s a new year, and the portal is opening just wide enough for me to slip through. I forgot who I was, or at least what I could be. I am a girl. A young girl.…
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Fire the gun!
Happy New Year! Welcome to the first tarot forecast for 2026. This year is going to be one for the books, and we’re off to a running start! As usual, this will be a three-card energy reading. Make sure to return halfway through the month to see how the themes have emerged and then again towards…
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Things that have changed.
I’d recommend letting me read this one to you. May more change continue to come :) - Things that have changed I do not like pomegranates during winter. It is a pain to prepare and hurts my stomach. My clothes do not fit me in size, shape, or presence. I am changing I am changing I am changing.…
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March of the Butterflies
Author’s Note: This a long piece so if you usually read via email, it might get shortened. You can read the full post on my substack page. Song used can be found here, here, and here. Summary/Blurb: This is about what it feels like to become the butterfly, soft and shimmering under the sun.…
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Are you ready to take flight?
♫⋆｡♪ ₊˚♬ december’s playlist so far ♫⋆｡♪ ₊˚♬ Welcome to December’s tarot forecast. This came together much slower and more analytically than last month’s, which feels like part of the message as well. We are slowing down to prepare for something new. This will be a three-card energy reading. I...
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The journey down under continues
‧₊˚♪ 𝄞₊˚⊹music for this reading‧₊˚♪ 𝄞₊˚⊹ Inspired by the lovely astrologers of the internet, I decided to pull some cards to add to the picture the stars may be creating this month. If you notice parallels between the mini reading and themes that emerge as the month progresses, please report...
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Observations on time and its movement patterns
I’ve been sitting with time recently. Watching her slowness to start much of anything, the languidness she chooses. The way the future arrives after years of adding one piece at a time, because that is the fastest pace time will allow. Being on the edge of my mid-twenties, it’s the first time I…
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This full moon comes with fire and a message.
This Aries full moon has been the first lunar cycle in a while that I lost grasp of. It felt more like remembering I’m 24 not 22. Remembering I live in Los Angeles and not some generic metropolitan city where young people congregate for a TV drama. It feels like a Monday but fresher, maybe a bit...
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We sit in the void's cocoon on the precipice of emergence
I’ve been crying at work nearly every day for the last month. It’s been an inconsequential moment of my life, mirroring the depression switch that went off in my brain when I was thirteen. It was the last month or so of eighth grade. I remember sitting in the audience of our empty middle school...
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No one owes you expertise.
The following is a transcription of some of my new moon clarity. The song is how it felt to have the fog of my own nonsense finally clear stage to allow something new to take root. God bless the sick day haze. We're doing Virgo new moon manifestations. But the specific aspect of it, I wanted to...
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how to be yourself.
Sometimes I sense how trapped my bones feel inside my body — pressed against muscle and veins, organs thumping, squeezing against the edge. Sometimes I have the urge to cough up bits of myself to give them a little room. Living fossils lodged inside of me, giving me form. I’m not comfortable…
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let's talk about love
In the last two months, I have been swept off my feet in the worst ways imaginable. Random losses, crises out of my control, stressful family dynamics, all with work’s daily grind in the background. I have been writing, thankfully, just nothing notable enough to share at the moment — a partial…
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Five of Cups Has News for You
It's more about […] surrendering and being […] open to receiving this next thing now that you've given up all these things that you may have wanted or you wished could have worked out. […] Things that, you know, just weren't good, that just weren't working that had to be let go, and maybe you let...
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An Ode to the Body, from the Soul.
This week has been on one. I found myself deciding to step out of my shell and read some writing in front of people for the first time in a couple of years. Funnily, I love reading my work, which is why I’ve shifted towards the audio format for my posts. Reading in front of an audience is always…
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A Quick Message from Three of Pentacles
Hello again! I come bearing a message I created early last week. It was strangely timed, considering the hermit energy I was in. This weekend, I finally implemented it, and a garden has grown. We’re on our way up! This one is short and sweet, so I don’t have much to say for it. I hope it nudges…
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A Message from the Page of Wands
“We are on our journey, our path forward. We kind of know where we're going already, and it's […] more of a matter of trusting ourselves and the path forward versus getting caught up in the big grand pictures. […] When we're talking about sketching out the plan, [it] is less about trying to…
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A Message from the Queen of Cups
As part of an experiment, I wanted to share a series of one-card readings and make a reinterpretation of the card to match. First up is Queen of Cups, who came out alongside the Tower. I was a little confused at first, but it became clear as I did the initial reading why she wanted the “mask off”...
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ABOUT THIS SHOW
“What’s wrong with being fragile?” she asked.If you consider yourself to be sensitive and hate it, please subscribe. If you love your sensitivity, definitely subscribe. If you hate talking about feelings, woo-woo nonsense or have refused anything adjacent to a yoga session in your life, hang around for a bit. If you’re the opposite, of course, stick around. If you are somewhere in between, there’s a place for you.This space is for anyone who craves change in themselves and the world. Join me as we figure this out.
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