Amma Brown Girl
by Amanpreet Kaur
Satsriakal, my names Amma and I’m a brown girl. I’m here to share my wonderful experiences of growing up in a desi household! The aim is to create a better platform for brown voices as each episode focuses on topics our society avoids talking about. Tune in to hear me challenge societal norms, my insightful awakenings and how my taboo life experiences are shared by many. If you want to see my beautiful bootha, I have uploaded the video episodes to YouTube, and I will be doing a few episodes in Punjabi for my desi brothers and sisters. Thank you for listening in!
Episodes
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BURN OUT 😩🔥
WHAT DO YOU MEAN S2 IS COMPLETE? 😨 I started the series on a rooftop in Vietnam with no idea on how to edit on premiere pro or use wireless mike. We went from blocking my mother, to now being besties, season 2 was heavily based on the roller-coaster relationship I’ve had with my parents. From...
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STAR SIGNS 101 🔮
STAR SIGNS 101 🔮 If I ever told you I’m not that into star signs, that’s a big fat lie, I hate to admit it but I’m a sucker for astrology. 🧿 Today’s episode is all about why I do and don’t like certain star signs, traits, mini story times and just a whole lot of opinions. 🙂↕️ Stick it on in…
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ELOPEMENT?
Recently my sister had a big fat desi wedding, and it had me thinking about what I want when I get married. I’ve talked a lot about the pressures of marriage, but no one talks about the pressures of having a big wedding, especially desi weddings. Catch me at the town hall in a red lehenga, 1...
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I’M 6 YEARS OLD
A year older and wiser, it was my birthday! I say I’ve turned 6 since it’s a nice way to give myself grace as life for me felt like a fresh restart at 20, so 6 years later with tons more experience I wanted to share 6 pieces of advice and lessons that have helped shape who I am. I hope this helps…
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1947 PARTITION 🇮🇳🇵🇰
Today’s episode was close to my heart. I recently read my first ever fiction book called baby does a runner, by Anita Rani and it really stuck with me. The book covered the partition of India and Pakistan in 1947 which was one of the greatest mass migrations in history where the horrific effects...
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SPEAKING UP IN DIFFICULT CONVERSATIONS 🗣️
GURRRLLLL WE AT EP 20 WHATTTTTTT??? Something about reaching EP 20 feels like a milestone, maybe It’s the relatability of being in my mid 20’s and crashing out on the weekly, or maybe because I know the end of season 2 is fast approaching. On that note, speaking up in difficult conversations is…
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YOU COULDN’T PAY ME TO MOVE BACK HOME 🖐️
Been home with my parents for the last 2 weeks since my wisdom teeth removal and wow, it’s been a journey. After nearly 7 years of living solo, I’m so used to my independence and my space. Living in a family home? Not quite my vibe x 🙂 Navigating the energy of a broken home, boundary setting…
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QUEER COMMUNITY, WHERE YOU AT? 👋🏽🏳️🌈
Happy pride month peeps! On this week’s episode I talk about the queer community; how I could really do with more queer friends, the Indian culture recognising third genders through history, how we still have a long way to go, and even a little about how I’m doing as a queer desi girly after…
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LAVENDER MARIAGE🙆♂️💍🙆♀️
Lavender marriage this lavender marriage that, I’ve lost count of how many times I said lavender marriage, but I can sure tell you this style of marriage is back. To the girlies showing off their cute hot gay husbands, to Hollywood stars concealing their sexuality to avoid scandal, this form of...
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JEALOUSY 🫣
We know how ugly it can all get when we hear about jealousy, have you ever felt jealous? 🫵🏼 On today’s episode I talk about jealousy, what it means to feel jealous, why we feel jealous, how we can work through it and how jealousy can look through a brown lens. Have you considered jealousy to be...
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IDENTITY AND BELONGING AS A BROWN QUEER GIRL
I’m glad I set the record straight with my parents early on and let them crash out sooner than later because I don’t have the capacity to be dealing with their crash out in my 30’s. Anyways, today it a chill one, yappa yappa yappa. identity is a weird, one minute I’m pretending to be the perfect...
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DESI’S ON THE ✨SPECTRUM✨
EPISODE 14: DESI’S ON THE ✨SPECTRUM✨ On today’s episode I attempt to self-diagnose myself, talk about the importance of acknowledging neurodiversity, invalidate my brain ANDD try to figure out if I’m on the spectrum. 🙃 Imagine if our desi parents had access to the knowledge and education we have...
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MY PARENTS ARE GETTING OLDER
Sat Sri Akal! On today’s episode I’ll be talking about the expectations of taking care of the elder generation and parents in the south Asian community. Firstly, has anyone realised I’ve uploaded a day later? No this wasn’t intentional and very unlike me, blame my WIFI :( To be honest it’s a…
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BROWN PEOPLE WORK TOO HARD 🔨
It’s nice to finally see my parents enjoying life after waking up at silly hours of the morning! In todays episode I cover the conversation of brown people working overtime; never taking breaks, not receiving enough credit for their efforts, how different work life is in India and how I’ve truly...
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GOSSIPING IN THE GURDWARA ???
Yes, you did read that right.😅 Imagine being told you look fat before saying good morning in the house of GOD! Oh get a grip.😒 The thing is, I’m not really surprised but I also wonder if gossip culture is common in most places of worship? 🤨 Have a listen and let me know what you think, oki...
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DATING IN THE DESI COMMUNITY 😉
I’m unsure if anyone reads these but if you do thank you ! ❤️ I talk about my dating experiences how important it is for parents to encourage their children to date safely and progressive Indian film and tv has come when it comes to showcasing complex themes of sex and relationships. ✨ Today was…
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FRIENDSHIP BREAKUPS 💔
On today’s episode I talk about the ins and outs of friendship breakups, how we met, how things ended, what I learnt and what I wish I knew ! GO CHECK IT OUT NOW, ENJOYYYY ! 💔
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BREAKING NO CONTACT WITH MY DESI MUM ⛓️❤️🩹
This episode is for anyone struggling with complicated family relationships, believe me I know how ugly it gets. 🥲 I thought the day would never come where I get to actually say that out loud… so me and my mum are now besties and we can finally sleep at night in peace. 🥹💤 After years of...
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2024 WAS WEIRD AF, BUT WE MOVE 🙃
I’m back from traveling and reflecting on what feels like a never-ending checklist. AM I THE ONLY ONE FEELING THIS CHAOTIC?? Since 2024 has felt like Gotham City in real life—and let’s be honest, it’s a bit of a write-off—here are three lessons I’m taking into this year: 1️⃣ Listen to your...
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THE INDIA ✨VILLAGE EXPERIENCE✨
ITS CHAA NOT CHAI FFS. I bet you’ve never tasted what real chaa tastes like, made on a chulla (open flame) with fresh cow’s milk off the cow on my left. Yeah, that’s a real village experience I had the other day. (see IG highlights for proof) ☕️ 🐄 When I tell you I’d love to live in India, I…
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WHAT I’VE LEARNT WHIST TRAVELING ✈️🌍
YOU VOTED, I DELIVERED! 🙌 NEW EPISODE ALERT! A tie in my Instagram poll led to a tough decision, but I’m excited to share with you all what I’ve learned! From boosting confidence to finding your own travel style, this episode is packed with insights to help you grow and explore. 🎧💖 Enjoy!...
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LESBAINS IN THAILAND 🏳️🌈🇹🇭
🎙️ New Episode Alert 🏳️🌈🇹🇭 At least once a day I’ll sit there and think aha I genuinely love being a lesbian. 💭 I honestly knew it when I was staring a tad too hard at the M&S bra section models, whilst trying to find my first ever push up bra… 👙 ENYWAYS, in this episode of Amma Brown…
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WHY ARE INDIANS SO RACIST? 😕
A huge thank you to everyone who contributed ideas for today’s topic! Your voices matter! 💬❤️ In this episode, we’re addressing the often-overlooked issue of racism and colourism within Indian society. We’ll explore how historical factors, societal norms, and media representations contribute to...
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IGNORANCE IS BLISS X ESCAPING INDIA
🌟✨ *Ignorance is bliss*—but is it really? Today’s episode was produced in Quin Nhon- Vietnam, on a beautiful rooftop, blue skies and ocean waves. Despite the scenic location, ya girl still got trauma! So today I explore the difficulties of sharing our truths with family and the weight of…
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NO CONTACT WITH MY MOTHER 😶
Welcome back to Amma Brown Girl! In this raw and heartfelt Season 2 opener, I dive into the much-needed decision of going no contact with my mother. To make matters worse I’m currently on holiday with her… yes this was out of my control… 🙃 It's an emotional journey filled with moments of…
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A NEW CHAPTER (SEASON FINALE) 🎉
✨ That’s a wrap on Season 1 of Amma Brown Girl! 🎉 What an incredible ride it has been, sharing my highs and lows while connecting with so many of you. From breaking free from toxic environments to discovering my true self, every episode has been a piece of my journey. A massive THANK YOU to all…
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MY DESI DOUBLE LIFE 👭
No matter how independent I become, the expectations of how my parents, culture, and society want me to be is something I think will never leave me. (Expensive therapy bills pending!). Today’s episode was difficult to record, and I felt very vulnerable sharing my story about how I struggle with...
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THE POWER OF GRATITUDE: FINDING JOY AMIDST HARDSHIP🙏🏽
🌼✨ "Happiness comes in waves." 🌊💖 Just wrapped up a heartfelt episode of Amma Brown Girl, EPISODE 22: "The Power of Gratitude: Finding Joy Amidst Hardship." 🙏🏽 If you’re battling tough times, remember that even the smallest moments of gratitude can help shift your perspective. Let's embrace...
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HOW TO DEAL WITH BETRAYAL 🐍
Today’s episode talks about betrayal; what it means, the different types of betrayal, personal experiences and how to overcome these heavy emotions. Having experienced a recent betrayal of working with snakes, it was only right to share that story and hopefully help anyone out there having...
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25 LIFE LESSONS 🥳🎂🎁🎊
PSA: If you don’t watch/listen to this episode I’ll be offended because this is possibly my most favourite episode!!! :) Check out the visual on YouTube <3 Today’s episode is all about life lessons. If like me you’ve also been going through it, I hope this episode reminds you, you are not alone,...
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HOME IS NEVER HOME, UNTIL IT IS … 🏡
On today’s episode I really want to spark a conversation about what home feels like. I recently moved house again for the 8th time and I couldn’t help feeling the heavy emotions of how home has never felt like home. I talk about my family home, how renting has never given me true peace and how my...
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CHAT SH*T AUNTIES 👁️👄👁️
As if life isn’t long enough, then you’ve got a chat shit auntie telling you to lose weight but they’re still carrying the “BAbY wEIgHt” for 30 years. On today’s episode, I’m a tad triggered but we get straight into the history and culture of chat shift aunties, what they really like to gossip...
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ORANGE IS THE NEW BEGINNING 👩🏼🦰
Get ready for a candid conversation about body hair, self-acceptance, and spirituality! In this episode of Amma Brown Girl, I'm sharing my personal experiences with waxing, lasering, and ultimately, embracing my natural body hair. I also open up about my decision to dye my hair after 2 years…
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ALCOHOLIC UNCLES
NEW EPISODE ALERT! This week on Amma Brown Girl, I'm talking about the elephant in the room - alcoholism in our community. From my own experiences growing up around it to the stigma around south Asian women drinking, I'm sharing my story and hoping to start a conversation. Don't forget to check…
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SKYDIVING
TERRIFIED WAS AN UNDERSTATEMENT! On today’s episode I talk about the before, during and after of my skydive, some of the things I’ve reflected on, and how I’m now able to give even less of a shit about the stresses of life. I can now say it was the best moment of my life, I’d do it again in a...
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STORY TIME: HOW I CAME OUT TO MY DAD 🏳️🌈👳🏾♂️😅
Since it’s pride month, in this week’s episode I talk about my coming out story; the messy after math, what prompted me to come out and what I’ve learnt. Queer people have existed from the beginning of time, so have South Asian queers. I strongly believe there needs to be better representation…
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ANGER:GUSA
Gusa in Punjabi means anger and it’s something I’m no stranger to. On today’s episode I talk about the ways I’ve dealt with anger in my desi home, my recent experience of feeling angry and how you can manager your emotions better. Life is too short to be in a constant state of rage or distress....
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TU MOTI LAGTHI
This translates to ‘You Look Fat’. Awful I know… On today’s episode I talk about how normalised it is for our society to say such wild comments, and how I overcame a lot of my insecurity. I also mention my relationship with health, nutrition, and fitness and how I wish this subject was taught...
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BLAME
EPISODE 11: BLAME AM I TO BLAME FOR LEAVING? In today’s episode I talk about blame and how I, as a south Asian woman was made to feel like everything was my fault, when in reality I escaped an abusive home. I see this happen an awful lot in my culture, and it’s not spoken about enough. I wonder…
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10 THINGS I’VE LEARNT SINCE STARTING.
I MADE IT TO 10 EPISODES WHOOP WHOOP! (DISCLAIMER: Really struggled to get the audio crisp, yes a cried about it TWICE, will learn to get better soon x) The hardest part has been starting but I’m so glad to have put out my podcast :) On today’s episode I talk about 10 things I’ve learnt since...
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EXPECTATIONS IN THE DESI COMMUNITY
I came to the recent realization that no matter how hard I try to salvage a complicated relationship with family members, no matter how much I try to be the perfect daughter and seek validation, the list of expectations will forever be unreachable. Rather than trying to fit into a box and feel…
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HOT AND COLD PARENTS
One minute you’re being told off, the next your being served fruit. Being served fruit by your Indian parents is their equivalent of them apologising, of course without taking any accountability. On today’s episode I talk about hot and cold parents. No matter how much time passes their old…
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LEAVING MY TOXIC DESI HOUSE - THE AFTERMATH
I can't help but wish I had watched this video 3 years ago. Moving out was a major decision in my life, and while it didn't solve all my problems, it was definitely the best choice I ever made. In this week's episode, I dive into the nitty-gritty of the moving out process, sharing insights on...
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MARRIAGE WITHIN THE DESI COMMUNITY
“When will you marry”, asked my mum who would faint at the thought of me dating BUT, “I must find a life partner” she said. Welcome to the all too familiar and common reality of south Asians like myself who feel the sudden pressure to get married because apparently 25 is the prime age, otherwise...
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BROWN BODIES, SELF LOVE AND INSECURITY
TW: PLEASE NOTE THIS EPISODE INCLUDES SENSITIVE TOPICS. If there’s one thing I’ve always screamed at all my friends is don’t care what people think, they don’t care as much as you think. Now this is a lot easier said than done and insecurity naturally creeps up in waves. What’s important is how…
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MENTAL HEALTH AND ME
Mental health is a lifelong relationship, it only gets more spicier if you have chat shit aunties and you’re the eldest brown girl. In this week’s episode I talk about how my current circumstances are making me feel, how I wish there were more spaces for the older gen to process their feelings…
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GUILT – BROWN EDITION
Since my mum is my biggest hater towards my podcast, and I’ll post it anyway, todays episode is quite special to me, and I hope you can understand or relate to some of the guilt I feel as a result of leaving home; being outspoken and putting myself first as a brown person. Having to put your own...
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DEAR IMMIGRANT PARENTS
There is no blue print to parenting and I'm glad things are better now but my brain forgets massive chunks of trauma to protect it self. Luckily this episode is simplified and outlines more of the positives with the help of Jaspreet Kaur's book "Brown Girl Like Me". Thank you for listening !
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LEAVING MY TOXIC DESI HOUSE
Leaving my toxic desi home feels like yesterday, the emotions, the healing, and growth have been immensely difficult but rewarding. It was the best decision I made after realising things will never get better at home. This my my personal experience and I hope you can relate!
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INTRO
Satsriakal and welcome to my podcast intro! I'm so exited to share my experiences, and how we shouldn't shy away from having the difficult conversations. As podcasting is extremely new to me, join my journey on staying committed and bettering my confidence to talk about topics we love to brush...
About this show
Satsriakal, my names Amma and I’m a brown girl.
I’m here to share my wonderful experiences of growing up in a desi household!
The aim is to create a better platform for brown voices as each episode focuses on topics our society avoids talking about.
Tune in to hear me challenge societal norms, my insightful awakenings and how my taboo life experiences are shared by many.
If you want to see my beautiful bootha, I have uploaded the video episodes to YouTube, and I will be doing a few episodes in Punjabi for my desi brothers and sisters.
Thank you for listening in!
Hosted by
Amanpreet Kaur