Sex, Drugs, & Soul

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!What happens when you love your partner deeply but your desires don’t quite match?Amanda Dames, the Kink Consultant, certified sexologist, sex and relationship coach, and former professional dominatrix, joins for a candid conversation about kink, intimacy, sexual desire, communication, consent, trust, and shame.Amanda shares how she went from working at The Wall Street Journal to becoming a professional dominatrix in New York City and eventually helping individuals and couples navigate mismatched desires, fantasies, fetishes, BDSM, and deeper intimacy.In this episode, we explore...• Why it can feel so difficult to tell your partner what you actually want• How to talk about sexual fantasies without creating pressure• Why understanding the feeling beneath a kink can change the conversation• The difference between a kink and a fetish• Whether kink is always connected to trauma• Sexual shame and the fear of being judged or rejected• The connection between neurodivergence, sensory play, and BDSM• Why kink may have a major “PR problem”• Female dominance, power, and stepping into authority• Amanda’s own 24/7 Dom/sub relationship• How consent and boundaries can create deeper trust and intimacy• How owning your desires can build confidence far beyond the bedroomOne of the biggest takeaways? Sharing a fantasy doesn’t mean it has to become reality. Sometimes it gets explored physically. Sometimes it lives in dirty talk. And sometimes simply telling the truth about your desires can deepen a relationship.Ultimately, this conversation goes far beyond kink. It’s about emotional safety, honest communication, self-trust, and creating relationships where both people can feel fully seen without making the other person responsible for fulfilling every desire.If you’re curious or have ever struggled with mismatched sexual desires, kink, BDSM, fantasies, consent, sexual shame, communication, or creating deeper intimacy with your partner, this episode is for you.Learn more about Amanda at amandadames.com, follow @the_kinkconsultant on Instagram, and listen to The Kink Consultant Podcast wherever you get your podcasts.Resources for Couples:Guide for couples with mismatched desire to have more open and honest conversations in a safe framework: https://www.amandadames.com/Speak-Your-Desires-with-Confidence-opt-in-1BDSM Menu for couples who are curious to explore each other's kinks: https://www.amandadames.com/bdsmlistSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!Sex, Drugs, & Soul is where intimacy, desire, spirituality, sexuality, and the beautifully messy art of being human collide.Hosted by author, intimacy mentor, and professional line-blurrer between the profane and the profound, Kristin Birdwell, this podcast is for people who want more than a life that simply looks good. We're talking about the stuff that makes you feel fully alive: deeper connection, better relationships, eroticism, vulnerability, personal growth, spirituality, tantra, psychedelics, kink, pleasure, purpose... and yes, occasionally devil dick energy. 😈Around here, no topic is too spicy, too weird, or too human.You'll hear honest conversations about what we really desire, why vulnerability is the gateway to intimacy, how our relationships change when we stop performing and start telling the truth, and what happens when sexuality and spirituality are allowed to exist in the same damn room.We explore everything from tantric intimacy and erotic reclamation to psychedelic healing, unconventional relationships, grief, creativity, consciousness, self-discovery, and those glorious existential moments when you suddenly wonder: what the fuck am I doing with my life?And maybe the goal isn't becoming more impressive, more enlightened, or more perfect... It's about becoming 100% human.Welcome to Sex, Drugs, & Soul, where the sacred gets spicy, the personal growth gets real, & the self-discovery comes with a side of mischief.. 🔥Follow the show and come get weird, wise, and wildly alive.Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!What happens when you’ve gotten pretty damn good at achieving but start wondering if success and fulfillment are actually the same thing?I sit down with James McCrae, poet, author, viral creator, creative entrepreneur, and former Madison Avenue brand strategis, to talk creativity, purpose, psychedelics, spirituality, and what it means to become a little more human in a world obsessed with optimization. We get into mushrooms in Central Park, ayahuasca, creativity as therapy, trusting the muse, spirituality without the dogma, and whether our best ideas come from us or through us. James also shares how losing his advertising job helped launch his creative career, his take on AI as assistant rather than artist, and the wild story behind Instructions Before Visiting Earth—the poem that unexpectedly reached more than 100 million people and is becoming a full poetry collection in 2027. Plus: ego death vs. orgasm, the best drug for creativity, aliens, dance-floor salvation, and one of my favorite ideas from the episode:Maybe being human is the next enlightenment.Instructions for Visiting Earth Poem Connect with James:Website: https://www.jamesmccrae.com/Substack: https://substack.com/@jamesmccraeIG: @wordsarevibrationsSunflower Club: @sunflower.club.creativeSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!What happens when fear gets turned down and couples finally say the things they've been afraid to say?Jonathan Robinson, former psychotherapist, bestselling author, and longtime pioneer in MDMA-assisted work, joins to explore the intersection of MDMA, trauma, couples therapy, sex, intimacy, and emotional healing.Jonathan shares how his work with MDMA began in the 1980s, why he believes it can help couples move through long-standing resentment and communication breakdowns, and what happens when people suddenly feel safe enough to talk openly about sex, money, infidelity, trauma, and unmet desires.We get into sexless marriages, mismatched libidos, attachment patterns, empathy versus “fixing,” why couples get caught in what Jonathan calls the “misery go-round,” how some relationships reconnect...while others realize it may be time to lovingly separate.Chapters:00:00 — From Therapy to MDMA 03:33 — What MDMA Does to Fear 06:51 — The Relationship Misery Go-Round 10:35 — MDMA & Sexual Trauma 17:14 — When Talk Therapy Isn't Enough 19:06 — The Best Night of Their Marriage 21:35 — When Couples Choose to Separate 26:46 — Sex, Lies & Radical Honesty 29:34 — The Communication Tool Couples Need 32:47 — Talking About What You Want in Bed 38:01 — Empathy, Intimacy, & Sexless Marriage 40:24 — The Future of MDMA TherapyConnect with Jonathan: mdmatraining.net (coupon code: OFF200)xtcforcouples.netJonathan's Books: Ecstasy as Medicine: How MDMA therapy Can Help You Overcome Trauma, Anxiety, and Depression...and Feel More LoveEcstasy For Couples: How MDMA Therapy Can Create More Love and Less Conflict In Your Relationship Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!What happens when a woman stops viewing her body through everyone else’s eyes and begins seeing herself as art?In this episode, I’m joined by ritual artist and pleasure weaver Khadoma Colomby to talk about pussy portraits, healing sexual shame, erotic embodiment, womb wisdom, and what it means to reclaim the parts of ourselves we were taught to hide.Khadoma shares how she transforms images of women’s vulvas into deeply personal works of art and how the process becomes a ritual of reconnecting with a part of the body many women have been taught to hide, judge, change, or reserve for someone else’s pleasure.We explore how women become disconnected from their bodies, why fully expressed women can be so confronting, and what changes when a woman begins treating her pleasure, sexuality, and life-force energy as her own.Khadoma also shares her simple three-song Tending Your Turn-On practice, designed to help you reconnect with your emotional landscape, awaken sensuality through self-touch, and invite more energy and pleasure into your day.Enjoy, darlin'. Timestamps:00:00 — Feminine Reclamation01:30 — Khadoma’s Journey Into the Divine Feminine03:00 — The Inspiration Behind the Portraits05:17 — The Holy Harlot and Reclaiming Sexuality06:15 — Healing Shame Through Ritual and Art11:37 — Eros, Consent, and Listening to the Body13:23 — Erotic Energy as Life Force14:53 — The Three-Song Tending Your Turn-On Practice17:25 — Pleasure, Magnetism, and Embodiment20:33 — Why Fully Expressed Women Are Confronting23:42 — Untaming Women’s Emotional Wilderness24:49 — Women Aren’t Meant to Be the Same Every Day28:10 — What to Do When You Feel Disconnected29:33 — Womb Wisdom and the Inner Temple31:21 — Menstrual Cycles, Relationships, and Perimenopause33:00 — Fertility, Aging, and the Body’s Timeline35:08 — Reclaiming Sexuality in Midlife and Beyond37:17 — Fun and Spicy Lightning RoundConnect with Khadoma: Website: https://www.khadomacolomby.com/IG: https://www.instagram.com/khadoma_colomby/Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!This week, I chat with Temptress Pixie, erotic writer, kink educator, dominatrix, and open relationship expert, to explore a world that's often misunderstood. We talked about BDSM, power exchange, pegging, tantra, conscious domination, submission, nervous system regulation, and how kink can become a profound path toward healing.Whether you're deeply immersed in kink or curious about why so many people find freedom through conscious power dynamics, this conversation goes way beyond whips and chains.We also get into...• how she accidentally discovered BDSM through Rihanna's S&M song• the surprising journey from lifelong submissive to dominatrix• why communication is the sexiest foreplay• how fantasy conversations can strengthen relationships• what tantra and BDSM actually have in common• why pegging carries so much unnecessary shame• how play helps us reconnect with parts of ourselves we've forgotten• and why pleasure, healing, and spirituality might all be speaking the same language.As always...take what resonates, leave the rest, and stay curious.Watch the episode on YouTube. Timestamps:00:00 Introduction and guest introduction01:21 How Timtress Pixie discovered BDSM03:32 Defining BDSM and kink04:25 Range of interests in BDSM and kink05:58 Submissive and dominant roles explained07:07 Pain, confidence, and power exchange09:17 The story of the switch to dominance11:53 Creative role play and trust14:56 Evolving into full dominance17:55 The importance of play and imagination22:40 Daddy and Mommy Dom roles26:01 BDSM as therapy and emotional healing27:38 Tantra and energy work in BDSM32:58 Journey into different BDSM styles and tools36:55 Pegging: Tips, conversations, and overcoming shame44:53 Prostate play, anal exploration, and tantraConnect with Temptress Pixie:IG: @temptress.pixie & @enm_diariesSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!This episode is brought to you by... tacos & tequila. 🤪After a couple of anejos, addiction therapist C.R. Herro joins me for a candid conversation about dopamine, addiction, fantasy, and why we so often find ourselves chasing the very things that keep us stuck.We explore:• What addiction really is (and why it's more common than you think)• The difference between guilt and shame... and why it matters• Why we stay in relationships that hurt us• The hidden addiction to productivity, achievement, and external validation• Fantasy vs. authentic intimacy• Dating in the age of AI• What it actually means to live authenticallyTimestamps:00:00 Intro02:18 The Real Definition of Addiction 07:42 Dopamine, Survival, & Your Brain 14:35 Why We Repeat Self-Destructive Behaviors 21:58 Accountability vs. Excuses 29:41 Addiction to Success & Validation 37:56 Guilt & Shame Explained 45:10 Why Toxic Relationships Feel Addictive 52:44 Fantasy vs. Authentic Love Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!This week, I'm joined by Dr. Veda, acupuncturist, frequency medicine practitioner, pleasure pioneer, host of Quantumly Kinky, and one of my favorite new friends.We Explore...  - Acupuncture, Sexual Vitality, & the Erotic Intelligence of Your Nervous System- How to live a more turned-on life- Curiosity as a philosophy & the importance of play- Metaphysics, manifestation, & multidimensional living - How acupuncture is frequency medicine  - Existential Kink: the framework that will make you ask "wait, what part of me actually wants this?" (aka what your shadow secretly enjoys) - Sexual avatars and how they come online for women - Her podcast Quantumly Kinky, aka the sexy sermon your Sunday morning needsTimestamps:00:00 Intro & Internet Friendship Origin05:00 Questioning Religion & Finding Spirituality09:00 Childhood Play Before Social Media13:30 Sexuality Without Shame18:00 90s TV, Sex & The City & Sexual Archetypes23:00 First Heartbreak & Relationship Books31:00 The Secret, Abraham Hicks & Conscious Creation35:00 The Seth Material & Multidimensional Reality38:00 Frequency Medicine Explained41:00 Acupuncture as Frequency Medicine46:00 Discovering Esoteric Acupuncture50:00 The Frequency of Your Future Self53:00 Breathwork & Receiving Intuition56:00 Wellness Culture & Biohacking Burnout1:00:00 How to Get Turned On By Judgment1:02:00 Existential Kink Explained1:07:00 Quantumly Kinky & Creating a Podcast1:10:00 Final Reflections & Turned-On LivingIf you've been craving more aliveness, more presence, more pleasure... press play to become more turned on by life.Connect with Dr. Veda:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/dr.sarahveda Website: https://turnedonclinic.com/Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!On this pod, I chat with Francesca Barone for one of the most unexpectedly grounding conversations around psychedelics and healing.Francesca runs a retreat center (Anam Cara) with Shipibo healers from the Amazon and describes a way of sitting with ayahuasca that feels like a warm, peaceful journey.We unpack: Francesca’s journey from addiction & autoimmune illness into plant medicine work  What ayahuasca actually is without the spiritual fluff How modern psychedelic culture sometimes creates more dysregulation instead of healing  Poorly held ceremonies & psychedelic trauma  Why nervous system regulation matters before the ceremony  The role embodiment plays in healing  How women disconnect from intuition  The difference between performing spirituality vs. embodying truth  Integration after ceremonies & why support matters  The exhaustion of hiding parts of ourselves Timestamps00:00: The intuitive nudge that started it all11:29: Embodiment before ceremony26:00: Psychedelic trauma 31:55: Fear of Ayahuasca44:06: Integration: what it is, what it isn’t, and why community is everything50:29: Listening to your intuition53:35: Showing up in the mess: feminine connection, authenticity, and blocked intimacy58:49: Embodying the full range of femininityConnect with Francesca: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/followyour_bliss_https://www.instagram.com/anamcararetreats/https://www.anamcarahealingretreats.com/Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!Amy Edwards and I start this episode discussing the most Austin way possible to meet someone… at a pussy casting workshop. 😂 But from there, we dive DEEP into sobriety, psychedelics, emotional availability, intimacy, dopamine, performance, reinvention, and what it means to feel alive without constantly chasing the next high.Amy opens up about cheating in past marriages, seeking validation through sex and alcohol, exploring polyamory, healing through psychedelics, and ultimately discovering that what she truly wanted wasn't more experiences… it was deeper intimacy.We also talk:sober sex & intimacy: the terror, the awkwardness, & the beautydopamine depletion & alcohol women reinventing themselves later in life learning to trust yourself finding bliss in ordinary moments growth through discomfort psychedelics: 5-MeO DMT & ayahuasca social media visibility + hate comments It's funny. It's real. It may lovingly call out the thing you've been calling a spiritual practice when it's actually just avoidance.🎧Press play. By the end of this convo, Amy and I were high on life... no substances required.  Timestamps:00:00: Our pussy casting workshop meet cute04:00: Sex as validation: decades of performing without knowing it07:00: The Molly night that changed everything (& why she chose intimacy over polyamory)15:00: Four years sober: the dopamine truth nobody tells you22:00: Sober sex and the first play party nervous breakdown38:00: Psychedelics, mescaline in Guatemala, and integration that takes months41:00: Losing her literal voice during divorce... and healing it45:00: Showing up on Instagram: the viral pile-on, the wardrobe room, the commitment anyway55:00: Treat life as an experimentConnect with Amy:Sign up for her newsletter: https://mailchi.mp/amyedwards/sign-up-to-amys-newsletterhttps://amyedwards.info/ Website: www.amyedwards.comFight for Her https://www.fightfortheforgotten.org/fight-for-herInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/realamyedwardsTikTok:⁠⁠⁠   https://www.tiktok.com/@themagicbabeYouTube: https://www.youtube.com/c/theamyedwardsshowThe Amy Edwards Podcast: https://open.spotify.com/show/5SdojmuUpXfksyQD8gbXJm?si=ad0825df9ac84f55Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!Ashley Spence is the founder of the DNA Justice Project, the author of Silent Witness: How DNA Uncovered the Truth and Empowered my Healing, and a survivor whose story I won't spoil here because it deserves to be heard in her own voice.What I will say: this is a conversation about what it takes to come back home to your body, your voice, and your faith after something tries to take all three. If this topic feels close to home, take care of yourself as you listen.Connect with Ashley:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ashleyespence/DNA Justice Project: https://www.dnajusticeproject.org/Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!Alexa Bowditch gets into what happens to a relationship when life hits hard... loss, motherhood, hormone imbalances, and identity shifts.We talk about: • navigating grief and miscarriage inside a marriage • what “don't leave the table” really means in long-term relationships • how postpartum hormones impact libido, mood, and connection • rebuilding intimacy after a baby when you don’t feel like yourself • scheduling sex (and yes, building a sex dungeon 👀) • GLP-1 microdosing, metabolic health, and hormone regulation • PT-141 and the truth about low libido in women • the connection between hormones, the nervous system, and desireThis isn’t surface-level relationship advice. It's real-life... what happens when you're exhausted, grieving, touched out, dealing with hormonal shifts, and still want to stay connected to your partner?We also get into the uncomfortable truth that some relationship problems are actually biological, not just emotional or mental.If you're navigating postpartum changes, low libido, hormone imbalance, or trying to rebuild intimacy in your relationship… press play.Timestamps:02:56 Grief, Loss, and New Beginnings05:52 The Journey of Motherhood08:56 Reclaiming Identity and Intimacy11:46 Building Supportive Relationships14:55 Finding Ease in Life18:06 Creating Space for Intimacy21:01 The Role of Community in Healing24:03 Embracing the Complexity of Womanhood26:46 The Importance of Self-Care and Reclamation36:00 Creating a Space for Intimacy42:00 Exploring Microdosing and Hormonal Health46:13 Understanding Peptides and Their Benefits57:54 Navigating Relationships and Personal GrowthConnect with Alexa:https://www.instagram.com/alexabowditchhttps://linktr.ee/alexabowditchSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!"It's the difference between fast food and a more refined meal. You can have a kinky fantasy and just scratch the itch. Or you can bring inquiry, intentionality, and start seeing many layers." Rina on tantric vs. conventional bdsmWhat if bondage isn't about pain, punishment, or being "bad," but about devotion, safety, and coming home to yourself?Shibari artist and ritualist Rina Trevi joins to chat rope, tantra, regulated danger, shadow play, and why chosen vulnerability hits differently than forced vulnerability.We get into: - Why Shibari can be deeply healing - The difference between kink and conscious power exchange - Trauma, surrender, & somatic memory - How erotic play can free you from victimhood - Connection without scripts, goals, or performance - Cervical orgasms, tears, & divine unionThis one is spiritual, sensual, & psychological...buckle up, buttercup.Timestamps:01:05 – What is Shibari, really? Origins, shame, & vulnerability03:45 – Choosing vulnerability vs being forced into it06:30 – Surrender, trauma, & the body's response to restraint09:40 – Childhood wounds, safety, & somatic memory12:10 – When Shibari becomes healing (and when it doesn't)15:00 – Fast food sex vs sacred meal18:10 – Where kinks come from (trauma, archetypes, & mystery)21:30 – Playing with shadow, power, & taboo safely25:40 – Regulated danger & why extremes feel intimate28:55 – How to explore fantasies with a partner (without shock)31:00 – Aftercare, integration, & altered states33:30 – Vipassana, cocooning, & spiritual restraint36:00 – Tantra vs goal-oriented sex39:30 – Devotion, presence, & erotic creativity42:30 – Cervical orgasms, tears, & divine union45:00 – Lightning round: truth & devotion46:20 – Rina's books: Shibari as a Ritual & Freedom BoundConnect with Rina:https://www.instagram.com/rina_trevihttps://www.vulnerabilitycoaching.com/aboutSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!Your childhood doesn’t disappear when you start dating...it gets activated.In this episode of Sex, Drugs, & Soul, I am joined by attachment and relational healing coach Genell Gorman for a candid, unscripted conversation focused on mother wounds, father wounds, attachment styles, CPTSD, and how early emotional experiences shape adult relationships.Together, we explore... • The “oh sh*t” moment when you realize your dating patterns mirror childhood wounds • How emotionally unavailable parents create anxious, avoidant, or disorganized attachment styles • Trauma bonding vs. genuine chemistry • Why chaos can be mistaken for love and how to break that cycle • Healing without becoming emotionally armored or hyper-independent • Whether you need to “heal first” or if heal occurs through relationships • Reparenting, nervous system regulation, and reclaiming your personal powerThis episode is for anyone navigating dating, intimacy, or healing, who is tired of repeating the same story and ready to choose love from a place regulation rather than longing.Timestamps:00:00 Intro & grounding02:20 The “oh sh*t” moment — childhood shaping adult love05:50 Father wounds & emotionally unavailable partners09:40 Loss, abandonment, & nervous system imprinting13:20 Trauma bonding &  attraction to unavailable partners17:30 CPTSD, codependency, & self-abandonment22:00 Anxious vs. avoidant dynamics27:30 Isolation, hyper-independence, & fears of intimacy 32:00 Chemistry vs slow-burn safety36:00 Chaos does not equal love41:00 Cutting off parents vs. establishing boundaries & compassion47:30 Inner child healing & reparenting51:30 Can relationships heal us?55:00 Final reflections & encouragementConnect with Genell:https://www.genellgorman.com/https://www.instagram.com/genell.gorman/Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!“Real power is speaking your desire without being attached to the outcome.”What if the real power isn’t getting what you want but having the courage to ask for it?In this episode, Dennis Hull joins to talk about sovereignty, desire, boundaries, rejection, and why attachment to outcome quietly runs so many of our lives. We unpack the philosophy behind tantra play spaces, the difference between safety and sovereignty, and why real community can’t be built online alone.This is a conversation about pleasure without performance, asking without expectation, and learning how to stay present even when you hear no.Messy. Honest. Deeply human.Connect with DennisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/itsdennishull/Website: https://www.dennishull.com/Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!"Trauma is not what happens to us, but what we hold inside in the absence of an empathetic witness. The salvation, then, is to be found in the body..."What if trauma isn’t something to heal or release but something that formed intelligently in response to life?In this episode, I sit down with Will Rezin of Trauma & Somatics for a deep, grounding conversation on trauma, attachment, procrastination, nervous system regulation, and why so many of us never actually feel completion, only “what’s next?”This episode isn’t about fixing yourself. It’s about understanding how you formed and what becomes possible when survival isn’t the only goal anymore.🎧 Timestamps:00:00 – Intro & why this conversation matters 02:00 – What trauma actually is (and isn’t) 08:45 – Outcomes, productivity, & pressure to perform 12:30 – Why completion never lands 15:40 – Attachment styles in the body 19:30 – Anxious vs avoidant vs disorganized  24:20 – Earned secure & nervous system repatterning 28:40 – Story follows state 31:00 – Why “safe space” language can backfire 40:20 – Boundaries as skills, not traits 44:00 – Dogs, co-regulation, & Boudreaux  49:30 – Trauma & Somatics trainings Free Anthony de Mello Lecture: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1pttMPB1EPdXjIkj3q-ZQ6GCuOQfhGa5k/viewThe next cohort of Attachment & Somatics begins on Feb 13th, 2026, with the first class scheduled for Feb 16th. The next cohort of Trauma & Somatics begins May 2026.🌐 Connect with Will:https://traumaandsomatics.comhttps://www.instagram.com/willrezinhttps://www.instagram.com/traumaandsomaticshttps://substack.com/@traumaandsomatics https://traumaandsomatics.com/the-somara-collective/ (Membership)Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!“The longer you stay on the wrong train, the more expensive it is to get home.”In this episode, I sit down with Leola, tantra teacher, bestselling author, and host of Talk Tantra To Me, for a conversation that gently roasts manifestation culture, flirts with devotion, and asks an interesting question: What if desire is how God speaks to us?We explore:- Why your desires are rarely about the thing (sorry)- How control issues are often just trust wounds in a trench coat- The difference between egoic craving and soul-level longing- Why “manifesting harder” might actually be anxiety in lingerie- How surrender doesn’t mean giving up — it means giving over- God as lover, leader, and the one who may lovingly wreck your vision board- Why the body is still the most avoided spiritual teacher in the room- And what happens when you stop seducing outcomes and start seducing truth...This episode is for you if..- You’re tired of forcing things to happen- You secretly suspect desire isn’t the villain- Your vision board needs a gentle exorcism- Or you’re ready to trust something wiser than your egoIt’s deep. It’s funny. It may lovingly call you out. Listen if you’re ready to stop begging the universe & start having an honest conversation with it.🎧 Press play. Listen to the whisper...don't wait for the yell. Timestamps:01:30 – What’s making Leola feel most alive right now06:30 – The Three-Minute Game (intimacy exercise)09:45 – God as a domme + resistance to surrender13:20 – Finding God in the body16:00 – Desire vs. egoic craving19:50 – Becoming a slave to desire25:40 – Receiving love & nervous system healing30:15 – Relationship patterns & self-audit33:50 – When a vision dies, grief, & trust38:45 – Trusting the nudge44:30 – Devotion through the tantric lens50:20 – If God had a dating profile…Connect with Leola: Website: talktantratome.comIG: https://www.instagram.com/talktantratome Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!In this episode of Sex, Drugs, & Soul, I sit down with Mayra Leen, author, hypnotherapist, and priestess, for a conversation on presence, feminine integration, desire, intuition, and living outside societal structures.Mayra shares her journey from corporate success and burnout into priestess embodiment, her truth about rest versus aliveness, and why presence itself is the portal to everything we want. Together, we explore money as energy, separating work from worth, non-monogamy and creative relationship models, trusting intuition through play, and the danger of turning healing into a never-ending project.This episode is an invitation to claim arrival, not as an endpoint, but as a lived experience of being here, now, and fully alive.Chapters:00:00 – Welcome + What’s Alive Right Now01:20 – The Priestess Archetype & Collective Awakening05:05 – Corporate Success, Capricorn Energy, & Burnout09:40 – The Moment Everything Shifted11:30 – Dropping Into the Feminine During COVID13:35 – Feminine ≠ Rest Only: Integration Matters15:40 – Soft Girl Era Myths & Common Mistakes17:25 – Rest vs. Aliveness19:50 – Priestess Weekends & Living Ritual22:10 – Money, Devotion, & Being Paid for Being25:45 – Presence as Medicine28:25 – Trusting Intuition & Self-Leadership36:10 – The “Eight Husbands” Concept42:30 – Non-Monogamy, Depth, & Creative Relationships49:50 – Presence as a Portal57:30 – Feeling Emotions & Clearing the Backlog1:01:00 – Claiming Arrival🌐 Connect with Mayra:•⁠  ⁠Website: www.mayraleen.com•⁠  ⁠Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/mayraleen/✨ Offer for Listeners:Exclusive invitation to Wet, Wild, and Wealthy Online Membership.Use code WETWELCOME to receive one month free of live calls with Mayra.Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!“Old keys don’t open new doors, and this year asked me to choose new ones.”In this solo episode of Sex, Drugs, & Soul, I reflect on a year that brought me to my knees and opened my heart.I explore what it means to receive an answered prayer, release old patterns, and choose bold faith over familiar intensity. Through stories of organic love, spiritual curiosity, church rediscovery, vulnerability, sacred eroticism, and inner child healing, this episode invites listeners to slow down, get honest, and align with the life they say they want.Topics include... • Letting go of old keys and opening new doors • Slow-burn love vs. intensity • Faith, integrity, and intentional living • Vulnerability vs. exposure • Stillness, safety, and nervous system regulation • Erotic energy as holy and sacred • Play, presence, and inner child healingThis episode is for anyone standing at the threshold of something new, wondering if they’re brave enough to receive it.Chapters: 00:00 Reflections on 2025: A Year of Transformation02:55 New Beginnings: Embracing Vulnerability in Relationships05:44 Intentional Living: Setting Goals for the New Year08:31 Faith and Spirituality: A Journey of Self-Discovery11:16 The Power of Vulnerability: Building Deeper Connections13:56 Exploring the Intersection of the Erotic and the Holy17:12 The Role of Stillness in Personal Growth19:33 Embracing Playfulness and Choice in LifeSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!“The mask that keeps you from being abandoned is the same one that keeps you from being loved.”This episode is not soft.It’s not performative.And it’s definitely not comfortable.Licensed therapist C.R. Herro returns for one of the most raw, intellectually honest, and emotionally confronting conversations on Sex, Drugs, & Soul to date.We unpack:Why archetypes and masks feel safe but sabotage intimacyThe uncomfortable truth that sex is not loveHow trauma teaches us to outsource safety, worth, and belongingWhy kindness is strength (and intensity is often a red flag)The fantasy of being rescued & the grief of letting it dieWhat it actually means to become your own heroThis is a conversation about responsibility, embodiment, emotional honesty, and the courage it takes to stop performing and start living.🎧 Listen if you’re ready to stop numbing, stop pretending, and start telling yourself the truth.00:00 – Welcome + why this conversation will ruffle feathers 03:00 – What’s turning C.R. on: access, honesty, & emotional availability 07:30 – Why being human is harder than we admit 12:00 – Archetypes vs authenticity: the mask we wear to feel safe 18:00 – The puppet metaphor: why the mask blocks real love 24:00 – Trauma, self-blame, & being crueler to ourselves than others 30:00 – Codependence vs hyper-independence (same wound, different armor) 36:00 – The fantasy of being rescued 42:00 – Sex ≠ love: the most expensive lie 48:00 – Intensity vs kindness (red flags that look like desire) 54:00 – Dropping performance & choosing emotional responsibility 60:00 – The 80th birthday exercise: playing the tape all the way forward 68:00 – Becoming your own hero 75:00 – Love without possession & interdependence 82:00 – Final reflections, integration, & closing wisdomSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!In this powerful conversation, Spencer Coursen, veteran, threat management expert, bestselling author, and host of Coursen’s Corner, opens up about the journey from trauma to healing, and what it truly means to “win the war within.”Spencer opens up about his journey from childhood abuse and combat trauma to finding triumph through various healing modalities. We explore the critical differences between instinct and intuition, the "pussification" of the modern male, and how to build authentic self-confidence. Spencer also shares the story behind his darkest moment, the service dog who saved his life, his profound experiences with psychedelics (Psilocybin and Ibogaine), and how they catalyzed integrating years of therapy into true healing.Whether you are a veteran, a survivor of childhood trauma, or someone looking to strengthen your mental resilience, this video provides a roadmap for moving from a "badge of trauma" to a "lighthouse of hope." Watch until the end to hear Spencer’s incredible dragon story and his advice on dating, setting boundaries, and why honoring your instincts is a radical act of self-protection.In This Episode, You’ll Learn About:- Complex PTSD and how "big T" and "little T" traumas compound- How Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) helps reframe past perspectives- The role of Psilocybin and Ibogaine in healing deep-seated shame and guilt- The vital distinction between Safety vs. Security and Fear vs. Anxiety- Practical tips for men on building authentic masculinity and for women on vetting partners by honoring instinctsSpencer’s new book, Winning the War Within, releases June 26, 2026.If you have ever wondered what heals trauma or how to navigate the long road of healing from Complex PTSD (CPTSD), this deep dive offers both professional insight and raw, personal experience.Connect with Spencer:Website: https://www.spencercoursen.com/Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/s.coursen/YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLxwzst3QHsORLLRzluNw7s6LW0G_O6HZc The Safety Trap on Amazon: https://www.spencercoursen.com/the-safety-trapSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!Alexis & I discuss leaving the hard grind of the hypermasculine and slipping into a slower, fuller, more feminine way of being. She opens up about the night ayahuasca called her in, the decision to remove her IUD after twelve years, and how her libido and emotional depth surged back the moment she started listening to her body again.We delve into the 10-second rule that draws men into deeper communication, the breath that pulls you out of survival mode, and the kind of softening that makes connection feel hotter, safer, and more genuine.This is a rich, grounded, sensual dive into desire, self-mastery, nervous system truth, and what happens when you finally let your body lead.Chapters:00:00 - Introduction01:22 - Self-Mastery & Shifting into the Feminine07:18 - Medicine vs. Escape09:42 - Communication Shifts After Softening11:09 - Heard, Helped, or Held?13:45 - Curiosity Over Defensiveness15:30 - Nervous System Regulation Tools20:02 - Polarity & Inspiring Masculine Presence24:30 - Enthusiasm: The Feminine Superpower27:25 - Setting Men Up to Win32:10 - Speaking Desires Clearly34:00 - Rebuilding Trust After Rupture40:10 - Truth-Telling & Emotional Clarity45:20 - Clarity in Dating & Relationships53:02 - Expanding the Capacity to Feel58:16 - Being Human & Remembering Why We're HereConnect with Alexis: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/alexisquiterioWebsite: https://stan.store/alexisquiterioSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!For the 100th episode, I sit down with Courtney Johnson, a branding expert, author, and former ghostwriter who makes personal branding feel like emotional foreplay, rather than just marketing.We get into the fear of being seen, the cringe, the emotional work behind content creation, and why consistency is the real magic. Courtney shares how an accidental six-gram mushroom trip rewired her life, how psychedelics fuel her creativity, and why microdosing for business sometimes beats any strategy.We talk manifestation versus action, breaking up with the spiritual community, identifying your value above other values, emotional intelligence in the age of AI, and why building a personal brand is basically training your nervous system to be witnessed.Short, spicy, a little feral, and perfect for anyone who wants personal branding advice that actually lands.Timestamps00:00 Celebrating Milestones and Embracing Cringe02:52 The Emotional Journey of Personal Branding06:00 Exploring Psychedelics and Personal Transformation08:58 Breaking Up with the Spiritual Community12:04 Marketing as an Art Form14:53 The Power of Consistency in Podcasting29:51 Balancing Masculine and Feminine Energies in Content Creation33:04 The Challenges of Writing a Book36:32 Embracing Cringe and Feedback in Growth38:02 Claiming Desires and Overcoming Blocks40:59 The Importance of Structure for Creativity43:35 Being 100% Human: Embracing Flaws and Growth44:02 Shifting Self-Talk and Beliefs for Success50:03 Letting Go of Toxic Relationships52:14 Pursuing Dreams and Making an ImpactConnect with Courtney:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/courtlynnjohnson/TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@courtney..johnsonCourtney's Content Club: https://stan.store/affiliates/926b55e4-c2a2-48d7-bc3e-723377fbd413Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!In this episode, I sit down with Lora Cheadle, former attorney turned betrayal recovery coach, somatic therapist, intuitive channel, and author of FLAUNT! and It’s Not Burnout, It’s Betrayal.And this conversation goes everywhere: infidelity, identity collapse, somatic grief, self-abandonment, the gift inside the rupture, spiritual downloads, sacred travel, Egypt codes, plant medicine, and the radical art of rebuilding your truth from the inside out.Lora shares the story of discovering her husband’s 15-year, multi-partner affair… and how it became the catalyst for BOTH of them to dismantle old identities, release generational trauma, and rebuild a marriage on truth instead of performance.Timestamps:00:00 – What’s turning Lora on in life 01:05 – Expectation vs. desire: how your inner state shapes your reality 03:00 – Lora’s transition from attorney → burnout → betrayal coach 04:20 – The moment she discovered a 15-year affair 05:30 – Rebuilding identity after betrayal & staying in the marriage 06:30 – The REAL first steps after discovering infidelity 07:50 – Blame, shame, shock, & why you must stop before you act 08:40 – Self-betrayal, “good girl” conditioning & performance mode 09:40 – Knowing something vs. embodying it 11:55 – Reawakening intuition, somatics, & energy healing13:30 – Did we choose our lessons? The game board of life 14:20 – The Librarians: Lora’s channeled guides & Akashic lessons 16:00 – Understanding your soul story like a TV series 17:20 – Co-creating your reality with cosmic free will 19:00 – The gifts inside betrayal (for both partners) 22:00 – Rebuilding authentic relationships without the masks 23:40 – The FLAUNT! Framework (Find your Fetish → Trust your Truth) 26:00 – How to accept unconditionally without sacrificing yourself 27:20 – Navigating the non-linear nature of healing 28:30 – Dark night of the ego vs dark night of the soul 29:30 – How to rebuild self-trust after collapse31:45 – Creating spaciousness to receive guidance 33:00 – Letting yourself evolve + writing in cycles38:40 – Sacred travel: Egypt, Sekhmet, Dendera & receiving codes 40:20 – Mystical experiences + light language activation 43:00 – Plant medicine journeys (San Pedro) & consciousness work 45:00 – Meditation styles for ADHD, anxious, or embodied minds 46:20 – Holding compassion when you’ve been the betrayer too 47:30 – What is truly “profane”? 48:15 – Life as an experiment + playing with the messinessConnect with Lora: Website - https://loracheadle.com/Download Lora’s Betrayal Recovery Guide: betrayalrecoveryguide.comSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!What do you call a pastor who trades Bible verses for breathwork and starts preaching the gospel of pleasure?In this episode, I chat with Anthony Michael, a former pastor turned tantra teacher, community builder, and “minister of pleasure.” Together, we dive into the intersection of religion, sexuality, and sacred embodiment.From his 17 years in ministry to creating tantric play parties and a thriving conscious community in Houston, Anthony shares the radical journey of transforming guilt into grace and discovering how sex can be a prayer and pleasure can be devotion.🎧 Inside:What happens when a pastor discovers TantraHealing religious shame and sexual repressionWhy “safe masculine presence” makes the feminine bloomHow divorce, desire, and devotion became his catalystsFinding God in orgasmThe divine masculine, safe presence, and embodied leadership Rewriting your gospel through love, wholeness & desireThe surprising overlap between theology and sexualityA conversation for anyone who’s ever felt torn between God and pleasure, holiness and wholeness. Spoiler: they might just be the same thing.Timestamps:00:00 – Welcome & “What’s turning you on right now?” 02:00 – From pastor to tantra: the safe masculine presence 05:30 – Growing up in the church & early call to ministry 09:00 – AOL chatrooms, Jesus moments, and hearing “the call” 11:00 – Seminary stories & inclusive churches 13:30 – Divorce, sexual awakening, & first casual encounters 17:00 – Getting fired from church  20:00 – Redefining sex, casual connection, and healing codependency 22:30 – Meeting Samantha on Tinder & birth of Houston’s Tantra community 26:00 – From sermons to sacred sex: ministry of pleasure 31:00 – Codependency, control, & inner work 33:00 – Reimagining Jesus, Christ consciousness, & inner divinity 37:00 – God in the bedroom: “Jesus would fuck—and he’d be good at it” 40:00 – Mary Magdalene, Gnostic Gospels, & divine union 44:00 – Creating safe spaces for sensuality & shadow 46:30 – Potential vs. kinetic energy: the physics of a play party 49:00 – Breath, sound, & grounding in Tantra 50:00 – What his younger preacher self would say now 51:00 – If I preached today… “The gospel of oneness and sex as sacred” 01:02:00 – Divine masculine/feminine and shifting collective energiesConnect with Anthony:IG: https://www.instagram.com/anthony._michael/Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!In this episode, I am joined by Kayse Gehret to dive into the transformative world of microdosing for healing — from psilocybin’s subtle power to its impact on nervous system regulation and emotional resilience. Kaycee opens up about her personal journey using microdosing protocols to move through a seizure disorder.Together, we explore how psilocybin can support those navigating anxiety, grief, and the slow unraveling of trauma.From dream work to community integration, Kayse and I shed light on how healing nervous system dysregulation through microdosing can open the door to deeper intimacy, creativity, and connection with spirit.Whether you’re curious, cautious, or already journeying with plant medicine, this conversation invites you to tune into your body’s intelligence and the whispers of your soul.Timestamps:00:00 – Welcome & playing in the dirt  02:30 – Kayse’s origin story: from seizures to psychedelics 05:00 – The nervous-system magic of microdosing 07:10 – Beyond psilocybin: Amanita & San Pedro medicine 08:30 – Emotional & spiritual shifts people experience 09:50 – Intuitive vs structured dosing 11:00 – How to begin safely if you’re nervous 12:20 – Building the Microdosing for Healing community 14:00 – Intention setting & the frequency of feeling 16:10 – Human Design, energetics & mushroom medicine 19:30 – Integration & dream work 22:30 – Recurring dreams & reconnecting with the wild self 26:00 – Big myths & misunderstandings about microdosing 30:00 – Can microdosing help reduce pharmaceuticals? 31:10 – What people come to heal – from anxiety to fertility to faith 33:00 – Mushrooms & grief as a path to connection beyond death 36:40 – Beautiful client story of ancestral communication  41:40 – Training the next generation of microdosing guides 44:40 – Egypt downloads & divine feminine activations 49:20 – Grief as a gateway to spirit connection 53:00 – Lightning round + final medicine message: Connect with Kayse:Website: https://www.microdosingforhealing.com/IG: https://www.instagram.com/kaysegehret/Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!In this episode, Liv Pavlov, dakini, tantric guide, and sensual alchemist, returns for a third round to explore tantric bodywork. We dive into what it means to be a dakini, how trauma and desire manifest in the body, and how presence, breath, and pleasure can become a form of medicine.Liv shares her four-step sensual medicine therapy process, how to expand your capacity to feel, and the truth about the body’s innate wisdom to heal through sound, movement, and conscious touch.Timestamps:00:00 – Welcoming back Liv Pavlov: the first three-peat guest 01:24 – What is a Dakini? 03:37 – Tantra defined: weaving together all parts of the self06:02 – The deeper purpose of tantric bodywork beyond the erotic07:28 – How to bring more presence into intimacy08:54 – The power of breath and awareness09:44 – Liv’s 4-step Sensual Medicine Therapy method12:06 – Eros as life-force energy: reclaiming your erotic aliveness13:10 – Tantric practices for mothers and busy women15:34 – Mirror work and five-minute sensual practices16:43 – Yoni eggs, postpartum healing, and energetic cleansing18:08 – Trauma and ancestral memory in the body20:23 – How Tantric touch releases tension and stored emotion22:46 – Why the body doesn’t need the story to heal24:39 – What to know before receiving Tantric Bodywork26:16 – The naturalness of Tantra and returning to ancient wisdom28:09 – Lightning Round: hips, pleasure, and peaking practices30:19 – How to work with Liv and learn moreConnect with Liv:IG: https://www.instagram.com/livlovetantraWebsite: https://www.oliviapavlov.com/Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!Ever felt like you’re too much? Too emotional, too intense, too sensitive for this world that keeps telling you to “get over it”? What if your sensitivity is actually your superpower?In this conversation with Todd Smith, we discuss what it’s like to feel everything so deeply and how to transform that sensitivity into strength. We explore routines that keep you grounded, what it truly means to take care of yourself, and how to stop losing yourself in the name of love or approval.This episode is for the feelers, the deep thinkers, and the ones who are learning that being sensitive doesn’t make you weak. Timestamps: 0:00 Intro9:00 The Origins of High Sensitivity10:48 Pillars of Stress Management for HSPs15:55 Outer Work: Creating Balance in Daily Life22:05 Inner Work: Emotional Awareness and Acceptance27:00 Exploring Triggers and Reactions30:58 Finding Freedom Through Questioning Beliefs39:57 Exploring Consideration in Relationships42:13 Self-Reflection and Personal Responsibility45:13 Understanding People-Pleasing Dynamics50:18 The Connection Between HSPs and People-Pleasing52:00 Navigating Intimacy and ConnectionConnect with Todd: https://trueinnerfreedom.com/Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!This week, Austin-based artist Jon McKenzie is on the pod!We explore how creativity becomes emotional nutrition, the importance of expressing your voice in a noisy world, his thoughts on AI, and how recovery ignited a new level of purpose and dedication to his craft.Timestamps:00:00 — Introduction: From tattoos to artistry & recovery02:00 — How Jon’s apprenticeship shaped his creative ethos04:00 — Getting sober in Austin & the turning point that changed everything07:45 — The first commission piece and finding purpose after detox10:30 — Balancing paid work with creative passion12:15 —  Art as “emotional nutrition” and creating amidst chaos15:00 — The trap of productivity vs. the call to create from the heart17:00 — The purpose of art: conversation, curiosity, and connection20:00 — When clients see you in your work (even when you don’t)22:45 — Anxiety, childhood, and art as an outlet for emotion26:00 — Shifting from realism toward emotional expression28:30 — Revisiting the inner child through art31:00 — Old-school inspiration, vintage ads, & retro aesthetics33:00 — AI & art: tool or threat?38:00 — The optimism we need in a pessimistic world41:00 — Safety, tattoos, and the art of being unapologetically yourself44:00 — Values, courage, and creating what you believe in48:00 — Behind-the-scenes of Jon’s next chapter & how to follow his workConnect with Jon: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/jonmckenzie/https://www.instagram.com/varsitywalls/Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!A little soulful Sunday, featuring my girl Veronica Kelly, is coming out a day early in case you want to hop into her free event, 'Finally Breaking Free,' which starts on October 13th!What happens when you start choosing and feeding faith over fear?In this heart-opening episode, I sit down with my soul sister Veronica Kelly, a Self-Love and Freedom Master Coach, to explore what it means to trust divine timing, heal your relationship with your body, and walk through the fire (literally) with grace.We talk about receiving signs from spirit, breaking free from perfectionism, and finding safety, acceptance, and love for our bodies after years of judgment, diets, and shame.You’ll hear stories of synchronicity, body image healing, and a guided EFT tapping session to help you soften your nervous system and come home to love.Timestamps:00:00 Red Clay Strays, faith, & asking for signs 03:58 Veronica’s early encounters with Jesus 09:25 Faith vs. fear: choosing what you feed 12:32 Baptism, fire, & a miracle in Costa Rica 17:26 Leaving Hollywood to follow a divine calling 24:25 Mold, intuition, & moving through fear 33:08 Stonehenge, sacred sisterhood, & implementing rituals 40:23 God in the bedroom 48:42 Guided EFT tapping 55:19 Healing body image & self-acceptance 58:01 Veronica’s “Finally Breaking Free” challengeConnect with Veronica:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/veronicaajakelly/Website: finallybreakingfree.com Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!“My relationship is the most important aspect of my life. Everything overflows from that. It is the most tangible way of communing with God & experiencing heaven on earth.” #goalsMen’s coach and intimacy guide Jordan Bowditch joins for a playfully sincere, no BS talk on modern masculinity, intentional intimacy, radical honesty, and choosing partnership in today’s world.We get into how he and his wife keep passion alive after kids, navigating grief, their monogamish chapter, sex check-ins, and why scheduling intimacy is a game-changer. We also explore masculine/feminine dynamics, the “good enough partner” philosophy, and how faith and mysticism shape our outlook.Jordan shares personal stories, realistic practices, and insights that make this one both grounded, playful, and valuable... great one for anyone navigating love, dating, sex, and commitment in a modern landscape.Timestamps:00:00 – Icebreaker: What’s turning Jordan on in life right now02:00 – Fatherhood, aliveness, and marriage expansion03:20 – Monogamish marriage and defining their container07:00 – Weekly relationship check-ins & honest communication10:00 – Scheduling sex and keeping intimacy intentional13:00 – Building a sex dungeon (permission to play 😏)18:00 – Relationship practices after kids25:00 – Masculine/feminine dynamics and modern masculinity39:00 – “Good enough love” and relationship clarity44:00 – Deal-makers, deal-breakers, and choosing a partnership48:00 – Shared vision & calling in committed love50:00 – Faith, mysticism, and Jesus56:00 – Jordan’s offerings & playful closingBooks Mentioned:No More Mr Nice Guy - Dr. Robert GloverThe Way of The Superior Man - David DeidaRadical Honesty - Brad BlantonConnect with Jordan:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/jordanbowditch/Website: https://www.universityofman.com/manmeetSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!Some of my favorite quotes from this episode: "Where there's horniness, there's healing..."  & "Vulnerability is the gateway to intimacy."Justin Gottlieb, a sexual freedom coach and tantric facilitator, joins this week for a deep dive into fantasies, tantra, and sexual liberation. We explore...What is Tantra, really? Justin’s take, why it’s not just about sex, and how to apply to everyday lifeHealing through desire: How fantasies can open deeper pathways of self-understanding & unlock deeper intimacy, connection, and healingThe role of vulnerability and why it deepens connectionWhy fantasies aren't random, what they may reveal, & what is possible by exploring themThe difference between keeping fantasies in the mind vs. exploring them in realityHow to talk about fantasies with your partner without blame or shameWhy all events are emotionally neutral, until we assign meaningWhy jealousy is an invitation instead of an enemy & embracing the full spectrum of emotions The truth about taboo fantasiesCreating a safe space for exploration & fantasy fulfillmentJustin’s formula for a fully-lived life: Healing → Exploration → MasteryWhether you're tantra-curious, exploring your edges, or simply love honest conversations about desire, this episode will leave you inspired, informed, and maybe a little turned on. 😉Timestamps02:30 — Justin’s journey: From finance to tantra facilitation08:40 — Family, acceptance, & stepping onto a new path10:20 — Fantasies 101: “Where there’s horniness, there’s healing”12:00 — Curiosity, vulnerability, & sharing fantasies with partners 15:50 — Neutrality & the stories we attach to events18:00 — Taboo fantasies, porn trends, & cultural shame22:30 — Releasing shame and finding safe spaces to share24:45 — Reigniting relationships through communication & fantasies26:10 — Navigating jealousy consciously30:00 — Living truth, leaving others better, & hard conversations36:30 — Tantra retreats, partnership, & expansion41:20 — Introducing tantra & fantasies to your partner45:36 — Awakening, truth, and not settling in relationships47:22 — Healing → Exploration → Mastery51:08 — Staying together for the kids? Honest talk.52:35 — What’s turning Justin on in life right nowConnect with Justin Gottlieb:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tantralovecoach/Website: https://www.tantralovecoach.com/Events & Tantra Love Retreat: https://www.tantralovecoach.com/events/https://www.talktantratome.com/eventsSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!Tantric Daddy Take 2! Dennis Hull returns for an unfiltered conversation on conscious masculinity, emotional availability, and the power of slowing down. We talk about...The emotional toll of hyper-independenceFinding a rhythm between doing and beingThe shadow side of polarity & performanceRest as an act of rebellion in hustle cultureHolding space without trying to fix or rescueDiscomfort as a path to deeper pleasureThe attraction to the unavailableDennis’s transition into stewarding the Naked Soul Society, how he navigates leadership, & what it means to offer presence as a form of protection. This episode is a permission slip to take your hands off the wheel, honor your emotions, and trust your own inner timing. It's also an honest glimpse into the kind of masculinity that doesn’t dominate but protects, witnesses, and honors.Timestamps: 00:00 – Tantric Daddy returns & existential crisis is present04:50 – Rest as rebellion & releasing urgency08:00 – The art of thinking as doing & how creativity brews in silence13:00 – Tantra as energy, not just touch: what true co-creation looks like17:00 – Holding space vs. fixing: the masculine lesson Dennis had to unlearn20:30 – Women as storms, thorns, and sacred experiences24:00 – Control, hyper-independence, & unconscious manipulation27:00 – The “idle boat” metaphor for letting life guide you30:00 – Steak, stillness, & knowing when to flip it32:00 – What’s turning Dennis on in life 36:00 – Stewarding the Naked Soul Society & honoring Leola’s vision40:00 – Shadows, saboteurs, & the real work of integration43:30 – Discomfort as a doorway to pleasure46:00 – Hope, faith, intention, & spiritual cynicism49:00 – ChatGPT as a tool vs. a crutch52:00 – Hyper-independence & the quiet desire to be held55:00 – Why we’re drawn to the unavailable (ouch)57:00 – Polarity, men’s work, & the difference between dance and game60:00 – Daddy wounds, dating patterns, & rewriting the script63:00 – Grace, epiphanies, & healing after the death of a loved oneConnect with DennisInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/itsdennishull/Website: https://www.dennishull.com/Naked Soul Society: https://dennishull.com/naked-soul-societySupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!“Your reality is a result of your nervous system and how you see life. Let’s shift that and be the doms of our lives.” - KimiThis conversation with Kimi Inch, The Creatrix of Erotic Leadership™, is one I’ve been dreaming about for over a year. Kimi is a renowned expert with 20+ years of experience in the realm of intimacy, conscious kink, and unlocking your body’s untapped erotic energy. Featured on prestigious platforms such as The Oprah Winfrey Network, SXSW, Princeton University, and Nightline, Kimi’s goal as a pro-Domme, Somatic Therapist, and Sex-Positive Edu-tainer is to provide a safe and pleasure-filled space for exploring parts of ourselves that we rarely dare to look at.It’s been a heavy week, both individually and collectively, and after we wrapped, she thanked me for my vulnerability and said, “The world doesn’t need more smart… the world needs more heart.” I invite you to explore, be open to possibilities, and press play to discover how conscious kink might weave more heart into your life and, consequently, ripple into the lives of others.Full episode on YouTube. We Explore...▶Being turned on by the taboo▶Kink as a pathway to altered states of consciousness▶Why pain can be of service (and how to alchemize it)▶Ego death, surrender, & liberation in play▶Archetypes, Eros vs. ego, and erotic leadership▶Spanking, chakras, and awakening life force energy▶Dirty talk, erotic language & using your voice▶How to get your man into his heart during sex🕰️ Timestamps02:30 What is Conscious Kink?04:30 Being turned on by taboo & the thrill of aliveness05:45 Heart-centered kink: connection over performance07:30 Why kink scares people09:00 Surrender, ego death, & liberation through play11:00 Mistress Nina Payne: Kimi’s dominatrix persona13:00 Archetypes, eros vs. ego, & reclaiming power23:00 Erotic leadership vs. dominance/submission27:00 Pervertibles: turning everyday life into play29:00 Spanking, kundalini, & chakra awakening31:30 How to get a man into his heart during sex33:00 Alchemizing pain into power35:00 Dirty talk, erotic language, & the power of words40:00 Sacredness in transitions, aftercare, & integrationConnect with Kimi:Website: andmorepresents.comIG: https://www.instagram.com/kimiinch/TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@kimiinchSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!“Sex isn’t everything, but it’s part of everything.”What happens when a virgin bride raised in purity culture becomes a pleasure preacher?In this raw conversation, I sit down with Lauren Elise Rogers, sexuality educator, intimacy coach, and founder of SexEdForYou.com. From growing up in the confines of religious purity culture to reclaiming her voice and becoming a sexuality educator, Lauren embodies the journey of the wounded healer by turning pain into wisdom and shame into possibility.Together, we dive into: Growing up in purity culture and reclaiming sexual autonomy Divorce, loss, and the messy middle of healingRage as a sacred force for healing and transformationNavigating grief, divorce, and the power of reconciliation in relationshipsIndigenous attachment styles and a more expansive view of intimacyTheater and play as revolutionary tools to renegotiate traumaVulnerability, choice, and aftercare as foundations for deeper connectionThe power of play, embodiment, & rewriting trauma through somatic practicesBuilding relationships rooted in choice, freedom, and joyThis episode is for you if you’ve ever questioned the stories you were handed about sex, struggled with loss, or longed to step into a fuller, freer version of yourself.02:25 | Growing up in purity culture, Liberty University, & courtship model 06:30 | Dreams, divorce, & losing everything in the church fallout 09:00 | Basement floor epiphany: from shame to “what’s missing?” 11:20 | Mary Magdalene, Council of Nicaea, & reclaiming faith15:20 | Attachment theory, ancestors, & the “cloud of witnesses” 19:20 | “Sex is not everything, it’s just part of everything” 22:40 | Rage, repair, & renegotiation with her ex 27:50 | Play, theater roots, & rewriting trauma through somatics 34:00 | Client story: pushing back & reclaiming her voice 42:40 | Dating apps & divine timing 46:30 | Lobby sparks, suitcase moment, & the first kiss 48:14 | The 8-second kiss & body chemistry magic 51:07 | From “don’ts” to hell-yes choicesConnect with Lauren:Website: https://sexedforyou.com/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sex_ed_for_you/The Partnership Podcast:https://open.spotify.com/show/4svbTJuHOgI9r1BLJSNGKy?si=dAb4RT-OSFOViojsFzf_IQSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!Can music heal anxiety? In this conversation, Sammi Sadicario, vocalist, voice coach, and radiant creative, shares her powerful transformation from Jewish roots to a profound connection with Jesus and how she is navigating this shift in ideology. Through music, neuroscience, and spirituality, Sammi reveals how voice becomes a sacred tool for healing, identity, and awakening.We explore:How singing and sound regulate the nervous system and heal anxietyThe science behind vocal vibration, vagus nerve activation, & emotional releaseCultural identity, reparenting, and the courage to evolve spirituallyUsing voice as a portal to presence, purpose, and Divine connectionThe “messy middle” of transformation, creativity, and soul expressionHow faith, music, and frequency help shift emotions and open the heart.This episode is for you if you’ve ever struggled with anxiety, questioned your beliefs, or longed to reconnect with your voice—both literally and spiritually.✨ Watch now to discover your voice as medicine.👉 Don’t forget to like, subscribe, and share with someone ready to reclaim their voice and rewrite their story.Time Stamps: 00:00 Intro – Anxiety, Voice, & Relationships02:54 Spiritual Awakening Through Music05:58 Cultural Identity & Faith Deconstruction08:58 The Messy Middle of Creative Transformation12:07 How Music Impacts Emotions15:05 Frequency Healing & Sound as Medicine18:01 Creative Process & Divine Downloads31:41 Music, Lyrics & Emotional Alchemy33:04 Singing for Nervous System Regulation34:30 Vagus Nerve & The Power of Voice36:51 Collective Consciousness & Sacred Expression39:50 Voice as a Healing Tool for Trauma41:39 Authenticity vs Fame: Staying True44:50 Reclaiming Self Through Sound51:12 Boundaries, Relationships & Visibility55:05 Personal Growth Through Faith & Voice56:59 Voice, Spirituality & Intimacy IntegrationConnect with Sammi:IG: https://www.instagram.com/sammithesirenYouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@thevoiceexpertSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!In this heart-opening, libido-reviving, shame-shedding convo, I sit down with Jenny Braxton, a somatic sex, love, and relationship coach and founder of Pussy-Centered Living. We cannonball straight into the deep end (no weather chit-chat here) to talk about sexless marriages, postpartum pain, desire dips, and the radical reclamation of our sensuality.00:00 Cannonballing into sexless marriage + libido convo02:29 Jenny’s postpartum libido crash + painful sex & healing journey06:19 Responsibility, sexual shame, and reclaiming desire11:55 From pain to portal: Jenny’s sexual awakening + self-pleasure path19:28 Birth as ecstasy + discovering Mama Gena & Pussy: A Reclamation26:49 What is Pussy-Centered Living? Reclaiming the word & the wisdom32:31 Emotions, ragegasms, & the full spectrum feminine41:16 Pleasure as a nervous system regulator49:03 Simple first steps to connect with pussy53:07 Life, love, and business ripple effects of pussy powerConnect with Jenny: Website: https://www.jennybraxton.com/about IG: https://www.instagram.com/pusssy.centered.livingSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!Before the next season kicks off, we are mixing it up! In this bonus episode, I chat with Marvin of Filthy Little Secrets! Filthy Little Secrets is a podcast where real, everyday women get real about sex to shatter stigma and trample taboo—one candid conversation at a time.This conversation feels like church, confession, and a late-night skinny dip all in one! We get into... ✦ What happens when you stop pretending to be the “good girl” and start living as your fully expressed self✦Writing as a ritual of reclamation✦Using sex as a spell, pleasure as prayer, and storytelling as shadow work✦Body image, grief, and the power of being deeply seen✦My first tantra temple experience (I was nervous AF!)We’re talking taboo, transformation, and the kind of intimacy that tastes like freedom. Whether you’re healing religious shame, redefining what turns you on, or just curious how I went from cybersex in AOL chatrooms to sacred seduction and spiritual growth… this one’s for you.Expect laughter, truth bombs, a little blushing, and a whole lot of permission.0:00 – Opening Confession + Childhood Roots6:00 – First Experiences with Cybersex & Early Shame14:00 – Religious Programming & Sexuality23:00 – Discovery of Tantra + First Temple Experience31:00 – Writing the Book as a Healing Portal39:00 – Sugar Daddies, Seduction, and Sovereignty47:00 – Body Image, Being Seen, and Sacred Touch54:00 – Grief, Loss, and Spiritual Awakening1:00:00 – Erotic Storytelling + Reclaiming the VoiceListen & Subscribe to Filthy Little Secrets:Website: https://filthylittlesecrets.com/Spotify Link: https://open.spotify.com/show/5nWVlbE1EIgOm0MNWsgzGA?si=373adb3365464b91Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/filthy-little-secrets/id1809281715Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!In this powerful episode of Sex, Drugs, & Soul, we go all in on transformational sex, shamanic intimacy, and sacred union with luminous healer and modern shaman Juan Es Alzate.We explore:💋 The 4 types of sex: procreative, recreational, restorative, & transformational🌀 What makes sex “shamanic” and how intention, breath, and energy change everything💓 Inner union & the dance of the masculine and feminine within🌬️ Solo pleasure practices & the magic of self-sourced love🌎 The Aquarian Age, global chaos, and the power of choosing love over fear💫 How to reconnect to your wholeness and remember that you are the miracleThis one is part medicine, part masterclass, and a reminder of your divine erotic truth.👉 Don’t forget to like, subscribe, & share with a fellow sacred rebel.#sacredsex #shamanicsexuality #tantra #soulsex #transformationalsex #spiritualgrowth #innerunion #pleasurealchemy #aquarianage #healingthroughtantra00:00 Setting Intentions and Invocations07:46 Exploring the Four Types of Sex12:16 Transformational Sex and Healing16:28 Solo Practices and Energy Circulation23:02 The Inner Union of Masculine and Feminine27:15 Self-Pleasure and Inner Harmony29:04 Exploring Self-Discovery Through Touch31:26 Navigating Chaos and Transformation35:18 The Detox of Society and Individuality38:50 Moving from Love: A Call to Action42:53 Reconnecting with Our Inner Angels48:20 Practices for Emotional Release and Growth53:33 Embracing the Present Moment of HealingConnect with Juan:Website - https://www.luminoushealer.com/Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/juan.es.alzate/Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!What happens when you mix East Texas charm, soulful wisdom, and a baddie on a mission to stay balanced in a chaotic world? You get this heart-opening convo with Josh Brinkman.We explore it all from healing and happiness to the woo-woo wonder of soul contracts and full moon energy spikes.In this episode, we talk…✦ What balance really looks like in messy, magical real life✦ How your words impact water, your body, and your beliefs✦ Turning pain into rocket fuel and heartbreak into growth✦ Soul contracts, déjà vu, and angel kisses from beyond✦ Coming out stories, strong moms, and Bible Belt resilience✦ Masculine vs feminine energy (and how to protect your soft center)✦ Plus: A juicy lightning round of questions you didn’t know you needed.00:00 | Finding Balance in Life03:03 | The Power of Positive Thinking06:05 | Happiness: A Personal Journey08:59 | Manifestation and Intentions12:05 | The Role of Relationships in Growth14:59 | Navigating Grief and Loss17:55 | Signs and Synchronicities20:50 | The Nature of Happiness23:40 | Soul Contracts and Life Choices38:13 | Exploring Soul Contracts and Family Connections41:01 | Intuition and Energetic Connections43:09 | Reconnecting with Family and Personal Growth45:30 | Navigating Identity and Coming Out51:09 | Balancing Masculine and Feminine Energies53:17 | Lightning Round: Quickfire Questions and InsightsMentioned in the Pod:Emoto Water Experiments"You Are The Placebo" by Dr. Joe Dispenza👇 If you love convos about healing, happiness, and real-deal soul growth, don’t forget to like, subscribe, and drop a comment below. 💖Connect with Josh:https://www.instagram.com/jshbrnkmn/Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!“When courage overcomes habit, your story begins to change.”In this episode, I chat with Dr. Jason Giles—addiction medicine specialist, author, speaker, and a man who has walked both sides of the story.Once a high-achieving anesthesiologist addicted to fentanyl, Dr. Giles opens up about the addiction, the rock-bottom moment that changed everything, and how he has since helped more than 10,000 patients overcome substance use disorders.We dive into the future of addiction medicine and explore:🔥 The power of story: how the narratives we tell can trap or transform us🧠 Why healing requires presence, not perfection🍄 Psychedelics as Windex for your beliefs🪞 Letting go of outdated identities & investing past pain into future power📱 Mindless scrolling, dopamine traps, & the algorithmic illusion of control🧬 Why intuition isn’t mystical🤖 How AI could become your digital accountability buddyIf you’ve ever wondered whether it’s possible to rewrite your life’s narrative… this episode is your invitation.00:00 Introduction to Addiction and Personal Journey00:52 The Role of Trauma in Addiction & The Story We Tell Ourselves02:59 Dr. Giles' Journey into Addiction Medicine08:50 The Descent into Addiction14:39 The Turning Point and Recovery20:26 The Impact of Psychedelics on Healing25:58 The Intersection of Technology and Addiction Recovery31:44 The Importance of Intuition and Self-Reflection37:28 Navigating Life Changes and Personal Growth43:15 Conclusion and Future DirectionsConnect with Dr. Giles:Website: http://drjasongiles.comLinkedIn: linkedin.com/in/drjasongilesInstagram: http://instagram.com/drjasongilesSubstack: http://drjasongiles.substack.comYouTube: http://youtube.com/drjasongilesX: http://x.com/drjasongilesSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!What happens when you blend hillbilly roots, sex magic, grief alchemy, and divine priestess play? A whole-ass tantric resurrection. In this deliciously raw episode, I sit down with pleasure priestess and tantric healer Tiff Love for a no-holds-barred convo on reclaiming our truth, embodying our sensuality, and integrating the fragmented pieces of our past for wholeness.We dive into…🌑 Owning your “golden shadow,” even the parts that come with 12-toed great-grandmas & outlaw grit🎤 The womb-throat connection and reclaiming your voice as a sacred instrument🍑 Sex magic, sacred touch, and healing the masculine through pleasure✨ Erotic innocence and early sexual exploration🌌 Grief as a gateway to channeling, creativity, and anchoring heaven on earth🤸‍♀️ Why play is sacred, not frivolous👑 Boss priestess boundaries and why love sometimes comes with a karate kick🐉 Future visioning, synchronicity, and soul-led travelThis isn’t your average tantra talk. It’s raw, fun, and real AF. Let yourself be turned on, tickled, and totally remembered:Your pleasure is power.Your truth is the transmission.Welcome to the double priestess playground. 🐉💦00:00 Embracing Authenticity and Playfulness09:12 The Journey into Sacred Sexuality and Tantra18:57 Exploring the Womb-Throat Connection28:43 The Power of Writing and Self-Expression39:11 Navigating Relationships and Boundaries49:40 Manifesting Dreams and Future VisioningWatch the episode here.Connect with Love:https://www.instagram.com/tiffany_love_elixir/https://www.facebook.com/tiff.fede/https://embodiedgoddess.gumroad.com/https://linktr.ee/tiffanyfedeSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!Watch this episode here. What do vibrating suitcases, ethical non-monogamy, and clit-stroking meditations have in common? They all make an appearance in this juicy episode with the Intimacy Expert to Millions, Susan Bratton.In this convo, Susan and I toss the script and drop into a behind-the-scenes look at my dating life. Yes, we’re talking a local lover and a possible threesome in Mexico, plus Susan’s wild wisdom from over 1,000 group play experiences and decades of conscious lovemaking.We explore:💋 Pleasure as a presence practice🔥 What to do when jealousy strikes mid-threesome✨ How boundaries create the conditions to be fully loved🧠 Expanded orgasm, limbic love loops, and turning pleasure into a spiritual practice🗣️ Dirty talk, moaning as medicine, and why your yoni deserves a mic💦 And yes… what to pack in your sensual suitcase 😉Whether you’re exploring open relating, craving deeper intimacy, or just curious AF about group sex dynamics, this episode blends sacred insight with real-life storytelling in the most delicious way.Warning: You may need to change your panties.Connect with Susan:InstagramWebsitebetterlover.comSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!“Your desires are yours for a reason — they’re data, they’re direction.”This week, I chat with Pia Leichter, an artist and embodiment guide, to explore how creativity, play, and ritual have helped both of us move through life’s biggest transitions. We talked about the beauty of death ceremonies, romanticizing life, the power of stillness, and how tuning into our bodies can guide us through grief, joy, and everything in between.Some of what we explored:✦ How creativity opens up when we stop trying to control everything✦ How pleasure can be a guide, not just a goal✦ What death rituals can teach us about living more fully✦ The importance of play and joyIf you’re navigating change or craving a deeper connection with yourself, I hope this episode gives you space and insight to imagine a new way forward.Connect with Pia:InstagramXLinkedInWebsiteCheck out Pia's book on Amazon!I also have a free audiobook download code for the first TEN people to direct message me on Instagram. Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!In this episode of Sex, Drugs, and Soul, I talk with stand-up comedian Tony Casillas about the courage it takes to be funny when the truth isn't always comfortable.We unpack how personal experiences, from strict religious upbringings to flawed sex education, inform the jokes comedians tell and the deeper truths behind them. From bombing on stage to navigating audience dynamics, this is a conversation about vulnerability, resilience, and using humor to cope with the chaos of being human.Topics we explore include:✦ How comedians use personal stories as social commentary✦ Why religion, politics, and parenting are comedy gold…and landmines✦ The role of selfishness and responsibility in today's society✦ Why we need more nuance (and more laughs) in political discourseWhether you’re a comedy nerd or someone trying to understand or survive the world through laughter, there’s something here for you.00:00, Introduction and Banter02:41, The Courage of Stand-Up Comedy05:38, The Journey to Stand-Up08:58, Experiencing Bombs and Resilience11:48, Navigating Different Audiences14:58, The Impact of Religion on Creativity17:52, Substance Use and Creativity20:52, The Taboo of Sex Education23:45, The Influence of Upbringing on Choices26:47, Curiosity and Questioning Society33:27, The Role of Parents in Children's Lives36:01, Selfishness and Human Nature39:17, The Misuse of Children in Political Arguments41:34, Wealth, Responsibility, and Community45:29, Nuance in Politics and Social Issues48:29, Selfishness vs. Self-Care50:47, Comedy and Social Consciousness54:55, The Importance of Humor in Difficult TimesConnect with Tony:InstagramSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!In this episode of Sex, Drugs, and Soul, I chat with certified sexologist Coral Osborne. Our paths crossed in Austin at various events, and I've been impressed by her advocacy for men and the valuable insights she shares online on topics such as dating, intimacy, and authentic relating. We also share stories from our lived sex work experiences and how they have informed our views on intimacy, personal growth, and relationships. We explore everything from the Madonna-Whore complex, eroticizing trauma, and self-inquiry to why men often seek out sex workers, how childhood informs our relationships, and the subtle ways we deflect vulnerability, like making vulgar jokes to avoid being seen. If you find yourself feeling disheartened about modern dating, confused by relationship dynamics, or curious about intimacy drivers and lived sex work experiences delivered in a no-BS style, give this one a go. 00:00 - Introduction02:08 - Exploring Personal Turn-Ons 04:04 - Navigating Radical Honesty and Vulnerability05:46 - The Impact of Past Experiences on Sexuality09:06 - Understanding Men's Core Desires and Wounds11:50 - The Madonna-Whore Complex in Male Psychology14:58 - Self-Inquiry for Emotional Availability18:06 - Dating in the Modern Age: Apps vs. Real Life20:46 - Polarity and Gender Dynamics in Relationships25:04 - Navigating Modern Dating Dynamics28:03 - The Complexity of Receiving and Giving30:30 - Understanding Masculinity and Emotional Needs32:56 - Childhood Influences on Adult Relationships40:23 - Addressing Common Sexual Struggles47:20 - Upcoming Projects and ResourcesConnect with Coral:WebsiteInstagramStay tuned for her podcast that launches in July!Support the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!What if the darkest night of your soul (ego) was actually a canvas? Emmy award-winning artist Alex Ruiz joins me for a raw, riveting ride through depression, psychedelics, and creative resurrection.From The Simpsons and Beauty and the Beast to sacred ceremonies with peyote, Alex shares how he went from burnout and suicidal ideation to finding purpose and birthing a body of work that channels mysticism, mythology, and multidimensional muses. We explore how visionary art becomes a mirror, a medicine, and a means of becoming.Inside this episode…🍄 Psychedelics & the art of becoming🖤 The tortured artist & letting go of the darkness🎭 Horned women, third eyes & mythic characters📉 AI vs human soul in art🔥 From hiding in the art cave to teaching with purpose🧠 Journaling, visualization, & the neo-renaissanceHe also gives us a sneak peek at Delicate Delirium, his upcoming art show in Austin on June 28th, and shares how creating his own fantasy world (language and all) became a portal to reconnection, authenticity, and healing.If you’ve ever wondered how to alchemize pain into purpose, are looking to rebuild your relationship with art, or if you’re just here for horny forest creatures and psychedelic chats, this episode is pure soul nectar. Connect with Alex:InstagramWebsiteSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!What if porn could actually deepen your intimacy, spark real connection, and help you reclaim your pleasure without shame?In this rebellious and radically honest episode, I sit down with Lily Sparks, the visionary founder and CEO of Afterglow, an ethical porn platform created by women. We dive deep into what it means to be turned on with intention from busting the myths around porn addiction to navigating boundaries, fantasies, and the healing power of conscious erotic content.We’re talking:✨ Why ethical porn is a game-changer for relationships🔥 How couples can use porn to enhance intimacy (not escape it)💬 Consent, representation, & real communication💥 Reclaiming your sexual narrative without shame, guilt, or apologyWhether you’re porn-curious or ready to start your pleasure revolution, this conversation is your permission slip to explore, express, and embrace your turn-on unapologetically.Jump to the mic drop moments...0:00 Introduction to Afterglow and Ethical Porn8:26 Representation and Confidence in Sexuality17:18 The Reality of Pornography and Consent26:01 Behind the Scenes of Ethical Porn Production38:31 The Reality of Pornography and ConsentUse the code SEXDRUGSSOUL for a free, 7-day Afterglow trial.Afterglow WebsiteAfterglow InstaSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!So many of us are craving deeper intimacy, but no one ever taught us how to actually talk about sex, desire, or what turns us on. In this episode, I’m joined by Dr. Diane Mueller for a conversation about what it takes to keep passion alive in long-term relationships.We get into the truth about libido (hint: it’s not just hormones), the impact of the nervous system on arousal, and how communication can completely shift the way we connect with our partners. We also talk about hot monogamy, self-pleasure as a tool for empowerment, and the kind of emotional safety that makes real pleasure possible.If you’ve ever felt like your sex drive disappeared, or you're craving more depth, connection, or fire in your relationship, this one’s for you.Connect with Dr. Diane: My Libido Doc WebsiteYouTubeInstagramTimestamps:8:30 The Steps To An Open Communication16:00 Navigating Vulnerability in Conversations25:05 The Importance of Scheduling Intimacy34:33 Anatomy and Orgasm: Understanding Individual Differences40:22 Emotional Connections and Past ExperiencesSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off

Have a question or comment? Send it to Kristin!This episode is dedicated to Larro! Love you, brother. Let's roll...***In this tender and truth-soaked episode, I open up about my journey with grief after losing a dear friend who left this world far too soon. It’s raw. It’s real. Emotional AF...and wrapped in love.I talk about the gut-punch of loss, the wild ride of emotions that followed, and the unexpected signs he sent me from the other side. Because love doesn’t just disappear, it shape-shifts. I also share a near-death experience that cracked me open in a way I didn’t see coming, and a powerful, symbolic body-painting session that felt like a creative rebirth. It was like my way of honoring both him, the parts of myself that grief awakened, and the new version of myself. (Rising phoenix, vibes!)This episode is a mix of courage, creativity, connection, and the kind of healing that only grief can bring. It ends with a tribute poem I wrote for him to honor his spirit and the bond we shared...I'm still unpacking some of the soul lessons... yet, if you’ve ever lost someone you love, or are navigating the messy beauty of grief, this one’s for you.If you want to explore courage while connecting with fellow creatives, join me on NABA this Wednesday, May 14th, at noon CST for a virtual, open-mic writing workshop/playshop.Jump to the mic drop moments...0:00 Intro5:16 Courage and Creative Expression15:42 Near-Death Experience and Personal Growth22:51 Body Painting and Symbolic HealingSupport the showConnect with Kristin:WebsiteInstagramFacebook YouTubeKristin’s Book:Sex, Drugs, & Soul Spotify AudiobookSubscribe:YouTubeSpotifyApplePeptides:Oral Quicksilver GHK/Copper Peptidehttps://elliemd.com/kristinbirdwellMicrodose 🍄 https://myfeelium.co/password: opensesameCode: kristin20 for 20% off