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Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. I unpack why the baby handoff can feel like salvation to one partner and rejection to the other. We name the invisible “backpacks” behind mental load resentment and the performance of adequacy so couples can stop colliding and start understanding. • the stay-at-home parent’s first exhale and why it is not rejection • how intensive parenting trains self-erasure and fuels parental burnout • resentment as a signal of unequal emotional labor and invisible work • the provider’s insecurity of being useful but unseen • the “backpack” metaphor for inherited roles from family and culture • why unspoken resentment hardens into contempt over time • how inadequacy grows when the map for partnership is incomplete • opening the backpack with vulnerability and curiosity instead of blame Schedule a consultation with me.  Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. We name the bone deep exhaustion that comes from carrying the mental load alone and explain why anger can harden into contempt over time. We outline a three phase path to feel the grief underneath, shift the patterns that keep you stuck, and find repair without abandoning yourself. • recognising depletion as the driver behind criticism testing and hostility • distinguishing stuck dynamics from physical or emotional abuse and prioritising safety • understanding anger as a smoke signal and contempt as a protective wall • identifying grief as the feeling under resentment and why it needs space • noticing how overfunctioning and moving goalposts can lock the cycle • practicing accountability without blame by separating behavior from story • allowing tasks to be done differently while meeting a minimum standard of care • making repair through small daily moments rather than one big catharsis talk • facing the ceiling when a partner is unwilling to grow and choosing with open eyes If this resonated with you, sign up for my group coaching program for mental load owners called Glass Wing. If you want your partner to sign up for their program, forward them my video for non-mental load owners called Break water.  Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. Ultimatums are an attempt to send you a warning signal: fight this last fight for our relationship This is what you need to do: 1) get your internal bearings. Don’t suppress your defensiveness, need to explain or fix it tendencies. But metabolize those reactions so they don’t leak out sideways and cause you to withdraw and her to be even more distrusting. 2) don’t collapse either. Don’t go into your victim mode or silent mode. 3) feel your feelings. Discharge your anger in healthy ways, like talking to a professional (me!) that is trained to not teach you a feminized version of masculinity. 4) recognize the deeper layers of shame that might be coming up and don’t let that hijack your response. Work with the historical shame that comes way before your partner ever entered the picture. It’s the “I’m not good enough of a man” shame 5) deepen your familiarity with your home and the members of your home and see it as a living ecosystem. Start to take end to end responsibilities without prompting and appreciation from her. Be consistent. Work quietly, even when she corrects and re-does some of your work. Continue moving forward. 6) repair and take radical responsibility of the structural imbalance and the role you played in it. You were socialized to disengage and not recognize the mental load. Take responsibility for that and apologize specifically for the impact that your disengagement had on her 7) keep making small deposits. Ask her about her day without requiring her to respond. Take notice about what she cares about. Ask her about it. I do this in my group coaching program and I walk step by step in teaching people how to do this. If this is you, go to this link: https://www.cedarandrain.org/breakwater  Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. I wanted an egalitarian marriage, but instead, what I got instead surprised me. Tune in and you'll find me sharing about: • wanting non-traditional roles but sliding into old scripts • how family of origin teaches roles and responsibilities • “worry” as a learned language of love • traditional father models and the invisibility of domestic labor • Herman’s upbringing and why the mental load stayed unseen • having a vision but no architecture or roadmap • competence, shame, and taking on everything by default • the to do list as a cage that blocks real connection • naming the imbalance while recognizing generational conditioning • becoming allies against the pattern and why change stays hard Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. I tell the truth many couples whisper: you can love a kind, present partner and still not like them when the mental load makes you feel alone. I share how invisible labor and “holiday magic” quietly create resentment, then explain why redistributing the mental load can ease anxiety and bring connection back.• admitting the shame of “I love him but I don’t like him” • describing bedtime teamwork while craving distance afterward • noticing that wanting space from a partner is important data • protecting the image of a “good marriage” while feeling lonely • unpacking the dissonance of being “lucky” and still drowning • naming holiday planning as a heavy, long-running mental project • explaining why this loneliness shows up in good marriages too • linking invisible labor to anxiety and future-focused worry • seeing anxiety shrink when the mental load is shared • validating listeners as not too sensitive or ungrateful If you’re experiencing this, let me know. Please stick along for this series. Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. “What happens when a child starts asking why?”In this episode, I reflect on growing up as what I now call a golden robot child — the kid who learns early that being good means being compliant, helpful, and never disrupting the system.I share stories from my childhood in New York City, my parents’ marriage, and the way my mother’s anger unexpectedly became the spark that helped me question the roles I was taught to perform.This episode is a personal reflection about curiosity, family systems, and how the questions we were once afraid to ask can eventually become the beginning of freedom. Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. Many of us grew up with unspoken rules about relationships:Don’t make things harder.Don’t ask too many questions.Don’t rock the boat.But those rules often shape our marriages, families, and identities in ways we don’t fully understand.On The Questions We Weren’t Supposed to Ask, therapist and relationship coach Angela Tam explores the hidden systems inside relationships—from emotional labor and mental load to gender expectations, power dynamics, and family roles.Through storytelling, reflection, and conversations about relational healing, this podcast invites listeners to look more honestly at the patterns we’ve inherited and imagine new ways of sharing responsibility, care, and leadership in love.Here is the substack article link: https://substack.com/home/post/p-190668831 Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. What if the place you run for safety is the very thing keeping your nervous system on high alert? We dig into the quiet pattern many mental load carriers know too well: shifting away from a partner who feels unreliable and toward kids who feel safer, more responsive, and easier to influence. It makes sense—especially if childhood taught you that mistakes cost, no one’s coming, and love must be earned through output. But the relief you’re chasing never lands, because the load never leaves. It intensifies.We unpack how overfunctioning becomes a survival strategy rooted in early experiences, cultural pressures, and neurodivergent realities like ADHD rejection sensitivity. Then we challenge the common fix of “just ask your partner to do more,” explaining why it often backfires without nervous system change. Instead, we walk through self-leadership: respecting the overfunctioning part, listening to the internal alarm, and practicing the U-turn—turning inward before acting outward. That simple shift reveals the tender beliefs under vigilance and opens the door to real change.From there, we map a path toward shared adult leadership. You’ll hear how to build trust through small, low-stakes tasks, align on “good enough” standards, and practice repair after misses, so safety lives between adults instead of in one parent alone. Kids don’t need a perfect hero; they need to see responsibility shared without anyone disappearing to keep the peace. If your routines keep getting tighter and your resentment keeps growing, this conversation offers a humane reset and practical next steps.If this resonated, subscribe, share with a co-parent, and leave a review with one belief you’re updating first. Your story helps others find their way back to shared care. Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. Your brain says the mental load is real, but your body still hits the panic button the moment you try to rest. Let’s bridge that gap. We unpack why awareness alone doesn’t bring relief and show how to lead your nervous system so rest, partnership, and delegation feel safe instead of risky.We start by naming the invisible engine behind overfunctioning: a manager-heavy system trained in childhood to read the room, prevent mistakes, and brace for impact. Think of an event planner stuck in emergency mode 24/7—hypervigilant, list-driven, and convinced that softness equals irresponsibility. That inner manager isn’t wrong; it’s outdated. It learned to protect you when safety was conditional and consequences were yours to carry. Now it treats easing up as danger and blocks relief even when your mind understands the pattern.Rather than override this protector, we update it. We practice compassionate dialogue with the inner essential worker: I see how hard you’re working; I know why you don’t trust partnership; I’m not asking you to disappear. Then we turn toward the tender parts it guards—the younger self who never got to rest—and offer reparenting through consistent care. The practical path isn’t more discipline. It’s co-regulation, micro-pauses, and repeatable experiences of safety: one deliberate pause before acting on guilt, one low-stakes task left undone, one end-to-end lane owned by your partner, one small ritual of rest even while the house isn’t perfect.Across the conversation, we map the costs of permanent emergency mode—resentment, withdrawal from intimacy, resistance to delegation—and offer clear steps to rebuild shared leadership at home. You’ll learn how to shift from white-knuckling to self-leadership, how to calibrate your body to updated conditions, and how to help your system believe what your mind already knows: the crisis has changed. Subscribe, share with a friend who carries the mental load, and leave a review to tell us which small experiment you’ll try this week. Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. What if your “responsibility” isn’t a personality trait but an inherited survival strategy? We dig into the hidden forces that turn care into constant vigilance—especially for parents of color and families shaped by immigration, war, and systemic inequity. I share how legacy burdens show up as rigid routines, a relentless mental load, and the belief that relaxing is risky, then walk through a gentle experiment that builds relief without asking you to lower your standards.Across this conversation, I name the invisible imprint many of us carry: safety comes from vigilance, preparation prevents harm, and rest is a luxury. We talk about how that imprint can bypass partnership because doing it alone feels safer than trusting someone who might not match your intensity. Instead of arguing about what’s “reasonable,” I invite you to pick one non‑negotiable in your home and ask a single, clarifying question: what harm am I preventing if this never changes? That shift from reflex to awareness is the doorway to breathing room.We explore real‑world stakes like public vs. private school decisions, where uneven systems make high standards feel essential, not excessive. Then we widen the lens to what kids actually need beyond preparation: connection, repair, and seeing adults model shared leadership. When worth rests on human dignity rather than danger prevented, protection can coexist with softness and support. Your nervous system can update. Your standards can stay. And the load can be shared.If you’re ready to move from hypervigilance into shared safety without collapsing your care, listen now. Subscribe, leave a review to help others find the show, and share this episode with a friend who carries a lot—what’s one non‑negotiable you’re ready to examine? Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. The phrase “just relax” can feel like a dismissal when your entire body was trained to scan for risk. We unpack why the mental load for many parents of color isn’t about perfectionism or control—it’s about protection shaped by history, bias, and love that remembers. From late-night worry loops to the impulse to track every assignment and social cue, we explore how vigilance forms, why it persists, and what it really tries to keep safe.We dive into the deeper story of education as protection in East Asian and immigrant families. Grades aren’t trophies; they’re proof of effort against systems that misread, under-protect, or punish difference. For refugees and marginalized communities, academic excellence became a portable asset in unstable worlds—a survival strategy rather than a status goal. That lens reframes “overparenting” as ancestral pattern recognition, built from generations who learned that safety must be earned and documented.We also talk about what happens at home when partners hold different realities. A white-identifying partner may default to trust in institutions, while a partner of color reads risk in the fine print. Using Internal Family Systems, we map the protector part that handles calendars, advocacy, and the invisible workload—not to shame it, but to honor its data. Then we outline steps to build shared vigilance: naming the history behind the planning, co-owning domains of safety, and creating agreements that make the load feel held instead of invisible.If this resonates, hit follow, share with someone who needs the language for what they feel, and leave a review with one moment that shifted your perspective. Your stories help us build a community where care stays sharp and the burden gets lighter. Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. You can look put together and still be running on fumes. This conversation speaks to the people no one worries about—the ones who hold the calendar, the feelings, the loose ends, and the backup plans—while everyone else sees a smooth surface. We name the mental load for what it is: not a list of chores, but the constant responsibility of noticing, anticipating, deciding, and protecting outcomes that others take for granted.I share how an immigrant survival mindset formed my reflex to overfunction, why rest was never modeled or protected, and how competence made my labor invisible at home and at work. We unpack the difference between swapping tasks and truly sharing responsibility, and why productivity tweaks fail when structure stays the same. Along the way, I open up about ADHD wiring, queerness in nonaffirming spaces, and the way identity and systems—patriarchy, racism, religious norms—shape nervous systems into vigilance.The turning point wasn’t trying harder; it was seeing the pattern. Awareness came first, then redesign: explicit domains of ownership, clear standards, and routines that make rest a neutral practice rather than a prize. If rest has felt unsafe or undeserved, you’re not broken—you’re trained. Together we explore questions to map your conditioning, surface hidden rules, and start redistributing the load so care becomes sustainable for everyone involved.If this resonates, share it with the person who carries the unspoken plan in your life. Subscribe for more honest tools on mental load, relationships, and structure that supports real rest, and leave a review to help others find the show. Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. Pain that’s been ignored for years doesn’t whisper—it barges in with a stopwatch. We sit down to talk about what happens when high-achieving, Type A clients arrive in therapy with urgency, burnout, and a fierce demand for quick relief. If you’ve ever felt your confidence wobble under “this isn’t working,” this conversation maps a steadier way forward.We start by naming the reality: many high performers show up late in their pain cycle, armed with competence and an inner critic that wants results yesterday. From an Internal Family Systems lens, we unpack the protectors that drive perfectionism, speed, and self-reliance, and how those same parts can view slowing down as threatening rather than healing. You’ll hear practical language for validating urgency without buying into it, scripts to surface expectations early, and a clear first-four-sessions roadmap that sets treatment timelines, defines success, and reduces dropout risk.We also dig into parts-informed goal setting so you don’t accidentally collude with perfectionism. Instead of “tolerate more workload,” we co-create measurable, sustainable targets that lower urgency, build capacity, and protect relationships. On the therapist side, we address what to do when feedback stings—how to notice your fixer, defender, or pleaser, invite them to step back, and stay curious. When pacing becomes the pain point, we share ways to match energy with brief, stabilizing moves, then pivot into insight without flooding the system. The throughline is simple and hard: healing happens at the speed of trust, not urgency.If you work with ambitious clients—or you are one—you’ll leave with concrete steps to strengthen the alliance, protect your frame, and turn criticism into collaboration. Subscribe for more therapist-first strategies, share this with a colleague who needs the reminder, and leave a review to tell us what landed and what you want next.Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. The ground under therapy is moving, and we’re naming what so many are feeling but few will say out loud: client flow is down, reimbursements are thin, and VC-backed platforms are reshaping care with opaque billing, captured copays, and fine print that rarely favors clinicians or clients. We trace how convenience becomes control—how credentialing shortcuts turn into lower rates, how private-pay “differences” quietly siphon value, and how the promise of access can mask a transfer of power away from the therapeutic relationship.We also follow the data: reports of session notes and recordings used to train AI “therapists” raise serious questions about privacy, consent, and the soul of our work. AI can provide information, but it can’t offer attunement, repair, or the lived human presence that healing often requires. When platforms profit from data extracted in care, trust erodes—and without trust, therapy becomes a product instead of a practice. We talk about who carries the heaviest burden in this shift—clinicians of color, adult children of immigrants, and those without generational safety nets—and why that reality demands both honesty and solidarity.From there, we get practical. If you’re able, consider contracting directly with insurers and keeping more of your value in your hands. If you’re private pay, get visible: build referral relationships, publish useful, specific content, pitch local media, and make your intake process simple. Protect your capacity with real routines, not leftover time. And remember our collective leverage: share rate benchmarks, demand transparent fees, push for clear consent around data use, and coordinate refusals of predatory contracts. We’re not powerless or obsolete; we’re under-organized and often too quiet. Let’s change that together.If this resonates, follow the show, share with a colleague who needs a morale boost and a plan, and leave a review with one action you’re taking this week. Your voice helps others find honest, sustainable paths in a crowded, noisy landscape.Credit to Caitlin Archibald, MS, LPC, ACS for providing information about VC's and complaints filed against them. Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. In this episode of the 'So Now What Podcast,' we delve into the unique experiences and challenges faced by mental health therapists of color who are adult children of immigrants. The focus is on navigating the downward spiral when new client referrals dry up. We discuss practical steps such as creating budgets, exploring side incomes, and leveraging community support. The episode also explores the concept of viewing your business as a living entity with its own spirit and intelligence, encouraging therapists to embrace creativity, openness, and play during uncertain times. Join us as we redefine what it means to thrive and support mental health professionals in these complex spaces. Tune in and let's navigate this journey together!Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. Ever felt that sinking feeling when your client calendar starts emptying out as summer approaches? You're not alone. In this deeply personal exploration of the "summer slump," I pull back the curtain on a phenomenon that affects countless therapists but rarely gets discussed openly.The summer slump isn't just about fewer billable hours—it's about the profound self-doubt that creeps in when clients take vacations, downgrade their sessions, or reallocate their budgets toward summer expenses. Drawing from my own experiences, including the particularly challenging summer after the birth of my third child, I share how these seasonal downturns can trigger our deepest insecurities about competence, worthiness, and financial stability.Most therapists respond to the summer slump through protective strategies: frantic marketing, lowering fees, taking on ill-fitting clients, or simply shutting down through avoidance and procrastination. But these approaches only address the surface problem. What if there's a deeper conversation happening beneath all this anxiety? What if our response to seasonal practice fluctuations actually connects to our core wounds around conditional acceptance, worthiness, and scarcity?This episode offers a compassionate framework for understanding why the summer slump affects us so deeply and outlines a healing approach that goes beyond mere logistics. By mapping our protective mechanisms, identifying our vulnerable feelings, and extending self-compassion to these exiled parts, we can transform our relationship with these predictable business cycles. The result isn't just greater resilience during slow periods—it's a more authentic and sustainable approach to our entire practice.Ready to explore what lies beneath your summer slump experience? Connect with me for a free consultation and sign up for my newsletter to continue this important conversation about therapist well-being and practice sustainability.Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. Therapists are taught to be able to "work with everyone that comes through the door."This messaging is not only rigid, but harmful to your and potentially your client's wellbeing. In this episode I share about my pitfalls with my previous experiences with how I mistakenly adopted this philosophy and how we can bring nuance into this conversation. I also share practical tips on how to work through creating a caseload that is more respectful to you and your nervous system. Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. You did it! You finally created an PLLC, opened a biz bank account, launched your website, and are waiting for your new clients. You might be accepting insurance under a group practice or are doing your own thing. Regardless, you get 7 consults. All at the same time. You are meeting your new potential clients. They are manageable and you are feeling good about each of them. But when you look at the calendar, dread sets in. "How can I sustain this?""How can I see 15 clients in one week indefinitely?""Am I going to make it through the week?"You are wondering, how did I get from being thirsty for clients to very overwhelmed so quickly?My guess is that you didn't evaluate client fit. You don't have a process in place to schedule clients on auto mode. You are troubleshooting schedule concerns after the fact. You are swimming in paperwork with insurance. When you signed up to be a MH clinician, you didn't think that you were not going to enjoy it. But now you feel defeated. Why?It's because we make decisions in our PP from our therapist hat, not our CEO hat. Our therapist hat says, "how can I help as many people as I can?"Our CEO self says "what is best for my clients and best for me?"Our therapist self says "how can I squeeze in as many clients as possible without burning out?"our CEO self says "what is my intention for my caseload? How do I want to thrive?"This episode invites you to notice, who is in the driver's seat making these decisions. Tune in and find outCome follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. Fear of Not Doing Enough and Developing an Unshakeable Assurance The biggest threat to your feeling of not doing enough to help your client’s suffering isn’t your client. It’s YOU.  If you are so afraid of the feeling therapist guilt, that you:1)        Go over your allotted time for each session2)        Over explain why time is up to soften the blow3)        Extend the session beyond what is sustainable4)        Ignore bathroom breaks/skipping lunch breaks5)        Try to fix and patch things up before the end of session Let’s be clear.. you’re not being kind, considerate, or generous. You’re slowly killing your therapeutic practice. Your guilt is getting in the way of you practicing your healing gifts fully. You are taking yourself out before you even get a chance for anyone to show any backlash.  The first step to disarming therapist guilt or inadequacies? Deepen your relationship to your worst fear if the scariest thing happened.  What if your client was so mad at you for ending the session on time? What if your client perceived that you were a selfish and cold person? Let me show you how to do that. Do the courageous work when you put yourself out there and take care of your needs. Prioritize your health. Stick to your boundaries of ending the sessions on time. Tune in and find out!Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. Therapist burnout is a complex issue that requires more than just sabbaticals or vacations to address. Both systemic problems in the mental health field and our internal psychological patterns contribute to burnout, requiring dedicated inner work alongside traditional self-care practices.• Systemic issues contributing to burnout include low pay, high client loads, decreasing insurance reimbursements, and commodification of mental health services• BIPOC and marginalized therapists face additional "representation tax" as role models and advocates for their communities• Through an Internal Family Systems lens, several internal "parts" often contribute to therapist burnout• True healing comes from building relationships with these parts rather than trying to change or exile them• Operating from "Self-energy" allows therapists to witness suffering without absorbing it and balance their needs with clients'Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. After a summer hiatus, I return with a renewed focus on supporting mental health clinicians of color who are creating new pathways of healing. This season explores how to thrive professionally while navigating global crises, political instability, and the feeling that the world is burning around us.• Challenging the misconception that solidarity requires personal suffering• Unlearning the programming that we must sacrifice our well-being to honor others' pain• Recognizing that revolutions require resources, not just sacrifice• Understanding that regulated nervous systems can still experience righteous anger• Avoiding displacing anger toward people who remind us of oppressive systems• Noticing when fear and panic pull us away from self-care• Finding your unique role in creating change without "burning everything down"• Acknowledging that not everyone is meant to be at the front of protest lines• Continuing to resource yourself financially and emotionally during difficult times• Keeping revolutionary work grounded in love rather than fearCome follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. What happens when the identities that make you who you are seem fundamentally at odds with each other? How do you reconcile being a mental health therapist who didn't recognize her own ADHD until their late 30s? Or being raised in a conservative Christian faith while gradually understanding your own queerness?These questions form the heart of this deeply personal episode where I share my journey of discovering parts of myself that had been hiding in plain sight. For years, I chalked up my struggles with time management, emotional regulation, and constantly shifting interests as simply personality quirks or the normal challenges of parenting three children while running a therapy practice. Little did I realize that these were classic manifestations of ADHD in high-achieving women—a presentation rarely discussed in traditional mental health training.The pandemic's forced pause created space for self-reflection that led to profound realizations about how I'd been masking not just my neurodivergence, but other aspects of my identity that didn't fit neatly into the boxes I was raised to occupy. Through social media, supportive communities like Progressive Asian American Christians, and my own therapeutic work, I began to understand how the pressure to assimilate and belong can keep us from seeing ourselves clearly.What I've discovered is that unmasking—allowing ourselves to be authentically seen—requires specific conditions: quiet reflection time, the ability to observe ourselves without judgment, compassionate relationships that celebrate our differences, and sometimes professional guidance to help navigate the complexities of self-discovery.If you're navigating seemingly irreconcilable identities or feel like you're constantly working harder than everyone else just to appear "normal," this episode is my hand reaching out to say you're not alone. Your journey toward authenticity is worth every uncomfortable moment, and finding spaces where all your identities can peacefully coexist is not just possible—it's transformative.Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. Navigating Midlife and Quarter-Life Crises: Personal Journeys and InsightsIn this episode of the "So, Now What?" Podcast, we dive into the themes of quarter-life and midlife crises. I discuss how these crises can prompt significant changes in life, including shifts in routine, relationships, and self-identity. I share about the impact of being an adult child of asian immigrants and some barriers to self-discovery journey, such as norm matching, masking, and trying to live up to everyone else's expectations at the cost of my authenticity.I explore common triggers for these crises, such as social media comparison, mortality awareness, and new health diagnoses. I talk about my struggles with the Evangelical Church, discovering my queer identity during the COVID-19 pandemic, and navigating a new-to-me label of ADHD (as a therapist!). 00:00 Introduction and Episode Overview00:57 Understanding Midlife and Quarter-Life Crises06:50 Personal Experiences and Identity09:53 Navigating Changes and Self-Discovery11:50 Impact of COVID-19 and Realizations15:06 ADHD and Personal Growth24:35 Current Life and Professional Insights27:08 Support and ConclusionCome follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. In this episode, we explore the topic of straddling multiple cultures and multiple sets of expectations. I grew up with my family's ancestral culture, which is a blend of Chinese/Vietnamese values, which is mostly oriented around safety, security and stability (past, present and future). In addition, I've learned to straddle western values of "do what you want", "be creative", "follow your dreams." I've learned to show up with different versions of myself that would maximize a sense of acceptance and belonging with these different groups. The problem is that sometimes we don't realize that the values, beliefs, behaviors that we internalize and adopted may or may not be true to our authentic heartfelt values. We are so good with putting on so many masks to impress others, that we forget that we even have any masks on. This podcast is for those who can identify with this and want to answer the questions: "Who am I? What do I want? What is really true to me and what have I unknowingly adopted that I want to shed and release?"If you didn't get a chance to figure out what you truly value and have not been granted the permission to orient your lives around you, consider this to be your permission slip to BE you and DO you. Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here

Send a DM to Angela directly! Share your comments, feedback and feels. Hi! I’m Angela Tam and welcome to my little corner of the podcast world. This podcast is for you if you are:The FIRST in your family to live outside of the zone of survival. You are the first to break educational and career blocks in your lineage. You are the first to marry for love and not convenience. You are the first to navigate multiple cultures and identities. The ONLY or one of the few POC on your team, one of the few WOC on the PTA or in the boardroom. One of the few POC in your neighborhood with young kids. You are trying to do things differently than your family did. You want to measure success by different metrics. You want question why part of you wants to live up to others expectations while other parts of you want to to say F you to all the external pressure. You want to be a conscious parent and not pass down patterns that don’t serve you. So you are going to therapy and cultivating a reflective mindset. If you are an FOD (First, Only, Different), I’m excited to share this space with you. I am going to be your biggest fan and champion as we both define our own meaning of success. Come follow me on instagram @MentalLoadCoach and subscribe to my newsletter here. Schedule a free consult with me for my group coaching programs:1) If you are the primary mental load carrier, click here2) if you are the partner of the mental load owner, click here