Beauty in the Break

Why do we care so much about what other people think? Foster and Cesar explore the art of giving less fucks, as a source of freedom from needing to control how others perceive you. Despite a world steeped in people-pleasing, our biological fear of being ostracized by the tribe no longer serves us in the age of social media and cancel culture. They ask the question: is it possible to incrementally build the muscle of caring less? They reveal how to balance kindness and truth, why you can't control how someone receives your message, and the power of giving less fucks as a soil bed for boldness and creativity.In this episode they explore: The real work: not giving a fuck without anger Why caring what people think is a biological fear that no longer serves usHow Foster incrementally desensitized herself to being seenCesar's "back pocket fucklessness" and when to access itHow posting daily on TikTok made the flops stop matteringIf this episode spoke to you, you will love How to Keep Creating When Your Inner Critic Says You’re Worthless. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram and TikTok. Cesar Cardona:Receive his newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Jamaal Pittman. You can donate to his scholarship at WheelerScholarship.com, supporting college enrollment.Send us Fan Mail

Advocate for yourself! Clinical psychologist and couples therapist Dr. Molly Burrets discovered a brain tumor after years of doctors dismissing symptoms. This taught her about self-advocacy, meeting herself at rock bottom, and then asking for help. With 19 years of couples therapy experience, Dr. Molly reveals insights on resentment in relationships, the mental load women carry, dating wisdom, and why knowing your worth is the foundation for everything, from advocating in the medical system to building partnerships that actually work.In this episode they explore: The exact words to say that make doctors legally required to investigate your concernsHow "having it all" was really just "doing it all" with no peace or easeThe hidden truth about resentmentWhy you should never marry someone you wouldn't go into business withWhat Dr. Molly uses to make the invisible labor visible The dating advice no one talks aboutDr. Molly Burrets: Connect with Dr. MollyListen to her podcast Kissing FrogsIG: @drmollyburretsAlso mentioned:Eve Rodsky’s book Fair PlayIf this episode spoke to you, you will love Curiosity Over Conflict: How to Heal Relationships with JJ Brake. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram and TikTok. Cesar Cardona:Receive his newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleySpecial Guest: Dr. Molly BurretsThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail

Are you feeling burned out and buried under everything you're carrying? Foster opens up about losing herself in her workload, sacrificing personal joy for potential collective success, and how that pattern affected both her relationship with Cesar and her own vibrancy. They discuss the gendered nature of caretaking and burden-carrying and how women especially take on too much. This conversation is for anyone who feels gray inside from carrying too much, has lost touch with what brings them joy, or needs permission to disappoint others for the sake of finding themselves again.In this episode they explore: Why Foster disappeared from the vibrancy of her own relationshipThe waiter metaphor that perfectly explains burnout (and why you can't accept help)How sacrificing current joy for potential future success steals your lifeThe gendered reality of who carries the burdenWhy "let me know if you need anything" doesn't actually helpHow to actually help someone who's carrying too muchAlso mentioned: Loonshots by Safi BahcallIf this episode spoke to you, you will love Why It’s Never Equal where we explore gender roles and invisible labor. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram and TikTok. Cesar Cardona:Receive his newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Jamaal Pittman. You can donate to his scholarship at WheelerScholarship.com, supporting college enrollment.Send us Fan Mail

Struggling with creative block or self-doubt as an artist? In this episode, Foster breaks open her creative process behind writing and publishing Afternoon Abundance in just 9 months, from blank page to published book. Cesar explores the double-edged sword of being a creative person and the battle between inspiration and self-doubt. They lay out the three pillars every artist needs: time for nothing (unstructured creative time), "this too is honey" (transforming experiences into art), and the create-reflect-recreate cycle. Taking inspiration from Andrea Gibson and Elizabeth Gilbert, they explore how to overcome creative fear, why discomfort is essential for artistic growth, and the audacity required to keep creating when no one's waiting for you to succeed. This conversation is for anyone struggling with perfectionism, imposter syndrome, waiting for permission, or battling their inner critic while trying to bring something new into the world.In this episode they explore: The three pillars every creative person needs (including "time for nothing")What "this too is honey" means for transforming experiences into artThe habit that made sitting down to a blank page less terrifyingWhy no fuck's left to give is actually the secret to unstoppable creativityAlso referenced: Episode 24: What Depression Really Feels LikeEpisode 9: Finding Laughter in Life & Death with Jennica SchwartzmanEpisode 3: Foster’s Loss (losing her son Wilde)The Artist’s Way by Julia CameronYou can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram and TikTok. Cesar Cardona:Receive his newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail

Where do you shop instead of Amazon and Target? Two words: B Corporations. This episode is for anyone who is tired of corporate greed but doesn’t know what to do about it. Cesar and Foster break down one of the most powerful (and overlooked) forms of everyday activism: conscious spending, ethical shopping and brands to “buy-cott” instead of boycott. They dig into B Corp, an independent auditing organization that scores companies on how they treat their workers, the environment, and their customers.In this episode they explore: How to weaponize your wallet in a capitalist societyWhat makes a brand “good”? What if you can’t afford to buy independent brands?A few good brands to start withHere are some resources for you! Cesar’s One Stop Shop for Good Brands Newsletteror find them yourself at B CorpEWG Skin Deep Cosmetics DatabaseGoods Unite Us: find the political affiliations of big companiesGreen Film: helps productions go greenAncient & Brave: supplements Giftphoria: the Amazon alternative for AngelenosIf this episode spoke to you, you will love How to Quiet Your Inner Critic where we explore the 4 steps of Growth Mindfulness. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.Take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps. Like really… it does!Tell us your barrier breaking story. Send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram and TikTok. Cesar Cardona:Receive his newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Jamaal Pittman. You can donate to his scholarship at WheelerScholarship.com, supporting college enrollment.Send us Fan Mail

How do you hold onto hope when there seems to be none? James Leo Ryan shares his journey as a caregiver after his husband, actor Rodney To, suffered a ruptured brain aneurysm that nearly took his life. Nearly three years later, Rodney is defying the odds with his signature sass intact. This episode explores the power of caregiving advocacy, learning to show up for people in crisis, the strength hidden within all of us, and why "be your own quiet miracle" became James's guiding philosophy through the darkest and most beautiful moments of their lives.In this episode they explore: What it truly means to have hope against all oddsThe gut-wrenching decision: funeral clothes vs. tracheostomy against medical adviceWhat caregivers actually need (hint: it's not "let me know if you need anything")Why advocacy is not complaining – and how to set boundaries with medical professionalsHow to truly show up for someone in crisis You can follow Rodney’s journey (now at home!) with James on his instagram. Watch the hilarious Rodney To as the vet in Foster’s short film 5 Stages of Grief.If you would like to contribute to Rodney’s recovery at home, you can donate to their GoFundMe here. If this episode spoke to you, you will love How to Be a Rebel with Dr. Reid Wilson where we explore standing up against systems. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram and TikTok. Cesar Cardona:Receive his newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleySpecial Guest: James Leo RyanThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail

They’re open! Cesar and Foster ask “what does ethical non-monogamy (ENM) actually look like in a committed relationship?” They open up about their journey into exploring an open relationship structure, challenging traditional ideas about monogamy, possession, and what it means to truly choose your partner every day. From Cesar's past of promiscuity to Foster's demisexual identity, they discuss why they don't believe in owning each other, how exploring outside their relationship actually strengthened their bond, and why keeping sexuality in the shadows can really backfire. This episode tackles body counts without shame, the freedom of non-possession in relationships, and why both partners deserve the space to be fully themselves without judgment.In this episode they explore: Foster and Cesar’s shocking body count revealThe philosophy shift: "I don't own you" and what it means for loveWhy keeping sexuality in shadows versus light changes everythingThe unexpected way non-monogamy strengthened their bond instead of breaking itWhy ethical non-monogamy requires letting go of possession entirelyIf this episode spoke to you, you will love So…Sexuality Isn’t Simple where we share our pansexuality and demisexual identities. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram and TikTok. Cesar Cardona:Receive his newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Jamaal Pittman. You can donate to his scholarship at WheelerScholarship.com, supporting college enrollment.Send us Fan Mail

How do you overcome adversity and build a successful creative career from nothing? Creative director and vocalist Dedrick Bonner shares his journey from being a Black gay man raised in a Pentecostal church in Alabama to working with Beyoncé, Stevie Wonder, Dolly Parton, and performing at the Oscars with the cast of Sinners. Dedrick opens up about experiencing homelessness during high school, finding resilience in rock bottom moments, and discovering that the most successful people share one common and vital trait. From church rejection to making history as the first-ever musical performance at the SAG Awards, this conversation explores gratitude despite struggle, the beauty found in failure, and why rock bottom is actually a blessing in disguise that clears space for something greater.In this episode they explore: The heartbreaking reason Dedrick chose to triple major in collegeWhat Beyoncé, Dolly Parton, and Aretha Franklin all have in commonHow a pastor’s kid from Alabama made history at the SAG AwardsThe real meaning of resilienceHow to find the joy in your creative work againWhy "self-made" success is a complete myth (according to someone who's seen it all)Dedrick Bonner:IG: @dedrickbonnerAlso mentioned:How To Spot A Gatekeeper (Even If It’s You)Our episode on women in HollywoodYou can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram and TikTok. Cesar Cardona:Receive his newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyEditor: Bessie FongSpecial Guest: Dedrick BonnerThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail

What happens when you face your fears and put yourself out there on social media, only to be publicly criticized? Foster and Cesar honestly reflect on their experience going viral, navigating online negativity and learning to handle public vulnerability despite the anxiety. They discuss the biological need for social connection, why divisive content performs better than positive news, and how to protect your peace when internet strangers attack your choices. They share insights on exposure therapy through social media, meeting critics with compassion instead of defensiveness, and why it’s worth it to continue to spread good despite the uphill battle. In this episode: Indie film Home Delivery written and directed by Thom Harp. Opens March 27th, 2026 in the USFoster + Cesar’s guest episode on Tell Me Something Messy with Brandon Kyle Goodman.If this episode spoke to you, you will love The Beauty of Letting Go, where our hosts dive deeper into facing fears. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram and TikTok. Cesar Cardona:Receive his newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Jamaal Pittman. You can donate to his scholarship at WheelerScholarship.com, supporting college enrollment.Send us Fan Mail

How do you stay authentic and maintain hope in uncertain times? Actress and writer Lesley Fera (Pretty Little Liars) joins Foster and Cesar to discuss finding play and creativity in adulthood, trusting the universe when life feels chaotic, and how grief transformed her relationship with writing. Lesley shares her journey of peeling back layers to return to her authentic self, the power of surrendering control, and how activism and joy can coexist. In this episode they explore: Why returning to authenticity feels like returning to childhoodThe grief that pushed Lesley Fera back to writing after drifting awayHow to maintain hope and light when the world feels bleakWhy trusting "the greatest good" changes everythingLesley Fera: IG: @mslesleyferaLesley’s short film Grace on IG: @gracetheshortfilmCrowdfunding info for Grace The sexy Pandora station that became famous in this episode: Native American Flute RadioIf this episode spoke to you, you will love How to Be a Rebel with Dr. Reid Wilson where Foster’s dad shares how he turned his urge to be a troublemaker into a force for good. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram and TikTok. Cesar Cardona:Receive his newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail

Ask Us Anything! Foster and Cesar answer listener questions about working together as romantic partners on a podcast, the worst advice people give during hard times, and the intentional choice of the word "partner" instead of "girlfriend”. They share the pros and cons of creative collaboration in relationships, why the podcast has become their creative "baby," and reveal the well-meaning advice that actually hurts.In this episode they explore: The grief advice Foster finds unhelpful (even though she believes it herself)How working together revealed their unexpected strengths as a coupleWhat their podcast has in common with having a baby togetherHow they avoid ego battles while collaborating on creative projectsWhy relationships are mirrors, not hierarchies (and what that means for advice)If this episode spoke to you, you will love Say More! Vol. 2: Hustle Culture Sucks & Other Dangerously Fun Confessions. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram and TikTok. Cesar Cardona:Receive his newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Jamaal Pittman. You can donate to his scholarship at WheelerScholarship.com, supporting college enrollment.Send us Fan Mail

How do you build a successful career path by just being yourself? Foster shares her unexpected journey from actor to film director after the death of her son, while Cesar reveals how he built a successful business without spending a dollar on marketing. They explore the paradox of being a female director in Hollywood and why being yourself is your greatest advantage in any career. If you’re pivoting careers, breaking into a new industry, or building from scratch, this conversation talks practical wisdom about leveraging your uniqueness and creating meaningful connections because truthfully...  success comes from being irreplaceable. In this episode they explore: Why grief became the catalyst for a complete career pivotThe Hollywood catch-22: When diversity programs help and hurt at the same timeHow one person built a 10-year training business without spending a dollar on adsThe security guard at NYU who remembered every student's name (and what that teaches us)Why your unique fingerprint on your work is your only real competitive advantageAlso mentioned: The loss of Foster’s son Wilde: Foster’s Loss: Sunflowers and the Choice to Feel PainMade Public (14 min short film)Waffles (4 min short film)Platypus (9 min short film)Brick & Mopsie (5 min short film)You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram and TikTok. Cesar Cardona:Receive his newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail

Foster and Cesar sit down for a lighthearted, intimate episode about a surprising parenting breakthrough. Together, they discuss how children actually understand more than we give them credit for, why the question "why?" exhausts parents (and what to do instead), and how treating kids like brilliant humans rather than irrational beings changes the entire dynamic. This episode offers a refreshing perspective on parenting fatigue, the power of contrary actions, and finding those small moments of beauty in the daily grind of raising children. In this episode they explore: What happens when you make yourself the "common enemy" in parentingThe real reason parents hate when kids keep asking "why"How one contrary action created an entire day of sibling peaceThe small answer vs. the big answer: What kids actually want to knowWhy siblings don't actually have to be best friends (and that's okay)If this episode spoke to you, you will love Giving Yourself Flowers where we explore the truth about real self-care. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram and TikTok. Cesar Cardona:Receive his newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Jamaal Pittman. You can donate to his scholarship at Wheelerscholarship.com, supporting college enrollment.Send us Fan Mail

In this episode of Beauty in the Break, Foster and Cesar share their real-time struggles with breaking through personal barriers in relationships and self-awareness. Foster reveals her pattern of people-pleasing and difficulty knowing what she wants, especially in romantic relationships, while Cesar confronts unexpected impatience that's surfaced as he's achieved more success in his speaking and meditation career. Through vulnerable conversation, they explore how women's intuition gets buried beneath societal conditioning, why men struggle when women can't articulate their needs, and how personal growth requires constantly meeting your partner (and yourself) in new versions as you evolve.In this episode they explore: Why successful women still struggle to say what they want in relationshipsMen opening doors for women: patronizing or respectful?The Buddhist story about success that humbled a meditation teacherThe difference between releasing your demons and working with themWhy growth requires meeting your partner again and again in new versionsThe iPhone update theory of human transformationEpisodes referenced: Episode 23: Our Most Uncomfortable Conversation Yet: Money - where we explored the “messy middle” of healing our money issuesEpisode 33: How Psychedelics Changed Our Lives If this episode spoke to you, you will love Why It’s Never Equal where we explore gender roles and invisible labor. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram and TikTok. Cesar Cardona:Receive his newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail

Today’s episode of Beauty in the Break explores a personal and harrowing story from Cesar’s life, where he recently encountered a past version of himself. Through an intimate storytelling conversation, Cesar reflects on reconnecting with a friend still struggling with addiction, sparking a powerful discussion about survivor’s guilt, transformation, boundaries, compassion, and what it means to move forward without leaving empathy behind. This episode offers honest insight into recovery, self-awareness, emotional responsibility, and navigating relationships after profound personal change.In this episode they explore:Survivor’s guilt after personal healing and growthWhen old friendships mirror past versions of ourselvesWhy healing can feel isolating instead of liberatingBoundaries without abandoning compassionSeeing addiction through the lens of compassion and illnessFor more stories like this and good companies you can support, sign up for Cesar’s weekly newsletter Insights That Matter. If this episode spoke to you, you will love How to Be a Rebel with Dr. Reid Wilson. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram and TikTok. Cesar Cardona:Receive his newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Jamaal Pittman. You can donate to his scholarship at Wheelerscholarship.com, supporting college enrollment.Send us Fan Mail

In this episode of Beauty and the Break, Foster and Cesar explore psychedelics (in particular psilocybin mushrooms) as tools for healing, consciousness, and perspective shifts, weaving together personal stories, neuroscience, ancient spiritual texts, and modern research. Through storytelling and reflection, they discuss ego death, non-duality, mindfulness, meditation, and the science of psychedelics, revealing how these experiences can expand compassion, soften fear, and help us break through our own barriers. This episode offers an honest, nuanced look at psychedelics, not as an escape, but as a doorway into presence, meaning, and embodied understanding.In this episode they explore: The first mushroom experience that changed everythingEgo death and why it softens fearPsychedelics and the brain: what science actually showsMushrooms vs meditation: the “leaf blower” metaphorSeeing the world like a child againADHD, overwhelm, and embodied knowingAlso mentioned: Cesar’s online meditation class at DEN MeditationCesar’s Growth Mindfulness meditation practiceBeauty in the Break episode What is Healthy Screen Time? (dopamine/serotonin)Johns Hopkins Center for Psychedelic & Consciousness ResearchPsychedelics vs. Placebo brain map imageYou can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram and TikTok. Cesar Cardona:Receive his newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail

This short Season 2 preview of Beauty in the Break is a gentle reintroduction and a small but intentional shift. Foster and Cesar reflect on what the first year of the podcast made possible, what they’ve learned along the way, and how the show is evolving. This season moves beyond finding beauty in broken moments to also exploring the beauty of breaking barriers, both inside ourselves and out in the world.Starting Feb 3rd, Beauty in the Break will be a weekly podcast, with new episodes every Tuesday. Expect deeper conversations, more guests, and stories that expand what feels possible, shared with more ease, honesty, and room to breathe. Lots more to come, beloved. Thank you for being here.You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you are enjoying this show, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram and TikTok.Cesar Cardona:Receive his newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Jamaal Pittman. You can donate to his scholarship at wheelerscholarship.com, supporting college enrollment.Send us Fan Mail

In this episode of Beauty in the Break, Foster and Cesar bring you 12 unforgettable therapy lessons that reshaped their lives. Drawing from years of individual therapy, couples therapy, Jungian analysis, and parts work, they share tangible wisdom that listeners can apply to their own healing and communication journeys. Whether you’re navigating family dynamics, learning to self-regulate, or trying to let go of old stories, this episode is full of relatable and transformative moments.They also discuss powerful therapeutic tools like Internal Family Systems (IFS), the importance of repair in relationships, and how to show up truthfully without controlling the outcome. If you’re craving real talk about mental health, personal responsibility, emotional intelligence, and how to actually change, this episode is one to bookmark and revisit. In this episode they explore: The parenting mindset shift that changes everything after a mistakeWhat to do instead of chasing “balance” — and why it rarely worksA surprising truth about how you judge others (and what it says about you)The communication formula that protects relationships from resentmentThe healing magic of writing — and the 5-day practice that builds confidenceWhy trying to “be right” might be making you miserableHow to work with your inner child using IFS-style parts workCesar mentions his accident, which is detailed in Cesar’s Accident: The Scars of Rebirth.If this episode spoke to you, you may enjoy How to Feel Seen in Love, where therapist JJ Brake leads our hosts in a live couples session. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Jamaal Pittman. You can donate to his scholarship at wheelerscholarship.com, supporting college enrollment.Send us Fan Mail

Award-winning jazz vocalist Mel Collins joins Beauty in the Break for a powerful conversation about healing through music, reclaiming identity, and finding joy in your authentic voice. Mel opens up about her journey from musical theater to jazz after years of vocal nodules, depression, and identity loss. When the discovery of one Ella Fitzgerald CD changed everything, Mel rediscovered her joy—and her calling.Mel talks about navigating two vocal surgeries, aging in entertainment, her identity as a Black American, and how jazz became the liberating art form she was always meant to sing. She shares wisdom for artists, singers, and anyone searching for their path: how to know what’s yours, how to honor your voice, and how grace and pride can carry you through breaking moments.In this episode they explore: The $1.99 CD that saved Mel’s voice and rewrote her futureWhat two vocal surgeries taught her about healing, humility and reclaiming her voiceWhy Mel was expected to be someone else—before they even heard her singThe underestimated power of silent recovery and vocal restRejecting the label ‘African American’ in favor of something more rootedHow artists can stop chasing youth and start owning their power Mel Collins:Follow her on InstagramCheck out her music and hire her to sing! If this episode spoke to you, you will love Find Laughter in Life & Death with actress/producer Jennica Schwartzman. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleySpecial Guest: Mel CollinsThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail

Are you sober curious? What if sobriety wasn’t a loss, but a doorway to something richer, deeper, and more vibrant? In this episode of Beauty in the Break, Foster and Cesar explore the concept of joyful sobriety, a term that flips the narrative from shame and scarcity to celebration and self-connection. Whether you're newly sober or just beginning to explore what it means to be sober curious, they share how choosing to stop drinking (for vastly different reasons) opened up clarity, creativity, spiritual depth, and real emotional presence. From near-misses and cravings to sober parenting and creative breakthroughs, this conversation weaves together lived experience with gentle wisdom. This episode is an invitation into a world where sobriety isn’t about less, it’s about more. More vibrance, more presence, and more of your real self.In this episode:Why joyful sobriety is a radical reframe of the narrative around addiction and alcoholFoster's reason for quitting drinkingCesar’s raw, honest account of waking up at the wheelThe myth of being “less fun” without alcoholThe process that helped Cesar heal from addictionFoster’s revelation about alcohol and creativityCesar’s take on waking up clear without having to check for his kidneysThe question we should be asking ourselves about the role of alcohol in our livesSpecial feature: A beautiful chorus of voices from their joyfully sober friends: Chan Kinchla, Kate Anthony, Megan Stewart, Glenn Milley, Eve Sturges, Johanna Brown, and others.Mention Beauty in the Break at Burden of Proof in Pasadena, and get 20% off your purchase!If this episode spoke to you, you will love The Eating Habits We Didn’t Choose where Foster unpacks her diagnosis of an eating disorder. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyEditor: Bessie FongSend us Fan Mail

What if rest isn’t something you earn, but something you need in order to live fully? In this episode of Beauty in the Break, Foster and Cesar explore the radical and often misunderstood practice of rest in a culture addicted to hustle, productivity, and burnout. Through personal stories, cultural critique, and embodied wisdom, they unpack why rest is not laziness, but a necessary act of self-trust, nervous system regulation, and an act of rebellion against systems that reward exhaustion. This conversation is for anyone feeling overwhelmed, burned out, or quietly longing for permission to slow down.In this episode: Why hustle culture keeps us exhausted and disconnectedHow burnout sneaks in through productivityCesar’s honest and emotional confessionWhy nature never rushes and neither should weHow rest reshapes creativity and clarityBreaking cycles our children inheritAlso mentioned:Rest Is Resistance: A Manifesto by Tricia Hersey (The Nap Ministry)Thinking, Fast and Slow by Daniel KahnemanIn the FLO by Alisa VittiFoster’s dad in How to Be A Rebel with Dr. Reid WilsonIf this episode spoke to you, you will love Say More! Vol. 2: Hustle Culture Sucks where we explore more problems of hustle culture. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Receive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleySend us Fan Mail

Today on Beauty in the Break, Foster and Cesar sit down with Foster’s father, renowned clinical psychologist Dr. Reid Wilson, PhD, an internationally recognized expert on anxiety disorders, panic attacks, and OCD, to explore how he turned his urge to be a troublemaker into a force for good. From adolescent trauma and rebellion to pioneering practical self-help approaches for anxiety, Reid shares how urgency, compassion, and action shaped his unconventional path.This episode is for anyone who feels called to challenge broken systems, take meaningful action, and create change from the inside out.In this episode they explore: What trauma, anxiety, and aggression have in commonWhy Reid chose disruption over academic approvalThe hidden cost of being an outlier in mental healthWhy self-help reaches people therapy can’tHow to tap into your own confidenceTo connect with Reid, visit www.anxieties.com. Also mentioned:Don’t Panic: Taking Control of Anxiety AttacksQuiet Your OCD Brain (releases: 6.1.26)OCD & the Six Moment Game The Eating Habits We Didn’t Choose How to Spot a GatekeeperSee Reid in the 70s on Instagram!Let's connect! [email protected]   Cesar Cardona:Receive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleySend us Fan Mail

In Part 2 of this immersive community conversation, Foster and Cesar invite their guests to explore a new question. From health scares and skyrocketing blood pressure to identity shifts, career crossroad moments, burnout, and creative reinvention, the group dives into candid reflections about mental health, emotional resilience, and spiritual realignment. The result is a powerful meditation on change, surrender, and rediscovering one’s purpose.Connect with the guests:Ari Haderspiritual explorer, mom and actor (Dexter, Grey’s Anatomy)Ari on IMDbco-host of Spiritual Practices of the Disgruntled Artist host of Magick and Manifestation for Actors IG: @arihaderisyourfriendDuane Benjamin composer, musician, and instructor at UCLA School of MusicYoutube: @duanebenjaminIG: @dben_jamin919Jamaal PittmanRobinson Prize award-winning copy editor, manager and screenwriterauthor of The Copy Editor's (Life)Style Guideco-founder of the Annie and Sallie Ann Wheeler Memorial ScholarshipIG: @jamaaldpittmanKatie Hallactor, wedding planner, FUCK YES energy cultivator & queer mama of two ✨IG: @theplantbasedbooIG: @bestdayeverla_eventsIf you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Receive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail

In Part 1 of Soup & Stories, Foster and Cesar gather a circle of creatives and close friends for an intimate, community-style storytelling session. What unfolds is a raw, emotional exploration of grief, family estrangement, marriage transitions, boundaries, forgiveness, and the complicated dynamics of long-term friendships. These stories weave together themes of emotional healing, self-compassion, and personal growth, anchoring the episode firmly in real-life transformation.Connect with the guests:Ari Haderspiritual explorer, mom and actor (Dexter, Grey’s Anatomy)Ari on IMDbco-host of Spiritual Practices of the Disgruntled Artist host of Magick and Manifestation for Actors IG: @arihaderisyourfriendDuane Benjamin composer, musician, and instructor at UCLA School of MusicYoutube: @duanebenjaminIG: @dben_jamin919Jamaal PittmanRobinson Prize award-winning copy editor, manager and screenwriterauthor of The Copy Editor's (Life)Style Guideco-founder of the Annie and Sallie Ann Wheeler Memorial ScholarshipIG: @jamaaldpittmanKatie Hallactor, wedding planner, FUCK YES energy cultivator & queer mama of two ✨IG: @theplantbasedbooIG: @bestdayeverla_eventsIf you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Receive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail

Vulnerable is beautiful. In this conversation about mental health, depression, and healing, Cesar shares his life-long struggle with clinical depression. He describes how it manifested in childhood, relationships, substance use, and moments of crisis. Together on Beauty in the Break, Foster and Cesar break down what depression actually feels like inside the mind and body, why so many people don’t recognize their symptoms, and how tools like SSRIs, meditation, and Buddhist philosophy helped him move toward clarity and peace.Foster brings essential insight into postpartum depression (PPD), perinatal mood disorders, and the alarming mental health statistics among birthing people, especially Black and Brown parents who face systemic inequities. Together, they unpack why depression often hides behind confidence and how to speak about suicidal thoughts with compassion. This powerful episode will help you better understand depression whether it lives in you or someone you care about. In this episode they explore: What depression actually feels like from the insideThe truth about alcoholism and depression’s chemical gripHow SSRIs transformed Cesar’s relationship with his own mindThe surprising connection between Buddhism, meditation, and healingThe moment Cesar nearly ended his life, and the tattoo that saved himPostpartum depression statistics everyone should knowHow to best support someone in a depressive episodeIf you or someone you know needs support: Call or text 988 for the 24/7 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline in the USSuicide Awareness Voices of EducationPostpartum Support International (PSI)Also mentioned: Maternal Health Advocate Angelina Spicer and her non-profit Spicey MomsIf this episode spoke to you, you will love The Eating Habits We Didn’t Choose where we explore disordered eating and food insecurity. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Receive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterGet guided meditation from Cesar on his website Listen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleySend us Fan Mail

What does your relationship with money say about you? In this Beauty in the Break conversation, Foster and Cesar open up about ancestral scarcity, financial anxiety, overspending, and avoidance, revealing how their opposite money styles both clash and connect as they build a life together. We’re not giving our financial advice here, but instead having an honest exploration of healing your relationship with money and learning to see money as energy, emotion, and connection.Together they explore money trauma, inherited beliefs, and the ways nervous-system triggers shape our money mindset. What happens when one partner hoards while the other avoids? Can we learn to feel safe with money and open to abundance at the same time? This episode invites awareness, compassion, and a gentler path toward money healing, trust, and emotional abundance.In this episode they explore: How attachment theory shows up in your relationship with moneyThe truth behind “money can’t buy happiness”How ancestral stories and family history shape money beliefsLearning to trust your partner with moneyHow to find flow between scarcity and abundanceReal-life examples of moving from tension to tenderness with moneyAlso mentioned:Daniel Kahneman’s 2010 happiness and income studyMatthew Killingsworth’s 2021 follow up studyIf this episode spoke to you, you will love How to Spot A Gatekeeper where we explore reclaiming authentic power. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail

Self-care has become a buzzword, but what does it really mean? In this conversation, Foster and Cesar dismantle the myth that self-care is something you buy, and reveal how it’s something you build from within. From exercise and rest to asking for help and receiving compliments, they explore the small, daily acts that nurture your mental, emotional, and physical well-being.Whether you’re a recovering perfectionist, a new parent, or someone trying to slow down in a productivity-obsessed world, this episode invites you to reconnect with what truly matters: listening to your body, honoring your needs, and cultivating inner peace. You’ll walk away inspired to create a self-care practice that’s grounded in love, not obligation.In this episode they explore: The hidden link between self-talk, healing, and emotional regulationWhy asking for help might be the most radical act of self-loveBreaking free from societal values like productivity and perfectionismLearning to receive compliments as a spiritual practiceHow rest, stillness, and listening to your body change everythingBuilding a community-based, interdependent model of careCesar mentions his struggle with “learning how to learn”, which is explored deeper in Episode 2: The Beauty of Letting Go. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleySend us Fan Mail

In part two of this powerful conversation, licensed therapist JJ Brake sits down with Foster and Cesar for a live couples session, revealing how her Internal Family Systems and Intimacy from the Inside Out work helps partners connect beneath conflict. You will hear Foster and Cesar unpack a real moment of tension, guided by JJ’s compassionate framework for understanding triggers, defensiveness, and emotional parts within relationships.JJ also shares her own breaking moment: losing her family home in the devastating Altadena fires. She opens up about grief, resilience, and the concept of “post-traumatic growth”, reflecting on how tragedy can become fertile ground for healing and renewal. This episode is a raw and heart-centered exploration of love, trauma, and the courage to stay connected through it all.In this episode they explore: What happens when a therapist leads her clients (live!) through a real couples conflictHow Internal Family Systems (IFS) reveals the hidden “parts” behind our reactionsThe surprising power of humor in therapy and emotional repairWhat it really means to feel seen versus dismissed by your partnerHow anger, grief, and resilience can coexist in the healing processTo connect with JJ Brake, visit jjbrake.com. Her app Unblend.me is the first platform designed for between-session mental wellness. Try it for free now! Also mentioned: The Gottman MethodIntimacy From The Inside OutNon-Violent Communication / Courageous CommunicationInternal Family SystemsListen to Part 1 of our conversation with JJ Brake here: Curiosity Over Conflict: How to Heal Relationships with JJ Brake. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleySpecial Guest: JJ BrakeSend us Fan Mail

In Part 1 of this moving conversation, Cesar and Foster sit down with Foster’s longtime therapist, JJ Brake, to explore what truly makes relationships thrive. JJ is an expert in couples therapy, parent education, and Internal Family Systems (IFS), and shares the three keys to lasting connection. She breaks down how to navigate conflict, communicate courageously, and offers tangible tools for more mindful relationships.In this episode they explore: The 3 relationship skills that every couple should knowWhy context doesn’t matter in conflict and what to focus on insteadThe power of the U-turn: how to take ownership of your triggers and communicate from the heartWhy “I’m sorry” often misses the mark and what real accountability sounds likeThe surprising emotional truth behind your child’s “tantrums”To connect with JJ Brake, visit jjbrake.com. Her app Unblend.me is the first platform designed for between-session mental wellness. Try it for free now! Also mentioned:Episode 7: The Eating Habits We Didn’t ChooseEpisode 14: What We Learned in TherapyThe Gottman MethodIntimacy From The Inside OutNon-Violent CommunicationInternal Family SystemsPunished By Rewards by Alfie KohnThe Sound Relationship HouseYou can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleySpecial Guest: JJ BrakeThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail

In this laid-back bonus episode of Beauty in the Break, Foster and Cesar explore the sacred feminine and sacred masculine energies, going beyond gender to uncover how these forces live within all of us. Drawing inspiration from Rise, Sister, Rise by Rebecca Campbell, they unpack balanced vs. unbalanced expressions of feminine and masculine energy, touching on sexuality, support, protection, and partnership. You will come away from this conversation with a deeper understanding of how to recognize and nurture balanced feminine energy and masculine energy in yourself and your relationships.In this episode, they explore: What sacred feminine energy really looks like beyond stereotypesHow sexuality can shift from shame to empowermentWhy the sacred masculine includes worshipping the feminineWhat it means to be a protector versus being protectiveThe dance between feminine and masculine energies in partnershipBe sure to listen to the full episode on Gender Roles & Invisible Labor that spawned this conversation. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show! Send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram.Cesar Cardona: Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson: Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleySend us Fan Mail

In this episode of Beauty in the Break, Foster and Cesar unpack the complexity of gender roles, invisible labor, and how cultural expectations affect everything from parenting and relationships to careers and self-expression. They share deeply personal stories: crying in secret as a boy, being the first girl on a football team, navigating motherhood and invisible labor, and redefining what masculinity and femininity actually mean.They offer insights into why gender roles persist, how the mental load affects families, and why recognition and appreciation matter as much as sharing responsibilities. This conversation also dives into modern masculinity, equity in household labor, and the invisible expectations placed on women. It’s a powerful exploration of what it means to break free from outdated gender scripts and create more authentic, equitable lives.In this episode: The hidden weight of invisible labor in householdsWhy the “mental load” often falls on women and how to shift itThe unlearning process of masculinity and the freedom in cryingBreaking molds: sports, church, and challenging traditionParenting during the pandemic and the cost of invisible workMasculine vs. feminine energies and how both live in everyoneRedefining modern masculinity and femininity on your own termsIf this episode spoke to you, you will love Sexuality Isn’t Simple where we explore our sexual identities. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail

In this bonus meditation episode of Beauty in the Break, Cesar guides you through a Growth Mindfulness meditation to quiet your inner critic and reconnect with the present moment. You’ll learn how to release tension, calm the noise in your mind, and cultivate mindful awareness. Whether you’re seeking stress relief, emotional healing, or a simple practice to ground yourself, be sure to save this guided mindfulness meditation so you can return to it anytime.To work with Cesar on Growth Mindfulness and meditation one-on-one, you can reach out to him via his website at www.cesarcardona.com.Be sure to listen to How to Quiet Your Inner Critic: The 4 Steps of Growth Mindfulness. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleySend us Fan Mail

What if your loudest inner critic could become your greatest teacher? In this conversation, Foster and Cesar explore Growth Mindfulness, a practice that helps us separate from negative self-talk and uncover the calm, clarity, and confidence already living inside us. From childhood wounds to social fears, they reveal how our thoughts can hold us back—and how meditation, awareness, and simple mantras can free us to live with authenticity and courage.You will hear Cesar guide Foster through a live coaching session, offering a step-by-step approach to identifying and naming inner struggles, reframing self-doubt, and reconnecting with inner wisdom. This episode is for anyone who struggles with overwhelm, comparison, or fear of judgment, and wants practical tools to step into peace, self-trust, and personal growth.In this episode they explore: Why your inner critic may be stuck in childhood fearsA four-step framework for calming your inner struggleHow meditation is NOT what you think it isWhy external success can never quiet internal unrestSmall daily practices that build authentic confidenceWhy peace—not happiness—is the root of growthA live coaching session on overwhelm and self-trustPLUS, learn where you can find Cesar’s exclusive Growth Mindfulness meditation!To work with Cesar on Growth Mindfulness and meditation one-on-one, you can reach out to him via his website at www.cesarcardona.com.Foster mentions her eating disorder brain, which they talk about in The Eating Habits We Didn’t Choose. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyEditor: Bessie FongSend us Fan Mail

Sexuality isn’t always so simple. And in this intimate, unfiltered conversation, Foster and Cesar share how their identities, attractions, and labels have shifted over time. From growing up in environments that suppressed queerness to exploring pansexuality, demisexuality, and life beyond the binary, they reflect on love, desire, and self-acceptance. And for the first time on the show, Cesar opens up about a part of his sexuality he’s never shared publicly before, offering an honest and deeply personal look at his journey. If you’ve ever questioned a label, felt in-between, or wanted to understand the fluid spectrum of queer identity, this episode will leave you feeling seen.In this episode they explore: Cesar’s journey to finding his sexual identity and what that means to himHow labels can help communication but never fully define youFoster’s discovery of being demisexual and how that shapes her relationshipsThe difference between bisexuality and pansexuality explained clearlyThe safety found in queer spaces and communitiesWhy curiosity matters more than knowing “the label”If this episode spoke to you, you might love Finding Your Authentic Voice with Mel Collins. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleySend us Fan Mail

Foster and Cesar dive deep into our screen habits, asking the vital question: what does a healthy relationship with your phone actually look like? They share their evolving perspectives on smartphones, screen time, and social media, especially as parents who are navigating the decision of when (and how) to introduce tech to their children. They examine not just the mental health data around screen use, but also the emotional undercurrents: dopamine addiction, numbing, comparison culture, and the aching loneliness that can exist in the age of hyper-connectivity.This is a warm, non-judgmental conversation for anyone wrestling with digital burnout, setting phone boundaries, or seeking alternatives to screen-based connection. Drawing on their own family systems and creative lives, Foster and Cesar unpack screen time as the "new fast food," exploring how to treat smartphones as tools (not lifelines) and how real-life community and mindful connection are the true antidotes to digital overwhelm. A must-listen for anyone exploring digital wellness, conscious social media use, and building meaningful relationships in a tech-saturated world.In this episode they explore: Are we living in The McSmartphone Era?Parenting: when is the right time to give a kid a phone?Are we connecting—or just numbing?What actually makes a phone habit healthy?Why boundaries and intention matter more than just deleting appsDopamine vs. oxytocin: the chemistry behind phone addictionTransforming your digital habits—without shameAlso mentioned: The Anxious Generation by Jonathan HaidtWorry Over Social Media May Be Misplaced - Stanford studyFoster’s eating disorder which is explored in The Eating Habits We Didn’t ChooseOff the Grid with Amelia HrubyYou can also watch the episodes on YouTube!If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail

In this episode of Beauty in the Break, Foster and Cesar bring you 12 unforgettable therapy lessons that reshaped their lives. Drawing from years of individual therapy, couples therapy, Jungian analysis, and parts work, they share tangible wisdom that listeners can apply to their own healing and communication journeys. Whether you’re navigating family dynamics, learning to self-regulate, or trying to let go of old stories, this episode is full of relatable and transformative moments.They also discuss powerful therapeutic tools like Internal Family Systems (IFS), the importance of repair in relationships, and how to show up truthfully without controlling the outcome. If you’re craving real talk about mental health, personal responsibility, emotional intelligence, and how to actually change, this episode is one to bookmark and revisit. In this episode they explore: The parenting mindset shift that changes everything after a mistakeWhat to do instead of chasing “balance” — and why it rarely worksA surprising truth about how you judge others (and what it says about you)The communication formula that protects relationships from resentmentThe healing magic of writing — and the 5-day practice that builds confidenceWhy trying to “be right” might be making you miserableHow to work with your inner child using IFS-style parts workCesar mentions his accident, which is detailed in Cesar’s Accident: The Scars of Rebirth.If this episode spoke to you, you may enjoy The Eating Habits We Didn’t Choose, where we explore the truth of disordered eating and how to heal. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleySend us Fan Mail

Award-winning jazz vocalist Mel Collins joins Beauty in the Break for a powerful conversation about healing through music, reclaiming identity, and finding joy in your authentic voice. Mel opens up about her journey from musical theater to jazz after years of vocal nodules, depression, and identity loss. When the discovery of one Ella Fitzgerald CD changed everything, Mel rediscovered her joy—and her calling.Mel talks about navigating two vocal surgeries, aging in entertainment, her identity as a Black American, and how jazz became the liberating art form she was always meant to sing. She shares wisdom for artists, singers, and anyone searching for their path: how to know what’s yours, how to honor your voice, and how grace and pride can carry you through breaking moments.In this episode they explore: The $1.99 CD that saved Mel’s voice and rewrote her futureWhat two vocal surgeries taught her about healing, humility and reclaiming her voiceWhy Mel was expected to be someone else—before they even heard her singThe underestimated power of silent recovery and vocal restRejecting the label ‘African American’ in favor of something more rootedHow artists can stop chasing youth and start owning their power Mel Collins:Follow her on InstagramCheck out her music and hire her to sing! If this episode spoke to you, you will love Find Laughter in Life & Death with actress/producer Jennica Schwartzman. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleySpecial Guest: Mel CollinsSend us Fan Mail

What if your deepest fears about aging weren’t about wrinkles or retirement—but about forgetting your own name, or being forgotten by the people you love? In this soul-stirring episode of Beauty in the Break, Foster and Cesar return with their listener-favorite “Say More” series for a deeply personal, unscripted conversation on spiritual connection, parenting through imperfection, aging, grief, family patterns, and what might live on after death.Through surprise prompts, they explore the aching beauty of the present moment, the possibility of spirit guides and past lives, and the emotional weight of watching loved ones change—or vanish—over time. From Cesar’s longing to understand the unseen world to Foster’s vision of village-style parenting in modern cities, this episode holds space for vulnerability, wonder, and real-time healing. Whether you're navigating big life transitions, contemplating spiritual beliefs, or simply looking for a reminder that you're not alone, this episode offers a poetic invitation to slow down, say more, and reconnect—with yourself, your people, and the mystery of life.In this episode:How Foster figured out who her spirit guides are—and why it doesn’t matter if it’s “real”Can a psychic tell you who you are? The mystery of mediums, ancestral wisdom, and what lies beyondCesar drops a wildly unpopular opinion about parenting—and you might secretly agreeThe "village" Foster dreams of building—and how it could change motherhood in citiesThe terrifying beauty of growing old: Why we fear aging more than death itselfHow falling in love sparked a creative renaissance—and birthed a poetry book, a podcast, and a whole new selfWhy pretending we have it all together is hurting us—and what happens when we admit we don’tIf this episode spoke to you, you will love Say More! Vol. 2 where we reject hustle culture and spill some secrets. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail

This bonus episode of Beauty in the Break is an extended compilation of wisdom from Foster & Cesar’s joyfully sober friends—real people sharing powerful, funny, and vulnerable reflections on sobriety, addiction, and healing. You’ll hear from Chan Kinchla, Kate Anthony, Megan Stewart, Glenn Milley, Eve Sturges, Johanna Brown, and others. Whether you’re sober curious, reevaluating your relationship with alcohol, or already on the path, this episode offers candid truths and heartfelt encouragement from diverse voices who’ve walked that road. These sobriety stories offer insight, comfort, and inspiration for anyone seeking freedom, clarity, and a more grounded life.In this episode:How one friend reframed sobriety as “a lazy woman’s spirituality dream”The unexpected thing that makes socializing easier after sobrietyWhy “getting your brain back” is the ultimate sober giftThe surprising reason one friend calls sobriety “disappointing… in a good way”A reminder that the hottest thing on the planet is asking for helpIf this bonus episode spoke to you, make sure you listen to The Secret of Joyful Sobriety where we explore the surprising joys of getting sober. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleySend us Fan Mail

Are you sober curious? What if sobriety wasn’t a loss—but a doorway to something richer, deeper, and more vibrant? In this episode of Beauty in the Break, Foster and Cesar explore the concept of joyful sobriety—a term that flips the narrative from shame and scarcity to celebration and self-connection. Whether you're newly sober or just beginning to explore what it means to be sober curious, they share how choosing to stop drinking (for vastly different reasons) opened up clarity, creativity, spiritual depth, and real emotional presence. From near-misses and cravings to sober parenting and creative breakthroughs, this conversation weaves together lived experience with gentle wisdom. This episode is an invitation into a world where sobriety isn’t about less—it’s about more. More vibrance, more presence, and more of your real self.In this episode:Why joyful sobriety is a radical reframe of the narrative around addiction and alcoholFoster's reason for quitting drinkingCesar’s raw, honest account of waking up at the wheelThe myth of being “less fun” without alcoholThe process that helped Cesar heal from addictionFoster’s revelation about alcohol and creativityCesar’s take on waking up clear – without having to check for his kidneysThe question we should be asking ourselves about the role of alcohol in our livesSpecial feature: A beautiful chorus of voices from their joyfully sober friends: Chan Kinchla, Kate Anthony, Megan Stewart, Glenn Milley, Eve Sturges, Johanna Brown, and others.Mention Beauty in the Break at Burden of Proof in Pasadena, and get 20% off your purchase!If this episode spoke to you, you will love The Eating Habits We Didn’t Choose where Foster unpacks her diagnosis of an eating disorder. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyEditor: Bessie FongSend us Fan Mail

In this episode of Beauty in the Break, Cesar and Foster dive into the vulnerable, often uncomfortable act of admitting when we’re wrong—and how that simple phrase can shift everything. They reflect on how our ego, upbringing, and societal norms all shape our relationship to being right, and how choosing honesty over defensiveness can lead to unexpected moments of intimacy, relief, and growth.Through heartfelt personal stories, they offer the idea that saying “I was wrong” can build deeper connections with kids, partners, colleagues, and even ourselves. This episode is a love letter to imperfection and the courage it takes to be real.In this episode they explore: Why “I was wrong” might be the most powerful phrase you’re not using enough—and how it actually builds trustA real-life story about how a failed podcast booking turned into a personal breakthrough for CesarWhat Foster learned about parenting solo and repairing ruptures with her children in real timeHow to give yourself the parenting you wished you had as a child Foster’s career pivots and how letting go of “what could have been” has brought her more joyA forgiveness practice you can do even if the person who hurt you never says they’re sorryThe Buddhist metaphor that will reframe your understanding of rigidity and growth foreverCesar mentions Episode 5: Cesar’s Accident. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleySend us Fan Mail

After losing her father suddenly, actress, producer, and stand-up comic Jennica Schwartzman turned to comedy, storytelling, and creative community as a way to navigate grief and reclaim her identity. She joins Beauty in the Break for a powerful conversation about healing after loss, diving into stand-up comedy, and the ways her ministry upbringing shaped her voice as a storyteller. Jennica also shares how she continues to build inclusive creative spaces while parenting and producing meaningful art.This is what it’s really like to handle the business of death—from managing legal documents and phone calls to emotionally processing a parent’s digital life. What does it mean to become the adult in your family? What do we inherit beyond objects? And how do we feel alive again?If you've ever wondered how to prepare for a parent's death, how to grieve creatively, or what it means to reinvent yourself after life breaks you open—this is the honest conversation you need to hear.In this episode:The secret ingredient behind Jennica’s wildly creative lifeStarting stand-up comedy in your 30s (and what it awakens)Why grieving might be the most adult thing you ever doWhat Jennica learned from inheriting 38 books on the Assassination of JFKThe bittersweet beauty of wearing your father’s clothesHow to become “dad” when no one else canHow to prepare for a parent’s death (while they’re still alive)Jennica Schwartzman:Follow her on InstagramGet her book Behind the ScreensSee her next stand-up show!If this episode spoke to you, you will love Episode 3: Foster’s Loss where she tells the story of her late-term pregnancy loss and the beauty on the other side. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyEditor: Bessie FongSpecial Guest: Jennica SchwartzmanSend us Fan Mail

Welcome to the most playful episode yet! In Say More! Vol. 2, Foster and Cesar return with their recurring series where they pull unexpected questions from a deck and go wherever the stories lead. What follows is a ride through ice cream scooping traumas, pit bull heroism, skydiving metaphors, teenage gang life, and what happens when you're faced with a really, really bad boss. Amidst the play, they touch on fear, self-expression, and the transformation that comes from choosing a partner who helps you become more yourself. This episode is a reminder that some of the most beautiful breakthroughs happen when you're just having fun and saying more. In this episode: A true story about a deaf man, his pit bull, and a life-saving act you won’t believeFoster’s very first job—and why it only lasted 2 months (hint: bad lighting + poor triceps)Cesar’s epic “I quit” moment after a 5 a.m. beer truck meltdownWhy Foster is so glad hustle culture is in the rearview—and what she’s replaced it withCesar’s high school transformation from gang life to Buddhist robesThe interview that shook Foster’s confidenceWhat Cesar would do if he were a woman for a dayFoster mentions Leaps of Faith which is in Episode 1: Breaking Open. If this episode spoke to you, you will love the first volume of this game Say More! Boomers, Benders and Bare Skin!You can also watch the episodes on YouTube!If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps.Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail

Foster and Cesar bravely share their radically different relationships with disordered eating, trauma, and healing. Foster opens up about living with an undiagnosed eating disorder for 22 years—marked by constant food obsession and internalized body shame—before receiving a diagnosis that finally brought relief and a path forward. Cesar shares his story of childhood hunger and neglect, and how that scarcity shaped his adult relationship with food. Together, they explore how trauma lives in the body and how healing requires listening within. If you’re sitting with a complex relationship to food or your body, whether it’s anorexia, bulimia, body dysmorphia, orthorexia, binge-eating, or a more nuanced disordered eating fed to you by diet culture, this episode is designed to be the first step in your healing process. You are not alone. In this episode: Foster reveals her 22-year struggle with food and eating—and the diagnosis that set her freeThe shocking truth of what her inner voice sounds likeFoster takes us inside the mind of someone with an eating disorderCesar shares the lasting imprint of childhood hunger including scarcity and shameThe foods Cesar gives himself full permission to indulge inThe household phrase that still haunts Foster—and how she’s learning to reject diet cultureWhat intuitive eating looks like in real life—and why Foster calls herself a toddler in recoveryCesar’s powerful reminder that eating—and healing—isn’t about rulesAlso mentioned: Intuitive Eating by Evelyn Tribole & Elyse ReschOur episode on How to Spot a Gatekeeper! You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice memo to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyEditor: Bessie FongThis episode is brought to you by Arlene Thornton & AssociatesSend us Fan Mail

Foster and Cesar dive into the topic of gatekeepers—those visible and invisible forces that control access to success, opportunity, healing, and recognition. They explore how gatekeeping shows up in creative industries, media, friendships, and even family dynamics. With vulnerable storytelling, they unpack moments where they’ve felt on the outside looking in and how they've reclaimed power by creating their own doors—or walking away entirely.This episode is a call to self-trust and liberation. Through honest and sometimes embarrassing revelations, Foster and Cesar invite you to consider where you might be waiting for permission instead of granting it to yourself. If you’ve ever felt like someone else held the keys to your next step—this one is for you.In this episode: What gatekeeping is and where it shows upThe surprising place Foster encountered a gatekeeperCesar’s embarrassing truth of being a gatekeeper to someone elseWhy being a “Gate Greeter” might be their new favorite thing The most beautiful gesture Foster received from strangersThe invisible ways we gatekeep ourselvesAlso mentioned: The loss of Foster’s son Wilde, outlined in Episode 3.Community leader and actress Leonora Pitts. The Narrative Life of Frederick DouglassIf this episode spoke to you, you will love Breaking Open where Foster & Cesar explore transformation through leaps of faith. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleySend us Fan Mail

In this powerful episode, Cesar bravely recounts the night he was physically assaulted by a group of men—a traumatic event that left him with severe physical injuries and a deep, unshakable imprint on his psyche that changed him forever. He details the harrowing moments of the attack and the grueling recovery process that forced him to confront deep-seated anger, self-loathing, and the loss of his previous identity as a boxer and physical trainer. Throughout the episode, Cesar shares how this life-altering experience, though steeped in pain and vulnerability, ultimately led him to a transformative journey. By choosing to let go of his justified anger and embrace forgiveness and self-love, he not only began healing physically but also embarked on a spiritual rebirth. For anyone facing a rock bottom, this episode may resonate with hope for renewal and inner peace.In this episode: The raw truth behind facing trauma and finding unexpected beauty in the painThe challenging question posed to Cesar—and why saying “no thank you” changed everythingHis mother’s powerful reaction and Foster’s maternal connection to herHow breaking the cycle of anger was Cesar’s ultimate act of self-loveThe hidden power of forgiveness—and how letting go of rage became the key to renewalThe surprising role of vulnerability in reclaiming control and peaceFoster also mentions the loss of her son Wilde, which is discussed in Episode 3: Foster’s Loss. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube. If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyEditor: Bessie FongSend us Fan Mail

In this lively episode, Foster and Cesar introduce a soul-bearing conversation game that fast-tracked their emotional intimacy. With thought-provoking and hilarious questions, they reveal unexpected truths, from childhood food obsessions to spontaneous skinny-dipping stories. Along the way, they explore deep themes like healing through food, navigating anxiety, and the generational shifts in values. In this episode, they explore: The surprising reason Cesar used to eat half a cheesecake for dessertFoster’s TSA nightmare: how a can of chickpeas got her stuck at securityNavigating generational differences—are Boomers misunderstood?How Foster’s dad was a radical sex-ed advocate in the '70sThe ultimate takeaway—why curiosity is more powerful than judgment in relationshipsAlso mentioned: The powerful documentary The Work by Jairus McLeary and Gethin Aldous. If this episode spoke to you, you will love The Beauty of Letting Go where we explore how control is an illusion. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps!Reach out to the show—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That MatterFoster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s VillageCreated & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn MilleyEditor: Bessie FongSend us Fan Mail

In this heartfelt episode of Beauty in the Break, Foster shares her deeply personal experience with pregnancy loss and grief. She opens up about her journey through the devastating news, the difficult decisions, and the emotional and physical aftermath. Alongside Cesar, they explore the healing process, looking for light along the way, and the importance of sharing our stories. This episode is a powerful reflection on grief, surrender, and transformation, as well as the unexpected beauty that emerged from the darkest season of Foster’s life. Content disclosure: pregnancy loss / miscarriage / stillbirth / infant lossIn this episode:The impossible choice Foster made—and why she doesn’t regret itWhy she chose to feel every ounce of painThe unexpected way Foster broke the news before anyone could askWhat no one tells you could happen after losing a babyHow saying ‘yes’ from the depths of grief transformed her entire futureIf you or someone you love is struggling with a miscarriage or loss, here are some healing resources: Return to Zero: H.O.P.Estill BirthdayTo support some small but mighty organizations doing great work in this field, please consider donating to: The Skylar ProjectMattie’s MemoryIf this episode spoke to you, you may enjoy Episode 1: Breaking Open. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.We’d love to hear from you—send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow us on Instagram. Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifySubscribe to his newsletter Insights That Matter     Foster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum doula servicesSubscribe to her newsletter Foster’s Village     Created & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn Milley Editor: Bessie FongSend us Fan Mail

In this deeply reflective episode of Beauty in the Break, Foster and Cesar dive into the challenge of letting go of control and what it truly means to surrender. They explore personal stories of grappling with repetitive thought patterns, from childhood conditioning to parenthood and beyond. Cesar shares his current process of learning how to learn, breaking old patterns of fear and self-doubt, while Foster reflects on the lifelong lesson of surrendering to the unknown—especially through the lens of pregnancy, birth, and parenting. Together, they unpack the voices that shape our inner narratives and discuss how recognizing these voices can lead to greater self-awareness, healing, and grace. Whether you’re navigating relationships, personal growth, or parenting challenges, this episode offers a powerful reminder that true freedom comes from trusting the process.In this episode, we explore: Why control is an illusion and how it keeps us stuckThe unexpected power of Foster’s single ‘Yes’ How parenting can reveal our deepest control strugglesThe moment Cesar saw his inner childWhy life’s biggest lessons keep coming back until we fully embrace themWhy the ability to let go leads to a deeper sense of peace and freedomAlso mentioned:The Surrender Experiment by Michael A. SingerThe Body Keeps the Score by Bessel van der KolkJeff Buckley’s album GraceConnect with us! We want to hear from you. Submit your Word of the Week via email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow us on Instagram. If this episode spoke to you, you will love Episode 1: Breaking Open where we explore taking a leap of faith. You can also watch the episodes on YouTubeCesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to music from Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifyReceive his monthly newsletter Insights That Matter    Foster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum servicesReceive her monthly newsletter Foster’s Village    Created & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn Milley Editor: Bessie FongSend us Fan Mail

In this debut episode of Beauty in the Break, hosts Foster Wilson and Cesar Cardona invite you into their world, where deep conversations, raw vulnerability, and the beauty of transformation take center stage. They introduce the heart of the podcast—exploring the moments that break us open and how we find light on the other side. Through personal stories, honest reflections, and thoughtful discussion, they dive into the experience of fear, uncertainty, and taking a leap of faith into the unknown. With humor, depth, and a willingness to be truly seen, this episode is both soul-nourishing and deeply relatable.In this episode, they explore: What it really means to “break open” and how transformation happensListening to your body’s signals—how Foster knew it was time to leave a 17-year relationshipWhy fear is a sign of growth (and how to work with it instead of against it)Cesar’s leap of faith: moving to Los Angeles without a plan, and the unexpected lesson he learnedGrieving old versions of ourselves while stepping into something newWhy Cesar slept in his car (and how a stranger changed everything) The power of vulnerability—why being open is the key to deep connectionAnd introducing… Words of the Week!If this episode resonated with you, check out Episode 2: The Beauty of Letting Go where Foster & Cesar dive deeper into surrendering to uncertainty. You can also watch the episodes on YouTube.     If you enjoyed this episode, take a moment to follow Beauty in the Break on your favorite podcast app and leave a review—it really helps! Connect with us! We’d love to hear from you. Send an email or voice note to [email protected] and be sure to follow us on Instagram @beautyinthebreakpod.Cesar Cardona:Attend his upcoming speaking engagementsListen to Cesar + The Clew on Apple Music and SpotifySubscribe to his newsletter Insights That Matter     Foster Wilson:Buy her poetry book Afternoon AbundanceLearn about her postpartum doula servicesSubscribe to her newsletter Foster’s Village     Created & Hosted by: Cesar Cardona and Foster WilsonExecutive Producer: Glenn Milley Send us Fan Mail