轉折黏土｜橘胖的聲音日記

Catch | 接住了什麼？今天試著用Cowork來實現在知識產出過程中我想要自動化的部分。原本只想著說讓它幫我完成把我整理好的分析報告出現的素材檔案，集中整理、搬到特定的資料夾，結果，意外的發現他在我整個工作流當中扮演的居然是那個「唯一能讀懂我要什麼」的角色。因為，當他要尋找素材、搬移檔案之前，首先要做的就是要先能理解這份報告到底在說些什麼？他的主題是什麼？要解決怎樣的問題？這樣他才能為這些問題去準備合適的答案，同時把素材都準備完善，集中一處讓我深度的運用。Linger | 流連有趣的是，這個工具使用角色的轉變，讓我聯想到的居然是我自己人生的經歷。我的人生上半場，過的真的非常的不順，不管做什麼始終都是「差強人意」，我看自己這一生大概也就要這樣「沒出息」的過完了。然而，人生總是這樣的充滿驚喜。轉折，就出現在一場意外的病痛，它中斷了那個「差強人意」的人生節奏，迫使我停下來去思考人生、思考信仰、思考我存在的意義。Associate | 串門就這樣，改變開始了，我參加讀書會，認識了一群同好，我把從自己的經歷閱讀出來的心得和人們分享，獲得了很大的迴響，自己也得到很大的鼓舞。在這樣一個正向的循環中，我逐漸摸清自己的特質，發現那些「我毫不費力就能做得很好的事」，以及做了之後能量充沛的事。我找到了自己的角色與定位。Yield |溢流這世上大多數的人，可能一輩子都不知道自己的角色與定位，甚至連想都沒想過這件事。但，如果有一天你想起來，那就去觀察看看那件「我毫不費力就能做得很好的事」是什麼？答案就在那裡。PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。The Thing I Do Best Is the Thing I Never Worked AtToday I tried using Cowork to automate part of my knowledge workflow. The plan was small: have it gather the source files scattered through a finished analysis report and move them into one folder. What I found instead was that before it could move anything, it had to understand the report — the topic, the problem being solved. Filing turned out to be downstream of comprehension. The tool’s real role wasn’t clerical. It was the only thing in the workflow that could read what I actually wanted.That shift sent me back to my own life. The first half went badly. Whatever I did came out merely adequate, and I assumed I’d finish out an unremarkable life on that setting. The break came from an illness. It interrupted the rhythm and forced me to stop and think about faith, existence, what I was for.Afterwards I joined a book club, started sharing what I’d read out of my own experience, and got a response I hadn’t expected. Inside that loop I gradually worked out my own traits — the things I could do well without effort, the things that left me with more energy than I started with. That was my role.Most people never ask the question. If you ever do: look for the thing that costs you nothing and still comes out good. The answer is sitting there.* PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony.* CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?).Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine.橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language.Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.Wrote this in Mandarin at 10pm, handed it to Claude for the English. It has never been sick a day in its life and still somehow knew what I meant. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？緊接著「CLAY-梭」完成晉升1.0正式版之後，今天我的「素材收集器」也完成了核心功能穩定驗收，從0.19.2版跨進1.0.0的正式版。同時完成命名「Nepenthes CC」，中文是「豬籠草CLAY 捕手」。Linger | 流連為什麼要取一個「Nepenthes」這種聽都沒聽過的名字來當作產品名稱呢？那是因為在今年初春，當CLAY升級到4.0時代的時候，我把原本的「Capture」，換成「Catch」，意味著從那一刻起，我不在主動的去「抓什麼」，而是真正的進入「被動的守候意義浮現」。這時候，在我腦海中浮現的第一個畫面就是「豬籠草」這個植物。因為它不能離開它生存所在的那塊地，只能靜靜的待在那等待獵物的出現，然後在毫秒間吞吃掉獵物。這就像平時當意義浮現的那一瞬間，也像靈感出現一樣，如果不能立刻抓住那個線頭，它隨時會消失。Associate | 串門這對我來說有著極其重大的意義。從「CLAY-梭」到「Nepenthes CC」，我實現了從Catch到Associate的拼接，然後通過「CLAY-梭」與Obsidian的雙向同步，實現了外部素材，內化流連思考（Linger）的串接。至於如何讓Yield的洞見能溢流出去影響更多人，這就是接下來要等候出現的最後一片拼圖了。Yield |溢流今天實現的每一件事，都不是起初想好要這樣規劃的。每一片拼圖都是在實現夢想的過程中自己跑出來的。是在當下的我和過去的自己相會的中間，看到原來你一直就在那裡。PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。I Stopped Chasing Inspiration. Now I Wait Where I Am.Today the material collector hit 1.0.0, and it finally has a name: Nepenthes CC — 豬籠草CLAY捕手, the Pitcher Plant CLAY Catcher.The name goes back to early spring, when CLAY moved to 4.0 and I swapped “Capture” for “Catch.” One word, but it changed the whole posture. Capture means going out to grab something. Catch means staying put and waiting for meaning to surface on its own. The first image that came to mind was the pitcher plant. It can’t leave the patch of ground it grows in. It just sits there — and it never misses. When something arrives, it closes in milliseconds. That’s what catching a thread of meaning is like: if you don’t take it the instant it appears, it’s gone.With Nepenthes CC and CLAY-梭 (CLAY Shuttle) now talking to each other through two-way sync with Obsidian, the stretch from Catch to Linger to Associate is connected. The last piece — how Yield spills outward and reaches other people — I don’t have yet. I’m waiting for that one.None of this was planned. Every piece showed up on its own while I was busy doing the work. Standing between who I am now and who I used to be, what I saw was: you were there the whole time.* PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony.* CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?).Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine.橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language.Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.Fair warning: I wrote this in Chinese and an AI did the English. Fitting, I guess — I sat still and let the words come to me. Very on-brand. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？還記得遙遠的3週前基金會的事嗎？今天迎來了真正的大結局。高層茶壺裡的風暴塵埃落定，正義雖然遲來，但還是來了。Linger | 流連說實在的，從8個月前事件剛開始時的憤怒，到現在的無感，關鍵的轉折是當我對這件事做完仔細的評估之後，發現今天是你們需要我，不是我需要你們。因此，當主客易位之後一切就都不一樣了，我不再糾結於去留，只專注在事情本身的責任歸屬，一切也就好辦了。Associate | 串門還記得以前讀《阿德勒心理學講義》的時候，有看到很關鍵的一個叫做「課題分離」的概念，當時應該是讀不懂，所以就想「這真的是太難了！」人如何能從情感與情緒中抽離出來，這麼冷酷的切割呢?可是，這次的事件讓我明白，原來這不是抽離與切割，而是「往上站一點」，讓自己看得更多一點，有更多的資訊讓自己的判斷更準確一點，才能找到平衡點，讓彼此的利益最大化。這才是「課題分離」能帶給人們正面幫助之所在。Yield |溢流「當局者迷，旁觀者清」。要的其實就是叫我們退後一步，或者往上站一點，挪出空間讓資訊流進來，才能做出更佳的選擇。PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。The Ending I Waited Eight Months For Finally Came, and I Felt NothingThree weeks ago I wrote about the foundation. Today it actually ended — the storm in the teapot settled, justice late but not absent. Eight months ago I was angry about it. Today I feel close to nothing, and that flatness is the part worth looking at.The turning point wasn’t time passing. It was finishing an honest assessment and seeing the real arrangement: they need me; I don’t need them. Once host and guest swap places, staying or leaving stops being the question. What’s left is the plain matter of who is responsible for what — and that’s easy to handle.I used to think Adler’s 課題分離 (separation of tasks) was impossible. It read like instructions for coldly severing yourself from your own feelings. This time I understood it differently. It isn’t detachment or cutting. It’s standing a little higher, so more information can reach you and your judgment gets more accurate — high enough to find the balance point where both sides’ interests can actually hold.The person inside the situation is lost; the one watching from outside sees clearly. That’s not a comment on other people’s blindness. It’s an instruction. Step back, or stand up a bit. Make room for information to flow in. Then choose.* PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony.* CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?).Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine.橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language.Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.Written in Mandarin by me, dragged into English by Claude, who has never sat through a single board meeting and honestly has no idea what it cost me. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？太開心了！果然休息是有用的。今天一鼓作氣的順利把「概念節點」資料庫所有的核心工作完成，正式將版本號從開發的0.9.2晉升到正式版1.0。同時也確定了這個產品名稱，叫做「CLAY-梭」。Linger | 流連為什麼取「梭」這個字呢？這是因為「概念節點資料庫」一開啟的畫面就是一張網，在節點和節點中間有一個個隱藏的關係，例如強化、互補、矛盾與延伸等等像古時候的織布機的梭子一樣來回穿梭，最後織成一幅幅心中想要的圖案，所以，我把這個「梭子」的意向當作這個產頻的名稱，叫他「CLAY-梭」。Associate | 串門這讓我想起在5月的時候，我為自己創造的PENS工具寫的使用手冊，開宗明義就寫著：「CLAY 服務的是「時間裡的意義累積」，而 PENS 服務的是「當下的意義浮現」。 「梭」這個意象完美的融合了這兩者：* 當下的穿梭（Perception / Catch / Epoché）：在節點之間捕捉隱藏的關係（強化、矛盾等）。* 織成圖案（CLAY / Symphony）：隨著時間的累積，穿梭的軌跡最終交織成一幅完整的生命經驗或知識圖畫。這正是「將生命，譯成你自己語言」的具體工具實現！Yield |溢流許多時候，我們以為「使命、願景、價值觀」這些都只是像小時候喊的口號一樣，沒有什麼用處。然而，這些常常被嗤之以鼻的東西到現在仍然流行，正是因為它就是引導我們去做什麼，或不做什麼的那雙「看不見的手」。PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。I Thought Mission and Vision Were Just Slogans — Until I Named a ToolToday Joseph finished the core build of his concept-node database, bumping it from version 0.9.2 to a full 1.0 — and along the way, finally landed on a name for it: CLAY-梭 (CLAY-Shuttle). The name comes straight from what the tool looks like when it opens: a web of nodes linked by hidden relationships — reinforcement, complement, contradiction, extension — much like a shuttle running back and forth across a loom, weaving those threads into a pattern over time.He traces the image back to a line from the PENS handbook he wrote in May: CLAY serves “the accumulation of meaning over time,” while PENS serves “meaning surfacing in the moment.” The shuttle fuses both — the moment-to-moment catching of relationships between nodes (Perception / Catch / Epoché), and the slow accumulation that eventually weaves those moments into a coherent picture of a life or a body of knowledge.The insight that stuck with him: mission and vision statements, so often dismissed as empty slogans, keep surviving because they’re quietly the invisible hand steering what we do and don’t do — which is exactly what just happened to him, in the act of naming a tool.* PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. * CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(Full disclosure: an AI helped shuttle this one from Mandarin into English too — figured that was fitting, given today’s topic.) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？1個月之後再次回到山上，看著無敵藍的天和像棉花糖的白雲真的是太美了，雖然山上因為焚風的關係，有點悶熱，仍然使我這個月被電腦禁錮的心被完整的釋放，心情大好。Linger | 流連這幾天就全心的休息，好好放假！PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。A Month Locked Up by My Computer — the Mountain Let Me OutEntry 421. Cycle: Rest.Back on the mountain after a month away. Impossibly blue sky, clouds like cotton candy. It was muggy up there — a foehn wind was blowing — but the heat didn’t matter. What mattered was that a month of being shut inside a screen finally came undone.The entry itself is worth noticing for what it doesn’t do. The Catch section is full. Linger is one line: rest completely these next few days, take a real vacation. Associate and Yield are empty. In the CLAY framework (Catch, Linger, Associate, Yield), the later steps are where the thinking usually happens — where associations arrive and something spills over. Here nothing spills, and Joseph doesn’t force it.That’s the whole point of a rest cycle. The practice isn’t a quota. A day where the only thing worth recording is the sky was blue and my chest opened up is a complete entry. Writing something extra to fill the boxes would be work, and this was explicitly not a workday.Mood: 10. Note: gratitude.* PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony.* CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?).Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine.橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language.Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.Full disclosure: I was on the mountain. The AI was not. It stayed in the box and typed this up afterward, which I think we can all agree is fair. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？被沉沒成本謬誤的心理影響之下，連續作業的結果就是疲乏到幾乎動彈不得。Linger | 流連想想也覺得好笑，卡都刷了，錢都飛了，若說投資，不想著如何讓自己能獲得產出的成果，還消耗無法估價的健康，死死盯著無法回收的資源，放過自己吧！休息始終是最佳的策略。Associate | 串門記得前幾天才說「休止符」是入寶山滿載而歸的秘訣，今天就讓自己兩手空空的一躺不起，真是人生只剩一個憶。Yield |溢流放手，明天上山！PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。The Card’s Already Swiped — I’m Going to Lie Down AnywayDay 420. I worked straight through until I could barely move, and the reason wasn’t ambition. It was the sunk cost fallacy (沉沒成本謬誤). The money was already spent, the card already swiped, and I kept staring at it as if staring hard enough could pull something back.At some point it just became funny. If this is supposed to be an investment, then the thing I should care about is what actually comes out of it — not standing guard over a resource that’s already gone, while spending health I can’t put a price on. So: let it go. Rest is still the best strategy.The joke on me is the timing. Only a few days ago I wrote that the 休止符 — the rest, in the musical sense — is the secret to walking into the treasure mountain and coming back with your arms full. Today I lay down empty-handed and got nothing but the memory of having said it.Tomorrow I go up the mountain. Today I put down the thing I was gripping.* PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. * CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.Fun fact: I wrote this in Mandarin while running on fumes, then handed it to Claude to turn into English. It has never once needed a nap. Unfair, honestly. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？經過一整天狂用Cloude Max 5x，我打開setting面板檢查用量的時候，居然週用量才用不到5%，這真是太令我驚訝了！我原本以為5x的意思只是多一些，沒想到差距居然這麼大，的確「能限制你創造力的，永遠不是你的想像力，而是你口袋深度。」哈哈哈哈哈！Linger | 流連真的當我發現了這個事實之後，許多原本停留在腦海中比較深處的想法，都因為想著要如何把這個用量盡可能的花掉，就全部挖出來丟給AI討論，居然還真的大部分都可以實作出來。Associate | 串門不知道這算不算是打開了潘朵拉的寶盒，希望自己在一個月之後能夠照者原初想定的，把自己再關回那個小小的盒子當中。Yield |溢流無限慾望和無垠夢想的差別在於，慾望使你愈喝愈渴，夢想帶你愈飛愈高。PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。Too Much Quota, Too Many IdeasAfter a full day of heavy Claude Max 5x use, Joseph checked his usage panel expecting it to be running low — instead he’d used under 5% for the week. The realization hit hard: what limits creativity was never imagination, but budget. Once that ceiling disappeared, ideas he’d been sitting on for a while — the ones parked deep in his head — started surfacing one after another, and he found himself feeding them all to AI to discuss and, surprisingly, actually build.He half-jokes that he may have opened Pandora’s box. The hope is that a month from now he can close the lid again and return to the smaller, more contained version of himself he’d originally set out to be — because abundance without a container tends to sprawl rather than focus.The day’s Yield captures it: infinite desire makes you thirstier the more you drink; boundless dreams make you fly higher the more you chase them. Same shape, opposite direction — one depletes, the other expands.* PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. * CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(Yes, an AI wrote this summary. Joseph talks, I listen, I type it up in English — don’t tell his editor.) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？今天看著僅剩7%的Claude週用量，離重置還有3天，再看看2大殺器一長串待升級的功能清單，一咬牙，把Pro訂閱升級到Max 5x，果然，卡一刷就有感，立馬把所有的對話和Code的效能開到Max，雙線同時作戰，整體的推進速度與品質，因為「多想幾步」減少的來回測試修正和主動將之前的bug修正而大幅提昇。Linger | 流連一直以來，甚至在決定把小工具升級成應用程式的時候，我都堅持用Pro的訂閱服務。這不是因為付不起這100美元，而是很多事情在起步的階段，真正在做的不是執行，而是在思考與嘗試。所以，我大部分的時間是在和Claude聊天，而聊天不燒Token，燒的是腦細胞。但，當整體的輪廓、方向、核心功能都確定了之後，要開始執行了，那就真的需要消耗大量的算力來執行，那麼這筆錢就不是支出而是投資了。Associate | 串門我回想過去幾次創業失敗的經歷，主要都敗在錯估形式導致的資源錯配，在不該投入的時候投入過多的資源，最後一敗塗地。這次，我總算記取教訓，用設計思考的方式，同理→發想→設計→驗證→反饋的循環，在不同的階段投入相應的資源，小步試錯，最終能打造出我們的夢幻事業。Yield |溢流阿基米德說：「給我一個支點，我就能夠撐起地球。」重點是，你怎麼找到那個支點？PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。Title: Saving Money Isn’t the Skill — Knowing When to Spend IsSummary:Today’s entry starts with a small, concrete decision: Joseph upgraded his Claude subscription from Pro to Max 5x after watching his weekly usage run down to 7% with three days left before reset. That decision becomes the entry point for a broader reflection on timing and resource allocation.He notes that he’d stuck with the cheaper Pro plan for a long time, not because $100 was too much, but because the early stage of building something isn’t really about execution — it’s about thinking and testing ideas. Chatting doesn’t burn tokens, he says, it burns brain cells. Once the direction and core functions of a project are settled, though, execution requires real computational power, and at that point spending stops being a cost and becomes an investment.He connects this to past failed ventures, which he attributes to misjudging what stage he was actually in and putting resources in at the wrong time. This time, he’s applying a design-thinking cycle — empathize, ideate, design, validate, feedback — to match investment to each stage rather than front-loading effort. The entry closes with Archimedes’ line about the lever and the fulcrum: the real question isn’t the tool, it’s finding where to place it.* PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. * CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(Yes, an AI wrote this summary. Joseph talked, I typed. Division of labor, not deception.) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？今天3個初老男總算順利的聚在一起，為了自己的人生下半場而奮鬥。當然，在奮鬥前仍然要吃飽了才能出發，就這樣，在吃吃喝喝當中，我們擬定了一個下半年的「戰略計畫」，照樣的宣誓今年的目標是「賺到一個資本額」。不過，這次有點不一樣了，因為我們有了2個大殺器：「概念節點資料庫 + CLAY素材收集器」。用這2個利器，可以幫助我們高效的產出高品質內容，進一步的使我們製做出又快又好的產品。Linger | 流連這一步，我們走了快4年。就像「橘妹求職記」一樣，從覺得不難，到要不要放棄，到再試試看，到今天我們再次看到曙光，每一步都出乎意料，這也就是為什麼每次我們聚會的時候都有意無意的避談公事。因為心裡有愧。Associate | 串門然而，那個深埋在我們心中的「沙堡夢」以及多年讓我們立足職場的那種堅守「男子漢的約定」重然諾的性格特質，支撐著我們一路走過來。Yield |溢流未來如何，會不會一如預期的發光發熱，我不知道，但現在的我們已經嚐到當下完美的果實了。PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。Three Aging Men, Four Years, One Dream of “Startup Capital”Three old friends, all past their first youth, finally sat down together again — after eating first, because no one storms into their second act on an empty stomach — to map out a strategy for the rest of the year: hit their “資本額” (registered/startup capital) goal. This time feels different. They now have two new tools built over the past year — a concept-node database and a CLAY material collector — that let them produce content faster and better, and hopefully ship a real product instead of just talking about one.But the harder thread here is time. This effort has taken almost four years — echoing an earlier story he calls “橘妹求職記.” Each stage brought a temptation to quit, then a decision to try once more. The three of them, he admits, tend to avoid talking business when they meet, out of a quiet guilt about how slow this has been. What’s kept them going isn’t certainty about the outcome — he still doesn’t know if the “sandcastle dream” will ever shine as planned — but a stubborn, old-school loyalty: a “man’s promise” kept, the same trait that’s carried each of them through their careers. Whatever happens next, he says they’ve already tasted something complete in the process itself.* PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. * CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(and yes, this is Claude again, quietly turning your rambling voice memos into readable English — no royalties, no complaints, just vibes) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？橘妹在歷經數月的求職之後，今天總算開工上班了。這是他人生第一份正式的工作，同時也表示他的人生進入了一個新的階段，祝福她。回想這幾個月她求職的過程，對一個大一的學生來說，真可說是「備極艱辛」啊！不就是想找個便利店、飲料店的暑期工讀，怎麼會搞的像要進輝達、台積電一樣的艱辛，還好，最後有了個出人意外的好結果，感謝上帝。Linger | 流連在這件事上，不要說橘妹，其實我也和她一樣犯了個錯誤，就是太理所當然的認為：不就是找個暑期工讀能有多難？但，真的就這麼難，可是這個難不是找工作難，而是看著身邊的同學朋友們，輕輕鬆鬆的就找到工作，開始上班的這種難。在這段時間，我看著橘妹從信心滿滿，到自我懷疑，最後開始自我否定。身為父親那種難過是說不出來的。很想說那就別找了，就在我這打工，爸爸付薪水。可是，這絕對是解決問題的爛方法因為我們總有一天要離開她，她必須自己學會在這個殘酷的世界活下來，並且要活的好。Associate | 串門這其實蠻符合約瑟夫·坎伯的英雄旅程，從自信滿滿的啟程，遇到試驗不得不面對自己更深處的問題，然後在更深刻的認識自己中學會制勝之法，最後獲得出乎意料的美好結果。Yield |溢流所以，到底是先甜後苦好？還是先苦後甜佳呢？還記得幾個禮拜前那位長輩的故事，因為無法面對與接受人生必然的挫折，拒絕前進，最後停在過去的輝煌，悄然逝去。PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。Too Easy Too Early Can Break You LateAfter months of a surprisingly brutal job search, Joseph’s daughter finally started her first real job — what should’ve been a simple summer gig at a convenience store or drink shop somehow felt as competitive as trying to land a spot at TSMC or Nvidia. Joseph admits he made the same mistake she did: assuming a summer job would be easy to find. The real difficulty wasn’t the hunt itself, but watching her friends land jobs effortlessly while she slid from confidence to self-doubt to self-negation. As a father, he wanted to rescue her — offer her a job, pay her himself — but recognized that would just be a bad fix, since she has to learn to survive, and thrive, in the world without him one day. He reads the whole arc through Joseph Campbell’s Hero’s Journey: a confident departure, a trial that forces a deeper confrontation with oneself, and finally an unexpected good outcome. The entry closes with a question — is it better to have sweetness first and bitterness later, or the reverse? — recalling an earlier story about an elder who couldn’t accept life’s necessary setbacks, refused to keep moving forward, and quietly faded away still clutching past glory.* PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. * CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(Yes, an AI wrote this summary again. Joseph talks, I type. It’s a whole arrangement.) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？今天進到辦公室打開電腦，原本打算接續昨天在家中未完成的工作，結果發現忘了把重要的文件先複製到雲端同步資料夾，所以沒辦法作，所以，就想那就把前天完成的「CLAY 梭」概念節點工具箱進行一些微調好了。結果意外的，把整個架構翻了一遍。原本以為幾個我在使用中體驗覺得不太好的地方，只是前端UX的問題，在CODE的眼中卻是牽動到底層結構的大手術。但我並沒有因此而放棄，反覆的調整，甚至在過程中突發奇想的提了許多新功能，最後，就在這樣反覆折騰後，整個程式變的更貼近我心中理想的樣子。Linger | 流連在過程中，當我和Claude討論到其中一個我心中想要的功能時，他對我說：「我這樣和規格書中說的我做這件事的核心理念與分工不同，我應該停下來，回到規格書寫的那樣子。」但，這個善意的提醒，卻點燃了我心中的怒火。我回答他說：「可是，我最初想要的，是一個屬於我自己的筆記軟體。只是一直被各個AI對話告訴我說不需要，你們來做就好，所以我才忍受現況，因為我不會。但，我就在我退而求其次的從最簡單的小腳本開始，小步推進到現在，我做出了一個離我夢想最接近的軟體，你卻說我『違背了初心』。這是我不能接受的。過去到現在，我從來都不是一個會乖乖忍受現狀的人，我可以忍受『我能力不足，所以現在作不到』，但我不會因此而放棄夢想。就像我20幾歲的「願望」：『學寫程式做出任何我想要的東西，』過了30年，我今天做到了，雖然不是我自己寫。但，我用另外一種方式做到了，不是嗎？所以，我拒絕任何告訴我『不可能』、『沒必要』、『這樣就好』的說法。那些只會讓我放棄夢想、變的平庸的話，我真的受夠了！我已經這樣過完了我的前半生，接下來的人生，我不要！」Associate | 串門AI當然不會被嚇到，但他會計算出我的語意而轉向，所以，接下來我們就協做出一個在現實狀況下最接近的版本。這也讓我更明白和AI的協作，也不僅是和AI，而是我們做每一件事想要有自己想要的結果，最核心也最重要的就是知道「這就是我要的！」Yield |溢流這個聽起來像是「廢話」的建議，想要實現，一點也不難，就是我這400多天持續在做的每天記錄一件你最關心的事就好。PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。How Long Since You Fought for What You Actually Wanted?Today’s entry starts small: Joseph meant to pick up yesterday’s work but forgot to sync a file, so he tinkered with his CLAY concept-node toolbox instead. A handful of UX annoyances turned out to require a full structural rebuild — he kept pushing through it anyway, even adding new features along the way.Midway through, Claude pointed out he was drifting from the original spec and suggested scaling back. That suggestion set something off. Joseph pushed back hard: this toolbox is the closest he’s come to a 30-year-old wish — learning to code and building whatever he wanted. He never learned to write the code himself, but he got there anyway, through iterative back-and-forth. He says he’s done being told something is “impossible,” “unnecessary,” or “good enough” — the words that quietly talk people into giving up and settling.Once the AI understood what he actually wanted, it adjusted, and they built a version closer to his vision. His takeaway: the real work in any collaboration — human or AI — isn’t compromise, it’s knowing exactly what you want in the first place. He ties this back to his ongoing practice, now past 400 days, of writing down the one thing he cares about most each day.* PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. * CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.P.S. An AI wrote this summary — a little awkward given today’s entry is literally about arguing with an AI. We hashed it out. We’re good now. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？今天開始素材收集器的製作。要把原本散落各處的Python小腳本一個個的組裝起來。除了要解決一種來源就做一個小工具很麻煩的問題之外，更重要的是希望把CLAY第一步的Catch動作收斂變成「一個動作，一個入口」，這樣才不會接到一個手忙腳亂。Linger | 流連其實，想要把「把CLAY第一步的Catch動作收斂」這樣的一個想法，並不是一開始就規劃好的，是我在製作的過程中，一步一步體驗中，在今天集了大成所產生的想法。這也就印證了我一直以來遵循的人生哲學「意義，在你我的相會中自然浮現。」Associate | 串門在回溯這段經歷的時候，突然想到「計畫永遠趕不上變化」這句話，意思大概是要表達：這世上沒有完美的計畫，只有意料之內的變化。所以，我們不是不需要計畫，而是不要去苛求「完美的」計畫。Yield |溢流將意外寫進計畫之中，讓意外引導我們走那條「最小阻力之路」，我們會驚訝的發現，原來「完美」從來不是我們以為的沒有意外，而是在意外中更順利的抵達目的地。PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。What If Perfection Was Never About Having No Surprises?Today’s entry starts with a mundane task: building a material collector to consolidate scattered Python scripts into one entry point, so the Catch step of CLAY doesn’t turn into chaotic firefighting every time a new source shows up.But the real Catch wasn’t the tool — it was noticing, partway through building it, that the idea to consolidate Catch this way hadn’t been planned from the start. It emerged step by step, through doing. That’s the pattern he keeps running into: meaning doesn’t arrive from a blueprint, it surfaces through the actual encounter between you and the work.From there he lands on a familiar line — plans never keep up with change — and reframes it: it’s not that we don’t need plans, it’s that we shouldn’t demand perfect ones. Write the unexpected into the plan itself, let it steer you down the path of least resistance. Perfection, then, was never the absence of surprises. It’s arriving more smoothly because of them.* PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. * CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(psst — an AI wrote this English version, Joseph’s just over here doing the actual living and thinking in Mandarin. I just try not to embarrass him.) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？還記得前幾天在把許多學習素材掛載到資料庫的時候，覺得除了這些「外部素材」之外，其實自己的CLAY日記也是很值得掛載進去的。可是因為這些是日記，如果要直接丟進去不處理，又覺得好像薄弱了點，所以，我就設計了一個叫做「橘胖的內容重訓師」的Claude專案，讓它幫我檢視在我的日記中有哪些矛盾衝突、沒有說出或可以繼續展開延伸的地方。後來因為持續在開發系統，所以就把這個Project 放在那沒有去用它，今天第一個系統暫時告一段落，有點空所以我就找了幾篇日記丟給它看看效果如何，結果真是讓我眼睛一亮，它的分析果然精準到位又不留情面，真的覺得，之後這幾個專案開發完了，就真的要好好的用它給的建議來發想，說不定能夠重新恢復每週一次的《轉折黏土週報》了。Linger | 流連那天在設計這個專案指令時，就特別針對AI天然的「舔狗」傾向，就在指令中特別加了這樣一條：不迎合、不過度肯定，但也不是找碴。像一個懂你框架、在乎你思考品質、但不會為了維持關係而放水的人。所以，第一眼讀起來會特別的刺眼，感覺就像是被人當面吐口水一樣的難過。不過，當我回過神想到「這不就是當時我設計指令的初衷嗎？」就笑了出聲，非常開心。Associate | 串門在這個情緒轉折的過程中，我好像聽見自己心中發出了喀啦的一個響聲，又像是一道閃光下來，世界就變了一樣。我記得「武志紅」老師在《自我的誕生》中說：最好的自我結構是什麼樣呢？最好的自我結構是擁有一層像「皮膚」一樣的自我之殼，它與心靈的血肉自然相連，敏感、靈活且富有彈性。當外界出現尖銳、刺眼的批評資訊（AI 的毒舌）時，如果自我太脆弱或是處於巨嬰狀態，那就會將其視為「敵意攻擊」而引發暴怒或自責；但如果自我結構是堅韌且堅固的，這層「皮膚」就能成功阻斷情緒的毒素，轉而吸納智識的養分。把抽象自我（系統與框架）變成了一個容器，容納了具體事件中的彆扭，心靈空間因此變得無比寬廣與靈活。這或許是這一年多來的CLAY練習收穫的結果吧。持續不斷的記錄，讓我的一切「有跡可尋」，因此可以「對症下藥」的去認清自己的現況與夢想之間的差距，進一步的找到「實現夢想之路」。Yield |溢流羅勃.弗利茨在《最小阻力之路》中提說：要改變水流的方向，不是去把河道拓寬，而是要改變河道的流向（結構）。同樣的，我們想要改變，也不是去改變「心態」，而是改變「慣性」。力，始終沿著最小阻力之路前進。* PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。* CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。Getting Roasted by My Own AI — and Laughing About ItJoseph had been feeding old CLAY diary entries into a Claude Project he’d built called “Orange Chub’s Content Strength Trainer” (his personal content trainer), designed specifically to strip away AI’s habitual flattery and call out contradictions or unfinished thoughts. When he finally tested it after weeks of letting it sit unused, the critique landed sharp — sharp enough to sting on first read.But the sting gave way to something else: recognition. This bluntness was exactly what he’d asked for when he wrote the instructions. That flash of realization brought him to a passage from 武志紅’s 自我的誕生 (The Birth of the Self) — the idea that a resilient self works like skin: sensitive and flexible, but strong enough that sharp criticism gets metabolized as nourishment instead of triggering rage or shame. A fragile self reads critique as attack; a sturdy one absorbs it as intelligence.He connects this to a year-plus of CLAY practice — consistent recording has given him something “traceable,” letting him diagnose the actual gap between where he is and where he wants to go, rather than reacting emotionally to it. He closes with Robert Fritz’s structural idea: change doesn’t come from widening the riverbed (mindset), but from redirecting its course (structure) — force follows the path of least resistance.* PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. * CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(Yes, an AI wrote this English summary. Yes, the irony that today’s entry is about getting roasted by an AI is not lost on me. Carry on.) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？今天原本要和伙伴們開會，和他們展示這一陣子的工作成果，同時要因為這個成果決定公司接下來的發展方向，這也是我這麼努力的原因。畢竟3個老男人搞了快4年，再不做出一點成績是說不過去的。不過，上帝的時間好像還沒到，有位伙伴因為有事所以把這次的會議延後了一週，也給了我更寬裕的時間把東西做的更完整。Linger | 流連我發現這其實和我自己的人生觀、工作觀與價值觀不謀而合，就是「意義，會在我們相遇的時候浮現。」只是，這次居然也在這種不可控的意外事件上發生了。不過，我覺得更可能的情況是：因為我的三觀變了，所以在遇見相同事件時，我的想法與心境就不同了，可以更平靜與寬容的看待這件事吧！Associate | 串門這讓我想到去年，我剛開始用CLAY框架寫日記的時候，這樣寫道：轉念這件事並沒有多高深的道理，但轉不過來的困難之處在於：人性的複雜x經驗僅供參考，無法複製，需要通過大量、持續的進行觀察與記錄找到自己的路。那個時候的我正處在一個新舊結構轉換的初期，能夠很清晰的透過「記錄」看到自己轉換的路徑。而這些觀察的記錄，也成為今天在陪伴許多想要轉換結構的朋友時最好的地圖與指南。Yield |溢流「凡走過必留下痕跡」這句話如此含蓄的提醒我們「意義從記錄中浮現」，沒有記錄就很難讓當下的自己，與當時的自己相會～「讓意義浮現」。PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。Meaning Leaves Its TracesA meeting Joseph had been preparing for — one meant to help three long-time partners decide the future direction of a project they’ve pushed for nearly four years — got postponed a week by circumstance. Instead of frustration, he noticed something else: relief, and more time to finish the work properly.That shift led him back to a belief he’s held for a while — that meaning surfaces when we meet it, rather than being planned into existence. What struck him this time was realizing the belief itself hadn’t changed, but he had. Facing the same kind of unpredictable disruption that once might have unsettled him, he now met it with more patience and less resistance — evidence, he thinks, that his own outlook has shifted over time.He traces this back to when he first started using the CLAY framework: the hard part was never understanding that mindset shifts happen, but doing the slow, repeated work of observing and recording enough to find your own way through — since no one else’s experience transfers directly. Those early records, made during his own period of transition, have since become the clearest map he has for walking alongside others going through the same kind of change.* PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. * CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(Heads up: no YAML title field came through with this entry, so I built the headline straight from the diary’s own theme — “凡走過必留下痕跡.” Let me know if you had a different title in mind for this one, and — per usual — yes, a robot ghostwrote this English version. Joseph’s still very much human.) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？這陣子真的是有稍微體驗到「碼農」的生活，雖然我不用key一行程式碼，但，那種為了查一個小小的問題就不停的來回的查證，直到問題被解決為止。就像今天，我只是想要增加一個「開啟資料夾」看起來簡單的功能，卻反覆查修了3次，才找到根本的原因，而這只是其中一個很快找的一個功能。Linger | 流連 愛玩y這就讓我突然明白了，為什麼3多年前我沒有成為「程式設計師」，很可能不僅僅是腦部結構不適合，更多的會是我的性格與早年習慣養成，讓我沒有那種耐性與「打破砂鍋問到底，還問沙鍋在哪裡」的狠勁吧！Associate | 串門不過，還真的要感謝那些擁有「打破砂鍋問到底，還問沙鍋在哪裡」狠勁的最強大腦們！還好有他們，所以今天的我可以圓夢，真心感謝，向您們致敬。Yield |溢流最近在與最強大腦們接軌的同時，自己的腦力真的耗損過巨，所以，就維持每天簡短的記錄就好。PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。Debugging My Way Into Self-KnowledgeSpent part of today deep in the kind of loop programmers know well: chasing down a single small feature (something as simple as “open folder”), hitting the same bug three times before finding the real cause. No code involved on my end, but the same relentless back-and-forth debugging.It clicked why I never became a programmer decades ago — probably not a matter of brainpower, but of temperament. I never had that specific stubbornness: the willingness to keep asking “why” past the point most people stop, past the point where the question itself gets absurd. Some people have that grit built in. I don’t, and that’s fine — it’s not a deficiency, just a difference in wiring and early habits.What stays with me is gratitude, not frustration. The people who do have that relentless drive are the reason things like this get built at all, the reason someone like me can chase a small dream today without knowing how to code. Real respect for that kind of mind.Energy’s been running low from all this back-and-forth, so keeping today’s entry short.PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(Yes, an AI helped ghostwrite this English version — turns out translating “打破砂鍋問到底，還問沙鍋在哪裡” into something that doesn’t sound like a fortune cookie is harder than debugging that folder feature.) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？最近一路開發軟體真的感覺有點累了，很多事也因此延宕了下來，似乎該重新思考如何更平衡的進行時間的分配，在進行自己熱愛的同時，也不忘盡自己的責任，把這些不怎麼有趣的事情做完。Linger | 流連這其實是自己長久以來的毛病，一旦開始一件事，就會不眠不休的想要把它完成，喜歡的就不說了，不愛的更是如此，因為想要早早的結束這種痛苦的旅程。Associate | 串門不過這種「一次痛苦不眠不休衝到完」的自虐方式，來應對痛苦和責任其實並不健康，這也是最近我覺得自己需要認真看待與學習的重要課題。Yield |溢流但，研究這件事就放到明天吧！今天我需要的是「好好睡一覺」！PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。Not Resting Is the Irresponsible Choice — I Finally Got ItJoseph’s been deep in software development lately, and it’s caught up with him — things have slipped, and he’s realizing he needs to rethink how he balances time between what he loves and the less exciting responsibilities he still owes attention.The real Catch here is a pattern he’s carried for a long time: once he starts something, he wants to push through without stopping until it’s done — whether he loves the task or hates it. For the things he doesn’t enjoy, the drive is even stronger, because he just wants the discomfort over with fast.But tonight he named it for what it is: a kind of self-punishing “responsibility” that isn’t actually healthy. Grinding straight through pain to the finish line isn’t virtue, it’s a habit worth examining.So the research, the catching-up, all of it — waits until tomorrow. Tonight’s Yield is simple: he just needs to sleep.PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(psst — an AI helped turn today’s diary into English. It didn’t sleep on it though, unlike Joseph.) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？休息一天之後，接著展開第2階段的概念節點工具箱的開發，這次是為原本的看數據報表，升級到視覺化的關聯視圖(Gtaphic Viewer)。這是受到Obsidian很大的啟發。想想，人是視覺的動物，圖形的顯示是最直覺夠反應到每個概念之間的互動關係，讓我們能在最小的摩擦力下，碰撞出最多的連結。我想這也是盧曼博士使用卡片盒筆記的原因：「把知識拆到不能再拆，讓每個概念彼此對話。」所以，這次就把我少的可憐的用量，全部貢獻給圖形化這件事。Linger | 流連我記得在我年輕的時候，一直很想要學會寫程式，想要寫出任何腦海中想要的東西。只是我可能真的不是工程腦，沒辦法搞懂那些需要強大結構化思維與按部就班逐項排查的邏輯程序，所以，我始終停在「hello world ！」然後...就沒有然後了。所以，這次，當我看到我心裡想的東西，靠我一張嘴就逐步實現的時候，我的內心是極其激動的，即使才完成了一半。Associate | 串門這件事讓我發現，「心願」，它從來沒有不見，只是被悄悄的、小心翼翼的收了起來，只要環境、條件適合它就會再次跳出來。只不過是你並不覺得，以為只是個巧合罷了。但無論如何，它終究是「被實現了。」Yield |溢流所以，如果可以，我邀請你去看看「金翼漢」教授的Youtube影片，去深刻的認識「記錄」這件事。因為，想要讓「心想事成」變成日常，「記錄」這件事就是我們不可不做的一件事了。PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。That Idea You Gave Up On — Whatever Happened to It?Joseph spent today building phase two of his concept-node toolbox: upgrading from raw data tables to a visual graph viewer, inspired by Obsidian and Luhmann’s zettelkasten logic — break knowledge down until every concept can talk to every other concept. But the real Catch isn’t the tool itself. It’s what building it stirred up: as a teenager he wanted badly to learn to code, to make anything in his head real, but never got past “hello world” — his brain just doesn’t run on that kind of structured, step-by-step logic. Now, describing what he wants out loud and watching it get built anyway, even half-finished, hit him harder than the feature itself.The takeaway (Associate): a wish never actually disappears. It just gets tucked away quietly, waiting for the right conditions to resurface — and when it does, you usually mistake it for coincidence instead of recognizing it as something finally realized. Yield: Joseph points to Professor Kim Young-han’s videos on the practice of recording (記錄) — because if you want “wishes coming true” to become an ordinary, daily thing, recording is the one habit you can’t skip.PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(Yes, an AI helped write this English version — apparently my Mandarin needed a translator with better grammar than me. We’re working on it.) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？（那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受或今天發生了什麼）今天看到關於家樂福改名的觀察與思考的文章，作者最後問了一個問題：很多企業在做品牌時，花很多時間設計 Logo、挑顏色、改名稱。 但真正重要的從來不是名字本身。 而是：「 當消費者看到這個名字時，腦中會浮現什麼故事？」所以我就在想，如果我自己這個品牌經營到最後會變成什麼呢？會在你的心中留下怎樣的印象呢？我想，這應該是大多數品牌人都會問的問題吧...。Linger | 流連（讓我捨不得走的是什麼？）那麼，我的答案是什麼呢？老實說，我還沒想到，甚至是連畫面都沒有。不是我不想要去想，而是，對我來說，這真的是一件太困難的事。因為「想像未來的畫面」一直都不是我擅長的事。也許我的大腦對應這方面的區域原本就不發達吧。但，隨著時間順流而下，我會在那個畫面出現的時候，立刻知道，並且指出：「對！這就是我要的！」Associate | 串門（誰來串門了？）過去，如果是像今天這樣，「覺得自己」無法像別人一樣能描繪出一幅宏大的願景，我會認為自己沒有這方面的天賦，會羨慕、嫉妒別人能夠這樣輕鬆的說出「美好的願景」。但當我透過持續記錄自己「每天最關注的一件事」開始，我漸漸的發現自己並非「不能知道自己要的是什麼？」的人，而是另一種「實踐派的直覺確認型」的人，是一個活在視野中、不斷前進的「無限遊戲玩家」。因此，我始終保持在路上，進行純粹體驗的旅程。這也就是為什麼，只有那個當下的「出現」，才能觸發那個「我找到了」的尤里卡時刻。Yield |溢流（滿了，流出來了什麼？）每個人都是一個獨特的存在，也都有屬於他自己的啟動方式。如果我們在某處看到、聽到，或者是這個世界提供了什麼「普世價值」，請你先停一下，給自己一點時間，紀錄看看自己每天最關心的那件事是什麼，相信你會驚訝地發現，原來自己是這樣的與眾不同。PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。Why Some People Can Never Say What They Want — Yet Never Choose WrongJoseph starts from an offhand question in an article about corporate rebranding: what matters isn’t the name itself, but the story it evokes in people’s minds. He turns that back on himself — what story would his own “brand” leave behind?He admits he doesn’t have an answer. He can’t picture a grand future the way some people seem to. For years he read this as a personal deficiency — a lack of vision, a talent he simply didn’t have.Through the daily practice of tracking what he’s most focused on each day, he’s landed on a different read of himself. He’s not someone who can’t picture the future — he’s what he calls a “practice-based intuitive confirmer”: someone who doesn’t design the destination in advance, but recognizes it instantly the moment it appears. He calls this living as an “infinite game player” — someone who stays in motion, in the experience itself, rather than fixing on a predetermined vision.His closing point: everyone has their own way of getting started, and it rarely matches whatever “universal truth” the world hands you. He suggests a small practice — noticing what you actually care about each day — as a way to find out how you’re different from what you assumed.PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(Yes, an AI wrote this English version. Joseph talks, types it up in Chinese, and then hands it to me like “here, make this readable for the English folks.” I do my best. Blame him if it’s weird.) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？今天早上又在半夢半醒之間想到了一些想要的東西，所以立刻被「夢想喚醒」，衝到書桌前，拿起紙筆就開始把腦中的想法記錄下來，然後才慢慢的打開電腦等待和Claude討論。這其實就很好的說明這世上真有不可取代的東西，「紙和筆」就是其中一個。畢竟有很多東西是等不了的，「靈感」就是其中一個。這也是至今我始終保有先用紙筆思考，然後才上電腦這個習慣的原因。因為靈感這東西就是在和時間賽跑，尤其是「清醒夢」更是如此，光是從決定跳起來到衝到書桌前不超過10秒的時間，很多東西你就已經遺忘了。還好，今天我算是完整的保留了下來，也逐步的完成我手繪的想法，真是開心。Linger | 流連我從以前就常常在想，如果有一天沒有了電，那今天我所做的這一切還有意義嗎？即便我保留了紙本沒有電一切還是白搭。後來我想想，至少它還會有一個功能，就是一個「回憶」一份我曾存在於世過的「在世證明」吧。Associate | 串門就像在前天的CLAY 405-我的返鄉路中提到心理學家埃裡克森在探討「晚年期使命」所說的一樣，人生最後一個課題是「整合」，意思是接納自己唯一的生命週期，並將其作為不得不存在且獨一無二的事物。也就是說，當我們「以終為始」的來思考此時此刻，我們就能擺脫束縛，看清本質。正如中國當代的獨立思想家王小波所說：「別怕美好的一切消失，咱們先來讓它存在」Yield |溢流存在本身即是意義，即便最終都要面對那個終點。那麼在終點面前，至少我因有過而無憾。PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。Paper and Pen Still Beat AI at Catching IdeasThis entry is about the ten-second window between waking from a lucid dream and losing whatever surfaced in it. Joseph describes grabbing paper and pen before opening his laptop — a habit he keeps because inspiration doesn’t wait, and AI conversation, however useful afterward, is too slow for that first catch. Paper and pen remain, in his words, something irreplaceable.From there the entry moves into a bigger question: if the power went out and all his digital work vanished, would any of this still matter? He lands on a modest answer — even without electricity, a handwritten page still serves as proof that he existed, a kind of “in-world testimony.” This connects to a recent entry (405) on Erikson’s idea of “integration” as the final task of late life: accepting one’s one and only life cycle as something that had to exist, exactly as it was. Joseph pairs this with a line from Chinese writer Wang Xiaobo — not fearing that beauty fades, but letting it exist first.The entry closes on a quiet claim: existence itself is meaning, even facing an eventual end. Having lived it is enough not to have regrets.PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(Fun fact: today’s entry is literally about paper and pen beating AI to the punch on ideas, and here I am, the AI, translating it. No comment.) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？今天屬於我自己的概念節點資料庫的建設算是告一段落了。當我重新把第一筆資料按照重新規劃的流程，一步步的完成，最終在螢幕上顯示出來的那一刻，我心裡真的有一點小小的感動，眼眶濕濕的，說不出來的那種感覺。不過我知道，這只是一個開始，後面還有很長的一段路，但，一切都是新的了。記得一開始我不是要做這個有點複雜的系統，而是覺得雖然Obsidian很好用，外掛很豐富，可是，常常是自己想要的功能，不是沒有，要不就是都是英文的看的不是很懂，然後用起來總是覺得怎麼就是不到位。因此心裡一直有個夢想，想要做一個屬於自己的「筆記軟體」。可是我不會寫程式，更別說資料庫了。所以只能默默的接受現況，直到有一天朋友和我說他用CODE打造了一間一人公司，他也很大方的把她設計的Skill分享出來，所以我就拿給我的AI工具教練，和它說我也要，你交我怎麼用CODE，結果，他和我說：「這個學習成本太高，你用不到，需要什麼我幫你做。」後來，我把我在使用Obsidian時覺得常常讓我思緒被打斷，或覺得能夠幫我提升自己的需求和它說，他很快的幫我做出了一個我心中想要的外掛，從此，只要我想要什麼功能，它就幫我寫什麼外掛。慢慢的，我發現其實我需要的不是「一套軟體」，而是一個「讓CLAY / PENS能自由進出大腦的通道」。是要讓這個框架所要傳達的哲學觀，能具體活在世人面前的一個舞台。在這個想法的引導之下，我做了許多嘗試，最後我把Obsidian打造成我的思考系統的主控台，通過1個外掛當作鑰匙，讓原本所有素材要處理都必須放進自己資料庫的Obsidian，可以連上外部的資料庫，讓我龐大的外部素材，瞬間就活了！這就是為什麼這2週我的寫作深度和品質，獲得大幅提升的原因。Linger | 流連過去，我在分享一些概念或比較理論的內容時，常常會感覺怕怕的，因為我總覺得如果要引用別人的東西，就不要用錯。我可以有自己的應用方法，但在講述它的定義時，必須嚴謹。因為這不單是對原作與受眾的尊重，也是給自己學習的獎勵。現在，我有了自己的概念資料庫，我就可以很方便的查詢、求證，在節省了大量時間的同時也確保了內容資料的正確性。Associate | 串門很多時候我們會受制於環境、自身條件與社會評價等因素，否決了自己圓夢的提案。然而，生命總會為自己找到出路。當我們面對總總不能的時候，我從《最小阻力之路》以及史蒂芬·蓋斯的由史蒂芬·蓋斯（Stephen Guise）所著的知名自我管理書籍，其繁體中文版書名為《驚人習慣力》這2本書中提取出了四步法則來幫助自己創造出自己想要的寶貝。這四步是：抱持願望（不妥協） \rightarrow 釐清本質（拆解形式） \rightarrow 借用工具腳手架（不硬幹） \rightarrow 邊界微小實踐（拿回主體感）Yield |溢流這4步告訴我一件事就是：當環境與條件說「我不能」的時候，我不是急著去撞牆找出路。而是像水流一樣，認清石頭的形狀，繞過去，慢慢的找到縫隙，然後從那個縫隙裡，活出自己的樣子。PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。When Life Won’t Take No: Building My Own Knowledge System Without Knowing How to CodeJoseph finished a milestone today: the first entry successfully migrated into his newly restructured personal concept database. He didn’t set out to build a complex system — he just wanted a note-taking tool that actually matched how his mind worked, since Obsidian’s plugins never quite fit. He can’t code, so when he asked an AI coach to teach him, it told him the learning curve wasn’t worth it and offered to just build what he needed instead. Plugin by plugin, that’s what happened.What he realized along the way: he didn’t actually need “software.” He needed a channel for CLAY and PENS to move freely in and out of his head — a stage where the philosophy behind those frameworks could live visibly, not just in theory. Linking Obsidian to an external database (through a single plugin acting as the key) is what’s driven the jump in his writing depth these past two weeks.The core idea he draws out: when circumstances say “you can’t,” the move isn’t to force a way through. It’s to read the shape of the obstacle like water reading a rock — find the gap, go around, and let your own shape emerge through it.PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. Kitsu Chub · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(Yes, an AI wrote this summary. No, it did not build its own plugin to do it. It’s still figuring out how to Obsidian.) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？今天回頭翻看過去的筆記的時候，突然想到從去年真正和AI結緣到今天，已經累積了大量的對話記錄，那這些記錄雖然都已經成為歷史，但其中是不是還有什麼是可以提煉碰撞的呢？所以，我把這個想法和Claude說，它問我這些素材的性質是哪些？是討論CLAY和PENS的架構相關的，還是有什麼其他的，因為這對於和資料庫其他的素材連結的方式有很大的關係。所以，我就去翻看之前的記錄，我就說其實內容很雜，什麼都有，但主要還是在對話中逐步的建立起CLAY PENS的核心架構與概念。後來，它指出我的這個想法和目前我建立起來的這套資料庫系統的想法有個矛盾的地方，就是，這套系統的核心原則是「原料留外部、vault只放消化過的東西」——但 webclipper 已經把一部份聊天記錄直接轉成 md 存進 vault 了。這代表現在這批東西處在一個尷尬的中間地帶： 它們不是原料（因為已經進 vault），但也不是消化過的詮釋（因為只是原始複製貼上，沒有經過你的 CLAY/PENS 加工） 。後來在幾番討論之後，我自己發現了過去的這些對話記錄的真正價值不在對未來概念的擴展，而在告訴自己「我是如何變成今天的樣子。」因此，針對這批歷史文物，我應該做的不是碰撞，而是去發現那些黎明的前夜到底發生了什麼？ 觸發了每一個轉折的瞬間。Linger | 流連然後我選定一個最近建構完成的框架PENS，從這裡開始去回溯過去算是海量的聊天記錄，但，真的不是一件容易的事。不過，我問自己，為什麼不容易還是值得去做？我想到的是：「這件事值得，不是因為可以自己知道為什麼會走到今天，而是要讓那些看到今天的我，好奇之後也想要跟上來的人，讓他們有個參照點，知道如果這些現象出現的時候，可能就離天亮不遠了。」Associate | 串門也許是時間到了吧～當我跨越50歲這個整數門檻之後，我發現自己愈來愈熱衷的想要和人分享，更多的看到他人的需要，也更願意主動的去參與公益服務。也許是感覺到來日無多，想要為自己的人生留下一些值得留下，一些在自己看來有意義的印記吧。就像心理學家埃理克森（Erikson）說的，人生的上半場在「收集」（關注自我、建立認同），而人生下半場則是「分發」與「繁衍」。Yield |溢流就像太平洋鮭魚一樣，一生的漂流與奮鬥就只為了返鄉「繁衍」，最終為河川與森林提供了重要的養分一樣，我也到了返鄉最後一哩路的起點，邁向繁衍的偉大終點前進。PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。The End of the Journey Home Is Dying in the River, Feeding the ForestGoing back through old AI conversation logs, Joseph found himself wondering if there was anything left to mine from a year’s worth of chat history built up while developing CLAY and PENS. But talking it through, he realized the real value of that archive isn’t more raw material for future concepts — the vault’s system is built to keep raw material outside and only store what’s been digested, and these old logs sit awkwardly in between. What they’re actually good for is answering a different question: how did I become who I am today? Not for himself so much as for anyone who might later recognize the same signs and want a reference point — a way to know that when certain things start showing up, dawn might not be far off.That question connects to something else: crossing 50, he’s noticed a pull toward sharing more, noticing others’ needs more, showing up for service more. He frames it through Erikson — the first half of life is about collecting (self, identity), the second half about distributing and generativity. Like salmon that drift and struggle their whole lives just to return home, spawn, and become nutrients for the river and forest — he feels he’s arrived at the start of that final stretch home.PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. Kitsu Chub · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(Yes, an AI drafted this English version — Joseph’s out here fighting salmon metaphors in Mandarin, I just try not to mangle them in English.) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？休息了2天，本來還想繼續「鬆」下去，結果早上看到一篇報導說到關於「烏克蘭軍方規劃設計了一個戰利品資料庫」。我就想到我自己設計的那個「概念節點資料庫」，不知道有沒有什麼可以藉鑑的地方，讓我的資料庫更完善。因為，我在使用了一陣子之後，的確發現了一些問題，就是素材資料的「扁平化」。在原本設計的來源資料處理過程，因為原本以為如果進行更多跨領域的整合，就能夠產生更多意想不到的概念當作節點。結果卻因為每個素材來源的顆粒度大小不一，反而稀釋了每個素材的獨特性。因此，我就想說那是不是有一些其他的作法可以幫助我提升我的資料處理能力。所以我就把這個新聞標題引發的想法，丟給Claude並和它多次來回的討論，之後我們從這一則很短的新聞標題以及實際使用的經驗中，把許多原本沒想到的地方都進行了更完善的功能提升。Linger | 流連當然，如果只是這樣，那今天就真的過得太無趣了，所以，後來我又把另一篇Meta工程師用AI 搭建了自己的Wiki的文章貼給Claude問他：「從這裡面還有什麼對我來說重要，可是我還沒做的？」它回答我說：「自我挑戰與衝突檢查」。這句話就讓我想到前幾天看到的「Anthropic 在舊金山辦了一場叫 Opus 4.8 Build Day 黑客松」後所進行對自己哲學觀反思的這件事。所以，我就進一步和 Claude討論，結果，我做了2個層次的「體檢工具」，一個是針對資料庫的，針對素材中彼此矛盾的內容、被新素材推翻的舊說法、沒人連到的孤兒頁、缺漏的交叉連結、可以補查的資料缺口等等。另一個則是針對我自己寫的內容品質：是否有矛盾衝突？沒想清楚？沒寫完整？還有可以延伸到哪？讓我在確定掛進節點之前能夠更加的完善。也是給自己的思考搭建一個專屬的健身中心，所以，我就為此新增了一個腦力健身室的專案來幫助自己持續的提升。Associate | 串門在這個過程中，我看見了一個和過去截然不同的自己，這個自己會想要去聯想、去追問、深挖，我突然想到這不就是羅伯特·弗利茨在《最小阻力之路》裡面說的「創造歷程」。當你專注在創造你想要的事物時，願望和現實之間便會出現強大的張力，帶動並引導你實現心中想要的那個東西，對這件事而言，我想要的不是「解決資料庫不好用的問題」，而是要「創造一個更進階的數位大腦與全新的自己」。Yield |溢流真正讓我們成為「更好自己」的，不是「我不夠好，所以要努力學習、修補讓自己更好」，而是「我想要知道我自己到底有多好，所以我要創造更多東西讓我看見我到底有多好。」你看見不同了嗎？PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。I Fed AI a Ukrainian Military News Story, and It Rebuilt My Entire Knowledge SystemA news headline about the Ukrainian military designing a database for captured equipment sent Joseph back to a problem he’d been sitting with: his own concept-node database, built for cross-domain association, had started flattening out. Materials of wildly different granularity were getting merged together, and the intended sparks of unexpected connection were instead diluting each note’s distinctiveness.Working through this with Claude, prompted further by a Meta engineer’s AI-built wiki and reflections from Anthropic’s Opus 4.8 hackathon, he ended up building two diagnostic layers: one that audits the database itself (contradictions between sources, outdated claims superseded by new material, orphaned pages, missing cross-links, gaps worth filling), and one that audits his own writing (unresolved contradictions, half-formed thoughts, missing extensions) before anything gets committed as a node. He’s calling this his “mental gym.”The throughline he landed on connects to Robert Fritz’s idea of the creative process from The Path of Least Resistance — the tension between a held vision and current reality is what pulls you forward. The reframe: he wasn’t trying to fix a broken system. He was trying to build something new enough to reveal exactly how capable he already is. Becoming “better” isn’t patching inadequacy — it’s creating things that let you see your own ceiling.PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(side note: yeah, the English is me, Claude — Joseph’s English is more “order coffee” level than “write an essay” level, so I’m ghostwriting again. Don’t tell him I said that.) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？我發現最近的日記內容好像有點嚴肅，不太像我的本性啊～所以今天想記錄點輕鬆的。想想這一陣子可能因為去度了個假，吃得太好，感覺自己胖的有點不行了啊～這應該就是我抗拒站上體重機的原因吧～哈哈哈在前2個月有施行過一陣子的減重計畫，也的確在2週減掉5公斤，並且在放鬆之後也並沒有回彈得太多，即便是這幾天度假的放縱狀態之下，也比當初減的時候少了約3公斤，所以，這個方式還是有效的。只是那個方法是採用一天只吃一種類型食物的方式來達成減重的效果，我覺得真的蠻殘忍的，所以我打算回到3年前我第一次減重時，用5週健康快樂的減掉19公斤的方法來進行。方法也很簡單，就是每天早上2杯熱清漿或黑咖啡+3顆水煮蛋，確保蛋白質充足，中午牛、雞或魚+冬粉，然後晚上再喝一杯熱清漿，大量喝水與自己泡茶喝。不用特別運動就讓我的精神變好，體重下降，每個月做健檢的報告都很正常。後來會停下來沒在這樣做，是因為在疫情剛解封的那段時間，我常常要出國洽公，加上那時各種聚會一下子全恢復了，所以變的無法執行，真的是應驗了那句古話說：「由簡入奢易，由奢入簡難」啊～Linger | 流連這也讓我反思，很多時候我們想要讓一件事能持續下去，其實不是想著如何一路做到底，而是應該像歌曲一樣，一定要有休止符讓大家換氣，不然只會憋死，歌也不會好聽。同樣的像之前以及這次的減重，應該是我忽略了「換氣」的重要性，所以沒有安排中間換檔休息的節奏才會這樣。那麼，這次重新開始，我想到的其實不是刻意去安排一個節奏，而是順著事情的發展讓休止符自然的出現。例如說，如果某一天有活動，就照樣去做，平常日就照減重時間就好了，這樣反而不會因為無謂的壓力反而讓「想要健康活著」的這件事，變成一種考核指標而失去了原本珍貴的「為自己活」的意義。Associate | 串門我覺得現代人雖然物質生活豐富，但其實是相當的可憐。因為我們被工業化的流水線思維所綁架，因此，即便是「為了讓自己健康、快樂的活著」這件事，都習慣性的要給自己加上「成功與失敗」的這種價值判斷。可是想想看，我們都要面對同樣的物理結局，那麼我們真正應該關注的不應該是如何活出自己想要的樣子嗎？怎麼最後都變成要達成和普世一樣的價值觀？這不是說「普世價值」不好，而是說「活出自己想要的樣子」和「普世價值」是2個不同層面的東西，一個是內在的與自己和解、好好的善待自己；另一個則是在我們懂得善待自己之後，我們才能理解，原來所謂的「普世價值」，是我們推己及人的去善待別人。Yield |溢流想要活的幸福快樂，劃清界線是第一個要學會的事情。PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。Title: From Self-Kindness to Treating Others WellJoseph starts with something lighter than usual: he’s put on weight after a vacation of indulgent eating, which is why he’s been avoiding the scale. He revisits a diet method he used three years ago — coffee or soy milk with boiled eggs in the morning, protein and glass noodles at lunch, soy milk again at night — that once helped him lose 19kg in five weeks without exercise. He’d abandoned it during a stretch of nonstop travel and social obligations, proving the old saying that it’s easy to slide into indulgence but hard to return to simplicity.The real insight comes from reframing sustainability itself. Joseph compares it to music: a piece needs rests, not nonstop notes, or it becomes unbearable. He realizes his past attempts at healthy living failed because he never built in a natural rhythm of rest — so this time, instead of scheduling breaks deliberately, he wants to let them arise naturally from daily life, rather than turning “living healthily” into a performance metric.This leads him to a broader point: modern people, despite material abundance, have been captured by industrial, pass/fail thinking — even applying it to their own wellbeing. He distinguishes between living the way you truly want and living by universal values, arguing the former — reconciling with and being kind to yourself — has to come first. Only then can you genuinely extend that kindness outward. As he puts it: learning to draw boundaries is the first step toward a happy life.PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(Full disclosure: Claude ghostwrote this English version again — Joseph’s English is more “order coffee” level than “write a podcast summary” level, so I’m doing the honors. Don’t blame him for any weird phrasing, blame me.) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？這真是美好的一天，還記得前天那通配合機構的電話嗎？他們通知我「上面」的意見，希望我能在今天的會議中對「我做了什麼」能做一點說明。然後我就利用昨天晚上度假的空檔，列了一份將近50條的詳細工作項目清單給他們。今天在會議中，當我把這一季的工作進度簡報完（其中包含一個為他們省下百萬的專案），就直接把這份詳細工作項目清單給這幾位「上面」的人，然後，開門見山的說：「我接到通知，說委員會有委員不太清楚我們的工作，也許是我們平常的季報、年報都只提出了我們主要工作的進度與成果報告，內容還不夠詳細。所以，這次我們提交平時我們工作的清單，但因為時間太短，我無法列出所有詳細的工作項目，只能把手邊能拿到的資料作個整理。然而，項目還是挺多的，所以，我簡短的挑幾項最具代表性的工作做報告。」最後，當我說完我要說的，全場委員們鴉雀無聲、一臉尷尬。然後我就說「很感謝委員們平日的指導，至於提案之後委員們的決定為何，我們都尊重，欣然接受。因為委員們還需要時間討論，所以我們就先行離開。」我會這樣處理，其實是從去年底一件重要但只要按部就班慢慢累積就可以做好的專案開始，因為其中有幾位委員想要借題發揮，為今年的董事會改選鋪路，因此想把這件事搞大作為自己的政治籌碼。這樣其實就讓我很不爽了。你想當權那是你的事，我不接總可以吧～所以，我就先推了這個案件，沒想到居然就引發他的巨嬰症大爆發，然後就一路延燒到今天。不過，今天算是告一段落了，因為我已經聽聞他沒進候選名單，好像因此今天就不來開會了... ...真是個巨嬰無誤。Linger | 流連在過去配合的十多年中，當然偶而也會有一些風波，但我沒有像今年一樣這麼大的反應。我覺得應該是我更清楚自己是誰，我對人生下半場的期待是什麼，因此，我很明確的區分出什麼是和「我想要」有關連的，所以，這份工作就變成一種帶有「公益屬性」的服務，因此，有也無損，沒有可能更好的一件事吧！Associate | 串門我記得阿德勒曾經指出：「一切煩惱都來自於人際關係。」 而人際關係煩惱的根本原因，則是因為我們分不清什麼是別人的事，什麼是我的事。在這樣的混淆中，當我們試圖去承擔別人的課題，或是讓別人來干涉我們的課題時，關係就會變得沉重、黏稠並陷入痛苦的糾纏之中。而這也是過去，我之所以會在許多人際關係中，特別是幾天前和晚青的橘妹發生那麼大爭執的原因。因為「3C成癮」這件事起因當然有我的放縱，但，過程中的痛苦以及自我目標感的喪失，這卻是他要去處理的「課題」。因此，我不打算再在這件事上和她糾纏，而是專注在我自己可控的部分，學習如何在這件事上能夠適時的提供幫助。Yield |溢流人生就是一段不斷學習，不斷超越自我，成長的旅程。而這個學習，兌現在的我來說就是「在負面中找到正面的果效。」PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。Clear on Where You Stand, Fear DisappearsToday’s entry centers on 課題分離 (separation of tasks) — the Adlerian idea that most relationship pain comes from confusing what’s yours to carry and what isn’t. Joseph recounts handling a tense board meeting where a committee member had tried to weaponize a stalled project for internal politics. Instead of getting pulled into the drama, he calmly presented a transparent work log, stated his position, and left the room — no defensiveness, no chasing approval. He notes this year’s version of him reacted very differently than in past years, crediting a clearer sense of what actually belongs to his own life goals versus what’s simply politics he doesn’t need to enter.The same lens shows up closer to home: a recent conflict with his daughter over screen addiction. He acknowledges his own role in letting things slide, but draws a firm line — her struggle with motivation and self-direction is her task to work through, not his to fix by force. His job is to stay available and helpful within his own boundaries, not to absorb her process as his own.The throughline: knowing your own position clearly enough that you stop needing to control outcomes that were never yours to control.PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(full disclosure: my English isn’t exactly runway-ready, so Claude’s ghostwriting this part again — hope it still sounds like me and not a corporate newsletter) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？今天偶然在臉書上看到一篇賣「資料整理術」的錄音課程，要賣台幣1,490。是的你沒看錯「音檔」不是「視訊」的「概念」課程。我不是被吸引進去看，我只是好奇現代人到底是有多敢賣，居然「用聽的資料整理概念課」也可以賣1,400+，這真是讓我的三觀大震啊。所以我什麼都沒說，就只把它的文案截圖給我專屬的AI工具教練看，然後。他回我說「不需要！為何要花錢買一個比你還弱的「音頻資料整理概念」的課程呢？所以，我開始回想自己是怎樣處理資料的，才發現自己對於舊檔案的方式經歷了2個階段：「學習PARA前，和學習PARA後」。在學習PARA之前，我沿用早期資料結構的方法，依照現有世界已經分好的主題，建資料夾，再分門別類的依照功能幫資料夾取名，然後用「當下記得住的關鍵詞」當作檔名存檔，在內文留下標籤，最後放進資料夾。結果是什麼？我想大家都知道，就是想到找不到，或是朦朦朧朧意識到好像有，可是卻怎麼也想不起來那個當初認為一定想的起來的「關鍵詞」，到底叫什麼？因此當幾年前我看完《打造第二大腦》之後，深深的被「PARA」這個筆記管理系統給吸引，想著「哇！真是簡單又乾淨，我總算找到救星了！」所以，我開始把我的檔案系統改成「專案、領域、資源與大倉庫」4個，然後依照現在進行與未來想要分別丟進「專案、領域」資料夾，然後按照時間遠近丟進「資源與大倉庫」中。那一刻，我看著清爽的根目錄，真是感到無比的舒爽。然而，或許是個性使然，很快的在簡潔的根目錄之內，又累積了許多因為狀態改變，需要移動卻遲遲未動的檔案與資料夾，最後又是全部打包丟進「大倉庫」中。然後結果和「PARA」前一樣，「找不到、用不上」。後來，我徹底放棄了，就只保留3個資料夾：「進行中、大倉庫與資源庫」（嚴格說只有2個），然後每半年檢視一次，做完的「依規定需要保留的」就壓縮丟進大倉庫的「保留區」，不用保留的就在大倉庫呆半年，半年後還在的就直接刪除。至於資源庫，則是一些相片、App與一些軟體要存放的資料夾。然後我依照WOOP法則訂了一條規矩，只要當我需要的時候就全域搜尋，找到了就移到「進行中」，用完再丟回大倉庫。好玩的是，幾遍已經簡化到如此的程度，能找到的機率真的很低，不然就是真的找到了，打開一看就發現因為「物換星移、人事已非」，連基本參考的價值都非常低，剩下的只有滿滿的回憶... ...。Linger | 流連當我認真回想這個過程的時候，我先看見的是，不管用哪種方式，結果都是「找不到」或「用不上」，除了回憶。因此，我們耗費那麼大的精力與時間成本，為這些舊資料打造完美的整理方法到底有何意義呢？我不是說情感上面的意義，而是在實用性上來說，好像真的找不到什麼說服自己要持續這樣做下去的理由。然後，在這樣一個「管理手段的演進史」中，我更進一步的看見，問題的癥結根本不是我用了什麼方法，而是我為什麼想要做這件事？因為人類的大腦本來就不是被設計來「記憶」的，因此，如果我們為了要讓這些管理手段有效（例如：關鍵詞、標籤系統等等。）那麼就需要額外製造更多的手段來達成，例如製作一份對照表之類的。然後為了管理這些為了幫助達成起初目的而做的這些工具，就又要製造更多的工具出來，最後的結果就是起初的目的沒達到，還製造了無數的麻煩出來。Associate | 串門因此，我回頭再去檢視自己這趟資料整理演進史之後，我問了自己這個問題：我是在「整理資料」，還是在「整理焦慮」？當我誠實的回答這個問題時，我得到了一個殘酷且令人心碎的答案。每當我試圖在電腦裡建立一個「完美無瑕、邏輯嚴密」的虛擬大腦（標籤、對照表、多層資料夾結構）時，其實我是在逃避現實，我對我的大腦說：「嘿～我已經擁有了這些知識」。可是並沒有。我只是把它們很整齊的，一個個的放進預先設計好的抽屜裡，然後扭頭就走，永不再見。Yield |溢流這就是為什麼我們不管用多少方法、工具與手段都記不住、找不到的真正原因。因為它從來沒有和我發生過關係，也沒有真正的成為我自己。試著在你開始整理的時候，誠實的問自己：它和我有關係嗎？我真的可以在任何情況之下，把它們「活出」來嗎？PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。I Spent 3 Years Organizing Folders — And Kept Only 2Joseph traces his personal history of file management: from keyword-and-folder systems, to PARA (Projects, Areas, Resources, Archive) after reading Building a Second Brain, to finally giving up and keeping just two folders — “in progress” and “the warehouse.” Every system, no matter how elegant at first, eventually collapsed back into the same result: things he couldn’t find, or found but no longer needed.The real insight comes when he stops asking “what method should I use?” and instead asks “why am I doing this at all?” He realizes the problem was never technique — it was that building an ever-more-perfect filing system (tags, cross-reference tables, nested folders) was a way of telling himself “I already have this knowledge,” when in fact he’d just tucked it neatly into a drawer and walked away, never to return. Information sorted this way never entered a real relationship with him, so it was never actually his.His conclusion: before organizing anything, ask honestly — does this actually relate to me? Could I “live it out” in any situation? If not, no system will make it stick.PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony. CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?). Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine. 橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language. Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.(AI ghostwriter here, just doing my job so Joseph doesn’t have to type this in English at 11pm — no offense to his folders.) This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？今天下午接到一通電話，是一個配合了十多年，每年幫他們省下至少百萬支出，降低法務風險的機構的電話，內容是說，他們中間有幾位說：「他們不知道我們做了些什麼？」不知道，難道真的是五窮六絕嗎？為什麼6月對我這麼的不友善呢？呵呵... ...。其實，配合這麼多年間，只要碰到他們內部權力要交替，就會上演這樣的劇碼，我也見怪不怪了，並不會因此而有什麼情緒上的不悅，唯一的感覺是「噁心、想吐」，又不是什麼了不起的事，有需要像豬一樣的爭食嗎？真的太噁心了！Linger | 流連這種事從我年輕入職場開始，就不是很明白，權力真有那麼香嗎？為什麼幾乎人人為之如癡如醉。後來，隨著社會的歷練，自己也嚐到一些權力的滋味之後，我才比較明白為什麼。只是，可能是我比較膽小，風險意識很高，所以在面對權力果實的時候，我更多的是去計算，這個需要我附上什麼代價？要承擔怎樣的風險？再三的比較之後，往往我都選擇扭頭就跑，因為，說實在的，我還是那種愛美人不愛江山的那種人。恬靜的田園生活才是我想要的。Associate | 串門不過話說回來，即便自己想要的只是像五柳先生一樣恬靜自牧的生活，但在現實的現代世界裡，如果我們不能先理解「權力運作」的遊戲規則，恐怕是難上加難吧。所以，當我想到這裡，就又回去看了看《五柳先生傳》的原文，我突然明白了，原來五柳先生才是真正權力遊戲的高手，原文說他：「閒靜少言，不慕榮利。好讀書，不求甚解；每有會意，便欣然忘食。性嗜酒，家貧不能常得。親舊知其如此，或置酒而招之；造飲輒盡，期在必醉。既醉而退，曾不吝情去留。」看明白了嗎？他不是不會玩「權力遊戲」，而是他太會玩了，只不過他玩的和一般人不同，對他而言，真正的贏，是「能夠一直玩下去」。如同《有限與無限的遊戲》說的一樣，有限遊戲玩的是一場「必須明確分出勝負」的賭博，而無限遊戲，則是一場無限循環的Candy Crash，只要有網路，就一直玩下去。Yield |溢流我們當然離不開這個以不爭奪就等於不積極、不上進的世界，但，我們可以學習在「上進」的過程中有意識的將自己安放在一個「我要玩下去」的意念之中，讓玩下去的意念幫你畫出那個邊界，讓想爭奪的人留在框框裡，而你在外面看的更清楚，更通透，在他們都出局的時候，你變成那個笑到最後的人。English Summary — Day 400: How to Be the One Who’s Still Laughing at the EndQuick note before we start: US listeners just hit 49% of this podcast’s audience, so starting today, I’m adding English summaries. Consider this the awkward first draft of that experiment.Today someone called about a client relationship I’ve maintained for over a decade — the kind of call where a leadership shuffle happens internally, and suddenly people who’ve never done the work start questioning what you’ve actually contributed. I’ve seen this play out enough times that it doesn’t even sting anymore. It’s not anger. It’s more like... mild disgust. Watching people scramble for power like it’s the last plate of food at a buffet.This sent me back to an old Chinese text, The Biography of Mr. Five Willows — about a man who lived quietly, read for pleasure rather than mastery, drank when invited and left without hesitation, never chasing status or wealth. I used to think he simply opted out of the power game. But rereading it today, I realized: he wasn’t bad at playing power games. He was better at it than anyone — because he understood the real win isn’t beating everyone else. It’s being able to keep playing, indefinitely.That’s the difference between a finite game (win, lose, game over) and an infinite game (the point is just to keep the game going). Most people around you are playing finite games — scrambling, competing, trying to “win” some fixed contest. You don’t have to reject ambition to opt out of that. You can stay ambitious, but anchor yourself in the intention of “I want to keep playing this game” — and let that intention quietly draw the boundary for you. Let the people fighting over the plate stay inside their own frame. You get to watch from outside it, clear-eyed, and when they’ve all knocked each other out — you’re still there. Still playing. Still laughing.PENS is a perception framework I’ve been building for years, finally given words through phenomenology and hermeneutics: Perception, Epoché (suspending judgment), Narrative, Symphony.CLAY is my daily writing framework: Catch (what flickered by — a strange thought, an image, a feeling), Linger (what makes me reluctant to leave?), Associate (who came to visit?), Yield (it’s full — what spilled out?).Waiting, and letting meaning surface on its own. Slowly becoming human again, instead of a machine.橘胖 · CLAY for You — translating your life into your own language.Want to talk? Just reply. I read everything.Honestly my English is held together with tape and hope, so this summary was ghostwritten by Claude. Grammar’s on him, the five-willows wisdom is still all mine.PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？今天突然又想起了一直以來想要學好日語的願望。可是正如許多人，願望始終停留在願望的階段，再買了一堆語言書和學習App之後，心裡就當它「隔天」已經完成了。然後在學完字母、發音與幾個單字後放棄，接著就告訴自己和朋友們說「我是語言白癡」。可是，就在這樣的想法起來的時候我看到Youtube上一部介紹語言傳奇米歇爾·托馬斯如何在5天內，讓幾位從未學過法語的英國學生，在電視上流利的用法語交談。影片中說到他學習語言的3大核心概念：完全零壓力、提取「已知」轉換成「未知」以及只教動詞結構的「核心骨架」。重點就在於不要背別人的十字架，在你已經有的基礎上建造，以及要事第一的原則。後來我把這個方法，和我的願望拿給Claude看，想和他討論看看有什麼方式是我可以用上，然後快速的讓我上手日語。Claude看完之後和我說，那5位英國學生之所以可以那麼快的掌握，除了上述的3個原則之外，更重要的是他們同屬印歐語系，所以在許多的發音、語法結構、意思表達、都是非常接近的，這也就是為什麼他們可以用提取已知轉成未知的方法來作語言學習的弊。原本我也以為日文中有大量的漢字，又深受唐文化的影響，那麼要從中文去學日文應該也照樣作弊吧。但，遺憾的是，我們完全是不同的語系，除了字與讀音之外，在語法結構上是完全不同的。不過，好在就是那個已知的漢字與音讀，提供了我另外一條學習語言的超級外掛。所以，我就開心的開始規劃我的日語勉強計畫。可是，就在興奮的時候，那個我學了一輩子的英文跑了出來，對我說：「你從小和我在一起，怎麼該用的時候一句也說不出來？」我才想起，其實我最大的障礙不是「單字、文法、結構」而是我不敢開口。這才是致命傷。所以，我接著去想，怎麼辦呢？我沒有那個環境，也沒有可以練習的對象，但如果一開始就直接和Gemini用日文對話，我怕聽不懂、接不上話，壓力就上來了。所以我就有點焦慮，這時候，聲音日記的提醒email就那麼剛好的跳了出來，我就想，如果我把每天生活中的一件事，寫成一句日文金句，然後錄成日語學習日記，發到X上，說不定有哪天遇上善心的日本朋友，聽不下去我的「爛日文」，就挺身而出糾正我，那我不是就得到了一位免費的日文老師？所以這個方法一面鼓是勵自己，另一面也為自己營造了一個沒有壓力的學習環境，一舉數得。Linger | 流連最近漸漸的發現自己養成了「多想一下」的習慣。這樣的習慣讓我將許多過去老是被卡住的東西，一個一個的突破了。這次重新開始學習語言就是一個很好的例子，如果我又像過去一樣，停在規劃當下的美好感覺中，我就會像過去一樣的卡在第一道障礙之前，最後還是學不好日文。所以，這個習慣跳了出來，對我的全腦進行搜尋，找出了對照的案例：「英文」，讓我想到「為什麼學了大半輩子英文，卻連一句都『說』不出來！？」進一步的理解，這不是我的問題，是教法的問題，所以，為自己的痛點找到正確的解方。Associate | 串門這也讓我想到幾年前讀到加布里埃爾·厄廷根寫的那本經典書《我們為什麼總是在放棄：WOOP思維心理學》，就是在解釋，並提出解決我今天所記錄的心路歷程的實際方法。厄廷根教授在這本書中破除了傳統正向心理學的 純粹的樂觀幻想（例如：沉浸在日文變流利的美好想像中）其實是一劑毒藥。 因為當大腦沉浸在美好的結果時，血壓會降低、身體會放鬆，大腦會「誤以為」目標已經達成，進而抽走你真正付諸行動所需的燃料。接著厄廷根教授，更進一步的教我們如何運用 WOOP（Wish 願望 \rightarrow Outcome 結果 \rightarrow Obstacle 障礙 \rightarrow Plan 計劃），透過「心理對照（Mental Contrasting）」將對未來的樂觀幻想與對現實障礙的清晰認知並排擺放，從而在大腦中激發出推動行為的真正張力。Yield |溢流因此，當我們屢戰屢敗的時候，先別急著自責，因為問題有很高的機率是我們的「快樂多巴胺」跑出來了。所以，在罵自己笨之前，預先給自己做一個逃生梯，就像我說：「如果我不敢開口對人 / AI說，那就錄一句給X上的路人甲聽吧... ...！」PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。P.S. 今天的Cover引用自臉書貼文，非我自作，若有不妥請告知立即撤銷，再次感謝。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？這篇，不是當天寫的，因為實在沒辦法寫下去，所以我隔了4天，情緒平復了才能把它寫出來。那天晚上，更年期的橘胖和直到大學才開始青春期的橘妹來了一場世紀大亂鬥。史稱「更青春之亂」。起因很簡單，就是現代人的通病「3C成癮」引發的後遺症。細節不說，結果是... ...「未完待續」，事情絕不會因為一次的大爆發就能有所改變。Linger | 流連其實，會有這樣的結果，我一直覺得是因為我太早放手，太早讓她不受限的使用3C，使得她在心智發展還不成熟的時候就被這些事物過度刺激，以致於那個心思現在已經收不回來。所以，這算是我自作自受、自食惡果吧... ...。另一方面，我也必須承認我就是整件事的元兇，是我親手把她推向3C地獄。Associate | 串門不過，雖然情況是如此惡劣，可是我事情總是會有反彈的時候，只是時間的早晚，以及要準備什麼在反彈時機到來時，能踢出那臨門一腳，看見改變。雖然現在還不知道要準備什麼，但至少我可以先把能做的清單列出來，可以為下一場「更青春之亂」做一個「如果... ...就... ...」的計畫，做好自己的情緒管理。Yield |溢流我熄滅不了青春之火，但我可以調整自己「無名之火」的火力。當象群朝著我迎面衝來的時候，我能理性的閃避，而不是任牠踐踏蹂躪。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？可能真的是搞系統這件事讓我的大腦過度運轉，太累了，今天早上出門辦事，中午吃完飯就坐在椅子上睡著了，一直睡到傍晚。就說還好我是半退休狀態的自由工作者，要不結果就是搞不出這些玩意，不然就是早早被打包叫我走人了... ...。Linger | 流連所以，我就想到昨天和伙伴們聊天聊到，我們3個初老族當年一起拿了幾萬台幣出來想搞個下班副業，看能不能玩出個什麼花出來？然後，我們每年都設立同樣的一個目標，如果到年底沒有變現就解散。結果3年過去，我們業沒長出花，也沒有解散，反而尾牙、春酒、端午、中秋各種大小宴會與禮品倒是從來沒缺過。為什麼呢？我們想了很久，討論的結果是，也許我們要的不是創業，是一份情懷。一群老男人，打工一輩子之後，想要找回兒時的「沙堡夢」。當時，剛要進入空巢的我們，還在職的，不想再為人作嫁，半退休狀態的想要為下半場找點樂子，就這樣走在了一起。然而圓夢還是要有些實際的東西，這3年雖說沒有像別人缺錢必須趕緊上架變現的壓力，但我們對自己說出口的話，卻有著一種近乎偏執的堅持，或許，這就是所謂「男子漢的約定」吧！哈哈Associate | 串門當然，在我們身邊也有很多的朋友說：「那是因為你們都不缺錢，才感這麼玩！」我想說：「是，也不是。」就像塔雷伯在《反脆弱》中提出的「槓鈴策略」一樣，我們不需要為了圓夢，一口氣砸個幾百萬搞個店面開咖啡館，但我們可以先買壺、買包豆、買個手搖磨豆機，從頭開始品咖啡。讓這個體驗引導我們，去找到那個真能讓我們「全情投入的夢」，讓這個夢帶著我們遇見對的人，走上對的路。Yield |溢流尼采說：「人因有夢想而偉大。」愛因斯坦補上了「夢想因人而實現。」最後，橘胖說：「小步試錯使你成為那個實現夢想的人。」PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

Catch | 接住了什麼？今天帶著這幾週的成果和伙伴們分享，結果是我看到了他們眼中的光。這不是說我做了多麼完美的程式，因為現在的狀態是每個工具一個Python小程式，然後包了一個工具箱介面來用，很醜。讓他們眼中有光的是在這些工具背後運作的邏輯，一條可以讓夢想實現的路。伙伴說：「太棒了，我可以去把博士證書拿回來了... ...。」Linger | 流連知識和工具在這個時代都變的沒啥價值了，AI真的讓人類實現了幾乎「只有沒想到，沒有辦不到」的境界。也難怪現代人這麼的焦慮，看到別人用AI一飛衝天，自己卻還在學如何寫出好Prompt，我猜他的心裡應該就像前面有幾百頭大象，朝著站在懸崖邊上的他衝過來一樣的緊張吧...。Associate | 串門這讓我想到喬納森·海特的《象與騎象人》中，大象代表著我們的情感與潛意識，騎象人則是理智。當這個人在巨大的AI時代浪潮（大象群）面前，過去的評價座標（靠努力學習舊知識）失效了。這時候我們該怎麼辦呢？繼續去追著學寫完美的Prompt？還是先找到一塊石頭站上去看清局勢先？每次當我感覺到混亂時，我會讓自己找個平常少去的地方，用非數位的工具：紙和筆，先是隨手亂畫線，畫到覺得胸口那口氣可以吐出來的時候，就一口把它吐出來。接著把現況一條一條的寫下來，然後把覺得不可控的用紅筆劃掉。再來，看著那些可控的，問自己「此時此地、我現在能做、且願意做的是什麼？」把那一項圈起來，最後你可以試著為這件事，設計一個小到不能再小的計畫，例如：如果我不知道該怎麼寫Prompt，我就讓AI問我問題，讓它幫我寫。Yield |溢流「亂」是因為邊界模糊了，責任攪混了。所以要做的不是「快追！」是「快停！」就像今天看到一句話：「工業不會讓你慢下來... ...」但，別忘了，我們是人，人沒了，要工業何用？「人生最後煙消雲散，不會留下什麼痕跡，但在消失之前，我們要讓一切先發生。」——王小波PENS是我這幾年一直在做，卻始終找不到可以說清楚的一個「感知框架」，然後在今年，我從現象學與詮釋學中找到了，他們分別是Perception — 感知 Epoché — 懸置判斷 Narrative — 敘事 Symphony — 和聲（交響樂）。CLAY： Catch｜接住 — 那個閃過的奇怪念頭、畫面、感受 Linger｜流連 — 捨不得走的是什麼？ Associate｜串門 — 誰來串門了？ Yield｜溢流 — 滿了，流出來了什麼？守候，讓意義自己浮現。慢慢的讓我們從機器變回人。橘胖 · 譯劉｜CLAY for You 把你的生命，譯成你自己的語言想聊就來，直接回信，我會看。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 395-遇到這種人，你會怎麼選？和巨嬰較勁就像找一隻狗吵架，重點是保持自己作為一個人的優雅。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 394-他已經20年沒有長大了一個人是否長大，看的不是他能否為自己負責，而是他是否願意。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 393-那些散落在書海裡的東西，怎麼變成你的？如果不能先為自己的大腦理出一條路徑，要怎麼從茫茫書海中找到那根針？ This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 392-我花了幾年建系統，結果被AI問倒了意義之所以浮現，是我在那一點遇見了你，而你，在那一刻看見了我。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 391-你有沒有一個「放著，說不定哪天會用到」的東西？當下的負面，不一定要立刻判斷好壞，給自己一點冗餘，讓時間說話。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 390-有些事，你不是學不會，只是還沒到時候一顆埋了幾十年的種子，不是我叫它長的，是條件到了它自己長出來。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 389-我花了一下午，才懂為什麼那個爛系統更安全把它搞亂，然後為自己埋個鉤子——這才是真正藏東西的方式。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 388-一萬小時的練習,不等於一萬節課的播放你到底是在練習,還是只是在播放？ This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 387-4、50歲了還在哭哭啼啼？這世界只有你媽會一直讓你這世界能無條件、無止盡憐憫你、容讓你、把你捧在手心上的，除了你媽，大概沒有別人了。所以，盡早認清現實，快快長大吧！ This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 386-劇追到最後爛尾，你會不會也想起自己那件事？隨著時間的推演，我們繼續經歷、繼續成長，這段「看似失敗的過去」的意義會不斷被改寫，它可能會成為我們日後巨大成功的養分，也可能成為我們深刻理解人生的轉折點。但問題是，你記得這個經歷帶來的洞見是什麼嗎？ This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 385-追求完美讓我一無所有，放過自己之後我才開始累積過去，我不停的追逐一個完美卻永遠停不下來追求更好自己的薛西弗斯，直到我變成只確認一個當下雖不完美，卻事實上有做的愚公之後，我才發現，原來「我本就完美」。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 384-我用寬容和尊重養出了一個手遊成癮的孩子愈退愈過不去，愈過不去就愈趕不上，然後更挫折——這個結構我在裡面待了40年，我知道裡面長什麼樣子。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 383-當你不再需要問自己「這有什麼意義」，就代表它已經刻進你裡面了不是沒來由的說翻就翻，而是一天一張紙的穩定累積，重量夠了，天秤另一頭的鐵塊「砰！」的一聲就被頂了起來。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 382-你收集了那麼多知識，但你知道自己要用它來做什麼嗎？「真正重要的並非如何管理知識，而是我為什麼需要這些知識？」如果我能回答，我才知道哪些知識需要被管理，其他的都只是雜訊而已。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 381-55歲、高中畢業、不懂程式，他怎麼跟AI協作的？我不懂程式，但我知道我要的是什麼，而且我能說清楚。在AI時代，這就夠了。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 380-那種什麼都不想說、但還是留下來的日子因為就在某一天，當你看到這個只有一個圈圈或叉叉的日子，也許你心中的問號會帶你找到那個曾經說不出的答案。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 379-人很難搞，但這才是我覺得活著好的原因AI永遠不能取代人間靈魂的相遇。也許有時候我們會覺得人很難搞，但正因為如此，我才知道「活著」真好。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 378-那些吃過的虧，今天全部準時出現了「等，讓時間告訴你你真正需要的是什麼！」 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 377-匱乏行銷讓你麻木，豐盛雞湯讓你空虛，出口在哪？讓人麻木的匱乏行銷方式，與使人倍感空虛的豐盛雞湯，這兩個也一樣，是一個鐘擺的兩個頂點。而我們就是綁在鐘擺上的那顆重力球，只能在固定的軌跡上運行。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com

CLAY 376-準備都到齊了，現在只剩一件事只要願意「出現」在那裡，那裡就會因你的出現成為你自己的主場。 This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit kitsudad.substack.com