Figuring Sh!t Out

"If no one sees your art, it is still revolution. You freed yourself, did you not?" - Jayla John In this episode, we talk about how creativity could heal you - if you just let it. And how to let it. And if you need a little more help, JOIN METAMORPHOSIS AS A FOUNDING MEMBER HERE (LIMITED - CLOSES ON MAY 15TH.)DOORS OPEN 5.15.10 DAY CREATIVE AWAKENING & INNER CHILD JOURNEY STARTING 5.18.Metamorphosis is a community-centered membership for creative awakening & self-expression. It's a space to nurture your inner artist & inner child + transform from the inside out.Inside, you’ll have access to:10 day Creative Awakening & Inner Child Healing Journey in Community [Starting 5/18]Weekly live sessions (Artist’s Hours + Shadow-Workshops) (Also recorded)A growing library of meditations, practices, and resources (& Monthly Themes)A private community space for connection, expression, and collaboration25% off future retreats + Free in-person NYC workshops--LEAVE A COMMENT & let me know WHAT this episode provoked in you, what questions you have (bc tbh I may also be having them), what you want to hear next, and how Figuring Sh!t Out has impacted your life.Socials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountaininquiries: [email protected] Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

let your tenderness speak, let it lead you into darkness, and let your darkness lead you into light. --LEARN MORE ABOUT METAMORPHOSIS & JOIN AS A FOUNDING MEMBER HERE (LIMITED - BEFORE MAY 15TH)DOORS OPEN 5.15.10 DAY CREATIVE AWAKENING & INNER CHILD JOURNEY STARTING 5.18.Metamorphosis is a community-centered membership for creative awakening & self-expression. It's a space to nurture your inner artist & inner child + transform from the inside out.Inside, you’ll have access to:10 day Creative Awakening & Inner Child Healing Journey in Community [Starting 5/18]Weekly live sessions (Artist’s Hours + Shadow-Workshops)A growing library of meditations, practices, and resources (& Monthly Themes)A private community space for connection, expression, and collaboration25% off future retreats + Free in-person NYC workshops--LEAVE A COMMENT & let me know WHAT this episode provoked in you, what questions you have (bc tbh I may also be having them), what you want to hear next, and how Figuring Sh!t Out has impacted your life.Socials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountaininquiries: [email protected] Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

My darling, I have news for you. You are here to feel safe enough, trusting enough - to pause, land, and unravel your very existence at the feet of something loving.And if you are, (like too many of us are) living a frantic, disordered life, one that feels like you’re chasing a plot that never comes - If you are clogging your heart with unwarranted worries - If you are unknowingly caught in the hamster wheel of more, more, more - Stop right there.Have you noticed lately: The sky? The tulips? The daffodils? The wind? Have you listened to Figuring Sh!t Out on a good ol' day while strolling softly?Let these things ground you down and bring you back.I love you.--JOIN METAMORPHOSIS: Founding members are being invited first! DM me ‘METAMORPHOSIS’ for early access and the sign-up link.10 DAY CREATIVE AWAKENING & INNER CHILD JOURNEY STARTING MAY 18TH. SIGN UP FOR THE METAMORPHOSIS WAITLIST HERE for updates.Metamorphosis is a community-centered membership for creative awakening & self-expression. It's a space to nurture your inner artist & inner child + transform from the inside out.Inside, you’ll have access to:10 day Creative Awakening & Inner Child Healing Journey in Community [Starting 5/18]Weekly live sessions (Artist’s Hours + Shadow-Workshops)A growing library of meditations, practices, and resources (& Monthly Themes)A private community space for connection, expression, and collaboration25% off future retreats + Free in-person NYC workshops-- LEAVE A COMMENT & let me know WHAT this episode provoked in you, what questions you have (bc tbh I may also be having them), what you want to hear next, and how Figuring Sh!t Out has impacted your life.Socials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountaiAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

How to hear the call of your divine assignment & listening to your Sacred Marching Orders - beyond what the inner critic has to say.SIGN UP FOR THE METAMORPHOSIS WAITLIST HERE.LEAVE A COMMENT & let me know WHAT this episode provoked in you, what questions you have (bc tbh I may also be having them), what you want to hear next, and how Figuring Sh!t Out has impacted your life.Socials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountaiI LOVE YOU!!Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

This episode is your reminder that there is a future version of you who is thanking you deeply for doing it scared.This episode is proof that the first step is always the courage to admit. This episode is proof that you WILL figure it out, even if you have no f*cking clue how. How do I know?Three years ago, I started this show in my bedroom while working full time in Corporate America.Two years ago, the night before I ran my first marathon, I recorded this episode - breaking through a shaky voice to utter the words, "I want to do this full time."One year ago, I was 6 months out of quitting my job to Figure Sh!t Out full time.And today, I can confidently say that I know that I am where I'm meant to be. And that Figuring Sh!t Out along the way is part of the damn process.I did it scared. I am DOING it scared. And this episode is a sign that You can too.Thank you. Thank you.Thank you.----SIGN UP FOR THE METAMORPHOSIS WAITLIST HERE.The best way to show love to this show????LEAVE A COMMENT! ENGAGE! Interact!! Say hi!! let me know how FSO has impacted your life!! Rate the podcast 5 stars, follow it, and share with a friend.I LOVE YOU!!STAY CONNECTED:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Yana's MusicIGAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

"I believe that your highest path lives in the hands of a greater knowing. And the cure to all of your anxieties lies in that subtle desire to reach for these hands when you know you need them most. But what if I told you - that you actually need them all the time? And that they’ve been silently guiding your steps - here, in this moment, to receive these words, so that you can see that you are being given help, direction, grace, guidance - if you just ask for it.So many of us WANT help. We NEED help. But we won’t ask for it. We don’t know how. We don’t know that we can. And the truth is: many of us won't humble ourselves for a mere moment, removing the idea that it’s all up to us, in order to receive it. We are committed to our helplessness, our hopelessness, our story that it’s all us to us - because that means we get to stay in control, even if it means we’re miserable.If there is a small seed of belief in you already, water it with intention. Thank it for existing. And if you worry that it will not grow, that it does not exist - pray for clarity of vision to see it sprout right in front of your eyes, and open yourself to receive it.And I can nearly guarantee - that you will receive that and so much more." - An excerpt from my essay written for this episode This discussion is about the absolute emotional alchemy that occurs when you lean on the power of prayer & give your worries, doubts, and fears up to something much larger, greater, and more knowing than you could ever be. I share how my spiritual journey is changing day by day and what practices and tools I'm leaning on - and how to begin implementing these tools of purification and surrender in your life.---SIGN UP FOR THE METAMORPHOSIS WAITLIST HERE.The best way to show love to this show???? LEAVE A COMMENT! ENGAGE! Interact!! Say hi!! let me know how FSO has impacted your life!! rate the podcast 5 stars, follow it, and share with a friend. I LOVE YOU!!STAY CONNECTED:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain If you liked this episode, you'll like these, too:The veil is dropping, God is Real Surrender the Clenched Hand of ControlAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

This episode is being posted live from a jungle in Costa Rica two days after hosting my first retreat. 15 women expressing their most true selves, accessing their inner child, creating art from the depths of their hearts - all because I had an idea for a podcast almost three years ago and decided to act on it.If that's not evidence that your ideas are blessings that must be honored, respected, and listened to - I don't know what is.In this episode, we talk about the divine workings inside of the creative process - from conception, to discovery, to creation.If you know you have more inside of you waiting to emerge and blossom and be let free, if you're scared to be bad in order to be good, if you're scared to be seen but crave to be known -- this episode is the reminder you need to tap into the flow that wants to call you forward.--SIGN UP FOR THE METAMORPHOSIS WAITLIST HERE.The best way to show love to this show???? LEAVE A COMMENT! ENGAGE! Interact!! Say hi!! let me know how FSO has impacted your life!! rate the podcast 5 stars, follow it, and share with a friend. I LOVE YOU!!STAY CONNECTED: IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain If you liked this episode, you'll like these, too:Stop sleeping on your potentialThe Good Idea FairyAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Creativity & self-expression is how you heal.This episode is about excavating your creativity - using your life and experiences as a devoted practice to the creative process and your art as an offering and symbol of your resilience.And on the other side - a powerful, potent, peaceful you emerges.SIGN UP FOR THE METAMORPHOSIS WAITLIST. LEAVE A COMMENT & let me know WHAT this episode provoked in you, what questions you have (bc tbh I may also be having them), what you want to hear next, and how Figuring Sh!t Out has impacted your life.Socials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Who told us that we were not supposed to hurt - when to feel is our greatest gift? Who told us that we could have ease - without a little grit?This episode takes you on a journey discussing The Purification Process of the Dark Night of the Soul & the GIFT of enduring the transformation within it.(Spoiler: You Can Do Hard Things & in fact, you were made to.)After all, the darkest hour is right before dawn.----!! SIGN UP FOR THE METAMORPHOSIS WAITLIST.--LEAVE A COMMENT & let me know WHAT this episode provoked in you, what questions you have (bc tbh I may also be having them), what you want to hear next, and how Figuring Sh!t Out has impacted your life.Socials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Honest admittance: I'm a little scared to publish this episode. But what would Figuring Sh!t Out be if it wasn't a testament to overcoming fear, time and time again, by getting as deeply honest as possible and sharing truths from this raw and reflective place?This is Figuring Sh!t Out - in real time.This episode is an existential conversation about God, Existence, and using our critical thinking and discernment when approaching spirituality. (From a girl who has not, up until recently, used a lot of discernment when approaching spirituality.) It is a journey reflecting upon my own - and one that I simply ask you allow to let you question, let you think, let you feel your own inner judgements as they arise, let you wonder about the beliefs you're married to, and reflectively ask: is this my own?Topics covered in this episode: reflections from turning 26: how almost dying at birth gave way to a sentimental thought-daughter with lots of existential questionsi am reading the bible?? for the first time?? ever?? (and tbh i would recommend and if you're immediately like "no," yes that was me too up until last week. lowkey profound.)getting out of the way to receive (including putting your ego aside) and how this connects us to artistry + Godcritically thinking: spirituality / new age as a trend (that i have also fallen into) and why it's not the whole story impure vs pure actions / intentions and how that impacts the quality of the information we receive surrendering: we were never meant to do it all alonediscernmentGod as The Judge vs God as Love: getting curious, seeing beyond religious dogmashattering your own illusions as a ragebait for your inner evolution & growth the fallibility of self-help / development content: you do not have to (and were never meant to) do it all on your ownthe fallibility of our flesh & bone - the necessity of humility & respect how this all helps you do hard things God vs The UniverseThank you for being on this journey with me. LEAVE A COMMENT & let me know WHAT this episode provoked in you, what questions you have (bc tbh I may also be having them), what you want to hear next, and how Figuring Sh!t Out has impacted your life. Don't forget to rate the podcast on your preferred streaming platform!! <3Resources:Episode with my sister.Sign up for the mailing list <3! (you get a free energy protection meditation when you sign up)Socials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

There's your potential - and then there's the power that you DECIDE to have to embody it.And it is a decision.One you must make every day.This episode is a short tough-love transmission reminding you of your limitlessness, your inevitability, the power of your deepest truth when it is aligned in the actions of your highest path, and serves as a first-step to what you know you're ready to move towards.Let this be your reminder: you cannot change what you do not accept.& Let this be your anchor: acceptance is the first step to full surrender and the catalyst to change.So - what are you avoiding that you know you need to do? Why have you been avoiding it? What are you unwilling to face in yourself, that you are ready to change? And what has this avoidance taken from you?Are you actually showing up in a way that will give you every possible chance to succeed? Or are you sleeping on yourself, waving your potential in front of your face while day-dreaming and pretending that's enough to actually *change?*I believe in you. But that doesn't matter.What matters is: Do you believe in you? Are you acting like you do?Because the truth is: what you're not changing is what you're choosing.---IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Sign up for the mailing list <3 - you get a free energy protection meditation when you sign up!Socials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

here are my fieldnotes from learning to fall in love with uncertainty again and again and again instead of resist and fear it: the point of life is not to figure sh!t out - and sometimes we have to get so lost in the figuring sh!t out that we have a great big wake up call that reminds us of that wherever you go, there you arelife is continuing education. we are here to learn. to have fun. to enjoy. to explore. to LIVE. you don't find your purpose looking for your purpose, you find it when you let go puttering is very important. very essential. very necessary. there is time. there is always time. there is always far more time than you think that there is. the ultimate and grand cosmic paradox is that you learn to be at peace when you become at peace with not always being at peacei love you. thank you for being on this journey with me. for showing love, support, and your affections. if you love the show, comment! rate! subscribe! follow! stay up to date! beautiful things are HERE and they are also always coming. xIG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Sign up for the mailing list <3 - you get a free energy protection meditation when you sign up!Socials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

A conversation about girlhood and growing older, embracing the vessel and the life of the body, and embodying the wisdom of life through the preciousness of it's fragility.With my dearest friend, Phia.May this episode allow you to see life through the eyes of your inner elder.Listen to Phia's music.Follow Phia----THANK YOU for listening!! If you love FSO & this episode, leave a comment!! Tell me what resonated, share what you want to hear next <3 Don't forget to rate the podcast on your preferred streaming platform!! <3----LAST DAY is SUNDAY 2/15 to Sign up HERE for the FREE Heart-Healing 10-Day Challenge co-hosted with CURE Hydration - starting MONDAY, 2.16.IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Sign up for the mailing list <3 - you get a free energy protection meditation when you sign up!Socials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

to remain tender is a gift.this episode is an exploration of everything i've learned about love.put simply:"we have all known the bliss of sunshine hitting our skin on a cold day, and we have all belly laughed until our breaths disappeared, and we have all come home chewed up by the world and sunken deep into a familiar withering, and we are all either healing from something or learning how to hold it, running from something or learning how to return - because we have all loved and we have all lost, and we have all mistaken losing for a promise that it was never safe to love. and we have all been wrong about that."- from my essay "let me remember you" which you can read here on my Substack--LAST WEEK to Sign up HERE for the FREE Heart-Healing 10-Day Challenge co-hosted with CURE Hydration - starting MONDAY, 2.16.Sign up for the mailing list <3 - you get a free energy protection meditation when you sign up!Socials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

If the devil can't get to you, he will make you rush."We think our limits live in the dreams we don’t chase, in the tasks we put off, in the emotions that we avoid - but they’re most alive in all of the small ways we deny our right to enjoy life.In the ferocious hurry between movements, in the relentless devotion to our False God of Control that promises certainty we never actually find.We yearn for love, but refuse to let life touch us. Even when it’s right in our hands - fragrant, bright, asking only to be received, we mistake consumption for communion." - Realizations from Near DeathLet this episode bring you home. -—  Sign up HERE the FREE Heart-Healing 10-Day Challenge co-hosted with CURE Hydration - starting MONDAY, 2.16.Sign up for the mailing list <3 - you get a free energy protection meditation when you sign up!PatreonIf You Liked this Episode - You'll Like This One, Too! I Had A Spiritual Awakening Running a MarathonSocials:IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

"I learned how to reach for my dreams with a shaky hand. And time and time again, I’ve seen that once they are in my palms - it makes no difference if I really believe they should be there or not. Because here they are. In my hands. I cannot drop them. I have claimed them. They are a gift and yet - they have always been mine."- an excerpt from my most recent essay "Dreams" (which I read to you in this episode <3) This episode sits inside of the humbling silence of realizing you've been playing it small when you've always been meant to shine - that you've been playing it safe when you've always been divinely protected to expand.Your dreams already believe in you.There is nothing to change here, nothing to fix, and nothing to do.There is only remembering. ---IF YOU LOVE FSO, LEAVE A COMMENT <3 RATE THE SHOW 5 STARS <3 FOLLOW WHEREVER YOU GET YOUR PODCASTS. I LOVE UUU-COSTA RICA 3 SPOTS LEFT - CODE: FSO200 FOR $200 OFF - YOU HAVE UNTIL JAN 30 TO BOOK.IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain MAILING LIST (Sign up for 10% off Merch + a Free Energy Protection Meditation <3)MERCHAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

We won’t ever say it aloud - but most of us hold an ideal of perfection inside of our self-development routines. And after spending enough time nipping and tucking away pieces of ourselves that we don't like in an effort to curate the most acceptable, palatable, "perfect" version of us - what many of us will find is this:We are only as whole as we are able to accept the parts of us that don’t make us feel like it. We are only as healed as we are able to hold our brokenness. We are only as loving as we are to the pieces of us that we can’t fathom. And we will come to know, by peering into the depths of our own hearts long enough to see the it's shadows, that the space that is our bodies was created to hold love for our imperfect flesh. This episode is another reflection on a topic that is core to Figuring Sh!t Out: Shadow-Work. It is a continued conversation from recent dialogue on stretching our capacity for complexity within us and expanding our conscious creation in this world.May it be a friend to you when you feel the tenderness of being deeply human.xxTHANK YOU for listening!! If you love FSO & this episode, leave a comment!! Tell me what resonated, share what you want to hear next <3 Don't forget to rate the podcast on your preferred streaming platform!!----APPLICATION TO JOIN THE FSO TEAM AS AN EDITOR (SOCIAL MEDIA / PODCAST) OR A COMMUNICATIONS ASSISTANT: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLScsKyjL0Qfsl2jZimwm_TVrb1zLT798zoChzgp9_9IZEHitWw/viewform?usp=publish-editorCOSTA RICA spots are still open!! DM me over IG if you wanna chat about it / want a discount code <3 YOU HAVE UNTIL JAN 30 TO BOOK.IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain MAILING LIST (Sign up for 10% off Merch + a Free Energy Protection Meditation <3)MERCHIf you liked this episode, you'll like these too!Episode 21: A Beginner's Guide to Shadow-WorkEpisode 37: Healing Self-Expression, Shadow-Work SeriesAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

"We are mosaics. Pieces of light, love, history, stars. Glued together with magic and music and words." - Anna KritzenThere’s a quiet grief that lives inside a lot of people. Because we’ve learned how to contain ourselves. Creativity was once somewhere we all went to feel alive, and became something we use to prove who we are. We learn to identify with a medium, a label, an aesthetic, a version of ourselves to be understood, admired, approved of. And without realizing it - these identities shrink us. This episode is about how identifying too tightly with a creative medium - or with being good at something - can quietly disconnect us from our true nature, which is plural, fluid, and undefinable. When creativity becomes performance, identity, or ego, it stops being an expression of our aliveness and starts feeding validation instead.Today, I’m talking about creative repression, the “shadow artist,” and what it really means to be a starving artist - not financially, but spiritually. We’ll explore how boxing ourselves into one identity limits our expression, why losing passion is often a sign of creative deprivation, and how curiosity, play, and permission to be bad can reopen the door.As Julia Cameron once said: ""You're either losing your mind or gaining your soul."--THANK YOU for listening!! If you love FSO & this episode, leave a comment!! Tell me what resonated, share what you want to hear next <3 Don't forget to rate the podcast on your preferred streaming platform!!----IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain COSTA RICA spots are still open!! DM me over IG if you wanna chat about it / want a discount code <3 YOU HAVE UNTIL JAN 30 TO BOOK.MAILING LIST (Sign up for 10% off Merch + a Free Energy Protection Meditation <3)MERCHIf you liked this episode, you may like this one too:--Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

This episode is not what you think it is. It is not a hustle-forward, all-gas-no-breaks charge to a new year. But it is also not a total rejection of the new year.It is a subtle and soft invitation into moving forward with reflection, ritual, and intention. Through redefining and examining our relationship with "locking in," or what we turn out focus towards, we can refine our communion with newness in a way that feels true to us.This episode offers a three-phase process to entering - might we even say *sauntering* - into the new year in a way that will allow our new year practices to feel like sustainable daily rhythms rather than temporary sprints & quick fixes. This is a conversation about where and how we spend our time & attention, and will give you a framework of tools to carry forward as you reflect on the previous year and look ahead at the new one.It asks two questions to answer honestly, poignantly, (and to take time meditating upon):What have you been locked into in 2025?And what are you ready to unlock in 2026?These questions aren't so much asking to be answered directly, yet used as pointers to the emerging answers within you that come from peering inwards and sitting with self.May these suggestions support you as you continue to evolve & figure sh!t out in 2026.---THANK YOU for listening!! If you love FSO & this episode, leave a comment!! Tell me what resonated, share what you want to hear next <3 Don't forget to rate the podcast on your preferred streaming platform!!----IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain COSTA RICA spots are still open!! DM me over IG if you wanna chat about it / want a discount code <3 YOU HAVE UNTIL JAN 30 TO BOOK.MAILING LIST (Sign up for 10% off Merch + a Free Energy Protection Meditation <3)MERCHIf you liked this episode, you may like this one too:Ep. 72: CREATE OR BE CONSUMED--Resources Mentioned in this Episode:Digital garden: https://fransfieldnotes.substack.com/p/how-to-make-a-digital-garden-a-beginnersWild geese podcast: https://open.spotify.com/episode/4j9fApvoYIkFYkJrMeHifp?si=b7ade01156704390You need to be bored: https://hbr.org/2025/08/you-need-to-be-bored-heres-whyAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

"Allow shame to find no home in your posture, in your dances, in your aura, in your lovemaking sounds, in your dreaming spaces, in your every single desire," - India Ame'ye This episode is an exploration of releasing shame, guilt, and fear from our bodies and rekindling our inner magic.Through poetry, storytelling, and recommended practices of somatic wisdom and inner reflection, this episode of creates conversation around what it means to let the soft animal of your body love what it love and wants what it wants. Most saliently, it asks a few important questions (left here for your courtesy to journal about after listening): What does it look like to take the best possible care of myself in this present moment life-situation I find myself in? What would I do if it didn't have to be perfect? Or good? If the inner critic in my heart wasn't watching, judging, and eclipsing the inner child who just wanted to try?If you take anything from this episode, let it be this: You do not have to be good. You do not have to crawl on your knees for hundreds of miles repenting. You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves. (Courtesy of Mary Oliver, Wild Geese.) --If you love FSO & this episode, leave a comment!! Tell me what resonated, share what you want to hear next <3 Don't forget to rate the podcast on your preferred streaming platform!!----IG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain COSTA RICA spots are still open!! DM me over IG if you wanna chat about it <3MAILING LIST (Sign up for 10% off Merch + a Free Energy Protection Meditation <3)MERCHIf you liked this episode, you may like this one too: Episode 102: Unapologetic, Unconditional Beingness: Take up Space!Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Growing wiser into the ancient knowledge of our spirit and the animalistic nature of our humanity demands the realization that many things our society looks at as luxuries are actually necessities. One of them: rest.As a society, we have a complicated relationship with rest. An anxious-avoidant one where we long for it, but don't want to get too comfortable in it. We crave it, yet we fear leaning into it.In this Winter Solstice episode, we lean into a discussion about restoring balance in our natural rhythms and cycles through embracing rest and ritualizing our lives with intention.I take you through my complicated and once toxic relationship with rest and productivity, and the ways that I've healed it.What I've found is that -Inspiration strikes most in surrender,Romance can flourish in the spaces in between -And when we allow ourselves the birthright of rest and recovery, we can receive so much more.In a world that never stops turning, if lighting a candle and reading a book in the sun as it begins to set early is an act of rebellion, then let us all be the leaders of the next revolution.-If you love FSO & this episode, leave a comment!! Tell me what resonated, share what you want to hear next <3Rate the podcast on your preferred streaming platform!!-Growth Diaries TemplateCOSTA RICA spots are still open!! DM me over IG if you wanna chat about it <3MAILING LIST (Sign up for 10% off Merch + a Free Energy Protection Meditation <3)MERCHIG: @byvanessafontana TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

a reminder that it's as easy as a deep breath and seeing that it has always been okay.xIf you love FSO & this episode, leave a comment!! Tell me what resonated, share what you want to hear next <3Rate the podcast on your preferred streaming platform!!xCOSTA RICA spots are still open till 12/22!! DM me over IG if you wanna chat about it <3MAILING LIST (Sign up for 10% off Merch + a Free Energy Protection Meditation <3)MERCHIG: @byvanessafontana - follow along to see the voyage this week!TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

This episode is about remembering that your purpose was never meant to look like anyone else’s - and releasing the comparison that’s been convincing you you’re behind.I believe that we all have a gift. I believe that we all have a purpose. I believe that it is buried within the places we don’t want to look. It is entangled in the masterpieces of destruction, it is the diamond in the roughest moments of life, it is forged in the fire of standing tall as you face yourself - no longer running away. But in this age of endless self-help prescriptions from talking heads on the internet, 25 year old millionaires who tell you you're doing something wrong because you haven't figured out how to make 100k overnight while gallivanting at the beach, how can you not feel like you're behind? Like you’ve missed something?Comparison does not just steal joy from you - it steals your knowing, your presence, your direction, and the thread of your purpose from you. These are illusions that are meant to distort our inner compass and seep us into comparison. To keep you running towards something that isn’t your own.No one else has lived the life you’ve lived through your precious eyes. And for that reason, the unique purpose that you have - the gifts that you have - are buried within the threads you have been weaving your whole life, not in the framework of someone else’s. This episode is for anyone who feels like they're behind, who feels a little confused, who feels like they don't quite know their purpose but have been trying to find it, who feels like they have one but don't know where to start in pursuing it, who wants to pursue creativity in some form but feels limited, who wants make their creativity their living but has no clue where to start - I see you.But here's the truth: Knowing your purpose is only half of the equation.Staying true to yourself in it is the other half. xIf you love FSO & this episode, leave a comment!! Tell me what resonated, share what you want to hear next <3Rate the podcast on your preferred streaming platform!!xREAD THE SUBSTACK PIECE HERECOSTA RICA spots are still open till 12/22!! DM me over IG if you wanna chat about it <3MAILING LIST (Sign up for 10% off Merch + a Free Energy Protection Meditation <3)MERCHIG: @byvanessafontana - follow along to see the voyage this week!TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Saying yes to yourself is an unraveling process of becoming closer and closer to the gift of uncertainty and confronting the fear that holds you hostage in order to receive it.In this episode, I share reflections of my journey in the last year saying the biggest, boldest yes I ever have: leaving my 9-5 last year to pursue a creative life. This episode was recorded from an adobe home in Santa Fe, New Mexico gifted by Two Casitas (explore their homes here!!). I found myself here to meet Julia Cameron, author of the Artist's Way at a coffee-shop event she was holding for her latest book. I flew here to say yes to a little call in my heart, to explore what was within it, and to ask Julia to be a guest on this podcast. (stay tuned to see what happens next!!) This episode covers the many lessons I've learned while taking the Road Less Traveled - including a deeply honest admittance of the challenges that come with choosing less stability for more internal certainty while living in the flux of a place like New York City. In this episode - I explore what it means to actually say yes to yourself, what it takes to live a creative life, and a few things I wish I would have known before taking the leap. xComment what you want to hear next <3 Rate the podcast on your preferred streaming platform!!xRead the Substack PieceCOSTA RICA spots are still open!! DM me over IG if you wanna chat about it <3)MAILING LIST (10% off Merch + a Free Energy Protection Meditation <3)IG: @byvanessafontana - follow along to see the voyage this week!TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain MERCHWRITE TO ME FOR A CHANCE TO BE FEATURED ON AN UPCOMING EPISODE Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

you can’t create a life you love while starving the part of you that was born to create it.chapter three of The Perfectionist Diaries is an ode to the Good Idea Fairy - this childlike, intuitive, enchanted part of you that I created to represent the little voice that drops breadcrumbs, whispers nudges, and hands you ideas that could change your entire life (if you'd just listen!!)this episode is about repairing that relationship:letting your creativity breathe again,acting without needing certainty,learning the sacred art of detachment.and a core Figuring Sh!t Out theme:following the spark even when it makes no sense on paper.and at the end of the episode - big news about how I'm doing just this!! (AGAIN?? ...yes.)bringing this series full circle and closing the loop on fear, flow, and creative devotion.xIF YOU <3 FSO, RATE THE PODCAST, LEAVE A COMMENT & SAY HI, AND STAY CONNECTED!COSTA RICA!! LAST CHANCE FOR $250/10% OFFCODE VALID UNTIL THANKSGIVING: TTCOSTARICA25DM me over IG if you wanna chat about it <3)GOOD IDEA FAIRY & CREATIVITY HEALING MEDITATION: Here.Perfectionist Diaries Episodes:Chapter 1: Do it ScaredChapter 2: Make it Exist, then Make it GoodMAILING LIST (10% off Merch + a Free Energy Protection Meditation <3)IG: @byvanessafontanaTIKTOK: @butterflyfountain MERCHWRITE TO ME FOR A CHANCE TO BE FEATURED ON AN UPCOMING EPISODE My Substack <3Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Creation requires both the fire and the flow.In Chapter Two of The Perfectionist Diaries, we explore the cosmic dance between masculine and feminine energy: the part of you that initiates, and the part of you that softens and refines.This episode is a gentle excavation of the shadows beneath perfectionism: the fear of being perceived, the fear of shining too brightly, the ways we reject our own wholeness.In this episode, you’ll learn how to start before you feel ready, hold yourself through imperfection, and create from your deepest truth.In it, we explore:The philosophy of “make it exist, then make it good” - separating creation (masculine/action) from refinement (feminine/receptivity).Why perfectionism exists: subconscious rejection wounds, fear of being seen, fear of success, fear of being misunderstood.Spiritual bypassing and how it keeps creators from healing the origins of their perfectionism.The necessity of shadow-work & some tools for creative recovery for anyone who wants to create authentically.The balance of masculine + feminine energy in the creative process.Survival vs. Creation: How survival mode kills creativity, and why you must bring play, fun, and joy back into the process.A framework for taking action from a place of wholeness xIF YOU <3 FSO, RATE THE PODCAST, LEAVE A COMMENT & SAY HI, AND STAY CONNECTED!COSTA RICA 2026!!!COMMUNITY / ROAD LESS TRAVELED INVITE: DM Me "Invite" On IG (@byvanessafontana)MAILING LIST (10% off Merch + a Free Energy Protection Meditation <3)IG: @byvanessafontanaTIKTOK: @butterflyfountain MERCHWRITE TO ME FOR A CHANCE TO BE FEATURED ON AN UPCOMING EPISODE My Substack <3Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Courage is not the absence of fear but the willingness to act despite it. Waiting until you're fearless will keep you stuck in perfectionism forever. And fear cannot live in a moving body. So, Move. -The Perfectionist Diaries is a mini-series on Figuring Sh!t Out about breaking free from habitual perfectionism and learning to create through fear.This first chapter explores divine timing, creative resistance, and why waiting to feel “ready” is the biggest trap of all.On this episode, we cover:The False Ideal of Fearlessness & How Perfectionism is the Deepest form of Self-SabotageHow Ideas are Divine Assignments, why we must ActWhat Creative Self-Worth Means & EntailsNot needing to Know the End-Game, Just the Next Aligned Step (thank u erifili!!)Moving through The Perfectionist Paralysis with the Willingness to be SeenxIF YOU <3 FSO, RATE THE PODCAST, LEAVE A COMMENT & SAY HI, AND STAY CONNECTED!COSTA RICA 2026!!!COMMUNITY / ROAD LESS TRAVELED INVITE: DM Me "Invite" On IG (@byvanessafontana)MAILING LIST (10% off Merch + a Free Energy Protection Meditation <3)IG: @byvanessafontanaTIKTOK: @butterflyfountain MERCHWRITE TO ME FOR A CHANCE TO BE FEATURED ON AN UPCOMING EPISODE My Substack <3Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Decision is the bridge between your current reality and your highest potential. It is the pathway from survival to creation, from fear to embodiment, and from wishing to CHOOSING. Because maybe you're not stuck - maybe you're just.. undecided. And maybe, without realizing it, your lack of decision has already become one: the choice to stay disconnected, half-alive, half-in.This episode is a wake-up call. A reclamation of your creative power through the art of choosing. We explore how fear, numbness, and ambivalence keep us suspended between worlds, and how reconnecting to your body allows clarity, creativity, and conviction to return.You'll learn: Why hope without action can become a disguised form of fear.How emotional numbness and ambivalence block your creative energy.Somatic and practical tools to reconnect with your desire and direction.How trauma shapes indecision and how to reprogram your body for clarity.An 8 step framework to shift looping thoughts into embodied, decisive action.The energetic process of turning decisions into lasting change.xIF YOU <3 FSO, RATE THE PODCAST, LEAVE A COMMENT & SAY HI, AND STAY CONNECTED!COSTA RICA 2026!!!COMMUNITY / ROAD LESS TRAVELED INVITE: DM Me "Invite" On IG (@byvanessafontana)MAILING LIST (10% off Merch + a Free Energy Protection Meditation <3)IG: @byvanessafontanaTIKTOK: @butterflyfountain MERCHWRITE TO ME FOR A CHANCE TO BE FEATURED ON AN UPCOMING EPISODE My Substack <3xGET 40% OFF OF YOUR CALM SUBSCRIPTION HERE: calm.com/vanessaFSO Episode 82: How EMDR HealsAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

I don't know about you - but cynicism has never brought me more life. Judgement towards myself or others has never given me more purpose. Feeding resistance and resentment has never watered the seeds of my growth. Contrary to popular belief - joy is not naive. It is imperative. And this radical, yet simple decision to take the unserious seriously is what enables us to let go a little deeper into the necessary whimsy of life that makes it worth living. This week, we explore why learning to feel, experience, and hold a state of joy is THE most important work you'll do for yourself, others, and dare I say... humanity. My intention is that you leave this episode with powerful reframes that root you deeper into the presence of your being and allow you to feel more ease in the more-than-enough purpose of simply being alive. xIF YOU <3 FSO, RATE THE PODCAST, LEAVE A COMMENT & SAY HI, AND STAY CONNECTED!COSTA RICA 2026!!! (feel free to reach out over insta to chat more about it if you want!)COMMUNITY / ROAD LESS TRAVELED INVITE: DM Me "Invite" On IG (@byvanessafontana) & let me know which one you're interested in!& SIGN UP FOR THE MAILING LIST TO BE NOTIFIED WHEN THE NEXT ITERATION OF THE COMMUNITY OFFICIALLY LAUNCHES:MAILING LIST (10% off Merch + a Free Energy Protection Meditation <3)IG: @byvanessafontanaTIKTOK: @butterflyfountain MERCHWRITE TO ME FOR A CHANCE TO BE FEATURED ON AN UPCOMING EPISODE My Substack <3xGET 40% OFF OF YOUR CALM SUBSCRIPTION HERE: calm.com/vanessaAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

This week, we explore the tender space between solitude and connection, moving deeper into the theme of unapologetic self-expression (especially for those of us who learned to hide in self-protection.)For those of us who have long identified as "introverts," I ask you a very important question: are you ACTUALLY an introvert? Or do you just have social anxiety and are you scared to be seen?On today's episode, we explore the spectrum of introversion / extroversion as it relates to the safety to be seen and explore the truth behind these labels, social anxiety, and the self-preserving patterns that make us believe we're safer unseen and how to gently unravel them and find aligned community.We root into this theme of community and belonging - something so many of us strive to find in a chronically online, disconnected world - and how to find it when you're in the process of finding yourself.I take you through my own story of social anxiety, self-preservation, outgrowing friendships as a result of coming of age, coming into rediscovering platonic love in a new way, and explore how self-connection can expand into communion with others.If you take away one thing from this dialogue, let it be this:WHEN YOU LET YOURSELF BE SEEN, YOU LET YOURSELF BE LOVED! & YOU DESERVE TO BE BOTH SEEN + LOVED.(but how???? well, just sit back, relax, and listen <3)This episode is a part 2 to episode 102 (Unapologetic, Unconditional Beingness) (no need to listen in order!)xIF YOU <3 FSO, RATE THE PODCAST, LEAVE A COMMENT & SAY HI, AND STAY CONNECTED!COSTA RICA 2026!!! (Reach out over IG to chat if you are interested!)COMMUNITY / ROAD LESS TRAVELED INVITE: DM Me "Invite" On IG (@byvanessafontana) & let me know which one you're interested in!& SIGN UP FOR THE MAILING LIST TO BE NOTIFIED WHEN IT OFFICIALLY LAUNCHES:MAILING LIST (10% off Merch + a Free Energy Protection Meditation <3)IG: @byvanessafontanaTIKTOK: @butterflyfountain MERCHWRITE TO ME FOR A CHANCE TO BE FEATURED ON AN UPCOMING EPISODE My Substack <3xGET 40% OFF OF YOUR CALM SUBSCRIPTION HERE: calm.com/vanessaAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Many of us have come to know our true selves and what alignment feels like to *some* extend, but how do you ~stay~ aligned, even when life isn't? Even when your environment.. isn't?This episode is all about staying rooted in love, alignment, and authenticity - no matter what’s happening around you. We explore the continuum of contrast, the wound of rejection, and the habit of people-pleasing that pulls us out of ourselves and keep us small - especially when faced with people who project, misunderstand, or drain our energy..Because here’s the truth: the world does not have to comply for you to feel good. You do not have to change anyone or anything to be at peace. Alignment is because of *you*, not your circumstances.In this episode, you'll learn how to take radical responsibility for your alignment, understand your conditioning, and release control-oriented patterns that keep you small.We talk inner child healing, shadow work, and the truth about introversion (& social anxiety) as self-preservation - and how to bring your full, radiant self into every room. (BECAUSE THE WORLD NEEDS MORE OF YOU BEING YOU <3)xIF YOU <3 FSO, RATE THE PODCAST, LEAVE A COMMENT & SAY HI, AND STAY CONNECTED!JOIN ME IN COSTA RICA 2026!!!IG: @byvanessafontanaTIKTOK: @butterflyfountainMERCH MAILING LIST (10% off Merch + a Free Energy Protection Meditation <3)WRITE TO ME FOR A CHANCE TO BE FEATURED ON AN UPCOMING EPISODE FSO Episodes Referenced:Episode 43: Speak your Truth & Protect Your Peace: The Energy of Alignment & InfluenceShadow-Work Series, Part 1CHAPTERS:0:00-4:00: how to stay aligned, relentlessly love, + be YOU5:30: the continuum of contrast & choosing love over fear 7:00: addressing the wound of rejection + the habit of people pleasing / molding ourselves / control-oriented behaviors8:00: step 1: radical responsibility9:30: becoming aware of your conditioning 11:00: when you ask for more, you will be met with opportunities to choose MORE. relationships & opportunities are our mirrors 14:00: inner child healing, shadow-work, the WHY behind when we start hiding 18:00: when empathy & emotional attunement becomes maladaptive22:00: introversion as a self-preservation tactic / why you're actually drained by socializing30:00: you are here for a reason. you’ve done half the work - how do you take the work / alignment with you? 27:00: alignment is because of YOU, not your circumstance. why we feel a fresh perspective when we travel / go somewhere but have trouble integrating. the love you see in anything is a reflection of you34:00: you don't have to cut people off to protect your peace 37:00: if you love someone take them off the pedastal of expectation: it's not fair to them, it's not fair to you.36:00: the shift that changes everything.40:00: believe so radically 44:00: unconditional love  Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

On this episode, we’re breaking down the real mechanics of manifestation and demystifying the heavily marketed *woo-woo* behind it.(....Coming from a girl who loves and firmly embraces the woo-woo.)Spirituality and science are finally beginning to speak the same language, and on this episode, we’re translating both. This is a deep-dive into the inner physics of creation: how emotion shapes matter, how the heart bends time, and how the future already lives inside of you.We dive into the fundamental power within all of us to access emotional alchemy - dissipating past pain and creating a more expansive future and we do this by covering it alllll - the neuroscience, the energetics, and the emotional regulation behind true transformation.Pens & Papers out today folks because Class! Is! In! Session!xLove FSO? Let me know your thoughts on this episode with a comment! Let me know what you want to hear next! Rate the podcast 5 stars on your preferred streaming platform! & STAY CONNECTED xIG: @byvanessafontanaTIKTOK: @butterflyfountainMERCH MAILING LIST (10% off Merch + a Free Energy Protection Meditation <3)WRITE TO ME FOR A CHANCE TO BE FEATURED ON AN UPCOMING EPISODE COSTA RICA 2026FSO Episodes Referenced:Part 1: Law of Attraction, Living in Alignment, Surrendering & Trusting your intuition Part 2: Law of Attraction, Romanticizing your Life, Self-Fulfilling Prophecies, and Gratitude into LuckinessMARATHON EPISODE Shadow-Work Episodes: Inner Child HealingSelf-Expression & Creativity Further RESOURCES Mentioned: HeartMath InstituteFree Heart Coherence Meditation About VipassanaInsight timer - Free Meditation App DavidJi 40 Days of Transformation (Paid Version) CHAPTERS:0:00-3:00: Time is Non-Linear3:00-7:00: Manifestation is not what you think it is: skepticism & discernment is necessary7:00-12:00: CLASS IN SESSION! The Mechanics of Energy & The Basic States of Creation12:00-15:00: Concepts of Time15:00-18:00: Felt Sensation 18:00-22:00: Energetic Pathway of the Heart, Heart Math, Heart Coherence22:00-30:00: How I accidentally quantum Leaped30:00-35:00: The Most Important Emotion 35:00-37:00: What this REALLY all means. Simplifying it all. 37:00-49:00: Practices for Collapsing TimeAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Season 4 opens with an invitation: to break subconscious contracts, to honor the duality of being and becoming, and to claim the inevitability of who you already are, embracing the fullness of your dreams with bravery and commitment. This episode walks you through the arc of survival, fear, and limitation - into freedom, expression, and truth. It maps the narrative arc of survival into self-expression, exploring the psychology of subconscious contracts and the practice of choosing your own inevitability over fear. xJOIN THE MAILING LIST FOR 10% OFF YOUR FIRST ORDER OF MERCH + A FREE GROUNDING & ENERGY PROTECTION MEDITATION: (BOTTOM OF THE PAGE) EXPLORE MERCH: Here! COSTA RICA MARCH 2026 RETREAT: 2 EARLY BIRD SPOTS LEFT IG: @byvanessafontanaTIKTOK: @butterflyfountainYoutube Video: Watch HereAdvertising Inquiries: [email protected]: 0:00 - Figuring Sh!t Out - SEASON 4 2:00: the narrative arc - when the road less traveled becomes.. the road you're on 9:00: you are inevitable14:00 the profound responsibility of taking responsibility for your own life 18:00: your subconscious contracts + failure pre-emption20:00: ways that I break my own subconscious contracts22:00: the myth of working "hard": let it be easy 23:00: the loyalty we pay to our fear vs our dreams & the contract of unworthiness25:00: PRACTICAL TIPS TO TURN survival into self-expression 30:00 the responsibility of being inevitableAdvertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

gentle reminders for when you're overthinking, overwhelmed, and over-doing it.the art of let oneself be (without guilt) is a love letter to the magic that appears when you let go and it is done with the intention of:taking the BEING very seriously and the DOING very unseriously. this is the last episode of season three and the last page of the road less traveled chapter. so much more to come. see you very soon for episode 100. xWATCH THE VIDEO EPISODE HEREFSO COSTA RICA RETREAT 2026: LIMITED 10% OFF EARLY-BIRD SPOTSFSO InstagramPersonal Instagram: @vanessaafontanaTikTok: butterflyfountainIF YOU LOVE FSO, RATE THE PODCAST ON YOUR PREFERRED STREAMING PLATFORM, LEAVE A COMMENT, SHARE THIS EPISODE &STAY CONNECTED:Artist's Way Community Sign-Upfor partnerships or inquiries, please contact:[email protected]:0:00-5:00: the art of intentional living and the radical act of beingness5:00-7:18: the inevitable highs and lows, inhales and exhales, and sitting in between7:18-12:30: potential portals to beingness12:30-14:00: this is your sign to live more fully, freely, and joyfully14:00-18:00: embodying See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

every day is dress rehearsal for the life you want to live and the person you want to be.if you're trying, you're trying too hard.let this episode remind you of the truth of who you are - stop trying. start being.let go of the story & start LIVING your truth.and start now.xWATCH THE VIDEO EPISODE HEREFSO COSTA RICA RETREAT 2026: LIMITED 10% OFF EARLY-BIRD SPOTSFSO IGPersonal Instagram: @vanessaafontanaTikTok: butterflyfountainIF YOU LOVE FSO, RATE THE PODCAST ON YOUR PREFERRED STREAMING PLATFORM, LEAVE A COMMENT, SHARE THIS EPISODE &STAY CONNECTED:Artist's Way Community Sign-Upfor partnerships or inquiries, please contact:[email protected]: 0:00-4:00: You're Not Special, but You Are Powerful 4:00-8:00: Coming Clean 8:00-10:00: your worth starts right now10:00-12:00: What you want reveals who You Are 12:00-14:00: what is driving you? Fear or love?14:00-16:00: what if I don't believe it?16:00-18:00: the distinct polarities18:00-20:00: don't stare at fear. don't linger. 20:00-21:00: the trap of "trying" and how it keeps us stuck without realizing it21:00-23:00: life is a process of creation, not discovery.23:00: let go of the story & start LIVING your truthSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

"What aspects of myself do I wish to experience now in the face of this calamity? What aspects of being do I choose to call forth? For all life exists as a tool of your own creation, and all of its events merely present themselves as opposites for you to decide to be who ou are. There are no victims. Only creators" - Neil Walsch, Conversations with GodThought-Daughtering my way through every major challenge and transition in my life and remembering:Everything is an opportunity to deepen your most high truth - especially, your biggest challenges. Layers within them, are blessings.CHAPTERS:0:00-7:00: life update & backstory: where am I... living?7:00-19:00: challenges & hardship are opportunities to go deeper into who we really are19:00-25:00: we are pure creative potential25:00-29:00: you are not a victim!!!29:00-31:00: the misconception of the higher self31:00-35:00: how lucky are we to have a last time?x:WATCH THE VIDEO EPISODE HERE: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4OKOGbozAagFSO COSTA RICA RETREAT 2026: LIMITED 10% OFF EARLY-BIRD SPOTSFSO IGPersonal Instagram: @vanessaafontanaTikTok: butterflyfountainIF YOU LOVE FSO, RATE THE PODCAST ON YOUR PREFERRED STREAMING PLATFORM, LEAVE A COMMENT, SHARE THIS EPISODE &STAY CONNECTED:Artist's Way Community Sign-Upfor partnerships or inquiries, please contact:[email protected] Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

life is happening FOR you, not to you. your access to freedom is right here and now - in the chance and opportunity to trust when your faith is shaken.on this week's episode, i give you background into how this mindset is keeping me steady and strong after finding out i may have to leave my home of three years on a week's notice (stay tuned to find out what happens next week! figuring sh!t out in real time! haha! it's so not funny! but i have to laugh! because what else! is there! to do!! haha!!) xWATCH THE VIDEO EPISODE HERE: https://youtu.be/Lifni4OshfwFSO COSTA RICA RETREAT 2026: LIMITED 10% OFF EARLY-BIRD SPOTSPersonal Instagram: @vanessaafontanaTikTok: butterflyfountainIF YOU LOVE FSO, RATE THE PODCAST ON YOUR PREFERRED STREAMING PLATFORM, LEAVE A COMMENT, SHARE THIS EPISODE &STAY CONNECTED:FSO IGArtist's Way Community Sign-Upfor partnerships or inquiries, please contact:[email protected]: 0:00-4:30: If You're Forcing: Stop. 4:30- 13:00: Backstory of Being (potentially) Displaced in NYC: 13:00: Resisting vs Surrendering, The RatRace & Hamster Wheel15:00: There is nothing that could take you from your path. it will emerge 19:00: tests of trust come through uncertainty 23:00: the process is the pointSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

This episode is an ode to reclaiming your creativity and individuality after being flooded and energetically dulled from phone addiction, a noisy world of aesthetics and trends, and overstimulation.In it, I give you a six-step ritual to reclaim spaciousness inside of your own head, to hear your own voice, and to unravel the subtle signal of yourself beneath all of the noise.In a world that demands so much of our attention, where every desire is boxed into a trend or an aesthetic to curate onto a Pinterest board, where we are drowned by stimuli the moment we step into the deep-end of unlocking our phones - individuality and autonomy is no longer a birthright, but a skill. And in a culture of immediacy and urgency, choosing to listen, have patience, and prioritize play is a radical act.This is not performance.This is learning how to breathe again.xWATCH THE VIDEO TO THIS EPISODE HERE! I LOVE YOU!!IF YOU <3 FSO, RATE THE PODCAST ON YOUR PREFERRED STREAMING PLATFORM, LEAVE A COMMENT, SHARE THIS EPISODE &STAY CONNECTED:FSO IGJOIN THE Community! To Support the Show! For Bonus Meditations, Episodes, & Discounted/Free Access to Workshops.Free Grounding & Energy Cleansing Meditation in the FSO Together community <3Personal Instagram: @vanessaafontanaTikTok: butterflyfountainxMentioned in the episode:Artist's Way Community Sign-UpFSO COSTA RICA RETREAT 2026: LIMITED 10% OFF EARLY-BIRD SPOTSTikTok I referenced on Dopamine RecoveryRead the piece I wrote for this episode <3Xfor partnerships or inquiries, please contact:[email protected]:0:00-2:00: Coming Home to Yourself. Even "Good Noise" Is still Noise2:00-10:00: What Inspired this Episode: My Experience with Energetic Density10:00-13:00: Energetic Hygiene: All it Takes13:00-14:00 The Art of Hearing Your Own Voice14:00-17:00: The Unraveling, Creativity Cave, Sensory Reclamation, Boredom As A Portal17:00-19:00: We Have to remember this was always Ours19:00-21:00: How Trends, Labels, and Aesthetics Keep us in a Box21:00-27:00: The Artist's Way is the Spiritual Path27:00-34:00: Dopamine & Scrolling34:00-39:00: Oh My Darling, It was Never That Serious.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

What if your expression: your voice, your vision, your rebellion was the most direct line to the divine? What if Art was your prayer?In this conversation with my dear friend Etai, we explore the thin veil between art and spirituality and the daily devotion of creativity and leading life with an open heart.We discuss in depth - The Artist's Way, fear, rejection, finding the right audience, living with an open heart, and returning to wholeness through expression.Etai has built an online community of over 400,000 who use his yoga videos to get closer to themselves and their truths. He's built this platform in the last year through a brave spirit of pure authenticity as he finds himself calling other parts of the globe his home and sharing his truth. May his words, voice, and presence inspire your path forward and let you live in your calling. x Etai's IGEtai's LinksEtai's first FSO episodexFSO COSTA RICA RETREAT 2026: LIMITED 10% OFF EARLY-BIRD SPOTSxSTAY CONNECTED:FSO IGJOIN THE Community! To Support the Show! For Bonus Meditations, Episodes, & Discounted/Free Access to Workshops.Free Grounding & Energy Cleansing Meditation in the FSO Together community <3Personal Instagram: @vanessaafontanaTikTok: butterflyfountainxfor partnerships or inquiries, please contact:[email protected]: 00:00-07:40: Discovering Oneself07:40-10:20: One Year of Solo Travel & Spiritual Unfolding Showing Up Online 10:20-14:00: The Sacred Contrast: Collectivism vs. Free Expression14:00-17:00: Showing Up Online, Yoga as a Muse, Building a Digital Devotional17:00-20:00: Living with an Open Heart & True Authentic Freedom20:00-25:00: The Artists Way + Inseparability between Art & Spirituality25:30-35:00: The Company We Keep35:00-40:55 – Yoga as Muse & Art as OfferingSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

We become so busy "getting our lives together" that we forget that we've achieved some of our childhood dreams. Let this episode allow you to remember. You are right on time. This episode is an ode to LIVING and restoring your inner vision. FSO COSTA RICA RETREAT 2026: LIMITED 10% OFF EARLY-BIRD SPOTS Book 15 if you want to talk with me about the retreat or the RLT Program (a few spots left for this next round + scholarships!)Instagram DM's are open rn!! @figuringshiiitoutInsight Timer 40 Days of Transformation with DavidJixSTAY CONNECTED:JOIN THE Community! To Support the Show! For Bonus Meditations, Episodes, & Discounted/Free Access to Workshops.Free Grounding & Energy Cleansing Meditation in the FSO Together community <3Personal Instagram: @vanessaafontanaTikTok: butterflyfountainxfor partnerships or inquiries, please contact:[email protected]: 0:00-6:00: But, where is your joy?6:00:-8:00: Forgetting we've achieved our childhood dreams8:00-9:30: The Lower Self / Higher Self & Pendulum Swing of Shadow + Light9:30-12:00: Raising Your Baseline, Sitting with the Self in 40 days of Silent Meditation12:00-16:00: Transformation is a process that is not linear16:00-19:00: Vision without Strategy is just a To-Do List19:00-23:00: The Proverbial "mountain," Sometimes It's Easier When You're Farther Away23:00-27:00: How Would You Act If It was All Working out?27:00-30:00: When You're Ready to Change, YOU WILL30:00-37:00: Costa Rica, Artist's Way Circle37:00-43:00: Create What You Wish Existed43:00-44:00: If I'm still here I have a 100% Survival Rate!!See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

no one relates to art that has all the answers - your power comes from all of the things you do not know, but have the courage to try and understand./If you <3 FSO, rate it 5 stars on your preferred streaming platform, leave a comment, and share with a friend <3Road Less Travelers Program:BOOK TIME TO CHAT ABOUT THE NEXT ROUND OF THE ROAD LESS TRAVELERS PROGRAM STARTING IN JULY! Or DM ME "invite" with your email on IG: @figuringshiiitout 2026 RETREAT ANNOUNCEMENT COMING THIS WEEK! Sign up for updates here.STAY CONNECTED:JOIN THE Community! To Support the Show! For Bonus Meditations, Episodes, & Discounted/Free Access to Workshops.Free Grounding & Energy Cleansing Meditation in the FSO Together community <3Personal Instagram: @vanessaafontanaTikTok: butterflyfountainStan-Store (With Workshop Playbacks + Resources for Purchase to support the Show!)If you liked this episode, you may also like this one:43 - Speak Your Truth & Protect your Peace: The Energy of Alignment of Alignment & InfluenceCHAPTERS:0:00-3:00: We're Always Figuring Sh!T Out3:00-4:30: The GIFT of Imposter Syndrome & Uncertainty4:30-6:00: You are Exactly Where You're Meant to Be6:00-11:00: The Void & Gestation, The beauty of In Betweenness, Becoming11:00-14:00: You Are Already Whole14:00-18:00: What is Freedom?18:00-21:00: Seeking, Lack, & How You Know It's Time to Take a Step Back21:00-23:00: We are Not Meant to Walk this Path AloneSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

6 months ago, I got off the hamster wheel, quit my corporate job, & traveled to Bali for Yoga Teacher Training.I went through the highs and lows of choosing a yoga teacher training, learned the hard lessons of first-time solo transatlantic travel, and lived to tell the tale.In this episode, I share about everything I gathered in my journey to Bali, how I chose a Yoga Teacher Training, what YTT was like, and what I learned from doing yoga in the jungle of Ubud for 3 weeks.We cover the questions you should ask before choosing a YTT, the trade-offs of affordability and community, what it's actually like traveling to Bali, and what my experience was like at House of Om.Touching on the transformation that happens within, the cultural complexities of Bali, and the spiritual truths that emerge when you step away from the familiar, this episode is a 101 guide for anyone thinking about buying that one-way ticket.For more on the depth of my experience and to hear my journal entries and awakenings while there, watch my recent video on Youtube: Diaries of a Corporate Drop-Out.xSUPPORT THE SHOW BY LEAVING A COMMENT ON THIS EPISODE, RATING IT 5 STARS ON YOUR PREFERRED STREAMING PLATFORM, FOLLOWING, & SHARING WITH A FRIEND <3xBOOK TIME TO CHAT ABOUT THE ROAD LESS TRAVELERS PROGRAM! Or DM ME "invite" with your email on IG: @figuringshiiitout (&Follow the IG to stay tuned on official launch and for other FSO news! )2026 RETREAT ANNOUNCEMENT COMING SOON! Sign up for updates here.STAY CONNECTED:MY NEWSLETTER (scroll to the end of the page to join!)JOIN THE Community! For Bonus Meditations, Episodes, & Discounted/Free Access to Workshops.Free Grounding & Energy Cleansing Meditation in the FSO Together community <3Personal Instagram: @vanessaafontanaTikTok: butterflyfountainStan-Store (With Workshop Playbacks + Resources for Purchase to support the Show!)If you liked this episode, you may also like these!64 - How Trauma & Pain Are Stored in Our Body & How to Heal with Movement (Samten Kriya Episode)60 - How A Self-Discovery Journey Led me From Working In Tech to Doing YTT in Bali 59 - Taking the Leap /Resources:Choosing a YTTHouse of Om:House of Om: MelatiSamten Kriya Visitng Bali:Indonesia Visa Regulations Official Link to Apply for a Visa (Website isn't Great)Recommendations mentioned:Sanur: Nice Beach / Calm / on West CoastUbud: YTT's & Spiritual Center of BaliUluwatu: Beach/Cliftown in the South - favorite part of Bali/CHAPTERS:0:00-3:00: Introduction3:00-9:00 Why I decided on YTT & My Journey9:00-11:30: Choosing a YTT: 3 Questions to Ask Yourself11:30-13:15: Intentions13:15-16:00: Class / Group Size16:00-19:00: House of Om: Affordability & Experience19:00-20:00: Be Prepared for Emotional Catharsis22:00-24:00: Teachers & Kriya Yoga, Schedule & trade-Offs24:00-25:00: Emotional Processing25:00-27:00: Choosing a Training: Summary27:00-30:00: All About Bali30:00-34:00: Gentrification, Westernization: Paying Respect34:00-40:00: Flights, Visas, Police, Female Solo Traveling40:00-44:00: Finances & Cost, Justifying the Investment44:00-48:00: What YTT Gave MeSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

my reflections on the journey to the other side of the world seen through the eyes of my through journal entries.watch the video, told in visuals and story here: https://youtu.be/9R2bAm2ds_4for this week, here is my heart.NEXT WEEK, there is an episode all about the actual logistics of YTT and I give you my comprehensive guide to navigating choosing a yoga teacher training and going to Bali.xBe sure to FOLLOW the podcast to stay up to date <3SUPPORT THE SHOW BY LEAVING A COMMENT ON THIS EPISODE, RATING IT 5 STARS ON YOUR PREFERRED STREAMING PLATFORM, FOLLOWING, & SHARING WITH A FRIEND <3xStay Connected:BOOK TIME TO CHAT ABOUT THE ROAD LESS TRAVELERS PROGRAM! (All about HOW to do this type of thing)Or DM ME "invite" with your email on:IG: @figuringshiiitout (&Follow the IG to stay tuned on official launch and for other FSO news! )2026 RETREAT ANNOUNCEMENT COMING SOON! Sign up for updates here.STAY CONNECTED:MY NEWSLETTER (scroll to the end of the page to join!)JOIN THE Community! For Bonus Meditations, Episodes, & Discounted/Free Access to Workshops.Free Grounding & Energy Cleansing Meditation in the FSO Together community <3Personal Instagram: @vanessaafontanaTikTok: butterflyfountainStan-Store (With Workshop Playbacks + Resources for Purchase to support the Show!)xIf you liked this episode, you may also like these!64 - How Trauma & Pain Are Stored in Our Body & How to Heal with Movement (Samten Kriya Episode)60 - How A Self-Discovery Journey Led me From Working In Tech to Doing YTT in Bali 59 - Taking the LeapSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Walk with me through six truths to remember and come home to when life feels impossibly heavy.From the murky edges of uncertainty to the quiet wisdom of who we choose to surround ourselves with, this episode is a gentle guide for the tender, relentless act of becoming.In this episode, I speak to the ache of transitions and the courage of leaning into what’s alive: movement as medicine, community as a balm, the exquisite alchemy of falling apart and piecing ourselves back together, and deepening into the beautiful, magical, unknowing, unfurling process of Figuring Sh!t Out!! (something we will ALWAYS BE DOING in case u forgot.)We are in this TOGETHERxSUPPORT THE SHOW BY LEAVING A COMMENT ON THIS EPISODE, RATING IT 5 STARS ON YOUR PREFERRED STREAMING PLATFORM, FOLLOWING, & SHARING WITH A FRIEND <3xBOOK TIME (ONE-TIME ONLY!) TO CHAT ABOUT THE ROAD LESS TRAVELERS PROGRAM! Or DM ME "invite" with your email on IG: @figuringshiiitout (&Follow the IG to stay tuned on official launch and for other FSO news! )2026 RETREAT ANNOUNCEMENT COMING SOON! Sign up for updates here.MY NEWSLETTER (scroll to the end of the page to join!)xSTAY CONNECTED:SubstackJOIN THE Community! For Bonus Meditations, Episodes, & Discounted/Free Access to Workshops.Free Grounding & Energy Cleansing Meditation in the FSO Together community <3Personal Instagram: @vanessaafontanaTikTok: butterflyfountainStan-Store (With Workshop Playbacks + Resources for Purchase to support the Show!)xIf you liked this episode, you'll like this one too! Episode 77: Stop Intellectualizing & Overanalyzing + Start LivingCHAPTERS:0:00-9:00: Life Update / Moving in NYC / Figuring Sh!t Out in Real Time9:00-13:00: Uncertainty is an OPPORTUNITY!! The Great Big Void.13:00-19:00: MOVE that sh!t out19:00-23:00: Let Love In23:00-30:00: Let it Go30:00-33:00: Life is a Mess! But it's YOUR beautiful Mess!33:00-40:00: The One Resonant TruthSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Patience is a virtue for a reason: it allows the space to be curious. And in curiosity --life is explored, paths are formed, and the beautiful glimmers that make life worth living are found.In this episode: trust, timing, resistance, and the real work of staying in it. We talk about letting go of the timeline, releasing the force of outcomes (unfurling the clenched hand of control, if you will) and listening to what wants to emerge.To be curious! Is to be alive! To be alive! Is to Walk the path of the unknown and let it remind you not of where you're aiming to go but of WHO! YOU! ARE! If you are struggling to know what is next, to sit in the in-between, or to simply allow life to unravel as it should and as it does -- May you breathe deep while listening to these words and find some solace in them.xSUPPORT THE SHOW BY LEAVING A COMMENT ON THIS EPISODE, RATING IT 5 STARS ON YOUR PREFERRED STREAMING PLATFORM, FOLLOWING, & SHARING WITH A FRIEND <3xBOOK TIME (ONE-TIME ONLY!) TO CHAT ABOUT THE ROAD LESS TRAVELERS PROGRAM! Or DM ME "invite" with your email on IG: @figuringshiiitout (&Follow the IG to stay tuned on official launch and for other FSO news! )2026 RETREAT ANNOUNCEMENT COMING SOON! Sign up for updates here.MY NEWSLETTER (scroll to the end of the page to join!)xSTAY CONNECTED:SubstackJOIN THE Community! For Bonus Meditations, Episodes, & Discounted/Free Access to Workshops.Free Grounding & Energy Cleansing Meditation in the FSO Together community <3Personal Instagram: @vanessaafontanaTikTok: butterflyfountainStan-Store (With Workshop Playbacks + Resources for Purchase to support the Show!)xIf you liked this episode, you'll like this one too! Episode 78. You are Right on TimeCHAPTERS: 0:00-3:00: What if it's already yours?3:00-8:00: Pressure, Survival, the Myth of "How" 8:00-11:00: Patience is a Virtue 11:00-23:00: In the Pause, a Portal 23:00-31:56: The Gift of Curiosity!!! Showing up Online & The Journey of Being Seen31:56-40:00: What would you rather believe? Are You Willing to wait for it?40:00-43:00: In the In-Between?See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

If it feels like it is all falling apart, maybe it is. But maybe - it has to so that a new way can emerge.In this short episode, I dive into a core pillar of Figuring Sh!t Out: Feeling like you don't have Sh!t figured out (followed by a subsequent, sometimes immediate, existential crisis and break-down that makes you feel a little chaotic.)I talk to you about the power of letting yourself feel, fall apart, and the clarity that can emerge from surrendering to the crash-out.Consider this episode your guide and your companion when you need a little help through to the other side. Because sometimes --The only way out is through.xSUPPORT THE SHOW BY LEAVING A COMMENT ON THIS EPISODE, RATING IT 5 STARS ON YOUR PREFERRED STREAMING PLATFORM, FOLLOWING, & SHARING WITH A FRIEND <3 xROAD LESS TRAVELERS 5-WEEK PROGRAM ROUND 2 STARTS IN JUNE: DM ME "invite" with your email on IG: @figuringshiiitout (&Follow the IG!) TICKETS TO MY IN-PERSON MEDITATION & JOURNALING WORKSHOP IN NYC SATURDAY 5/24 2026 RETREAT W/ ME & FSO PEEPS: FILL OUT THIS SURVEY & LET ME KNOW WHERE YOU'D WANT TO GO / WHAT YOU'D BE INTERESTED IN!xSTAY CONNECTED:JOIN THE Community! For Bonus Meditations, Episodes, & Discounted/Free Access to Workshops.Free Grounding & Energy Cleansing Meditation in the FSO Together community <3Personal Instagram: @vanessaafontanaTikTok: butterflyfountainMY NEWSLETTER (scroll to the end of the page to join!)Stan-Store (With Workshop Playbacks + Resources for Purchase to support the Show!)xIf you liked this episode, you'll like this one too! 47. Stop Playing it Small & Start Flirting with LifexCHAPTERS: 0:00-3:30: Why Rock Bottom is a Beautiful Place to Be 3:30-6:06: Expansion Happens When We Go Beyond Limit6:06-8:00: Control is a False God: Admitting & Surrendering will Set you Free8:00-14:00: The Beauty of Letting Yourself Fall Apart14:00-16:00: What NOT to Do During a Break Down16:00-18:00: Dopamine Detoxing 18:00-23:00: You are A Phoenix Rising from the AshesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Today, I sit down with one of the most inspiring and grounded women I've had the chance to speak to - the type of woman every coming-of-age gal needs in their life: soul-connected, supportive, and resilient in mind, body, and spirit.Today, (in honor of Mother's Day), we welcome Stacey Garcia - Integrative Health Coach, podcast host, mom, and breast cancer survivor.Stacey shares her powerful story of receiving a cancer diagnosis during what should’ve been her healthiest year, and how that moment cracked her open to a deeper way of living and listening.We talk about what it means to truly heal — not just through treatment protocols, but through energy work, ritual, community, and self-trust.On this episode, we talk about her journey to becoming a Reiki Master, the emotional toll of chronic stress, and the missing links in modern wellness culture.This episode captures one of the most honest and soul-opening conversations I've had on this show - and I am SO excited to share it with you.This is a conversation about intuition, courage, softness, asking better questions, and the radical act of self-advocacy in medical treatment - it's not just about health, but about who we are when everything else falls away.Stacey’s story is a reminder that healing isn’t about doing more — it’s about remembering your power, and allowing your body to speak.xStacey's Links:Instagram Never Miss a Monday PodcastListen to Our Episode on NMMxIF YOU'RE INTERESTED IN A 2026 RETREAT WITH ME & OTHER FSO PEEPS NEXT YEAR, FILL OUT THIS SURVEY BELOW & LET ME KNOW WHERE YOU'D WANT TO GO / WHAT YOU'D BE INTERESTED IN!Fill me Out!Podcast Instagram: @figuringshiiitout - DM Me "Invite" with your email to learn more about The Road Less Travelers 4 week Course or 1:1 work! (Cohort 2 Begins 5/19)JOIN THE Community! For Bonus Meditations, Episodes, & Discounted/Free Access to Workshops.Free Grounding & Energy Cleansing Meditation in the FSO Together community <3STAY CONNECTED:Personal Instagram: @vanessaafontanaTikTok: butterflyfountainMY NEWSLETTER (scroll to the end of the page to join!)Stan-Store (With Workshop Playbacks + Resources for Purchase to support the Show!)xIf you liked this episode, you'll like this one: 41. The Mind-Body Connection, Emotional Regulation, Physical Well-Being, & Somatic HealingxCHAPTERS:0:00-4:00: Introduction 4:00-7:30: Stacey's Background in Nutrition, Integrative Health, Body & Energy Work 7:30-12:15: Surviving Cancer & Leaning into Holistic Wellness12:15-16:00: The Medical System is designed to "Heal Sickness" not "Create Wellness"16:30-21:30: Understanding Reiki, Energy Centers, Aura, & Energy Healing 21:30-29:00: Exploring Subtle Energy, Grounding, & Balancing Energy Centers29:00-32:00: Big Pharma & Exploring Alternative Healing 32:00-36:00: Mindset in Healing; The Words of Life and Death are in the Tongue36:00-40:00: The Role of your Village & Community in Healing40:00-44:00: What advice do you have for us to proactively and preventatively improve our lifestyle & mindset?44:00-47:00: What advice would you give to women who are struggling with body image?47-50:00: "Letting Them"50-55:00: LIVE YOUR LIFE! DO THE THING! YOU ONLY HAVE ONE!See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

There is no greater force more powerful than the quiet, silent, nearly imperceptible whisper of your gut. This knowing, this sensation, this whisper - it urges you subtly and softly with the faint voice of: "yes." "no." "this way" "that way" "do this thing" "don't do that thing," and the more adept we are at listening to it -The easier our alignment is to find, the more at peace we feel, the more in our power we are, and the safer we are.Before we know something with evidence, we are told with a delicate nudge -- because intuition whispers long before it screams.Our intuition is our greatest source of inner truth, but we are de-conditioned out of listening to it and trusting it in many ways: A world of noise and overstimulation, chattering voices that slip into our heads and take us away from our bodies and sovereignty, a conditioning to people-please and make everyone happy, and far too many "benefit-of-the-doubts" given where silent trust should've sat."I'm being crazy," we tell ourselves -- talking back to a voice that is beyond our time and space, that is an ancient and evolutionary skill that kept our ancestors alive long enough to lengthen our lineages.We talk over this voice - a voice so strong, it has joined the family of our senses and been called the sixth.If the world is far more than the physical matter we can see with spectrums of light, time, and space that are unavailable to us simply because we cannot perceive them with the naked eye, then this voice that does not speak words yet eludes a knowing from our bones should be consulted with and trusted far more often than it is.This episode is meant to help you reconnect with it and deepen your intuition.It is meant to guide you to that gut knowing, reunite you with your inner voice, and allow you the inner power to know -- that most of the time...You already know. You already have your answers.You just have to clear the space to hear to them.In this episode, we discuss:what intuition is in relation to time, space, and other dimensionshigher realms + consulting with / hearing the divinehow felt sensation can be a guiding post for ushow intuition is different than inner judgement, fear, and imagination + why and how we are conditioned out of ithow outside influences & certain people can deter you from your intuition and the beauty of being connected to your own sovereigntyhow to get back in touch with your inner voice, with prescriptions from Julia Cameron's follow-up to The Artist's Way "Living the Artist's Way - an Intuitive Path to Greater Creativity,"If this episode resonates with you, leave a comment & let me know & consider sharing it with a friend! & if you really love Figuring Sh!t Out, rate the podcast 5 stars on your preferred streaming platform ♡----IF YOU'RE INTERESTED IN A 2026 RETREAT WITH ME & OTHER FSO PEEPS NEXT YEAR, FILL OUT THIS SURVEY BELOW & LET ME KNOW WHERE YOU'D WANT TO GO / WHAT YOU'D BE INTERESTED IN!Fill me Out! Podcast Instagram: @figuringshiiitout - DM Me "Invite" with your email to learn more about The Road Less Travelers 4 week Course or 1:1 work! (Cohort 2 Begins 5/19)JOIN THE Community! For Bonus Meditations, Episodes, & Discounted/Free Access to Workshops.Free Grounding & Energy Cleansing Meditation in the FSO Together community <3STAY CONNECTED:Personal Instagram: @vanessaafontanaTikTok: butterflyfountainMY NEWSLETTER (scroll to the end of the page to join!)Stan-Store (With Workshop Playbacks + Resources for Purchase being added as we speak!)xIf you liked this episode, you'll like this one: 26. Intuition vs. Anxiety: Building Trust With Yourself by Learning to Listen to your Inner Wisdom CHAPTERS:0:00-4:00: Introduction4:00-8:16: Gratitude + ANNOUNCEMENT <3 8:16-14:40: Intuition, Different Dimensions, & A Force Felt but not Seen14:40-17:10: Your Gut is Always Right (& It usually proves itself right) 17:10-22:09: Alignment: Intuition is not Personal22:09-27:00: Intuition vs Inner Judgement & Ways we Talk ourselves Out of our Intuition27:00-31:45: Sensing: Intuitive Movement & Writing31:45-34:00: A Short Practice to Get the Answer You Need34:00-38:00: How my Intuition Led me to Leave my Job at the Right Time38:00-44:25: Intuition vs Imagination, Higher Realms & Forces, & The Artist's Way44:25-49:39: Practices: Writing for Guidance, Intuition Walks49:39-52:39: Hearing your Own Voice & Digital Detoxing52:39-56:32: Individuality > Trends, Imitation, Following Others56:32-1:00:00: Trust your Damn GutSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Our bodies - they live for us. And they allow us to live. They give us the ability to sift through this life experience with the breath of both joy and fear, the expression of both laughter and pain.In them, we celebrate. In them, we ache. And yet in them, we often do everything we can: To escape them. We meet ourselves in the mirror, avoid our eyes, and dart to the pieces of our beings that we hope to be different. We bombard ourselves with never-enoughness and create a shell of distance between us and these vessels that live to support us. We try to love our inner child, yet we perpetuate the same talk-tracks that reject their desire to live freely in their skin without the weight of judgement.Our bodies — they want to be our friends. They always have.And yet, in them - we wage a silent war.For many of us, this is habit. I don't know a single female who hasn't dealt with some bout of shame, distortion, or insecurity from the pain of a toxic body image.I am one of them. I have dealt with the ups and downs and everlong fluctuations of body image distress, disordered and restrictive habits, coming into a healed and accepting place time and time again only to find myself fall into old spirals of shame and self-rejection. I have had this podcast for two years and have never spoken about this topic — because though I have dealt so intimately with this, I didn't know how to speak about it. I didn't know what to say. I didn't feel — qualified.How could I? When I was still figuring it out? And then, this week - I had a moment of reckoning with myself in a dressing room. There was a light cast onto the dark shadow of a tired talk-track I'd heard too many times — and I realized that this cycle does not stop by living in silence.That too many of us carry around this silent shame and guilt with this subject matter. And it was time to break that cycle.This episode is a soft but honest exploration of our relationship with our bodies, self-rejection, and the perfectionistic expectations we may carry in an age where image feels like currency. During this episode, I talk about: how we perpetuate toxic cycles of conditional love with ourselves and how to stop this cycle of perfectionism ways the inner critic shows up and steps to keep the inner critic in checkstrategies to become a friend to yourself and earn your own trust back how to approach change from a place of love rather than FOR lovehow the body is an energetic extension of us, reflecting our inner dialogue the projection of control and "the need to fix:" my story and reflections with this topic throughout my lifeTW: Body Image, Disordered Eating.Disclaimer: I am not a therapist, doctor, nor an expert on this topic — I am just sharing my own experience and the reflections of what I've learned. If you are in need of assistance or help, please seek an expert's guidance.xIF YOU LOVE FSO, PLS RATE THE SHOW ON YOUR PREFERRED STREAMING PLATFORM, FOLLOW, & LET ME KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS ON THIS EPISODE WITH A COMMENT <3Podcast Instagram: @figuringshiiitout - DM Me "Invite" with your email to learn more about The Road Less Travelers 4 week Course or 1:1 work! (Cohort 2 Begins 5/19)JOIN THE Community! For Bonus Meditations, Episodes, & Discounted/Free Access to Workshops.Free Grounding & Energy Cleansing Meditation in the FSO Together community <3Link to Growth Diaries (mentioned in the podcast): HerePersonal Instagram: @vanessaafontanaTikTok: butterflyfountainMY NEWSLETTER (scroll to the end of the page to join!)Stan-Store (With Workshop Playbacks + Resources for Purchase being added as we speak!)xIf you liked this episode, you'll like this one: 73 - Intentional Practices for an Aligned Life: How I Remain Organized, Consistent, & ConnectedCHAPTERS: 0:00-6:00: Being a Friend To Ourselves while Living in an age of "Perfect"6:00-14:00: My Moment of Reckoning & Background 14:00-16:00: Happiness is not on the Other End of your Standard of Perfection16:00-23:00: Criticism as a form of Control & Self-Protection23:00-28:00: Perfectionism to Procrastination Pipeline 28:00-32:00: Just as You Are: Building Practices32:00-35:00: Changing from a place of Love > changing FOR love35:00-39:00: Earning your own Trust Back, the Body as an Energetic Extension of Us 39:00-43:00: You're Going to have Bad Days - Leaning into Love in those Moments 43:00-49:00 ANNOUNCEMENT & Special Opportunity!!!!See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

This episode is a love-letter to aliveness, and gives you sacred permission to be soft, silly, and slow.It asks: What if today, you let yourself believe it was all magic? What if joy wasn't something to earn — but something to practice? This is your invitation to reject the homogenization of happiness, to romance the ordinary by becoming alive to our senses, and to let bliss be your rebellion - because it takes discipline to be in it.If you've been caught up in the trap of productivity, control, have forgotten that you are a human on a floating rock and we're ALL just figuring sh!t out, this episode is for you — and it is a sacred portal to come home to wonder. Inside the episode: Why softness and joy are powerful and sacred practices (not weaknesses) that have been practiced for centuries in ritualHow your inner child is your portal to your higher selfThe myth of "coolness" and how it keeps us disconnectedMy personal rituals and list of romanticizing the every day The feminine void, divine energy, and what it means to create from nothingness without an agendaWhy play is a spiritual portal and how to reclaim it as an adult What to do when joy feels scary or guilt-inducingRomanticizing your life is not delusional, it is devotional. Play, Art, & Joy are not frivolous - they are sacred. So sit back , soften your edges, make a cup of tea — and come home.xIF YOU LOVE FSO, PLS RATE THE SHOW ON YOUR PREFERRED STREAMING PLATFORM, FOLLOW, & LET ME KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS ON THIS EPISODE WITH A COMMENT <3+ JOIN THE Community! For Bonus Meditations, Episodes, & Discounted/Free Access to WorkshopsStay Connected!Podcast Instagram: @figuringshiiitout - DM Me "Invite" with your email to learn more about The Road Less Travelers 4 week Course or 1:1 work!Personal Instagram: @vanessaafontanaTikTok: butterflyfountainMY NEWSLETTER (scroll to the end of the page to join!)Stan-Store (With Workshop Playbacks + Resources for Purchase being added as we speak!)xCHAPTERS:0:00-6:00: Being Silly is Sacred - Softness Isn't Weakness6:00-8:30: The Myth of Maturity: Get Over Yourself. Being Cool is a Cage8:30-11:50 Falling in Love with the Process 11:50-14:00: The Power of Joy, Dance, & Community as Sacred Ritual14:00-18:30: Shedding the Guilt of Happiness, Being in Bliss is Being in Divine Service18:30-20:00: Inner Child is the Gateway to the Higher Self 20:00-28:00: The Little Ways I Romanticize My Life 28:00-32:00: Joy is a Great Business Strategy 32:00-36:00: De-Influencing Minimalism & Curating a Life that Feels like Magic Adornment36:00-40:00: The Feminine Void, The Sacred Unknown, The Dance of Energies 40:00-47:00: The First Step to Manifestation & What Real Luxury Is 47:00-48:00: Opportunity!See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy