I Think I Need Therapy

Being single on Valentines day is tough, I know. But it doesn't have to be all about romance. There's an abundance of love all around us and within us, today is a day to remind us of that love and to remind us to take care of ourselves better. So, be kind to yourself today and show yourself some extra love because you deserve it!!! thank you for being here xx

It's been six whole years since I was diagnosed with anorexia. I've healed so much but still face struggles with it from time to time and lately it's been a lot harder than usual. I have no idea what my body looks like since body dysmorphia has crept back into my mind. I've started to feel like I need to change my body to be a better athlete again and even as I notice it and don't want to feel this way, I do. Listen for more insight to these current battles I've been having. If you relate, know that you're not alone and we'll get through this together! thank you for being here xx

Today I wanted to chat with you all about my people-pleasing, perfectionism, and the fear of being a burden that often keeps me from opening up to people. I also treated this as a little catch-up on what has been going on in my life and how I've been doing recently :) Hope you all are well! Thank you for being here xx

I know its past new years lol but if you feel like you've set goals that feel overwhelming or haven't even thought about intentions for this new year then this episode is for you! Setting goals as a perfectionist can lead to constantly feeling like you're not doing enough, your goals aren't big enough, and a lot of self criticism. Listen to hear how we can shift away from this mindset and set softer, more achievable intentions for ourselves.thank you for being here xx

As the year comes to an end, this episode is a space to pause and reflect on everything 2025 held. In this episode, I look back on the moments that shaped me, the lessons I learned, the challenges I didn’t expect, and the growth that happened along the way. A reminder to honor how far you’ve come before rushing into what’s next xxthank you for being here.

Being away from family and the traditions we’re used to can make the holidays feel lonely and emotional. In this episode, I talk about homesickness, missing loved ones, and how to get through the holidays when home isn’t where you are. A reminder that you’re not ungrateful, dramatic, or alone for feeling this way.thank you for being here xx

Being a survivor of SA doesn't just go away the day after the assault, trauma and psychological effects can last years. One aspect of life that is changed is feeling a loss of control and the relationship we have with our bodies. However, this isn't something that has to last forever. That's why I am here to share with you how to start reclaiming your power! Because your abuser does NOT deserve to take your voice away from you for the rest of your life!! thank you for being here xx

Have you ever told yourself that someone else has it worse, so what you’re going through "isn’t that bad"? Have you pushed away your pain just because it could have been worse? If so, this episode is for YOU. We're talking all about the habit of minimizing our own struggles and gaslighting ourselves into believing we don’t deserve to feel how we feel.Comparison gets to us all, but this is your reminder that you’re allowed to struggle, you’re allowed to feel it, and you don’t need to justify your emotions to anyone… including yourself! thank you for being here xx

The holidays are a very triggering time for those who have/are struggling with an eating disorder. From the food and body comments, it's stuff that hits a little too close when you’re in ED recovery especially when it's a season that brings anxiety alone. If the holidays feel overwhelming or triggering for you, you’re not alone. I walk through how I handle these moments, how to set boundaries, and how to protect your peace this season.Take what helps, leave what doesn’t. thank you for being here xx

Do you ever find yourself stuck in toxic cycles, picking out fights, ignoring the red flags, or overanalyzing messages, ending relationships before even giving them a real chance? Then you might just be self-sabotaging these relationships, but this doesn't mean you have to forever. Listen to find out why we get stuck in these patterns and how we can start to break it. thank you for being here xx

Life update; I moved to Spain! It's been a lot to digest but I'm back and talking all about what's been going on and what it is truly like to move countries. thank you for being here xx

Being vulnerable has always terrified me. I’ve always been scared of being judged or seen as too much. But lately, I’ve been learning that connection only happens when you actually let people in.In this episode, I discuss this fear and discomfort that comes with vulnerability. The overthinking, the shame spirals, and the constant urge to pull back as well as how I’ve slowly started to work through it. If you’ve ever felt scared to open up, this one’s for you. We’re breaking down what it really means to be vulnerable, and how it can actually be one of the strongest, most freeing things you can do.thank you for being here xx

Going to be honest, summer is one of the hardest seasons for me every year. I am always in this transition phase, waiting for the next part of my life to start and I am feeling stuck in this phase currently. Feeling ungrounded, stuck in a work cycle, and trying to get through the grief I've been experiencing. This has all reminded me how our emotions can co-exist and how feeling one emotion doesn't take away the value or strength of another present emotion. Listen to hear more about my current struggles and thoughts around this! thank you for being here xx

Life is full of unpredictability and we do not know what the future holds for us. It can be scary but it also can be beautiful and freeing. By mastering detachment we can free ourselves from anxiety and need for control over outcomes and our journey though life. thank you for being here xx

My first ever outside guest!!! Hayley is a former Division 1 track and field athlete, Canadian national long jump champion and creator who is incredibly inspiring. I was so glad to have this convo with her around the journey to becoming a D1 athlete, what it's like switching schools, the mental battle of injury, what life is like after college athletics, and the importance of having an identity outside of your sport. Listen to hear all about her story and advice! thank you for being here xxHer socials:Website: https://www.hayleymanners.com/YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@hayley.mannersIG: https://www.instagram.com/hayley.manners/

This episode is for those who are stuck questioning whether their story is real and valid. SA is an extremely difficult thing to go through and it comes with a great amount of confusion and guilt, but you are not alone. It was NOT your fault, and know that I see you and am sending you so much love. thank you for being here xx

Ever feel like you are stuck in a loop doing the same thing repeatedly day after day and are constantly tired and burnout? Then it's time to pour some energy into yourself! Let's talk about what it's like living a hurried life and how we can still take a moment for ourselves within a busy life. thank you for being here xx

If you have any thoughts of self harm please create a safety plan and reach out to professional sources near you. thank you for being here xx

all my tips & tricks to living a healthy lifestyle.

I am genuinely my own biggest hater and it sucks. I constantly feel like I need to be perfect in all areas of my life and when it comes to instagram and friendships, I spend hours stuck overthinking every little thing. Also my biggest fear it literally bothering people so that doesn't help the overthinking. Listen to hear more of what goes on inside my brain!*disclaimer: this episode was filmed months ago so I discuss things that were occurring then.

I'm back!! Let's get updated on what's going on in my life and the things I've been struggling with. From emotions coming back up being at home, to all of the what ifs I've been ruminating on since leaving college, we chat about it all. sending you all SO much love. thank you for being here xx

There truly is so much to be grateful for in life and it is soooo important that we don't take it for granted. Finding things within each day to appreciate is not just a good thing to practice but is so important for your mental health. Let's chat about some things I have been grateful for recently and what's been going on in my life! thank you for being here xx

I have had the worst relationship anyone could ever have with food and my body. Through ED recovery I learned how to heal these relationships, figuring out my fears and deconstructing my beliefs to finally test myself again. Having food freedom doesn't mean that all you do is eat burgers and pizza all day, it means being free of guilt and shame, respecting & valuing yourself and your body. Listen to find out more in detail on just how to achieve this!

I am graduating in 4 days!!! There is so much life yet to live but it feels like I need to have everything figured out now. So many people around me are getting married and starting their lives and I am very much not there yet....I am moving to Spain tho!! Listen to hear all about my future plans and why I am terrified of having kids one day.thank you for being here! xx

It's almost time for me to retire from my sport and needless to say I am not taking it well. Feeling burnout but with a great amount of pressure on myself has been causing me to underperform in my sport. I hit this mental block that I'm struggling to get passed but I plan to try and incorporate some new habits and perspectives for these last few weeks of being an athlete.thank you for being here xx

61: Intimate partner violence is an extremely prevalent issue we all can try to help minimize. Knowing the signs not only for yourself, but for others in your life can help to prevent the issues from getting worse. Also by changing the way we speak on social media and with each other is a great way everyone can take a part. Even small comments that reflect gender stereotypes can enhance the beliefs people have that cause them to act in aggressive ways and think its okay. thank you for being here! xx

60: If you're struggling with feeling behind, like you are unlovable, surrounded by people who make you feel bad about yourself, or having a hard time with your self-esteem, these are some reminders and bits of advice for you xxthank you for being here!

59: It is burnout season & I have been so exhausted!! With all of the work and exams piling up this month I've started falling into a bad place mentally. Any self-care I had has been thrown out the window, so it's time to get it back and figure out how to keep pushing through this stressful time!thank you for being here xx

58: Even though I've done all the therapy, putting myself back into situations where I previously got hurt is terrifying. So many triggers & flashbacks come up in new relationships that I find myself holding back from trusting people. It's difficult and scary asf, but the reality of life after assault. sending you all so much love! know that you are not alone and there is help out there for you. xx

57: I think that I am fully healed from mental illness and trauma until it all hits me all over again and I go right back into old thought patterns. It's the whole process of healing though; recovery isn't meant to be pretty and easy, you have to face the same situations over and over again until you learn how to handle it better. You have to face the uncomfortableness, go through the messiness and sometimes fall back. But you are ALWAYS moving forward and growing no matter how it seems.

56: I have a phone addiction and it NEEDS to be cured. So, I decided to delete social media for a month and see if I could do it. Turns out it was actually really nice and not as difficult as I expected. This is your sign to delete social media!!!!

55: Struggling with toxic friendships? Feeling stuck in a rut? In this episode I give my best big sister advice on dealing with the ick, overcoming bad body image days, and practicing self-care. Hope you all enjoy! xx

54: Add this short episode into your morning routine to get your day started with the right energy. We meditate, set our intentions, say affirmations, and focus on bringing a positive perspective into the day ahead. Sending you all so much love! Thank you for being here xx00:00 meditation5:30 intention setting 7:10 perspective10:10 morning routine ideas 12:30 affirmations

53: Being proud of yourself is NOT self-absorbed. Celebrate your wins, big or small; you've worked for your accomplishments and you deserve to be celebrated!thank you for being here xx

52: PLEASE STOP listening to all of the toxic dieting advice online! diets do not work and ozempic is not going to make your life better. Ditch diet culture with me and find trust within yourself and your body to live intuitively, free from the moral values placed on food and weight.

51: I've been a D1 athlete for 4 years now and have felt super stuck dealing with the same injury the whole time. This year I am finally finding my spark again and have been going through so many changes with my team. Let's talk about the whole journey!

50: This episode is for the girls going who've experienced the petty side to female friendships. I have had my fair share of friendship breakups and I hate to say it but I have been in the wrong so many times and have been the one doing the breaking up. Please listen and learn from my mistakes! thank you of being here xx

49: life can throw a lot of unexpected things at us. Sometimes these things suck and change us in various ways. I catch myself feeling angry and sad that these things happened and miss the way I was before. But I've become more resilient and realize now that it's completely normal to feel this anger and grief.

48: Happy New Years my loves!!! 2024 was an interesting year, but every year teaches us so much. I personally learned the power of challenging my fears and putting myself out there, and want to inspire all of you to do the same this new year. 2025 we are saying yes to our goals and dreams and facing all of our fears and doubts. You all deserve a year full of love, joy, peace, and success! thank you for being here xx

47: Merry Christmas Eve!! Although the holidays are a bright and merry time, they can also be accompanied by a lot of stress and sadness. So, here are some reminders and comfort for all during this season. thank you for being here xx

46: I have been more emotional recently and not handling things as well as I normally do. There's so much change around the holidays and I sometimes don't deal with it as well as I'd like to but here's a reminder that we all are human and it is OKAY to have fluctuating emotions! thank you for being here xx

45: Part 2 of my last episode where I shared my SA stories. There are so many side effects to SA and overwhelming emotions that come after being assaulted. Many of which are rarely discussed, so I wanted to break that stigma and share what I have been going through since being raped.

44: love and appreciate you all for listening. You're never alone xx

43: the holiday's are a disordered eater's nightmare. I have struggled every single year through these holiday months; with food being the centre of every event and baking being a Christmas tradition it gets super overwhelming. I recently had to face a new ED trigger as well and it was extremely difficult, especially knowing what the season brings. I hope to give you all some comfort and hope for this holiday season through this episode. Know that I am ALWAYS here for you whenever you need! xx thank you for being here!

42: From diet changes to multiple different prescriptions, I've tried everything to cure my acne. Finally, once I tried accutane it cleared up into my dream skin. So, let's talk about my whole journey with acne from elementary school to college. How it wrecked my self-esteem, caused lots of anxiety, and consumed my thoughts for years.

41: I’M 21 BABYYYYY! Today I’m sharing a bunch of different lessons I have learned throughout my life. I honestly could make a whole podcast ep on each of these topics alone because I LIVE by these points. Know that you are the centre of your own world so go out there and make the most out of this precious life you’ve been blessed with! xx chapters 00:00 life updates 02:49 1-BE HERE NOW 06:23 2-its okay to outgrow people, places & habits  07:14 3-you can change your narrative at any point in time  09:08 4-respect & care for your body  10:50 5-you are not your mind nor your body 14:00 6-your mistakes do not define you 15:16 7-the only opinion that mattes is your own 17:03 8-invest in what makes you happy 18:37 9-be your biggest cheerleader  19:46 10-BE SELFISH 22:14 11-you don’t have to have everything figured out  23:47 12-listen more than you speak 24:15 13-COMPARISON IS THE THEIF OF JOY 26:48 14-ask for help 27:55 15-balance is key  29:28 16-you are your biggest critique  30:21 17-little you is always within you 31:22 18-SAY NO 31:58 19-choose your friends wisely 32:58 20-perfection is not real 33:40 21-SAY I LOVE YOU

40: the winter season can be dark and lonely but it can also be a great time to focus on self-care. I love the holiday season so much but I also want to cuddle up with someone when it's cold and dark out. Over the years I've found comfort in using this time to find ways to love my alone time and get to know myself better and I strongly encourage all of who whether your single or not to do the same! thank you for being here xx

39: I had my life all planned out when I came into college, but as I learned new things about myself and the world, all of those ideas changed. Now I have no idea what I really want to do and I'm at a position where I need to decide. So, let's talk about it. thank you for being here xx

38: I just graduated therapy for my PTSD last week and I learned SO much going through the intense treatment. So, I thought I'd share with you some insights on what my therapy sessions are like and some of the ways I've learned to honour my emotions and triggers throughout the years.

37: These quotes really hit home for me this week so I wanted to share them with you all. Here's a few reminders of just how lovable and strong you are. Listen to this ep whenever you need. xx thank you for being here.