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I Can't Even...A Podcast About Borderlines By Borderlines
by Sasha Fearce
Welcome to I Can’t Even... – The Podcast That Gets BPD Ever felt like your emotions are running a 24/7 chaotic rollercoaster, your relationships feel like a soap opera on steroids, or like you’re somehow too much and not enough at the same time? Yeah, same. That’s why I Can’t Even… exists—a bold, unfiltered, and sometimes laugh-so-we-don’t-cry podcast about Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). We talk about the real struggles, the messy middle, and the hope on the other side with raw honesty, humor, and zero judgment. ✨ What You’ll Get: 🔹 Firsthand experiences from BPD warriors who truly get it 🔹 Guests who actually understand BPD (not just read about it in a textbook) 🔹 Support tools that don’t sound like “just try yoga” 🔹 A space where you're not alone, not broken, and definitely not “too much” 👊 How You Can Get Involved: 🔥 Be our guest! Share your BPD story—because real voices change the narrative. 🔥 Tell us what you w
Episodes
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Unmasking the ‘High-Functioning’ BPD Struggle (Part 2 with Sarah)
In this raw and powerful episode, we continue our conversation with Sarah—a fierce BPD warrior who describes emotional hijacking and high-functioning invisibility to the frustration of being mislabeled and misunderstood, this conversation is as honest as it is empowering. Our guest shares…
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Finding Purpose is a Critical Part of BPD Recovery - Featuring BPD Warrior Sarah
Episode Sixteen Today's episode features Sarah - BPD Coach & Warrior. In this raw and powerful episode, we meet Sarah—a fierce BPD warrior whose childhood in a quiet Canadian ghost town was anything but calm. From getting kicked out of first grade for saving ladybugs to building a career…
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BPD Warrior King Skies – Music, Pain & Resilience
In this episode, we sit down with a bold, brave voice in the BPD community who also goes by the name King Skies. His story is one of pain, poetry, and perseverance. From childhood group homes to emotional misdiagnoses, he takes us on a journey through the chaos and confusion of life with…
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I’m Still Here: Gabby’s Story of Survival, Stigma, and the Fight to Be Understood
In today’s episode, I sit down with Gabby — a 35-year-old mother of four, who has walked through trauma most people can’t even imagine. From losing her husband in a shocking arrest, to battling substance use, to navigating the emotional wreckage of CPS and custody loss — Gabby’s story is not just...
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Give Yourself Permission to Be Human -Part 2 with Alice Hyoung...Soon to be Dr. Hyoung :-)
“I’m Not a Monster – I’m a Human with BPD” What if the thing you’ve been taught to hide could become your source of healing? In this raw and unfiltered episode, we sit down with a BPD warrior, Alice Hyoung, who gets real about the shame, chaos, and stigma that come with living with borderline...
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The Cost of the Superhero Cape with Coach Cassie J
If you’ve ever felt trapped by the invisible expectation to “save everyone” — even when you’re falling apart inside — this episode was made for you. Today, we welcome the amazing Coach Cassie C. James Weathersby, founder of Black Women Do Heal, for a soul-stirring, truth-telling conversation…
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Saying "Thank You" to the Anger with BPD Warrior Alice
Alice Hyoung, who shares her deeply personal journey through trauma, loneliness, medication, and identity healing. From childhood dissociation to sacred rage, Alice unpacks what it means to live with borderline personality disorder and still find joy, purpose, and peace. This episode dives into...
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Radical Acceptance: Lauren’s Rosier's Journey with BPD and the Power of One True Friend
Episode Twenty-Two: In today’s episode, we’re joined by Lauren Rosier, a passionate advocate and writer who opens up about her journey living with borderline personality disorder — from early signs in childhood to the life-saving role of DBT, music, and meaningful friendships. This conversation…
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I Chose to Stay: A BPD Warrior’s Story
Tune in to part 3 of a most riveting and raw interview with a woman of color and BPD Warrior. From crisis action plans to disability battles, and the quiet heroism of choosing to stay alive one day at a time—this episode goes beyond surface-level mental health talk. You’ll hear about the healing...
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Living Loud with BPD: Black, Intuitive, and Unapologetic
What does it really feel like to live with Borderline Personality Disorder—especially as a Black woman in a world that doesn’t always see you, hear you, or believe you? In this second part of this raw and unfiltered episode, we go deep into the inner world of a BPD warrior. From hyper-intuition…
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Too Sensitive or Superpowered?” A Raw Conversation with a Person of Color Living with BPD
Episode Seven In this deeply honest and unexpectedly hilarious episode, a courageous (and anonymous) Black woman shares her lived experience with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). From feeling “too much” as a teen to navigating abandonment in therapy, she holds nothing back—and proves that...
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Jade Stanton - Helping Women with BPD Stay Committed to a Life Worth Living
Today's episode features Jade Stanton - BPD Coach & Warrior. In this uplifting and educational episode, BPD Coach Jade Stanton joins the conversation to share her powerful story of early diagnosis, navigating recovery, and turning her pain into purpose. Diagnosed with Borderline Personality...
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Healing Through Understanding: A Therapist's Journey with Borderline Personality Disorder
In a compelling episode of Nicole's podcast, licensed clinical social worker Sarah Abbott opens up about her unique perspective as both a mental health professional and someone living with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). Their conversation reveals valuable insights about therapy…
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Part Three with Valerie Porr: Her Call to Action - Join the Movement if We Want BPD Stigma to Change
Today’s episode brings us the final part of what has been a most exciting and informative interview with Valerie Porr, Author and Founder of the Treatment and Research Advancements National Association for Personality Disorder (TARA4BPD), a non-for-profit organization founded in 1995. She shares…
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Removing the BPD Shame Badge: A Call to Action with Valerie Porr
Today’s episode brings us the second part of an exciting interview with Valerie Porr, Author and Founder of the Treatment and Research Advancements National Association for Personality Disorder (TARA4BPD), a non-for-profit organization founded in 1995. She highlights the need to increase funding...
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Understanding the Science of BPD: Triggers, Reactions, & Myths Debunked - Featuring Valerie Porr
Today’s episode brings us the first of three parts of an exciting interview with Valerie Porr, Author and Founder of the Treatment and Research Advancements National Association for Personality Disorder (TARA4BPD), a non-for-profit organization founded in 1995. We unpack why BPD, after 30+ years…
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The Truth Doctor - Dr. Courtney Tracy & Fellow BPD Warrior is in the House
Today’s episode brings us an exciting interview with Dr. Courtney Tracy (known as 'the truth doctor'), a licensed clinical social worker and doctor of clinical psychology with over 2 million followers worldwide. Dr. Tracy shares her personal journey with substance abuse and Borderline Personality...
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Don't Lose Your Mind During the Holidays - Playlist
In this special episode, we’re celebrating the season by bringing you a seamless playlist featuring all the incredible songs from past episodes of Press Pause! Whether relaxing at home, taking a winter stroll, or just needing a moment to unwind, this music compilation is designed to provide...
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Tool Time: Co-Morbidities Definition, Audio & Video Journaling, & Manifesting Meditation
In today’s episode, Nicole Darby sheds light on co-morbidities and their impact on mental health. She explains the significance of the term and explores how understanding co-morbidities can lead to better self-awareness and informed care decisions. Next she discusses using audio and video...
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Tool Time: Radical Acceptance Definition, How to Find the Right Therapist,& Emotional Regulation Meditation
In today’s episode, Nicole Darby introduces Tool Time, focusing on radical acceptance and its role in understanding self-perception. She provides actionable advice for finding the right therapist and shares a helpful checklist of 10 essential questions to guide your search for the best…
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Addressing Emotional Instability: Featuring Dr. Gregory Serfer & Melanie Jones
In today’s episode, Nicole Darby, Melanie Jones, and Dr. Gregory Serfer delve into affective instability, a core symptom of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). Dr. Serfer defines affective instability, explores its traits, and distinguishes it from moodiness and bipolar disorder. Nicole and…
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Tool Time: Defining Schema Therapy, Finding a BPD Buddy, Gratitude Meditation
In today’s episode, Nicole Darby presents Tool Time, exploring schema therapy and unpacking BPD’s four dysfunctional modes; The Abandoned Child, Angry Child, Punitive Parent, and Detached Protector, while emphasizing the goal of a balanced Adult Mode. Then, Nicole also discusses the impact of...
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How Do Impulsive (Self-Damaging) Behaviors Impact A Person with BPD?
In today’s episode, Nicole, along with Dr. Gregory Serfer and Melanie Jones, dives into the true meaning of impulsivity in Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and its impact on those affected and their supporters. They explore what impulsivity means for people with BPD (pwBPD), how to...
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Tool Time: Radically/Open-DBT Definition, Plan Before You Go, Mindful Moment Meditation
In today’s episode, Nicole Darby presents a special “Tool Time” segment, diving into practical mental health tools and strategies for managing BPD and life’s daily stressors. Starting with an introduction to Radically Open Dialectical Behavior Therapy (RO-DBT), Nicole explains the key differences...
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The Challenges of Filing for Disability When You Have BPD - Featuring BPD Warrior Kim Beavers
In today’s episode, Nicole sits down with Kim Beavers to discuss all things disability; exploring the challenges, the commitment, and the low success rate that often comes with filing disability claims. Kim shares her journey, starting with what led her down the path of disability and what it…
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BPD DSM CRITERIA: Unstable Self Image
In this episode, Nicole is joined by Dr. Gregory Serfer and Melanie Jones to discuss the stigmatization of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and its impact on personal identity. They delve into how certain words contribute to the stigmatization of BPD. The conversation expands to explore...
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Trauma Healing By Retelling Your Story with Transformation Coach Jenn Reddy
In this episode, Nicole interviews Jenn Reddy, a life coach and story transformer, about how to navigate deep trauma and reshape personal narratives. Jenn offers practical tools like self-check-ins, challenging negative thoughts, and using resources to stay grounded. She shares key questions to…
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Author Emi Nietfeld Investigates America's Fixation on "Resilience" & Promotes Mental Health Advocacy
In today’s episode, Nicole has an insightful conversation with author Emi Nietfeld about her journey, mental health advocacy, and her book Acceptance. She shares her experience living with mental health challenges, including having features of BPD, discussing how labels impacted her work and...
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BPD CRITERIA: IDEALIZATION & DEVALUATION
In today’s episode, we explore and break down idealization and devaluation. Our co-hosts, Melanie Jones and Dr. Gregory Serfer, offer their perspectives on both sides of the coin, followed by insights into how these patterns affect relationships. Dr. Serfer examines their connection, causes, and...
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Forgiveness
In this episode, Nicole and Aseelah explore the complex topic of forgiveness, reflecting on personal experiences and discussing why it's so challenging. They also touch on how spirituality and beliefs influence the ability to forgive. Nicole shares her perspective on navigating forgiveness in her...
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The Important Role Inner Equity Plays in Our Lives - Featuring Miik Wells
Episode Nineteen: [Miik Wells – Inner Equity] In this episode, Miik shares his connection with his work with the audience through Nicole's testimonial, offering a glimpse into his approach to mental wellness. He provides strategies for key areas where individuals with BPD often struggle. The...
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What Does Fear of Abandonment Mean to A pwBPD?
In this episode, Nicole, Dr. Gregory Serfer, and Melanie Jones explore the fear of abandonment in Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). They discuss how this fear affects relationships and daily life, sharing personal experiences, insights, and strategies for managing this challenging aspect of...
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The Connection Between Fitness & Mental Health: Featuring Marcia Jones - Licensed Counselor & Group Fitness Coach
Episode Seventeen: [Movement with Marcia] Disclaimer: The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide...
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Busting Common Myths About BPD & Eating Disorders with Tatum Carter
Episode Sixteen: Eating Disorders with Tatum Carter In this episode, Nicole is joined by Tatum Carter, a Community Outreach Liaison at the Eating Recovery Center, to explore the intricate connection between Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and eating disorders, with a focus on marginalized...
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In-between BPD Diagnosis - A Firsthand Experience from Eve
Episode Fifteen: [Eve’s In-Between Diagnosis] In today’s episode, Nicole sits down with a mental health warrior, Eve to have a conversation about her journey with mental health from adolescence to now. They cover the impacts of mental health, and misdiagnosis, and reflect on their communities and...
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Yes, They Have BPD in South Africa Too!
Episode Fourteen: Mel Jones & Dr. Serfer In this episode, Dr. Gregory Serfer, author of "I Am Still Right Here," and Melanie Jones explore the complexities of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) through real-life experiences. Dr. Serfer narrates Mel's crisis story - which provides insightful...
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How a BPD Parent Managed NOT to F--k Up Her Child
In today’s episode, we introduce our crisis story, Kimbriana’s Story read by herself. Nicole sits down with a mental health warrior, Kim, and her son Ian to reflect on her experience as a person with BPD and how it affects her motherhood and relationship with her son, Ian. They share an…
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Tool Time: Byron Katie's Transformative Inquiry Questions & Productivity Guided Meditation
In today's podcast, we dive deep into powerful tools for mental wellness. Join us as we explore the transformative inquiry questions by Byron Katie, understand the concept of Mentalization-Based Therapy (MBT), and engage in a guided meditation for better time management, productivity, and focus....
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An Inside Look at BPD Treatments with Clinical Psychologist & Linehan Board Certified DBT Therapist Dr. Stephanie Vaughn
In today’s enlightening episode, Dr. Stephanie Vaughn discusses various important topics related to Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). She provides expert insights into BPD criteria and treatments, client advocacy in therapy, Radically Open Dialectical Behavior Therapy (RO-DBT), and therapy's...
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Own Your Mental Health Recovery Through Person-Centered Thinking with David Toback
In today’s enlightening episode, we are joined by David Toback, a mentor and trainer in Person-Centered Therapy (PCT). David shares his extensive knowledge and personal journey towards embracing PCT, offering valuable insights into how this therapeutic approach can benefit individuals with...
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Tool Time on Reflection & Self-love Meditation
In today's episode, we continue our "Tool Time with Kim Beavers" segment, focusing on reflection and overcoming the stereotypes surrounding Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). Kim provides insightful tools for self-management, emphasizes clarity over vanity, and encourages listeners to take...
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Emotional Validation - A Live Coaching Session
In today's gripping episode, join Nicole and Bella on a coaching session, delving deep into the complexities of emotional turmoil, the quest for validation, grappling with shame, and navigating lingering feelings that affect both self and relationships. They explore the profound interplay between...
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A Conversation with Music Producer & BPD Warrior NXTLVL4L
In today's podcast, we start with a powerful moment as Isaiah Allen/NXTLVL4L shares a crisis song, delving into his inner emotions, faith, and journey from past struggles to future evolution, striving for the next level of growth. Following this, we delve into an enlightening interview with Zay,...
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Tool Time: The Art of Active Listening & Embracing Change Meditation
In today's podcast, we carry on with our new segment, "Tool Time with Kim Beavers," delving into the challenges of conversation pressure, whether face-to-face or over the phone. Kim offers valuable tools and tips for those striving for recovery. Additionally, we introduce our "Term Of The Day,"…
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The Antisocial Borderline: A Raw Conversation with Josef
In today’s episode, we introduce a crisis story: Josef's personal experience, narrated by himself. Nicole and Bella talked to another mental health warrior, Josef, and they had a healthy and open conversation about his diagnosis, support as a POC and member of the LGBTQIA+ community, and how…
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Unpacking Childhood Trauma: A Coaching Session
In today’s deeply insightful and thought-provoking episode, engage in a deeply reflective coaching session where they explore the intricate layers of childhood trauma, the intricate interplay of cultural influences, the complexities of conditional love, and the profound ways in which these…
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Term of The Day, Tool Time & Mindful Moment: Featuring Bella Zimmerman & Kim Beavers
Disclaimer: The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline. In today's…
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A Heartwarming Account of What It's Like to Love Someone with BPD from Author Dr. Gregory Serfer
In today’s episode, we begin with a compelling excerpt from Dr. Gregory Serfer’s book, "I Am Still Right Here". Nicole and Bella sit down with Dr. Serfer to have a healthy conversation about his book and his experience of being in a relationship with a person with BPD (pwBPD). They reflect on…
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The "Why" Behind the Podcast Title
In this episode, we discuss the inception of our podcast title, "I Can’t Even Kill Myself Right," and feature an interview with our host, Nicole (AKA Sasha Fearce), conducted by her friend of 35 years Aseelah El-Amin. Nicole shares her journey as a BPD warrior, shedding light on the stigmas...
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ABOUT THIS SHOW
Welcome to I Can’t Even... – The Podcast That Gets BPD
Ever felt like your emotions are running a 24/7 chaotic rollercoaster, your relationships feel like a soap opera on steroids, or like you’re somehow too much and not enough at the same time? Yeah, same.
That’s why I Can’t Even… exists—a bold, unfiltered, and sometimes laugh-so-we-don’t-cry podcast about Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). We talk about the real struggles, the messy middle, and the hope on the other side with raw honesty, humor, and zero judgment.
✨ What You’ll Get:
🔹 Firsthand experiences from BPD warriors who truly get it
🔹 Guests who actually understand BPD (not just read about it in a textbook)
🔹 Support tools that don’t sound like “just try yoga”
🔹 A space where you're not alone, not broken, and definitely not “too much”
👊 How You Can Get Involved:
🔥 Be our guest! Share your BPD story—because real voices change the narrative.
🔥 Tell us what you w
HOSTED BY
Sasha Fearce
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